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224 pages, Paperback
First published May 18, 2023
For me, transitioning was more about coming home. It was the biggest act of self-care and self-love I have ever been able to give myself.
My trans body is meaningful. It is what separates me from being a cisgender man. It means I have a difference and a history that is unlike cisgender men. I wouldn’t be the man I am today if I hadn’t lived 18 years of my life as a woman. I’m proud of my difference.
I wondered whether this was just what being gay was– trying to find warmth in cold places. Trying to make ourselves comfortable in the little space we have. All squished together in our tiny boxes, looking but not really seeing the people around us. I wondered if we as gay men realized, or cared, that it could be so soulless, or if that was just something we’d had to become accustomed to, or perhaps we hadn’t known anything different.
"I have at times wondered if it would have been easier to continue hiding as a girl and simply try to squash down any dysphoria and live life as a straight woman as best I could. In fact, at seventeen, that’s exactly what I decided to do. But in the end, none of us can deny our true selves. Not really. So this is the messy path to how I got to where I am – to the place that I know feels right as a gay trans man."