The Druggist of Auschwitz: A Documentary Novel
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Dieter Schlesak's haunting novel The Druggist of Auschwitz—beautifully translated from the German by John Hargraves—is a frighteningly vivid portrayal of the Holocaust as seen through the eyes of criminal and victim alike.
Adam, known as "the last Jew of Schäßburg," recounts with disturbing clarity his imprisonment at the infamous Auschwitz concentration camp. Through Adam's fictional narrative and excerpts of actual testimony from the Frankfurt Auschwitz Trial of 1963–65, we come to learn of the true-life story of Dr. Victor Capesius, who, despite strong friendships with Jews before the war, quickly aided in and profited from their tragedy once the Nazis came to power. Interspersed with historical research and the author's face-to-face interviews with survivors, the novel follows Capesius from his assignment as the "sorter" of new arrivals at Auschwitz—deciding who will go directly to the gas chamber and who will be used for labor—through his life of lavish wealth after the war to his arrest and eventual trial.
Schlesak's seamless incorporation of factual data and testimony—woven into Adam's dreamlike remembrance of a world turned upside down—makes The Druggist of Auschwitz a vital and unique addition to our understanding of the Holocaust.
Dieter Schlesak
Dieter Schlesak is a German-Romanian poet, novelist, and essayist. He is a member of the German PEN Center and the PEN Centre of German-Speaking Writers Abroad, and has received scholarships and awards from numerous organizations, including the Schiller Foundation and the University of Bucharest. Schlesak was born in Transylvania in 1934 and has lived in Italy and Germany since 1973. He is the author of The Druggist of Auschwitz.
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- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5The only reason this did not get a five star was the fact that the fictional narrator was added to the story. This would have been great as a non-fiction book about the Frankfurt-Auschwitz trails. I get the parallels between criminal and victim and that was intriguing but I wish Adam had been a real character. I feel that at times it was hard to process the fictionalization, it was confusing. I would be interested in reading more about Dr. Capesius as he really brings to life what it means to do anything to survive. I find his action despicable, but then I am also not in that situation. who can say what they would do. That being said, this is still a brilliant book and I would recommend it to anyone who is interested in WWII and the holocaust.
- Rating: 2 out of 5 stars2/5Interesting subject matter, but I couldn't get into the style of writing. I wanted more details and the Adam bits just read somewhat oddly. That may be a translation thing.
- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5I agree with calmclam that this documentary novel is hard to follow and perhaps the narrator would not have been missed. Nevertheless, the story of the Frankfurt Auschwitz Trial of 1963-1964 is fascinating.
- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5Well researched and well written, but I found the narrative hard to follow and I'm honestly not sure what the conceit of the fictional Adam's interspersed narration actually added.
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The Druggist of Auschwitz - Dieter Schlesak
EDITOR’S NOTE
Dieter Schlesak’s The Druggist of Auschwitz is unique for the way that it blends its fictional narrative with actual testimony from the Frankfurt Auschwitz Trial (which ran from December 20, 1963, to August 10, 1965) and interviews with survivors, guards, and administrators—including Victor and Fritzi Capesius—conducted by the author himself. This English edition follows the typography of the original German edition, which differentiated the fictional from the nonfictional, or documentary, elements by using italic and roman typefaces. The italicized sections of the book correspond to the fictional narrative constructed by Schlesak; the roman sections are those in which Schlesak is quoting either from the transcripts of the Frankfurt Auschwitz Trials or from his own interviews. We would also like to note that the quotations from Schlesak’s interviews have been edited by him and reflect the sentiments and ideas expressed in multiple conversations rather than direct quotations from a single interview.
THE EYEWITNESS
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They are herding us toward the showers. I see a long trench blazing with flames, I hear screams, children crying, dogs barking, gunshots. I see leaping shadows, half hidden behind the high flames. Smoke, ash, and the smell of burnt hair and flesh fill the air. This cannot be true,
cries someone near me. Women, children, and invalids are chased, alive, into the flames by German shepherds. A wave of heat, then shots. A wheelchair carrying an old man plunges into the flames; a shrill cry. Small babies, white as lilies, trace an arc through the air as they are catapulted into the fire. A boy runs for his life, the dogs chasing him; he is pushed into the flames. His scream hangs in the air. A mother nurses her child at her naked breast. She and the baby fall into the inferno. One swallow of mother’s milk, for eternity.
Adam saw it, Adam knows it, he knows something we do not know, something we will never know.
But he survived it.
Even he doesn’t know what the dead know.
