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Experience the dazzling brilliance of a world like ours—yet infinitely bolder and brighter: a place of kings and warriors, bards and battles, feats of glory and honour. It is a place you will forever wish to be. It is Albion.
"When I opened my eyes, I was no longer in the world I knew."
Lewis Gillies is an American graduate student in Oxford who should be getting on with his life. Yet for some reason, he finds himself speeding north with his roommate Simon on a lark—half-heartedly searching for a long-extinct creature allegedly spotted in a misty glen in Scotland. Expecting little more than a weekend diversion, Lewis accidently crosses through a mystical gateway where two worlds meet: into the time-between-times, as the ancient Celts called it. And into the heart of a collision between good and evil that's been raging since long before Lewis was born.
First published more than twenty years ago, The Song of Albion Trilogy has become a modern classic that continues to attract passionate new readers.
- Part of The Song of Albion trilogy:
- Book One: The Paradise War
- Book Two: The Silver Hand
- Book Three: The Endless Knot
- Epic historical fantasy
- Book length: 138,000 words
- Includes additional insights from the author in “Albion Forever!” and an interview
Stephen Lawhead
Stephen R. Lawhead is an internationally acclaimed author of mythic history and imaginative fiction. His works include Byzantium and the series The Pendragon Cycle, The Celtic Crusades, and The Song of Albion. Lawhead makes his home in Austria with his wife.
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- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5I finished this book the day my youngest sister was born. I had attempted the series and struggled with the open section. The first few (actually more than a few) chapters are downright boring. The author drags us through a long narration setting the scene for the two main characters in the books.
My Dad had noticed the books and took this one to the hospital while we waited for the birth. My Dad share a long history of reading the same book together. Every time he put it down I would pick it up. It was common for us to both have bookmarks in the same book.
If you can make it to the second part of the book, the rest of the series is brilliant. Even the first part of the book is good once you know what the rest of it is about. It does set up a nice scene, it is just tedious. - Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Paradise War by Stephen Lawhead, introduced me to Mr. Lawhead and I've been a devoted fan ever since. In this book, he imagines a parallel universe, connected by ancient cairns to England. The hero goes in and finds Albion, an idealization of England at its best. Life is more vivid, more beautiful, more breathtaking. The women are more beautiful, the men nobler, the kings more majestic. There are problems in paradise though. An ancient enemy reawakes and causes devastation. Since this world and our world are connected, disaster in one causes disaster in another. To solve the problems, an Oxford graduate student must change completely and become more than he ever imagined he could be.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Good stuff. You fall in love with the world described (although maybe it is just a bit too idyllic and perfect -- but that, it seems, is the point).
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5As much as I love the Pendragon Cycle, I think an argument could be made that The Paradise War is a stronger story. It's very nearly as archetypal - modern man finds a path into magical land of legend, saves world, etc - but the tensions set up between the two modern characters, the well-executed portrayal of the seductiveness of a world that accepts you as you are, and the mythic, if somewhat muddled, climax create a cohesive and compelling narrative. It does not stand on its own - the ending is a cliffhanger - but it holds together well.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Such a wonderful beginning to the trilogy! History and "magical" spins to it really excite me in books, and Lawhead is an expert! This entire trilogy is woven with such talent that you really begin to feel like Albion really is a place lost in time. Finding books that are truly Christian fiction in this manner is difficult, because the religious undertones are hidden and truly so essential to the tale that you almost do not realize they are there! There was so much going on in these books that reading them for a second and third time truly only brought out more details and perfect writing subtlety that the average reader misses on the first run.
- Rating: 2 out of 5 stars2/5Good story, but gets dragged down at times by pompous dialogue. Not very suspenseful due to repeated predictable pattern in which everything seems lost and then the hero figures out a solution. I enjoyed it but am not motivated to read the rest of the trilogy.
- Rating: 2 out of 5 stars2/5Well. I must admit I did return this to the library without finishing it. I kept reading and reading, almost to halfway through it just hoping for something to pick up and excite me. But it didn't... even when I got to the Otherworld. [author: Steven Lawhead] just did so much better with [book: Hood]. With [book: Hood] I was enraptured and in love with all the characters and events and could not read fast enough to get what was coming next. But perhaps it is because Hood was from last year (2006) where The Paradise War is from 1991, maybe Lawhead has just gotten better. Who knows. Either way, I do not really recommend this book. There are too many other, better things out there to read.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5A wonderful retelling of a Celtic Myth, placing a modern-day person into the position of a mythological hero. Very good read. I do not however, understand where the "Christian Fiction" tag that some are using comes from.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The author's best work, a well crafted celtic trilogy. Should you impose your standards on another's way of life. What happens when your world overlaps theirs?
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5First rate mythology that informs and vivifies both mind and spirit. Well done, Stephen!
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Two Oxford grad students find a portal between worlds in the shape of a cairn and find themselves (first one, then the other a few weeks later, which translates to years in the other world) pulled into a world inhabited by, essentially, ancient celts, and then entangled in the warrior ranks and embroiled in a semi-mystical war that may have repercussions in the 'real' world.This one started out promising but once it transitioned to the other world, it faltered into a big load of meh. The main character/narrator was completely lacking in any sort of personality, so I struggled to care about what happened to him, and the plot was both convoluted and dull. Disappointing. Needless to mention, but I won't be continuing with the trilogy.
