Human Remains: A Novel
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Human Remains is a chilling, masterful thriller by New York Times bestselling author Elizabeth Haynes that explores our darkest fears, showing how vulnerable we are—and how easily ordinary lives can fall apart when no one is watching.
Annabel, a police analyst, is shocked when she discovers her neighbor’s decomposing body in the house next door. And she’s appalled to think that no one noticed her absence.
Back at work, she sets out on her own to investigate, and finds that such cases are frighteningly common in her hometown.
A hymn to all the lonely and compelling characters that haunt our lives, Human Remains is a deeply disturbing and powerful novel of suspense from Elizabeth Haynes, author of Into the Darkest Corner.
Elizabeth Haynes
Elizabeth Haynes is a former police intelligence analyst, a civilian role that involves determining patterns in offending and criminal behavior. She is the New York Times bestselling author of Into the Darkest Corner, Dark Tide, Human Remains, and, most recently, Under a Silent Moon, the first installment of the Briarstone crime series.
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- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5I really enjoyed this book, and especially enjoyed the quirky nature of Colin's character.
I was however a little disappointed with the ending, and found it quite flat.
It is one of those books that while I found enjoyable, it will be instantly forgotten.I will however read further books from this author as they offer a great source of light relief. - Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Human RemainsbyElizabeth HaynesMy "in a nutshell" summary...Annabel finds a badly decomposed body in the house next door...odd...unusual ...until she finds reports of many more.My thoughts after reading this book...Creepy...the psychotic murderer in this book is just plain creepy and a weird sexual deviant, too...ick...ick...ick...It's a weirdly thrilling mystery about people...young, old, whatever...who die and are not found until months and months and months later. They are usually out of the path of ordinary people. They are sad, depressed and lonely and this cruel psychopath seems able to convince them to die. I won't spoil it for you. This book is beautifully written. Each victim has a story. Annabel...an analyst for the police...unearths similarities in these deaths and does her best to get the police to pay attention. What ultimately happens to her is both frightening and scary.What I loved about his book...I loved the way the book was divided into sort of people chapters. Each victim told his or her own story.What I did not love about this book...I despised the creepy psychotic killer...he was deplorable!I also didn't like the way Annabel treated her cat...not badly but not nicely either. Final thoughts...I found Human Remains to be an intensely disturbing mystery...but...it was so good it was hard to stop reading. The stark fact about it was that these sad stories seemed plausible. All of this fed into my fascination with this book. It was extremely scary...but in an unputdownable way.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5I discovered Elizabeth Haynes last year when I devoured her debut thriller Into the Darkest Corner. Her latest book, Human Remains, is even better. "I should have turned away from the door. I should have gone back into my own house, and locked my door, and thought no more about it....I thought about going back to my kitchen and phoning the police. Looking back, that was exactly what I should have done." Two sentences from the opening chapter guaranteed to hook you right from the beginning. Human Remains is told in alternating chapters from the viewpoint of Annabel and Colin. Annabel works as a civilian police analyst for the Briarstone (England) Police Department, tracking patterns in criminal behaviour. When she discovers a badly decomposed body in her own neighbourhood with no sign of foul play she's curious and runs a report looking for other people who have died with no one noticing. And what she discovers makes her take notice - the current year has four times as many as the past years. And those are the reported ones. Colin, well, Colin is the one they're after. For those decomposing bodies hold a fascination for Colin. As his studies have progressed, Colin has begun helping things along. Oh boy, Colin is a seriously creepy and disturbed individual. His inner dialogue is downright frightening. Haynes has done a bang-up job creating her 'villain' this time around. I love the back and forth style. Although we know who the 'criminal' is, the tension ratchets up as his behaviour escalates. (But why did I italicize criminal you ask? The question arises - is Colin doing anything that he can be charged with? I know, but you have to read the book to see what a diabolical plot Haynes has come up with. Annabel's chapters are just as suspenseful. Will the higher ups in the department listen to her? And when Colin and Annabel's paths cross...... There is a third set of narratives - that of the deceased. I found these to be the pages I stopped at to think. Haynes gives a voice to her deceased and the questions that the living ask when such a discovery is made. How does a body go undiscovered for years? Why did no one notice? "You never realize what loneliness is until it creeps up on you - like a disease it is, something that happens to you gradually. I realized it had been years and years since anyone made eye contact with me. If people stop looking at you, do you cease to exist? Does it mean you're not a person anymore? Does it mean you're already dead?" Their stories just really made me think. The library I work at does serve some marginalized patrons. I've often thought that for some, we may be the only point of contact some days. In real life, there are many deaths that go unnoticed. One of the most reported 'undiscovered body stories' is that of Joyce Vincent in England.This is an excellent thriller - dark and disturbing. (Fair warning to gentle readers it's probably not for you). It was a five star page turner for me - devoured in one lazy vacation day. (And hey - say hi to your neighbour today...)
- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5Human Remains is is a disturbing tale raising questions about social alienation in modern society.When civilian police analyst Annabel discovers the decomposing corpse of her neighbor she is distressed that no-one, including herself, had investigated the woman’s absence. Curious, Annabel delves into the police files and makes a startling discovery, in her home town there has been 24 bodies decomposing bodies discovered in their homes in the past nine months – considerably more than recorded in previous years.Annabel is concerned. but with no evidence of violence, her supervisor dismisses it as an anomaly until a phone call forces an investigation, revealing a man who is either an angel of mercy, or an agent of death.The narrative is told from the perspectives of Annabel and the antagonist, Colin, interspersed with the stories of the dead.Annabel is a near middle aged, single woman who lives alone, except for an unfriendly cat. Her only regular social contact is with her frail and demanding mother and her colleagues, who seem uninterested in befriending her. The discovery of her neighbour in part speaks to her own fear of dying unnoticed, a fear that is exacerbated when her mother dies. With the police uninterested in the string of deaths it is left to Annabel and local journalist Sam Everett to reveal their significance.**SPOILER**I’m not sure how I feel about Annabel becoming a victim of Colin. The situation felt forced despite her fitting the profile. Had it been a relative/friend/colleague or even acquaintance who had the near miss I think I would have found the plot more credible.**END SPOILER**Colin is a sociopath, whose mild mannered, nondescript persona hides his fascination with death and decomposition. Using the principles of NLP (Neuro Linguistic Programming) learnt at evening classes, he discovers an ability to manipulate emotionally vulnerable people. It is a talent he claims facilitates his victims to choose their life’s end without fear and pain but really the process meets his sexual needs. Colin is a disturbing character, not only because of his fetish for decomposing flesh but also his ability to rationalise what he does. But with no redeeming features, he is ‘other’ and therefore it is easy to keep him at a distance.While there is a sense of psychological uneasiness that permeates the novel I did feel Human Remains lacked sustained tension. The pace is somewhat uneven and I thought the story sometimes felt contrived.The themes are fascinating though with its social commentary regarding mental illness, suicide vs euthanasia, social marginalisation and community responsibility.Human Remains is a dark and, at times, grim read and I think it would be remiss of me to not point out that its explicit elements may be too much for some readers. I think the overall concept of the novel is original and interesting, I just wasn’t quite satisfied with the execution. Still, I would recommend Human Remains for its psychological insights.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5I really enjoyed this book, mostly because of the way that Elizabeth Haynes writes, which draws you in and keeps your attention. The heroine is Annabel, a loner who works as an analyst at a police station. She discovers her neighbour's dead (and decomposing) body and this leads her to look into the statistics for how many other decomposed bodies have been found that year. To her surprise she discovers that the numbers are well up on any other year or any other district. While the police are not particularly interested in investigating - where's the crime when the deaths appear to be from natural causes? - Annabel keeps digging. Meanwhile we the reader realise that she is far more at risk herself than she realises, and the suspense mounts gradually but insistently.This is a cleverly constructed book and it's very readable. I did feel that the ending was somewhat at odds with the rest of the book, but it all brought things together in a very satisfying way.
- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5This was a book that I kept wanting to pick up and read despite the fact that it wasn't as thrilling as Into The Darkest Corner. The fact that the perpetrator was known early on and that he didn't physically inflict harm on his 'victims' meant that I didn't find it gripping but I certainly enjoyed it.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Police analyst Annabel wouldn't describe herself as lonely. Her work keeps her busy and the needs of her ageing mother and her cat are more than enough to fill her time when she s on her own. But Annabel is shocked when she discovers her neighbour s decomposing body in the house next door, and appalled to think that no one, including herself, noticed her absence.
Back at work she sets out to investigate, despite her police officer colleagues lack of interest, and finds data showing that such cases are frighteningly common in her own home town.
A chilling thriller and a hymn to all the lonely people, whose individual voices haunt the pages, Elizabeth Haynes new novel is a deeply disturbing and powerful thriller that preys on our darkest fears, showing how vulnerable we are when we live alone, and how easily ordinary lives can fall apart when no one is watching.
All the lonely people…
I loved the authors debut novel Into the Darkest Corner because it was so believable and one of those “there for the grace of God” stories.
Human Remains differs because it is so unlikely but totally credible at the same time(if that makes sense).
The author superbly portrays the isolation of the elderly and other troubled people who have withdrawn from a society that hasn't got time or the inclination to care and feeds on that visceral horror of dying alone, forgotten and unloved.
The dual narrative between prey and predator peppered with the wonderfully poignant monologues of the “transformed” is excellent
Colin is a magnificent creation: super intelligent narcissistic sociopath - I had no difficulty in believing that vulnerable people would find him trustworthy...I can still hear his voice in my head
Colin
I was eating cornflakes and reading jokes aloud from the back of the 1982 Beano annual when my father clutched his chest and dropped dead on the kitchen floor.
Looking back it almost seems comical, but I believe that this was the moment when my life took a change in direction. My father was the sort of person you could read jokes to. He would spend Sundays fixing the car and I would help him, learning where all the pieces went and what they all did. He laughed a lot and together we both laughed at my mother, who was thin, and serious, and bitter.
After he died, I couldn’t bring myself to read the Beano any more. I didn’t really laugh any more, either.
