The Heat of Lies
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Young, beautiful, police detective Julian Palmer is growing up. Just a few years out of the New York Police Academy, she's earning her stripes fast. Julian has solved high profile murder cases, and been promoted to Lieutenant upstate Troy, New York. But her latest case has her baffled. She's tracking the killer of a respected husband and father. With no suspects, a family hungry for answers, and the press breathing down her neck, Julian is desperate and in over her head.
That's when Julian gets an unlikely visitor: her one time mentor and the first man she arrested for murder, former police Chief Winston "The Bear" Edwards. Once famed for his physical immensity and unmatched detective skills, Edwards is now a shadow of his former self. He's managed to escape a life in prison, but emerged a beaten man with no family and nowhere to turn. The only thing he has left is his brilliant police mind.
Now the one time mentor has returned to his former student, looking for a shot at redemption, and a reason for living. Despite Julian's mistrust and fear of Edwards, the young Lieutenant knows he's still a gifted detective and cautiously brings him in on this seemingly unsolvable case. Working side by side with a man who once tried to kill her, Julian gets drawn deep into the murder investigation-and into the mind of the murder victim's young daughter. The girl forces Julian to confront once again the bizarre events surrounding the decade old murder of her own father.
Taut, edgy and utterly unpredictable, The Heat of Lies will shock and scare you and keep you turning the pages long into the night. Jonathan Stone is widely praised as one of today's top thriller writers. Stone knows the importance of character, the significance of nuance, and folly of cliché. This is his second, and most riveting novel.
Jonathan Stone
Jonathan Stone, author of the Julian Palmer novels, is a graduate of Yale University, where he was a Scholar of the House in Fiction Writing and twice won the English Department's John Hubbard Curtis Prize for Best Imaginative Writing. He works in advertising and lives in Connecticut with his wife and two children.
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The Heat of Lies - Jonathan Stone
1
"Ahhh!!" Jesus! Sonuvafuckingbitch!!!
Lieutenant Palmer had just turned back from the big picture window of the cramped office six floors above Police Plaza, to hang up the phone after making yet another patiently irate call to Office Services checking on furniture ordered eight months ago, and there—seated silently in the wooden folding chair across the Lieutenant’s crowded desk—was the first murderer Palmer had ever sent to prison.
Instinctively, the Lieutenant crossed her arms over her blouse to cover her breasts.
Her pulse surged. Her entire physiology sounded a well-orchestrated general alarm. Heart jumped, endorphins released, mouth went dry, stomach muscles clenched, in a fight-or-flight symphony of physical response. Memory came flooding back on a river of nausea. Five years, three promotions, twenty-four more murders and twenty-two murder convictions, had not, it appeared, sufficiently intervened.
Sonuvafuckingbitch, she thought. But she wouldn’t say it. Wouldn’t give him the satisfaction.
In a reassuring instant, she saw that Mendoza and Ng were in a state of high alert at their desks just outside her office, looking warily and protectively and not least of all curiously in through her open door. It calmed her somewhat. She felt herself relax a degree.
She regarded the huge man cautiously, tensely, like eyeing a still-armed bomb. But now that she’d recovered from the shock of knowing him immediately, she saw that he was in fact almost unrecognizable. In the intervening five years, he’d aged unimaginably. His body, whose epic size had once projected immense power, now projected simply immensity —sloppy, uncooperative, defeated mass, rolling over the edges of the folding chair.
How’d you get in here?
Flashed a badge,
he said. Adding, Old one.
His hair had gone fright white, thinned from a proud mane to a strandy wispiness. The furrowed facial lines that once evoked character and experience had finally overwhelmed his features, becoming simply wrinkles, like any old man’s. His skin was ashen, chalky, like a patient’s.
Beneath the wrinkles, though, his eyes still harbored some semblance of that nasty, restless alertness—now even more startling, in contrast to the thick, loose, epidermal folds surrounding them. Rhinoceros eyes—steady, unblinking, uncaring, brute.
Apart from the eyes, he looked close to death.
Close, she thought, but no cigar.
She appraised him silently for another long moment before asking—carefully measuring her tone to be flat, without judgment or affront, like a disinterested clerk gathering information for a form—What are you doing here?
The unblinking eyes wandered aimlessly over the unadorned green institutional walls of the tiny room. He shrugged noncommitally.
She asked again—evenly, identically—as if he hadn’t heard her the first time, which, given his startling aged appearance, he genuinely might not have—What are you doing here?
Another shrug.