- Rating: 1 out of 5 stars1/5The storyline and premise was interesting to begin with: an extinct animal found in Scotland to the delight of a bored, young privileged man at Oxford and then a meeting with the Green Man. However delightful the story may seem, however, the writing must carry it almost singularly, and it certainly did not. There was too much Wilde-esque whinging from the Brit, too much 'meh' and slowness from the Yank and nothing particularly happening.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Lewis was an English graduate in Oxford. But all of that changed when he stepped into the beautiful world of Albion.The Paradise War was a very good read. It was difficult, but very fun. You start out reading about his arrival, then you get into his travels in Ynys Sci. There he meets the lovely Gwenllian, and her other two sisters, Goewyn and Govan. He goes through many adventures, and meets many new people. This book is very good and I recommend it to any mature readers who like to read.
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The Paradise War - Stephen Lawhead
ACCLAIM FOR STEPHEN R. LAWHEAD’S PAST WORKS
[T]he narrative has the excitement of a fantasy novel, a vivid historical setting, and a lengthy, credible, and satisfying plot—just the right elements, in fact, that have made Lawhead a commercial success time and again.
—Publishers Weekly review of Byzantium
In a style reminiscent of Tolkien, Lawhead presents a world of vivid imagery. This book is a delight.
—Bookstore Journal regarding The Paradise War
"Patrick is unfailingly sympathetic and believable, and his story of losing and finding his faith will resonate with a wide spectrum of readers."
—Publishers Weekly
Celtic twilight shot with a brighter, fiercer light, and tinged with modern villainy . . . savagely beautiful.
—Michael Scott Rohan, author of the Winter of the World trilogy regarding The Endless Knot
Though Lawhead brilliantly creates an authentic and vivid Arthurian Britain, he never forsakes the sense of wonder that has graced the Arthurian legend throughout the ages.
—Publishers Weekly regarding Pendragon
Lawhead invests his often poetic vision of a Celtic land living ancient laws with charm and dignity.
—Publishers Weekly review of The Silver Hand
An epic struggle between Light and Darkness . . . well paced, exciting and well researched.
—Mick Norman, author of Forbidden Planet regarding The Silver Hand
This graceful combination of Atlantean legend, Celtic myth, and Christian message [is] reminiscent of C.S. Lewis. Highly recommended.
—Library Journal review of Taliesin: Book One of the Pendragon Cycle
"Lawhead’s [The Iron Lance] displays the author’s deep convictions as well as his storytelling expertise."
—Library Journal
Rich in historical detail and peopled with a wide variety of believable characters, this novel of simple faith and high adventure should appeal to fans of Christian fantasy.
—Library Journal review of The Black Rood: The Celtic Crusades Book 2
Lawhead pulls off a genuinely moving parable of good and evil.
—Publishers Weekly regarding Avalon: The Return of King Arthur
THE PARADISE WAR
OTHER TITLES BY STEPHEN R. LAWHEAD
The Dragon King Trilogy:
In the Hall of the Dragon King
The Warlords of Nin
The Sword and the Flame
Dream Thief
Empyrion I: The Search for Fierra
Empyrion II: The Siege of Dome
The Pendragon Cycle:
Taliesin
Merlin
Arthur
Pendragon
Grail
Avalon
Song of Albion trilogy:
The Paradise War
The Silver Hand
The Endless Knot
Byzantium
The Celtic Crusades:
The Iron Lance
The Black Rood
The Mystic Rose
Patrick, Son of Ireland
Hood
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© 1991, 2006 by Stephen Lawhead.
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Lawhead, Steve.
The paradise war / Stephen R. Lawhead.
p. cm. — (Song of Albion ; bk. 1)
ISBN 978-1-59554-219-9 (softcover)
1. Mythology, Celtic—Fiction. I. Title. II. Series: Lawhead, Steve. Song of Albion (WestBow Press) ; bk. 1.
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To Ruby Duryea
CONTENTS
PRONUNCIATION GUIDE
1. AN AUROCHS IN THE WORKS
2. DOOM ON THE HALFSHELL
3. THE GREEN MAN
4. AT THE DOOR TO THE WEST
5. THE CAIRN
6. THE BIG JOKE
7. MAD NETTLES
8. SUNWISE CIRCLES
9. THE ENDLESS KNOT
10. THE SERBIAN
11. THE CROSSING
12. PARADISE
13. BLOOD BAPTISM
14. CAER MODORNN
15. SYCHARTH
16. LLYS MELDRYN
17. THE ROAD TO YNYS SCI
18. SCATHA’S SCHOOL
19. SOLLEN
20. THE GORSEDD OF BARDS
21. CYTHRAWL
22. LLEW
23. THE DAY OF STRIFE
24. TWRCH
25. THE PARADISE WAR
26. THE BEACON
27. THE FLIGHT TO FINDARGAD
28. THE HUNT
29. NIGHTKILL
30. THE BATTLE OF DUN NA PORTH
31. KING’S COUNCIL
32. THE CAULDRON
33. HEART OF THE HEART
34. DOMHAIN DORCHA
35. SINGING STONES
36. THE SONG
37. THE KING’S CHAMPION
38. THE JOURNEY HOME
39. THE RETURN
ALBION FOREVER!