I must remember to look deliriously happy when doing my weekly supermarket shop in future because you never know who is watching……. - Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Human Remains by Elizabeth Haynes
Harper, 2013
Crime Fiction; 416 pgs
Elizabeth Haynes captivated me with her novel, Into the Darkest Corner, and I have enjoyed her series featuring Detective Inspector Louisa Smith. I was eager to give another of her books a try, and dove into Human Remains with high expectations. While it isn't my favorite of her novels that I have read so far, I did enjoy it. Like her other books, she tackles a subject that the reader just can't help but think about in terms of their own lives, wondering what if.
I found Human Remains to be disturbing in more ways than one. Less a mystery where you have to guess who the bad person is, and more a thriller where you know up front (or close to it) who is up to no good, the novel jumps from the viewpoint of the perpetrator to the police analyst, Annabel, who discovered the decaying body of her neighbor, interspersed with sections written from the perspectives of the victims, each one a troubled soul who makes an easy target for a man like our perptrator.
Getting into the mind of a psychopath can be quite interesting and is always disturbing. This one is no different. He believes he is providing a good service, helping people down their chosen path. Just being in his head sent shivers down my spine. It was hard to imagine he could be good at what he did and yet he was. Too much so.
Annabel herself is a bit lost. She lives alone with her cat, doesn't really have any friends, and takes care of her ailing mother who also lives alone. She is the one who initially notices the alarming increase in deaths in the community and begins to look into why. I felt for her.
I know so few of the neighbors living on my street. I admit much of what I do know is thanks to my next door neighbor who knows everyone else. He's extremely friendly and social, something I'm not. At least not the social part. The neighbors on the corner we are familiar with because they have a son my daughter's age. We wave to the other neighbors on our street in passing (although there is one family across the way that doesn't wave back), but we really don't know each other beyond that. If someone were to die, alone in their house, I am not sure I would notice. We all come and go, living our own lives. It's sad to think about. I remember growing up in neighborhoods in which everyone knew everyone. It was much different all those years ago. Do you know your neighbors?
Like her other novels, Human Remains is on the darker side, perhaps her darkest novel of all. It is graphic at times, which may be off putting to some. It is both a disturbing and intriguing book.
To learn more about Elizabeth Haynes and her books, please visit the author's website.
Source: Review e-copy provided by the publisher via Edelweiss for an honest review. - Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5I didn't enjoy this book. Maybe because the two main characters are so unlikeable. Annabel -fat, grumpy, miserable, no sense of humour, no personality. Colin -psycho, unsociable, pompous, weird, no personality. The story dragged on. The tone was bleak and grey. I finished it and thought Meh!
- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5Police analyst Annabel wouldn't describe herself as lonely. Her work and the needs of her aging mother keep her busy. But Annabel is shocked when she discovers her neighbor's decomposing body in the house next door, and she is appalled to think that no one, including herself, noticed the woman's absence. Annabel sets out to investigate, despite her colleagues; lack of interest, and discovers that such cases are frighteningly common in her hometown. - Summary BPLIncisive and creepy as only British fiction can be. Well-written, but disturbing.6.5 out of 10
- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5I liked part of the book... but it took a long time to get to it. After the body was found...we just met individual characters over and over. To make matters worse the individual characters didn't even tell a part of the story. The whole thing became very hum-drum and you had to wonder why they were even there. I really expected much more for this book from the description. Oh well...you can't win them all.
- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5This was an oddly disturbing book. Annabel, a police analyst, finds her neighbor's body badly decomposing. She notices that the number of people in the area dying from natural causes, but found alone and decomposing, are significantly higher than in previous years. Colin, a city worker, is troubled, and has a bizarre idea about helping people "transition" out of their misery. He also has a strange sexual fixation.I liked Annabel, I didn't like Colin--not just because of his idiosyncrasies, but he was a completely unlikeable person. I did like the parts about analyzing the data, but thought Colin's account was tedious. I think some of the book could have been deleted, and it would have been more enjoyable.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5How well do you know your neighbours? Would you notice if they lived or died? Police analyst Annabel wouldn't describe herself as lonely. Her work keeps her busy and the needs of her ageing mother and her cat are more than enough to fill her time when she's on her own. But Annabel is shocked when she discovers her neighbour's decomposing body in the house next door, and appalled to think that no one, including herself, noticed her absence. Back at work she sets out to investigate, despite her police officer colleagues' lack of interest, and finds data showing that such cases are frighteningly common in her own home town.My Thoughts:Another brilliant read by Elizabeth Haynes. I would have thought that it was hrad to follow her previous books, but no she keeps churning out good gripping reads.What I like about her books is how real they seem. The characters could quite easily be someone that you know, and sometimes it is the ones that you know and love that you need to be wary of.What this book did was make me think. How well do I know the people in my street. Would I notice if they lived or died. Well the answer is probably not, especially when it is the winter months and it’s dark nights and people do tend to shut themselves away, including me. This made the book real and scary and as I said made me stop and think how lonely some people must be. So in a way it’s quite sad and I am one of the lucky ones to have a loving family.The book was a rollercoaster of a ride but had a dark theme with plenty to keep my interest till the very end. I did find the ending slightly rushed but the book is still a very good read.
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Human Remains - Elizabeth Haynes
Annabel
When I got home I could smell the trash cans on the cold air, a faint bad smell that made me wrinkle my nose.
