Found Art: Discovering Beauty in Foreign Places
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Leeana Tankersley
Leeana Tankersley is a native of San Diego who received her BS from Liberty University and her MA from West Virginia University. Leeana and her husband, Steve, live in Coronado, California, with their twins, Luke and Lane. Found Art is her first Book.
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- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5An honest, thoughtful journey of the delicate relationship with self, Found Art is a book born of strange circumstance. Leeana Tankersley's memoir chronicles her whirlwind engagement to a Navy SEAL officer, the couples' brisk but memorable first married year stationed in Afghanistan at the brink of the gulf war, and ends with the shift to 'normal' life back in the U.S. — or as regular as it gets for the wife of a SEAL during wartime.As she tries to process the bleary pace of navy life and reassess her goals, Leeana is forced to address her personal roadblocks. Loneliness, social anxiety, how God works, the existence of war, constant fear of loss, self-confidence, and death are all issues Tankersley wrestles privately, all smeared across these pages.An easy read with some profound messaging, Found Art has some overworked prose where Tankersley mimics a freshman angling for extra points, though she's not lacking in sincerity. Her voice is calm and seasoned, just not quite settled or secure with itself. Which, at its core, is what she addresses here: coming to terms with oneself is a lifelong process.
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Found Art - Leeana Tankersley
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Found Art
Copyright © 2009 by Leeana Miller Tankersley
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Tankersley, Leeana, 1975-
Found art : discovering beauty in foreign places / Leeana Tankersley.
p. cm.
ISBN 978-0-310-29133-6 (hardcover)
1. Spirituality—Meditations. I. Title.
BL624.2.T36 2009
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Interior design by Beth Shagene
To all those who have kept vigils for me. Especially Steve.
contents
Title Page
Copyright Page
my collage: an introduction
a handwritten note from kuwait
1 uprooting
2 loving
3 holding on
a braid of fringe from a persian rug
4 war
5 quit searching
6 keeping silence
7 healing
an original poem
8 gathering
9 building up
10 laughing
a bit of basting thread
11 tearing
12 mending
13 letting go
a swatch of black silk from a borrowed abaya
14 searching
15 embracing
16 dying
17 scattering
a mesquite leaf
18 peace
19 killing
20 weeping
21 planting
a navy seal trident
22 mourning
23 hating
a receipt from the russian-georgian restaurant on louisiana street
24 breaking down
25 turning away
26 speaking
27 dancing
afterword: birthing: an ending and a beginning
acknowledgments
definition of terms
discussion prompts
About the Publisher
Share Your Thoughts
There is a time for everything;,
and a season for every activity under the heavens:
a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to break down and a time to build up,
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to turn away,
a time to search and a time to quit searching,
a time to hold on and a time to let go,
a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace. …
He has made everything beautiful in its time.
He has also set eternity in the human heart;
yet no one can fathom what God has done
from beginning to end.
Ecclesiastes 3:1–8, 11
my collage
an introduction
At twenty-seven, I married the love of my life and moved to the Middle East. One year later, we returned to the States, changed. This is the story of that journey, the literal journey of living in a foreign culture, of exploring and experiencing a place so incredibly new to me that most of what I knew about myself and the world to that point would be challenged in some way.
While the story is literal, it is also figurative. As you may well know, foreign territory doesn’t only exist ten thousand miles away; we can find ourselves in unknown countries without going anywhere.
Like healing, for instance. Healing can be one of the most foreign things we do if we’ve never been taught how or shown that one could survive the pursuit and process of becoming whole. Grief is similar. If we’ve never seen how to grieve or never been allowed to or never given ourselves the permission to mourn a deep loss, then grief is foreign to us.
More often than not, we are refugees, working through the seasons of life with foreign soil under our nails, never sure exactly where we belong or how we will manage. We rarely know the language, culture, or climate, and we often have little sense of where God is in our displacement.
For years, I have found solace in the third chapter of the Old Testament book Ecclesiastes. Without its truth, I am sure life would make much less sense to me, especially the spirituality of life.
I believe the author of Ecclesiastes to be right-on with his assessment of our days here on earth: There is a time for everything, a season for every activity under heaven. A time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot, a time to kill and a time to heal, and so on.
We can count on experiencing breakneck joys as well as abysmal defeats. And in spite of all the ups and downs, God is making everything beautiful in its time. The grim stickiness, the author of Ecclesiastes points out, is that we don’t always know what God is doing from beginning to end.
I am one of those people who spends much of life agitated and scared and drinking far too much Diet Coke because I typically don’t know what God is up to. When I read that he just might be making some beauty out of my life, well, that is exceedingly good news. I don’t know about you, but that’s the kind of news I can really use right now, seeing as how the world feels sideways at least half the time.
My life is wildly all over the place, a collection of all kinds of strange raw material that often makes little sense to me in the moment. The war grieves me. Financial woes keep me up at night. Shame haunts me. Fear keeps me company pretty much around the clock. But what if God were taking all of my life—the glorious and the gutless, the griefs and the gains—and piecing each bit together like a collage so that when finished, something extraordinary would emerge?
If the author of Ecclesiastes is right, as I believe he is, then God is at work even now, creating and recreating an enduring piece of art from my little old, broken-down, Diet Coke-saturated life. That is what we call found art—a genre of art that started umpteen years ago with a guy in New York who took a urinal and cleverly refashioned it into a fountain. Found art is created when odd, disparate, unlikely, even long-abandoned castoffs are put together with other similarly unexpected remnants to create something new and, if all goes as planned, lovely.
Because such art is essentially redemptive, found art is also deeply spiritual, predating even urinal-man in its origins. In God’s hands, spit and mud become sight. Dust and rib become humanity. Darkness and void become world. Fishermen become followers. Virgin becomes mother. Water becomes wine. Empty nets become overflowing. Death is somehow miraculously refashioned into life.
