The Search for the Dice Man
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Young Larry is about to marry his boss's daughter when the FBI shows up wanting to arrest his notorious Diceman father Luke, whose existence Larry has tried to keep hidden. His carefully ordered world crumbles. He needs to find Luke before the FBI can. His search takes him to dice centers, to a new love, to rigging the stock market, to Luke--and to total comic chaos.
Luke Rhinehart
Luke Rhinehart is the sporadically acclaimed author of eight works of fiction: The Dice Man; The Search for the Dice Man; Whim; White Wind, Black Rider; The Book of the Die; Long Voyage Back; Jesus Invades George: An Alternative History: and Naked before the World, the last trying to be the first film based on one of his novels. A BBC production once named The Dice Man "one of the fifty most influential books of the last half of the twentieth century," but was careful not to define what that influence might be. The editors of Loaded Magazine, high on some superb grass, honored The Dice Man in 1999 by naming it "the Novel of the Century". More recently the book has been cited by the London Telegraph (using only alcohol) as one of fifty great cult books of the last fifty years, and by the Toronto Star (stone sober) as one of the twenty great novels not yet made into a film. Interest in Luke's work has undergone a miraculous rebirth in the last several years and is now at an all-time high. The Dice Man has been published or republished in more than twenty-five countries and is now selling more copies throughout the world than at any time before. In addition, numerous plays, TV series, and documentaries have appeared in the last decade based on or about Luke's work. Luke lives sneakily in an old farmhouse in the Berkshires in upstate New York where neighbors know him as the old fart George Cockcroft.
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- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5The sequel to the cult novel The Dice Man sadly is but a pale imitation of the original, which to be frank, wasn't all that great in the first place. Twenty years after Luke took up the dice and disappeared, his son goes on a search for him and becomes involved in using a throw of the dice to determine his future. Ho hum.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Um. Yeah not bad. I loved the first book and I think it opens the mind to some important questions - also good to reflect on our own motivations for doing things. This book focused more on the concept of giving up decisions to chance. It's set about 20 years on from the first and follows Luke's son Larry - who has rejected everything his father developed in dice therapy but strangely gets drawn in to dice life in the search for his father. It goes much more into the idea that our "self" is determined by the roles we fulfil and that these are a construct of society. By letting chance decide the roles we play, we destroy the self and discover freedom and happiness. That's the theory anyway. Not sure how much is meant to be a serious examination of the nature of self and how much is a wry, tongue in cheek look at psychotherapeutic quackery. A good and interesting read though and also worth thinking about if your getting a bit bored of yourself and feel like taking a chance on something (although maybe not on the anarchic scale of the story). Interesting that religious parallels are drawn in the book as it brought to mind that God-awful Surrender book that I half read and reviewed earlier. This was thankfully ironic as opposed to Surrender's earnest devotion to giving up one's will to the way of God! Same concept in a way though.
- Rating: 1 out of 5 stars1/5Having loved The Dice Man, I was deeply disappointed by this substandard offering from Rhineheart. If you loved the first book, I suggest you avoid this one: it has no real twists, surprises, humour or commentary on the nature of the self which is not executed in a far superior manner there.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5This sequel sees Larry Rhinehart settled in Wall Street working on the Stock Market. Settled with the bosses daughter and the new VP in his department - all due to him taking no risks. Every buy and sell is calculated, every part of his romance is worked out. Chance does not even get a look over the window sill.That is until he decides to track down his father after two FBI agents come asking if he has been in touch. He arrives at Lukedom to find his real self and a wish from his father for him to carry on the dice flame. He changes from cool and calculating to dice rolling chance taker and starts to see that, as long as the die do not rule him, this could work out to his advantage. It takes out the emotions of certain decisions and the indecision out of others.This second book is better than the first...the diary references from Luke Rhinehart are unnecessary though. The story holds up well and is a lot more fun than the first book. If you read the first one then you will enjoy this as it is more of the same. If you pick this book up first - don't - put it down and go back to the beginning as there are people involved in the story now who you will only get to know in the first book.Go on roll a dice if it lands on an odd number read the books. Even pick something else instead - live by the dice!!!!
