Kesha reveals she had a 'crazy psychedelic spiritual experience' when SOBER that took place during an anxiety attack
Kesha is getting real while promoting her latest album, Gag Order, which dropped on May 19.
'I went through this crazy psychedelic spiritual experience in the midst of the anxiety,' Kesha, 36, told Apple Music.
'It was pure anxiety. My brain felt, like, I thought maybe it was the process of having a psychotic break or something.
'But then once I just started leaning into it, I was like, "Well, it's happening, so what am I going to do about it?"' she added.
Host Zane Lowe asked the Eat the Acid singer if she was on an Ayahuasca trip when this happened. She clarified that she was sober in that moment.
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Anxiety: Kesha is getting real while promoting her latest album, Gag Order, which dropped on May 19
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Crazy trip: 'I went through this crazy psychedelic spiritual experience in the midst of the anxiety,' Kesha, 36, told Apple Music
The TiK ToK singer has opened up about this experience before.
'I woke up in the morning and called all my healthcare workers and explained what happened, and they all said: "Oh that's a spiritual awakening, congratulations,"' The Guardian reported.
'I was like: "What the fuck are you talking about? You're saying what I've been doing therapy for, and meditating for, and searching for, was to have an incredibly surreal, terrifying, nearly psychedelic experience?" They were all, like: "Yep, that's the goal."'
The Die Young songstress also told Apple Music's Lowe: 'I’m a triple Pisces, I love weird, unexplainable, spiritual, supernatural stuff.
'It’s my rabbit hole I’m currently in, just the paranormal. And also different spirituality, with different things people believe in. I’m just trying to read about it because I feel like we’re all talking about a similar thing,' she added.
Kesha rocketed to fame in 2009 with the song TiK ToK, but along the way, she faced a lot of hurdles, including a stint in rehab for an eating disorder and suing her producer Dr. Luke for sexual harassment and losing.
'I realized that I, almost to the point of toxic positivity, was trying to really amplify that playful side of my personality,' she said.
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Lean into it: 'It was pure anxiety. My brain felt, like, I thought maybe it was the process of having a psychotic break or something
![Sober: Host Zane Lowe asked the Eat the Acid singer if she was on an Ayahuasca trip when this happened. She clarified that she was sober in that moment](https://i.dailymail.co.uk/1s/2023/05/26/19/71458769-12129407-Sober_Host_Zane_Lowe_asked_the_Eat_the_Acid_singer_if_she_was_on-a-7_1685127168853.jpg)
Sober: Host Zane Lowe asked the Eat the Acid singer if she was on an Ayahuasca trip when this happened. She clarified that she was sober in that moment
She explained: 'I was doing a disservice to the whole of my being. As the woman who wrote TiK ToK and 'the party don't start until I walk in,' I didn't think anyone needed or wanted that side of my psyche.'
'I also realized that there's an element of people-pleasing in just trying to give people what they want from me,' she concluded.
After her experience with Dr. Luke, Kesha started working with legendary record producer Rick Rubin, whom she credits with giving her a more zen-like approach to her music.
'After a decade of feeling like I'd become a caricature of myself in some ways, he was like: 'I really want to know what's going on deep inside of you,'' she said.
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Spiritual: 'I’m a triple Pisces, I love weird, unexplainable, spiritual, supernatural stuff,' she said
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Rabbit hole: 'It’s my rabbit hole I’m currently in, just the paranormal. And also different spirituality, with different things people believe in
'So he just made this super cozy space where instead of thinking about what other people want, or what other people expect, or what's going to make other people happy, it was about what truly needs to be excavated from inside of me.'
But it started off a little rough.
'I would walk in every day and for approximately two hours I would cry and he would just create space,' she said.
'He never once asked me to stop crying, or to get it together. It just took me a minute to put a voice to these really unpleasant, embarrassing emotions. I don't want to be seen as weak, or fucked up, or unhappy, because overall in my life … I have all the emotions.'
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