A Gathering of Shades
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Between the worlds of life and death...
Sixteen-year-old Aidan's grandmother has a secret recipe. She feeds ghosts. Her nightly ritual keeps the local lost souls lingering, caught between life and death. When Aidan stumbles upon this knowledge in the wake of his own father's death, the revelation shakes him to the core. Grief-stricken, he is dangerously drawn into the strange and wondrous world of the dead—and away from the living people who love him.
Set in the Northeast Kingdom of Vermont, this beautifully crafted tale of love and loss is told in shades of otherworldly mystery. David Stahler Jr. spins a chilling story that delves into the depths of grief and emerges as a shimmering celebration of life.
Critical Praise for A Gathering of Shades:
“Stahler fashions the intricate plot very carefully. . . . The fully realized characters—both teens and adults alike—raise this above the formulaic and closer to magical realism.”
—Kirkus
“The sinister atmosphere of the story is finely constructed, from the opening scenes to the final pages. . . . The audience for supernatural suspense fiction will drink this new novel right up.”
—The Bulletin of the Center for Children’s Books
“Stahler’s eloquence on grief and yearning, combined with a vision of ghosts refreshingly distinct . . . , will exert a powerful hold on many teens’ imaginations.”
—Booklist
“Aidan is almost lost in the world of the dead, but Stahler is able to deftly help his character take his tentative first steps toward living in the present again. . . . Suggest this one to readers of Naylor’s Jade Green.”
—VOYA
“Stahler delivers a stirring story of pain, love and loss between three generations of a family living in rural Vermont. . . . A painful, yet ultimately uplifting and rewarding portrait of loved ones holding together through the most difficult of times.”
—Publishers Weekly
David Stahler, Jr.
David Stahler Jr. received his bachelor's degree in English from Middlebury College in 1994 and later earned a graduate degree from the Master of Arts in Liberal Studies program at Dartmouth College. His other provocative works for young adults include Truesight, The Seer, and Otherspace. He teaches in Vermont, where he lives with his wife and two children.
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A Gathering of Shades - David Stahler, Jr.
Critical Praise for A Gathering of Shades
Stahler fashions the intricate plot very carefully. . . . The fully realized characters—both teens and adults alike—raise this above the formulaic and closer to magical realism.
—Kirkus
The sinister atmosphere of the story is finely constructed, from the opening scenes to the final pages. . . . The audience for supernatural suspense fiction will drink this new novel right up.
—The Bulletin of the Center for Children’s Books
Stahler’s eloquence on grief and yearning, combined with a vision of ghosts refreshingly distinct . . . , will exert a powerful hold on many teens’ imaginations.
—Booklist
"Aidan is almost lost in the world of the dead, but Stahler is able to deftly help his character take his tentative first steps toward living in the present again. . . . Suggest this one to readers of Naylor’s Jade Green."
—VOYA
Stahler delivers a stirring story of pain, love and loss between three generations of a family living in rural Vermont. . . . A painful, yet ultimately uplifting and rewarding portrait of loved ones holding together through the most difficult of times.
—Publishers Weekly
A GATHERING OF SHADES
by David Stahler Jr.
Copyright 2013 David Stahler Jr.
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For my parents, Rena and David, with love and gratitude for the roots they gave me
Table of Contents
Prologue
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Chapter Eleven
Chapter Twelve
Chapter Thirteen
Chapter Fourteen
Chapter Fifteen
Chapter Sixteen
Chapter Seventeen
Epilogue
Acknowledgements
About the Author
Prologue
The sun still had a ways to go before setting, but in the shade of the orchard it felt like dusk already. The old woman, having wandered down from the house an hour ago, smiled in the coolness of the shadows, and for a moment just listened to the brook that now, in the heat of solstice, had slowed to the murmur it would hold for the rest of summer. Wearing a cotton dress, white with blue flowers, she looked as weathered as the old wooden chair she sat in, slicing off bites of pear with a jackknife, taking time to lick the juice that trickled down her wrists and lay along the blade. A few red pearls of blood from the prick on her fingertip mingled with the juice, giving it a coppery tang, but she didn’t mind. She chewed the fruit slowly, as if it were a meditation, offering none to the figures that had gathered around her, that sat close by or stood, leaning against the apple trees. She knew they would refuse. Besides, they had already had their treat.
