Appointments with Heaven: The True Story of a Country Doctor's Healing Encounters with the Hereafter
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- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5An interesting book, but not what I expected. The author speaks of his personal experiences as a physician, not only with death but also with life. Although I'm not usually a fan of these kinds of books, this was well-written and I enjoyed reading it.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5A true story of a doctor's experiences with heaven as he experiences death and life through his patients.
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Appointments with Heaven - Reggie Anderson
Chapter 1
The Patient
dingbatSeptember 2011
Ashland City Hospital, Ashland City, Tennessee
He was an eighty-two-year-old, proud Alabama boy, lying in the intensive care unit, and while I didn’t yet know his time of death, I already knew the cause.
For more than a year, he had been struggling with myelodysplastic syndrome—his bone marrow had stopped producing the blood cells needed to fight off infection. He was immunocompromised and had developed a severe staph infection that was almost impossible to treat. His body had become septic, and the inflammation was devastating his organs. I knew his days were numbered, but I couldn’t stand the thought of his passing.
I had known him all my life. He was a teacher and a farmer—intelligent and determined, proud and stubborn. He was also a man of great faith. He didn’t see any reason to prolong his life on earth past the purpose God had for him. Like many of my elderly patients, he believed that he had an appointment with heaven and that Jesus was waiting for him on the other side.
As a doctor, I’ve seen what happens to the patient whose loved ones hang on too long. They desperately cling to their family member, demanding that doctors use extraordinary means to keep that person here when, really, the dying believer just wants to slip gently to the other side. Sometimes doctors can postpone a patient’s death for weeks or months, but it often involves drastic measures with the person being kept alive by machines and feeding tubes. The patient’s quality of life isn’t what relatives expect when they initially make the decision, and it’s rarely what a patient desires.
Whenever God called him home, he was ready.
I didn’t want this patient kept alive by machines, and he didn’t want it either. But I had good reasons to lengthen his life. He had a close, extended family, some of whom lived out of town and wanted a chance to say good-bye. With intensive medical intervention, I could postpone his death long enough to allow them the opportunity to see him one last time. His family wasn’t ready to let him go, and I understood that in the most intimate way possible. I wasn’t ready for him to be gone either.
I thought of other deaths I had witnessed—including an unforgettable experience that happened while I was a medical resident.
dingbatThroughout medical school I had taken care of dying patients, but this was the first time that I, as the senior resident, would be the one in charge when a patient died. I didn’t know what to expect.
Dr. Anderson,
the elderly woman began, her voice starting to fade. Will you hold my hand? I’m going to see Jesus, and I need an escort.
That night, I experienced the veil parting—the veil that separates this life from the next. As I held the dying woman’s hands, I felt the warmth of her soul pass by my cheek when it left her body, swept up by an inexplicably cool breeze in an otherwise stagnant room. I smelled the familiar fragrance of lilac and citrus, and I knew the veil was parting to allow her soul to pass through.
Since that first patient, I’ve walked with countless others to the doorstep of heaven and watched them enter paradise. On many occasions, as I held hands with the dying, God allowed me to peer into heaven’s entryway where I watched each patient slip into the next world.
I’ve sensed Jesus on the other side, standing in heaven’s foyer, welcoming the dead who are made whole again. I’ve glimpsed surreal colors and sights and heard sounds more intense than anything I’ve ever experienced in this ordinary world. I’ve inhaled the scents of lilac, citrus, freshly carved cedar, and baking bread—more fragrant than I ever thought possible.
Sometimes I’ve even witnessed patients leave this world and come back. As they’ve shared their stories with me, I’ve often remembered the time early in my life when God allowed me to step into heaven’s foyer, even though I no longer believed he was real.
The one thing these experiences have in common is the intensity of the sights, sounds, fragrances, and feelings that I sensed. Heaven is more real than anything we experience here, and the sense of peace, joy, and overwhelming love is beyond description.
dingbatMemories of other dying patients, as well as my personal glimpses into heaven, drifted through my mind as I sat at my patient’s bedside in the ICU that day. I had every confidence that what awaited him would be more joyous than anything he’d ever experienced. But, selfishly, I wasn’t ready to see him disappear through the opening. As the attending physician, the family looked to me for guidance. I could recommend a blood transfusion that would prolong his life for a few more days; with several transfusions, maybe I could extend it a week or more.
Or I could let him go.
Either way, I knew that he and his family would listen to me and do what I suggested.
I had a difficult decision to make, and my medical decisions were complicated by what my patients and I had experienced on heaven’s side of the veil. But my struggle was even greater because of who I was.
