Dolphin Song
By Michael Tod
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Michael Tod’s thrilling novel tells the story of the dissolving of the communications barrier between humans and dolphins through music. The recording of their heart-rending but beautiful Songs of Truth leads to unforeseen and dramatic consequences both for the humans involved and for the whole of Whalekind. If you love dolphins – you’ll love Dolphin Song.
Michael Tod
Novelist, poet and philosopher Michael Tod was born in Dorset in 1937. He lived near Weymouth until his family moved to a hill farm in Wales when he was eleven. His childhood experiences on the Dorset coast and in the Welsh mountains gave him a deep love and a knowledge of wild creatures and wild places, which is reflected in his poetry and novels. Married with three children and three grandchildren, he still lives, works and walks in his beloved Welsh hills but visits Dorset whenever he can. Michael Tod has recently published his first non-fiction book 'The Ferry Boat - Finding a Credible God'.
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Dolphin Song - Michael Tod
CHAPTER ONE
The Gower Coast, South Wales.
Mary swam parallel with the shoreline, the grass on the dunes behind the beach a soft green against the clear blue of the summer sky. She was swimming hard enough to keep from chilling while trying not to disturb the gulls floating all around her. The tic in her left eye had nearly gone during the holiday but she knew her A level results were not going to get her the university place she, or rather her mother, aspired to.
At six in the morning the beach and the unruffled sea belonged to her and the gulls. In a few hours the first families would come trickling through the dunes and colonise the sands, although, as it was so calm, there would be no surfers today. This would be her last swim – back to London this afternoon and the long brown envelope on the doormat in the morning. The tic quickened, pulling and tugging at her eyelid. She tried telling it to go away, this sometimes worked but not for long and certainly not today.
The most seaward of the gulls flapped their wings and ran along the surface before flying up and calling an alarm. Mary trod water and looked around to see what had disturbed them. There were no people visible on the beach and no boats in sight other than a small fishing boat a long way off – yet she had an almost psychic feeling that she was being watched. Her body tingled as she circled slowly. There was no one about - but the feeling didn’t go away. As she circled again she heard a gentle ‘whoosh’ behind her as though someone had sighed. This was followed by two more and she turned quickly. Three black fins showed briefly and disappeared. Dolphins! Mary turned face down and opened her eyes, wishing she had brought her swimming goggles. The water was clear and over to her right three graceful shapes glided away into the distance, turned, and swam towards her. One was notably smaller than the other two – a young one.
This dolphin swam nearer, though the other two held back, hanging effortlessly in the water, watching her intently. The youngster swam around Mary, studying her with a look combining obvious curiosity with a wisdom beyond its apparent age. It dived under her as she turned, then swam towards her from a different angle.
Mary sensed a ‘come and play’ message, took a deep breath and dived. She had been proud of being able to swim a length of the huge Morley Park pool underwater and she followed the young dolphin, her hair streaming out behind her as she tried to follow its effortless twists and turns. The bigger dolphins watched from a distance, reminding Mary of how her mother and aunt had watched her romping with her friends on the grass in Morley Park when she had been a little girl.
She was a little girl again now, all cares forgotten, in a magical underwater world. Time floated away, the sting of salt in her eyes faded to insignificance. Soon even the bigger dolphins joined in the playing, leaping and diving all about her. Mary envied them the ability to leap as she watched their bodies curve gracefully through the air, elegant shapes dark against the blue of the sky. How big they were. Even the young one was bigger than she was, yet they implied no threat – quite the reverse. They seemed to project an aura of gentleness, of benign goodwill. Love? Three final, coordinated leaps and they were gone as suddenly as they had arrived.
Mary lay back and floated. Her overwhelming feeling was of privilege, the privilege of being invited to join a world of such grace and elegance. Allied with this was a sense of calm, peace and understanding, a sense of them wanting to communicate with her. She swam around for a little while, hoping they might come back, then made slowly towards the shore. The tic in her eye had gone and she knew it would not return to bother her. She, Mary O’Connor, an ordinary, unexceptional girl from a drab, terraced house in South London, had swum with a joy of dolphins. She suddenly felt very special.
CHAPTER TWO
The Faeroe Islands.