So they’re coming tonight, you said?
By Jesus, Smitty, you don’t miss much, do you,
the old woman replied, and everyone laughed.
Well, Eloise,
Smitty said, sinking his massive bulk down within a checkered wool jacket. I thought that’s what you’d said, but you know I don’t remember so good no more.
Never did, even before,
a girl called over to Smitty. She stuck her tongue out at him and grinned. Her T-shirt read Nirvana.
How’d you know, Eve? You wouldn’t know.
Christ, Smitty, everyone knows,
another woman injected from across the circle. She reclined regally in the grass, her antique dress folded around her. Every time Bobby stops by, he tells us how dumb you used to be.
Again, laughter as all the others joined in.
Quiet!
Eloise barked, and all laughter ceased. Marie—all of you—that’s quite enough of that, eh? I didn’t invite you here to listen to you bicker or pick on poor Smitty. Smitty, my dear, I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have started it. And in answer to your question—yes, they ought to be here in an hour or so.
Coming for good, are they?
an old man in faded overalls asked from beneath the low-hanging limbs.
I guess maybe, Alton,
Eloise said. But who’s to say.
Suppose we won’t be seeing much of you then,
he replied. A quiet murmur of doubt rippled among the group, a snowy set of whispers that could have been mistaken for a rustling of leaves. Eloise shivered at the collective sound of pessimism; no matter how long in their company, she knew even she would never get used to that sound.
Now, I said no such thing. Perhaps I won’t be down as often. Then again, you never know. I’ll certainly try, for all our sakes. Besides,
she added in a gentle rebuke, let’s not be selfish, eh? They’re in bad shape, I suspect. They may need me even more than you do.
Her words seemed to satisfy them, and the rustling passed.
You’re quite right, Eloise,
a man with graying hair said. He wore a blue military coat with tails and brass buttons. He gave the old woman a curt bow and she nodded, smiling, in reply. As we all know, there are things worse than death.
They all looked away, with a silence that implied assent.
All right, enough gloominess,
Eloise said. I can’t hardly remember a summer evening so perfect. Let’s just enjoy it together. It’s what we’re here for, isn’t it? Drink up, my dears, drink up!
She gestured to the center of the circle, where a granite basin supported by an ornate pedestal stood, the hub of their wheel. The liquid within reflected the gold of the sky, and for the second time that evening, they gathered around it to quench their thirst.
Chapter One
Aidan swallowed back the sour taste in his throat as they neared the accident up ahead. He hadn’t seen it happen—the steel twisting, the fiberglass panels cracking, the windows fracturing. All in the crush of an instant. And then the letting go, the settling down of pieces, shards raining down to mingle with the roadside trash. But what he hadn’t seen he could imagine—a sight that flashed through his mind each time an ambulance or cruiser picked its way, wailing, through the maze of cars heading north out of Boston.
They had been close. Not close enough to see it happen, not close enough to make out the bodies, to know for sure if they had lived or not. Not close enough to avoid the ensuing jam of cars as everything came to a halt, but close enough so that as they approached the scene, it was still a scene. Sitting with his mother up in the cab of the U-Haul, their Accord trailing along in tow, Aidan looked out over the cars. It felt strange to be so high, to be peering down from a position of privilege. Until now he had been enjoying the perspective; its novelty had made the normal crush of afternoon traffic less tedious. But now, gazing ahead to the flashing lights and haze of smoke, it was as if he and his mother were stranded on some floating raft, a lifeboat being ushered toward fresh destruction by a wave of sedans.
