Mr. Living History
By Sue Binder
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"Mr. Living History"--that's what divorcee Lexi Feinstein dubbed Nate Wilcox from the moment she almost ran over him and his horse on her first day of work at Winstead National Park. Wilcox represents everything distasteful to her. Because he's a re-enactor, she is sorely reminded of her father's "wannabe" acting career, which provides painful memories of her childhood. Nate still struggles with the death of his wife in an auto accident, in which he was the driver. His son, Justin, was cripped as a result. Nate has no intention of bringing another woman into his life, especially not a "city gal." But once their paths collide on the asphalt parking lot, the stage is set for decisons. At the focal point of those decisions is the heart of a 10-year-old boy.
Sue Binder
I have written most of my life. While still a pre-schooler, I once got in trouble for scribbling in the back of a book. I continued writing throughout school, working on high school and college newspapers, and eventually getting a BA in journalism and creative writing. I have worked as a newspaper writer and editor, as well as a variety of other jobs, such as a substitute teacher, college instructor, and even an Avon saleslady. Currently I hold two master degrees and am a Licensed Professional Counseler and Licensed Addictions Counselor, and have worked in a private prison. Currently I work for a community health clinic as a Behavioral Health Therapist. I love to read, favorites being Tony Hillerman, Henning Mankill and Patrick Taylor, as well as Steve Barry. I love music, current favorites being Celtic Thunder and Josh Groban. My pride and joy are my four children and five grandchildren. I reside in Southeast Colorado, where I continue to write. My current burning desire is a trip to Ireland. Special thank you to my sister, Sandy, for encouraging me to follow her path to Smashwords.
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Mr. Living History - Sue Binder
MR. LIVING HISTORY
By
Sue Binder
Smashwords Edition
Copyright 2012 by C. S. Binder
All rights reserved. Except for use in any review, the reproduction or utilization of this work in whole or in part in any electronic, mechanical or other means, now known or hereafter invented, including xerography, photocopying and recording, or in any information storage or retrieval system, is forbidden, without the written permission of the author.
This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places and incidents are either the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously, and any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, business establishments, events or locales is entirely coincidental.
Cover image used courtesy of National Park Service, Dragoon Soldier at Ft. Scott, Kansas.
About the Author
Sue Binder is a Licensed Professional Counselor (LPC) and a Licensed Addictions Counselor (LAC), who currently serves as a Mental Health Coordinator in the prison system. She is the author of Meltdown, a collection of short stories published by Smashwords. In addition, her domestic violence manual Hands Off and its accompanying instructor’s guide has been published by American Correctional Association. She is also an award-winning poet with publications in several anthologies.
However, her pride and joy are her four children and five grandchildren. She resides in southeast Colorado, which strongly influenced the locale of this book.
DEDICATION
This book is dedicated to the re-enactors and staff at the National Park Service Sites who strive to make history come alive for those of us who have benefitted from the past achievements of our ancestry.
Apologies for any literary liberties taken with daily activities, characters, and operations at any National Park Service fort. Although the setting of this book is loosely based on the layout and activities at Bent’s Old Fort near La Junta, CO., no other relevance to the story is intended.
Prologue
Hot raging pain shot through his chest. Nate Wilcox was unable to move his arms or legs. All of his limbs felt as heavy as a dead animal carcass. His head floated against a sea of unreality, of being caught in the midst of a nightmare and knowing he couldn’t wake up. He was frozen with terror, sensing evil approaching as surely and inevitably as nightfall. But he was helpless. He couldn’t move. He could only lay there, his heart pounding, his pulse racing, his terror growing, growing, as pain surrounded him, raising its huge arms and spreading its black cape over his body.
He groped toward reality. The car. He was in the car. They were traveling….where? He had to force his mind to bend toward reality. Had to…But the pain raged within him, everywhere. If he just shut his eyes for a moment, perhaps the pain would go away. If he tried not to think….The black cape would close over him, and he would know peace.
He jerked upward, forcing his mind toward reality. Something squeezed against his chest, something rigid, something cold. The pain anchored itself against him, radiating out to every limb, every cell of his twisted body. He couldn’t’ dwell on it; he had to shove it aside. He had to remember.
