Once a Liar: A Novel
By A. F. Brady
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Did he kill Charlie Doyle? And if he didn’t…who did?
Peter Caine, a cutthroat Manhattan defense attorney, worked ruthlessly to become the best at his job. On the surface, he is charming and handsome, but inside he is cold and heartless. He fights without remorse to acquit murderers, pedophiles and rapists.
When Charlie Doyle, the daughter of the Manhattan DA—and Peter’s former lover—is murdered, Peter’s world is quickly sent into a tailspin. He becomes the prime suspect as the DA, a professional enemy of Peter’s, embarks on a witch hunt to avenge his daughter’s death, stopping at nothing to ensure Peter is found guilty of the murder.
In the challenge of his career and his life, Peter races against the clock to prove his innocence. As the evidence mounts against him, he’s forced to begin unraveling his own dark web of lies and confront the sins of his past. But the truth of who killed Charlie Doyle is more twisted and sinister than anyone could have imagined…
A. F. Brady
A.F. Brady is a New York State Licensed Mental Health Counselor/Psychotherapist. She holds a Bachelor’s degree in Psychology from Brown University and two Masters degrees in Psychological Counseling from Columbia University. She is a life-long New Yorker, and resides in Manhattan with her husband and their family. The Blind is her first novel.
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- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/54.5 stars.
Narrated in first person by sociopath lawyer Peter Caine, Once a Liar by A. F. Brady is an absolutely compelling mystery.
Peter is a cold, calculating man whose every decision is based on how his choices benefit him. A completely remade, successful defense attorney, his marriage to Juliette ended not long after the birth of their only son, Jamie. Seeing little advantage to paying any attention to Jamie, Peter is content to ignore both son and ex-wife until tragedy strikes. After Jamie comes to live with him, Peter is still aloof and indifferent to the teenager and he leaves his live-in girlfriend Claire to parent the young man.
Peter has recently ended his long time, on again/off again relationship with Charlotte "Charlie" Doyle. However, after she is brutally murdered, suspicion falls on Peter. Fearing his simmering feud with District Attorney Harrison Doyle will result in his arrest, Peter and his partner/attorney Sinan Khan try to unearth evidence that will point to Charlie's killer. Will Peter uncover the perpetrator's identity before he arrested for Charlie's murder?
Peter is an incredibly manipulative man who will do anything to succeed. Except for one memorable (and regrettable) time, he is also quite secretive and cagey about his past. At first completely enamored with Juliette, it does not take make for his love to turn to disdain. Although Peter makes no effort to hide his affair with Charlie during his marriage to Juliette, he is much more circumspect with Claire. He has been completely upfront and honest with Claire about what he does and does not want from their relationship. Fully aware that she has put aside her dream of having kids for him, he puts her yearning for motherhood to good use once Jamie comes to live with them. Having finally seen an advantage to being a parent, Peter's attempts to get to know his son are rather awkward and stilted.
The investigation into Charlie's murder immediately focuses on Peter. With a former client publicly pointing the finger at him, Peter is desperate to change the narrative in hopes of avoiding arrest. Despite his strenuous claims of innocence, it is impossible for Sinan to completely believe Peter. With the noose slowly tightening, Peter makes one last desperate attempt to clear his name. Will his plan succeed?
Once a Liar is a fiendishly clever and highly entertaining mystery. Peter is easy to hate as he carelessly breaks the hearts of the people who love him. With a series of stunning twists and diabolical turns, A. F. Brady keeps readers in suspense about who murdered Charlie and why until the novel's shocking conclusion. A devilishly fascinating read that I absolutely loved and highly recommend to readers of the genre. - Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5I did like this book. Although, I found myself not fully invested in the characters, which did take away some from my enjoyment of this book. The other factor was that I found the suspense levels to be a medium. There was some slow burn to the story. At times I did find myself re-reading parts. Despite these factors, I did like this book and would read another book from this author. When it came to the main character, Peter, I had kind of a love/hate relationship with him. Hate because he was void of emotions and thus this is why he was good at his job. Of course, it was easy to see how Peter came to be as I got to know his mentor. The reason I did have a love reason with him is because as much as I did not like him, I was not fully convinced he rightfully deserved the situation he found himself in. However as the saying goes "Once a Liar, Always a Liar."
- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5The first-person narrator of A.F. Brady’s Once a Liar is exactly what many people assume all Defense Attorneys must be to succeed- callous, soulless and greedy. The book opens as Peter attempts to feign human emotions at the funeral of his ex-wife. He is dismissive of his caring girlfriend and clearly dreads the fact that his estranged 16-year-old son will be coming to live with them. It turns out that Peter was not always this way, evidenced in flashbacks to the time when he met the deceased woman and began his career. Ashamed of his lackluster childhood, Peter has reinvented himself by creating a fabricated life story that allows him to assimilate into the upper echelons of NY society. His ex-wife just happened to be the daughter of his hero and mentor, a famous and ruthless defense lawyer. Over time, Peter loses more and more of himself as he begins to adopt the attitudes and habits of his father-in-law. In the present timeline, the consequences of his secret past and increasingly anti-social and amoral behavior are coming to fruition, and Peter is accused of the murder of a long-time rival DA’s daughter. The evidence piles up against him and even his closest associates don’t believe in his innocence. Even the reader may be suspicious of this character that repeatedly revels in his lack of a moral center. The mystery of the murder concludes satisfyingly, but some of the plot elements are problematic. Much of Peter’s character is based on the idea of sociopathy as predisposed, triggered by a trauma, and potentially reversible by another significant event. If left unaddressed, it can develop into psychopathy. This is not how modern psychological theory describes these traits (diagnosis is Antisocial Personality Disorder). The women in the story are portrayed as unbelievably long-suffering and patient with this man who seems to have no redeeming qualities and is emotionally abusive. The clues for the mystery are a bit transparent and many will be able to spot them easily before the end, thereby ruining a pivotal twist. In summary, Once a Liar is a passably decent thriller with some interesting plot elements that are sometimes overshadowed by characters that are too one-dimensional to connect with the reader.
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Once a Liar - A. F. Brady
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Claire and I are sitting in the back of a black car, each looking out our separate windows. I see in the window’s reflection that Claire has her hands clasped nervously in her lap, the strap of her handbag wrapped around her wrist. I methodically clench and unclench my fists. Claire reaches over my lap to lay her hand on my thigh, and I feel her looking at me with her sympathetic eyes, hoping I will offer her comfort. I readjust my sunglasses and fluff my pocket square.
As the driver turns onto Madison Avenue, a line of similar black cars appears with curbside doors swung open, and Manhattan’s elite filing out onto the sidewalk. The burgundy awning offers little solace beneath the heavy afternoon sun, and sweaty husbands usher their second and third wives inside the building. I hear Claire whisper, You ready for this?
as I open the door and hold a steady hand for her to take when she steps out of the car. I can’t respond.
We are walking quickly down the carpeted aisle of the funeral home, nearly hip checking acquaintances out of the way. I don’t want to talk to anyone. I haven’t said a word since we left the house; there’s nothing I know how to say. Claire is much more gracious than I am, and she’s looking back over her shoulder to coo hellos and whisper apologies.
As we get to the first pew, I pull Claire by the wrist to enter the row before me, brusquely guiding her by the lower back as she shimmies down to the middle of the bench. She skids to a seat and I remain standing to her right. I don’t need Claire right now, and I would rather she stay discreetly seated. I tighten my tie and survey my surroundings. I know everyone here, and everyone knows me. I can’t remember most of their names, but they know who I am and they know what I’ve done.
I’m not looking at the coffin because I don’t want to look at it and imagine its contents. Claire seems fixated on it. I glance quickly to see that it’s tiny. It’s tiny and white and lacquered. Juliette must have been five-nine or five-ten when she was alive; it doesn’t look like she could possibly fit in there. On top of the coffin, white roses and orchids flow abundantly in a huge cascade. Just like Juliette to make everything perfect. Even her death is beautiful.
I scan the room, forced to lock eyes with people and nod politely, looking for someone in particular. Harrison Doyle, the New York County district attorney, walks through the door and gives me an inappropriately large wave. Harrison has been trying to get me to join him on his side of the law, but I’ll never be anything other than a criminal defense attorney. He’s afraid of me, and he should be. But right now, Harrison is not who I am looking for.
