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Reckless Mind

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Chapter One

    I found a piece of me in the desert
    Next to a snake skin
    Typically old
    Like the land where it lays
    Am I old, am I old to you

    Obviously
    I am near naked w/ my sin
    I'm fighting for a reason
    I lost what I was wearing
    But I found the truth
    It sticks on the side of my mind like a magnet

    Carrying the devils soul w/ wheels
    You showed me who I was
    I like the part of you that sneaks inside my mind
    When it burns my thoughts to ashes
    And I still breathe at times

    So I
    So I breathe fire to singe my mind
    Creeping outside the eyes
    I sigh w/ a smile


    UR

    For my poison
    The treatment that I need
    The woman that I see
    The eyes that I can't believe will bleed

    You are the heart inside
    You're inside my heart and mind
    You are a part of me
    You're a friend that I love

    If I held you one more time
    My tears would roll down your cheek
    I would kiss you as if you were mine
    And tell you I love you

    I will love you because I'm blind
    You're the sweetness that stays behind
    You're the beautiful eyes
    And that's not telling a lie
    Because you're on my mind


    Infinite

    Here I walk
    The edge of a building eight stories high
    I'm looking down
    Wondering how it would feel to hit the ground

    Would wings grow from my shoulders
    Would horns pierce my skull
    How would it feel to go no where
    I want to meet God
    The devil and I didn't get along


    Sweet Lady

    I remember that night on the beach was like a dream
    I held her hand and it felt so sweet
    Her eyes so bright looking in mine
    I felt I could do anything w/ her by my side

    An amazing touch and a heart filled w/ gold
    I want to be w/ her again
    Maybe when we're old

    When I felt paltry
    She took it to the ground
    Walked all over it and took away my frown

    The girl on the shore
    The sand sprinkled between her feet

    Her smile looked so sweet
    I wouldn't change that memory for an extra heart beat
    I think of her daily
    That lady I call sweet


    Eyes on Fire

    I met her on the 4th of July
    I could tell I liked her from the first time she smiled
    It kept getting stronger w/ the fireworks in her
      eyes

    The interests we shared
    The knowledge she cared
    A flirt for improvements and the beauty of her
      hair

    I want to meet her for the first time again
    She has an interest that's stunning me
    She's the shocking muse that's getting to me

    So I've thought of these words that are prudent to
      say
    But my knowledge of her is enough to stay
    I wish she could tell I liked her w/ the fireworks in
      her eyes
    Because I always want to see her smile
    It gives me memories of the 4th and her eyes on fire

    The sweetest touch and a memory unsaid
    This beautiful woman is always in my head

    Where are you
    Where have you been
    The girl I've waited for thru a world at war
    I thought I saw you walking w/ another man
    I started watching as you held his hand
    The bombs started again, exploding in my head
    The bullets pass my shoulder and hit my friend
    I thought I was at war w/ the devil again

    Where are you
    I've waited thru a life at war
    I've done it this time
    And I'll do it again
    So I'll keep searching for my best friend

    Last night I went to sleep
    I left my mind on green light
    Waking every hour just to try again

    Do you care if I still try
    If I had a voice
    I'd sing you a song
    I'd touch your soul so you'd long for more

    The sweetest thing is in your eyes
    I like the sparkle that lightens mine
    I want to sing you this song

    Would it disappoint you
    If I made you smile
    If I caught your tears and held you awhile

    I know the things that have made you sad
    Some of those feelings I wish we've had
    Do you want to come along
    Help me with the ending so I can finish this song

    The music goes on


    Fresh

    Another day w/ a beautiful sign
    When the green eyes cry
    The blue ones lie
    The hazel ones come alive

    There in my face
    I'm feeling gracious
    That's a different taste

    It's the clouds around me that proceed to say
    There's an image of everything
    Can you see it from my face
    Can you see it's a beautiful day
    I'm coming inside your brain
    Would you like a taste

    When I look into those eyes
    I dream of the night
    When I held you by my side

    Would you tell me to speak
    If I held you behind the knees
    Could you ask me my name
    Or otherwise say please

    Look the other way
    I'm about to curse and it's headed your way
    I'd rather you didn't turn
    Because I'm catching a plane
    Look the other way
    All memories the same


    I Said I Can

    There's a cocoon that turns to a butterfly
    I don't know the meaning
    Except it wants to fly

    I go to the ocean where the waves are wide
    Do I want to see them crash
    Or stay mellow while I'm high
    I've popped so many pills
    I don't know how I'm alive

    Sometimes I wish
    Sometimes I wonder
    Sometimes I go back to the skies on fire

    I remember that night with a foot in my head
    When I felt my God
    And he touched my hand
    He said it's alright
    And I said I can
    With one more life being held at the edge
    I said to him
    I'd try to do better again
    I still remember that night like it was yesterday
    It's been nearly fifteen years
    No matter how much liquor I put in my brain
    I can't seem to forget that one fucking day

    Relapsed, Forecasts, I got to get away
    Sometimes I dream I'm living in peace
    Sometimes I think this world's too much for me
    At ease with a sacred smile we carry on the mile
    When I felt weak, he walked w/ me
    When I fell to my knees, he carried me
    Over the hills, across the sand
    When we came to the end
    He let me down and I could stand
    I said I can

    Look here loaded Mary
    I'm always on the run
    You've got to plan this out better if you want to
      have some fun