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5I wanted to criticise this book. The story arc was obvious within the first few pages and I expected at that point to dislike the sidestepping of the moral problems surrounding the original Dice Man. Even though that still happened, the book was fun, engaging, so well written that I could turn off the more critical of my faculties and just enjoy a nice adventure.Having enjoyed the premise of Dice Man, this sequel picks up some 20 odd years later with the original protagonist's son as the hero. Larry Rhineheart might be a profit seeking banker archetype but he delivers a narrative that keeps up a great pace and could be read with or without prior knowledge of Dice Man.There are some negatives that might irk others more - Larry's original position as sceptic of diceliving and having been personally impacted by the lack of responsibility that the 60s hippy community fostered is never really followed through. To a great extent, Larry's role is to question the dicelife in a way that ultimately expects the reader to support Rhineheart's concept. The moral issues that are raised early are worn away by the repeated successes that the dice bring and this allows the author to sidestep the key problems.Rhineheart also rages against the excesses of the commercialised world. At the time I am reviewing this book, these excesses have been brought much more sharply into relief. This is a little hard to swallow given that the diceman concept is itself intensely ego-driven. The repeated discussion of relinquishing the ego, the allusions to eastern mysticism and the hippy belief system show that the author has failed to recognise the core weakness of focussing on the self. Rules exist to constrain people's actions in a way intended to limit the harm inflicted on others. Rhineheart does not understand this fundamental of social interaction.The author also continues to struggle with female characters. They were not a strong point in Dice Man and are equally weak here. Still, from a clearly male perspective it is obvious from the outset that Kim is the woman a man wants and not Honoria.Despite all that, I still give this a strong thumbs up. I was entertained throughout and could gloss over the flaws. The author knows how to write engaging excess and definitely appeals to the self-indulgant side of a reader. Larry Rhineheart's character might not always make complete sense but he is endearing to the point that I did genuinely want him to win.After I had gotten into the swing of the book, even the archetypal characters began to be fun. The dice world might be too black and white but a lot of those involved have a great time. That enjoyment is infectious and it is uplifting. I don't agree with the philosophy but I enjoyed it all tremendously.
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The Search for the Dice Man - Luke Rhinehart
PREFACE
You don't know about me unless you've read a book by the name of The Dice Man, but no matter. That book was made by me and I told the truth, mainly. There were things which I stretched, but mainly I told the truth.
In my fashion.
The book was all about how I came to make all my decisions by casting dice, to convert and pervert my psychiatric patients into the dicelife, and to blow my previous life to smithereens.
Now the way that book winds up is in the middle of a sentence, with me dangling on a vine over a cliff. That was in the seventies.
This book you're browsing through now doesn't pick up the story then. It skips a bit - about twenty years. It's mostly about my son Larry and his quest to locate me and give me a piece of his mind. He runs into a lot of my friends and followers and gets a little confused. He tells some of the story himself and I tell some, and to keep the intellectual reader awake, we've thrown in some excerpts from my journals. It's a good read.
--Luke Rhinehart
SECOND PREFACE
The man is an incorrigible liar. He and his followers are utterly untrustworthy.
--Larry Rhinehart
CHAPTER 1
I might never have gone on a quest for my father if it hadn't been for an unexpectedly light rain in Iowa. I was long three hundred futures contracts of December wheat based on a forecast of torrential rains in the Midwest. I expected the heavy rains to ruin the harvest and raise the price of wheat. Unfortunately, the rains didn't fall mainly in the plain. They fell primarily on Cleveland, Chicago and Detroit, where very little wheat is grown. The price of wheat plummeted the next day and I lost about two million dollars for my clients. My employer called me in for a chat. My clients phoned me for chats. My employees and colleagues avoided me. The only people who phoned or dropped by were people who wanted to shoot me.
I'd lost big money for my clients a few other times, but somehow having to explain that 'I thought it was going to rain harder' was the sort of explanation that incites rather than soothes. And it didn't help matters that the rains that didn't fall mainly in the plains hadn't been my only recent miscalculation. For almost three months I'd been on what is charitably called a losing streak. If my indicators said corn and wheat were going up, corn and wheat immediately changed their minds and took a dive. If I took a long position in the stock market, some unexpected inflation report or mad Iraqi dictator would set stocks spiraling downwards.