Inside, I opened the back door, rattling the box of cat biscuits in the hope that it would bring her scurrying. It was a clear night, so she would most likely not make an appearance at the back door until I was in the bath, when she would howl and scratch to be let in. Despite the cat flap and my efforts to get her to use it—propping it open, coaxing her, bribing her, and even shoving her forcefully through it—she ignored it and came in and out only when I was home to open the door for her. I’d even tried getting rid of the litter box, but she’d just piss on the lino in the kitchen and then pull it up at the corner with her claws to try and cover her excretions. After that I gave up.
I stood in the doorway for a few minutes. Lucy?
I called experimentally. Lucy!
Nothing. The bloody cat could stay out there all night I thought, knowing for a fact that I would be down here in my bath towel in a couple of hours’ time, dripping wet and freezing, rattling the cat treats while she sat on the lawn and stared at me, punishing me for having taken too long.
I made myself a cup of peppermint tea and some cheese on toast, and ate it sitting at the kitchen table with one eye on the open door in case the cat might walk in and I could shut it and trap her inside. When I finished it, I scraped the crusts of the toast into the kitchen trash, sniffing. Something definitely smelled bad. The last time I smelled something this rotten, the cat had brought in a frog and I hadn’t realized until I found it—half-slimy, half-dried—under the dresser in the dining room, right in the back. I’d had to get on my hands and knees with a wad of paper towels and rubber gloves to get rid of it.
I stood in the doorway again, wondering if Lucy had killed a pigeon this time and left it by the trash cans, not trusting me to dispose of it appropriately. I put on my slippers, took my flashlight from the drawer, and ventured down the steps into the darkness, listening to the sound of the traffic from the main road beyond the trees. In the alleyway between my house and next door, I lifted the lid off each of the two trash cans: the black one, and the green one for compost. Both smelled unpleasant, but that wasn’t it. I shone the flashlight around the base of the cans. No pigeon, no rat—nothing dead.
The house next door was unoccupied, had been for some time, but as I stood there I realized I could see a light coming from inside. It was a dim golden light, as though a single bulb shone in a room somewhere inside, undisturbed.
I tried to remember when I’d last been out here. Sunday afternoon? But it had been broad daylight, sunny, and even if the light had been on next door then I wouldn’t have noticed it. Maybe a realtor had been in, or a property developer, and left it on?
When I first moved in, a couple had been living next door. I fought for the memory. What was she called? Shelley, that was it. She’d introduced herself to me once. It had been summer, a hot day. I was just getting home and she was working in the front yard. She stopped me for a chat even though it was the last thing I wanted. Tired, fed up as usual, all I longed for was to get inside and pull my shoes off my hot, aching feet and have a cold drink. All I remembered from that conversation was her name, and that her partner
—which always sounds odd to me, not boyfriend
or husband
or fiancé
—was called Graham. I never met him. I think he moved out that autumn, and although I saw her coming and going a few times up until last winter I assumed she’d moved out sometime after Easter because I hadn’t seen her after that, and the garden she’d previously tended had grown wild and tangled.
At first it was just a feeling, a creeping sense of dread, and then I heard a noise from the direction of the empty house. Something was wrong. I peered across into the darkness as the cat pushed her way through the gate and trotted over to me, winding herself around my legs. She was covered in something, some mess, sticky and foul smelling, and she wrapped herself around and around my skirt. My hand flew up to my nose and mouth to block out the smell.
At that point I thought about going back to my kitchen and phoning the police. Looking back, that was exactly what I should have done. But it was Friday night, and because I worked at the police station I knew that all the patrols would be busy, if not mopping the blood and puke off the streets of Briarstone town center, then back at the station booking people into custody. I’d worked with the police for years and never once had to call them out myself. I didn’t even know what to say. That there was a bad smell next door? They’d more than likely suggest phoning the city on Monday morning.
The low metal gate to the backyard hung off its hinges; beyond it the remains of what had once been a neat patch was now an untouched wilderness. The grass and weeds were waist-high in places, having outgrown their own strength and flopped over on themselves like an army midway through a battle. I stepped over the grass onto the brick path that led to the back door. The kitchen windowsill was covered in dead flies. I shone the flashlight into the empty room. A few flies were still crawling on the glass of the window and still fewer followed an angular flight path around the center of the room. The door to the dining room was ajar and the light glowed through.
I looked down. The lower pane of the back door was missing. Dark smears marked the bottom of it, tufts of cat hair around the edge as though cats of various colors and breeds had all been in and out as many times as they liked. I tried the door. It was too much to hope that it would be unlocked, of course. Then I knocked on it, the sound of my knuckles rapping on the glass, which rattled in the frame. I pushed the pane gently, and then a little harder, and before I knew what had happened the glass had fallen in and smashed into pieces on the tiled floor of the kitchen inside.
Oh, shit!
I said aloud. I was really in trouble now.
I should have turned away from the door. I should have gone back into my own house, and locked my door, and thought no more about it. It wasn’t my problem, was it? But, having practically broken into the house already, I thought I might as well finish what I’d started, and see if anyone was inside.
I put my hand through the empty frame and reached around to the inside. The key was in the lock. I struggled to turn it—it was stiff, hadn’t been opened in a long time—and in the back of my mind was the thought that there were probably bolts at the bottom and top of the door as well. But when I twisted the key in the lock it eventually turned, and the door opened easily enough. The smell from within was powerful, and sudden. And then it faded just as quickly, as if all the badness from inside had escaped and fled into the night.
