Cursed (Complete Edition)
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The complete Cursed series.
Includes:
Verity
Clarity
Adversity
Purity
Verity:
Sixteen-year-old Perdita Rivers has spent her entire sheltered life being told what to do. Lately, she’s felt ready for a change, and the universe seems to agree. Her new best friend’s brother is the boy of Perdita’s dreams. Literally.
Even though he plays hot and cold, she’s sure there’s more to it, but she’s kind of distracted by the sense she’s being followed - not to mention the rumours of wild animal sightings that seem to mean more to her new crush’s family than they should. Perdy’s on a mission to find the truth, but maybe the truth is the danger she should hide from, after all.
Clarity
Perdita’s still dealing with the consequences of her actions when her enemies change their targets with no warning, but it’s the unexpected betrayal of those closest to her that hurts the most. When her world shifts beneath her, Perdy has to figure out how to stay standing without losing any more of herself to the werewolves.
Nathan’s watching everyone pull away from him, but he can’t control his destiny. He’s trying to protect his loved ones, but something always seems to get in the way. A public attack has everyone talking about wolves, and all eyes are on his family. His grandfather has lost his mind, and Nathan’s caught in the crossfire, but all of his choices will cost him a sacrifice. One way or another.
Nobody’s watching Amelia... Big mistake.
Adversity:
Kali is the seventh of seventh, both blessed and cursed. With a father willing to sell her, and a life already mapped out for her, she’s desperate for an escape. But her way out can only come from the most unavailable person she knows, and stealing happiness comes with a price that many generations will bear.
Amelia’s haunted by disturbingly vivid dreams about a gypsy girl but ignored by everyone else in her life. She’s desperate to prove herself. To show everyone she can help. So when her brother and best friend display the influence of the curse on their free will—or lack of it—and a spirit warns of Perdita’s fast approaching death, she knows she has to do something. Yet she can’t ignore that something huge is happening to her too, and her journey leads her back to where it all began, but not everyone wants her help, after all.
Purity:
Perdita’s life has gone back to normal in all of the worst ways, while Nathan doesn’t even recognise himself anymore. Still, they’re both trying to make do the best way they know how.
But when they finally catch sight of that flicker of light at the end of the tunnel, Vin plays his final, most deadly, hand.
Claire Farrell
Claire Farrell is an Irish author who spends her days separating warring toddlers. When all five children are in bed, she overdoses on caffeine in the hope she can stay awake long enough to write some more dark flash fiction, y/a paranormal romance and urban fantasy.
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Cursed (Complete Edition) - Claire Farrell
Cursed Series - Complete Edition
An Evans Pack Series
Claire Farrell
Contents
Verity
Verity
Prologue
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Epilogue
Clarity
Clarity
Prologue
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Epilogue
Adversity
Introduction
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Purity
Introduction
Prologue
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Epilogue
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VerityVerity
(Cursed # 1)
By Claire Farrell
Sixteen-year-old Perdita Rivers has spent her entire sheltered life being told what to do. Lately, she’s felt ready for a change, and the universe seems to agree. Her new best friend’s brother is the boy of Perdita’s dreams. Literally. Even though he plays hot and cold, she’s sure there’s more to it, but she’s kind of distracted by the sense she’s being followed, not to mention the rumours of wild animal sightings that seem to mean more to her new crush’s family than they should. Perdy’s on a mission to find the truth, but maybe the truth is the danger she should hide from, after all.

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Prologue
January
Nathan
Devon, England
One by one, my family members phase into wolves around me. My own wolf paces within the imaginary cage in my mind, waiting impatiently. It’s taking me too long to change. They’re all watching and wondering what’s wrong. Only I know. It’s her.
My body aches, but I can’t let go of the stress. It’s all her fault. I don’t know her yet, but she haunts my dreams every night. All of the signs say I’m heading straight for her. She’s about to cross my path, and there isn’t much I can do about it. Except refuse to love her. Make her hate me.
I hear a snarl and realise it’s me. Well, the wolf me. Disagreeing as usual. Relief washes over me as he makes his presence known. He pushes his will against mine and cleanses my thoughts. He wants her. The one he recognises as his true mate.
So I let go. I picture the animal inside escaping and overshadowing my human self. The links entwining both halves break, allowing the wolf to gain centre stage. The floating sensation signals the war between human and animal has been fought and won.
Humanity subsides.
Wolf takes over.
A sharp twist of pain and an overpowering rush of adrenalin push me to my knees. I choke a little at the speed of the change. Fingers stretch into claws that sink in the earth, striving for release. My back arches into a curve as a warm coat of coal black fur sprouts from my skin.
My head spins as my face elongates into a snout, and fanged teeth fill my mouth. I shake free of the dizziness, and all of my senses improve immediately. I smell and see everything like the world has been magnified. It’s been a year since I first changed, but so much feels brand new to me.
I stretch my new form almost lazily, relishing the sensations that never get old no matter how many times I change. Instinct kicks in, and my body aches to take in every scent around me. My peripheral eyesight transforms. My focus and point of view alter completely.
I am ready.
I am wolf.
Life is less complicated like this. I even catch myself thinking it would be nice to share all of this with her. Humanity recoils at the thought. Bad idea, it tells me, but in this form I’m happy. Free.
Vin
Bieszczady Mountains, Poland
Far from the snowy peaks of the mountain, surrounded by a dense forest of beech trees, a group of wolves gather together. They are far from the trails the humans like to use. Other animals, even predators, avoid the area once they catch the unique scent of werewolf. Yet still the group remains cautious. Wariness prevails. Rival packs have grouped together in an uneasy truce. The presence of the few lone wolves who skulk the earth without a pack increases the tension. The need to dominate is strong. Instinct urges them to fight, but they wait for news—for the greater good. Edgy and cold, they sit in silence. Numbering less than twenty, they are the last stronghold of their kind.