His stomach flamed, as a searing bolt sent panic racing to his brain. Something was wrong, very wrong. He had to get up, had to get help…. His head slumped backward against the seat. Bad dream. He’d had a bad dream. That was all. He’d wake up later and remember what it was he had to do. Now and then his eyelids flickered. Once he heard a voice mumbling incoherent sounds. Once he felt hands touching him. But mostly he saw only darkness and the wide, welcoming black cape of oblivion that spread before him. But some memory pulled him back, a sense of something left undone. He swum closer to reality, upward near the jarring pain, before the call of darkness once more claimed him.
A movement roused him. Beth…
he whispered, his voice raspy, almost inaudible. He fell back against the seat, hard metal shrouded in vinyl upholstery, now ripped and mangled into a twisted position that could no longer support a human body.
He felt a blinding flash, heard something moving at him from the right, something like a fireball from hell exploding against Beth’s side of the car. Beth! He was remembering. He knew why panic had overtaken him. They’d been in a car wreck, and he had to help his wife, had to get to his son.
He felt hands lifting him, and he struggled to open his eyes. He had a brief glimpse of blurred faces.
Beth…
He willed himself to speak, forced himself to consciousness. His wife…his son…He’d last seen Justin cradled in the infant seat of the Datsun, his finger plugged innocently into the corner of his mouth. He had to find Justin! Had to be sure that Beth was okay. He struggled upward out of the stupor that had claimed him. Wake up! He silently screamed at himself. Wake up!
Lay still. You’re going to be fine.
The first voice he’d understood.
But he knew he wasn’t fine. He’d never be fine again.
He tried to force his body off the gurney. He had to reach Beth, had to be sure she was alright. But he was strapped to the table. A voice cautioned him. Be still. You’re on your way to the hospital.
Reality seized him, shoved its sword into his chest and twisted it against his soul. They were dead. They were all dead. And it was his fault….
CHAPTER 1
Lexi Feinstein fumed as she flipped though the pages of The Cattleman’s Guide for the tenth time. She finally dropped the magazine to the table in disgust. She glanced at her watch. 10 o’clock. She’d been waiting two hours to meet her new boss. During that time, she’d memorized every detail of the room, a tiny cubicle which housed two desks, three file cabinets, and a coffee station. In a dingy corner a liberal collection of magazines and books were stacked on the back desk and looked as if no one had sorted the conglomeration in years.
She reached for the paper coffee cup the secretary had provided, but sputtered when the cold, bitter liquid touched her tongue. She looked down. Grounds floated freely on the surface. With a shrug, she deposited the cup on the end table and once more glanced around the office. The nameplate on the front desk proclaimed Jan Bensen
in bold white letters against the brown wood grain block. Jan had introduced herself almost immediately and had produced a packet of customary employment forms, forms which had taken Lexi only ten minutes to fill out.
Rummaging in her handbag, Lexi removed her compact and checked her makeup. Light foundation over her already pale skin, peach lipstick, just right for this job, she reasoned. She moved the mirror, catching the reflection of her honey-blonde hair, wispy bangs, accenting the blue of her eyes. Cut shoulder-length, the beautician had assured her that this style was very manageable for any professional position. She put the compact away and pulled out her checkbook. She subtracted the last six entries, wincing at her shrinking bank balance. Shoving the item back into her purse, she snatched a scrap of paper and began jotting a grocery list. No need to further waste time, she thought. She hated wasted time, hated being idle for any extensive period.
Fidgeting in her chair, she crossed her legs for the hundredth time and fretted that she had gone off without a paperback, something she rarely did. She picked up a booklet on the stand beside her and flipped through the pages. The words, Winstead National Historical Site
were emblazoned across the front cover. She once more glanced at her watch. 10:10.
Jan stood and stretched, her copper air trailed down to her waist. She moved to the coffee station. I’m going to make a fresh pot,
she announced. You’ll help me drink it won’t you?
Sure.
Lexi generally cut out the caffeine after breakfast, but she needed something to pass the time and keep her already tight nerves in check.
Jan spooned coffee grounds into the filter. I’m sorry he’s so late. Something must have come up; he had planned to be here when you arrived.
When I talked to him on Thursday, he said he’d brief me first thing Monday morning. Look, I can come back after lunch.
He should be here any minutes. Besides, if I were you I’d just sit back and enjoy this carefree moment while you can. Tourist season will soon be upon us, and we’ll be swamped. That’s one thing you can count on in a national park.
The girl smiled at Lexi, a warm smile that turned up the corners of her mouth. Her green eyes flickered with friendship, and Lexi liked her in spite of her own misgivings about the job. Maybe Jan would make the days at Winstead pass quickly.