Hello?
I called, not expecting a reply and not knowing what the hell I would have done had one come. Is anyone there?
The house felt warmer than mine, or perhaps that was just because I was coming inside from the cold of the yard. My footsteps crunched on the broken glass, echoed in the empty kitchen, and I put a hand over my mouth and nose to try to muffle the smell, which was stronger again in here. I shone the flashlight around the room, illuminating cabinets and shelves and a cooker, which were dirty, the surfaces dulled with a sticky film of dust.
Maybe it was just food that had gone bad I thought. Maybe whoever had lived here had departed in a hurry and left the remains of their dinner behind. But the fridge door stood open and it was unlit, nothing but black mold inside. It was obviously unplugged.
I pushed the kitchen door open slightly and then there was enough light for me to turn off the flashlight. I was in a dining room, the table and chairs in place, a tablecloth covering the table and two placemats upon it. A table lamp sat on a sideboard, a modern design but, like everything else, with a thin film of dust blurring its surface. It was lit.
I could hear a sound. Low voices, but a bit tinny—it sounded like Radio 4. The radio was on? Surely, then, someone was in here? I felt as though I were being watched, as though someone just out of my line of sight was waiting.
I told myself not to be so paranoid, and went into the hallway. It looked lived-in, the house—carpet on the floor and pictures on the walls. The only light came from the table lamp in the dining room.
Hello?
My voice was quieter in here, my footsteps on the carpet muffled. The smell wasn’t as bad, or was it just that I was getting used to it, growing accustomed to breathing through my mouth?
The radio was louder now, the sound of an interview between a male voice and a female, the woman arguing a point and the man placating her. Above that another noise, or was I imagining things now?
I felt something against my leg and jumped, a squeak of panic coming out of my mouth before I could stop it. But it was only the cat, winding herself around my ankles once before dashing off through the dining room door and into the next room. Lucy!
I said, urgently, not wanting to have to crawl behind someone’s sofa to try and coax her out again. I pushed open the door to the living room in the front of the house. It was dark in here, the light from the dining room not penetrating this far into the gloom. The curtains were closed, the gap between them letting in only the faintest glow from the streetlights outside. I turned on the flashlight again and as I did so I caught a movement, a flash of white. It was Lucy again, rolling on the carpet in the middle of the room. I could hear her purring above the thudding of my heart.
The room was furnished, but sparsely: a sofa, a low coffee table in front of it. On the table, a bunch of what must have once been carnations, stiff and brown in a waterless vase.
The beam of the flashlight passed over an armchair. And even having felt a presence, half expecting to find somebody in here, in this room, I gasped at the shock of seeing a person there, one horrifically distorted out of shape: black instead of white, the skin of the face stretched and split in places, the eyelids drawn back into a wide, black, hollow stare, and the belly blown up like a balloon, stretching the fabric of what it was wearing—what she was wearing. For it was a skirt, and the hair that still clung to the skull was long, fine, lank, and maybe still fair in places, although it was coated in something—grease, some substance. And what made it worse was that there was movement in the abdomen, as though she were breathing—although surely this wasn’t possible? But when I looked closer I realized that her stomach was composed of a swarming, churning mass of maggots. And despite the horror, and my deep, heaving, choking breaths, I could not tear my eyes away. One hand was resting on the arm of the chair, and the other hand, the forearm from the elbow to the hand, was on the floor beside the chair, as though she’d dropped it, knocked it off the edge like a misplaced remote control.
And then the purring began again—the goddamned cat—and I looked down to see her rolling on the carpet beside the dark mess, as if the smell were catnip to her, and not the stench of the putrefying bodily fluids of a decomposing corpse.
Colin
I was eating cornflakes and reading jokes aloud from the back of the 1982 Beano annual when my father clutched his chest and dropped dead on the kitchen floor.
Looking back it almost seems comical, but I believe that this was the moment when my life took a change in direction. My father was the sort of person you could read jokes to. He would spend Sundays fixing the car and I would help him, learning where all the pieces went and what they all did. He laughed a lot and together we both laughed at my mother, who was thin, and serious, and bitter.
After he died, I couldn’t bring myself to read the Beano anymore. I didn’t really laugh anymore, either.
It’s grim, feeling like this on a Monday morning. Other people have hangovers, people my age, or they’ve spent the weekend camping, or shagging their girlfriends. Or shagging someone else’s girlfriend. I’ve spent my weekend writing an essay, and staying up too late with whiskey and porn. As a result I’m finding it impossible to concentrate on the budgets.
The trouble is that I’m not sure I even want a girlfriend anymore. I like my life the way it is, carefully ordered. I like my house the way it is. I’m not pathetically tidy—no visiting psychologist would have concerns for my sanity—but I think I would find it annoying to have to accommodate someone else’s things: clothes finding their way into my closet, books onto my bookshelf, food into my fridge. No, I don’t want that. I don’t have room in my house. And I don’t suppose I have room in my head, either.
Still, sex would be nice.