Helga Jacobsen stood in the prow of The Black Raven hearing the dip and sweep of the oars behind her, her spirit riding the waves ahead. Yet, as exultation lifted her, she knew that around the point she was going to hear the clamour of the dreaded bell-buoy.
Now! She could hear it now – but it was not the deep, full-throated roar and clang from her childhood dreams. This was the tinny but equally ominous, tinkle of a tiny toy bell.
A slimy tentacle reached up out of the water and gripped her thigh. Another was round her throat choking her. She was sweating profusely, her nightdress clammy across her chest and where it was tangled around her legs. The ringing was faster, insistent and demanding. Suddenly, she could see the bell. It was on the tip of another of the writhing tentacles. She tried to reach out and hold the bell to stop the sound but another slimy tentacle gripped her arm and she woke as she usually did from this dream, sitting up in the darkness shaking with fear. Breathing hard, she swung her legs over the edge of the bed and padded barefoot across her bedroom and into the living room. There was no need to look at the clock, the dim light coming in at the open front door told her the time was between two and three in the morning.
In the gloom the carved animals and birds around the walls had grown. Their normally familiar and comforting shapes now seemed menacing, reminding Helga of the wicked trolls in the stories of her childhood. She shivered as she heard the old cockerel give a half-hearted call. It was answered by another from over the water, then by a distant curlew, its bubbling lament sad and depressing as if it was mourning a chick taken by a raiding skua.
The bell tinkled again. She went into her mother's room and stood by the bed.
‘Yes, Mother? ’
‘Just wanted to be sure you were there.’ The thin voice was cold.
‘I’m always here,’ Helga replied, then added under her breath, ‘Where else could I be? ’ As she said the words, she trembled at her impertinence but her mother had not heard.
‘All right then, don't just stand there, girl.’
Helga turned to leave, biting on her lower lip.
Stumbling in the near darkness of the stuffy room she bumped the bedside table and the tin bell tinkled to the floor. Helga stooped, groped around until she found it, slipped a finger either side of the clapper and carried it outside. The sky to the east was already touched with the palest of pink washes. She strode the short distance to the rocks that curved down into the black sea and tossed the bell far out to where wraiths of thin mist twisted above the surface like dying ghosts. A seal snorted as the last tiny but still imperious tinkle was silenced by the water and Helga was aware of the coldness of the rock under her feet and the chill of the air on her neck and bare arms.
In these northern latitudes summers were short enough. There was still all the hay to cut, dry and store for the long winter. She shivered uncontrollably and was turning to go back to the house when the sky near a high-flying aircraft's vapour trail was filled with tiny sparks – a cluster of shooting stars streaking over her head and falling towards the sea to the east, burning out one by one as they neared the horizon.
She stood, her arms wrapped about herself, forgetting the chill of her damp nightdress and looked up with the same awe she had felt when her grandfather had carried her out into the darkness when she had been restless at night. Then, she had been only six years old. Now, the sight of the flashing sparks in the sky brought back the feel of his strong arms, the cushion of his beard against her cheek, and she could once more smell the pipe-tobacco smoke that hung about his always-smiling face.
The seal snorted again as Helga recalled that one of her grandfather's bedtime stories had told of shooting stars. She tried to remember if these had been a sign of impending hope or of despair. It was Hope – she was sure of that. Yes – Hope. The captive princess had given up waiting for her lover to come and had herself vanquished the trolls before going in search of the prince so she could marry him and live happily ever after.
A long-suppressed anger rose in her as she crept back into the silent house. In the big cupboard next to her bedroom door were two pillows. She chose her brother’s, the softer of the two, then held it against her lips before putting it back on the shelf. Her brother had loved his mother as sons do – it would be wrong to use his pillow. She took her grandfather's – he had never cared much for his daughter-in-law – and tiptoed into her mother's room carrying the striped pillow against her chest and stood by the bed, trembling. An ugly troll was lying there, not moving – lulling her into a false sense of security before it leapt for her throat. Or was it an octopus with its tentacles hidden under the grey blanket? Troll or octopus, it didn't matter, she knew what she had to do. She lifted the pillow and pressed it against her own face until she had to fight for breath then jerked it away, cool air rushing into her lungs. Even now the coarse material smelt faintly of pipe-tobacco smoke and she could hear her mother's voice chastising the old man for smoking in bed.
Helga gripped both ends of the pillow firmly and bent forwards.