AUTHOR INTERVIEW
PRONUNCIATION GUIDE
Many of the old Celtic words and names are strange to modern eyes, but they are not as difficult to pronounce as they might seem at first glance. A little effort—and the following rough guide—will help you enjoy the sound of these ancient words.
Consonants – As in English, but with the following exceptions:
c: hard — as in cat (never soft, as in cent)
ch: hard — as in Bach (never soft, as in church)
dd: a hard th sound, as in then
f: a hard v sound, as in of
ff: a soft f sound, as in off
g: hard — as in girl (never soft, as in George)
ll: a Gaelic distinctive, sounded as tl or hl on the sides of the tongue
r: rolled or slightly trilled, especially at the beginning of a word
rh: breathed out as if h-r and heavy on the h sound
s: soft — as in sin (never hard, as in his); when followed by a vowel it takes on the sh sound
th: soft — as in thistle (never hard, as in then)
Vowels – As in English, but generally with the lightness of short vowel sounds
a: short, as in can
á: slightly softer than above, as in awe;
e: usually short, as in met
é: long a sound, as in hey
i: usually short, as in pin
í: long e sound, as in see
o: usually short, as in hot
ó: long o sound, as in woe
ô: long o sound, as in go
u: usually sounded as a short i, as in pin;
ú: long u sound as in sue
ù: short u sound as in muck
w: sounded as a long u, as in hue; before vowels often becomes a soft consonant as in the name Gwen
y: usually short, as in pin; sometimes u as in pun; when long, sounded e as in see; rarely, y as in why)
The careful reader will have noted that there is very little difference between i, u, and y—they are almost identical to non-Celts and modern readers.
Most Celtic words are stressed on the next to the last syllable. For example, the personal name Gofannon is stressed go-FAN-non, and the place name Penderwydd is stressed pen-DER-width, and so on.
Since all the world is but a story,
it were well for thee to buy
the more enduring story rather than
the story that is less enduring.
THE JUDGMENT OF ST. COLUM CILLE
(ST. COLUMBA OF SCOTLAND)
1
AN AUROCHS IN
THE WORKS
It all began with the aurochs.
We were having breakfast in our rooms at college. Simon was presiding over the table with his accustomed critique on the world as evidenced by the morning’s paper. Oh, splendid,
he sniffed. It looks as if we have been invaded by a pack of free-loading foreign photographers keen on exposing their film—and who knows what else—to the exotic delights of Dear Old Blighty. Lock up your daughters, Bognor Regis! European paparazzi are loose in the land!
He rambled on a while, and then announced: Hold on! Have a gawk at this!
He snapped the paper sharp and sat up straight—an uncommon posture for Simon.
Gawk at what?
I asked idly. This thing of his—reading the paper aloud to a running commentary of facile contempt, scorn, and sarcasm, well mixed and peppered with his own unique blend of cynicism—had long since ceased to amuse me. I had learned to grunt agreeably while eating my egg and toast. This saved having to pay attention to his tirades, eloquent though they often were.
Some bewildered Scotsman has found an aurochs in his patch.
You don’t say.
I dipped a corner of toast triangle into the molten center of a soft-boiled egg and read an item about a disgruntled driver on the London Underground refusing to stop to let off passengers, thereby compelling a train full of frantic commuters to ride the Circle Line for over five hours. That’s interesting.
Apparently the beast wandered out of a nearby wood and collapsed in the middle of a hay field twenty miles or so east of Inverness.
Simon lowered the paper and gazed at me over the top. Did you hear what I just said?
Every word. Wandered out of the forest and fell down next to Inverness—probably from boredom,
I replied. I know just how he felt.
Simon stared at me. Don’t you realize what this means?
It means that the local branch of the RSPCA gets a phone call. Big deal.
I took a sip of coffee and returned to the sports page before me. I wouldn’t call it news exactly.
"You don’t know what an aurochs is, do you? he accused.
You haven’t a clue."
A beast of some sort—you said so yourself just now,
I protested. Really, Simon, the papers you read—
I flicked his upraised tabloid with a disdainful finger. Look at these so-called headlines: ‘Princess Linked to Alien Sex Scheme!’ and ‘Shock Horror Weekend for Bishop with Massage Parlor Turk!’ Honestly, you only read those rags to fuel your pessimism.
He was not moved. You haven’t the slightest notion what an aurochs is. Go on, Lewis, admit it.
I took a wild stab. It’s a breed of pig.
Nice try!
Simon tossed his head back and laughed. He had a nasty little fox-bark that he used when he wanted to deride someone’s ignorance. Simon was extremely adept at derision—a master of disdain, mockery, and ridicule in general.
I refused to be drawn. I returned to my paper and stuffed the toast into my mouth.
A pig? Is that what you said?
He laughed again.
Okay, okay! What, pray tell, is an aurochs, Professor Rawnson?
Simon folded the paper in half and then in quarters. He creased it and held it before me. An aurochs is a sort of ox.
Why, think of that,
I gasped in feigned astonishment. "An ox, you say? It fell down? Oh my, what won’t they think of next? I yawned.
Give me a break."
Put like that it doesn’t sound like much,
Simon allowed. Then he added, Only it just so happens that this particular ox is an ice-age creature which has been extinct for the last two thousand years.