Garth has once again failed to bathe this weekend. He’s on the far side of the office yet I still catch a sniff of him every so often. As hard as I try to concentrate on happier things, I can’t help breathing in his direction, experimentally tasting the air again and again, incredulous that such a scent could possibly come from a normal, gainfully employed adult. He picks food out of his teeth, which is accompanied by a sucking noise, and while this nauseates me I find myself glancing across at him, watching him rooting around the back of his molars with a probing finger and wondering what he’s eaten that could possibly become that stuck. He has ink on his fingers, too, like a schoolboy, and, while I loathe the man, while every second in his presence is a form of torture to my senses, I have this dreadful fascination with him—an unquenchable curiosity about how someone so repellent can subsist in the modern world.
Martha saunters in late. New shoes, I notice—the third pair this month by my reckoning.
Morning, Colin—good weekend?
She doesn’t really want to know, of course. It took me a while to work out that the question is rhetorical, a ritual for a Monday morning. The first few times she asked, I told her at great length what I’d done over the weekend, carefully editing the details that even I knew were not appropriate to share with a colleague. She looked vacant after a few minutes. She stopped asking after that, and only recently—I believe when someone else asked me the same thing within earshot and got a brief response—did she recommence with the Monday ritual.
Fine, thank you. And you?
It had certainly been eventful, especially Friday evening, but of course I wasn’t about to supply her with the details.
On occasion I heard her telling one of the others all about her weekend—kite flying or baking or hiking or going to a fête or watching football or visiting her cousin or landscaping the yard—but her reply to me was invariably the same.
It was good, thanks.
Vaughn sends me an e-mail asking if I want to go to the Red Lion at lunchtime. I’m tempted to ask if he wants to go now; I doubt things are going to suddenly get more exciting here in the next three hours. It’s sad that the thought of half an hour in a dark, moldy pub next to the gasworks with Vaughn Bradstock is so cheering.
When I get to the Red Lion, twenty minutes early, not even noon, Vaughn is already there at our usual corner table, with a pint of John Smith’s waiting for me. Vaughn and I worked together, many years ago. He used to be a contractor in the IT department at work, and for some reason we developed a friendship that endured even when he moved on to other projects. He gave up contracting in favor of the security of something more permanent, and now he works for a software development company in the town center. Handy for the Red Lion.
Colin,
he says tonelessly in acknowledgment of my arrival.
Vaughn,
I reply.
He wants to talk about his girlfriend again. It’s usually that, or philately.
I brace myself with a couple of good swallows of the bitter, wondering whether it’s too early to be thinking about a whiskey chaser. Meanwhile Vaughn prattles on about whether his girlfriend is having an affair. I want to point out that she can hardly be in the first flush of youth. Surely it’s unlikely? But he’s convinced that she is lying to him about something. He sits with his head bent low over his pint, pondering whether taking her to Weston-super-Mare is a good idea.
My mother took me to Weston-super-Mare on vacation the summer after my father died. We stayed in a guesthouse three streets back from the ocean—close enough to hear the gulls, not close enough to hear the sea. I was almost thirteen years old and already I didn’t fit into my own skull. I read Eliot and Kafka and watched documentaries on BBC2. I stayed up late and got up early to watch the Open University programs, back when it was all beards and flared pants. My mother wanted me to build sandcastles and run in the sea, laughing. I don’t think I laughed once the whole time I was there. I sat in the shade and read until she took my books away. After that I sat in the shade and tried not to look at the girls on the beach.
Weston-super-Mare’s probably a bad idea,
I say.
In the end I take pity on poor old Vaughn and tell him about corticolimbic responses and nonverbal cues, poor guy.
What the hell’s a limbic response?
he asks me. And then, before I can respond, Oh, don’t tell me. It’s that bloody course you’ve been taking, isn’t it?
Poor Vaughn: he likes to think he’s intellectual because he reads the Guardian and drinks a Java blend on weekends.
It’s how you can tell if someone’s lying to you,
I explain. You look at body language, visual cues, autonomic responses, that kind of thing. And you may scoff, but the course has been fascinating, in fact.
He looks blank.
All right,
I say. Let’s try a little experiment. I’m going to ask you three questions, and I want you to deliberately lie in one of your answers. I’ll see if I can tell when you’re lying. If I’m right, you can buy me another pint. If I’m wrong, I’ll buy your drinks for the next month. Want to give it a try?
Oh, yes, all right, then,
he says. I get the impression he’s cheering up a bit. He’s smiling, but I don’t always trust my instincts with Vaughn. He might be suicidal for all I know. I have been known to get it wrong. Eleanor smiled at me that night, after all, didn’t she? And look how that turned out.
Right, then,
I say. Let’s see. Think back to the bedroom you had when you were a teenager. Picture what it was like. Now I want you to describe it to me, just as if you’re standing in the doorway looking in. What can you see?
Well, goodness. I guess it’s the dorm I shared with Roger Hotchkiss at St. Stephen’s. There are two beds, one on each side of the room—mine is neatly made; Hotchkiss hasn’t made his, of course—a wardrobe at the foot of each bed, nearest to the door . . . Then the window straight in front of me, which looks out over the kitchens. And a large desk underneath the window. Bookshelves above the beds. We weren’t allowed posters.
He pauses for a moment, tapping his chin thoughtfully, his gaze up and to his left. This is going to be too easy.
That it?
I can’t think of anything else.
