What's a Girl Gotta Do?
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Meet Robin Hudson. Dumped by her husband, she’s been demoted to third-string reporter at New York’s All News Network. Her downstairs neighbor thinks she’s a hooker. Louise Bryant, her finicky cat, refuses to chow down on anything but stir-fry. Now Robin’s being blackmailed by a late-night caller who knows her childhood nickname and other personal stuff, like whom she gave her virginity to. What could be worse?
Being the prime suspect in the bludgeoning death of her mystery caller—that’s what. In life, he was a PI who had the skinny on everyone. Now, while Robin is undercover investigating a suspicious sperm bank, she must also find the killer and clear her name. In her downtime, she’s amusing herself with her hot new boy toy, who may not be Mr. Right but could be Mr. Close Enough. When someone else is murdered, Robin races to break the story before she makes headlines again—as the next victim.
The Robin Hudson Mystery series is a winner of the Sherlock Award for Best Comic Detective.
What's a Girl Gotta Do? is the 1st book in the Robin Hudson Mysteries, but you may enjoy reading the series in any order.
Sparkle Hayter
Sparkle Hayter has been a journalist for CNN and other news organizations, a stringer in Afghanistan, a producer in Bollywood, a stand-up comic in New York, a caretaker for an elderly parent in Canada, and a novelist of seven books. And some other things that are kind of a blur now. The first novel in her Robin Hudson Mystery series, What’s a Girl Gotta Do?, is the recipient of the Crime Writers of Canada’s Arthur Ellis Award for best first mystery novel, and the series is a winner of the Sherlock Award for Best Comic Detective. Hayter’s articles have been published in numerous newspapers and magazines, including the New York Times, the Nation, and New Woman. She currently lives in Canada with her rescued Nepali street dog, Alice, and is working on a new book.
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- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5This was a fun, relatively light read--I gave it an immediate 4 stars as I indeed "really liked it," but as it hasn't quite stayed with me (as I think a 4-starrer should) I've since downgraded it to "liked it" which I can stand by. Cosy, but not too cosy, some fun characters, very chick-lit as far as mysteries go, and I'd be perfectly happy to read another one in the series... but haven't, because I'm devouring the Dandy Gilver series which are more to my taste.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Robin Hudson is a TV journalist for an all-news network who, after a series of unfortunate mishaps, has been relegated to the Special Reports section working for the office sleaze, Jerry Spurdle. She's in the midst of a divorce from a rival newsman who had an affair with her co-worker, but when she receives a phone call from an anonymous P.I. threatening to expose all the embarrassing information her co-workers don't already know about her, she agrees to show up to the company NYE party to receive instructions for buying his silence. She never meets with the man because he's murdered before she gets the chance and circumstances make her look like a good suspect. I tag this book cozy, but it isn't. It's a murder mystery with a strong female character, edgy situations and language, but nothing explicitly violent or graphic. Robin Hudson is a "rumpled Rita Hayworth" in looks, but still easily a woman other women can identify with; she balances competence with anxiety and an intimidating defensiveness with a genuine desire to do the right thing and be a nice person. She grows poison ivy around all her windows and on top of all her valuables so if she's robbed, the police can identify the culprit by the rash they'll be sporting. Robin is a great heroine. Set in a gritty, 1980's NYC that feels incredibly authentic, the mystery is really well done. Plenty of suspects and no telegraphing of the villain. At least one red herring. This is a slower paced mystery than most of the ones I read today; I have cozies that have more "action" but the pace doesn't lag and the author knows and shares enough about the TV news industry that I never felt impatient to move the story along. This is the first of 5 books in the Robin Hudson series and I'm glad I kept these on the shelf; I enjoyed this second read at least as much as I enjoyed it the first time and I'd recommend it to anyone who likes a mystery that's just this side of cozy.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Wise-cracking amateur gumshoe reporter Robin Hudson is on the chase for a killer before he strikes again.The thing is, I still sort of believed in love. I was kind of agnostic about love, actually, but I hadn’t lost all hope completely. I was waiting for the feminist wet dream, Spencer Tracy. And while I was waiting, great looks and a great bod could tide me over nicely.