Meghan King Edmonds is heartbroken over her husband Jim Edmonds’ affair.
The former “Real Housewives of Orange County” star, 34, revealed on her blog on Friday that she found out about former baseball star Jim’s affair “in the tabloids” on Thursday when the story was first published by AllAboutTheTea.com, and she confronted Jim, 48, on the phone.
“He confessed to me that he had exchanged lewd photos with this woman over the course of several months and a physical relationship never existed,” she shared. “He paid her off to protect me so I’d never find out. Yet here I am writing about it.”
“Do I believe him?” she continued. “I don’t know. Because I don’t trust him anymore. Physical or not, he still had an affair and he admits this to me.”
Jim later confessed to Us Weekly that he “had a lapse in judgment” but again insisted that he never made physical contact with another woman.
“This is someone trying to profit from my name,” he said in a statement. “I am aware she has done this to others in the past.”
He added that he wanted to pursue legal action.
But it’s not enough of an apology for Meghan.
“I’m a simple girl,” she wrote on her blog. “I wanted a solid marriage. I’m as loyal as they come and I wanted the vows we made when we exchanged our rings to be acted upon. Now my wedding ring symbolizes fraud. I refuse to be humiliated by this. Marriage is hard, we’ve been through our ups and downs, I’ve talked about it openly. A relationship takes two but it doesn’t take two to cheat.”
Meghan and Jim’s marital woes were on display throughout her time on “RHOC” for Seasons 10 to 12 (2015-2017).
“I did nothing wrong,” she added. “I don’t deserve this. I did nothing except be pregnant with our twins and try to have a healthy pregnancy. So what is so broken in him to propel him to do this to me? To us? It wasn’t one mistake, one lapse in judgement [sic]. I saw the texts – each one represents his decision to throw our marriage in the trash. Why did he self-sabotage? And who sends nudies? Doesn’t everyone know better than this in 2019? What drives someone to self-destruct in such a way?”
Their twin sons, Hayes and Hart, turned 1 on June 5. They also share a daughter, Aspen, 2.
“I don’t care about my stupid massive house, I don’t care about my new car, I don’t care about my diamonds. What does any of that mean when I can’t have the most basic needs met? It means nothing. Smoke and mirrors,” she continued. “I love him. How can I turn my feelings around so quickly? How can one person decide to utterly ruin me? It’s not fair. I sob so much my face stings from the salt from my tears. I am exhausted. My poor kids aren’t getting their devoted mother. And it’s only been 36 hours.”
She also shared that their son Hart is having a difficult time.
“And all of this could not have come at a worse time,” she said. “Again, something I wasn’t ready to share but here I am sharing it: we are worried our son, Hart, might have a neurological disorder. It’s been the most trying last couple months of my entire life and we still don’t have answers. Sometimes I leave the house after the kids go to bed so I can drive around and ugly cry in the dark with no one around. Now I have this to deal with: my one true love betraying me in the most disgusting and public way possible.”
Meghan then expressed her disdain for Jim, writing, “I feel sad. Oh, do I feel so sad! I feel abandoned. Lonely. My best friend, my number one person has lied to me. Who is he? Do I even know?”
Although she hopes that their marriage can recover, she isn’t sure how much time it will take for her to heal.
“I do not fault any other person except my husband,” she concluded. “There are so many people out there with bad intentions and it’s our responsibility to ignore and rise above. One slimy person doesn’t make another person cheat. And there are a million more slimy people to take ‘slimy person #1’s’ place. Marriage is a choice, every. damn. day. On the days I hate him, on the days I want to run from him, on the days I get approached by some hot dude on Instagram luring me with trips or money or whatever the hell else the slimy people do. So yes, marriage is a choice on the bad days. And on the good days marriage is easy and beautiful. No one said it would be easy, I just didn’t think it would be this hard.”