For three years I'd been something of a trading hotshot - ever since at the tender age of twenty-five I'd accidentally made a name for myself. I happened to be short several stock market futures on that lovely day in October 1987 when the stock market dropped six hundred points. While all around me friends, colleagues and strangers stood shell-shocked at the monitors watching the value of their stock holdings nosedive, I stood beside them watching myself and my clients grow richer and trying desperately to repress giggles.
In the fickle ways of Wall Street, that day I made my name at Blair, Battle and Pike (BB&.P). At dawn I'd been a mere associate trader, given minimum leeway to dabble at my own ideas for trading. At dusk I was a Vice President and Senior Trader.
Mr.. Battle, the firm's esteemed leader, knew that he would feel more comfortable being able to tell people that his Senior Trader had been right on that infamous day rather than wrong, so he adroitly changed Senior Traders. In the morning the previous Chief Trader, Vic Lissome, had been king and I merely a peon. In the evening Vic was sitting blank-eyed in a local pub wondering how the market could have clobbered him so badly, and I was humbly thanking Mr.. Battle for his confidence - and trying desperately to remember why I'd decided to go short those futures.
And from then until the summer of 1990 I'd been a consistent winner, but in the last few months I'd begun to lose money. So when my father began to intrude again into my life after a fifteen-year absence, it came at a time when I was in a vulnerable position - financially, socially and emotionally.
My troubles began when I arrived back at the office after lunch. On a Friday afternoon in September, trading tended to be on the slow side, and this Friday was no exception. Jeff Cannister, a short, dynamic fireplug of a man who always greeted me with shades of nervousness ranging from nail-biting tension to total panic, announced that gold had gone down over a dollar and a half in the ninety minutes I'd been gone. Jeff always managed to report such market movements as if my personal absence had led to the fall in gold - or the fall in the yen, etc. - and that had I stayed in my office staring at my monitor I'd have held up the price and saved the firm money.
With Jeff tailing along behind, I continued to stride through the mass of open cubicles at which brokers and traders sat in various states of controlled frenzy. I was aware of how incongruous the two of us were, my tall and lanky frame towering over the squat Jeff so that backbiters, as I knew, sometimes referred to us as 'Mutt and Jeff'.
So gold had fallen slightly when I thought it was about to rise,- at least it hadn't fallen through the floor, as wheat had done the week before.
'Any news to cause it?' I asked Jeff.
'Nothing I saw,' said Jeff. Despite his thick solidity, Jeff was totally unfit for the traumas involved in making and losing large sums of money in short periods of time. Still, he was good at what we did and I was happy having him as an associate trader - until he burned out, got hooked on coke, discovered religion or ceased to sleep. Then he'd have to be pensioned off - at the age of twenty-nine, probably.
'The grains are rallying now, especially beans,' announced Jeff gloomily - as if all over the country corn and wheat and soybeans were bursting upwards in a personal effort to thwart Jeff and his firm.
'Just maintain our stops and let me know if they get hit," I said, flinging my suit jacket over the back of a computer monitor and throwing myself into my swivel desk chair.
As Jeff left I began examining my main monitor, which had quotes on all the stocks, bonds and futures I was actively trading. My phone line buzzed.
'Yes?' I said.
'Hi, darling, I miss you,' came the lovely voice of my fiancee, Honoria, who also happened to be the daughter of the head of the firm, Mr.. Battle. Oh, I was a winner in those days.
'Hi, sweetheart,' I said, leaning back in my chair and smiling.
'Daddy's house guests this week are two inscrutable Japanese bankers, one of them with a conspicuous interest in sex. When the tall one first met me he was masterful and flirtatious and eyeing all the more protuberant parts of my anatomy, but when he learned I was a VP at Solomon Brothers and engaged to you he lost interest and spent the day with an old issue of Playboy.'