A silver elder sits alone at the head of the group. He is in no mood for challenges. His mate rests behind him, leaving a considerable amount of distance between them. She snaps a warning at the young male close to her when he tries to inch past. He retreats, his head bowed in a gesture of submission.
The eerie silence is broken only by an occasional low growl. A man appears, red-faced and sweating, his feet scuffing the ground noisily. His presence brings displeasure, but they know him. They know they must tolerate him. At least until he shares the news.
The man’s dark brown hair sticks to his forehead as he trembles with fear. The scent entices the wolves to make a move, but they need to hear what he has to say first. The youngest male shivers and growls incessantly, barely able to control himself. He is flanked by two others who nip him to remind him of his manners.
We’ve tracked them. Watchers are in place.
The man is still panting from the hike. It was never meant to be taken by a human. The wolves are pleased by his words, but many of them sense hesitation in the man’s voice.
There is more. Worse news.
A cacophony of growls build up into one single sound. The man tries to back away. He wants no part of this. It makes no difference; they know his weakness. The news will be told regardless.
Many of the wolves phase into their human forms; their nakedness is not their shame.
What else?
the elder demands.
They’re on the move again. The signs say it’s almost time for the pup to mature.
The elder considers the news. And what of the abomination?
No changes, but time is not on our side. She’s almost of age.
Some of the wolves growl in unison. A russet coloured wolf moves forward to stand next to the elder. He is joined by two others; one curls back his lip to display a toothy snarl.
The bearer of news can feel the atmosphere change and desperately wants to leave, regretting playing any role in shifter politics. It was a mistake. He can’t trust them.
We have no need for impure females. The girl was always meant to die. As for the pup… take the distraction out of the equation. In the chaos, bring the woman to me.
The man shakes his head. I can’t do that. I’m a seeker; I don’t deal with… problems. I can’t hurt kids.
His voice rises into a desperate whine.
The elder can’t help laughing, but he has abandoned his human side for so long that it sounds like an odd bark.
I wasn’t talking to you.
With an unspoken signal, a trio of wolves advance on the man.
Along the summit of the Bieszczady Mountains, a group of howling wolves draw little attention.
Chapter 1
February
Perdita
Dublin, Ireland
Oh, for God’s sake. I’ll wear the bloody jumper. Just shut up already!
I had finally snapped. I couldn’t help it.
You will not!
shrieked my grandmother at the exact same time as my father shouted at me to stop swearing.
I sighed wearily, resting my head in my hands, preparing myself to sit there until they finished rowing. They ignored me and launched back into each other almost straight away. Typical.
I won’t have it any more, Stephen. I mean it! You can’t tell her what to wear. You’ve no right.
I’m her father. I have every right. I don’t want her wandering the streets like a tart. If she wants to be seen outside then she can cover herself up.
A tart? Do you hear yourself? You must be the only man in Ireland who wants his 16-year-old daughter to look like a boy. A tart… because she wants to wear clothes her own mother bought her. The nerve of you!
The constant arguments were slowly driving me insane. I jumped up, emboldened by anger, and walked straight over to the front door.
Where do you think you’re going?
My Dad’s eyes widened in disbelief.
Out. To Tammie’s house.
You’re not going out at this time of night, Perdy,
he said, his voice firm and resolute, never expecting an argument.
I gave him a withering look reserved for very important occasions.
"Dad, it’s not even six o’clock. That’s not night. It’s not exactly pitch black outside. I’m tired of this. You two can argue all you like; I’m not listening to it anymore. When you both grow up and sort yourselves out, then let me know. This has never been about me."
I glared at the two of them, watching their faces reddening with shame because they knew I was right. Their battles were a front for the bitterness they couldn’t discuss. They didn’t try to stop me leaving, much to my relief. It would have been mortifying if my rebellion was overturned before I actually left the house. I shrugged on my denim jacket and picked up the jumper but made a point of carrying it out the door.
Outside, I took a deep relaxing breath. Exhaling slowly, I felt a lot calmer as I made my way over to Tammie Rutherford’s house. My best friend would absolutely understand if I hid in her house for a few hours. She knew better than anyone how much I needed a break from Dad and Gran. Sometimes they were toxic together.
Tonight’s row had been about clothes, as per usual. My mother’s idea of parenting was to either send me business newsletter type emails about her life or clothes guaranteed to launch Gran and Dad into a miniature war.
I loved my Dad, but I didn’t get him. He was so busy trying to protect me from the world that he kept forgetting to let me live in it. I didn’t want to hide away because of a few hypothetical what ifs.
I loved my Gran, but I hated the way she encouraged me to break the rules, because it was me who had to deal with the aggro over it. She was flamboyant and liked to be noticed; I could never be that person, no matter how much she tried to force it on me.
Tammie didn’t live far from me, so I was there within minutes. That was long enough to mull things over and calm down a little. Tammie was the youngest of six; her family were really loud and relaxed about everything. I knocked at her door, beginning to feel a little embarrassed that I had walked out of my house in a temper. Her Dad answered, his eyebrows rising in surprise when he saw me.
Perdy? Does your Dad know you’re here?
Yeah,
I said, feeling irrationally grumpy that everyone in the world seemed to know my Dad’s rules almost as well as I did. Tammie here?
I think so.
He looked puzzled for a few seconds; he regularly had trouble keeping track of who was at home. It was the sort of thing that drove my Dad crazy. He could never rely on Tammie’s father to know if I was in his house or not.
Tammie! You here?
Tammie’s Dad shouted, making me jump.
I heard a few bangs before Tammie ran down the stairs, stopping abruptly when she saw me.
Hey,
she said, sounding surprised. Dad, get lost.
He wandered back in, good-naturedly patting her on the head as he passed her by.
What’s going on, Per?
I shrugged. Walked out. Two of them at each other again, driving me insane.
She nodded. Come on in. We’ve the room to ourselves for a bit.