She noted the rumpled white shirt beneath the open trench coat. Its collar, its cuffs, no longer crisply starched. Wife finally threw you out, didn’t she?
observed Lieutenant Palmer.
The man’s eyebrows went up briefly, momentarily impressed with her deduction, then down again, sullenly confirming that it was correct.
She noticed the dirt ingrained on his shirt cuffs. Noticed that his left shoe heel was turned somewhat, askew beneath the rest of his shoe.
Defense like that’ll cost you, won’t it?
she speculated further.
His lack of response was acknowledgment enough.
Whatever nest egg he’d managed to hide from the forensic accountants, whatever on-the-take money he’d augmented it with, had apparently gone significantly toward the fees of the famously brilliant and famously expensive attorney, one Lawrence Cooperman, Esq.
And it had been an exceedingly long defense, after all, longer than anyone could have predicted. Maybe he’d even had something on Cooper-man as well—she had a nagging sense there was more to know about Cooperman’s advocacy. His defense might have expended all his capital—the conventional green sort, and his deep hoard of black currency as well. Regardless, it had done its job.
Ladies and gentlemen, it is the word of one woman, a police officer at the outset of her career, against the word of another police officer, in the twilight of his. That’s the cold truth of it. So do you believe the word of police officers, or don’t you? Do they tell the truth, or are they liars?
Cooperman’s cynical, sneering disregard for the proceedings in general. Inviting the jury to share that cynicism, cozying up to them.
Now if you think police officers generally tell the truth, then based on this little sampling at least, you’d have to rethink that, wouldn’t you? And if you think police officers are generally liars, then this little sampling would suggest you’re onto something.
The adeptness of the lawyers delivery, coupled with the impression, the force, of slow, seamless, confident logic. She still heard it. It still pained her….
She held now to her careful monotone. Continued to speak, firm, clear, her trademark gentle interrogative, a mere notch above a whisper.
What’re you going to do?
He shrugged.
What happened to that young waitress out there in the snow, let’s face it, we’re never going to know. We have two conflicting versions of events, and we’ll simply never know which version matches the truth, if either….
Where you gonna go?
He shrugged again.
The alleged murder weapon was never found. Lost in an evidential mix-up in the small upstate police department that, it’s been implied, he somehow controlled. I can only tell you that unfortunately and statistically, crucial evidence is lost and misplaced all the time, in departments of all sizes….
She’d put him in prison five years ago, on the lesser charges that he’d pled to—tax evasion, financial malfeasance—and naturally she had gotten used to picturing him there. But it had proved particularly onerous for the State to find an acceptable venue for his murder trial, given his local reputation, and the sparseness of options in that sparely populated upstate New York county. Months had stretched to years. Legal technicalities and issues and delays had presented themselves aboundingly. Until at last, the trial had begun.
She’s a poised, beautiful young woman. He’s a powerful, hated, difficult man. Right there, that makes me doubt, makes me suspect, the easy version of events, the version the prosecutors are trying to serve up; right there, that makes me listen again to the less palatable version….
Even then, there were further technicalities; another change of venue; witness-tampering and jury-tampering accusations and counteraccusations; false starts and full stops.
And the trial itself. Cameras banned. Access limited. Conducted during a brutal February of a brutal winter at the Canadian border. The venue inaccessible. A judge who would not allow a circus. This is no Heisman Trophy winner, the bald hawk-nosed judge had asserted with a smirk. The public has a right to know, yes, but not a right to watch. The reporters, and thus the public, could barely follow it. Soon lost interest in the legal tangle. Precisely what Lawrence Cooperman would have hoped.
No weapon. No real witnesses. I’m frankly surprised that the State chose to proceed on such meager evidential grounds. Political pressure? Pressure exerted by vocal friends of the young officer? By well-placed enemies of the famously difficult defendant? Don’t discount it. It would at least explain why we’re all here….
And under the law, it had had to be divided into distinct and separate proceedings. Further diluting, further dulling, the incidents’ sum of impact. The trial itself had solely concerned the murder of the waitress. In a few hours one morning, Julian delivered her testimony; her testimony was challenged; and that was the extent of her role and her presence.
The State chose not to proceed at all in the matter of the suspected murder of psychic Wayne Hill. No evidence. No body. And a long and documented history of erratic behavior, sudden self-exiles, even periodic disappearances, on the part of the purported decedent. There was little more than Julian’s accusation: that Hill had been killed to cover up the waitress’s murder. But she soon saw how that accusation—with little evidence behind it—undercut her credibility, even in the eyes of the prosecutors.