I won’t do it. I won’t be like them, he told himself. In the end, he did it anyway. He became like them—just another rubbernecker, compelled to stare by that bizarre mix of fascination and horror. To look away felt somehow wrong, unnatural in spite of his hatred for the programmed response. The burned and broken husks—four cars in various states of wreckage—lay interspersed with perfect, gleaming cruisers, fire trucks, and ambulances. Though there was movement at the site, a calm had settled in. Men in various uniforms paced slowly or stood around, some speaking in clusters, others looking at the wrecks or staring back at the faces of passing commuters. They seemed to be waiting for something to happen, but everything already had: the victims had been extracted, packaged, bundled, and shipped, ferried out to whatever hospital was close at hand, both the living and the dead. All that remained was the cleanup.
This was the effect. What had been the cause? He wondered. A momentary lapse of concentration? A bumped elbow, a mistimed step on the brake, a drift into another lane? That was the way these things went. Something small, trivial, petty, would blossom into disaster, alter some lives unexpectedly and forever, leaving others intact and oblivious. Most of life’s accidents had their roots in the stupid and the mundane.
You don’t have to look, you know.
Her words broke the spell of his gaze. He turned to his mother in the driver’s seat, looking small behind the wheel, her arms reaching out and up, her legs stretching to work the pedals. She sat upright in the seat, staring straight ahead, eyes never deviating from the line of brake lights flashing into the distance before them. She was pretty and—as his friends constantly reminded him—looked a good deal younger than forty. Her dark hair, cut short, and her petite frame implied fragility, but Aidan knew they merely disguised the toughness of a rural-grown girl. Except for now, of course. For in spite of the stiff pose and resolute stare, he had heard the trembling in her voice, could see the eyes that blinked too much.
Just don’t even look at it, Aidan,
she said, her voice firmer now.
But it was too late—he had already absorbed the ugliness of the scene, a cruel compensation for that other accident neither of them had been there to see.
Shit,
she said, perhaps at the traffic, perhaps at the accident, perhaps at the heat that was everywhere—pouring in through the open windows and through the blasting vents of the van, the one with the air conditioner that didn’t work. Or maybe it was just a general curse. Aidan didn’t say it, but he shared the sentiment.
They had finally passed beyond the wrecks and the traffic was breaking up. Suddenly there was open road, the cars accelerating into their own spaces, as if they had been held at the starting line and the green flag now waved, setting them free to tear away to their homes, the accident already forgotten.
God, it’s almost six-thirty. We’re going to be so late,
she said.
You’re the one who wanted to leave today. Friday afternoon, first day of summer. Stupid.
I know,
she said, chafing at his resentment. You wanted one more night with your friends. One more night to do whatever it is you do,
she said, casting a sidelong glance in his direction. I’m sorry, Aidan, but today was the right day. Summer solstice—the longest day. First day of our summer vacation. It had the right symbolic resonance.
He sighed. She was such an English teacher sometimes. He reached down and switched on the radio—at least it worked—and tuned in FNX, cranking the volume so that a wash of distortion and heavy beats filled the cab, competing with the roar of wind from the open windows. He didn’t have to look to see her grimace, and it satisfied him to add her annoyance to his own. Normally, she would have turned the music down or off altogether. This time, she didn’t. She let him sink back into the sullen defiance he’d been bearing since this morning, when they’d started loading up whatever belongings hadn’t been sold before heading off in the sluggish van for northern Vermont.
* * *
Vermont?
Mitchell had asked.
Aidan thought back to last night, when he had gathered with a few friends for one final get-together, a going-away party,
as his best friend Andy had called it. They met where they always met—High Rock, an aptly named landmark in the town forest—for the usual beer and cigarettes. Aidan had been silent most of the night, listening to the voices of Andy, Mitchell, Jonesie, and Mike rising in the dark as the glowing embers of their smokes flared from time to time, bobbing up and down like fireflies on speed.