Grace of FairIsle, a nubile dolphine of thirteen years, was cruising just below the surface when the sound of the falling bell reached her. She flicked round and located the tiny metal object a moment after it entered the water. She dived, shimmered it and read the echoes as it twisted towards the seabed. Its shimaura was unlike anything she had known before. The thing twisting down towards the kelpweed was made of very thin shipstone, was shaped like a limpet-shell, and had an unpleasant sense to it, out of all proportion to its size.
She tried to analyse the aura but the human experience of ‘possession’ was alien to her and it read as ‘duress’. No, not duress – ‘captivity’. To her captivity was represented by fish held by their gills in a net – a familiar enough scene, though the horror of it always shocked her when she swam near to the wriggling, dying creatures that had once been as free as she was herself and almost as fluid in their movements as the water in which they lived.
On the previous day, swimming north with her mother and her mother's sister, Grace of Tyne and Grace of Humber, FairIsle had already absorbed two other new and mind-expanding experiences. These were all part of the excitement of their annual sea-change.
As they swam, guided by the planet’s invisible North-South aura, they listened-out frequently, the three explorers occasionally beaming away their own signature whistles but receiving no answering calls though they knew that other dolphins swam these seas.
Grace of Humber had calculated the distance since they had passed the Lands of Shet and knew that they should soon reach the Faroff Islands. She expressed concern that, not knowing the local currents, they might be too far to the east and leapt effortlessly, searching the horizon as she reached the top of the arc. ‘No land in vision,’ she reported, her words vibrating through the water as her body slipped back into her native element.
FairIsle leapt herself. Not because she doubted what her aunt had said, but just to express her joy and the excitement of exploring new seas. The water here was notably clearer than in their home patrol area on the east coast of the Land of Eng. There was a different feel to it here, cooler and cleaner, and to the wide skies above, where slender-winged sea birds circled and called, seeming to mark the passage of the three dolphines.
FairIsle leapt again, revelling in the life that surged through her body, then powered downwards, the translucent green water darkening as the depth increased. Tiny, immature fish, silver wisps of reflected light and sound, twisted away and vanished.
The dolphine scattered sounds ahead of her – the absence of major echoes indicated a clear swim. Long before her body called for air, she turned upwards, read the returning echoes from the bodies of the other dolphines and headed towards them to leap out of the water once more in a triumphant curve. Life for a dolphine of her age was a never-ending joy.
Later that day, as Humber led them northwards, a dull, persistent throbbing permeated the water.
‘A human’s boat – heading towards us from east of north.’ Tyne voiced their thoughts and they turned in the boat’s direction, planning to ride its bow-waves and sport in the bubbles behind its propeller.
‘What is that? ’ FairIsle asked as they saw an ugly device mounted on its foredeck. The whole ship radiated an aura of horror and evil but it was at its most intense around the thing silhouetted against the blue of the sky. As one, the dolphines dived and swam away deep underwater, FairIsle’s question unanswered.
Further north they encountered a giant of a whale, blue-grey on the upper side, yellowish on its belly, so vast that it seemed to take an age for it to swim past them, though FairIsle knew this could not really have been so. The dolphines paused in awe and reverence while the enormous creature swam by, not in any way acknowledging their presence. FairIsle thought she had never seen such sadness and such loneliness as she saw in the whale’s eye as it passed, calling, calling, calling to others of its chapter, apparently without response. She felt the awesome power-waves of its intellect reach out and envelop her as it went by and she knew that the encounter would make this a day that would leap high in her memory for many years.
As the sun dipped towards the horizon, the captain of the ship that had so disturbed the dolphins heard the cry of ‘Hvalblast,’ and scrambled on deck in time to see the distinctive shape of a blue whale’s spout as it exhaled again. The whale was heading southwards on a course almost parallel to that of his ship. He glanced over his shoulder at the Norwegian flag flying proudly at the stern, thought of his Government-given right to kill whales, dismissed the knowledge that this applied only to the plentiful minkehval and calculated that one blue was worth many minke. He called to the helmsman to alter course and turned to speak to the harpooner who had followed him up onto the deck.
