Playing in the Apocalypse: Remembering the Isla Vista Riots
By Kate Comings
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Kate and Joel were university students in 1970, when the Vietnam war protests were at their height. Drawn from the author’s own experiences during her senior year, a tender love story unfolds, set during the Isla Vista riots amidst martial law and escalating violence. Joel would evade the police and steal into Isla Vista every Friday night, risking arrest, or worse, to be with Kate for one more weekend. He was her hero, and he called it “playing in the apocalypse.”
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Playing in the Apocalypse - Kate Comings
composites.
CHAPTER ONE
San Francisco, 1969
Joel and I were lovers during the riots when I was a student at UC Santa Barbara. The riots happened in Isla Vista, a densely packed, beachfront ghetto of cheaply built student housing next to the university campus. My apartment was right on the police riot patrol loop. Armored trucks circled the neighborhood again and again. During those nights, they would lob tear gas canisters into people’s yards and onto porches and balconies. The gas leaked in around the doors and windows of the crummy apartments, and we lay on the floor holding wet towels over our faces in order to breathe. Outside, the police shot the tires of parked cars and gunned down dogs or cats that wandered out on the streets. Our town was under siege. No one was safe. Nothing was safe.
In Southeast Asia, the Vietnam War raged on and on. Joel and I first met at the San Francisco marina on a chilly November morning in 1969. We had both come from Santa Barbara—miles north—for the Vietnam War Moratorium. He rode up with a buddy; I arrived in a van full of strangers.
On Highway 101 north of Santa Barbara, I ride in the van’s back seat next to a guy named Bill. He has just started to grow a beard; maybe two days’ worth of stubble blackens his cheeks and chin. A gold watch peeks out from under his green flannel shirt cuff. I don’t know Bill or any of the other people in the van.
Outside San Luis Obispo is the enormous pink-and-white Madonna Inn with its gables, diamond-shaped glass panes, and towers. It looks like somebody snatched it out of Disneyland during the night and dropped it here in the middle of the barren landscape. My mother loves to come here.
Headquarters of the silent majority,
I say. No one answers. The guys in the van don’t even glance at the Madonna Inn.
I sink back into my seat and sigh.
I do a lot of things on impulse, and this morning, I bummed a last-minute ride from the University of California at Santa Barbara to the Moratorium march in San Francisco with a bunch of guys I’ve never seen before in my life. It was a sudden, hasty decision to be one of the thousands, maybe millions, protesting the war. After Nixon’s asinine bragging about the silent majority
who support his policies, I couldn’t miss the chance to put myself out there and take a stand. I went to the meet-up spot for drivers and passengers, a vacant lot behind the health food store in Isla Vista, the student community next to the campus. I walked up to a safe-looking, bearded guy with sandy hair and a sad look on his face.
Hi, I’m Kate.
I rubbed my toe in the dust.
Chris,
he said.
Can you give me a ride to San Francisco?
Maybe.
There was no interest in his eyes when he looked at me; I could have been an old piece of wood lying in the dirt. Have you got any gas money?
I can give you ten dollars,
I said.
Okay. Van’s right over there, get in. Gotta warn you, though, this won’t be a social trip. A friend of ours just got killed over in Vietnam.
Oh, how awful!
I reached out to touch his arm but he stepped back.
Yeah,
was all he said before he walked away.
On the ride north, Bill, Chris, and Larry all talk about their dead friend Jeremy, their buddy since high school. They’ve forgotten all about me. The air in the van burns with sorrow and feels heavy and sad when I breathe it in, giving me a whole new reason to march. Of all the rides I could have picked, I ended up with these guys.
The van pulls into the city late at night and parks at the marina. Four of us squeeze into the rear space to try and get some sleep. I’m jammed between two guys I don’t know with no room even to roll over. In the suffocating darkness, I can almost feel the metal sides of the van pressing in like the inside of a coffin. Tight spaces terrify me. I grab my pack and sleeping bag, slide open the door, and crawl over Bill out onto the cold, dark pavement. I suck in long, deep gasps of salty, cold air. As I ease the door closed, the guys relax into the added space. Much better,
one of them mumbles.
My relief on getting out of the van lasts only seconds before I realize it’s the middle of the night and I’m all alone. Now what am I going to do? The parking lot is full of cars. Have they all come for the moratorium? Or could someone be lurking behind one of those dark windshields? I stride across the pavement toward the marina. Lights on the boats make sparkly reflections in the black water. I spread out my sleeping bag on a grassy spot and crawl inside. It’s cold, and I shiver, then go rigid when a car door clicks shut somewhere behind me. Leather soles creak on pavement. My stomach clenches into a hard ball and my heart tries to batter its way out of my chest. But the footsteps head away and fade into the distance. Safe for now—but this is almost worse than suffocating in that van. What in the world was I thinking, coming here all by myself? I don’t even have a clue where to find the march! And how am I ever going to get back home?
