EXCLUSIVEMel B admits she struggled to be 'intimate' with fiancé Rory McPhee after her abusive marriage to 'monster' ex-husband Stephen Belafonte
Mel B has admitted she struggled to be 'intimate' with her fiancé Rory McPhee due to her abusive marriage to ex-husband Stephen Belafonte.
Speaking to Olivia Attwood on her So Wrong Its Right podcast, which releases Thursday, Mel discussed the difficulties of finding love again after leaving her marriage.
The Spice Girl, 48, said she found it incredibly difficult to trust Rory and was adamant she was never going to marry him, due to falling in love with a 'monster' husband prior.
Mel B and American Stephen were married from 2007 to 2017 and share daughter Madison, 12, together.
Over the years, Mel B has accused him of physical, emotional, and financial abuse, claims he denies.
![Mel B has admitted she struggled to be 'intimate' with her fiancé Rory McPhee due to her abusive marriage to ex-husband Stephen Belafonte](https://i.dailymail.co.uk/1s/2024/03/27/21/82971425-13246341-image-m-128_1711574118068.jpg)
Mel B has admitted she struggled to be 'intimate' with her fiancé Rory McPhee due to her abusive marriage to ex-husband Stephen Belafonte
![Over the years, Mel B has accused Stephen (pictured) of physical, emotional, and financial abuse, claims he denies](https://i.dailymail.co.uk/1s/2024/03/27/21/82971417-13246341-Over_the_years_Mel_B_has_accused_Stephen_pictured_of_physical_em-m-133_1711574195164.jpg)
Over the years, Mel B has accused Stephen (pictured) of physical, emotional, and financial abuse, claims he denies
![The Spice Girl said she found it incredibly difficult to trust Rory and was adamant she was never going to marry him, due to falling in love with a 'monster' husband prior](https://i.dailymail.co.uk/1s/2024/03/27/21/82971413-13246341-image-a-130_1711574154525.jpg)
The Spice Girl said she found it incredibly difficult to trust Rory and was adamant she was never going to marry him, due to falling in love with a 'monster' husband prior
Now happily engaged, Mel spoke to the former Love Island star in an incredibly raw and honest chat.
She said: 'I always said to Rory, I'm never gonna get married, I'm never having kids, this is when we were not dating but kind of were like cuddly, because it took me a long time to do anything else basically.
'And I was like this guy is a really good guy. It's a good guy who adores me and I adore him. And we have the same like lingo because we're both from Leeds.
'But I wasn't looking for anything and I honestly thought, If I've been through that, how can I even begin to trust anybody because I was in love with that monster and I stayed with him and had a baby, and is that my judgment?
'No but that's what abusers do, they love bomb you.'
Olivia's podcast soared straight to number one in the charts within the first week of being released. Within five days her podcast has remained within top 10 of the charts.
Elsewhere in the upcoming interview, Mel B spoke about the severity of her abusive marriage and the courage it took for her to leave him.
She said: 'You don't even realise it and then before you know it, you are in a full on physically abusive, mentally abusive, financially abusive, and then you're trapped and you have no way out.
![Speaking on Olivia Attwood's So Wrong Its Right podcast, which releases on Thursdays, Mel discussed the difficulties of finding love again after leaving her marriage](https://i.dailymail.co.uk/1s/2024/03/27/21/82970101-13246341-Speaking_on_Olivia_Attwood_s_So_Wrong_Its_Right_podcast_which_re-m-139_1711574371744.jpg)
Speaking on Olivia Attwood's So Wrong Its Right podcast, which releases Thursday, Mel discussed the difficulties of finding love again after leaving her marriage
![Mel B and American Stephen were married from 2007 to 2017 and share daughter Madison, 12, together (pictured in 2016)](https://i.dailymail.co.uk/1s/2024/03/27/21/82971483-13246341-Mel_B_and_American_Stephen_were_married_from_2007_to_2017_and_sh-a-135_1711574239664.jpg)
Mel B and American Stephen were married from 2007 to 2017 and share daughter Madison, 12, together (pictured in 2016)
![She said: 'I always said to Rory, I'm never gonna get married, I'm never having kids, this is when we were not dating but kind of were like cuddly, because it took me a long time to do anything else basically.](https://i.dailymail.co.uk/1s/2024/03/27/21/82970107-13246341-image-a-136_1711574271781.jpg)
She said: 'I always said to Rory, I'm never gonna get married, I'm never having kids, this is when we were not dating but kind of were like cuddly, because it took me a long time to do anything else basically.
![She added: 'I wasn't looking for anything and I honestly thought, If I've been through that, how can I even begin to trust anybody because I was in love with that monster and I stayed with him and had a baby, and is that my judgment? 'No but that's what abusers do, they love bomb you'](https://i.dailymail.co.uk/1s/2024/03/27/21/82971503-13246341-image-a-137_1711574310363.jpg)
She added: 'I wasn't looking for anything and I honestly thought, If I've been through that, how can I even begin to trust anybody because I was in love with that monster and I stayed with him and had a baby, and is that my judgment? 'No but that's what abusers do, they love bomb you'
'Because don't forget, you know, I married this person and I stayed with this person for 10 years, so I felt like I just couldn't get out and by that point, I'd already been like sectioned off or isolated from my friends and from my family.
'So even if I did think, right, I'm definitely going to leave him. Where would I go? I haven't spoken to my friends.'
The podcast hosted by the former Love Island star sees her chatting with a number of celebrity pals including Georgia Harrison and Pete Wicks.
Olivia Attwood’s new podcast, So Wrong It’s Right, is available to listen on all podcast platforms.