Even I can feel it when something in the air suddenly changes, and the mourners terminate their hushed conversations and slip into their seats. I watch as everyone around me sits, and finally I lay eyes on the person I’ve been waiting for. Jamie is walking through the doors with his chin to his chest, supported by Juliette’s mother, Katherine.
Jamie looks up expectantly as he clumsily plops down next to me in the front pew. Satisfied that he has decided to sit with me, I take my seat and lay my arm over my son’s shoulder. I think I feel Jamie’s muscles tighten slightly underneath the weight of my arm. I imagine he must be uncomfortable, everyone looking to see how he’s handling his mother’s funeral, and he’s not used to affection from his father. Claire reaches her hand over me to tenderly pat Jamie’s knee. She knows how to do this better than I do.
You okay, honey?
she whispers. Jamie nods, and a fat tear splashes Claire’s hand. I watch the way they look at each other and make a mental note of what real sympathy looks like.
Some priest or minister or whatever he is begins the service and my mind wanders back to the time when Juliette and I were dating before we got married. She was vibrant then, jubilant. Before I broke her, she had all the life in the world.
I think of the first charity benefit we went to together. She had been planning it for months. I picked her up in a Rolls-Royce and brought her a wrist corsage that matched the rose in my lapel. She laughed her brilliant laugh and wore it proudly for the entire event, gazing at it, and me, while she was onstage, thanking the benefactors for their donations.
I remember the way the light left her eyes when she finally realized I would never change, despite her best efforts.
I’m pulled back into the present as the music stalls and Jamie rises from his seat. He takes a deep breath, sending shudders through his broad shoulders. The priest pats his back as Jamie places his notes down on the lectern in front of him and clears his throat to speak.
Thank you for coming... My mother would have been so happy to see all of you here, continuing to show your support for her. Although today’s event is not benefiting a war-torn nation, underprivileged children or endangered animals, we are here to honor a woman whose life and legacy are just as deserving of our admiration and protection.
I’m impressed with Jamie’s words—I hadn’t expected such eloquence from a kid not yet sixteen. But the discomfort is rising in my throat as I worry what he may have in store for his speech.
I grew up in a single-parent home, but you would never have guessed that because Mom played both the role of father and mother to me for as long as I can remember. After Peter left, she picked up some typical male hobbies and took me to sports games, so I wouldn’t feel deprived of a male influence.
This is exactly what I was afraid of, Jamie bringing up my absence and adding insult to injury by calling me by my first name. All the sympathy I had been getting from the crowd drains as they remember how I abandoned my wife and child. I tune out the rest of his speech and concentrate on appearing remorseful.
As Jamie continues his tribute to his mother, I imagine fond memories creeping into the minds of the mourners around me, and I turn to study the expressions on their faces. I’ve caught the eye of my ex-mother-in-law, Katherine. Katherine hates me, but despite our troubled history, she offers me a sympathetic nod. I mimic the nod back and robotically clasp Claire’s hand.
When Jamie breaks down talking about how quickly his mother turned for the worse, I carefully observe the reactions from the crowd. I file these looks away in my brain for reference in the future. I wouldn’t have to pay such close attention if only I could still conjure these emotions naturally. But I haven’t felt remorse, I haven’t felt sympathy and I haven’t shed a genuine tear in as long as I can remember.
The other two speeches are delivered by two of Juliette’s childhood friends. I listen to the adulation and respect in the stories they tell; I laugh when the crowd laughs and bow my head when the crowd cries, just like I’m supposed to. When the pallbearers lift Juliette’s coffin and Louis Armstrong plays, I pull out of Claire’s grasp and escort my son down the aisle, closely following his mother’s body. Juliette wasn’t the first to die, and she wouldn’t be the last.
Jamie,
I call when he finally exits the funeral home, why don’t you walk with us?
Jamie extracts himself politely from a stranger’s embrace and shuffles quickly to my side like a good obedient son. He is almost exactly my height, with the same thick, dark brown hair, mine developing dignified silver at the temples. Most of his good genes come from me.