He feels the guilt of the survivor.
Writing helped him survive. He wrote there, and he wrote in German.
Adam: I am a German; it was they who made me a Jew. German is my mother tongue. When I couldn’t go on, when it became so unbearable that all I wanted to do was to jump into the fire with my fellow sufferers, into that pit of burning human beings, then I gave it all to German, my mother tongue, as if only she could heal this, she alone. Here, read it: I cannot forget. And he handed me one of his pages, covered with tiny script.
But life must go on, he continued. And stared straight ahead. When he enters the room, you feel only him, he fills up the room, the whole house; his presence changes the space around us. No one speaks, everyone is silent, when he enters the room.
This is Adam, who was there, a member of the crematorium Sonderkommando, a man who has something within him we cannot comprehend: Adam is alive, he exists, really. I could look him in the eye, touch him, eat and walk and talk with him, feel his silences, his descent into himself, his way of being there and yet not … not there, like being dead, and yet still living … at those trenches … back then. Then? But they are here, now, they will never go away …
Adam: Then suddenly—I never felt anything like it before, how can I even describe it?—I separated from my conscious self and changed over to the other
side; I felt a strange sympathy with that SS man performing his difficult, murderous work in that almost unbearable heat … We looked at each other: this, THIS, it cannot, it must not, be happening. But it is! It’s real!
So Adam, the last Jew of Schäßburg, wrote. I had visited him at his home, and now, after leaving him, it felt like a final farewell, because he is old and sick. But I can still call him on the telephone, twice a week, and there are numerous letters, actual letters, and he gave me his diary, his little rolls,
just copies, of course; and even though his head is like a death’s-head, with black, deep-set eyes, I can still reach him. His heart is damaged, and his broken bones never healed properly; they still ache from the icy winters in the camp (down to minus 37 Celsius), painful rheumatism, pneumothorax, and he has only one lung left (tuberculosis has calcified the other one), but he is alive, not dead like all his friends, his wife, his children, his parents; Adam is alive NOW …
He embraces his dead wife every day, he says. And there is something that permeates everything, gets into the earth or the floor, the flowers, the grass, the trees, the light gets grayer, still this deep-seated fear, it hollows out everything from inside, this fear: Adam: There are black beasts inside me, I hear their harsh, malicious laughter whenever it is quiet. Grim animals sitting in my rib cage. They crouch there, ominous, their wings folded back, or they cower somewhere hidden in my innards, so I can no longer dare seek refuge inside myself. Something uncanny is there, in the darkness inside me. I seek shelter outside, beside myself with fear. When I take strong pills, the pills themselves settle briefly in the fragile tissues of my brain, and dream my nightmare, until I awake with a start, hunted, chased into another dream … till suddenly it all dissolves, and then my arms turn black, and my wife who was turned into ashes THERE dissolves into grayness, the room, the walls crumble, not in glowing light, no, but into a gray nothingness, a dreary morning of ashes, everything crumbling into ashes, ashes … Everything dissolves, the world now just a huge void, a gap … and then I wake up, as I did every morning at four, with whistles shrieking, commands shouted: Get up, Aufstehen! Fertigmachen!! Get up, you swine, up! And I am back at the camp, as always. And then I know everything else was just a dream, a kind of holiday.
All that matters are the people we know and once knew, the living and the dead. And we speak for the dead. We live for them. Perhaps they have opened up a way for us to reenter that realm, a realm whose forgetting made these crimes possible in the first place. They are the only reality left. Those who know it, those who were part of it. For me, everything else is gone.
Adam’s experiences cannot be told in words: It’s like that for us all, Adam says, we who went through it, we come from another world … An abyss separates us from you, a sort of vacuum of horror, it has to do with naked life itself, and little to do with the abyss between perpetrators and victims; unless, perhaps, everyone who does not know, or still thinks the way they did, is one of the perpetrators! For everything on earth has changed since THAT!
And he quoted a poem of Paul Celan, speaking to himself softly, very softly, for now it was the dead speaking, the victims, the murdered ones, it seemed, coming from beyond the border back to us, the living, as if wanting to give us hope and comfort, because everything was different now, because that old death no longer existed, because we didn’t need to fear it anymore, for now THEY were actually there, quiet, hopeful, but barely audible: If there can be any sense in the death of millions of victims, it would have to be in the sheer crazy hope that a crossing has opened on the frontier between life and death. Celan: In the mills of death you grind the white meal of promise, / you set it before our brothers and sisters / we shake out the white hair of time … and let something now come which never was before! / Let there come a human being from the grave.