I wasn’t just the patient’s physician—I was also his son.
Chapter 2
The First Dream
dingbatJune 1962
Plantersville, Alabama
Dad and Mom came from a long line of teachers, preachers, and farmers. For generations, the farmers had taught us how to work hard; the preachers had taught us that without God, hard work was meaningless; and the teachers had taught us that everything in life was a lesson.
My parents were high school educators. They were equally intentional about teaching my siblings and me at home, and they didn’t need schoolbooks or technology to do it. In the early sixties, the only technology we had was a radio and a black-and-white Zenith TV—we couldn’t have afforded more, even if it had been available. Our textbook was the land we lived on and the community we lived in.
We grew up in the country in Plantersville, Alabama. The nearest stoplight was twenty miles away in Selma. Dad taught agriculture at the local high school, and Mom had taken time off from teaching home economics to raise us. Cathy, my oldest sibling, was the only one in school at the time, yet our parents tried to instill in us the same lessons they taught their teenage students in class. At home, Mom taught Cathy the art of homemaking, and Dad taught me and my younger brother, Tim, about farming and raising animals. From the time I was old enough to sit up by myself in the car, Dad took me with him when he visited his students’ farms to check out their class projects—typically, animals they were raising for an upcoming fair. After the visit, we bumped home on those old country roads, and Dad would tell me what the student was doing right and what he or she could do better.
One day, you’ll have a calf of your own,
he’d say, as he emphasized the importance of the right feed for the animal or the proper way to groom it. Dad knew that the responsibility of caring for an animal taught a boy lessons he couldn’t learn from a textbook.
Each year, Dad bought one or two calves for us, and we would raise them for meat. At four years old, I would mix the milk and hold the bottle for the animals to suckle until they were old enough to eat grain and hay. Once, a baby deer got caught in my grandfather’s chicken coop, and we included him in our little animal menagerie and raised him by hand. I loved the animals we raised, but I also understood they would one day be our dinner. While I didn’t relish the thought of eating the animals I cared for, I was grateful for the meat, whether it came from a deer, a cow, or a squirrel.
As I busied myself with my chores, feeding and grooming the animals or working in the garden, I dreamed of being a vet and taking care of sick and injured animals. But with only poor preachers, teachers, and farmers as role models, veterinary medicine was about as realistic a career choice as my other fantasy—being a cowboy.
dingbatAfter finishing our chores, we often watched TV as a family. We had three channels, and we each had a favorite program. Dad liked the evening news, while Cathy, Tim, and I preferred The Popeye Show. Together, we’d laugh at the antics of our beloved sailor as he tried to get out of an impossible predicament and save Olive Oyl, using only his brain, brawn, and a can of spinach. Cousin Cliff, the kindhearted magician dressed in a yachting cap and nautical coat, hosted the show, and between cartoons he would delight his young fans with puppets and magic tricks.
One of my earliest memories was of a hot June day in 1962, when I was four and a half. We were watching Popeye, and when the cartoon ended, Cousin Cliff made an extraordinary announcement. He and Popeye were having a contest.
How would you like to win this beautiful Shetland pony?
Cousin Cliff asked.
On-screen, a grainy film showed him parading a pony around the stable. A child dressed in riding gear and a cowboy hat sat on the pony’s back holding the reins. Cousin Cliff continued, He comes complete with bridle and saddle all ready for ya to ride, and he is first prize in a contest that Popeye and I are having on our show.
It’s hard to imagine anything more exciting to three kids from Plantersville than the thought of having such a beautiful animal—one we could take turns riding. We admired his long silky mane as we imagined ourselves on his back holding the reins.
Just send a postcard to Popeye at WAPI in Birmingham. You don’t have to write anything, no box tops to send in, and there is nothing to buy,
Cousin Cliff said.
Mom, can we enter the contest?
I asked.
Everyone who watches channel 13,
Cliff reminded us, is eligible to win the pony.
Cathy joined my plea, "Can we please send in a postcard for the pony?"
Mom agreed, turning it into a lesson on reading, writing, and how the postal system worked. She let us each choose a postcard and showed us how to address it and how to write our names and address—though she had to do most of the writing for Tim and me. She gave us each a stamp to lick and showed us where to place it.
I’ll take you to the post office in the morning to mail them,
she promised.
To a four-year-old boy and his seven-year-old sister—and even to our two-year-old brother—winning a pony would be like striking gold.
Cathy was already talking about brushing the pony’s coat and putting ribbons in his mane. I want to get a matching cowgirl dress, so I can wear it when I ride him,
she said.
My thoughts were more practical.