I burrow into the bag, hiding my face and hair so no one will be able to tell whether I’m male or female, and squirm until I find a spot on the lumpy ground where nothing jabs into me. This was supposed to be a big adventure. Coming up here on a whim felt like the ultimate freedom—but now I’d give anything to be back in my safe apartment, in my own bed!
Waves lap and splash against the hulls of the anchored boats. Chains creak and moan. Old Italian songs drift across the water; a man’s tenor throbs with passion and tender sadness. I picture a cozy scene with burly fishermen clustered around a table with bottles of beer, their catch all in, songs of home playing on the radio… The music comforts me.
It’s a long time before I drift off to sleep. When I wake up, it’s still night. It’s dark and cold and the music has stopped. I burrow deeper into the bag, wrap my arms around myself and shiver. It feels like forever before the sky gets lighter. A gray mist hangs over the water.
I sit on my rumpled orange sleeping bag near the edge of the marina, tugging on my boots. Cold mist drifts in from the ocean; the grass is wet and the outside of my sleeping bag is damp and slick. I gaze out across the gray-green, choppy water. Far to my left, the red pillars of the Golden Gate Bridge peek through the fog.
I’m groggy and disoriented after my night on the hard ground. My eyes feel full of sand from not enough sleep and I blink to get rid of the gritty feeling. I take deep breaths of moist, salty air. As the heavy mist begins to lift, gasoline engines rumble into life, and one by one, the fishing boats head out across the water.
A car door slams behind me. Oh fuck,
somebody mumbles under his breath. I look over my shoulder. It’s a guy in a blue Levi’s jacket. He paws through a brown canvas satchel. Fuck fuck fuck.
He sets the bag down, looks up, and catches me staring.
Hi,
he says.
What a fox! Long, tangled, slept-on blond hair hangs in his face; his nose is like a hawk’s beak.
Uh, Hi,
I say. What’s up?
Do you have a hairbrush? I forgot to pack one.
He gives me a rueful little smile that has me smiling back right away.
I hope so.
I find the brush in my daypack and hand it to him. He grips the wooden handle and drags the bristles through his hair. Rumpled hair doesn’t hurt his looks a bit. I use my hands to smooth my own long, brown hair as I gaze out over the water. The boats head toward the bridge and the open sea beyond. The haunting Italian music still plays in my head. It was the last thing I heard before I fell asleep.
Thanks a lot!
The blond guy’s voice interrupts my daze. I don’t know how I managed to make it up here without a hairbrush.
He’s brushed his hair back, away from his tanned, high-cheekboned face. He hands me the brush.
No problem,
I say. I forget stuff all the time.
I use the brush to tease the knots out of my own tangled rats nest. Strands of our hair, blond and dark brown, twine among the bristles. You here for the moratorium?
Yeah, that’s our van over there.
He gestures toward a yellow VW bus with a hand-lettered sign taped in the window, Pull Out Dick.
I start to laugh. Good sign!
You like it? I made that one up myself. I’m Joel, by the way.
I’m Kate.
I kneel on the ground and roll up my sleeping bag. I really need some coffee. Hope there’s an open café near here.
Coffee sounds good. Want some company?
I’d love company.
Joel stows his satchel and my sleeping bag in the van. Dude I came with is still out cold,
he says. Bet the march’ll be over by the time he wakes up.
I shiver in my unlined, fringed suede jacket as we walk through the parking lot and up a street past locked-up shops with bars on the doors. It is still early morning. Puffs of steam rise every time we exhale. I bite down hard to stop my teeth from chattering. I hitched a ride up here from UC Santa Barbara,
I say. I didn’t think about how much colder it would be.
Really? I’m from there, too!
He stops and stares at me. What a trip—I mean, what are the chances of that happening?
Wow. If only I could have ridden up with him instead! Yeah,
I say. It’s pretty amazing. This is turning out to be an incredible adventure.
That’s how I feel, too. I’ve never even been to San Francisco before.
I’ve been a couple of times as a kid with my parents, which is the same as never being here.
We walk until we come to the Doggie Diner, a dingy little restaurant with a huge wiener-dog head mounted on the roof. The Doggie Diner is open.