'Say,' I interjected, 'what are two Japanese bankers doing as Mr.. Battle's guests, anyway?'
'I asked Daddy that and he was strangely secretive. I think he may want them to invest in the firm.'
'Not likely unless they actually buy him out. He's not thinking of selling, is he! ?' I added with a brief flash of panic.
'Of course not, dear. He's grooming you to become head of the firm as soon as he retires at the age of ninety-nine.'
I frowned at the thought of Mr.. Battle's longevity. 'You know,' I said, 'I'd just as soon not see any more than I have to of your father and these Japanese this weekend. Maybe we can spend the day on my sailboat.'
'No, no sailing, dear. When I want to be bored and seasick at the same time I'll let you know.'
'Oh, yeah, right.' Honoria only liked water that was as flat and predictable as concrete.
'However, we can take a walk down to the river. When are you coming?'
'On the early train tomorrow morning. And I'm really looking forward to being with you this weekend.'
'Me too, darling. Oh, oh, big call coming in, have to say bye-bye. I miss your cock.'
And she hung up.
Her abruptness was typical. She enjoyed wealth and style, but liked to mask her enjoyment by sudden small eccentric acts of rebellion which made her seem detached and cynical. She was really a sexually conservative woman, and her saying that she missed my cock was one of her tiny acts to epater les bourgeois. When we were actually making love she somehow rarely seemed to notice my cock.
After I replaced the phone I let my gaze wander to the photograph of Honoria and myself on the bookshelf beyond my desk and complacently admired the handsome couple we made: me tall, dark and broodingly good-looking - a sort of gangly Richard Gere; she slender, blonde, nicely proportioned, exquisitely coiffed, flawlessly complected, and rich - an elegant Cybill Shepherd.
From the first time I met her, about a year earlier, I loved being with her, loved exchanging Wall Street gossip and admiring each other's trading coups, loved telling people we were going to get married, loved calculating our yearly income. A check of all the technical and fundamental indicators rated Honoria triple-A - a definite 'buy'. I knew that I, a poor orphaned nobody, was lucky to be where I was, if only I didn't blow it.
Another incoming call.
'Mr.. Potter on the line,' said Miss Claybell, my secretary. 'I believe he wants to talk to you about his investment in the BBP 21st Century Futures Fund.'
'I'll bet he does,' I said. 'Put him on.'
The BBP 21st Century Futures Fund was my personal brainchild, a mass of money - currently about eighteen million dollars - which we invested in various futures markets. The fund was unique in that we guaranteed a return of at least 2 per cent, even if the fund's value shrank and showed a loss. In effect, the company was promising to absorb any losses that the futures trading would show over a one-year period. This unique gimmick made the selling of a futures fund to conservative investors much easier. After all, how many investments - other than treasury bills and bonds - were guaranteed against loss ? And the BB P Futures Fund promised it might return anywhere between 15 and 50 per cent per year. Since its inception two years earlier, money had come pouring into the fund, money from both speculators and more conservative investors like Mr.. Potter. And the fund's value had increased about 32 per cent a year. I had every right to be proud. Except for the last three months.
'Hello, Larry Rhinehart speaking,' I said in my dynamo trader voice.
'Ah, yes, Mr.. Rhinehart,' said the gravelly voice of the filthy-rich Mr.. Potter. 'Arthur Potter here. I see the net asset value of the fund fell for the third straight week.'
'That's right, sir.'I was tempted to say, 'I purposely let it fall again so we could have a chat,' but knew the irony would be either resented or lost.
'Markets tend to go both up and down,'I continued aloud, 'and our BBP Fund is no exception.'
'Since I put that million in eight weeks ago the value of the fund is down about 7 per cent,' Mr.. Potter went on. 'If the fund goes bust how do I know - '
'The fund it not going to go bust, Mr.. Potter. You've seen the record over the full two years. Does it look like the record of someone about to go bust?'
'Those figures could have been fabricated.'
I sighed. The trouble with Wall Street was that since so many people cheated it was hard for an honest man to be trusted.
'Then why haven't we fabricated the figures for the last eight weeks?' I asked. 'If we're cheating, why stop cheating?'