I’ll ride him to rope the cattle when it’s feeding time,
I said, remembering the cowboy movies I’d seen on TV. At four and a half, my dreams weren’t based in reality. I hadn’t considered that we never had to rope the calves at feeding time. They just followed Dad to the trough when he brought out the feed bucket.
The next morning as Mom drove us to the post office, we were still thinking about all that we could do with the pony.
I can ride him when I play cowboys and Indians,
I said from the backseat of the car.
When I win the pony, I am going to ride him to school!
Cathy said.
Her comment concerned me. I turned my attention to Mom in the front seat. Don’t send in Tim’s and Cathy’s cards,
I said.
Why not?
she asked.
"I had a dream last night, and God told me I was going to win the pony, so you only need to send in my postcard."
Cathy looked at me like I was crazy, so I didn’t go into details. But the night before, I’d had a dream in which I was riding the pony bareback in a red clover field. The sky was clear, and there was a coolness in the air. A voice with authority, though not alarming, spoke to me. You will win this pony, but you must share this gift with everyone who wants to ride this special horse.
The voice was calm and reassuring, and I knew at once it was God. And then he paraphrased something I had heard in church: To whom much is given, much is expected.
I didn’t share those details with Cathy and Mom. Instead, I continued with what I thought was logical reasoning. Cathy and Tim won’t win, so just don’t mail theirs or they’ll be disappointed,
I said.
Obviously, I had a lot to learn about sibling relationships.
That’s not fair; I want to send my card too!
Cathy protested.
I wanna da pony!
Tim cried, not understanding what was happening.
By now, Mom had parked the car and turned off the ignition. She turned to look at me in the backseat. She paused before she spoke and looked me in the eye. I could see she was choosing her words carefully. Reggie, there are thousands of children who have sent in cards. I don’t want you to be disappointed if you don’t win.
I won’t,
I said in complete confidence, "because I’m going to win the pony. God told me so in my dream."
She sighed.
If God chooses someone else, I want you to know that he is still very real, and I don’t want you to get mad at him if you don’t win.
I understand, Mama, but I’m going to win,
I said as I tugged on the car door handle.
The four of us walked into the post office, and Mom explained to the postman, Mr. Fisher, that we had postcards to mail to Popeye. He wasn’t surprised; that day, there had already been a steady stream of excited children with postcards.
I’m going to win that pony,
I said with confidence to Mr. Fisher as I handed him my card.
Well, son, don’t get your hopes up too high,
he said in a kind voice. A lot of other boys and girls have already mailed their cards too.
I wanted to tell Mr. Fisher that the high hopes I had weren’t just wishful thinking—they were assurances. And they didn’t come from me—they came from God. But I didn’t yet have the language skills to express all that I was thinking. Besides, it was becoming obvious that people were finding it hard to believe me.
Yes, sir,
I said politely.
Mom says I accepted faith in God easier than my brother and sister did. If that’s true, I don’t remember why or how. Growing up in the country, I can’t remember a time when I didn’t believe in God. My faith was as real to me as the red clay beneath my calloused bare feet, and God was as gentle as the cotton that blew from the fields. Like kudzu, it rooted and grew in every direction without anyone tending to it. I knew God was as ever-present as the century-old oak trees that grew on our acreage. His goodness, grace, and mercy were as alive and abundant to me as the doves, squirrels, and pine trees I saw every day.
Of course, growing up in the South, we also had formal religion. My parents were stereotypical Baptists—at church every time the doors were open. While I always attended with them, I didn’t always agree with what I heard. I preferred to think God used honey, not vinegar, to attract his followers, and when the revival preachers talked about hell, I shut down a bit.
Mom taught Sunday school and Dad was a deacon, so I was always in and around church. But unlike my parents, I never really embraced the idea that God was in church. God was everywhere. I heard sounds of him in the lake when I was fishing and saw him when I lay on my back in the fields watching the cumulus clouds drifting by on a sea of blue sky. For me, getting close to God wasn’t about sitting silently in church; it was about becoming quiet in the presence of his creation and listening for his still, small voice. God was as visible and present as the landscape, especially the foothills of the Appalachian Mountains. The outdoors had become my cathedral, and from the land, God had abundantly blessed us with food, clothing, and a home.
There wasn’t anything else I needed—or wanted.
dingbatOur family was working in the garden near the house and Tim was napping when, through an open window, we heard the phone ring. Mom ran inside to answer it. Soon she called to us from the door, Stop what you’re doing and come in!
I dropped the hoe and gingerly stepped between the shoots that were just breaking ground.
Hurry!
she said.