I followed her upstairs to the bedroom she shared with one of her older sisters. It was small and messy, but at least it looked lived in. Unlike mine. She shook a bottle of electric blue nail varnish violently, and then settled down to paint her toenails.
Right, what happened then?
I lay back on her bed, feeling frustrated. My life just wasn’t my own. Dad wouldn’t let me do anything, and Gran kept trying to use me to make him mad. I didn’t say any of that though.
Remember that purple blouse thing my mother sent me a few weeks ago? Well, Gran pretty much made me wear it when we went food shopping earlier. Dad happened to drive past us on his way home from work, saw the top, and flipped his lid. He was at home waiting for us and went off on one about wearing a stupid jumper over tarty clothes if I was out in public. That just kicked everything off.
Tammie sniggered. "He thinks that blouse is tarty? I should send you home in one of my outfits."
I groaned. He’d lock me in the attic or something. Seriously, Tams, he’s getting worse. I said I was going out, and he was all, you can’t go out at this time of night, blah, blah, blah. It’s still day time!
What the hell is he afraid of? That you might actually get a life? No offence, Perdy, but he might as well have you locked in the attic. It’s not like you go anywhere anyway. You’re not even allowed sleep over here.
She made a face at that injustice. She had stopped inviting me long ago.
It’s not my fault, Tammie. It’s not worth the hassle. None of this is. I’m so tired of it though. I just want… I don’t know what I want. Something to happen. Something to change. I’m so bored of everything.
You could ask your Mam can you stay with her for a while.
Eh, yeah. Doubt that would happen,
I replied, wondering why she couldn’t get it into her head that my mother just wasn’t interested in me.
Ah, I don’t know then. You could always stay here.
I smiled at her. It was nice of her to offer, but her house was already full to the brim. Besides, I couldn’t handle the noise for too long. I was too used to being alone. Gran was officially supposed to babysit me whenever Dad worked, but she pretty much snuck off most of the time to her Senior Citizen nights. She always said she was off to play bowls, but anytime she called me, I would hear pub noise in the background. As if a sixteen-year-old needed a babysitter anyway.
I stayed in Tammie’s house until it got late. I didn’t want to go home, so I let her test out makeup on me, because I knew she liked that. When Dad arrived to pick me up, I didn’t make a fuss. He raised his eyebrow when he spotted the sparkly green eyeshadow but, to his credit, didn’t mention it.
In fact, he didn’t say a thing on the way home.
When we got inside the house, he sat in the kitchen and fidgeted while Gran made a pot of tea.
They glanced at each other before Gran began to speak.
Perdy, we’re really sorry about earlier. You were right. We do need to… sort ourselves out.
Dad nodded in agreement. I don’t want you to feel badly about us rowing, so we’ve agreed to make more of an effort. It won’t happen again.
I glared at them, irritated by their attempts to brush things under the carpet. What won’t happen again? She won’t want me to do one thing while you want the opposite of me? Things have to change around here or… or I’m not staying.
Gran’s hand flew to her mouth; Dad’s face drained of colour. For once, they both looked like they were on the same page.
What?
I said.
What do you want from us?
Dad said. His voice shook, and that scared me a little, but I figured I had to take my chances wherever they came.
Look. I’m almost seventeen. I don’t need anyone telling me what to wear. I don’t need a babysitter. I don’t need you two arguing over every single part of my life. I’ve never gotten into trouble, so I think I should be allowed some freedom. I think I should be allowed to do things that other teenagers do. I think I’ve earned your trust by now, Dad. If I mess up, then punish me. But don’t punish me for things I haven’t done yet. And Gran, you need to stop using me to prove points to Dad. It’s not fair on me.
I took a deep breath and glanced at them both to see how they were taking it. I couldn’t believe I had the guts to say all that. I usually went along with everything they said, but I needed to start standing up for myself.
They both looked a little winded. The silence only frustrated me further.
Fine. I’m going to bed,
I said. And I’m getting the bus to school with Tammie from now on.
I hurried up the stairs to my room before either of them could argue with me. Locking the door behind me, something I knew would infuriate my Dad, I sat on my bed and texted Tammie with an update. I made a decision about my own life, and I was going to stick by it. I just hoped I had the guts to go through with it.
The high from winning a small battle left me too quickly. I suddenly felt deflated, worried, and even a little scared. I had done some things I never had before: answered back, told Dad and Gran what I wanted, hadn’t bothered listening to their arguments. Yet the world hadn’t ended. Tammie once said to me, What’s the worst that could happen?
And so far, she had been right. Nothing bad had come from me standing up for myself. Better do it more often, I thought, yawning loudly.
I checked my email, automatically deleting an unread one from my mother, before deciding I was too tired to stay awake. I barely managed to comb out my hair before my eyes began to close by themselves. I lay down, praying I would have that dream again. For months, I had been dreaming about a boy. At least, I thought that’s what they were about. The dreams themselves were out of focus, confusing and vague, but the main point was me reaching something. Someone. Someone with beautiful brown eyes that made my insides melt.
I knew it was a dream, but it felt as though it was leading me somewhere. Waking up from such a dream left me with a warm feeling inside, yet the way it ended was always frustrating. I hadn’t gotten to where I was supposed to be. It left a sense of longing inside me that I couldn’t get rid of. I didn’t know what a recurring dream signified, but this one made me feel as if I always woke before the most important part. It was like having a word on the tip of your tongue for a year, or being on the verge of remembering something you were supposed to do, but not quite getting there.
I forgot about everything except those eyes as I relaxed into a deep sleep, still hoping for a good dream. I wasn’t disappointed. Wind whipped my hair backward as I sped through a forest. I must have been flying because my feet didn’t touch the ground. Not flying exactly. Gliding. It was dark, but I wasn’t scared. I knew I was meant to be there. I was looking for something. Something was waiting for me.