Extinct.
I shook my head slowly. Where do they get this malarkey? If you ask me, the only thing that’s extinct around here is your native skepticism.
It seems the last aurochs died out in Britain sometime before the Romans landed—although a few may have survived on the continent into the sixth century or so.
Fascinating,
I replied.
Simon shoved the folded paper under my nose. I saw a grainy, badly printed photo of a huge black mound that might or might not have been mammalian in nature. Standing next to this ill-defined mass was a grim-looking middle-aged man holding a very long, curved object in his hands, roughly the size and shape of an old-fashioned scythe. The object appeared to be attached in some way to the black bulk beside him.
How bucolic! A man standing next to a manure heap with a farm implement in his hands. How utterly homespun,
I scoffed in a fair imitation of Simon himself.
That manure heap, as you call it, is the aurochs, and the implement in the farmer’s hands is one of the animal’s horns.
I looked at the photo again and could almost make out the animal’s head below the great slope of its shoulders. Judging by the size of the horn, the animal would have been enormous—easily three or four times the size of a normal cow. Trick photography,
I declared.
Simon clucked his tongue. I am disappointed in you, Lewis. So cynical for one so young.
You don’t actually believe this
—I jabbed the paper with my finger—this trumped-up tripe, do you? They make it up by the yard—manufacture it by the carload!
Well,
Simon admitted, picking up his teacup and gazing into it, you’re probably right.
You bet I’m right,
I crowed. Prematurely, as it turned out. I should have known better.
Still, it wouldn’t hurt to check it out.
He lifted the cup, swirled the tea, and drained it. Then, as if his mind were made up, he placed both hands flat on the tabletop and stood.
I saw the sly set of his eyes. It was a look I knew well and dreaded. You can’t be serious.
But I am perfectly serious.
Forget it.
Come on. It will be an adventure.
I’ve got a meeting with my adviser this afternoon. That’s more than enough adventure for me.
I want you with me,
Simon insisted.
What about Susannah?
I countered. I thought you were supposed to meet her for lunch.
Susannah will understand.
He turned abruptly. We’ll take my car.
No. Really. Listen, Simon, we can’t go chasing after this ox thing. It’s ridiculous. It’s nothing. It’s like those fairy rings in the cornfields that had everybody all worked up last year. It’s a hoax. Besides, I can’t go—I’ve got work to do, and so have you.
A drive in the country will do you a world of good. Fresh air. Clear the cobwebs. Nourish the inner man.
He walked briskly into the next room. I could hear him dialing the phone, and a moment later he said, Listen, Susannah, about today . . . terribly sorry, dear heart, something’s come up . . . Yes, just as soon as I get back . . . Later . . . Yes, Sunday, I won’t forget . . . cross my heart and hope to die. Cheers!
He replaced the receiver and dialed again. Rawnson here. I’ll be needing the car this morning . . . Fifteen minutes. Right. Thanks, awfully.
Simon!
I shouted. I refuse!
This is how I came to be standing in St. Aldate’s on a rainy Friday morning in the third week of Michaelmas term, drizzle dripping off my nose, waiting for Simon’s car to be brought around, wondering how he did it.
We were both graduate students, Simon and I. We shared rooms, in fact. But where Simon had only to whisper into the phone and his car arrived when and where he wanted it, I couldn’t even get the porter to let me lean my poor, battered bicycle against the gate for half a minute while I checked my mail. Rank hath its privileges, I guess.
Nor did the gulf between us end there. While I was little above medium height, with a build that, before the mirror, could only be described as weedy, Simon was tall and regally slim, well muscled, yet trim—the build of an Olympic fencer. The face I displayed to the world boasted plain, somewhat lumpen features, crowned with a lackluster mat the color of old walnut shells. Simon’s features were sharp, well cut, and clean; he had the kind of thick, dark, curly hair women admire and openly covet. My eyes were mouse gray; his were hazel. My chin drooped; his jutted.
The effect when we appeared in public together was, I imagine, much in the order of a live before-and-after advertisement for Nature’s Own Wonder Vitamins & Handsome Tonic. He had good looks to burn and the sort of rugged and ruthless masculinity both sexes find appealing. I had the kind of looks that often improve with age, although it was doubtful that I should live so long.
A lesser man would have been jealous of Simon’s bounteous good fortune. However, I accepted my lot and was content. All right, I was jealous too—but it was a very contented jealousy.
Anyway, there we were, the two of us, standing in the rain, traffic whizzing by, buses disgorging soggy passengers on the busy pavement around us, and me muttering in lame protest. This is dumb. It’s stupid. It’s childish and irresponsible, that’s what it is. It’s nuts.
You’re right, of course,
he agreed affably. Rain pearled on his driving cap and trickled down his waxed-cotton shooting jacket.
We can’t just drop everything and go racing around the country on a whim.
I crossed my arms inside my plastic poncho. I don’t know how I let you talk me into these things.
It’s my utterly irresistible charm, old son.
He grinned disarmingly. We Rawnsons have bags of it.
Yeah, sure.
Where’s your spirit of adventure?
My lack of adventurous spirit was something he always threw at me whenever he wanted me to go along with one of his lunatic exploits. I preferred to see myself as stable, steady-handed, a both-feet-on-the-ground, practical-as-pie realist through and through.