As for the accused’s attempt on the life of Julian Palmer? Evidence nonexistent. Details extremely vague. Night. A blizzard. White-out conditions. Zero visibility. And because it was a matter between police officers, servants of the State, the State interceded on its own behalf. The career of a promising young police officer, in the State’s view, should not be jeopardized; nor should the reputation of an acclaimed senior officer be needlessly compromised. In the absence of physical evidence, the State concluded, the matter should be adjudicated privately. Counselors to both parties—each feeling an advantage to themselves—unhesitatingly agreed. And so it became a closed hearing. An internal affair, thick with procedure, rich with technicality. Documents. Closed-door presentations. Arbitration and mediation panels. A police matter. And a muddling, obfuscatory mess.
Both of their versions are in some sense convincing, because we are here, after all, considering them each carefully. Then again, neither is convincing enough. Because neither version, I’ll wager right now, has flatly convinced any of you.
It was all long ago now. Another place. Another lifetime. A handful of senior officials here knew of the events, and that was it.
In the intervening years, she’d become used to the world’s grays. To its imperfections, to its drift and sway, the certainty of its uncertainty. She still didn’t accept it. But she did now at least expect it.
You can’t convict. Even if you think he did it, even if you feel somehow certain of that, you can’t convict. Much as you might want to. Much as you might hate him. Because you haven’t got one piece of credible reliable evidence with which to do it.
You’re a murderer,
she said to him now. Reminding him of the fact—as quietly, as flatly, as matter-of-factly—as she had said everything else.
And only now did he finally turn his attention, his famous gaze, directly at her. And only now did he speak, the first words in that crusty, deep-mean voice she had not heard in five years. But not a convicted murderer,
he said as quietly back.
And suddenly, the smile. Brazen and infuriating, unregenerate and unchanged …
She pushed the intercom button.
Mendoza and Ng were flanking the strange immense figure before she even had to say their names. But they wore looks of confusion as loud as orange raid jackets.
Detective Mendoza, Detective Ng, meet Winston the Bear Edwards. Former chief of police of Canaanville, New York, who I interned with five years ago….
Ng smiled broadly, relieved, before the rest of her introduction robbed him of his congeniality.
He stabbed a waitress forty-six times. Killed a man to try to cover it up. And when I went tumbling over a ledge, he thought he’d killed me too….
She could see the shock register on their faces. Big Ng looking incredulously at the old broken form seated in the chair, while the wiry, muscled Mendoza looked as incredulously directly at her. They knew she didn’t lie. She didn’t fool around. That’s why they were having such a hard time with it.
And not knowing where to go, he’s come to see us. Like all the other flotsam and jetsam that washes up here. He doesn’t know what he’s doing here. Or he’s not saying.
Now she was standing by the ancient crooked coat tree, lifting her own black trench coat off and swirling it onto her shoulders, having first, as always, strapped on the service revolver—an accessory, a necessity, like a handbag or wallet or keys.
I want him watched, day and night,
she told them. I want a man tailing him everywhere. I want a man stationed in the hall of his fleabag hotel. I want someone beside him when he goes through restaurant trash. When he drinks rotgut, I want someone to know the brand. When he sleeps in the gutter, I want someone to watch him snore. He says he doesn’t know what he’s doing here. But we’re going to. Every moment. Every move.
The short tirade had loosed her feelings, she discovered. They’d snuck out, leaked beneath the cold steel door of her professionalism, and now were gathering into a torrent she felt less and less control over.
She was as surprised as anyone to suddenly find the black muzzle of her service revolver sunk deep into Winston Edwards’s mouth; before she could even process who exactly had done such a thing, before Mendoza and Ng could even respond with wide-eyed wordless shock.
Only Edwards seemed not to react. Looking up at her with big sleepy eyes behind the rhinocerative, pale, unhealthy folds.
You don’t care, do you? she thought. A valuable perception … store it away …
Of course, she was now indicating how deeply she cared.
She was showing him—once again—the depth of her feeling for him.
She pulled the muzzle from his mouth.
And was nearly as surprised as before to find the same muzzle running high along his gums, making each tooth appear individually, sorrowfully, in a broken, ulcerative, yellowed periodontal parade. Livestock, examined meanly.
He’s a free man now,
Julian said with mock gospel exuberance. He can do whatever he wants.
Now she pressed the revolver muzzle hard just below his right eye, gathering up and pulling down the loose skin beneath the eye with it, opening the eye brutally, comically wide.