An orb of light danced ahead of me, leading my way. It soon paused and changed direction, finally guiding me along a path to an ancient oak tree that towered above.
I looked around, awestruck, until I noticed a figure under the tree. The dream blurred; the atmosphere turned cold. I could tell their back was to me, so I reached out. There was something bad nearby. I could sense it. I had to warn them. As my fingers touched the skin on the back of their neck, a thrilling jolt of electricity ran up my arm. I laughed out loud; this was all the way it was supposed to be. The figure whirled around, momentarily scaring me with a flash of something sharp and white, but then my gaze locked onto the most beautiful pair of eyes I had ever seen. Eyes so familiar to me. My fears melted away, and everything else dimmed.
Chapter 2
Iwas torn from my dream by the jarring sound of my alarm clock. Turning it off, I indulged in an extra few minutes in bed, trying my hardest to remember every second of my dream. As usual it made no sense to me, but something about it calmed me, made me happy. All too soon my good mood was lost to the memory of the night before. I had to face Dad and Gran, but worse, I had to pick an outfit that wouldn’t annoy either of them. I decided to wear my dressing gown to breakfast and then figure out what to do next based on how they acted. Relieved to have some sort of a plan, I wandered downstairs. They were both up already and had even made breakfast for me.
I sat down warily with the strangest sensation that this was the calm before the storm. Both of them were exceptionally polite to each other and me. It was a little too pod people for my liking.
So?
I said, eventually. Are we going to talk about it?
I hated when they dragged things out.
Dad folded his newspaper with slow, careful movements. Gran took a long sip of her morning coffee. Obviously neither of them wanted to start. I began to feel as though I was the parent, and they were the kids. Finally, after a few pointed looks from me, Dad cleared his throat.
We had a long talk last night. Everything you said was pretty reasonable, so I’m prepared to make some changes. But if you let me down….
We don’t want you to feel like you have to leave us to be happy,
Gran said. We all need to get out of the past. We were thinking that maybe we could make a fresh start, you know? We could redecorate together. You could do your room the way you want.
And you can pick your own clothes. Within reason,
Dad said. Maybe stay out a bit later at weekends. We’ll see.
They looked innocent enough, but I couldn’t help feeling suspicious. Gran was anal about keeping our house the way it had been when my mother lived there, and my Dad was anal about letting me do anything normal. I didn’t really trust either of them to stick to their word. It would be interesting to see what happened next.
Okay,
I said. We’ll see all right.
I finished my breakfast and ran back upstairs to get ready. I pulled my hair back into a tight plait and turned my attention to clothes. That was the thing. I hated my Dad telling me what I couldn’t wear, but the truth was that I had never had the confidence to wear the kinds of clothes he hated anyway. I quite liked feeling hidden under the heavy jumpers he preferred.
I ended up throwing on a pair of jeans and a thick black cardigan. I buttoned it all the way, hiding the brightly coloured shirt underneath. Feeling a little daring, I even put on some clear lip gloss and the tiniest smudge of eyeliner. Satisfied, I got my things together, put on my jacket, and raced down stairs to meet Tammie on time.
You sure you don’t want a lift?
Dad asked, his tone hopeful.
I’m sure.
Maybe you’d like to wear your hair down today. It’s so pretty down,
Gran said, looking wistful.
No, Gran,
I said as firmly as I could. Surprisingly enough, they both left me alone after that. Cheering up, I waved goodbye and left on time. Thinking, so far, so good. I stood at the end of my road and waited patiently for Tammie. She texted me to see if I was really there before turning up a few minutes later.
Hi,
she said with an excited squeal. You’re free!
I couldn’t help laughing. Maybe. Baby steps right now.
We walked toward the bus stop slower than I liked because Tammie couldn’t walk in her heels. She wore a short denim skirt and ankle boots with stiletto heels. I wasn’t even the slightest bit surprised when I noticed her shudder violently. Early spring in Ireland meant it would be pretty cold for a while, so I was glad of the heavy cardigan and the extra padding from the denim jacket. The sun hadn’t fully risen yet. The darkness of the winter months seemed to linger on for as long as possible. A sharp nip in the wind and that distinct cold smell in the air made it feel like winter, but it was good to be outside. I was happier than I should have been on such a dull morning.
Tammie began to sing loudly, inducing an eye roll from me. I might have stayed under the radar, but she liked to be noticed. The more popular girls hated her and did their best to make her feel bad about herself, but she never listened.
When the bus finally arrived, we sat in the middle seats by the heater so Tammie could defrost her legs. I heard a couple of insulting comments about Tammie’s appearance from the back seat, but she wasn’t in the least bit bothered by it.
When she had warmed herself, she perked up long enough to share a titbit of gossip with me. I heard a rumour a family moved into one of those big old houses near the woods. Maybe there’ll be someone new at school.
I shrugged, not particularly interested. There were a lot of empty houses around. We lived too far on the outskirts of the city to attract many new families, chiefly because visiting anywhere useful meant travelling by bus or car.
This particular group of houses had gotten run down because they remained empty for so long with no upkeep. The small wooded area was dense enough for lots of alcohol drinking teenagers to hide in at the weekends. Tammie and I were never invited. Not that I would have been allowed out that late anyway.
The local gossip out of the way, it was time to talk about my cousin, Joey. Aside from Tammie, Joey was my only other friend at school. Tammie had a major long-term crush on him, which was probably the reason we started hanging around with him in the first place. We made an odd trio. He was the brainy nerd, she was the kooky outsider, and I was, well, I was a bit of a non-entity. I was invisible. Joey had no idea that Tammie liked him. That was handy for me; there was no telling how weird things could become if my only friends began a relationship together.
We met up with Joey outside school, but he was too busy obsessing over his history homework to have an actual conversation with us. Tammie and I gossiped until the bell rang for our first class. The three of us walked there together, but while Joey sat right up front, Tammie and I sat further down the back. Even a major crush couldn’t persuade Tammie to sit up front.