The dolphines did not hear the thud of the exploding harpoon but they did hear the whale scream, the sounds of its agony vibrating through the water even though it was half a day’s swim away. They turned to face towards the south and floated side by side as the calls grew fainter until there was no audible sound, only whispered echoes of a great pain and a greater loss. Eventually, even these echoes were absorbed in the vastness of the sea.
The dolphines had floated in silence for a while, then had swum north again. Each was busy with her own thoughts though they had held a formation close enough for Humber and Tyne to caress FairIsle’s side as they swam.
Now FairIsle let the shipstone limpet-shell drop down into the bed of kelpweed and swam to the surface to see if she could see what had made it fall into the water. On the rocks a human female stood upright, her arms crossed over each other on the upper part of her body. The hair on her head was almost as white as the covering that clung to her body – hair lighter in colour than the hair of the young female human FairIsle had play-shared with in the sea near the Land of the Dragon three years before. The ‘captivity’ aura surrounded this human even more strongly than it had the shipstone limpet-shell so FairIsle turned towards the open sea to find Humber and Tyne. They would be feeding offshore and would answer her whistles. The fjord behind her, the hidden inlets of which had looked so tempting to explore just a short time before, had an unpleasant feeling when near-to – a feeling for which she had no name. It was more than the ‘captivity’ of the human – all the water around her reeked of death and despair and she needed to put it behind her tail-flukes.
Humber and Tyne had come to seek her and, as she heard them respond to her calls, the night sky was filled with sparkling lights. Humber leapt.
‘So many!’ she whistled. ‘I have never seen the like. Are they not beautiful? ’
‘Beautiful, yes, beautiful,’ FairIsle responded, leaping for joy at of the sight and for the relief of being away from the sadness beyond the black rocks.
She leapt again but the sparkles had gone and the normal stars still formed their time-set patterns in the brightening sky.
The three dolphines swam away from the island as the edge of the sun rose above the horizon, rafts of puffins scattering as they progressed. The stars had faded to nothing when a faint clicking sound tickled the sensors in the lower jawbones of the cruising dolphines. Humber swung her head from side to side to read the direction.
‘Stargazers,’ she said. ‘A constellation of stargazers – west of north.’
They swam towards the sounds which grew louder and clearer until, when the dolphines leapt, they could see the black curved fins of many pilot whales heading towards them.
CHAPTER THREE
Helga ran tired fingers through her long blonde hair, which, like her pale skin and blue eyes, was a legacy of her Viking ancestry. She stood at the bedside staring down at the face of her mother who had died unexpectedly in the night. Helga was tired – a bone-aching, mind-numbing tiredness that made every movement seem as if she were in a dream.
She listened once more to make absolutely sure her mother was not breathing, all the time watching the bedclothes, half hoping to see some movement whilst simultaneously dreading that a flicker of life remained. At last, she leant forward and, with fingers that trembled slightly, slid the eyelids down over the eyes which even in death stared up at her accusingly. With a sudden savagery she pulled the sheet up over the ashen face and walked out of the bedroom, through the gloomy living room to the black-tarred front door that had stood open all night.
The door was seldom closed in the summer except when a storm swept in from the sea or roared down from the hills behind the tiny farm. The sun was just coming up, its almost horizontal rays lighting the cliffs and the houses of the village on the far side of the deep-water fjord with a delicate pink glow.
A kilometre away across the water, the buildings of Eysthavn looked like miniature doll’s-houses, brightly painted in reds, greens and blues like those in all the other tiny villages around the coasts of the Faeroe Islands.
The wooden church with its stubby white tower and many of the houses still had the traditional turf roofs, as green as the grass in the steep meadows between the buildings and the cliffs behind, though some of the more recently cut fields were swathes of golden yellow where the aftermath of the mowing had not yet greened again. The calm water of the inlet was also green that morning, except where the basalt cliffs were reflected blackly in an almost perfect upside-down picture.
Helga was only dimly aware of the distant sounds of the waterfall and the sea birds’ cries. A pair of black and white tjaldurs, the island’s oystercatchers, piped a plaintive note as they strutted across the sea-rounded rock promontory near the Jacobsen’s anchorage. Another pair were poking their long orange beaks into the cut grass of the meadow behind the house.