OK, then, next question. What does your cell phone ringtone sound like?
It’s just the standard ring I’m afraid. I can never be bothered with anything more elaborate.
That one was a bit quicker, but I still pick up on the cue that tells me he is telling the truth. In fact, I know it’s the truth because his answer reminds me that I’ve heard his phone go off in the pub before now. Maybe I’m subconsciously trying to cheat? In any case, the next question is going to be the one.
Right, final question. Tell me about your journey home last night. Did you go straight home? What time did you get there?
It’s only a small hesitation, a brief flick of his gaze up and to the right, but it’s plenty. When he speaks, he even raises his pitch—too easy, way too easy.
I didn’t go straight home, no. I stopped off at the Co-op and bought some sausages and potatoes for supper. I probably got home—ooh, at about a quarter past six.
I sit back and polish off the last of my pint. I press my fingertips into my temples and close my eyes, taking a deep, noisy breath in through my nostrils as though some peculiar psychic process is taking place.
Your last answer wasn’t quite true,
I say at last. Although I think the lie was quite nicely buried. You did get home at about a quarter past six, so you probably did stop off somewhere. You did stop off at the Co-op, but whatever it was you bought, it wasn’t sausages and potatoes. Am I right?
He’s shaking his head and for a moment I wonder if I’ve gotten it wrong, or if he is going to try to fudge his way out of it.
A bottle of Zinfandel and a toffee yogurt,
he says softly.
Another pint of John Smith’s,
I reply.
After I get home I stay up far too late again: too much whiskey again, useless porn again, a fruitless wank in the end. Too much whiskey, as I said. When I got back from my visit earlier, I started off reading something improving—forensic biology in this case, a topic of endless fascination—then moved on to reading something improving but possibly not in the way the original writers intended it to be, and then something that’s unlikely to improve anything other than the bank balance of some seedy porn producer in Eastern Europe. Not that I pay for it, of course.
I’m still feeling rather pleased with myself. Vaughn was so impressed with my display of brilliance that he demanded to know how I’d done it. I explained about nonverbal clues, how to watch a person’s eyes to establish visual construct as opposed to recollection, how to spot signs of discomfort, and how each of the little clues adds up to form an indisputable picture. I pointed out that when he’d considered the last question, his eyes had flickered up to the right, a sure sign of visual construct, followed by a look up to the left, indicating that there were going to be some elements of recollection in what he said, too. This told me that he was planning to frame his lie around some elements of truth. Added to this, the discomfort he showed when I prepared to ask the last question, the tensing of his shoulders, the shifting in his seat—slightly away from me, I noticed—and his breathing, told me that he’d clearly told the truth in answer to the first two questions and knew that this one was going to have to contain an untruth. When he told me about his shopping, the sausages and what else was it—potatoes, that was it, bangers and mash, how utterly appropriate—he moistened his lips swiftly with the tip of his tongue and then rubbed his fingers across his mouth. A natural gesture, of course, and in any other context it might have been simply an itch, a sniffle, a crumb. But it confirmed the lie.
I told him all that, and of course gave him some ideas of things to look out for the next time he and Audrey are discussing indelicate matters. I try hard not to picture Audrey because, as soon as I do, I find myself imagining her naked and from then on it’s a short hop to seeing Vaughn naked, too, and the pair of them fucking away, a happy missionary pairing if ever there was one. Despite my best efforts, I still end up thinking about it all the way to Vaughn suddenly tensing and crying out, shouting in a way I’ve never heard him shout in the office, or the pub either, for that matter.
Feel rather grubby after that little lapse in concentration and have to get up out of bed at two forty-five to have another shower.
Martha asked me once about my parents. I must have been feeling communicative on that particular occasion, or else it could have been one of those situations in which to refuse to answer might have appeared rude; in any case, I told her how my father died when I was eleven.
You poor boy,
she said. I wondered if I should be offended, but then understood she was addressing my younger self. It must have been incredibly traumatic to lose your father at such a difficult age.
I did not understand what she meant by a difficult age, nor what she meant, really, by traumatic. Life goes on,
I said with a shrug.
Yes, but still—such a shame.
The living being is only a species of the dead, and a very rare species at that.
That sounds like a quote, Colin. Who said that?
I did. Well, to be fair, I’m paraphrasing Nietzsche. I’m assuming you would prefer to hear it in English rather than the original German.
She thinks I’m weird; they all do. This was at the beginning, when I first started working for the city; they were all very chatty back then. Now I find that they leave me alone and avoid falling into conversation with me, unless circumstances force them to do so. Even then they seem to look at me warily. I think Martha views me as something of a personal challenge.
My father’s funeral was held on a Saturday to enable his work colleagues to come along. There was considerable debate about whether I should be allowed to attend. I remember overhearing a conversation between my mother and her friend a few days before.
You know what he’s like,
my mother was saying. He thinks about things so much.
But he’s nearly an adult, Delia. It might help him come to terms with things.
In the end my mother relented—although it might have also been due to the lack of available babysitters to keep an eye on me. As it ended up being such a dramatic occasion, I remain glad to this day that I got the chance to attend.