Adam’s tiny rolls of paper, which looked like miniature papyri written in German, contained things that even he had forgotten, indeed, that he had to forget, so he could go on living. He pulled out these rolls, as if they were the witnesses, and not he, as if it had all started with them … He took them hesitantly from the ancient, beat-up desk, tentatively, as if they didn’t belong in the everyday world, things that could not be seen or felt, like copies of burned Torah rolls … that was how he touched them, these yellowed paper rolls … lying in his open hands … He bent over them … sniffed them … then held them out to me … as if he wanted to tell me something that was impossible to impart in any other way … and no, they didn’t smell like old paper … They still had smoke, ash, and the smell of burnt skin on them …
I hear Adam speaking, I hear his telephone voice, telephone conversations that went on for hours … I hear his tape recorder voice. And I hear his real
living voice, slightly nasal, quiet, deliberate. And of course, he always spoke in German, German words, German sentences. Once I had asked him how he could possibly bear speaking German after that.
At this he became very angry, he shouted: But it was these SS guys who wanted to turn me into a Jew, before that I didn’t even know I was a Jew—I was a German with this language I had babbled even as a baby. It comforted me, this language, it wept within me, this, my language. I clearly heard its weeping when these human animals—they did come from Germany, yes, they were Germans,
but could not speak proper German—when these animals would shout their false German
phrases, these analphabetics who could only bark German like dogs. I refused: I was the German, and they were the animals, clearly, and they did not succeed in making me a Jew. I am a German AND a Jew, a gift—he laughed bitterly—may it remain part of me and all my feelings, my very existence, my poems and diaries, these un-Germans and murderers cannot be allowed to win, even afterward, and claim that THEY stand for what is German.
But where is Adam? Was it a dream, Adam’s existence? No, we breathed the same air in his house in Schäßburg, his home, we spoke with each other night after night in this quiet small town. The little rolls
were there, too, I could touch them, they seemed to glow, to burn up, fire without ash, but I could read what they said, it’s right there, forever, the horror of the experience can never be erased, it is burned into us who read it, shuddering; and in none of the documents, none of the other reports, does it reach out to us, as it does here, and become a nightmare.
Day after day I read them, but would break off, again and again, would think I was dreaming, and then, after many sleepless nights, I had become someone else, someone who was continuing this writing; it was as if the writer who could put that reality down on paper was only now appearing, as it took shape from behind a thick fog of knowing and forgetting. And now, here it is before you, entire, in your life, but so late! I kept hearing Adam’s warning words: You have to do something, you must help, the world coming after us must know it as exactly as possible.
Perhaps the immediacy of the horror in these rolls is because Adam wrote it down while experiencing the horror, he wrote it in THAT unfathomable nightmare that was Auschwitz, in all its inconceivability still THERE, finding direct expression in the German words of a Jew, amplified, still echoing down to us today. The other eyewitnesses did not report their experiences until testifying at the trial twenty years later, often halting, weeping, or writing it down … This was the painful experience of Ella Salomon, a teacher, and her mother, Gisela Böhm, a pediatrician, both of them from Schäßburg.
Ella Salomon: "We were witnesses in Frankfurt in 1964 at the Auschwitz trial and with the aid of tranquilizers, and with microphones in hand, we testified before a large audience, among them sociologists, students of law and other fields. They got their lecture from living witnesses.
"It was very difficult for us to be among the people of this, the enemy’s land. Every stone made us weep, every word hurt. We were badly burned children.
"The women from the former resistance movement had prepared a reception for us at the airport in Frankfurt. They all embraced us warmly right after we landed. One of them was Emmi Bonhoeffer …
"My interrogation in the courtroom lasted over an hour; my mother’s took two hours. Emmi and some of the Marian nuns were present. It was very heartening to see them there, because Attorney Laternser, Capesius’s defense lawyer, treated us in a very derogatory fashion. He bombarded us with misleading, confusing questions. When he asked me about my tattoo number and I said I no longer knew it by heart, he gave me a look of scornful disgust. And on top of that, the next morning the Frankfurter Allgemeine reported that I had been theatrical."