    Come on baby take your time w/ me
    I don't know how it comes w/ one two three
    Will you try something different w/ the ashes in the
      middle
    Can you dance w/ the devil or play a fiddle
    Will you pick up all the loose ends and thread thru
      this needle
    I'm going to play this violin
    How many heart beats till it begins
    This show must go on

    We've got a fire outside that's blowing in the wind
    Let's catch up w/ the smoke and start to pretend
    I'll be you, and you me
    Wouldn't that be a catastrophe


    The Devils Eyes

    Forgive me for these things that I have done
    You have to understand that I have gone wrong
    Please believe me when I say that I have changed
    Don't you know there's another way to play this
      game

    Lift those eyes that are upon me
    You're burning holes in my brain, in front of my
      eyes that are sane
    Get back
    Keep that stack of papers out of my face
    You're not going to need them
    Put them back in your cape
    You're a toy soldier that can't show his face
    Just a little man playing Lucifer's role

    Get back
    You're a grown man that was treated like shit as a
      kid
    Trying to get back because I'm white and not your
      friend
    You're just the devils eyes for now
    Be cool while I turn this frown one eighty around


    Fear of the Irish Cry (March 17, 2000)

    They took me into this terrifying place
    The head man said;
    Who is your best mans race

    Could it be your family
    Is it your friends
    Do you want the drugs
    Or would you like friendly hugs

    He hit me in the head and knocked me down
    Then kicked me on the ground
    Snake eyes appeared
    Looking for tears
    The head man accused me
    Left me to see

    He took my passion
    He didn't even listen to what I said

    As my friends family came
    They turned and blamed
    With rejection to me
    They set my mind free

    I felt so locked inside
    Like there was so much to hide
    Familiar faces stated the cases
    So I took their toll and played their roll
    Friendly voices from the outside
    Shook my knowledge in the inside
    It made my gears rattle w/ feelings of fear
    The ongoing stress left me depressed

    As I looked at the phone
    There I was alone with particles of a cap in hand
      turned to dust


    Model Monroe

    Maybe a little faith would do me some good
    I try so hard to do it all myself
    No progress comes from a laughing man in bed
    Maybe I should take the target off my head

    I saw the eyes of an angel
    She came to me in my sleep
    I met her at my friends salon
    God she looks so sweet

    One more time being mesmerized
    My heart beat felt alive again
    Like the stop watch being hung from my head
    Around the clock I watch and stare
    Can't keep my eyes off this beautiful woman in
      long brown hair

    Should have known our paths would cross
    When you looked at me w/ those butterfly eyes
    I'm trying to remember those nights
    All the smiles you could make
    The hotel rooms and night clubs at stake

    Prurient touches to exchange between
    The talk of life and what we could be
    I still find it funny
    You made it out to be a playboy bunny

    I'll see you again
    Maybe years from now
    Maybe in the clouds
    We'll meet again
    So our eyes can touch and laugh about love


    Hard Way

    Dung & Dragons
    Here we go again
    Pest asides, humanoid
    Where does she begin

    Behind the mask she's dark and bold
    Lacking morals from what she's told
    Can't find the woman that's made of stone
    Inside the skull there's a pot of gold
    But where did it go
    At the end of the rainbow it can't be shown
    The little leprechaun must have stolen it for show

    Reckless, ridden, hard to tell
    Can't beat the narcissistic virgin that's going to hell
    Hands tied I can't do a thing
    She's going to learn the hard way

    Back in the saddle
    She's on the run
    No matter what the case
    She's going to have some fun
    Riding for days, she learns the hard way
    To die any day
    Leave a good memory now
    No matter what it takes

    One drink too many
    One pill too late
    She lies frozen with stoned eyes and weary gaze


    Jungle Love

    I'm thinking of you baby
    In the back of my mind
    Twenty-four seven till you come alive

    In the jungle baby
    Swinging around
    Thinking of you while I'm off the ground
    The softest touch is in your eyes
    The thing I can't let go is the smile that follows
      behind

    Oh would you come alive
    Beautiful eyes
    The woman way over there
    I love this girl that's down the stairs
    But I'm over here
    Loving this woman that makes me stare

    She gives me love when I'm in need
    She keeps me behind my eyes so I can see
    Just what kind of man I can be
    I hear your voice that echoes around
    I've got to block it out with a small shout
    I'm sorry I can't hear it out
    I'm in the jungle baby

    The purest touch was the kiss from a spirit
    When she brushed my check and it stained her
      lips
    Ran w/ a rogue who wouldn't stop following me
    She swept me off my feet
    And put me in a dark hell which I could not
      escape

    I want to believe in miracles
    That just seems way too cheap
    Let these angels carry me over the sea
    Way up high thru the clouds so I can believe
    God speed


    Love Passed Hated

    Love is the way you've passed hated
    That is why you've grown to hate it
    If you keep on loving
    The last remains the past and you are still for the
      taking

    If eyes could see thru the mirror and mind
    There wouldn't be an interest for somebody else to
      find
    Dating, escaping
    Someone to love

    In the beginning my heart is racing
    My nerves are thumping
    My head is hoping there's nothing left to say
    I'm putting past memories away

    There's no use living in a world unknown
    If you keep on thinking of the girls you've
      outgrown
    Leaving the past for the love you've hated
    Keep carrying on from a past well known

(Continues...)

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