At Your Pleasure
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By candlelight, she lures him…
Glittering court socialites and underworld cutpurses alike know that Adrian Ferrers, Earl of Rivenham, is the most dangerous man in London. Rivenham will let nothing—not the deepening shadow of war, nor the growing darkness within him—interfere with his ambition to restore his family to its former glory. But when tasked by the king to uncover a traitor, he discovers instead a conspiracy—and a woman whose courage awakens terrible temptations. To save her is to risk everything. To love her might cost his life.
At swordpoint she defies him…
Lady Leonora knows that Rivenham is the devil in beautiful disguise—and that the irresistible tension between them is as unpredictable as the dilemma in which Nora finds herself: held hostage on her own estate by Rivenham and the king’s men. But when war breaks out, Nora has no choice but to place her trust in her dearest enemy—and pray that love does not become the weapon that destroys them both…
Meredith Duran
Meredith Duran is the USA TODAY bestselling author of thirteen novels. She blames Anne Boleyn for sparking her lifelong obsession with British history (and for convincing her that princely love is no prize if it doesn’t come with a happily-ever-after). She enjoys collecting old etiquette manuals, guidebooks to nineteenth-century London, and travelogues by intrepid Victorian women.
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Readers find this title thrilling and heartwrenching, providing an interesting glimpse into a tumultuous time in English/Catholic history. The characters, Adrian and Nora, are star-crossed lovers who must navigate trust, politics, and religion. Nora is a strong woman of her time, while Adrian is determined to overcome any obstacles in their way. The book is well-written and worth a read, leaving readers wanting more.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Thrilling and heartwrenching, Duran’s tale tells of Adrian and Nora, star-crossed lovers who have within their grasp a second chance at love. But first, they must regain trust; reconcile politics as well as religion, and decide which comes first in one’s heart: family, country or love?
It was an interesting glimpse into a very tumultuous time in English/Catholic history (a time I’m not certain I’d go back in time to! ?). You also cannot help but feel for Nora, who is very much a strong woman, but also a woman of her time (i.e. very much at the mercy of men). And Adrian, who finally has the love of his life within his grasp, and isn’t about to let anything- including her “traitorous” family- stand in his way.
Worth a read! - Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Well written book about a time in history that was almost forgotten
- Rating: 2 out of 5 stars2/5It was okay, just a tad overwrought. Duran's a decent writer, but lacks wit or humor in her novels. And romance novels sort of require it, or they become a bit overwrought. I don't require a lot of humor, but a little would be nice.
The plot was actually sort of interesting. This one had more plot than most - also a rather detailed depiction of the gender imbalance in Georgian England - circa 1715. Women are treated as little more than male property back then. Leonora Colville, the heroine, has a dilemma - she falls madly in love with a Catholic neighbor, who is also nobility. Their families rip them from each others arms cruelly. Leonora's brother and father believe she is better off married to Lord Towe, an upstanding Anglican Protestant, who is older and more established. Towe abuses her and is rather cruel - most of their marriage (thankfully) is told in brief flashbacks, without too many crushing details. I'm not sure the book could have handled a detailed account. Six years later, the man she loved, Adrian Ferrers, the Earl of Rivenham, has returned to her home to capture her brother - a Jacobite. Leonora is widowed, Towe conveniently for all concerned died. Ferrer's believes, unjustly, that she spurned him - that he'd escaped from his family's chains (literally) only to find her blissfully wedding Towe. Also, apparently her brother beat him within an inch of his life. At any rate, they reunite and the true history of their relationship is revealed.
The difficulty I had with the novel was the heroine, who after a certain point - I had an overwhelming desire to smack upside the head. Her family forces her into marriage with a man she despises, the man abuses her, and well...does something else quite horrible. Although I didn't find it that shocking and relatively predictable, but it is climatic turning point when Adrian discovers it at the same time as the reader.
At any rate - after all of this, it is hard to understand why Leonora persists in honoring or fighting for her brother and father's cause.
Or has any loyalty towards either man. The writer tells us why she's loyal but never shows us. We are told her brother David was kind to her when no one else was - but we don't really see it, instead we see all the horrible things he's done through the eyes of Adrian. When we are in Leonora's pov, it's mainly worrying over where her loyalties should reside, desire for Adrian, self-loathing for not getting over him, and the feeling of being trapped. Leonora's problem is she is a woman. She has no choices and is provided with few in the novel.