I often wondered what Tammie saw in Joey. He wasn’t all that good looking, and they had nothing in common. He looked a lot like my Dad, he was a good four inches shorter than Tammie and a little bit scrawny to boot. He already had his books out and was busy looking very studious.
A member of a primarily adult drama club, Tammie spent a good portion of her school time trying to persuade teachers that we needed a drama club at school, too. Joey didn’t believe in doing things like that when he could be studying.
The teacher came into the room and immediately began to read from the history book. Almost instantly, everyone stopped paying attention. Apart from Joey. Our history teacher had the most boring voice in the world and no teaching skills to speak of. Every single class, he read aloud in a monotonous tone. Yeah, fascinating. Double history on a Monday morning was a punishment from God.
Stifling a yawn, I noticed some of the girls gesture mockingly toward Tammie. Today’s joke being her hair. Short and blonde, she had fashioned it into a wild looking spiky style that was tipped with hot pink.
One girl in particular, Dawn Talbot, took on the evil cheerleader persona of American high school films with relish. She regularly gave Tammie a particularly hard time. Even as I glanced around the room, I spotted her sneering at Tammie and whispering things that sent her group of friends into fits of giggles. She was very popular and very mean, and I had yet to figure out how the two were linked. She caught my disapproving eye and threw me a scornful look. I quickly bent my head before she could start an argument. I was always ready to stick up for Tammie, but confrontation on my own behalf didn’t come quite as easily.
I sighed to myself before resuming my regular time-wasting activity of scribbling on my books. I was okay at art, and I tended to sketch a lot in my spare time. It helped me relax. Even when I found myself drawing a pair of familiar looking eyes on the inside cover of my history book. Half of my schoolwork was decorated by those dream eyes. I had spent way too much time daydreaming about them. Frustratingly, I could see them clearly in my head, but I still hadn’t managed to reproduce them on paper accurately. It gave me a little ache inside that I would never tell Tammie about. Not that I had ever told her about my dreams either. Some things even your best friend wouldn’t understand.
Glancing up at the clock above the whiteboard, I groaned as I realised just how much time was left before the next class. Tammie gave me a sympathetic smile before sneaking her phone out of her bag to read her text messages.
Most of the rest of the class were slouched back in their chairs, passing notes or sending silent texts. Aaron Hannigan entertained himself by throwing pieces of wet paper at the less popular kid in front of him, much to the amusement of the easily pleased girl sitting next to him. Dawn Talbot’s shoulder-length blonde hair was being brushed by one of her clones, and Abbi Mitchell decided to irritate everyone around her by filing her nails noisily.
Bored of people watching, I bent my head and continued drawing on my book. I was vaguely aware that the classroom door had opened and that most of the girls in the room had started whispering loudly, but I was too busy carefully filling in an iris to look up.
Students, this is Nathan Evans, the newest pupil to join your class. I trust you’ll all welcome him. Now sit down the back there, lad,
the most boring teacher in the world said.
The new kid passed through the room amidst excited whispers. In the middle of double history, almost anything becomes something to discuss. But Tammie kept kicking me under the table as hard as she could, hinting at me to look up.
I frowned at her. Rolled my eyes as she nudged me urgently. Glanced up just as Nathan Evans was about to pass by my table. We looked right at each other, and my mouth gaped open in shock. He paused, looking as startled as I felt. I knew him. Or at least, I knew his eyes. I had just drawn them in my book. The hairs rose on the back of my neck as a shiver of excitement ran down my spine. How was this possible? How could I have seen his eyes in my dreams? The hint of surprise on his face quickly turned into a deep frown that brought me back to earth. My cheeks flushed with heat, and I quickly looked down at my book.
He moved on and sat in an empty seat at the back of the room, but I could have sworn I still felt his eyes burning into me. I groaned inwardly. Why did I have to freak out the new kid by staring in his face like that? Most of the class were still nudging each other and whispering, but my hands trembled so much I didn’t trust myself to pick up my pen. Never mind look into their faces to see if they were talking about me or him.
Perdy, are you okay? What on earth was that about?
Tammie hissed in my ear.
I shrugged, trying to come across as nonchalant. I had the strongest urge to turn around in my seat and stare at him again to see how alike those eyes really were. That compulsion scared me enough to make me want to run out of the classroom and never return. There were some things you couldn’t live down. I learned that the hard way as I heard Dawn loudly remark, Isn’t it sweet that the freak has a crush on the new boy?
Most people giggled, especially because my face had probably turned tomato red. Tammie stuck her middle finger up at Dawn in response. I cringed and kept my head down for the rest of the class.
I couldn’t stop thinking about him. It was as though that word had finally launched itself off the tip of my tongue. Big-time relief, as though something I had been waiting a long time for had finally arrived. I knew it made no sense, but a sneaky thought kept popping into my head. His look had echoed my own. He recognised me, too.
As soon as the bell rang, I picked up my things and ran out of the room, making sure I was the first one to leave. I hurried to the science lab alone to avoid Tammie’s questions. Most of the people who passed me by pushed against me roughly as if I didn’t exist. I kept my head down, avoided eye contact, and made it to the class first as usual.
Except, I wasn’t actually first. I only realised this when I walked straight into the new kid who was already casually standing outside the locked door. I gazed at him in confusion, wondering how he had gotten there so quickly, before getting my act together and moving to the other side of the door.
I stole a quick glimpse, but he caught me, so I looked away before I could get drawn in and embarrass myself again. I closed my eyes in a sort of despair as it occurred to me that he probably thought I was stalking him or something.
Luckily, it wasn’t long before the rest of our classmates joined us and surrounded him, bombarding him with questions and giving me plenty of opportunities to sneak glances at him. He was quite good looking once I got past his eyes. In class, a lot of girls argued over who got to sit next to him.