She realised she was still in her dressing gown and returned reluctantly to the single-storeyed wooden farmhouse. As she put on her functional undergarments she found herself longing once more for pretty nylon or even silk underwear. Gorgeous slithery garments such as she had seen advertised in the Danish women’s magazines that Uncle Roi occasionally brought over to the farm for her. There was not much point in having pretty things now, she thought angrily – at 33 she was not old but she felt it. She felt – how did they put it in the stories on the British World Service Radio? ‘On the shelf.’
She pulled on a check shirt and heavy black woollen trousers that had belonged to her brother, then his old jumper – she had knitted it for Christian many years before out of wool she had spun from the fleece of one of their own sheep.
As she was dressing, an insistent voice in her mind was saying, ‘Get the grass up to dry, get the grass up to dry, get the grass up to dry on the turkilag or it’ll rot on the ground and the cow will starve when the winter comes.’
‘Chores first, then you can play,’ her father had said again and again to Christian and her when they were children. He had made it sound reasonable enough but when the chores were done there was little time left for the children to do what they had wanted. Life had always seemed full of chores. Drying the hay – shearing the sheep – catching the fish – gutting the fish – drying the fish – collecting the gulls’ eggs – netting the lundi – killing the sheep – drying the sheepmeat – smoking the tiny bodies of the lundi with their quaint striped beaks – chores, chores, chores.
Then there were the ‘duties’. To her father – to her mother – to the schoolmaster – to the church over in the village. God, she was sick of chores and duties. And what on earth was it all for? Surely there was more to life than this?
She shook out her long hair.
First her father and grandfather had been drowned, fishing for cod when she was fifteen. Then her brother had been killed, falling while catching the lundi with the long-handled net as the silly birds flew in clumsy circles past the cliff top. She could hardly bear to think of that day. For years her world had been shrinking and shrinking until it was just this house and the patch of half-cultivated land between the sea and the foot of the great black cliffs behind.
Once she had dreamed of going to England – an England lovingly described to her by her grandfather who had been there when he was a young man. Once too, she had dreamed of marrying as all her friends in the village had done but, as the years slipped by, her dreams and hopes had vanished in the same way as the early mists around the cliff tops faded to nothing in the warmth of the morning sun.
She sat at her dressing table brushing her hair and trying not to see the dark-ringed eyes staring back at her out of a drawn and pallid face. No man would want her now. A bird called from the meadow outside and she envied its freedom. Freedom to fly away when it wanted to – even to England if it chose. She went to the window and shouted, ‘Go away.’ A mocking voice called back from the cliff beyond the meadow, Go away, away, away...’
‘Freedom – England.’ She shouted these at the departing bird and the cliff called back ‘Freedom – England – Freedom – England – Freedom – England.’
The two words were somehow synonymous and, as the cliff echoed them back at her, a realisation welled up in her that, after years and years and years of nursing her mother, she – Helga Jacobsen – was now free. Free as any bird – FREE!
Saying that magic word in time with each stroke of the brush, forcing her aching arms to do what she wanted, she pulled the crackling, rebellious mass of hair over her shoulder, wove it into a thick plait and tied it with a defiant bow of scarlet ribbon. I am free. FREE!
Helga ran out of the house, her tiredness suddenly gone. ‘I am free,’ she shouted, first in her native Faeroese language, ‘Eg havi fri,’ then in her second language, Danish, ‘Jeg er fri.’ But it sounded best in the English she had tried so hard to learn well. ‘I am free. I am FREE.’
She shouted it again and again, startling the tjaldurs who flew off complaining towards the open sea, dipped towards it, then rose and turned inland again.
A seal bobbed its head above the surface of the water beyond the wave-smoothed rocks where she had spent so much of her younger life gutting the fish that her father and grandfather had caught. How long had it been since she had last played music to the seals? Her brother had been dead ten years and she had certainly not played to the seals since. She turned back to the silent house, paused at the open door of her mother’s room and listened. Would she dare? The huge old sea chest stood under the far window, the heavy padlock challenging her. She would. Helga Jacobsen was FREE.
She fetched her nail scissors from her own room and, heart thumping, pulled back the sheet and cut the greasy brown cord that was around her mother's neck. The key lay on the wrinkled skin waiting for her to pick it up. She hesitated a moment then delicately lifted it with her finger and thumb before covering the pale face again, glad that she had closed the dead eyes. Her foot touched the corner of a pillow lying on the floor, half under the bed. It wasn’t her mother’s pillow. This one had no pillowcase on it – just blue and white striped material like the ones in the cupboard next to her bedroom. How had that got there? She nudged it out of her sight with her toe.