Ella Salomon (left) and Gisela Böhm, at the entrance to the Gallus Court Building, Frankfurt am Main, November 16 or 19, 1964
e9781429958929_i0002.jpgOr the other witnesses in the chamber during the Auschwitz trial: the audience at the trial sat there, numb and wide-eyed with horror, looking at the woman in the witness chair. She had just described in a calm voice the torturing of prisoners in the notorious Boger swing,
and at that point, words failed her. In halting phrases, she told how one day fifty children, aged five to ten, were brought into the camp on a truck. I remember a four-year-old girl …
Her voice broke off then, and her shoulders began to heave; as the witness wept despairingly, numb horror spread through the courtroom …
Adam: You see, although I had been called as a witness, I could not go to Frankfurt because of serious illness and constantly recurring health problems at the time resulting from my experiences in the camp. But others did it for me …
I told Adam what had moved me, and asked him why the horror of reading his ashen script had affected me so deeply, differently than other reports from hell.
You know, that’s not quite right, he said. I am not talking about feelings, even from the abyss, but about these unimaginable realities, especially at those trenches … Small babies, white as lilies, trace an arc through the air as they are catapulted into the fire …
As I just now read what I had really experienced back then, I was convulsed with horror, and I was back in that very condition that I had, thank God, forgotten about … But it was that way, just that way … Many of my fellows have related the same unbelieveable cruelties, just think about Filip Müller, or about Dov Paisikovic in the Sonderkommando, or about Gideon Greif’s book, We Wept Without Tears. Or the book by Mengele’s assistant, Dr. Miklós Nyiszli. And one thing you mustn’t forget: May and June 1944, when our fellow Transylvanian Jews were dying in the gas chambers, the most horrendous May in human history, when up to twenty thousand human beings, not soldiers in huge battles, but month after month, day in day out, from morning to evening to night, girls, women, babies, children, and old people, suffocated screaming in the gas chambers. Even for Auschwitz this was the absolute peak!
In a period of about nine hundred days over six hundred death trains arrived at Auschwitz, with over a million Jews, and approximately twenty thousand Sinti and Roma [Gypsies]. Day after day, night and day, the SS was carrying out mass extermination. Most of the victims went straight to the gas chamber. Twenty minutes after the Zyklon B was inserted, the doors were opened, and the prisoners ordered to clear out the bodies found up to two thousand naked corpses all tangled together. Babies, children, sick people, trampled to death on the floor; that’s where the gas got to first. Above them the women, and on top the strongest men. To save money, mostly they didn’t throw in enough Zyklon B, so that the killing could take as long as twenty minutes while the weakest lay at the bottom in their final agony. For each gas chamber of two thousand people, they used sixteen five-hundred-gram canisters. Each canister cost five reichsmarks.
It was the last hurrah
for these, the greatest executioners of the last thousand years, and it went on till November 1944. Up until March 1944 the Jews of Hungary and Transylvania had lived in a protected enclave. Till March the higher Hungarian military had shielded their Jewish citizens, they called them up as laborers into the army, and even Horthy protected them; there were 795,000 Jews in Hungary and Transylvania. You know, after the Vienna Treaty in 1940, northern Transylvania was declared part of Hungary. So everyone was spared until March 19. But suddenly Hitler no longer trusted Horthy, because he had begun negotiating with the Allies. So on March 19, German troops marched into Hungary. And Eichmann came to Budapest. He decided immediately: all the Jews of Hungary should be exterminated in a Blitzaktion.
And on May 4, 1944, they convened a conference in Vienna to set up the schedules for the transport trains … And from there it just proceeded like clockwork. All you have to do is check out the "Kalendarium" of Auschwitz at the Fritz Bauer Institute in Frankfurt am Main.
Adam showed me the text excerpt from his extensive archives, and read:
A conference was convened in Vienna on May 4, 1944, to set up the schedules for the transport trains that were to deport the Jews from Hungary. About 200,000 Jews were to be deported from ten camps in the Carpathians (Zone I); in the Transylvanian Region (Zone II) there were located around 110,000 Jews. From mid May on it was arranged that there would be four transports a day from these regions, with 3,000 Jews each.
May 9, 1944: As a result of the speeded-up preparations for beginning the extermination of Hungarian Jews, Rudolf Höß, the highest-ranking officer of the SS garrison at Auschwitz, ordered that the unloading ramp and the rail line into the Auschwitz II-Birkenau camp, as well as the three train tracks on the ramp inside the camp at Birkenau, be finished as quickly as possible, and to get the as-yet-unused incineration ovens in Crematorium V into working order, and to excavate five trenches (three big ones and two smaller ones) for burning corpses, to renovate Bunker II for use as a gas chamber, and to dig even more incineration trenches by the bunker, and to construct barracks for the prisoners to undress in. In addition, Höß transferred the chief officer of the subcamp Gleiwitz I, Hauptscharführer Otto Moll, back to Auschwitz, and appointed him the commando leader of all the crematoriums, and gave him responsibility for all outdoor incineration of the victims killed in the gas chambers. Höß also ordered reinforcement of the Sonderkommando used in the crematoriums, and also of the Canada
Sonderkommando, which was to sort through the prisoners’ plundered possessions, directing that additional prisoners be assigned to these units.