I’ve never been to a real fort before,
Lexi said.
Jan grinned. You’re in for a unique treat. Of course, it’s basically been reconstructed from the original plans. But with summer almost here, things will get hectic. There’s constant tours to conduct and plenty of special events.
What kind of events?
Oh, mostly living history programs.
Living history?
You know, re-enactment. We use a lot of it to depict life as it used to be along the frontier. In the days ahead you’ll run into a number of re-enactors. Like the blacksmith, Mike Porter. And Karl Klausen, the carpenter. Nick Ramirez makes adobe bricks. And then there’s the cavalrymen and Indians.
Lexi felt an ache rise up inside her chest. A shadow crossed her memory. She wallowed hard and felt the irritation in her voice. So they’re frustrated actors who try to recreate history.
It’s a bit more than that. The programs are quite educational. Most of the participants are real nuts about accuracy and authenticity. That’s why they’re called re-enactors.
I see.
Jan nodded. For the most part, their uniforms and clothes have to be perfect, no zippers or machine-made buttonholes. They use only authentic equipments, such as rifles and guns. And they really do know their history.
Lexi fumbled with the fort brochure, wondering how to change the conversation. She didn’t want to begin her career by antagonizing the staff. But no matter what the secretary said, she knew that re-enactors were frustrated actors; they weren’t good enough to make it on the stage or in the movies. They had the same hungry egos that demanded they display their talents to the public. Hadn’t she had enough experience with such people in her life? She knew first hand what pain and loneliness they inflicted on others.
Jan poured her a fresh cup of coffee. How did you end up here?
she asked.
Well….
Lexi hesitated, wondering just how much to reveal to this stranger. I applied to the government as a public information specialist, and this job came up. It’s fairly close to Denver, my hometown, so, well, here I am.
This must seem pretty different to you, after Denver.
You’ll never know, Lexi thought. She’d disliked the town from the moment she’d entered the city limits and read the sign Population 8,000.
She’d fought an urge to turn the Cavalier around and head straight back to Denver. Off to her right was a KOA Kampground and a used car lot. She’d driven on, keeping her eyes alert for stoplights. She’d been told to turn right at the second stoplight to reach her already rented sight-unseen apartment. She needn’t have worried. There were only two stoplights along the highway. She made the turn, slowing, letting her attention travel back and forth between the road and the buildings on either side of her. Faded brick structures with wide-spacious windows featured displays of auto parts and grocery sales. On both sides of the street, vehicles parked at an angle, something she hadn’t seen in years.
It’s different all right,
she replied. It’ll take getting used to.
And she’d already discovered the worst past. There was no bookstore. Well, except for the community college bookstore, which sold only textbooks. No longer would she be able to browse for hours in Barnes and Noble without traveling to a larger town. At the same moment a dozen other impressions raced through her mind. How long would it be until she could dine again at B.J’s, walk the 16th Street Mall, or cheer the Broncos on at Invesco Field? Maybe she could survive the loss of all that, but without a decent bookstore…There was always the internet, of course, but it just wasn’t the same.
Jan sat her cup down on her desk. Actually, there’s quite a bit to do around here, and it isn’t so very far to Pueblo. Maybe we can take in some shopping up there. I’ll be glad to show you around.
Lexi glanced at her watch. 10:15. Only five minutes had passed since she’d last checked the time. She eased back into the chair, her shoulders constantly colliding with the hard plastic. Nervously, she tapped the toe of her new shoe against the tan shag carpeting. She felt as if she’d stepped off a spaceship onto an alien planet, one that had no atmosphere, and one in which she’d have to struggle merely to breath.
I didn’t much like this job either when I first came, but it kind of grows on you.
Lexi sighed. If she thinks I’m going to tell her why I’m here she’s got another thought coming. I know how small town people think. They can hardly wait to spread juicy gossip. I can just hear her now, down at the grocery or the beauty parlor. Did you meet the new woman in town? She’s only here because she had to have a job to pay off her lawyer bills. Oh, yes, and she’s got a bunch of student loans. Only plans to stick around until she can find a better job.
The conversation would go on and on. Well, Lexi wasn’t about to give the local busybodies the satisfaction of having any fuel to start fires with.