Seeing a group approaching to offer condolences, I feel immediately exhausted and turn south on Madison Avenue, hurrying Jamie and Claire along. I don’t have the energy to fake it with these people. Several teenagers, must be Jamie’s friends from school, are huddled together smoking cigarettes on the southwest corner of Eightieth Street. One of them reaches out a fist as we walk by, saying, Sorry, bro.
Jamie fist-bumps him and nods with a tight-lipped smile as I pull him closer to me.
Claire fishes out a Kleenex from her handbag and dabs at the sweat beading on her upper lip. The heat doesn’t bother me, and I rarely sweat. I think she looks sloppy using tissues, so I hand her the pocket square from my jacket. As we walk east on Seventy-Eighth Street toward Park Avenue, I see a taxi pull up in front of our destination, and I watch Katherine slither out with her third husband.
I stop walking, stalling our group—I can’t bear the idea of sharing the elevator ride to the penthouse with my ex-mother-in-law and her shiny, replacement husband. Claire takes this opportunity to wrap Jamie in a kindhearted embrace. As soon as she pulls away, I follow suit and squeeze my son into my chest. I scan my surroundings for witnesses, but unfortunately, no one saw the hug. Disappointed that my shows of affection garnered no attention, I release Jamie and we walk the rest of the block to Katherine’s apartment in silence.
I elongate my stride, leaving the other two behind, and quickly walk to Katherine’s to get this charade over with. Claire and Jamie watch as I kiss both her cheeks. I hold her waist and look through her. If you didn’t know me, you would call me sympathetic. Genial. Honest. Katherine revels in the attention, playing the part of mourning mother to perfection. I feed off this, and it helps me fall into the performance we put on in public.
Swarms of funeral-goers enter the palatial apartment, marching through the required rounds, commiserating with Juliette’s family and close friends. Although we’ve been divorced for a decade, Juliette never remarried, so the crowd treats me as a grieving widower, and they all lavish me with hollow gestures of comfort. I delight in the attention from their frivolous posturing, wondering if all the kindness could lead me to have real feelings about Juliette’s death.
Claire is keeping to herself near the bar, plucking bobby pins from her hair and arranging them in patterns on a mother-of-pearl coaster. Surprised by my approach, she stammers to attention, yanking the last pin from her hair, causing it to cascade down her shoulders.
Have you seen Harrison?
I ask, not quite looking at her.
He walked in a few minutes ago with Ethan and Elizabeth. I think he’s still talking to Katherine.
Claire is affectionately stroking my forearm, looking for some trace of loss or bereavement in my face.
Charlie wasn’t with them?
I muse hopefully.
No, I didn’t see Charlotte,
Claire responds with disappointment. It would be pretty inappropriate for her to be at Juliette’s wake, don’t you think?
Hmm.
I swallow hard, momentarily picturing Charlotte in a lacy black bra. I shake the image out of my head and move toward Harrison, leaving Claire alone with her champagne and stack of bobby pins.
Harrison’s fat, ruddy face lights up when I approach him, and he promptly puts down his cocktail, freeing his hands to pull me in for an awkward embrace. I hate it when he does this.
Peter! How the hell are ya? So sorry to see you under these circumstances. Juliette was such a lovely girl. Beautiful. Just beautiful. Shame. Shame to see her go so young.
Harrison keeps a sweaty palm on my shoulder and shakes his head. I shrug off his hand and crack the bones of my neck. I stand nearly six foot two, and Harrison is the only man in the room taller than I am.
Thank you, Harry. And thank you for coming,
I say, not caring at all. I see you brought Elizabeth and Ethan. Charlie’s not here?
No.
Harrison shakes his head. My daughter is in Phoenix doing some charity thing with kids over there. Something noble and important, as usual.
Right, out there doing God’s work, like Juliette used to do.
I’m not listening to Harrison. Instead I’m looking at Claire and Jamie and watching how their interaction seems a little too familiar, a little too comfortable.
Seriously, now, you all right?
He seems to be attempting genuine sympathy. Everything working out with the custody stuff?
Custody shouldn’t hit any snags. There are details to work out with Juliette’s estate but all that is tied up in trusts...