In some respects the romance is secondary to the social commentary - how women were treated back then by the men. And the abuses of power. Men possessed the power due to physical prowess and as a result, physically forced women to do their bidding. Leonora is continuously attempting to resist this physical force, yet cannot completely. The futility of her resistance threatens at different points to break her. The main source of the conflict between Leonora and Adrian is Leonora's lack of power - the only power she has is to refuse him, to not tell him things. Just as with her brother - her only power is to verbally refuse. And she attempts to make it clear to her brother - that she is not his to use.
He doesn't understand this - thinking much like Adrian does that his actions serve only to protect her from a threat.
Women in the 1700s did not have the power to chart their own destiny's, they were their families property to be traded at will - or so this writer states. Their choices are limited ones. The romance is a sort of power play between the men and Leonora. How she fights them, without being able to resort to physical force.
My quibble is it goes on a bit long. And her loyalty to her brother and family is hard to swallow after a bit, considering how brutally they've treated her. The writer could have made it easier to swallow if she'd shown not told the reader why Leonora loved her brother and father, despite their recent actions. And why she feels she betrayed them with her love for Adrian - besides relying a bit too heavily on the time period to explain it.
But, eh, it is a romance novel...so I shouldn't expect too much. Fairly cheap too on the Kindle. Kindle's were made for these types of books.1 person found this helpful
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Powerful characters make for intense emotion. Couple that with riveting prose and a looming war in Jacobite England, and you have a magical historical romance novel. Duran certainly knows how to weave a spell with her story telling. Such a top-class romance I've bought the paperback copy as well so that my Mom can read it. After Mom has finished, I'll be reading AT YOU PLEASURE again, to see what I missed as I turned the pages over as fast as I could to find out what happened next.
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- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5I really loved this! it was wonderful to end on a sober note. I'm sad it ended so soon....
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- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5More old-school than the usual Duran romance, I enjoyed this new take on the dramatic heart break of star crossed lovers. Adrian is a dreamboat, and I'm so glad the awful circumstances of their young romance is all in the past tense. Their family conflict was wrenching enough in flashback, I don't think I could stand going through it with them for the first time.
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At Your Pleasure - Meredith Duran
Prologue
ENGLAND, 1709
Faster.
Adrian had abandoned the lathered horse a mile behind. He ran now, his feet no sooner striking the ground than lifting again, all his instincts and memories combining to aid him, directing him sure-footedly and safely over the darkened field where he had played as a boy and later loved her as a man.
Faster.
The lights of Hodderby, which had flickered in the distance for long minutes, grew brighter. He could see now the draperies thrown back, the windows blazing like torches. Behind them moved darkened shapes, perhaps looking out, one of them Nora: she was watching for him. She was strong. She would hold out. He would not be too late.
Faster.
He stumbled and the pain speared up his side, so that all at once, he grew aware of his breath sawing razor-like in his throat—the burning in his chest—the ache in his shoulder that had not yet healed; the throb in his ribs where his father had struck him. On the ship they had chained him to keep him in place, claiming that they did it with love; they were saving his life from ruin, they said. His brother had clapped him on his wounded shoulder and laughed at his expression—and then, when Adrian had hawked spit across that smirking mouth, had cursed and kicked him like a mongrel dog.
You will thank me for that one day,
his brother had said by way of farewell. Wiping his jaw, he had added, I will have your apology then.
There would be no apology.
Faster.
Out of the dimness of twilight emerged a group of people in festive finery, men and women stumbling into each other, their wine-drunk laughter light in the cool autumn air. The girls wore bracelets of flowers braided round their wrists and brows; the flowers were orange blossoms, bridal flowers, purloined from a wedding.
Not hers, he told himself. Not yet. She will not bend for them. She will wait for me.
The group, seeing him, called out greetings. He had no breath for a reply. He was flying now, flying toward the manse. Faster, he thought. Faster.
1
ENGLAND, 1715
Nora was sitting at her dressing table, her maidservant Grizel braiding her hair for bed, when she heard hoofbeats on the road without. For a moment her heart swelled with relief: David, she thought. Her brother had finally returned, and she could surrender his cares to his own keeping. Thank God for it: they had worn her to the bone.