Everything was kept secret. Even the courtyard in Crematorium III was hidden from prying eyes by a screen.
Moll also ordered that tables and benches be built in the yard at Crematorium IV, as he realized that it was impossible to fit the masses of condemned human beings into the gas chambers simultaneously. For those waiting victims the tables and benches served as an additional undressing area in the open air, since the locker room inside the crematorium was not big enough for the countless numbers of doomed men, women, and children.
In Capesius’s documents this description of the extermination process was found:
The apparatus of extermination ran smoothly. The staging and running of the transports was carefully prepared. The camp commanders were notified of the arrival of a transport via telegrams and radio messages, and they would then give further instructions to the detention camp leaders, the Political Department, the office of the SS garrison doctor, the truck drivers’ unit, the guard detachment, and the work deployment office. Each one of these units involved with the handling
of a transport had a specific duty roster for its operation
[Einsatz] in special actions
[Sonderaktionen] on the unloading ramp …
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Ella Salomon: "For us it all started on May 26, 1944. With deportation. You were allowed to take fifty kilos. In a cloth sack. No suitcases. The ghetto was to be cleared out on May 26. At five a.m. Everyone took along food and their most valuable possessions. Jewelry. Medications. And Mama even took her doctor’s satchel and instruments. Deportation. Final. Everyone crying. All the shutters closed, the streets completely empty. All you heard was the masses of people, the clattering of their shoes on the pavement of the ghetto.
"In a stinking cattle car, with over eighty people crammed in together, shocking scenes were playing out: two young women were going crazy. There was no food or water. People were drinking urine. Other prisoners were pulling or prying out their own gold teeth, in exchange for water. The guards (at first Hungarians, but after crossing the border, SS men) took the teeth, but didn’t bring any water. During the transport the few possessions we had were taken from us by the guards.
"Cattle would have been given water on the journey, but we were not. The car’s huge iron doors were kept locked. There was a gap in the door of barely a few centimeters. The air that came through this gap had to keep eighty-four people alive!
"For four days and three nights we never saw God’s sky above us. We could only relieve ourselves inside the car. The situation was intolerable. Some people lost their minds. A middle-aged woman lay beside me. Her hair turned white overnight.
The memory of two little twin girls will never leave me: On the second morning of the journey, I held them by the arm and climbed with them up to the narrow opening in the car, so that my little travel companions could get some air. They were nine years old, pretty, healthy, and very smart. They bombarded me with questions the whole time, questions I could not answer for them. They were the daughters of Dr. Mauritius Berner. I met their father later in Jerusalem. But the girls went up in smoke. I can still feel them today … their warm bodies in my lap.
Dr. Mauritius Berner: "Outside, the locks and chains are taken off, and the door opens. A huge crowd of people is moving forward outside, and on the opposite track there is an empty freight train parallel to ours, and we walk in between. By the cars of the train next to us there are huge masses of suitcases, thousands of pieces of luggage in unimaginable disorder, and we cannot comprehend what it means, where are we, what has happened, why this picture of total devastation?
"As we look up ahead between the two pairs of tracks, a few hundred meters off, we can see two factory chimneys of an unusual type; flames several meters high are shooting out of them, columns of fire. Disoriented, we want to know where we are. The first minute we have the feeling of being in a bombed-out station; that would explain the huge mass of luggage lying about in such confusion. The huge columns of flame coming out of the chimneys, in the early dawn light, make me think we are in some mine or ironworks, or the entrance to Dante’s Inferno. Clearly we are going to have to work in a mine or an ironworks, I tell my wife, but that doesn’t matter, I quickly add, the main thing is, the five of us will stay together, the work can be ever so hard, but we won’t let anyone separate us. But then we haven’t time for any more comments, white-and-blue-striped zebralike creatures silently start to force us forward with sticks, while snatching our luggage from out of our hands. When we struggle to keep these last bits of our belongings, they reassure us that we just have to leave everything here for the time being, everything will be delivered to us afterward. We still try to resist, to defend our last possessions. But a few steps later, a German soldier comes up to us and explains that we have to leave our luggage. We give in, lay our luggage down by the cars, and I say to my wife, No matter, the main thing is that the five of us are together. At that moment, though, a German soldier steps in again and blocks our way: ‘Men to the right, women to the left,’ he says, and in an instant I was separated from my wife and children. We move forward in parallel, but separated from one another. The crowd carries us forward. Suddenly I remember the half bottle of water we saved from yesterday: I still have it. I push my way through the rope separating us and give the water to my wife. As I am being shoved back my wife calls out to me: ‘Come, my darling, and kiss us!’ I run back over to them, I kiss my wife and my children, with tears in my eyes and my throat tightened up with grief, and I look into my wife’s eyes, wide, sad, beautiful, and filled with the fear of death. The children look on in silence, following their mother. They could not comprehend what was going on here, and just let themselves be pushed along by the crowd of people streaming behind them. A soldier pushed me to the other side of the line, and we were separated: I couldn’t even give them a word of comfort, or send them an encouraging look from behind. One more minute, and they were gone from my sight.