'I don't know," said Mr.. Potter. 'Perhaps you're just being clever.'
'Mr.. Potter, sir,'I said, 'for you to lose your money the firm of Blair, Battle and Pike would have to go bust. You don't seri —'
'Like Drexel, Burnham, Lambert,' said Mr.. Potter.
With the phone gripped between my right shoulder and ear, I snapped a wooden pencil in two and resisted the urge to throw the fragments across the room.
'Normally, as you know,' I answered coldly, 'we ask clients to commit their funds for one full year. If you wish to withdraw your money I'll personally recommend we make an exception, but you'll have to take your 7 per cent loss. If you want your guaranteed 2 per cent profit you'll have to wait the full year.'
The silence on the other end of the line made me know I'd scored a direct hit.
'Mmmm," said Mr.. Potter, and within thirty seconds he had hung up, having indicated he wanted to stay in the fund.
I finally smiled and dropped the two pieces of pencil into the metal waste-paper bin. The other thing that made the BBP Fund unique was that BBP, in return for guaranteeing the investors against losses, was taking one-third of the investors' profits, the highest profit percentage in the industry.
I tipped back in my swivel chair and felt a little angry at Potter and his ilk. No one seemed to appreciate what I'd accomplished since October 1987.
Up until that month - all through the 1980s - BB&P had made money the way most firms did - the old-fashioned way: by doing nothing. That is, they bought and sold stocks for other people and themselves, using all sorts of interesting theories or no theories at all, and despite all their efforts or lack thereof they made money.
For most of the eighties if you had money you made money. You bought a condominium - you were clever. You bought a stock, any stock, you were a genius. You bought a house, any house, you were sharp. It was an era when rich dumb guys finished first and richer dumb guys finished even firster.
Until October 1987, anyway. Then a funny thing happened. Almost everyone who for at least five years had been a genius was suddenly in one calamitous day a jerk. Seldom in human history have so many bright wealthy men awakened in just one day to discover such an unambiguous truth: that they were neither so bright nor so wealthy. Their clever condominiums became rather quickly empty and un sellable. Their genius junk bonds became ungenial junk bondage.
We humans don't take kindly to such awakenings. I suppose that when you lose several trillion dollars in one day you can be pardoned for not saying the obvious: all the wisdom of the previous five years had just been normal human stupidity. I'd happened to bet right on that horrible day but later I'd come to wonder whether if I'd been more mature and less cocky I might have examined 19 October 1987 a lot more carefully. Its most obvious lesson, I, like everyone else, never learned: what the market does on any given day may bear no resemblance to what it has ever done before.
Then my secretary marched into the room without buzzing. Miss Claybell was a chubby middle-aged woman who consistently wore clothing that looked as if it had been collected from church bazaars, applied too much make-up and never had an original thought. However, she was everything I wanted in a secretary — reasonable, unemotional, efficient, obedient and totally dedicated. Her very unemotional efficiency meant, however, that her slipping into my inner office unannounced must mean something was up.
'There are two gentlemen to see you," she announced. 'They say they're FBI agents.'
CHAPTER 2
At first I felt nothing; I just stared back at her, tipped forward in my chair and lowered my arms from behind my head.
'FBI agents?' I echoed vaguely.
'They won't say why they want to question you.'
I looked up at Miss Claybell neutrally, but with my heart now pumping panic and my mind desperately searching for the crime I must have committed. But since I was compulsively honest in all Wall Street financial dealings, my mind was filled with unpaid parking tickets, with a nineteen-year-old Goldman Sachs broker trainee I had seduced and abandoned, a 1987 income tax return that contained several creative deductions.
'Should I show them in?' Miss Claybell asked, watching me with that bland composure that made everyone else at Blair, Battle and Pike seem slightly panicky.
I came slowly to my feet, still staring at her uncertainly. I had an urge to pace, but managed to hold my feet to the floor, although my upper body rocked back and forth and my right hand was wrestling with pocket change.
'Yes,' I managed. But as Miss Claybell turned to leave I realized a futures trader being questioned by federal agents was bound to arouse a lot of not totally favorable conjecture.
