Michelle Williams’ depression battle affected her relationship with Chad Johnson, causing the pair to break up twice in a span of several months.
The Destiny’s Child singer first ended her engagement weeks after Johnson popped the question in March, then again just before she checked herself into a mental health facility in July, according to People.
“I thought I was over depression, I thought, ‘I’m good!’ I’ve got love, I’m working out,” the 38-year-old star told the publication. “But I was so angry. The rage built up in me. I did not attempt suicide, but I was questioning [life].”
Having recognized the signs of depression from earlier in her career, she began noticing a change around the time of Coachella in April.
“The entire year we were rehearsing every day for hours,” the gospel singer added. “I was burying it, and before you knew it, I was looking up out of the pit like, ‘Oh my God.’”
During the rocky months, Williams apparently tried to cut Johnson out of the picture, but he stayed on board supporting her the entire way.
“I would’ve understood [if he left],” Williams explained. “He’s been praying for a wife. He didn’t pray for a depressed wife.”
Today, their relationship is moving forward and they are undergoing premarital counseling while she continues her own private counseling.
“People fall off the fitness wagon, people fall off the wellness wagon, but I can’t fall off the [therapy] wagon,” the star reiterated. “I have to get healed to live this happy life.”