I begin moving away from him, terminating the conversation. I approach Claire and Jamie to investigate whatever’s going on with them.
I watch several times as Claire stops herself from leaning over to pet Jamie’s hair like a mother would. Jamie has Juliette’s narrow angular features positioned on my strong-chinned, high-cheekboned face. Like his hair, his eyes are mine, a striking hazel-green, with emerald rings rimming the iris and gold flecks scattered inside. Good genes.
Hey, kiddo,
I say, mimicking the family sitcoms I feel I should emulate in this situation, how’s it going?
It’s fine,
Jamie responds, dropping his head to his chest. I’m okay.
You need any help getting ready to move into my place?
But I’m not listening to Jamie’s response. And I’m not listening when Claire tells me to stop touching her ass in public. I would like to listen and attend to my family, but I just can’t bring myself to care.
THEN
We met while I was working for a prestigious law firm. I had graduated first in my class from Columbia Law and was offered ludicrous starting salaries and promises of professional distinction at many firms across the city. I was quickly bored with the work; the courtroom wins came easily to me, and I didn’t feel the clientele was bringing me the sort of challenge or notoriety I was looking for.
I was working toward a better future for myself and was open to exploring all avenues, so I accepted an invitation to a talk and reception given by Eileen Cutler, one of the foremost environmental lawyers in New York. As it turned out, Juliette had wrangled a ticket to the event, having spent years following Eileen’s work as she fought against dirty corporations.
The reception was held at the Lotos Club, and as soon as I caught my first glimpse of Juliette, I was drawn to her. She listened intently to Eileen regaling us with stories of fighting the establishment, and I could plainly see that Juliette was passionate about just the sorts of things I cared nothing about. She was an environmentalist, a humanitarian, a woman obsessed with saving.
I was singularly focused on getting away from my upbringing, making a name for myself and never again feeling the way I felt growing up. I wasn’t getting any of that from the law firm I worked at, and I had come to the event that night to see if I could find some people who could help me achieve my dreams of getting to the top. I was seeking wealth, respect, and above all else, I wanted to be unforgettable. Juliette seemed clearly on her way to just such a destiny, and I wanted her beside me.
You seem enthralled,
I said, startling her with my approach as I sidled up behind her.
Oh. Yes, I’ve been a big fan of Eileen’s for years. Such important work. Are you a fan, as well?
She was bold and shy at the same time.
Becoming a fan. This is my first time hearing her speak. I’m not very familiar with her work.
I stretched out my hand to her. Peter Caine,
I introduced myself, trying to create a more personal nature for the conversation.
Juliette.
She smiled and shook my hand. She didn’t tell me her last name. I couldn’t have known who her father would turn out to be.
As luck would have it, she didn’t have plans after the talk, so I offered to take her out for something to eat. Still high from the encounter with her idol, she agreed, and we wandered east toward a hole-in-the-wall dumpling place she suggested. We sat side by side at the tiny bar, and she ordered for both of us.
"So, you’re a defense attorney, you’re twenty-eight years old and you’re not from New York." She summarized our discussion, smiled and delicately popped a dumpling in her mouth.
What makes you think I’m not from New York?
I asked.
You stopped at every light and didn’t jaywalk once. New Yorkers don’t stop at lights.
"It’s that obvious, huh? No, I’m not from New York. I had been developing the story of my past since before I started college, spending much of my time testing out details about my family before I settled on a suitable series of fabrications.
I’m kind of from all over the place," I told her.
Army brat?
she asked, seeming genuinely interested.
Not quite, no.
I never went for the military-upbringing story. I feared it had too much of a blue-collar bent and it could alienate me from the influential people I was trying to fall in with. My father was an art dealer, and we spent most of my childhood living in different countries in Europe.
Oh, wow. That sounds interesting.
It was.
I tried to conjure up images of old European cities in my head. What about you? Did you grow up in New York?
I steered the conversation back to her.
Yes, born and raised in Manhattan.
She turned her chair to face me. Tell me what it was like living around Europe. Did you have a favorite place?
She seemed to want to keep the spotlight off her background just as much as I wanted to keep it off mine.