The next second, the maid crossed to open the window. Peering down, she gasped. King’s riders, my lady,
she said over her shoulder.
Nora felt the blood drain from her head.
King’s riders, approaching by night with no message sent ahead to announce them: the only conclusion was that they meant to take the household by surprise. Their mission was not a friendly one.
Somebody had betrayed her.
My gown,
she said as she rose. Lace me quickly. And leave the window open.
As she impatiently submitted to Grizel’s nimble hands, she heard the household stirring back to life. Dogs barked in the inner courtyard. Tack jingled and a horse whinnied. Low voices rose on the cool night breeze, impossible to discern. She caught three distinct timbres, and then a fourth. Her chest tightened. How large is the party?
she asked. Could you tell?
I saw . . . eight, nine mounts?
So many?
Nora cast her mind back to the letter she had received last week. Since the riots at Oxford, the government had recalled the old act, passed before the Civil War, that allowed the king’s agents to search any house suspected to harbor traitors. But to come this far into the Lancashire wilderness, with so very many men . . .
Evidently they felt certain they would not leave this place empty-handed.
She took a deep breath. No cause to fear, she told herself. As Grizel’s hands fell away, she squared her shoulders. In the standing mirror in the corner, she saw herself: small, dark, half-lost in the shadows of the room.
It would not do. She lifted her head, trying for a prouder look. These visitors would behave as her manner instructed them. Best that they see a grand lady, deserving of respect.
What can they want now?
Grizel whispered.
Turning, Nora found her maid twisting a lace cap in her hands. Her anxious gaze begged for reassurance.
Not for the first time, Nora felt a stab of anger. Her brother’s mad schemes had endangered every soul in his care. At a time when heavy rains and failing crops should have riveted his attention to his estates, he conspired instead in French palaces, and exposed every throat in this house to the axe.
The thought was disloyal. She forced it away. David had no choice, after all. When her majesty had died and the German had come from Hanover to take the throne, their father’s enemies had been waiting. They had whispered lies into the new king’s ear. In the end, Father had been impeached, stripped of his title, and driven from England.
Neither Father nor David could be expected to tolerate such insult. As her brother often said, only dogs and cowards licked the boot that kicked them. And if the Colvilles did submit . . . who was to say that next, these lands would not be taken from them, too? The crown had already seized their more far-flung holdings, but Nora’s late husband had labored to ensure that Hodderby and its environs were spared.
Now that her husband was dead, the Whigs no longer had cause to treat the Colvilles kindly. Before David could tend to these estates, he first must ensure that they remained his to protect.
As the panic ebbed, she began to think more clearly. Why, of course—nobody had betrayed her. The king’s men did not come because they had learned of David’s activities. More likely they came because this household had once belonged to her father, who had fled to the Jacobite court. They came on a mission of simple harassment.
I cannot guess why they have come,
she lied to the maid. But I am sure there is good reason for it, and no cause for our anxiety.
Yes, my lady,
murmured Grizel. She did not sound convinced, but no matter. So long as the men did not know about David’s affairs, there truly was nothing new to fear.
Unless, of course, it occurred to these visitors to dig up the cellar floors . . . or seize the stores of wine. The double-chambered barrels concealed more than canary and port. They housed enough gunpowder to demolish a fortress—or this house, if handled roughly.
A knock came at the door, causing her to jump. Surely they would not come straight to her rooms? Such boldness would bode very ill.
Come,
she called.
At least she sounded calm. That was a good beginning.
The door opened to reveal the steward, Mr. Montrose. He looked harassed, his white wig sitting askew on his heavy brow, revealing a wisp of gray hair beneath. My lady,
he said breathlessly. I beg your pardon, but Hooton says a party of riders has come—they are demanding entrance—
On whose authority?
My lady . . .
He faltered, swallowing loudly. They carry a writ of Parliament.
She refused to show how these words chilled her. Then we have no choice. Permit them entrance and tell Hooton to make them comfortable.
She bent her head so Grizel could pin up her braid.
But, my lady—
She looked up. Montrose was wringing his wrists. What? Speak, sir.
My lady, the party is led by Lord Adrian.
Grizel’s hand slipped. A pin stabbed Nora’s scalp, but she barely registered the pain. Montrose could not mean . . .
Lord Adrian?