Yeah, dumb-ass,
Aidan joked, finishing his beer, Vermont. How many times do I have to tell you?
Whatever,
Mitchell quipped back. I don’t even know where that is.
Jesus, Mitch,
Jonesie said, it’s a goddam state. It’s right above us, for chrissake.
No way, dude,
Mitchell replied proudly, that’s New Hampshire.
Yeah, but next to that is Vermont. You know—skiing, maple syrup, that kind of crap.
Whatever,
Mitchell reiterated. New Hampshire, Vermont—what’s the difference?
Not much,
Aidan said, cracking another beer.
You’re lucky, Aidan,
Mike said. We go up there every year during winter break. My uncle’s got a condo at Killington. Wicked skiing.
I don’t ski,
Aidan said.
Besides,
Andy broke in, Aidan’s going farther north than that. He’s going to . . . what did you call it?
The Kingdom,
Aidan replied.
The Kingdom? What the hell does that mean?
Mike asked.
Beats me. That’s just what they call it.
"So does that mean you’ll be king?" Mitchell said, snorting.
Yeah, that’s funny, Mitch,
Aidan retorted.
If he’s king, he gets his pick of any hottie he wants,
Jonesie offered.
They don’t have hotties up there, do they, Aidan,
Andy said. Didn’t you tell me Kingdom girls have half the teeth and twice the ass of Boston girls?
Something like that,
Aidan laughed.
That’s okay,
Mitchell said. "Who needs girls when you got sheep around, right Aidan? I’ll bet you got lots of sheep up there."
They all burst out laughing. Everyone except Aidan.
So why do you have to go, anyway?
Mike asked.
I don’t know. Gotta sell the house. We got family up there. It’s my mother’s decision, not mine. You want to know, ask her,
Aidan snapped, lighting a cigarette. The sudden bitterness in his voice brought a lull to the conversation. Andy broke the silence.
A toast!
he cried, raising his beer in the darkness. To our pal, Aidan, future red-neck—
And sheep lover!
Mitchell added, to snickers. They all took long swigs. Aidan tossed back with the rest of them, half choking as he chugged the remainder of his third beer.
Drink up, boys!
Andy croaked. For tomorrow we may die!
At Andy’s words, the group went silent once more. Someone gave a nervous cough.
Sorry, Aidan,
Andy murmured.
A second later someone farted and everyone—Aidan included—broke out laughing once again.
* * *
Aidan smiled at the memory, then fell back into a scowl when he caught his mother casting another glance in his direction. Along with a mild hangover, he had been nursing his resentment all day, all month in fact, ever since she had told him her decision to sell the big house in the nice suburb that they could no longer afford on her salary alone and move north. She had always been so cautious, so predictable, that the decision threw him for a loop, made a confusing world even more confusing. But today especially, he had worked his resentment into a quiet rage, ignoring nearly every question, every attempt to elicit a response. He had finally been able to cut himself off entirely. And after a while, her resignation—a fine, be that way
attitude—suited him.
And so he had barely said a word. Neither had she, for that matter. They now crossed the border into New Hampshire, the traffic swelling again as the four lanes of I-93 shrank to three, then two.
You hungry?
she asked a half hour later, not waiting for him to answer. I’m hungry. We’ll stop in Concord. You know that place? That diner? We’ll stop there.
His response was to fiddle with the radio. They were at the Concord tollbooth now and the Boston station was breaking up. Soon, he knew, there would be no good radio, nothing but top-forty crap, easy listening, and country swill. And even those stations would become fewer the farther north they went.
They wandered up the highway that cut through the state capitol, getting off at the diner next to the interstate. Aidan was too hot to be really hungry, but it would make a nice change from the monotony of the road and would prolong the inevitable arrival.