"I, too, was forced ahead by the moving crowd, and we came into a wider area—where the view was no longer hemmed in by the two parallel stopped trains. Soldiers and those creatures in stripes sent us here and there, and ordered us into columns.
"And then, I hear: ‘Doctors, line up here!’ I go there, where other colleagues are already gathered, wearing Red Cross bands on their sleeves. The crowd presses sluggishly forward beside us, men on one side, women on the other.
"Meanwhile we see that everyone is filing in front of a tall German officer wearing gloves, who, with a gesture of his thumb, sends people to the right or to the left, thus separating family members who want to walk together. We also notice from far off that he directs the older, weaker-looking people, and mothers, to one side, and younger, stronger people, men, and some women to the other. Those who refuse to be separated from their older parents are loudly reassured that the separation is necessary, because there were still ten kilometers to go on foot, and the old, the weak, and the children would be transported by motor vehicle. Once there, everyone would be reunited.
"And there are trucks there as well, and a small car with the Red Cross insignia next to the tracks, so we can see that there really are vehicles available waiting to transport the weak and the sick. And we hear that the sick are being delivered to a nearby hospital. Reassured, everyone goes to the right or left, confident they will see one another again soon.
"Then the officer who separates right from left comes up to our group. He asks each of us very nicely where we had done our university work, and if any of us were sick or tired, since the camp was still ten kilometers off, so if any of the ‘gentlemen’ preferred, they could switch to the other side, he said, where they would be transferred by motor vehicle.
"One of our group, the pharmacist Köváry, immediately switches to the other line. Meanwhile we explain to the officer that our documents and our medical diplomas are still in our luggage, lying next to the railroad cars. ‘Can’t we at least get our diplomas?’ ‘Of course,’ replies the officer, after a brief moment. ‘Certainly, you will be needing your diplomas!’ We rush back to the cars and eagerly search for our bags. I locate mine, and bring back my diploma and other documents with me. Then I go back to my group. Then all of a sudden, in a line of women that had just been separated into right and left, I spot my wife with the children. I go up to the German officer and ask him to allow my wife and children to stay with me. I base my argument on the fact that I, too, am a doctor (since we doctors have been placed in a separate group, I conclude that we will be working as doctors) and that I have three children, two of whom are twins, who need special care. ‘Twins? Call them back,’ the officer says. I run happily after them, calling my wife and my children by name. They turn around, and I run after them and bring them back. The officer takes us over to the doctor performing the selections and informs him that the two children are twins. But the second officer doesn’t even look at them; he waves a hand dismissively and says, ‘Later, I don’t have any time right now.’
‘They will just have to go back to the group you took them from,’ says the officer. And then, in Hungarian: ‘Don’t cry, your wife and children are just going to take baths, you’ll see one another again in an hour.’
Ella Salomon: There were eighty of us in the railroad car on the transport to Auschwitz. I had Dr. Berner’s twins on my lap. I love children. I was telling these children stories, because I wanted to make the journey easier for them. We sat as close as we could to the slit in the side of the carriage, to get air.
Presiding judge: Had you known the defendant Capesius before you were deported to Auschwitz?
Salomon: "Yes. He came into my father’s waiting room, my father called me, and said, ‘Your pharmacist uncle has a present for you.’ He gave me some blotting paper. I was twelve or thirteen then. Capesius was sweet to me. Then I saw him again in Auschwitz. Before that I also saw him in Sighi e9781429958929_i0003.jpg oara at the swimming pool. At home I have a photograph of him with