When I arrived in the Middle East, I realized I was looking at a half-me, a fragmented soul walking around town. I had given away pieces of myself, convinced the giving had all been for good causes. During this journey, I discovered it was high time I felt the losses, collected the pieces, and reclaimed myself.
That’s the thing about these journeys into foreign places. They have a way of making us different if we will let them. We can resist the beauty that is waiting for us, but if we will enter the frightening place—if we will engage ourselves in the context of this new culture—we will see that there was no shortcut to transformation.
Life is most certainly a collage of experience, with all the scraps and secondhand oddments overlaying one another. On a few special occasions we are able to glimpse the art-in-the-making—the found art—that is created from these throwaway bits.
To that end, I invite you to look at this entire book as a collage of sorts:
a handwritten note from Kuwait
a braid of fringe from a Persian rug
an original poem
a bit of basting thread
a swatch of black silk from a borrowed abaya
a mesquite leaf
a Navy SEAL Trident
a receipt from the Russian-Georgian restaurant on Louisiana Street
Each of these items would be glued down, taped on, and pinned together—snippets and remnants that, in time, have collectively become something beautiful.
As you read my collage, I will be breathing a prayer for you. My prayer is that you will enter the foreign territories, and in them your own art will be found.
Leeana Tankersley
a handwritten note from kuwait
1
uprooting
Somebody unplug the hair dryer, I thought to myself as I stepped out of Bahrain International Airport and into the hot night. Part suffocating humidity and part dry desert wind, the air was vaguely reminiscent of a July I spent in Hattiesburg, Mississippi, visiting my older sister, Laura, and her husband.
In Mississippi, the air was Southern-accent thick, and her prewar, non-air-conditioned house groaned from the sticky heat. Every day I would try in vain to dry my hair—the heat from the dryer mixing with the incessant humidity. That’s exactly what the Bahrain air felt like—dry and wet all at the same time, intolerable as a hair dryer in Hattiesburg.
Similar in feel, but very different in smell. No hint of forthcoming rain or the pungency of fresh-cut grass or the sweat of magnolia trees. The scent was far rawer, certainly different from my hometown San Diego air I had left just thirty-six hours ago with its polite and accommodating ocean breezes. Cigarette smoke, incense-infused musk barely masking sour body odor, and curry all rode the hot wind into my nose, chased by twinges of Gulf water and gasoline.
I was standing in the middle of a new world. In the words of Aldous Huxley, Bahrain would become a brave new world
with time. In that first introductory moment, though, everything was just new. The heat, the air, and the smells were all right at home, but clearly I was not. I believe the word is foreign. I’m not sure if Bahrain was more foreign to me or I was more foreign to it. We were a strange pair, to be sure.
While the scene outside the terminal was a common one, it felt anything but that to me. White ankle-length thobes paced the sidewalk, followed by ground-kissing black abayas floating ethereally as though there were no feet under them—a graceful and yet hollow effect I was instantly intrigued by.* The men in their crisp, sheetlike white dresses chatted with each other in Arabic, hailing cabs and smoking cigarettes, one after the other (cabs and cigarettes). The women floated in the background, shrouded in mystery, silently tending to children underfoot.
I was in Bahrain for a number of reasons, you could say, many of which would unfold over time, and none of which I was all that aware of on this first night. The most immediate and obvious reason I’d come to the Middle East was my Navy SEAL husband, Steve, whom I had married eight days earlier in San Diego.
Steve had already been living in Bahrain for a year, the first of a two-year tour. When he finished his first year, he flew home on leave and married me. After a short honeymoon near Lake Tahoe, we hopped on a jet bound for the other side of the world. We lived in Bahrain for the last year of Steve’s tour, while he served as the operations officer of a SEAL Unit on the U.S. base.
I wanted to do the whole thing well. I wanted to be the right kind of wife for such a situation. I wanted to feel normal and at ease in this new place. None of those things were happening the way I had hoped, as I’m a five-foot-nine, fair-skinned, light-eyed blonde woman. I resembled nothing in my immediate surroundings, so slipping into the crowd as if I belonged simply wasn’t an option.
In lieu of blending in, I dutifully followed my new husband to a cab, tripping over my bags as I juggled walking, toting luggage, and staring. I felt strangely visible and strangely invisible. I stuck out, but I wasn’t getting much attention for it, except from a few young boys staring up at me from full-moon eyes. I wondered what they saw.
I arrived in Bahrain exhausted, numb even. My soul felt as though anesthesia had been poured directly into it. I lived a lifetime in just the anticipation of getting to Bahrain, and once there, I had no energy left to process. The fourteen months leading up to stepping off the plane had taken their toll, leaving me vacant.
When I made eye contact with the row of boys, I realized I was far, far away from home, and the familiar twinge of out-of-placeness crept up slowly at first and then gushed. The awkward adolescent Leeana instantly inhabited me—the one with big feet and big hands who bloomed impossibly early and always felt, with savage restlessness, like the ogre in a forest full of fairies.
Change is horribly uncomfortable. Like the wrong pair of jeans, change pinches and squeezes in the most inconvenient places. A lot of wriggling and writhing is involved. Maybe even some sucking in and prone posturing. Just when you think you’ve fit in, you realize you’re spilling over the top and sides in the worst way. Very, very little ease.
If I would have had the energy on that first night, I might have thought more about where I would fit in, not only in a new country but in a new marriage, in my relationships back home, in the new relationships I would inevitably forge in Bahrain, in whatever awaited us after this tour was over, in my faith. I might have thought through the transition more carefully and intentionally and acknowledged that loss is the little sister who always tags along with change. All of this