I look back now and realize it was very glamorous when you think about it from an outside perspective, but it was hard for a kid.
I’d practiced these lines. I went to excellent schools, but I never stayed at the same one for more than a couple of years, didn’t make lasting friendships and I was always somewhere I didn’t know the language.
These quick, heartstring-tugging snippets would provide just enough information for people to find me intriguing and sympathetic. I took a dramatic pause and sipped from a green tea that Juliette had ordered for me.
That’s so lonely,
she said with compassionate eyes. Do you have any siblings?
No, it was just me and my parents. Definitely a lonely time.
Although the story isn’t true, the sentiments were. I did have a lonely upbringing, but it wasn’t in Europe and it wasn’t because I didn’t have siblings.
The evening felt easy and natural, despite me telling her manufactured stories. She told me how she came to follow Eileen Cutler’s career, and I told her of my dreams to be a high-powered defense attorney. I found her charming as she discussed her passion for helping others, and her work to open her own charitable organization. She seemed to imply family connections and money but kept the details guarded, and I didn’t pry.
Do you have any idols in your field?
she asked me, after gushing over Eileen. Seems a difficult business to keep one’s integrity.
Maybe. But I find being a defense attorney quite honorable. The justice system hinges on the belief that lawyers are fighting for the rights of their clients, but often defense attorneys are underdogs in the fight.
I turned my body to face her. With my talents and abilities, I am simply serving to even the playing field. And yes, I do have an idol in my business.
Tell me about him.
She looked at me kindly. I’m interested to hear your perspective.
Ever since I wrapped my mind around going into criminal defense, there’s one man whose career just blows everyone else’s away. He’s a legend in the business, and I met him at an event before I graduated.
The excitement was rising in my voice. It was Christmastime, and my cohort was invited to a big party hosted by different law firms. All the big names were there, as well as representatives from the public defenders’ offices and the DA’s office. I was first in my class, and I knew many of the lawyers were there to talk to me specifically.
Juliette seemed impressed, listening intently as she ate.
This lawyer—my hero—was known and feared, having beaten many of the other lawyers who were there in court battles, and my classmates were practically starstruck when they noticed him standing by the entrance. He called my name—‘Caine,’ he said, and he didn’t even look at me as he said it, he just lifted a glass of scotch in my direction.
Juliette’s head bounced in a slow, methodical nod. He knew your name?
Most of the lawyers did, yes.
I suddenly felt reticent. I didn’t want Juliette to get the impression that I was gloating. They do their research before recruiting events.
That must have been a thrill for you.
"Oh, absolutely. I was nervous and excited when I approached him. He just handed me the scotch, picked up his martini glass and then turned and walked to a corner away from everyone. I followed him. I didn’t really know what to do. I mean, I’ve been admiring this guy’s career since college, and I couldn’t believe he was there to talk to me. Then he downed his whole drink in one sip and asked me if I was ready to give up all the bullshit."
Gin?
Juliette asked.
What?
Never mind. What was he talking about?
Her tone was deliberate, knowing.
He pointed at the rest of the lawyers in the room and told me that they were all there to fawn over me, and if I was serious about my career, I would call him instead. He asked me if I was ready to realize my talents and rise to the top.
I recalled the event with embarrassment. All I had ever wanted to do was meet this guy and impress him, and when he was standing in front of me, I had no idea what to say.
"So, what did you say?"
I told him I was willing to take any opportunity he was willing to give me. Looking back, now I see why he was immediately turned off. He told me that I was still soft, and I should call him when I toughened up. He put his card on the corner of a cocktail table and walked out without saying another word to me.
Did you ever call him?
She had turned to face me and was studying my eyes.
His card didn’t even have a number on it. It was just his name. Like he was leaving me a challenge to go and find him, like that would prove that I was ready to take him up on his offer.
And?
she asked excitedly.
Well, truth be told—
I looked around us for eavesdroppers, then leaned in conspiratorially —I tracked down his number months ago, and we’re opening a firm together. I’m keeping it hush-hush for now, don’t want to jinx myself before everything is finalized.