It’s not that,
I quibbled. I just don’t need to lose four days of work for nothing.
It’s Friday,
he reminded me. It’s the weekend. We’ll be back on Monday in plenty of time for your precious work.
We haven’t even packed toothbrushes or a change of underwear,
I pointed out.
Very well,
he sighed, as if I had beaten him down at last, you’ve made your point. If you don’t wish to go, I won’t force you.
Good.
I’ll go alone.
He stepped into the street just as a gray Jaguar Sovereign purred to a halt in front of him. A man in a black bowler hat scrambled from the driver’s seat and held the door for him.
Thank you, Mr. Bates,
Simon said. The man touched the brim of his hat and hurried away to the porters’ lodge. Simon glanced at me across the rain-beaded roof of the sleek automobile and smiled. Well, chum? Going to let me have all the fun alone?
Curse you, Simon!
I shouted, yanked the door open, and ducked in. I don’t need this!
Laughing, Simon slid in and slammed the door. He shifted into gear, then punched the accelerator to the floor. The tires squealed on the wet pavement as the car leapt forward. Simon yanked the wheel and executed a highly illegal U-turn in the middle of the street, to the blaring of bus horns and the curses of cyclists.
Heaven help us, we were off.
2
DOOM ON
THE HALFSHELL
There are worse things than cruising up the M6 in a Jaguar Sovereign with Handel’s Water Music bathing the ragged aural nerve ends. The car tops ninety without a murmur, without a shimmy. Silent landscape glides by effortlessly. Cool leather imparts a loving embrace. Tinted glass shades the wayworn eye. The interior cocoons, cushioning the passenger from the shocks and alarms of the road. It is a fabulous machine. I would throttle a rhinoceros to own one.
Simon’s father, a merchant banker of some obscure stripe and well on the way to a lordship one day, had bought it for his son. In much the same way, he was buying Simon a top-drawer Oxford education. Nothing but the best for dear Simey.
The Rawnsons had money. Oh yes, they did. Piles of the stuff. Some of it old; most of it new. They also enjoyed that singular attribute prized by the English above all others: breeding. Simon’s great-grandmother was a duchess. His grandmother had married a lord who raised racehorses and once sold a Derby winner to Queen Victoria, thereby ensuring fame and fortune forevermore. Simon’s family was one of those quietly respectable tribes that marry shrewdly and end up owning Cornwall, the Lake District, and half of Buckinghamshire before anyone has noticed. All of which made Simon a spoiled brat, of course.
I think, in another day and age, Simon might have been sublimely happy idling away in a honey-stoned manor house in the Midlands, training horses and hounds, and playing the country squire. But he knew too much now to be content with a life of bag balm and jodhpurs. Alas, education had ruined that cozy scenario for him.
If any man was ever untimely born, it was Simon Rawnson. All the same, he could not suppress that aristocratic strain; it declared itself in the very warp and woof of him. I could see the lad as the lord of vast estates, as a duke with scurrying minions and a stately pile in Sussex. But not as an academic. Not for Simon the ivied halls and dreaming spires. Simon lacked the all-consuming passion of the great scholar and the ambition necessary to survive the narrow cut and thrust of academic infighting. In short, he had a genuine aptitude for academic work but no real need to succeed at it. As a result, he did not take his work seriously enough.
He wasn’t a slouch. Nor was it a matter of simply buying his sheepskin with Daddy’s fat checkbook. Simon had rightly won his pride of place with a particularly brilliant undergraduate career. But as a third-year doctoral candidate, he was finding it too much work. What did he want with a degree in history anyway? He had no intention of conducting any original research, and teaching was the furthest thing from his mind. He had no higher academic aspirations at all. Two years into the program, Simon was simply going through the motions. Lately, he wasn’t even doing that.
I had seen it happening—seen the glittering prize slipping away from him as he began to shirk his studies. It was a model case of graduate burnout. One sees it often enough in Oxford and comes to recognize the symptoms. Then again, maybe Simon just aimed to protract his university experience as long as possible since he had nothing else planned. It is true that with money, college can be a cushy life. Even without money it’s better than most things going.
I did not blame Simon; I felt sorry for him. I don’t know what I would have done in his place. Like a lot of American students in Oxford, however, I had to justify my existence at every turn. I desperately wanted my degree, and I could not be seen to fail. I could not allow myself to be shipped back across the pond with my tail tucked between my legs. Thus, I had a built-in drive to achieve and to succeed that Simon would never possess, nor properly understand.
That, as I think of it, was one of the principal differences between us: I have had to scrape for every small crumb I have enjoyed, while Simon does not know the meaning of the word strive.
Everything he had—everything he was—had been given him, granted outright. Everything he ever wanted came to him freely, without merit. People made allowances for Simon Rawnson simply because of who he was. No one made allowances for Lewis Gillies. Ever. What little I had—and it was scant indeed—at least was mine because I had earned it. Merit was an alien concept in Simon’s universe. It was the central fact of mine.
Yet, despite our differences, we were friends. Right from the start, when we drew next-door rooms on the same staircase that first year, we knew we would get on together. Simon had no brothers, so he adopted
me as such. We spent our undergraduate days sampling the golden nectar of the vats at The Turf, rowing on the river, giving the girls a bad time, and generally behaving as well as anyone might expect untethered Oxford men to behave.