Even though plenty of girls obviously liked him already, he didn’t seem cocky or arrogant. He chatted back to anyone who spoke to him, so he was pretty friendly. I had never really had a type, but he made the butterflies in my stomach flutter extra fast.
His skin was nice and clear—the colour of milky coffee. Dimples chased his smile, which was sort of adorable. His hair was jet black, straight, and cut in a way that wasn’t particularly fashionable, but it suited him. He was better looking than any of the other boys in my year, but again, it was his eyes that called to me. It was remarkable how similar they were to the ones in my dream. Big, very dark brown ones that lit up when he smiled. There was something sincere and nice about his entire face. In short, he was hot. Way too hot for me to keep looking at.
But look I did. I couldn’t help myself. I found myself peeking at him all day. I caught his eye more than once. Every time he looked at me, I felt as though he knew what I was thinking. There was something really intense about him, and I couldn’t understand how everyone else was so easy in his company. I could feel myself crumbling if he merely glanced at me.
I saw him everywhere I went as he was in so many of my classes. Even when he was surrounded by people, I still knew exactly where he was, but I didn’t have the guts to start a conversation with him. Knowing me, my mouth would dry up, I’d stutter something nonsensical, and probably trip and fall into a bin for good measure.
Lunchtime was a quick relief because I couldn’t spot him in the canteen, and I had some company in the shape of Tammie and Joey. I waited until Joey took a really big bite out of his roll before I talked to him about Dad and Gran.
I walked out of my house last night, Joe.
He choked on a piece of bread, spluttering for a few minutes before swallowing noisily.
What do you mean, walked out?
They were fighting again, so I left and went to Tammie’s house.
I tried not to laugh at the gormless look on his face.
What did they say?
He knew quite well what things were like for me. Although, he agreed with some of it, such as wearing heavy navy jumpers and avoiding boys. Tammie was a bit of a feminist, and it disturbed her greatly that she was attracted to an old-fashioned chauvinist who thought my Dad’s rules were for my own good because I was ‘just’ a girl.
Gran offered to let me paint my room however I like, and Dad said I could wear what I wanted, pretty much. And that I could maybe stay out later and do some stuff. As long as I don’t mess up.
But why did they take you seriously? You always moan about their rows. It’s never stopped them before,
he said.
I hadn’t thought of that. I don’t know. I got really angry with them and told them I’d leave if they didn’t cop on.
Wow.
He took another bite of his roll before speaking with his mouth full.
You must have really scared them.
What do you mean?
You know. Hinting you’d go to your Mam’s,
he said. That would kill them both.
Oh,
I said slowly as comprehension dawned on me. I hadn’t meant I’d leave for her house. I hadn’t even really meant that I would actually leave, but of course, that was their worst nightmare. I had accidentally touched a nerve. I didn’t get why they would ever believe I might want to spend time with my mother, but they rarely made sense to me.
She’s a bit slow sometimes, isn’t she?
Tammie said. Anyway, it’s up to us to make sure that she doesn’t get into any trouble, or she’ll be right back where she started. Having no life at all.
I stuck my tongue out at Tammie, but she was right, I would have even less privileges if it all went wrong.
Joey looked thoughtful. I suppose I better keep an eye out. Just in case any of the tossers around here start sniffing around.
He glared around the room as if trying to figure out who needed to be watched the most.
Tammie and I exchanged eye rolls. For some reason, Joey seemed to think that the entire male population of the town left Tammie and me alone because of his presence only.
Okay, who’s up for a walk to the shop? I’m in desperate need of a Snickers.
Tammie stood and picked up her bag.
I made a face. Eh, it’s raining. No chance.
I’ll go,
Joey volunteered. Wouldn’t mind one myself.
They left together, Tammie throwing me a sneaky wink as she walked away. Their need for a snack might be worth facing the now steady rain outside, but there was no way I was willingly going to let my hair get wet over a bar of chocolate. Besides, I got the feeling that Tammie wanted to be alone with Joey. I had homework to get through while she tried to… whatever.
I attempted to concentrate on my French homework, but without Tammie and Joey’s chatter, I was hopelessly distracted by thoughts of the new boy, Nathan. I glanced around the room as I tried in vain to memorise a list of verbs and noticed a girl I had never seen before walking across the canteen while struggling to carry a mountain of books. I didn’t know her, so she had to be new.
She looked very young and innocent. Sort of like a pretty little china doll. Her hair was dark and wavy, and as she turned her head I saw it reached her waist. She wore a long, vibrantly coloured gypsy style skirt and noisy bangles on her wrists.
Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Dawn and her friends pointing in the girl’s direction. I instantly knew they would hassle her. For some reason, my hackles went up. I felt strangely protective of the kid. She was all alone and dressed differently to Dawn and her crowd, which made her a prime target.
The group of girls strode arrogantly toward her—predators confident of the power they held over their prey. They surrounded her, doing their best to intimidate her as they giggled together. She looked so uncertain that I felt a pang of pity for her. Before I had time to even think about it, I was already standing up.
Abbi pushed roughly against the girl’s shoulder while Dawn swung her bag toward the pile of books the girl carried. The new girl lost her balance from the impact and fell backward as all of the books slipped out of her hands. Dawn and her cackling friends moved on. I was already hurrying over when Dawn glanced back over her shoulder to admire her work.
Whoops. So sorry,
she said, her voice dripping with sarcasm.
How dare they? I forgot about hiding away in my outrage.
Oi!
I shouted at the girls, a little too loudly. People started to look in our direction. What the hell do you think you’re doing?
The girls turned and stared at me in disbelief. Dawn’s eyebrow lifted as she looked me up and down.
Excuse me?
she said.
Something wrong with your hearing?
I snapped back. Everyone in earshot laughed as Dawn’s face turned from red to purple. The laughter was mostly down to my unusual reaction. Everybody loved seeing someone lose the plot. For once, I didn’t even care.