-Sparkle Hayter (What’s a Girl To Do p 70)In fact, I am a slob. I admit it. It’s not that I’m a lazy person. I tend to workaholism and when I do clean, I clean compulsively, unable to stop until the place is completely spotless. But housework just seems so insignificant and, as men have always known, there’s always something better to do. I haven’t read Moby Dick yet. I haven’t seen Fellini’s Satyricon. There are dozens of countries in the world about which I know nothing and billions of people I haven’t yet met.-Sparkle Hayter (What’s a Girl To Do p 139)There is Murphy’s Law and there are Robin’s Amendments. Number one. The guy with the biggest tub of popcorn and nosiest eating habits will always sit directly behind me in a movie theater (or else a hearing-impaired foreign national with his translator, so that every line of on-screen dialogue is repeated in loud German). Number two. The amount a man adores me is roughly equal to the number of his faults. Number three. When I’m already running late, something will inevitably happen to make me even later.-Sparkle Hayter (What’s a Girl To Do p 145-6)Burke, after surveying my umbrella, my poison ivy, and my spray colon spiked with cayenne pepper, once asked me if there was anything that couldn’t be a weapon if it fell into my hands. The only thing I could think of was Jell-O. “To you the world is just full of weapons, isn’t it?” he said. Yep, and the world is just full of reasons to use them, I thought now, as I left the store, prepared in my heart to bludgeon a man to death with a coffee can if necessary.-Sparkle Hayter (What’s a Girl To Do p 200)
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5My friend insisted that I read this book quite some time ago... I bought it right away, but then it just kind of sat around. It really shouldn't have taken me this long to get around to taking her advice!
It's a light-hearted, humorous murder mystery... but I have to admit that, for me, what really made it shine wasn't the plot but its spot-on depiction of the New York City that I moved to. The book was published in 1994 and set shortly before then. The main character, Robin Hudson, lives in the East Village and works as a struggling reporter [the recommending friend and I both lived in the same neighborhood and worked in the media field at that time as well...] Robin's a bit older than I was at the time - but that just means that I think I actually enjoyed it more, reading it now, than I would have if I'd found it when it first came out.
When we're introduced to Robin, she's admittedly at a low point. Her husband has just left her for a younger woman. She's made two embarrassing gaffes at work that mean she's been demoted from high-profile journalism to Special Reports (in one case, this mean going undercover for an expose of a sperm bank). And to top it all off, she's now been contacted by a mysterious caller who seems to have blackmail in mind. But when the potential blackmailer turns up dead at her office costume party ("dress as your favorite news story" [ah, for the days when tasteless Halloween costumes were de rigueur!]), suddenly Robin's no longer the one reporting the news; she's the one in the news - as a murder suspect. Will she be able to clear her name and find out who's behind the plot?
As I said - it needs to be read to truly realize how funny the book is. It's just got so many devastatingly accurate details, all delivered with wit. I found the attitude refreshing - and as sparkling as the author's name... like reading a glass of bubbly.
It also made me really nostalgic for a whole social milieu that just isn't there any more... yeah, there were crappy parts of that time period, but in a way, it was mine... so yeah, definitely going to go ahead and find the other books in this series. - Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5A great tongue-in-cheek look at a CNN-type news organization. Fun characters, fun plot and an ending I suspected but didn't feel was telegraphed in any way. I really liked Robin - just nuts enough to seem human.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Down these mean streets a goil must muddle in this acute, funny hard-boiled novel that introduces Robin Hudson, a klutzy TV journalist who is sucked into murder mystery through a knowingly absurd collection of coincidences. The interim mysteries are too rapidly resolved: sundty prefigurings are explained within a few pages but the key plot point is a satisfying surprise and the pace is so hectic that the pages just keep turning. Robin's domestic circumstances are as entertaining as the crime and her sassy attitude combines an appealling vulnerability with the hardened cynicism of any 1930s Californian PI. A stylish debut.