She put her own eye just above his brutally opened one, made a show of peering in, as if to see for herself the precise shape of the evil inside. A gemologist, appraising a strange brown stone in its crusted, folded setting.
She pressed the gun muzzle beneath his left eye now, pulled down, the folds of skin following helplessly obedient, a wake of stretched flesh. She made the same optometric inspection.
Mendoza shifted his feet uncomfortably. She heard Ng’s breath come short and loud and nervous. Edwards never moved.
Now she pushed the muzzle against his right nostril. Lifted the outer edge meanly. Distorting the entire nose harshly for a long, held moment.
Lifted the right nostril identically.
Mendoza and Ng stood, transfixed.
She pulled the gun muzzle away, holstered it mechanically.
Regarded Edwards once more in the rickety folding chair.
Then reared her foot back and with all her gathered fury kicked the left front leg of the wooden chair. The same left front leg she’d seen threatening to give way on previous occupants for months now—eager clerks, nervous sergeants, Ng and Mendoza themselves.
The chair leg snapped crisply and cooperatively, and the two hundred eighty pounds of Winston the Bear Edwards puddled onto the floor sideways, gracelessly on top of it, aided in speed and awkwardness by the immensity and unpreparedness of the weight.
Beyond the sound of the broken wooden chair hitting the wooden floor, though, there was no accompanying sound from Edwards. No involuntary huhn, no raging curse, no strangled syllable of surprise, nothing. Only a studied, respectful, obedient silence. Maybe stoic and challenging. Maybe mocking. Maybe just stunned surprise.
Slowly, the huge form splayed facedown on the floor managed to turn its immense ursine head slightly toward her, to crane its neck just enough to present a coldly expressionless black pupil to her, peering out from behind the curtainous folds of skin.
She stood over the black pupil purposefully, to fill its vision with the bottom of her trench coat, to momentarily overwhelm it with her presence.
Welcome to the big city,
she said.
She adjusted the holster, buttoned her trench coat over it, clutched her handbag. My city,
she added. A perhaps unnecessary amplification.
She looked up at Mendoza and Ng. I’m due at a deposition across town,
she told them.
She headed briskly out the open office door.
It was frankly all she could think to do.
And with any luck, it would at least speed that furniture along.
2
A black-and-white took her crosstown: she knew the officers. It was a small enough city to know the officers. Julian had gone down into dispatch and hitched a ride. They were happy to take her, she knew. It gave some destination and purpose to their rounds. A city big enough to have officers in dispatch, small enough to know them: it was one of the many things that were right about Troy, New York.
Not too big. Not too small. Not overwhelming. Not claustrophobic. Troy’s mix of ethnicities, expressed in faces and flavors, in the businesses and celebrations and cuisines, of each new immigrant group that somehow found its way here. Its sudden physical beauty amid its grimness and gray. Its mix of joy and glumness. Of noisy exuberance and contemplative silence. Its wind howling off the Hudson, sobering and incessant.
The manufacturing past that Troy had been founded on—textile mills, iron works, breweries, bell makers, carriage builders—had long ago disappeared. What was still made, was made cheaper elsewhere. It had left Troy downtrodden, identityless, adrift. Julian felt a lot in common with a city struggling to find its way. A city with struggle as a century-old theme. A city known only—if at all—as the birthplace of Sam Wilson, the local merchant who was the model for Uncle Sam. Troy wants you, Julian, she’d thought with a smile.
Albany and Schenectady were its better-off neighbors. Which said a lot.
A city best known for being unknown.
All of which had revealed itself quickly to her, vindicated her choice of this city, when she had looked for, had needed a place—through no fault of her own—to once again start anew. She chose a place that was itself trying to start anew.
It was a manageable city. The officers riding in front could know its streets intimately—its landmarks, its crevices, its shopkeepers, it winos, its rhythms, its meanings. So did the passenger in their backseat, but she barely saw it now, was barely aware of it.
At the moment, her head was filled with the past. The past tumbling before her, collapsing thick and unsorted in her brain like a forgotten closet shelf, packed too heavy and piled too high, finally, suddenly, giving way…
Seeing him seated there, filling the straining chair with his two hundred eighty pounds of silent aggression, filling the room with mute smug threat, had brought it back smartly, crackling, instantly. At the moment, despite the admirably clean, clear rear windows of the black-and-white, despite the admirably crisp, clear cerulean blue November day beyond them, she could barely see.