Dad, Cathy, and I quickened our pace, and when we got inside, Mom was in the living room fiddling with the TV. I could hear the static as I entered through the back door.
It’s still on CBS; someone run outside and change the antenna!
she hollered while she continued to adjust the dial.
What’s going on?
I heard my dad ask as he ran back out to where the antenna was located. Two of the three stations came from Birmingham, and the third was from Montgomery. Someone had to go outside to physically move the antenna in the direction of the signal, and then we’d yell through the window to get it right if we wanted to watch a station coming from the other direction. Does it work?
he yelled.
A little more to the left,
Mom said.
He adjusted it again.
No, that’s too far,
Mom said, quickly followed by, Right there!
The static had quieted, and now I could hear the familiar voice of Cousin Cliff.
What’s going on?
Dad said as he flew in the back door and joined us in the living room.
Shhh!
Mom said, pointing at the TV.
Earlier today, we drew for the first prize in our contest,
said Cousin Cliff. Congratulations to the winner of Tex the pony, Reginald Anderson from Plantersville!
Cathy and my parents looked stunned.
Cousin Cliff continued, We’ll be calling you next week, Reginald, and Tex can’t wait for you to ride him!
That’s when they all turned to look at me. They were waiting for a response, or an outburst of emotion, but I wasn’t sure what to do or say. I was thankful, but I wasn’t surprised.
Reggie, you won the pony!
Cathy said, throwing her arms around me.
I know,
I said quietly. I told you.
But how did you know?
Mom asked.
God told me in my dream,
I reminded her.
A week later, Tex the pony arrived amid great Plantersville fanfare. Cousin Cliff slid out of the car in his sailor cap and helped unload the black-and-white Shetland. Holding the reins, he walked Tex up the front yard to where we stood as a family. After Cousin Cliff saddled Tex, I climbed up, and then Cousin Cliff helped Cathy straddle the pony behind me. I held the reins, and Cathy held a Popeye doll that Cousin Cliff had given her. Dad and Mom stood behind us holding Tim, who wasn’t sure what to make of it all.
For reasons I couldn’t understand, I was suddenly a local celebrity. A crowd gathered, and a photographer snapped pictures while another man from WAPI filmed us. Cathy and I took turns riding the pony around the yard, and a week later, we saw ourselves in the same scene—only this time on our TV. Cathy and I looked happy. Mom and Dad had puzzled looks on their faces.
There were approximately five hundred people living in Plantersville at the time, and over the next few weeks, we became friends with many of them. I think they all heard about the local boy who won the pony, and they would stop by so their kids could take a ride on Tex. They were surprised at the good fortune that had fallen on me. I knew it had happened just like it was supposed to.
The way God said it would.
Once my parents got over their astonishment, I think they were pleased with all the lessons that came with Tex. I learned to share Tex, not only with my siblings but with the community. I learned to feed and groom him, as well as to clean out his stall.
There were also subtler and even more important lessons gained. I learned that God talks to me—to all of us—but hearing him requires faith. I learned to trust him and my experiences with him, even when others were skeptical. And I learned that God was active in my life, that he was good, and that he had plans for me.
But some of those lessons would soon be forgotten, and I would have to learn them all over again in the most painful way imaginable.
Chapter 3
The Day Santa Died
dingbatDecember 1965
Plantersville, Alabama
Christ was always a part of Christmas in Plantersville. Whether we were at home, at church, or even at school, the story of the Virgin Birth was told through the words of the book of Matthew. In those days, winter holidays
were unheard of; we had Christmas break,
and everyone in town went to one of the three Christian churches on the tree-lined town square. Each year, our tree was decorated in the same silver icicles and familiar twinkling lights. Though the manger scene underneath its branches was rearranged daily, the baby Jesus was always front and center.
The days leading up to my eighth Christmas didn’t feel any different from the days that led up to my first seven. We’d cut down a tree and placed it in the same corner of the house. The smell of fresh-cut pine and the sticky, fallen needles gave us permission to start dreaming of the toys Santa would soon bring. Christmas was predictable in its traditions. So was Santa.
But this Christmas would be different. During my third-grade gift exchange, the model car I’d brought from home wasn’t the biggest or fanciest gift, but it was received with a big smile and an enthusiastic Thank you!
However, when it was my turn to open a present, I was disappointed to see that mine came from Arthur. Everyone knew Arthur’s family struggled to put food on the table. His clothes were patched, and his shoes were worn. While I was saddened that I wouldn’t be getting a new toy, I vowed not to let it show. I knew that whatever Arthur gave me was more than his family could afford.