I had no appropriate outfit so I wore my school uniform, even the blazer and cap. It was a hot day, with fierce, unrelenting sunshine, and of course the assembled throng were all dressed in black. My mother even had on her black coat, the one with the mink collar he’d bought her in New York. Everyone sweltered on the way to the church, gained some relief during the service, and then sweltered outside for the interment. Bored beyond bored, I roasted and sweated; my shirt was damp under my blazer. I stood next to my mother and thought about something I’d read: how King Henry VIII’s body was so bloated by decomposition gases while it was being transported from Whitehall to Windsor that the coffin burst open overnight. The next morning they found dogs feeding on the remains of the king. And that was in winter! What would the body of my father look like, given that it was the height of summer? I considered that his body, held in storage for nearly three weeks pending the postmortem and the inquest, might actually still be frozen, defrosting slowly in that box like a melting Eskimo Pie. I felt compelled to touch the wood, to feel if it was cold. As the vicar warbled on, I took a step forward toward the coffin, which was on a bed of plastic grass of the sort you see covering the tables at the greengrocer’s. My mother, who must have panicked at my sudden movement, lurched forward, her hand out to grab my shoulder, and stumbled over the uneven ground. In doing so, she knocked me over, too, and we both ended up lying inches from the open grave. The shock of it all, or maybe the excessive heat and her ridiculous coat, or maybe even the gin she’d consumed earlier to fortify herself for the ordeal ahead, caused her to vomit as people rushed to pull her to her feet. I couldn’t help laughing at them, being sprayed with vomit as my mother continued to heave. Some of the mourners started to retch themselves. The vicar’s face . . .
It was the primary topic of conversation at the wake that followed. All conceivable options were considered: my mother had fainted and I had tried to catch her; she’d suddenly been taken unwell and had fallen against me; we were both so grief-stricken that one or both of us were trying to throw ourselves into the grave. My mother, pale and weeping, replenishing her bloodstream with more gin and fanning herself with the funeral program, kept a close eye on me at the wake, and afterward it was never spoken of again.
BRIARSTONE CHRONICLE MARCH
Dead Woman Lay Undiscovered for up to a Year
POLICE REPORT
The body of a woman was discovered yesterday at a house in Laurel Crescent, Briarstone. A police spokesperson said that the body was in an advanced state of decomposition and was found in the bedroom to the rear of the detached property.
The building is one of several in Laurel Crescent scheduled for demolition and police were called after construction workers noticed that the building was apparently still occupied.
Letters found at the address indicate that the deceased may have lain undiscovered for up to a year. The name of the deceased has not been made public as police and the coroner try to trace relatives or anyone who may have known the woman.
Judith
My name is Judith May Bingham, and when I died I was ninety-one.
I was afraid of many things until the end, which sounds very silly now because of course at the end nothing matters. Nothing matters at all. I was afraid of the people who lived next door, the teenage boys who came and went whenever they felt like it, and banged the door, and sat outside my house on the pavement, or even once on my fence, until they broke it. They would drive up and down the street on their motorcycles, or sit smoking and drinking from cans and shouting and throwing things at each other.
I was afraid of running out of money and not being able to buy food or keep the house warm.
I grew to be afraid of going out.
I was afraid of the woman who came from Social Services once to check up on me. She said she had heard I might need some extra help. I told her I did not, but she kept talking and talking until I asked her to leave. In fact I told her to fuck off. She wasn’t expecting to hear that and she tried to tell me off. She said she had a right to a pleasant working environment the same as anyone else and that there was no need for me to be rude. I said there was no need for her to speak to me in my own home as though I were an imbecile, and that I had asked her to leave nicely and she had ignored me.
At that time I was brave—and when she went and I locked the door behind her I laughed for a little while. It had been a long time since I used that word, and it felt good. It felt like being young again.
Forty years ago I was running a pub by the docks. It was a rough place. We had some nights when hardly anyone came in, and other nights when a ship or two had put in to shore when the place was full and people were spilling out onto the street outside. We had working girls there, too. When my husband, Stan, was alive he used to try to send them on their way, but as far as I was concerned their money was as good as anyone else’s. What they did to earn a living was neither here nor there.
We had fights all the time. It was part of the plan for them when they came off a ship: get drunk, find a girl, get into a fight, sober up, and get back to the ship in time for the tide. If we were lucky they took their disagreements outside; if we were unlucky the odd chair and several glasses might get broken. Once a young man was stabbed. That was terrible; he lived, though. Was fine, after. A few stitches and on his way.
Back in those days I wasn’t afraid of anything. I lived every day as it came and I expected there to be bad days; I knew I would get through them just the same as I did the good days. One thing you can’t stop is time passing.
As I said, I used to use that word all the time but I haven’t had cause to since I retired from the pub trade—until Miss Prim and her leaflets turned up and tried to tell me what to do.
A few hours after her visit, though, I grew afraid. I was afraid she’d come back with some official form or something to tell me I had to leave my house, go into a nursing home. I would rather have died than go into a home. I thought about finishing things, about doing something to make sure that I wouldn’t end up being taken away, but you need courage for that and by then I had none left.
I went to the Co-op at the end of the road twice a week to get my shopping, and to the doctor’s to get my prescription, but apart from that I never went out. I planned ways to finish it over and over again but it felt wrong to give up, and, besides, I was afraid of getting it wrong, not doing it properly. But all through my life I’d made choices for myself,