I don’t mean to make it sound as if we were wastrels and rakes. We studied when we had to and passed the exams we had to pass with the marks we needed. We were, simply, neither more nor less serious than any two typical undergraduate students.
Upon graduation I applied for a place in the Celtic Studies program and was accepted. Being the only student from my hometown high school ever to attend Oxford, let alone graduate, was A Very Big Deal. It was written up in the local paper to the delight of my sponsors, the American Legion Post Forty-three, who, in a giddy rush of self-congratulation, granted me a healthy stipend for books and expenses. I hustled around and scrounged a small grant to cover the rest, and, Presto! I was in business.
Simon thought an advanced degree sounded like a splendid idea, so he went in for history—though why that and not astrophysics or animal husbandry or anything else is beyond me. But, as I said, he had a good brain under his bonnet, and his advisers seemed to think he’d make out all right. He was even offered rooms in college—a most highly sought-after situation. Places for undergrad students are scarce enough, but rooms for graduates are out of the question for any but the truly prized individual.
Privilege again, I suppose. Simon’s father, Geoffrey Rawnson, of Blackledge, Rawnson, and Symes Ltd., no doubt had something to do with it. But who was I to complain? Top of the staircase and furnished with a goodly share of the college’s priceless antiques—no less than three Italian Renaissance masterpieces, carved oak paneling, Tiffany tables, a crystal chandelier, two Chippendale desks, and a red leather davenport. Nor did the regal appointments end there; we had a meticulous scout, good meals in the dining hall fortified with liberal doses of passable plonk from the college cellarer’s legendary cellars, modest use of student assistants, library privileges undergrads would kill for—all that and a splendid view across the quad to the cathedral spire. Where would I get a situation like that on my own?
Simon wanted us to continue on together as before, so he arranged for me to share his rooms. I think he saw it as three or four more years of bachelor bliss. Easy for him. Money was no object. He could well afford to dither and dally till doomsday, but I had my hands full just keeping up with the fees. It was imperative that I finish, get my degree, and land a teaching position as quickly as possible. I dearly loved Oxford, but I had student loans to repay and a family back in the States who had begun wondering loudly and often if they were ever going to see me again.
Also, I was rapidly reaching an age where marriage—or at least concubinage—appealed. I was tired of my prolonged celibacy, tired of wending my weary way along life’s cold corridors alone. I longed for the civilizing influence of a woman in my crude existence, as well as a graceful female form in my bed.
This is why I resented taking this absurd trip with Simon. I was neck-deep in my thesis: The Influence of Goidelic Cosmography in Medieval Travel Literature. Lately, I had begun to sense fresh wind on my face and the faint glimmer of light ahead. Confidence was feebly sprouting. I was coming to the end at last. Maybe.
It is likely Simon realized this and, perhaps unconsciously, set out to sabotage me. He simply didn’t want our good times to end. If I completed my degree ahead of him, he would have to face the cruel world alone—a prospect he sought to hold off as long as humanly possible. So he contrived all sorts of ingenious stratagems for sidetracking me.
This asinine aurochs business was just another delaying tactic. Why did I go along with it? Why did I allow him to do this to me?
The truth? Maybe I didn’t really want to finish, either. Deep down, I was afraid—of failure, of facing the great unknown beyond the ivory towers of academia. After all, if I didn’t finish, I wouldn’t fail; if I didn’t finish, I could just live in my snug little womb forever. It’s sick, I know. But it’s the truth, and a far more common malady among academics than most people realize. The university system is founded on it, after all.
Move yer bloomin’ arse!
muttered Simon at the driver of a dangerously overloaded mini. Get over, you great pillock.
He had been muttering for the last fifty miles or so. A six-mile traffic jam around Manchester had put us well and truly behind schedule, and the motorway traffic was beginning to get to him. I glanced at the clock on the dash: three forty-seven. Digital clocks are symptomatic of our ambivalent age; they provide the precise time to the nanosecond, but no greater context: an infinite succession of You Are Here
arrows, but nary a map.
It’s almost four o’clock,
I pointed out. Why not take a break and get some tea? There’s a service area coming up.
He nodded. Yeah, sure. I could do with a pee.
A few minutes later, Simon worked his way over to the exit lane and we were coasting into an M6 oasis. The parking lot was jammed; everyone had rolled up for tea. And many of them were having it inside their cars. I have always wondered about this peculiar habit. Why would these people spend hour upon hour driving and then pull into a rest area only to stay locked in their cars with the windows rolled up, eating sandwiches from a shoebox and drinking tepid tea from a thermos? Not my idea of a welcome break.
We parked, locked the car, and walked to the low brick bunker. A foul gray sky sprinkled drizzle on us, and a brisk diesel-scented wind drove it into our clothes. Oh, please, no,
Simon moaned.
What’s wrong?
He lifted a dismissive hand to the much-abused blue plastic letters affixed to the gray concrete wall facing us. The gesture was pure disdain. It’s a Motorman Inn—they’re the worst.