Her voice no longer sounded calm; it came out rough and choked, though she felt nothing, nothing at all but a prickling disbelief. Surely she was dreaming. Surely he could not mean—
Ah, forgive me,
Montrose stammered. I forgot myself. I mean the Earl of Rivenham. He is Rivenham now.
My God, she thought. Then this was a mission of vengeance, indeed.
David, what have you done to me?
How could you leave me alone to face him?
They were installed in a small parlor with cups of buttered ale. Adrian watched his men assort themselves, settling with unaccustomed hesitance into chairs around the fire. The dark-paneled room seemed too fine for muddied leathers and woolens, but the stench of the journey, horse and smoke and sweat, quickly overwhelmed the sharp, clean scent of wood polish.
He was glad of it. He remembered that scent, the special mix made of aromatic balsam and the wax from Hodderby’s beehives. In the stone entry hall, too, he had been caught off balance by memories. The old butler, Hooton, still answered the door, now with the aid of a cane. The unicorn tapestry next to the stair, the echo of his boots on the stone—the sense of familiarity had cut through his fatigue like a blade, spearing him straight in the gut.
It had made his manner colder than required. He had no complaint against the household, only the master—who was absent, Hooton had stammered. But Lady Towe was in residence.
There was another unwelcome surprise.
But irrelevant, he told himself.
He went to the window and looked out over the darkened parkland. A distant flicker of light in the trees caused him to tighten his grip on his goblet and lean closer to the glass. As a precaution, he had left Lord John Gardiner and a handful of outriders to stand watch from a quarter-mile away until he determined that their reception at Hodderby would be peaceful. Either the fool had disobeyed his orders and lit torches, or someone else was lurking in the wood.
It could not be David Colville. Not yet. Reports had placed him in Calais two days ago.
Perhaps the lady of the house had been expecting a midnight visitor. Did she look out some window upstairs in search of this light?
For her sake, he hoped not. Her presence here was not, in itself, suspicious; it was only logical that after the death of her husband, she had returned to her family home. But if she was involved in this plot, he would spare no concern for her. He would do what he must here, no matter the cost.
As he stared into the darkness, it came to him that another man in his place might feel a measure of dread. In his youth, he had been a friend to the man he now hunted, and to the woman abovestairs . . . more yet. Another man might well feel distaste for the current necessity.
Another man, finding himself at Hodderby again, might recall the boy he had once been, in this place—idealistic, impassioned, full of hope. A fool worth mourning, perhaps.
But Adrian felt nothing. That moment in the entry hall had been brief and unwelcome. It was over.
Sometimes he wondered at this numbness. More often it proved quite useful.
The door opened; leather creaked and throats cleared as his men rose. He took a long drink of his ale, swallowing before he turned.
The Dowager Marchioness of Towe entered the room. Adrian chose instead to focus on the man at her elbow. Here was an amusement, he thought: to find the old steward, Montrose, still on his feet, still fat as a Turk, triple chins aquiver with self-importance.
The maid that followed them carried a lamp. As the marchioness halted, the girl lifted it to show her ladyship to the company.
He was prepared for her, but his men were not: one of them sucked in an audible breath. The marchioness was too dark and small, her black brows too heavy and her jaw too bold, to qualify as beautiful. But her body was a spectacle: it would have done a barmaid proud, even in this prim gown the color of blood. The lamp’s glow painted the ripe curve of her bosom and the fullness of her cheek. It drew crimson sparks from the rubies she wore at her throat.
Since it was pressing near to midnight, she would have been abed upon their arrival, or ready for it. Those jewels had been donned mere minutes ago, to remind her visitors of her station.
She would have done better, of course, to disarm them by appearing sleepy-eyed and tousled, in a lace robe that slipped off the shoulder, wearing slippers with no heels, the better to emphasize how small, how negligible, she was.
But she had never been skilled at such games. As a girl she had scorned them. Later, after her marriage . . .
For whatever reason, she had grown quiet as a nun. No wit, the court’s verdict had run. Adjudged to be rustic and tedious company, she had made no effort to persuade London otherwise.
Adrian had never disputed the other courtiers’ judgments. He shared no opinions at all on the question of the marchioness.