'And I want you to be present,' I added.
She hesitated, nodded, and then, leaving the door open, disappeared.
The two men who soon entered looked like slightly unsuccessful businessmen who'd come to try to sell me some penny stocks or a supplemental health insurance policy. They introduced themselves as Hayes and Macavoy. They sat down stiffly in the two extra chairs while Miss Claybell, memo pad in hand, stood unobtrusively — or as unobtrusively as someone who dressed like Queen Victoria could - near the door, which she gently closed.
The one called Hayes, a hollow-cheeked man in need of a shave, glanced briefly back at her.
'We're here to question just you, Mr.. Rhinehart,' he said. 'Your secretary can go.'
'She's staying,' I countered quickly. 'I want a written record of our conversation.'
Hayes looked so expressionlessly at me that it was like looking at a computer screen whose language I didn't know.
'Have it your way,' Hayes said. After the briefest of glances at Macavoy he cleared his throat and continued. 'Is Luke Rhinehart your father?'
That stopped me cold. Parking tickets, male chauvinism and creative IRS deductions all disappeared, and I was left with the image of the big smiling father I'd barely known.
'Was my father,' I said.
Hayes stared hard.
'You believe your father is dead?' he asked.
'No, I mean Luke Rhinehart was my father until he deserted his family over fifteen years ago.'
'I see,' said Hayes. 'And do you know where he is now?'
'No.'
'When did you last speak to him?' Macavoy suddenly interjected. He was a slender man too, but taller, gangling, younger than Hayes. He looked like a prematurely aged teenage hoopster.
'Ten years ago,' I answered.
'What was the occasion?'
'My mother .. . had been killed in a car accident a week earlier,' I said as calmly as I could. 'He called to ask if my sister and I wanted to come live with him.'
Hayes and Macavoy waited for me to go on.
'Well?' Hayes finally asked.
'It was the first and only contact I'd had with him since he'd disappeared five years before. I told him to go to hell.'
Hayes blinked once and then nodded.
'And you've had no contact with him since?' he asked.
'None.'
'But you've had contact with his followers.'
'They've occasionally harassed me, if that's what you mean,' I said irritably.
'How have they harassed you?'
'By showing up. By telling me how my father has transformed their lives. Or ruined their lives. By being assholes.'
Macavoy coughed.
'Didn't any of them ever bring you a message from your father?'
'No.'
'Or told you some of the marvelous things your father is doing?' There was a sarcastic bite in the question.
'Look,' I snapped, abruptly standing. 'I really don't want to talk about this. How can you possibly be interested in pursuing my father for the stupid things he did fifteen or twenty years ago?'
Hayes looked at me a moment and then exchanged glances with Macavoy.
'We're not interested in what your father did twenty years ago,' he finally said. 'We're interested in what he's doing right now.'
I hesitated.
'Right. . . now!?' I managed.
'Yes.'
'And ... what do you think he's doing. . . right now?' I asked, sinking slowly back down into my chair.
'We can't go into that,' said Macavoy. 'Let me ask you this: has anyone been acting strangely around you lately?'
I stared at him a moment and then laughed.
'Everyone. All the time. What else is new?'
'I mean has anyone new come into your life that struck you as odd?' the gangly hoopster persisted.
'No,' I said irritably. 'What are you driving at?'
'We have reason to believe that your father may try to get in touch with you,' said Hayes.
'I don't know what you're talking about.'
'Good,' said Hayes. He stood. 'But when you do, we want you to get in touch with us. Immediately.' He reached across the desk and handed me a card.
'May I ask why my father, after all these years, might now want to get in touch with me?'
Macavoy too now rose.
'He's your dice daddy,' Hayes said. 'Maybe the dice will tell him to.'
CHAPTER 3
His father - his father was still alive somewhere.
After everyone had left the office, Larry sat frozen in his chair, trying to control the trembling in his hands, his lips, even his gut. The man whose betrayal had poisoned his life was now injecting some new infection into its present flow.
