Mel B admits she snorted 'five or six' lines of cocaine a DAY while working on X Factor... and reveals she tried to take her own life with nearly 200 painkillers
- Mel B candidly talks about her drug use in her autobiography Brutally Honest
- She revealed she tried to take her own life with nearly 200 painkillers in 2014
- The Spice Girl, 43, admitted to starting her day with two lines of cocaine
Mel B has confessed to snorting six lines of cocaine a day while working on The X Factor 'to get her through living' with her husband of ten-years Stephen Belafonte.
In her autobiography Brutally Honest, serialised in The Sun on Sunday, the Spice Girl, 43, also revealed she tried to take her own life with nearly 200 painkillers in 2014, when appearing on the live shows.
She was replaced for the Saturday semi-final but appeared the next night in a dress which showed off her bruises following her suicide attempt - at the time she blamed a stomach ulcer.
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Candid: Mel B has confessed to snorting six lines of cocaine a day while working on The X Factor 'to get her through living' with her husband of ten-years Stephen Belafonte
Admitting she started her day with two lines of cocaine during the series, Mel said: ‘I was a sad, pathetic person. I was out of control. I was probably taking five or six lines a day before and after work.
‘It numbed my pain. It lifted me up enough to be ready to fire on all cylinders and forget about everything but the show.’
She wrote: ‘I was so low that two weeks into filming The X Factor I’d started using cocaine to get me through the run of the show. To get me through living with Stephen, which felt like neurotic claustrophobia.’
![Troubled times: The Spice Girl, 43, also revealed she tried to take her own life during the live shows when downing nearly 200 painkillers in 2014](https://i.dailymail.co.uk/1s/2018/11/18/00/6324562-6401803-image-a-19_1542499670497.jpg)
Troubled times: The Spice Girl, 43, also revealed she tried to take her own life during the live shows when downing nearly 200 painkillers in 2014
![Brave: She was replaced for the Saturday semi-final but appeared the next night (above) in a dress which showed off her bruises following her suicide attempt - at the time she blamed a stomach ulcer](https://i.dailymail.co.uk/1s/2018/11/18/01/6325404-6401803-image-a-35_1542502866130.jpg)
Brave: She was replaced for the Saturday semi-final but appeared the next night (above) in a dress which showed off her bruises following her suicide attempt - at the time she blamed a stomach ulcer
Yet the singing sensation believes the drug did not affect her judging performance on the hit ITV programme - where she appeared alongside Simon Cowell, Louis Walsh and Cheryl - with Mel insisting she never took it during the shows.
The Wannabe hitmaker said she didn’t need to take anything during the programme as she would be laughing along with the judges and the crew.
But as soon as filming finished for the 2014 series, the Leeds-native snorted the drug, revealing that it took ‘less than a minute’ to get her hands on some.
She also detailed the moment she attempted to take her own life, taking aspirin she had stockpiled over the years.
Saying she felt 'ugly and detested' by Stephen who allegedly had a 'library of sex tapes of her', she wrote notes to her children and took the pills before telling herself she needed to get to the hospital for the sake of her daughters.
![Struggles: Mel and film producer Stephen married in 2007 but later divorced in December last year (pictured in 2016)](https://i.dailymail.co.uk/1s/2018/11/18/01/6325796-6401803-image-a-58_1542503927442.jpg)
Struggles: Saying she felt 'ugly and detested' by Stephen who allegedly had a 'library of sex tapes of her', she wrote notes to her children and took the pills before telling herself she needed to get to the hospital for the sake of her daughters.
The star felt herself losing consciousness and said she smashed into a door, causing bruises which were seen on the live X Factor show.
When she got to the hospital she called Simon Cowell, who remained calm for her. The star added that her daughter Phoenix was 'full of rage' which was the moment she knew she had to 'fight back.'
Despite being told there was serious damage to her liver and kidneys, the star was determined to attend the live show, and forwent a dress with sleeves as she wanted to 'stand proud' and for her bruises to be seen.
Mel said she deliberately showed off her ring free hand to send a message to Stephen, 'f*** you big time' and that she was going to divorce him.
And despite Cheryl's looks of concern, she told her fellow judges she was 'ok'.
The Spice Girls star revealed she was entering a UK-based therapy centre in September after being diagnosed with post-traumatic stress disorder as she wants to be a 'better version' of herself for her children - Phoenix Chi Gulzar, 19, Angel Iris Murphy Brown, 11, and seven-year-old Madison Brown Belafonte.
Mel and film producer Stephen, 43, married in 2007 Mel but later divorced in December last year after a long-running battle in which lurid tales of kinky sex, drug and alcohol abuse and allegations of domestic violence made headlines.
Despite their divorce being finalised, the disagreements over children's custody and finances have dragged on through the summer.
Brutally Honest by Melanie Brown with Louise Gannon (Quadrille, £17.99) is published on November 27. The Brutally Honest audiobook is available exclusively on audible.co.uk.
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The reveal: Brutally Honest by Melanie Brown with Louise Gannon (Quadrille, £17.99) is published on November 27
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