In the inconstant light that rippled from the sconces along the walls, she was taking a moment to spot him. He waited, ignoring the curious glances from his men when he did not move forward to greet her. Despite her silence and the fortune around her throat, she looked to them, no doubt, harmless: a petite siren’s body paired with a girlish face, given to blushes, dominated by large, round eyes.
As her gaze found his, her shoulders stiffened. For a brief moment, her alarm was obvious.
Yes, he thought. You know better than to expect kindness from me now.
He offered her a slight bow.
My lord Rivenham,
she said. She abjured curtsying for a brief bow of her own, the dip of her head showing him the shining crown of her black hair. The face she lifted was unreadable to him, but he had grown accustomed to that; over the past six years, in crowds, across rooms, it had looked to him, when he had happened to look, like the mask cast to commemorate a dead woman. Attractive, albeit in an unusual way. But lifeless.
He knew enough of her late husband to guess at the cause. For her sake, Adrian supposed he was glad she’d been widowed.
My lady Towe,
he said. There was no call here for courtesies; they had determined that, tacitly, during their encounters in town. Your steward will have told you the purpose of our visit. We will require lodging and provisions.
She stared at him. The light did not provide an exact view of her eyes, but they were gray, penetrating and clear like her voice. What London mistook for coldness was, in fact, a powerful self-possession. I understood you come to make search of the premises. What provisions could you require for such a simple task?
I am glad to hear it will be simple,
he said. As to the question of provisions, if you do not understand the requirements of a traveling party, your steward no doubt can explain it to you.
By her impassive expression, the jibe did not register. She turned to confer in a low voice with Montrose. Adrian grew aware of the whispers of his men, who had perceived the undercurrent but had no hope of understanding it.
The stables have room enough for your horses and your men besides,
she said. If you—
No,
he said. We will stay in the house.
She remained silent.
We will require two private chambers in addition to the lodging for my men,
he continued. One of the Marquess of Barstow’s sons accompanies us. Lord John will be arriving in the morning.
The boy had whined the entirety of the journey; let him have a taste of a night watch, and a true reason to complain.
She took a step toward him, her maid with the lamp hurrying to follow. I thought you had come to search the house,
she said in a cutting voice. If you mean to seize it, and my authority as well, then pray do me the favor of announcing it plainly.
He allowed himself a slight smile. Once, her bold speaking had fascinated him. He had imagined it the product of a mind that ranged freely and a spirit that quailed at nothing.
But her boldness was nothing so brave. Like a mule, she would persist stubbornly in her duty, never questioning it, until she dropped dead in the harness.
Indeed, for all he knew, her brother had put her to work in his plot.
The thought darkened Adrian’s mood. He felt a dull throb in his shoulder, an old wound, gifted long ago by her brother, that had never healed entirely. He had ridden twelve hours or more today, through rain and wind, and he was more exhausted than he’d thought: his body was sore and so was his temper.
Plainly, then, madam, in language you will understand,
he said. I come to do the king’s bidding. I am his agent in this matter and you will treat me as such. That is your only duty: obedience.
Over the crackling of the fire, he heard the sharp breath drawn by her maid. But she never moved.
Very well,
she said after a moment. Montrose, you will instruct Hooton to find places for these men in the east wing, and see their horses stabled. Your lordship, if you would be so kind
—her sarcasm was delicate—may my household be given to know how long we will be graced by the king’s agent?
That I cannot say.
As long as it took, he thought. David Colville had been asking after ships in Calais. This piece of stupidity he would soon compound, for his arrogance would not allow him to remain hidden once in England. He would imagine himself capable of overpowering a small contingent of soldiers. Soon enough, he would make an appearance at Hodderby.
I see.
The marchioness hesitated. Then perhaps you will wish me to absent myself. I can withdraw to a cousin’s estate—
Oh, no.
It was coming to him that he could not have planned this ambush better: she would make an excellent lure for her wayward brother. Indeed, once David Colville learned the identity of his sister’s guest, rage might lead him directly to the front door. Forgive me for not making myself clearer. For the remainder of our stay, this household will not stir beyond the grounds.
She took the lamp from the maid and lifted it, as though to see him more clearly. Instead, she showed him herself: her owl’s eyes, wide and pale and startled; the thick black brows that a vainer woman would have plucked; the grave line of her bowed lips, and the pulse beating too rapidly in her throat. I—you cannot mean—but that sounds as though we are under arrest!