We shuffled into the gents. It was damp and filthy. Evidently some misguided rustic had herded diarrhetic cattle through the place and the management had yet to come to terms with the crisis. We finished our business quickly and retreated to the concourse where we proceeded past a gang of black-leathered bandits loitering before a bank of screeching kill-or-be-killed arcade games. The cheerful thugs tried to beg loose change from us, but Simon imperiously ignored them, and we pushed through the glass door and into the cafeteria.
There was a queue, of course, and the cakes were stale and the biscuits shopworn. In the end, I settled for a Twix bar and a mug of tea. Simon, on the other hand, confessed to feeling puckish and ordered chicken and chips, apple crumble and cream, and a coffee.
I found us a table and, having paid, Simon folded himself into the booth opposite me. The room was loud with the clank of cutlery and rank with cigarette smoke. The floor beneath our table was slimy with mashed peas. Too utterly grotesque,
groaned Simon, but not without a certain grim satisfaction. A real pigsty. The Motormaniacs strike again.
I sipped my tea. The balance of milk to brew had been seriously overestimated, but never mind; it was hot. You want me to drive a while? I’m happy to spell you.
Simon dashed brown vinegar from a satchet over his chicken and chips. He speared a long sliver of potato; the soggy digit dangled limply from his fork. He glared at it in disgust before popping it into his mouth, then slowly turned his basilisk gaze toward the food counter and the kitchen beyond. These subliterate drones have no higher challenge to their vestigial mental faculties than to dip over-processed potatoes into warm oil,
he said icily. You’d think they’d get it right eventually—the laws of chance, if nothing else.
I didn’t want to get involved, so I unwrapped my Twix and broke off a piece. How much farther to Inverness, do you reckon?
Writing off the chips as a total loss, Simon moved on to the chicken, grimacing as he wrestled a strip of woody flesh from the carcass. Putrid,
was his verdict. I don’t mind it being lukewarm, but I hate congealed chicken. It should have been chucked in the bin hours ago.
He shoved the plate aside violently, scattering greasy chips across the table.
The apple whatsit looks good,
I observed, more out of pity than conviction.
Simon pulled the bowl to him and tested the contents with a spoon. He made a face and spat the mouthful back into the bowl. Nauseating,
he declared. England produces the finest apples on the planet, and these malfeasant cretins use infectious tinned refuse from some flyblown police state. Moreover, we stand amidst dairy-land which is the envy of the free world, a land veritably flowing with milk and honey, but what do we get? Freeze-dried vegi-milk substitute reconstituted with dishwater. It’s criminal.
It’s road food, Simon. Forget it.
It’s stupid bloody-mindedness,
he replied, taking up the bowl and lifting it high. I was afraid he was going to fling it across the room. Instead, he overturned it ceremoniously upon the offending chicken and greasy chips. He pulled his coffee to him, and I offered him half of my chocolate bar, hoping to pacify.
I don’t mind the money,
he said softly. I don’t mind throwing money away—I do that all the time. What I mind is the cynicism.
Cynicism?
I wondered. Highway robbery, perhaps, but I wouldn’t call it cynicism.
My dear fellow, that’s exactly what it is. You see, the thieving blighters know they have you—you’re trapped here on the motorway. You can’t simply stroll along to the competitor next door. You’re tired, need a respite from the road. They put up this façade and pretend to offer you succor and sustenance. But it’s a lie. They offer swill and offal, and we have to take it. They know we won’t say anything. We’re English! We don’t like to make a fuss. We take whatever we’re given, because, really, we don’t deserve any better. The smarmy brigands know this, and they wield it like a bludgeon. I call that bloody cynical.
Pipe down,
I whispered. People are staring.
Let them!
Simon shouted. These scum-sucking slop merchants have stolen my money, but they do not get my calm acceptance of the fact. They do not get my meek submission.
All right, all right. Take it easy, Simon,
I said. Let’s just go, okay?
He threw the coffee cup down on the table, got up, and stalked out. I took a last sip of tea and hurried after him—pausing in the parking lot to gaze in envy at the punters taking tea in the comfort and privacy of their automobiles. It suddenly seemed the height of prudence and taste.
Simon had the car running by the time I caught up with him. You knew what it would be like when you went in there,
I charged, climbing in. Honestly, sometimes I think you do this on purpose, just so you can gripe about it afterwards.
Am I to blame for their criminal incompetence?
he roared. Am I responsible?
You know what I mean,
I maintained. It’s slumming, Simon. It’s your vice.
He threw the car into gear, and we rocketed through the parking lot and out onto the motorway. It was a good few minutes before Simon spoke again. The silence was merely the calm before the storm; he was working up to one of his tirades. I knew the signs well enough, and, judging from the intensity with which he grasped the steering wheel, the storm was going to be a doozey. The air fairly trembled with pent-up fury.
Simon drew a breath and I braced myself for the blast.
We are doomed, of course,
he said slowly, picking out each word as if it were a stone for a slingshot. Doomed like rats in a rain barrel.
Spare me.
Did you know,
he said, assuming my ignorance, that when Constantine the Great won the Battle of Milvian Bridge in the year 312, he decided to put up a triumphal arch to commemorate his great victory?
Listen, do we have to go into this?
Well, he did. The only problem was that he could find no artists worthy of the project. He sent throughout the whole Roman Empire but couldn’t find a single sculptor who could produce even a halfway acceptable battle frieze or victory statue. Not a man easily deterred, however, Constantine ordered his masons to remove statuary from other arches and attach them to his. The artists of his age were simply not up to the task, you see.