Some of that past was sealed, of course. A protection provided by the State in any police proceeding. His flashy-ringed counselor Cooperman, her own quietly dogged state-assigned representative, had succeeded together—from their opposing sides—in at least accomplishing that. Her career to come, Your Honor, the gaunt gangly overworked state’s counselor meekly reasonable, eyes and palms open, importuning, honest. His career too, Your Honor—countermanding, assertive, blustery, strutting, his bulldog insistence on fairness and balance. So that only the smallest piece of it necessary was a matter of public record. For anyone who might care to look, who might get interested anew.
Not just a murderer: that was the thing. A murderer, and a cop. The second denotation tending to ensure the memorability of the first. But even the prospect of a murderer cop, amid the world’s assault of information, its barrage of data, held no particular command of the public imagination. It took up only its small place, delivered only its single portion, in the planet’s daily diet of genocide and catastrophe, destruction and despair. The public’s interest tended to move quickly to the next scandal, the next gruesome fascination. Killer cop. Diametrically distinct from cop killer. Inhabiting the opposite end of some lurid spectrum. Cop killer and killer cop, opposite and identical. And after all, not really a killer cop, said the record. A mistake. Sorry. Which tended to move the public interest quickly on as well.
Since then, she’d forced herself: forced herself to focus on the present. Forced herself as a life-saving measure to see the city, look out at it, study and learn it, concentrate on its now familiar streets and shops and ancient brick edifices and hopeful and cheerfully chaotic new residential blocks. Her focus, her learning, had paid their dividends. In the narrow confines in which she’d applied herself, she’d succeeded wildly—full detective to detective-sergeant to lieutenant. Meteoric, yes, but within a vacuum, speed is inevitable, she’d thought cynically. Her quick lieutenancy probably said more about the size and needs of the force than about any innate ability. And her Homicide record furnished proof of her abilities, safely beyond any consideration of gender. It was a numbers game—and she had the numbers.
Through the rear windows of the black-and-white, she looked out on her city now—like the steadying orienting shoreline seen from a tiny, wind-rocked, wave-tossed boat.
This city had become a home to her. She was alone in it, but as alone in it as she had been everywhere in her life—no less so but no more so—and at least here it was a place she’d chosen.
Troy was her home.
And like its ancient namesake, it had been invaded.
What trick, what deceit, was Winston Edwards bringing to it? What wooden horse was he entering on?
Only she knew who he really was. What he was capable of. The judge and jury clearly didn’t know. The police panels didn’t. The world didn’t. She hoped they wouldn’t have to learn. She hoped she could prevent that. But for now, only she knew, so she was responsible. She knew what he was. She knew he was here. That was a lot to know.
She’d done what she could, having him watched. It didn’t amount to much, but what more could she do? Under the law, he’d committed no violation. She could probably pull strings to get a restraining order, but that wouldn’t accomplish anything, and his behavior so far could hardly qualify as harassment, if the issue ever came under scrutiny. In fact, if it came under scrutiny, she’d be the guilty party, leaving him—unprovoked—in a puddle on the station-house floor.
Running the gun along his teeth. Under his eyes. Once she’d found it there, she’d played the scene through. Played through the animosity and menace. But what was the gun doing out in the first place? To Ng and Mendoza, discussing it now undoubtedly, it must look like a long-simmering vengeance. Like fury finally unleashed. But she knew—she knew it was only her fear.
What could she do? She could only go on. Press on, knowing that somehow Winston Edwards was back in her life, and somehow—as sure as night, as certain as darkness—he was about to figure prominently in it again.
Arching her back to get more comfortable in the rear seat, she saw the male officers’ eyes drink her in quickly in the rearview mirror. Inspecting, as always, the God-given shape and underwear-catalogue curves that had brought her, she’d long ago concluded, a little more pleasure and a lot more trouble than the next female officer.
She rolled down the window, to let in her city, to draw sustenance and support into the police car with her. She let her thick black hair blow. Narrowed her eyes against the slice of wind, condensing further her already slightly pointed features. Features that sometimes exploded with animation and expressiveness, then retreated into their serene Cleopatra mask, leaving everyone longing for that expressiveness again.
Somewhere in her—shrouded, vague, murky and undefined—the thought unformed, the feeling only slightly more pronounced than the thought—she sensed it was one more opportunity to get him.
And equally shrouded and vague, murky and undefined, she sensed it was one more opportunity for him to get her.
Last time, he’d had the power. She’d been the outsider.
This time, it was the reverse.
Last time had been a draw.
But in matters of life and death, a draw was the exception.
In matters of life and death, a draw tended not to