I’m sure I’ll like the job just fine,
Lexi said. She was determined to do the best she could so that each accomplishment, each responsibility would stand out on her resume. Like a diamond in a sea of rhinestones. Yes, this job was just a stepping stone. That’s all.
Well, I’m glad I’m not job hunting—not in today’s economy,
Jan said.
Lexi nodded. That’s for sure. Even in Denver, the job market is so tight. Last interview I had, I was one of three hundred applicants.
That’s why I can’t afford to be choosey," she thought.
Wheewww!
Jan let out an audible sign. Makes me very content with my piddling job.
They were interrupted by the crunch of tires on the gravel.
That should be Clete now. Sounds like his truck.
Lexi glanced toward the window, taking in the barren landscape comprised mostly of soap weeds and sagebrush. Now a cobalt blue pickup blocked the view.
The clomping of boots on sun-baked prairie announced the man’s appearance before he shoved open the door and stepped into the room. His body was clad in a solid gray cotton uniform. His hair was speckled with matching gray flecks that sparked memories of her father. A badge attached to the right upper pocket of his shirt read Clete Ramsey
and the words Winstead National Historic Site
were printed on the second line.
Lexi stood and extended her right hand, anxious to make a good impression. She was just on the verge of speaking her name.
What in God’s name are you doing dressed that way?
His voice boomed across the small room like a volcano spewing disaster over nature.
Jan jerked to attention.
Ramsey continued. This is a fort—not some fancy lawyer’s office.
‘Uh, yes…" Lexi suddenly felt as if she’d stepped twenty years into her past. Her gaze dropped to the toes of her shoes. She fumbled with her purse, struggling for words. She was a little girl again, stumbling through a maze of confusion, unable to understand her actions, unable to explain. With a start, she realized what was happening. She swallowed hard and lifted her chin. She refused to be intimidated by this man. Just because his tone, his attitude was so much like her father’s, just because he was able to instantly resurrect pain within her, pain she had long thought dead…
She had believed her anger subsided, buried with Daniel Feinstein. Yet, Ramsey’s voice had yanked her back to those days with a thrust that left her dizzy and reeling. She forced herself to concentrate on the moment. This man was not her father.
I thought I’d be doing public relations…
she stammered.
Damn fool government! Send a city gal out to a job like this! Shows the kind of idiots we got running things!
His eyes flashed at her. I give you two weeks. No make that one! You’ll be looking for some Broadway play or fancy restaurant or some slick fella, and when you don’t find them, you’ll be out of here!
I came to work,
she put in.
But the man continued, his face flushed with anger. There’s a standard uniform. Have Jan order some in your size. In the meantime go home and change. Get into some jeans, boots!
As if to emphasize his message, he turned and stomped to the door. He shook his head and muttered all the way. Anyone with one-eyed, half-sense knows you don’t wear those kind of duds to hike around the prairie.
He turned at the door and eyed her with cool gray eyes that matched his uniform. Rattlesnakes can bite right those silk stockings!
He was gone then, leaving her utterly deflated. She heard a low whistle behind her and turned to see Jan staring at the door. Wow, did he ever get up on the wrong side of the bed.
Lexi was afraid to respond. Despite her resolution to be strong, tears were welling up inside her, threatening to spill over at any moment. She gritted her teeth and felt a flush roll over her face. Her breath was coming in short heaves, and she knew she was going to explode if she didn’t get out of the office immediately. If there was one thing she didn’t need, it was to let Jan see her fall apart, give her food for the local gossip mill. Without a word, she turned and flounced through the door.
She marched across the parking lot. The heels of her shoes sank into the asphalt with every step, coating them with a sticky, black substance. She cursed the blistering sun that glared down upon the blacktop, softening the surface and destroying the shoes she’d purchased specifically for this job. The heat sapped her strength as it raged over the prairie like an inferno, sucking up every vestige of moisture, leaving the grass and mesquite brittle and parched, ready to explode into flames at the slightest friction. Sweat trickled down her forehead. Already she hated this land. She hated the huge spaces where only miles and miles of buffalo grass existed; she hated the heat, which flamed everywhere; and most of all she hated her new boss, Clete Ramsey.
She reached the Cavalier. Two hours ago she had carefully parked the vehicle in the lot. Now its pale green body screamed under the pain of the summer heat. At least the windshield wasn’t cracked, not yet. But it wouldn’t take many days of this torture to shatter the glass. Lexi would have to find a visor, a blanket or something to protect it. One more frustration to deal