A successful psychiatrist, in the late sixties Luke had thought he'd discovered the cure for human misery: injecting chance systematically into one's life. He thought he could break down the normal stuck-in-the-mud personality and thus expand human experience, role-playing, and creativity. He embarked on the mad enterprise of trying to explore the malleability and multiplicity of the human soul. He introduced himself and his patients to dice-living - the making of life decisions by casting dice. His theory was that humans tended to get stuck in trying to live with one set of beliefs, attitudes and behavior - one self - when the healthy human would be better off feeling free to be many selves, with many inconsistent attitudes and behaviors.
In dice therapy he encouraged his patients to create a variety of optional actions or roles, and let the dice choose their behavior for a given hour, day or week. The goal was to break down the usual single stuck self and discover new habits, loves and lives.
Of course in successfully attacking his own personality, Luke broke up his family, ruined his professional standing, alienated friends, and broke enough laws to attract numerous law-enforcement agencies.
He also became somewhat famous - or notorious, dice therapy and dice-living becoming something of a fad in the early seventies. Luke became a minor cult figure like Timothy Leary or Ram Dass, seeming to symbolize the rejection of society's traditional values in favor of individual creativity and multiplicity. By jumping bail after his trial and disappearing from sight, he gave his life a certain romantic aura lacking in other counterculture figures who were raking in dollars on the lecture circuit, but the aura faded as his disappearance seemed increasingly final. Total absence is a difficult state to keep exciting.
As he sat in the office that day trying to steady his hand on the flat desktop, Larry remembered bitterly that as an eight-year-old child he had liked his father's dice games, both for their own sake and for Luke's playing them with him. He'd once cast a fat red die and seen it choose the option that he go fight a bully who'd been hassling him for months. He remembered knocking the snot-nose down, and never having any trouble with him again. For a week, anyway, the event had made him a believer in the dice.
Another afternoon he'd let the dice continually choose in which direction he walk and, giggling, he kept ending up with his nose against some building's walls.
But his father had become increasingly erratic. He remembered one morning Luke's eating his eggs with his fingers and grunting like some animal, the eggs mostly not making it into his mouth, he and his sister giggling, Larry's mother in the background silently glaring. And he remembered his father, who never bought a Christmas present for anyone, unexpectedly bringing home half a dozen presents to both him and his sister, including a gigantic five-foot- high bear that he'd loved for years. And of Luke's striding around their apartment all one weekend, declaring in stentorian tones, like some Shakespearean actor, lines which were probably muddled quotations from plays somehow appropriate to what was happening.
But most of his memories of that time were less pleasant - of the tense parental silences, of his mother always shouting at his father and her fury when she caught Larry using the dice, shouting that if she ever caught him doing that again she'd send him to a foster home.
And when Luke finally disappeared without a word, Larry came to feel it was the dice themselves that had made him leave and ruined Larry's life - hence his bitterness against not only his father but against everything his father had stood for.
Nevertheless, there were times when he wished he'd accepted Luke's offer to take him in after his mother's death, since from that moment on he'd been on his own and broke. He'd had to work full time every summer and part-time during all his college years, while most of his classmates were apparently free to loaf. In reaction against his father he'd come to believe passionately in the value of control, order and reason. His psychiatrists pointed out that making a religion of order was a dramatic rejection of his father's interest in irrationality and chance, and that he'd even chosen his profession in reaction against his father. One of the more notorious features of Luke's dice-living had been his followers' remarkable success at picking profitable stocks and bonds using the dice. At Wharton Business School Larry had determined to prove the value of reason and research over his father's bastard deity, Chance.
But in the last five years of conquering chance with his trend lines, resistance areas, momentum figures, stochastics, point and figure charts and Eliot Waves, how often some chance event would send a market reeling in a direction contrary to that predicted by all his indicators! And how annoying that, even without any measurable chance event, markets somehow refused to perform as all his technical indicators forecast they would.
Despite Larry trying to picture his father before he'd taken up his quixotic quest for the cure to human misery, he had absolutely no memories of him before the age of eight. That was a sure sign of repression, Dr Bickers had assured him. He groaned at the thought of having to talk to Dr Bickers about this FBI visit: how the man would smirk at this archetypal return of the father. And he grimaced too at realizing that despite his dislike of Dr Bickers he seemed to be consulting psychotherapists almost as often as his father used to consult the dice. He ought to bill his father.