Whatever you say,
I grumped.
It’s true,
he insisted. Gibbon considered it the turning point of Roman history, the beginning of the decline. And it’s been downhill for Western civilization ever since. Look around, sport; we have finally reached the nadir. The end of the line. Finis! Kaput! We are doomed.
Oh, please don’t let’s start—
My plea was a paper parasol raised against a typhoon.
Doomed,
he repeated for emphasis, rolling the word out like a cannonball. No doubt there was a curse placed upon our sorry heads from the cradle. You’re an American, Lewis; you must have noticed— it’s in our very demeanor. We British are a doomed race.
You look like you’re doing all right to me,
I told him sourly. You’re surviving.
Oh? Do we look like a surviving civilization to you? Consider our appearance: our hair is limp and greasy, our skin is spotty, our flesh pallid and scabby, our noses misshapen. Our chins recede, our foreheads slope, our cheeks run to jowl, and our stomachs to paunch; stoop-shouldered, bent-backed, spindle-legged, we are rumpled, shaggy, and unkempt. Our eyes are weak, our teeth are crooked, our breath is bad. We are gloomy, depressed, anemic, and wan.
Easy for you to say,
I remarked, seeing as how Simon displayed absolutely none of the physical defects he described. His own physique was blissfully free of blemish; his words were smoke and sizzle without the fire, all hat and no rabbit. As expected, he ignored me.
"Surviving? Ha! The very air is poisonous. And the water—that is poisonous too. And the food—that is really poisonous! Let’s talk about the food, shall we? Everything is mass-produced by devious men in salmonella factories for the sole purpose of infecting as many consumers as possible and charging them for the privilege, before turning them over to the National Health, who give ’em the chop and a hasty, anonymous burial.
"And if, by some miracle, we should somehow survive our meager noonday repast, we are sure to be done in by the unrelenting meanness of our very existence. Look at us! We slog numb and shell-shocked through bleak, pestilential cities, inhaling noxious gases spewed from obsolete factories, clutching wretched plastic bags full of toxic meat and carcinogenic vegetables. The stinking rich amass wealth in tax-exempt offshore capital investment accounts, while the rest struggle along stark streets knee-deep in canine excrement to punch the time clock in soul-stifling sweatshops for the wherewithal to buy a rind of rancid cheese and a tin of beans with our overtaxed, undervalued pound.
Observe any street in any city! You’ll see us shuffling grimly from one hateful upmarket boutique to another, wasting our substance on obnoxious designer clothes that do not fit, and buying gray cardboard shoes made by slave labor in the gulags, and being routinely abused by blowzy, brain-dead shop assistants with blue mascara and chicken-fleshed legs. Overwhelmed by marketing forces beyond our ken and purchasing wildly complicated Korean appliances we neither want nor need with hologrammed plastic cash from smug, spotty-faced junior sales managers in yellow ties and too-tight trousers who can’t wait to scuttle off to the nearest pub to suck down pints of watery beer and leer at adenoidal secretaries wearing black leather miniskirts and see-through blouses.
Simon had liftoff. I settled back for the ride as his cavalcade of horror rolled on. It was all about the Channel tunnel and a landscape awash in Eurotrash and French fashion victims and acid rain and lugubrious Belgians and Iranian language students and lager louts swilling Heineken and football hooligans and holes in the ozone layer and Italian playboys, and South American drug lords and Swiss banks and AmEx Goldcards and the greenhouse effect and the Age of Inconsequence, and so on and so forth.
Simon clutched the steering wheel with both hands and punched the accelerator for emphasis, bobbing his head to the cadence of his words and glancing sideways at me every now and then to make sure I was still listening. Meanwhile, I bided my time, waiting for an opportunity to toss a monkey wrench into his fast-whirling gears.
"We don’t have any place to call our own, but we’ll all have cold Guinness in cans and inscrutable Braun coffeemakers and chic Benetton sweatshirts and nifty Nike Cross-Trainers and gold-plated Mont Blanc fountain pens and Canon fax machines and Renaults and Porsches and Mercedes and Saabs and Fiats and Yugos and Ladas and Hyundais and Givenchy and Chanel pour Homme and Aeroflot holidays and Costa Del Sol condos and Piat D’Or and Viva España and Sony, and Yamaha and Suzuki and Honda and Hitachi and Toshiba and Kawasaki and Nissan and Minolta and Panasonic and Mitsu-bloody-bishi!
Do we care?
he demanded rhetorically. Hell, no! We don’t bat an eye. We don’t turn a hair. We don’t twitch a solitary sedentary muscle. We sit transfixed before the Tube Almighty, lulled into a false Nirvana by a stupefying combination of pernicious banality and blather while nocuous cathode rays transform our healthy gray cells into jellied veal!
As harangues go, it was one of Simon’s better efforts. But his dolorous litanies could endure ad infinitum, and I was growing weary. He paused for breath and I saw my chance. If you’re unhappy,
I said, throwing myself into the withering flow of invective, why do you stay here?
Curiously, that stopped him. He turned his face to me. What did you say?
You heard me. If you’re as miserable as you make yourself out to be, and if things are as bad as you say—why not leave? You could go anywhere.
Simon