Lifestyle Beauty & Style Celebrity Fashion Tom Ford on His 'Devastating' Departure from Gucci: 'I Felt Like I Had No Voice' The designer talks to People Editor-in-Chief Jess Cagle about leaving the fashion house he helped revive By Emily Kirkpatrick Updated on November 16, 2016 10:41AM EST For more from Tom Ford, watch the full episode of The Jess Cagle Interview, available now on the new People/Entertainment Weekly Network (PEN). Go to PEOPLE.com/PEN, or download the PEN app on Apple TV, Roku Players, Amazon Fire TV, Xumo, Chromecast, iOS and Android devices. Thanks to his sharp tailoring and roster of celebrity BFFs, Tom Ford has become one of the biggest designers in the fashion industry. That transition from no-name couturier to the subject of Jay Z songs, however, didn’t just happen overnight. After a stint in PR at Chloé and two years working under American designer Cathy Hardwick, Ford found a more permanent home at Perry Ellis becoming good friends with both the brand’s president Robert McDonald and its then-designer Marc Jacobs. His much-criticized (but now iconic) “grunge collection” for the brand inspired him to leave American fashion for Gucci, which was then a struggling brand in desperate need of an overhaul in the women’s ready-to-wear space. Ford was then shortly promoted to head creative director — a position he held from 1994 to 2004 — as his clothing began to capture the imagination of buyers, helping the brand to quickly reemerge as one of the biggest in the industry. RELATED PHOTOS: All the Fun at Fashion Week! But despite all of the success he’s had since he left the Italian house, both in the arena of film and under his eponymous fashion line, the designer admitted in the Jess Cagle Interview that his departure from Gucci is something that’s still as shocking and sad to him as it was when we all first heard the news. “I never thought I would leave Gucci,” he shares in the clip above. “As a fashion designer I was very satisfied, because I was free to create what I felt was right. It was quite devastating.” He adds that when he left at the age of 43 he decided to retire from the fashion industry to focus on making movies, but the void was great. “I wasn’t prepared for what it felt like when you had such a crowded calendar and life and your identity is kind of wiped way,” Ford says. “I had blank pages on my calendar. It took me much longer to find a film project that spoke to me.” Watch the rest of the video to find out why Ford “felt like [he] had no voice” after leaving the luxury brand. Did you learn something new about Tom Ford? Sound off below!