"So, what is it then? Do you lot feel all big and brave when you pick on someone? Safety in numbers and all that. One girl, who’s obviously younger than you all, isn’t going to do much against six of you, is she? That how you get your kicks? Pathetic. Sad pack of sheep," I said, wanting to throw something.
Dawn laughed without humour. As if I care what a freak like you thinks!
I’d rather be a freak than have to put other people down to feel good about myself.
I turned to the new girl and helped her up before picking up some of her books.
You okay? Don’t pay any attention to the Queen Bee and her drones over there. This is the best it’s going to get for them, so they have to make the most of it the only way they know how. By acting like spineless little bitches. You should be flattered that they don’t expect you to be just like them, actually.
I suddenly realised that a lot of people had gathered around us to listen. I lost my nerve and shut up, but it was too late, people were already clapping. A lot of them had been Dawn’s targets in the past. Dawn looked horrified, but she bit her lip and let her friends lead her out of the canteen. Some of them had the decency to look ashamed, but they still didn’t stand up to her or apologise to the new girl.
The crowd wandered away once they realised the mini drama was over, leaving me and the girl in the centre of the canteen. She grinned at me in such a friendly way that I couldn’t help grinning back. I was a little startled to see that her eyes looked familiar, too. I really needed to get over the eye obsession. I carried on picking up the girl’s books before putting them on one of the tables so I could shake the hand she extended.
Thanks for the help,
she said. I’m Amelia. I just started here.
I couldn’t place her accent, but it definitely wasn’t Irish. I didn’t want to throw a load of questions at her if she was only new.
Hey, Amelia. I’m Perdita… but everyone calls me Perdy, unfortunately.
She smiled at me broadly, making me feel totally at ease, which was a rarity for me.
Pretty name,
she said.
I shrugged. What’s your next class? I’ll walk you and help carry your books. We should probably find your locker first so you can ditch some of them though.
Oh, right. I’ve P.E. next, so I need to head to the gym hall, but my locker is on the way,
she said. I started school today, so I’m a bit lost. Thanks again for the help. I was beginning to think that nobody could pass for friendly in this place.
I gathered up my own things; we divided her pile between us, and then headed toward her locker. Those girls were just bored. They’re like that with all of us, so don’t take it personally. I’m pretty sure they’ll leave you alone now though.
Yeah, maybe,
she said, sounding unconvinced. She looked shaken, and I didn’t get the impression she was used to that sort of treatment.
So, do you live nearby?
she asked.
I nodded. Yep. With my Dad and Gran. My Dad works in the hospital.
He’s a doctor?
I nodded. Anyway, not much goes on around here. We’re only living here ‘cos we stay with my Gran, and my Dad’s job is nearby. Just waiting until college, and then I’m outta here.
She laughed. I’m sure it isn’t that bad. I’m not really used to anything special anyway.
We dumped most of her books in her locker. I decided to walk her to the P.E. hall just in case Dawn tried to make trouble for her. She still seemed really shy, so I felt as though I should be more welcoming.
Um, so… if you need any help with anything else, just ask. And hey, if you’re not busy tomorrow, you could always join me and my friends at lunch. There’s only the three of us, so if you have other plans don’t worry about it.
I added the last sentence hurriedly and managed to make myself sound lonely and desperate. But she thanked me, smiling, and we swapped mobile numbers.
I left her at the gym, promising to see her the next day, and hurried off to my own class which I was now late to. I still had a smile on my face from chatting to Amelia when I realised Nathan was standing in my way. Even though I knew that, logically, he wasn’t the boy from my dream, I still felt jumpy when I saw him. My stomach flipped whenever I looked at him. Dream eyes or not.
I moved to walk around him, but he sort of put out his arm to block me. At least, that’s what it looked like.
Hi,
he said, so low I could barely hear him. He stared at me in a way I didn’t understand. As his eyes searched mine, my cheeks grew hot and, predictably, my mouth dried up. Lo and behold, my brain turned to mush. I mumbled something back at him and scurried past, cursing my social awkwardness.
By the time school ended, it was raining quite heavily, so I was relieved to see my Aunt Stella’s car outside. She was always up for giving Tammie and me a lift home, especially in bad weather. Her pet dog, Dolly, took up most of the back seat, but the dog’s head was out of the window, panting heavily. I saw lots of people avoiding the car in case she jumped out. She wasn’t dangerous, but her size made her look intimidating. Moreover, she drooled a lot. People tended to avoid dog drool.
She whined softly in anticipation when she noticed me and practically squeezed half her body out of the window to get to me. I shoved her back in, with difficulty, before joining her in the back. Stella turned around to talk to me, but Dolly flipped out. She launched herself at the window, almost squashing me in the process. The hackles on the back of her neck rose as she gave a low warning growl. Hushing her, I glanced out the window, but all I saw was Nathan standing a few yards away looking at the car. Dolly sat back down but kept her front paw on my leg protectively.
That was weird,
I said to Stella who nodded in agreement. I looked back out at Nathan, but he was gone. I wasn’t sure if Dolly had been growling at him, or if he had stopped walking because of the noise she was making. Tammie and Joey got into the car so Stella started the engine and set off. Dolly had calmed down, but she was still acting strange. She wouldn’t move away from me for even a second, so I felt as if I was stuck in a corner.
When I got home, Dad and Gran were both around and making a show of being nice to each other. I couldn’t concentrate on them because I was too busy thinking about Nathan and how many times he had caught me looking at him throughout the day. I pushed my dinner around my plate distractedly as my family members tried to prove they liked each other and could get along. I ended up going to bed early just so I could think in peace. Before I fell asleep, I realised I had only heard Nathan say one word, but I had spent the entire day obsessing over him. That was crazy. Even for me.