Arthur must have felt as awkward as I did when I lifted the lid and saw the Life Savers. My gift wasn’t even a toy; it was candy! My classmates held their breaths as they waited to see how I’d react. My favorite!
I said, popping one into my mouth. Everyone smiled; Arthur’s grin was the biggest of all.
I was genuinely thankful for Arthur’s gift. I felt sorry for him; it had to be hard to be poor.
dingbatThis year I would not be sitting on Santa’s lap at Woolworth’s Five and Dime. At eight, I was too old for that. Instead, my brother, Tim, and I decided a letter would accomplish the same purpose. We gathered at the kitchen table, pencils and paper in hand, to salivate over the catalogs of possibilities. In our letters, not only did we tell Santa in great detail what we wanted, but we also informed him that it had been a good year—we’d mostly obeyed our parents, and we hadn’t fought too much.
We also reminded him of how hard we’d worked.
At this time, Dad was the only one with a paying job. Mom took care of us, tended the garden, and canned fruits and vegetables so we would have food through the winter. Money was especially tight that year. My parents had scraped together everything they could to buy an old schoolhouse that was being demolished. The plan was to use the scrap brick and wood to build a new home for our growing family. But their meager savings weren’t enough. Without borrowing money, they couldn’t afford the ramshackle building, and without the salvaged materials, they’d never be able to afford to build a new house. So though they loathed doing it, they’d borrowed from the bank.
Since there wasn’t money available to hire help, it was up to my brother and me to salvage the building materials. Tim and I pitched in, cleaning old bricks, pulling nails from scrap wood, and sorting usable lumber from boards that were warped beyond use. Then, in their spare time (which wasn’t much), my dad and grandfather used the reclaimed materials to build our new home. Tim and I helped when we could. Surely, this would earn us extra favor from Santa.
On Christmas Day, I was the first one up. But tradition and respect said I shouldn’t approach the tree with the waiting pile of presents unless my siblings were with me. I woke Tim and Cathy, which wasn’t hard. They were as excited as I was to find out how much loot we’d each scored from the man with the white beard.
The three of us raced to the living room where the tree stood. But we came to an abrupt stop when we saw the unexpected. The pile of presents under the tree wasn’t a pile at all. In fact, there were only two gifts: one with Cathy’s name on it and one with Tim’s name.
Where are all the presents?
Tim asked, disappointed at the meager offerings under the tree.
Oh, these are for me!
Cathy squealed as she spotted a couple of dime-store dolls propped against the right side of the tree.
Tim’s question hung in the air, but he moved on. Army men!
he shouted, spotting the green figurines on the left.
On the tree, I saw a large envelope with my name on it. But that was it. There were no more presents in sight. Had Santa hidden them? Was there a clue inside the envelope?
Cathy cooed over her dolls, and in Tim’s voice, I heard a general yelling for a soldier to get in line.
I pulled the letter out of the envelope, my hands shaking in anticipation, or maybe just fear. The letter was written on the same kind of paper I’d written my letter to Santa, but this time it was from him to me.
Dear Reggie,
the letter began. Oddly, it was penned in my mother’s familiar scrawl. The BB gun you got for your birthday was also for Christmas. Sorry that Santa can’t bring you anything else this year. Next year will be better. Remember, your parents love you very much. Santa.
Shocked, I did what any eight-year-old would do. I burst into tears and sobbed uncontrollably.
Of course, I remembered the gun. I’d asked for it so I could help shoot squirrels to feed the family. As farmers, we grew our food—and as hunters, we shot it. I needed that gun to do my part. Looking again at the tearstained letter, I remembered Dad saying a gun was an expensive gift, but somehow they had been able to afford it. But now, on Christmas Day, as my brother and sister held their new toys and stared at me, I had to try to understand how Santa, with all his resources, couldn’t afford anything for me. I threw myself on the sofa and sobbed louder.
My parents woke at the sound and rushed to the living room. I stopped crying long enough to catch my breath. As I did, I saw them look at each other, and then they began whispering.
I didn’t think he would be so hurt,
Mom said. I never got Christmas presents when I was growing up.
I didn’t see this coming either,
my father said.
At that, I wailed louder. They didn’t understand. I wasn’t hurt just by my lack of presents; I was hurt that my older sister and younger brother both got presents. Why would Santa get something for them, but not for me? Even Arthur could afford Life Savers. Couldn’t Santa have gotten me something?
I buried my head in the pillow and continued to cry. Mom sat next to me on the couch and rubbed my back. When I was all cried out, I rolled onto my side and looked up at her. Why?
I asked. Why was I the only one who didn’t get a present?
Mom suddenly got up and went into another