The padlock opened easily and she lifted the lid, something she had not done since she was a child. The smell was the same – a musty mixture of camphor and oldness. Inside, wrapped in cream-coloured tissue paper that crackled as she moved it, were her and her brother’s costumes, the national dress of the Faeroe Islanders. Hers with the laced bodices and the coloured shawls and her brother’s with the silver buttons and the fancy waistcoats. She carefully lifted out the garments, the sizes getting smaller with each layer.
Had she ever been as small as that?
Under the costumes was a tattered photograph album which she put to one side. She could look at that later. Then she found a boxed pack of playing cards. She flipped open the lid and slid the cards into her hand.
‘You cheated,’ Christian accused her.
‘I did not!’ Helga had replied.
‘You did. That was a Queen, not a King.’
Helga had turned the card over to show him. It was a King.
‘Stop quarrelling, you two,’ their mother snapped. She was always irritable when their father’s boat had not come back when expected, even though delays were commonplace.
‘I still say you cheated,’ Christian had shouted at her.
Her mother had put down her knitting and stood up. ‘Give me those cards.’
The cards had been put away until both of them had apologised. Christian had said his ‘sorrys’, but Helga knew that she had not cheated. She was not going to apologise.
This was the first time she had seen the cards since that day. Helga shuffled the pack once, the cards feeling surprisingly comfortable in her hands, put them back in the box and dropped it into the chest out of sight. She brushed at the corner of her eye with the back of her hand.
Here was the Noah’s Ark, built out of pieces of driftwood by her great-great grandfather and lovingly preserved as an heirloom, generation after generation. She opened the lid of the ark and took out each painted animal, and stood them in pairs on the bedroom floor. Two grey elephants, two spotted giraffes, two striped zebra, even two black dolphins and a grindhval who didn’t even belong in the ark. In those long ago days when they had played with the painted animals together, Christian had always insisted on the dolphin-hvals swimming either side of the ark’s bow with the single grindhval out in front. Neither she nor Christian had ever wondered why there was only one grindhval when there were two of all the other creatures, but they had often argued about why it was white and not black like all the other grindhvals they had ever seen.
Once when they had been playing with the ark and the animals, Christian had said, ‘There’s some black paint in the barn.’ He had jumped up and gone out to find it, then had come back to say, ‘It’s really warm out, I’m going up to swim under the waterfall.’ Helga had left the animals on the bedroom floor and followed him across the sunlit meadow to the pool.
When they got back their mother had scolded her for leaving ‘those silly animals all over the place.’ Not a word to Christian.
What wasn’t in the chest – she really knew it could not be – was her doll’s-cradle. The one Uncle Roi had made for her fifth birthday.
Tears were running down Helga’s face and she fumbled in her pocket for a handkerchief.
She had forgotten her lunch box one day but remembered it just as her father was about to take her and Christian across the inlet in the boat to school.
‘Papa, my lunch box is in the house.’ As he was backing the boat out of the mooring-place she had jumped out onto the rocks and run back up to the house.
Her mother was kneeling, chopping something to light the stove. Helga stood in the doorway staring in disbelief. It was her doll’s-cradle being fed into the crackling flames.
Her mother had looked up, red-faced. ‘You don’t need this any more,’ she had said. ‘You are thirteen, not a little girl now.’
Helga had stared at her mother, then turned and coldly walked into her bedroom. She had come back carrying her doll.
‘You’d better burn this too.’
She’d held out the doll, certain her mother would never burn the beloved Elisabeth.
They had faced one another for ages, neither blinking, then her mother had reached out slowly, taken the doll and pushed it, head-first, into the top of the stove.
Helga had run screaming from the house.
Her mother had been right. From that day she was no longer a little girl. Now, twenty years on, she was not a proper woman either. She blamed her mother for that too.
The next thing she found in the chest was a yellowing envelope addressed to her in her grandfather’s distinctive handwriting, the H of ‘Helga’ drawn in the ornate and loving way only he had ever been able to do. She read, ‘My dearest Helga, to be given to you on your engagement to be married. These were your grandmother’s. Left here in case I am not able to be with you on that happy day.’
She had never seen that envelope before.