So it does,
he said. Effectively, so you are.
2
Stay a moment, Rivenham said as Montrose ushered out the soldiers.
I must speak with you."
Speak with me, Nora thought with a hysterical flicker of humor. Once, those words had meant everything to her. I must speak with you, he had whispered that day in the meadow, right before he had laid her down amidst the sweet-scented grass. He had pushed his face into her hair, so his damp breath warmed her throat. For the first time they had spoken of love.
He had been no more than twenty, she a year younger. Children, really.
What a wild, foolish, stupid child she had been!
Yet, for so long after her marriage—for so many endless nights after that first glimpse of him in London, with some woman on his arm touching him as though he were hers, while his eyes passed by Nora as though she were invisible—for so long she had burned to hear him say those words to her again. To know that she was needed; that she could give him what no other woman could; that he loved her yet.
But time had made her wiser. She knew now that a man’s need for a woman was no special compliment. Men had endless needs. Her father, her brother, her late husband—all of them impatiently had required her attention day after day, year after year. She had grown wise enough not to be flattered by need. She had learned to be grateful, instead, for silence and indifference.
As she sat by the fire watching Lord Rivenham prowl the room, she was proud to find no curiosity in herself regarding his need to speak with her. Indeed, she took his words in the same manner that he had spoken them—coldly.
How large is your household?
he asked. Count those who sleep in the stables.
Forty-eight souls,
she said.
He nodded. His hand passed lightly over objects as he paced: the glass-fronted cabinet of china; the japanned vase that sat atop the small table by the window; the velvet-cut arras cloth that stretched along the wall. He looked out of place in the rough clothing of the road: high boots of brown leather cuffed above his knees; dark breeches, dark waistcoat, a black wool jacket that flared out to reveal the glint of his sword hilt as he turned.
He looked like a barbarian, and she loathed not only his questions but his very presence here. How easily he had decided, at his own convenience, that he no longer wished to ignore her! Worse, she had no choice but to accede to his decision, for he came from the king.
I will allow you twenty people,
he said. The rest, all who are not necessary for the running of the household, will be dispatched to their villages for the remainder of our stay.
The order fired an anger that astonished her. It was not her way any longer to submit to tempers, but it took great effort to keep hold of her composure now. There is no one who is not necessary to this household. Else I would have dismissed them already.
Moreover, most would have nowhere to go: after a summer of floods that imperiled the crops of corn and wheat, no household would welcome them.
Then your decision will be difficult,
he said.
So will your breakfasts and suppers,
she said, and your laundering as well.
The corner of his mouth lifted in acknowledgment as he turned toward her. She found herself resenting even the way he moved: with a sort of liquid grace that had won him a host of admirers, all the way up to her majesty, who had favored him especially for dancing. The Queen’s Delight, they used to call him in London. Her majesty had loved nothing better than the attention of talented, pretty men, and Adrian had always been that: tall and broad-shouldered, fashioned in lean, taut lines, with silver-pale hair and slumberous green eyes.
But pretty no longer described him. He looked weathered now, hardened, in the way of soldiers who slept in the open. Beneath the broad bones of his cheeks, his face hollowed; the set of his jaw conjured grimness, and his neck was corded with muscle. His eyes remained as thickly lashed as a woman’s, but as he regarded her now they glinted with the sort of malicious intelligence that women were not allowed to claim.
He looked like a handsome stranger, and not a kind one.
You will find a way,
he said. All across the kingdom, the Marchioness of Towe is reputed for her housekeeping.
But not for much else, his tone implied.
Unblinking, she stared at him. She knew the low regard in which the court’s more glittering circles held her. Was she meant to care that his shallow, vain, foppish friends thought her cloddish?
Perhaps he did not allude to the court’s judgments, though. Perhaps he meant to wound her with an older reference. She could still recall the day she had railed at him in the wood. I am to tally accounts and stitch seams until I am gray, she had raged. Counting bottles of port and overseeing the making of soap—if I am lucky enough to survive the childbed. What woman should look forward to marriage? Why celebrate such an end?
Childish complaints. But she still might have avoided that end, if only she had never met him.
The thought echoed in her head, growing ludicrous. No woman of sense would envy a spinster’s uncertain lot. She took a long breath to calm herself. Reputed for her housekeeping. The mockery seemed sharper by the moment, but she would not give him the satisfaction of seeing it register.