They went inside and took a booth. Like most diners, it was dedicated to the past and filled with memorabilia. But what confused Aidan, what irked him even, he now realized, was its lack of focus. It offered no monolithic tribute, but a hodge-podge of American pasts all competing with one another. Whereas most diners lived in the 1950s or some other particular era, this one presented a bizarre assortment of periods. Elvis and Marilyn competed with Rosie the Riveter, GI Joe, Jimi Hendrix, and the Eagles for wall-space. Racks of old LPs and newspapers from the past fifty years were jammed between the booths. Even the menu lacked any sort of consistency; fried chicken, meatloaf, burgers, and other traditional diner fare rubbed elbows with spaghetti, burritos, and pork lo-mein.
He had loved stopping here as a kid on their trips north. The posters, postcards, and knick-knacks, the mini-jukeboxes in each booth, had all dazzled him. Now, at sixteen, Aidan felt overwhelmed by the accumulation of time, by the barrage of history that rolled itself into a tacky ball of the past. And there was something else here that bothered him. He couldn’t figure it out, but she reminded him.
God, it’s been a while. The last time we were here . . .
Dad was with us,
he said, filling in her pause as he realized.
Right,
she said, sliding down the booth to nestle in the corner.
Aidan glanced at her a moment, could see the sheen of oil and sweat on her gaunt face as she pushed the hair back from her forehead. She looks tired, he thought. He started to reach across the table for her hand, then checked himself, turning back to his menu before she could notice. The waitress came; they ordered. In spite of having not been hungry, he got a fish sandwich, extra tartar sauce, fries, and chocolate milk. She ordered grilled cheese and water.
They ate in silence and returned to the road in silence. Even the radio was mute, switched off at Tilton. He leaned against his door, watching the landscape become more green and rugged as they traveled farther north and the evening sun settled farther west. He watched the familiar exit signs come and go. Ashland, Plymouth, Campton, and still they didn’t talk. The White Mountains loomed before them, growing with every mile. They had just passed Lincoln and were entering the Notch when she finally spoke up.
You do realize, Aidan, that you’ve become nothing but a stock character. A stereotype—poster boy for the angry youth of America. Look out folks: he’s lean, he’s mean, he’s got an attitude. He’ll ignore you to death and amaze you with his disaffectedness—
Shut up, Ma!
he finally snapped. For a moment, they just sat still, glancing at each other. He broke the pause first and punched the dash in front of him. What pissed him off the most was that she was right, as usual. He was acting like a jerk, the classic moody teenager, but couldn’t she understand why?
North of the Notch, as they rounded the bend toward Franconia, she again broke the silence. Her tone lacked its earlier bite.
Still thinking about it, aren’t you.
About what?
The accident,
she answered. You’re back on it. Don’t worry, I’m there too.
Not really. Not today’s,
he said.
I didn’t mean today’s. But seeing those wrecks certainly brought it back—for you too, I’m sure.
It came pouring out before he could stop himself.
I just keep seeing him in one of those cars. How he must have looked when they pulled him out and how those cops must have just stood around afterward waiting for some stupid wrecker. And the people going by—they just looked, slowed down and gawked like I did today. They didn’t know him or even really care. He probably died with some jackass in his BMW watching.
You can’t think about your father that way. No one looks good when they die. You have to remember him the way you knew him. Think of something before, something happy—doesn’t matter if it was last year or five years ago. It’s what I do. I try to do that.
I guess,
he whispered.
He didn’t tell her that it was getting harder to remember what his father looked like, beyond some generalized impression. It was as if, with each passing month, his father was fading away, piece by piece. At first he had seen him everywhere. Every time he closed his eyes he was there, showing up every night in his dreams. But lately, all he could manage were momentary fragments, like disjointed clips from movies, millisecond loops that degenerated into random bursts of facial features—a grin here, a wink there, a turning of the head as the face disappeared from view, the echo of a voice. How long would it be before even these disappeared? It terrified him. He had tried to find a picture this morning in the hope that it might