In a minute, we’re seated at a tiny green Formica table, sipping strong, bitter coffee that tastes like it has been sitting on the burner all night. It’s hot though, that’s the main thing, and the white paper cups warm our cold hands. The only other customers are two middle-aged men in baseball caps.
So…
Joel gives me a considering look. You hitchhiked up here and just bedded down where they dropped you off? That’s a crazy thing to do.
Not exactly. I could’ve slept in the back of the van with everybody else, but it was a really tight squeeze and I got claustrophobia. That’s why I ended up outside…
I shrug. Still crazy, I know. I was scared shitless.
So here we are in a totally foreign city, at least to us,
he says. We might as well be somewhere in Europe.
Like Italy? The fishing boats had ‘O Sole Mio’ playing last night.
I heard that music; it was really cool. So, Italy… or maybe fucking Sweden—it’s so cold.
Intense blue eyes hold mine. Let’s make this an adventure. Wander around and look at stuff. The march doesn’t start for a couple of hours.
I finish the last of my coffee and set the cup down on the worn Formica tabletop. It has left a sour taste in my mouth but I feel a lot warmer. I could really dig that!
I say.
Joel searches through his pockets. With a look of chagrin, he puts both hands on the table and sighs. "This is embarrassing. All I’ve got is some change—I forgot to bring my wallet. I don’t know what we’ll eat. Hairbrush, money… I wonder what else I forgot? I feel like a real loser."
I’ve got a couple of dollars,
I say. We can pool that with what you have; we’ll manage.
Providence must be smiling on our adventure because a few blocks away, I spot a ten-dollar bill on the sidewalk right outside an Italian grocery. The aroma of cured meats and hard, aged cheese draws us in. The dim, shrine-like interior with squeaky dark wood floors is full of treasures—pastas in all shapes and sizes, pickles floating in brine, and bottles of wine. Enormous salamis dangle from hooks on the ceiling. We buy mozzarella cheese and a round loaf of panettone, an airy, sweet bread studded with candied fruit.
The fog has cleared. Joel and I wander until we discover the Russian Hill neighborhood. We meander up and down steep, narrow lanes and stairways beneath tall trees, looking at rich people’s homes while we rip off big chunks of panettone to savor with chewy bites of cheese.
So,
Joel says, do you live in Isla Vista?
Yeah,
I say. I’m in one of those duplexes on Sabado Tarde.
Wow—I live on Del Playa, just a block down.
He grins. We’re just a couple of blocks away from each other. I can’t believe I never met you before!
Yeah, isn’t that weird?
I pull a strip of mozzarella off the ball of cheese and stuff it into my mouth. It took going to San Francisco for us to run into each other! So… what’s your major?
Philosophy—
He holds up his hand before I can say anything. Yeah, I know, it’s a dead end. I did it to piss off my parents.
I’m doing English lit,
I say. Not much you can do with that either. How come you want to stick it to your parents?
They don’t exactly groove on my situation. As far as I was concerned, high school was a colossal waste of time—all this irrelevant crap that you’re never going to use… the folks kept saying ’you’re never going to amount to anything. With those miserable grades you’ll end up washing dishes in a restaurant IF you’re lucky.’ Fuck them. But then I found out I need to go to college to keep from being drafted. So I signed up to take the SAT—you don’t need to have top grades if you ace the SAT. Dad just laughed at me. He said, ’Dream on! You’ll never pass. In fact, if you get a high SAT score I’ll even buy you a car—that’s how sure I am you’re in for a rude awakening.’
Joel rips off a chunk of cheese and chomps down on it like he wants to hurt somebody. I’m a really good test taker,
he says, his mouth full. He scowls, and his lips go up, down and sideways as he chews. I aced that motherfucker, got accepted at UCSB, and my dad had to get me a VW Bug.
I suck in my breath. I totally relate. My folks kept drumming it into me that without that degree, I’d spend my whole life as a motel maid. I went to Santa Barbara to get away from them.
Looks like we’ve got a lot in common.
Back at the marina, I stand outside while Joel gets into the bus to wake up his friend Greg. He comes out by himself. Greg says for us to go without him. Says he’s not into marching all that way. He’ll find us later, at the rally.
We follow people meandering along the streets, never sure we’re going the right way until we find the huge throng marching down Van Ness Avenue. The march stretches as far as we can see, both ahead and behind, an endless sea of signs and faces. Peace symbols are everywhere along with Veterans for Peace,
Another Mother for Peace,
and End the War Now.
All ages of people jam the street, from toddlers on their dads’ shoulders to old people. Along with the huge number of long-haired freaks like us, there are straight business people. Thousands and thousands of people