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What's a Girl Gotta Do? - Sparkle Hayter
Chapter One
ON THE LAST DAY of the year, I got this weird phone call. It’s not every day a dame like me gets a call from a mysterious stranger.
Well, actually, it is almost every day. I’m a reporter and I get a lot of phone calls from mysterious strangers, most of whom are clearly a few bees short of a hive. It’s a fact of my life.
But it’s not every day I get a call at home from a mysterious stranger who knows my childhood nickname, Red Knobby, something very few people know, I assure you. He knew my childhood nickname, he knew my mother’s medical history, he even knew when and to whom I’d lost my cherry in high school.
So I knew this guy wasn’t just another conspiracy buff calling up with a wild theory, claiming to have evidence
of a link between freemasonry and Lee Harvey Oswald or some other scandal that was going to rock our republic to its very roots. This guy knew some strange stuff about me, and when he said he was a private investigator and wanted to meet to give me the rest of a report he’d done on me, it naturally piqued my interest.
I tried to get as much information from him as I could over the phone, of course, but he was a tough nut to crack. He wouldn’t tell me why he was investigating me, or who hired him to investigate me. To every question, he answered, simply, Meet me at the Marfeles Palace Hotel tonight. I’ll find you.
My company was having its New Year’s Eve party that night at the Marfeles in midtown Manhattan.
I hung up the phone and asked myself: Who would investigate me, Robin Hudson, a lowly, third-string correspondent at the All News Network with a floundering career and a failed marriage? Sure, my estranged husband and I were divorcing, and I won’t kid you, I was angry with him and I was hurt. But I’d agreed to the divorce and I wasn’t seeking alimony. It wasn’t like Burke had any need to dig up dirt on me and it wasn’t like there was much dirt to be dug up. What could this mystery man find?
But I have secrets, like everyone else, embarrassing secrets I’d just rather people didn’t know about me, and I was especially vulnerable to embarrassment at the moment. See, the last six months of the year weren’t very good for me.
In July, a faux pas at a White House news conference effectively ended my brief career as a Washington correspondent. Shortly after that, another faux pas, involving a cannibalism story, sent me into TV news Siberia, the Special Reports unit. Murphy’s Law, right? Once my career was pretty much destroyed, my husband, Burke Avery, left me for another woman, and not just any woman but a much younger woman.
In light of all this, what could anyone dig up that would possibly make me feel or look worse? Well, there were a few other humiliating incidents I’d like to leave behind me, thank you very much, and a few shameful acts I don’t want the whole world to know about.
So I’d meet the guy at the Marfeles that night. The location was good; there’d be a lot of people at the ANN party to make me feel safer, just in case the guy was some kind of sicko who wanted to get me alone in an underground parking garage, Deep Throat—style, to rape and flay me.
The ANN New Year’s Eve party was an annual apocalyptic event, a costume ball where employees dress up as their favorite news story and generally get wrecked. This year was our tenth anniversary and the theme was a salute to ten years of twenty-four-hour television news, a very big deal.
Yet, before I got that phone call, I planned to skip it. Why? Maybe because my estranged husband was going to be there. Maybe because he was coming with Miss Amy Penny.
Miss Amy Penny. During her relatively brief life thus far, Miss Amy Penny had done a lot. As co-host of ANN’s Gotham Salon, a morning magazine show, she provided a steady diet of celebrity news, fashion guidance, and other soft features for homemakers who’d taken the Mommy Track.
Before becoming a television personality
(which may or may not be an oxymoron), she was a Miss Mason-Dixon Line and a TV and trade show spokesmodel for that upscale, low-dust baby powder, Gentility. You may remember their ad campaign two years ago, the one where a woman with caramel-colored hair and big tits lolled around on a beige carpet with a baby-for-hire and two of those little wrinkled-up dogs, Shar-Peis. Amy was the one with the big tits.