To her relief, he turned away to resume his inspection of the room. When did you return to Hodderby?
he asked.
She sat back. She had returned as soon as she had been able, but her path had not been direct from London. Her mother-in-law had insisted on detaining her in Hertfordshire for three long months after Towe’s death, putting her every morning to prayer in the chapel, bidding her beg God for an heir, until finally it had become clear even to the old woman that Nora’s womb was empty.
The Marchioness of Towe is reputed for her housekeeping. But for all her efforts, for all the bitterness she had swallowed to do her duties smiling, she had failed at the most important task of a wife.
The failure had not gladdened her, but there had been a strange justice in it, one that philosophers might have appreciated.
She cleared her throat. Why do you wish to know?
He paused before a portrait of an ancestor, stiff in an Elizabethan ruff. She watched him study the painting with growing anger. Do not pretend such interest in it, she thought. You have seen it before.
I didn’t know you had returned,
he said. It interests me.
My decision to return interests you? Where did you imagine I would go?
He smiled slightly. What interests me is the fact that I did not know of it. Did you come in secret?
She stiffened. "I did not. I came near to five months ago, with no small party of outriders. And why should it surprise you? Is it your call to keep track of me?"
"My call? He turned toward her, lifting a silver-blond brow. Once these Gallic mannerisms of his had lent him a fey air. But now that his face had become a man’s, the effect seemed more calculated and intimidating.
No, of course not. But you have always interested me, my lady. Perhaps you recall it."
Her skin prickled as though someone had walked over her grave. His tone was a horrible mismatch to his words. He alluded for the first time in years to matters long past, but he did so lightly, mockingly, as though their shared history were a joke he had heard in a tavern.
She laid a hand to her cheek and felt the heat there. This evidence of her blush enraged her: it suggested he had some power over her yet. Worse, it showed to him that he might.
You know my father is not here,
she said. I fear the new king has sent you on a fool’s mission.
He did not reply to this. You say you came five months ago.
After a moment, she nodded. Had her answer suggested something to him? She cast her mind back, but could think of nothing significant about April past, save that Parliament had finally set in motion the impeachment proceedings against her father. But Father had already fled to France by then. He was innocent of wrongdoing—a faithful member of the High Church, and a true servant to his country—but with his Whig enemies come to power under the new king, the verdict against him had not surprised anyone.
I would have come sooner,
she said, but after Lord Towe died, I remained with his mother for a time.
How dutiful,
Rivenham murmured.
It did not sound like a compliment, and she felt herself bridling again. How odd, after so many years, to converse with him in this way. From love to silence to hatred, with nary a word between.
One of his long-fingered hands settled on the back of a chair as he faced her, his heavy signet ring catching the firelight. Four years ago, the death of his elder brother had made him the earl. Some whispered that he had expedited this process by smothering his brother with a pillow as the man lay witless with fever.
Nora could not believe the rumor. But it did play uneasily through her mind that the boy she’d known had never longed for power, whereas the man he had become seemed to glory in it. Why else had he cultivated the late queen’s favor, petitioning to play her diplomat at George of Hanover’s court?
I suppose you must have given thought to the other questions I will ask,
he said. Shall we save trouble by skipping directly to your answers?
She pushed a hand over her brow. His manner was so strange, this scene so unimaginable, and the hour so late, that she felt a momentary, giddy wonder: perhaps she was only dreaming.
Speak,
he said sharply.
She pulled herself straight. You forget yourself!
She was not one of his servants. I have no choice but to allow you to stay in my home, and to search it as you will. But his majesty cannot command me to tolerate your insults!
A brief silence passed, in which he did not move. And then she saw his fingers loosen slightly on the back of the chair, and it came to her that before this moment, he had been . . . braced for something.
Why? What cause had he to find this meeting uncomfortable? He had ignored her with effortless skill for six years now. Was he angered by her refusal to be cowed?
Or did this meeting seem as impossible, as mad and strange, to him as it did to her?
Forgive me,
he said slowly, as though the words of apology tasted foreign, and required special care in the pronunciation. It is late, and my manners suffer from the road. I assure you, madam, that this occasion is no more agreeable to me than to you.
She swallowed. They were dancing nearer and