That night I had one of my recurring dreams again. This time the eyes came with a distinguishable face. Nathan’s. In my dream, I had the overwhelming sense that he was mine. He belonged to me. I sat up straight in the darkness, sweat dripping down my back, completely unnerved all over again. I wasn’t sure if my dream had changed because I had spent so much time thinking about him or not. Either way, those dreams were affecting every part of my life. It took me a long time to fall back asleep that night.
Chapter 3
The next morning, I met up with Tammie at the bus stop. Another cold day. It had rained throughout the night.
Tammie was far too hyper for my liking. I wasn’t a morning person at the best of times. I hadn’t had enough sleep the night before between waking up from strange dreams and then tossing and turning while worrying about said dreams.
So how were the odd couple last night?
Tammie danced on the spot to keep warm. I mentally prepared myself to hide if anyone saw her.
Fine, I suppose. Pretending to get along. Long may it last.
They could be worse,
she said.
How?
I dunno. Just could be.
Whatever.
I rolled my eyes. I knew for a fact Tammie would go insane if she had to live by my Dad’s rules. Oh!
I said, remembering something I was supposed to tell her. I invited a new girl to sit with us at lunch today.
Tammie raised her eyebrows. Maybe because she knew I couldn’t string a sentence together in front of someone I don’t know.
Come on, Tams. Give her a chance. She’s younger than us, and she got hassled by Dawn and her crowd, so I said she could sit with us. She’s nice though. I promise. Her name’s Amelia.
Hmm, we’ll see,
she said, before grinning mischievously. Speaking of nice, did you see the fine specimen of a teenage boy who joined history yesterday? Yummy. Oh, wait, silly me, of course you saw him. Your bloody jaw dropped when he walked in. What was that about?
I blushed. That’s not what happened. Don’t be ridiculous.
Oh, please,
she scoffed. "For once I agree with Dawn. It was only obvious you liked him. Bit of a relief that you finally noticed a boy actually. I was starting to think you must fancy me."
"Oh, whatever. Joey!"
Cheap shot, Perdy.
It was her turn to blush.
The bus rattled up the road before she could think of anything else to embarrass me with. We sat in our usual seats, ignoring the filthy looks Dawn threw our way. The windows were so full of condensation that I couldn’t see a thing outside.
We had been on the bus for a few stops when I was surprised to hear somebody call my name. Amelia sat down on the double seat facing us. I tried to say hello but stuttered to a stop when Nathan sat down next to her. I looked at Tammie in confusion, but she was too busy giving Nathan an appreciative glance to notice.
He smiled at us, his knee tipping off mine, and I froze. Oh, crap. Those few seconds felt like eternity as I had a mini panic attack in my head, not knowing what to say. Dawn saved me, sort of, by calling to Nathan very loudly in an incredibly snobby tone of voice.
"Nathan! We’re all sitting back here. There’s a space right by me, so you don’t have to sit next to them." She spat out the word them as if we were rotting with some contagious disease. The implication was clear. We were not worth sitting next to or near, and we weren’t the type of people he should mix with unless he wanted to catch the outcast gene.
I was a little annoyed on behalf of Tammie and Amelia and even thought about answering Dawn back, but Nathan got in there first.
"No, thanks. I’d rather sit here next to my sister. You know, one of them. I’d introduce you, but I think you’ve already met," he called back, even louder than Dawn.
Dawn blushed furiously, slumping low in her seat as if it would hide her away. An eerie silence filled the bus—only broken when Tammie burst into husky laughter. I gazed at Amelia and Nathan, marking the similarities. Now they were both in front of me, I could see the resemblance.
They had different colours and textures to their hair, different builds and skin colour, but their features were alike after all. His accent was pretty similar to hers too, I just hadn’t heard him say enough words to notice before. I couldn’t stop looking at him—again—as he glared at Dawn, but I realised his eyes weren’t angry. In fact, they twinkled with amusement.
He caught my eye and winked. I bit my lip and looked away, anything to be able to speak again. I knew I had to be the one who started the introductions.
Well, um, this is Amelia… Amelia, this is my best friend Tammie… and erm, that girl at the back of the bus kicking herself is Dawn.
They all laughed, shattering the tension.
Ah, yes, I recognise Dawnie Dearest now,
Amelia said, still giggling. This is my big brother, Nathan. Nathan, this is the girl I was telling you about yesterday, Perdita.
Perdy.
I rolled my eyes as Tammie corrected Amelia with the shortened version everyone else used.
Nathan shook his head. Perdita is much better.
He held my gaze as his eyes seemed to pierce into mine, and all of a sudden, I found it hard to breathe. My lips parted of their own accord. I couldn’t even look away. I felt as though I was being hypnotised. I forgot the others were sitting there and just stared back at him, my stomach fluttering all over the place. My skin tingled with goose bumps, but he broke the spell by jumping to his feet and mumbling something under his breath. He hurried down to the back of the bus and sat there instead, leaving me wondering what just happened.
Wow,
Tammie said. He’s almost as bad as you, Perdy. Soul mate material or what.
She burst out laughing at her own so not funny joke while Amelia looked at me as if I had done something to make her brother run off.
When we arrived at school, Dawn sidled up to Amelia.
"So sorry about yesterday, she said in her silkiest voice.
Just a little friendly teasing is all. No hard feelings, eh? I hope you sit with us at lunch today. We’d love to get to know you." She gave Amelia a winning smile, but nothing could penetrate the stony expression on Amelia’s face.
No thanks, I have plans,
Amelia said, before linking arms with Tammie and me and walking into school with us, leaving Dawn standing there, open-mouthed with surprise. I saw Nathan shake his head at Amelia, looking amused. I didn’t know if it was better or worse that he was the brother of my newest friend seeing as I had the beginnings of a major crush on him. Beginnings? Who was I kidding?
Whenever he looked in my direction it felt as though he was generating massive heat waves and directing them straight at me. Apparently, I wasn’t the only