Juliette and I ordered a last round of drinks. She congratulated me and toasted the news that I was about to open my own firm with my professional hero. As I paid the bill, I found myself uncharacteristically drawn to her, and I didn’t want the evening to end. I knew dragging it out beyond its natural conclusion would put a future encounter in jeopardy, so against my natural inclinations, I brought the evening to a close. She commended me again on my new business ventures and scooted her stool back.
It has been a pleasure spending time with you, Miss Juliette, and I hope you will allow me to take you out again sometime.
I stood and held my hand out to help her from her seat.
Thank you, Mr. Caine.
She bit her lower lip and smiled an unforgettable smile. As I guided her toward the door, she pulled a packet of matches from a bowl and scribbled her phone number inside. She raised her arm for a taxi on the corner and handed me the matchbook. Call me,
she said as a taxi pulled up in front of us. I’d love to hear how the business turns out.
I watched the taxi heading uptown on Third Avenue until the rear lights blended in with the horizon. I called her the next day, and thus initiated the beginning of her end.
NOW
Everything feels status quo, not unlike any other day of my life, despite cremating my ex-wife and becoming the sole guardian to my estranged teenage son. But every person I pass looks at me a little closer, stays and chats a little longer, compassionately touches my shoulder, as if these changes were something drastic. Anna, my assistant, hands me my morning coffee as I pass her in the hallway, and a junior partner whose name I’ve forgotten blocks the path to my office.
So sorry to hear about your wife, Peter,
he says to me. I hear she was a wonderful woman.
Ex-wife,
I correct as I push past him and continue down the hall. As a man known to not need sympathy, let alone accept it, I can’t understand why my colleagues would still offer condolence for the loss of my ex-wife. I reach the door to my office, and I see Sinan walking toward me. I leave the door open for him to come in.
Sinan Khan, a Turkish lawyer from London, has been living in New York and making a killing as a defense attorney since the mid-1990s. Marcus brought him on to Rhodes & Caine almost as soon as we had formed. Sinan and I share the same moral flexibility, paired with a seemingly bottomless depth of knowledge of the law. He understands me.
Got some stuff for you,
Sinan declares in his baritone British voice, sidling up to my desk. "I have the case files from that custody thing I tried last year. I think you can use the same case as precedent in your kidnapping trial. It’s a tiny loophole—I’m saying ants can’t squeeze through it—but you should be able to sell it. He tosses the files onto my desk.
And Anna was about to walk in here with this stack of nonsense— he flaps a bunch of envelopes in my face
—so I’ll just leave them on your bookcase next to the Oban."
Thanks. Sit, have a drink.
I wave at a large leather chair in the corner of my office.
Drink? It’s 8:20 in the morning.
Sinan oozes sophistication.
I look up at him and smile. You Muslims and your prohibitions.
Mmm,
he sneers. I have something else for you, as well.
Sinan reclines in the leather chair and fiddles with a marble chessboard on the table next to him. A blast from your past is on his way back out into the world.
"Back out? When did I ever have a client who went in?" I run my fingers through my hair, knowing full well to whom Sinan is referring.
"You should know exactly who I’m talking about, especially since he stands pretty much alone in your guilty column."
Bogovian?
I blurt when Sinan substantiates my fears. You’re telling me Stu Bogovian is getting out? Has it been that long already?
Stu Bogovian was a New York congressman with a penchant for sexual assault. He came from an outrageously wealthy family who paid his victims for their silence, leaving Stu to never learn any self-control. I can’t believe he could be released so soon. Seems like yesterday he went to prison, not the nearly twenty years it’s really been.
Yes, love. Stu Bogovian is getting paroled next Thursday. Mark your calendar!
Sinan holds up his hands and twinkles his fingers in mock celebration. You think he still hates you after all this time?
Back off, Sinan.
I feel the ugly anger rising in my stomach. Who’s representing him now?
Some Harvard prat. But don’t fret, darling,
Sinan teases, "no one remembers that you were the one who couldn’t get Stu off, and from the trial transcripts, it sounds like Stu had no problem getting off!" Sinan laughs and knocks over the white marble queen with a thin black bishop shaped like an obelisk.
He doesn’t hate me—no one hates me.
I