Over the years he'd think he was making progress, announce to friends that he'd finally made a key breakthrough, and then a few weeks later tell these same friends that his therapist was a charlatan
-and possibly a secret dice-person.
His reveries were abruptly interrupted by an official buzz from Miss Claybell: Mr.. Battle wanted to see him in his office immediately.
Ah, yes. Nothing like a visit from the FBI to make a trader's boss want to have a chat.
CHAPTER 4
Mr.. Battle's being both the head of the firm as well as Honoria's father meant that his every word, sigh and stare had significance for me far beyond its merit. Every time I had a losing trade it not only meant a few fewer digits in the asset column, but also that my son-in-law rating went down several points. Rains failing to fall mainly in the plains constituted not merely a small financial disaster, but also a threat to my marriage, a marriage I devoutly and greedily desired. And there'd been far too many rains not in the plains recently.
When I neared the old man's cavernous office I veered off into the executives' men's room to do a bit of grooming. Mr.. Battle was a stickler for appearances. A trader with shirt unbuttoned, tie and hair askew was a man communicating not concentration and busy-ness, but rather a state of being overwhelmed. Since most traders were overwhelmed, such normal grooming was elsewhere the norm, but not at BB&.P. Mr.. Battle wanted his traders all to look as if they'd just emerged from a men's fashion ad in the Sunday New York Times magazine section - cool, elegant and un flustered - million-dollar profits something they pulled off between aperitifs.
'A tie is a symbol,' he'd explained to me once when he'd caught me alone in my office with my tie off. 'A symbol of caring about power. If it doesn't always represent actual membership in the successful levels of society, it at least represents the wish to do so. Failure to wear a tie represents either rebellion against or indifference to everything that counts.'
'But I'm alone in here, sir,' I'd protested.
'God sees," he said.
Mr.. Battle had been one of the three founding members of the firm back in 1977, Blair having the money, Pike being the brainy trader, and Mr.. Battle contributing a little money, his high social standing and extensive social and financial connections. Blair and Pike had had the goodness to die over the next decade, leaving Mr.. Battle as majority owner and de facto boss. He was legendary for his ability to charm the rich into sharing their wealth with BB&P ('investing'), but hopelessly out of his depth in any intricate financial dealings. As long as I made money for BB&P and seemed a socially acceptable and presentable young man, I'd be in his favor. If ever I began to lose money for the firm or, even worse, turned out to be black or Jewish or the son of mongoloids, I'd be dropped with peremptory swiftness.
As I stared into the mirror to straighten my tie and brush my hair, I knew that I was not cool, would never be elegant and was as flustered as I ever got, since the thing that really flustered me was my damn father.
'Seeing the chief honcho, huh?' a voice said from behind me.
Changing the angle of my vision I spotted in the mirror the lugubrious face of Vic Lissome, the onetime Chief Trader I'd replaced three years earlier. Vic was seated in an open cubicle, fully clothed, reading the National Inquirer, a periodical much favored by traders. Reading it kept them in touch 'with the pulse of the nation', said Vic, although I felt it kept them in touch primarily with three-headed dogs and childbearing men.
'Yeah,' I replied. Many people at BB&P assumed that I was a suck artist who'd somehow managed to wrap Mr.. Battle around my little finger, when in fact I usually lived in mortal terror of Mr.. Battle. I felt that everything I'd achieved had been achieved despite Mr.. Battle's preferences rather than because of them.
'You look like shit,' said Vic helpfully from his cubicle hideaway. 'You look like you just got hit with a Saddam Hussein.'
Ever since that August day two months earlier when Saddam Hussein had unexpectedly sent his troops into Kuwait to conquer six infantrymen and a mentally ill housewife (the only documented resisters) and thus sent various futures markets reeling off in new directions, any unexpected news development had been called, generically, a Saddam Hussein. This 'in' argot would last until the next notable Saddam Hussein.
'Actually it's