Inside was a string of large pearls. She held them against her chest briefly then dropped them back into the envelope. Helga blew her nose, sniffed and looked amongst the clutter of family history in the chest, searching for the old accordion her grandfather had won in some drunken bet with an English sailor during the war. The hexagonal box was there, under the great black leather-bound bible. She lifted it out carefully. It seemed much smaller than she remembered.
She replaced the animals in the hollow of the ark, put it, the bible and the other treasures back into the chest, glancing several times over her shoulder at the body under the bedclothes as she did so, closed the lid, then tip-toed into the living room.
Fearful lest the cloth bellows on the instrument had deteriorated from age and disuse, she lifted it carefully from its box. It groaned in an almost human way as she slipped her hands through the cracked leather loops at either end and tried a chord. She imagined a wave of disapproval flowing from the bedroom so she went out of the house, closed the door sharply and walked down the path to the rocks.
Instinctively she checked the boat, snug in the tiny natural harbour behind the promontory. The boat was her way out to the world beyond the house, her only way to cross to the village. The cairn path up and over the cliff behind her and round the head of the fjord had not been used since her brother died, and was probably impassable by now.
The seal bobbed up again as though it had been waiting for her and floated upright in the water twitching its whiskers, watching her and waiting.
Helga sat on her favourite rock and gently drew the accordion to its full length, enjoying the hiss of inrushing air. She positioned her fingers on the white buttons and pressed the ends towards the centre.
She played badly at first, feeling that she was letting her grandfather down. He had taught her to play and she could imagine him sitting on his favourite rock near her, his white-bearded head tilted to one side and his eyes closed as he listened.
Her fingers were stiff and she found it difficult to locate the right buttons. She tried the simple tunes of childhood – nursery rhymes and children’s songs, then as her confidence grew, the more complex rhythms of the Faeroese chain dance, picturing the villagers circling and singing in the schoolroom across the water. She saw the circle growing as more and more people, old and young, joined in, until the circle broke and the ends of the human chain passed one another, everybody singing the seemingly endless verses and moving two steps right, one step left, two steps right, one step left.
Suddenly, it all came back to her and she was playing – playing – playing, tears streaming down her face. She was playing tunes she could not recall ever having learned – slow, sad tunes that seemed to reach up out of the very rocks on which she sat. Tunes that rose out of the sea beyond her, out of the kelpweed waving in the swirling currents below her, out of the bodies of drowned sailors far away in the ocean. Out of the waterfalls and the distant cliffs the tunes came. Out of the seals and the gulls and out of the vast empty sky above her.
The accordion seemed to be playing itself, her fingers moving as though with a will way outside of her own and, when she raised her head, she could see that many more seals had come to listen, a great sadness apparent in their round brown eyes.
Suddenly, the music died with a hiss as the fabric of the bellows split along the concertina folding. Helga ran her fingers along the tear, wondering how she might get it repaired, then laid the silent instrument on a rock and stood up. She saw, beyond the seals, the curved dorsal fins of a pod of pilot whales – grindhvals – showing above the glassy water. Some were circling slowly, others pushing their heads out of the water and watching her, while many more were heading in from the sea towards the inlet.
She readied herself to send the ancient cry of ‘Grindabod – the grindhvals have come again,’ – ringing across the water as her father had done when she was a child and as her grandfather had done before him.
She checked herself. If she made the call, boats would put out from the village to kill the whales. One death that day was all she could bear. The seals floated silently and the whales turned and circled as though waiting for some action from her.
CHAPTER FOUR
While Helga had been closing her dead mother’s eyes, Dan Watts was sitting on a ledge outside a cave high up in the basalt cliff across the fjord, sipping tea from a metal mug. He moved one leg, farted luxuriously and said to a nearby sheep, ‘5.6 – at least!’ The sheep raised its head and moved on down the rock-strewn slope to join two others.
There had been a time when even a fart, let alone a cough or an indiscreet word might have cost him his life but those days were past. Compared with his time in the Special Boat Service this trip was a doddle – a piece of cake. Even if he were seen he would most likely be taken for a twitcher but the natives had proved friendly – not the insensitive killers portrayed in some of the anti-whaling propaganda Skipper Jack had left in the cabin for him to read. He put the empty mug down, took a catapult from the top pocket