All this, plus the fact that she aspired to serious journalism,
I learned from a recent, half-page, kissy-face article in People, which failed to include the accomplishment most pertinent to my own life: She’d managed to break up my marriage.
Miss Amy Penny. Just the sound of her name was enough to burn a hole in the lining of my stomach. I’d seen her around the network and caught a few episodes of her program but, as Burke worked for a rival station, I’d never had to see her on the arm of my husband before. Friends of Amy’s made sure I knew they’d be there. Presumably, they thought I’d opt to avoid further humiliation and take a pass on the party, which had made sense to me. But then the guy called and I changed my mind.
As the ANN party was a costume party, I toyed for a while with the idea of going as Ronald Reagan’s colon, a story that had special meaning for me. But in the end (no pun intended), I opted for something simpler and less offensive, as one of my New Year’s resolutions was to try to offend fewer people in the next decade and thereby escape from the century with my life. I decided to go as Ginny Foat, a prominent feminist tried for murder and acquitted in 1983. On a practical note, it was easy to put together. All I had to do was wear a Support Your Local Feminist
button and carry a tire iron around.
It felt oddly appropriate to me. Maybe because my estranged husband was going to be at the party. Maybe because he was bringing Miss Amy Penny.
Understandably, it took some serious motivational exercises to get up my courage to go. I poured myself a glass of lemon Stoly on the rocks, put some music on, and sat down with my ancient, battle-scarred cat, Louise Bryant, in our favorite armchair. Together, Louise Bryant and I pondered the comforting lyrics of our favorite postmarriage song, Nancy Sinatra’s These Boots Are Made for Walking.
I don’t know why but this ritual, that song, and the act of hitting the palm of my hand gently with my tire iron seemed to bring order to my thoughts. A kind of serenity came over me and I found the nerve to go.
Murphy’s Law again. When I got outside my apartment building, I ran into my downstairs neighbor, Mrs. Ramirez, an eighty-year-old bully with a blue rinse, who was out walking her high-strung Chihuahua, Señor. God, I hate those dogs. They look like rats with a glandular problem, they’re dumber than a sack of hammers, and they’re bad-tempered—a horror movie just waiting to happen. What is the attraction?
In Mrs. Ramirez’s case I could kind of see it, though, because she and the dog shared the same snappish temperament. Not all old people are sweet and wise. Even assholes grow old. Mrs. Ramirez, for instance, has this nasty habit of cornering me in the elevator, calling me a whore, and rapping my head with her cane. She complains constantly about me to the landlord, the super, and the few good Catholics left in our East Village neighborhood. If she wasn’t so damned old, I’d press charges.
With Señor’s leash in one hand and her carved cane in the other, she shuffled towards me menacingly. "I couldn’t sleep last night because of you!"
I’m always really sweet when I talk to her. It’s kind of an experiment. I’m trying out that kill-them-with-kindness theory.
Hello, Mrs. Ramirez!
I said, smiling angelically. How’s your little friend Señor? And how are you?
Still got that very large, very rough stick up your ass?
"You had a big party last night! I was up all night!"
I didn’t have a party. I watched a movie and went to bed.
"I heard dancing!"
Mrs. Ramirez’s problem, as I’ve tried to explain to her 354 times, is that her hearing aid is turned up too high, amplifying the noise in my apartment, which is above hers. The sound of a cap popping off a soda bottle sounds like the crack of a whip to her. When my cat, Louise Bryant, walks across the floor, Mrs. Ramirez thinks there’s a naked mambo party going on upstairs and multiple commandments are being repeatedly and cavalierly broken.
"I was watching Top Hat, I said.
The volume was way down."
It sounded like you had the Rockettes up there! It was so loud it scared me. I had to take a nitroglycerin pill. Next time, I’m calling the police.
Please call the police next time, Mrs. Ramirez. Have them come up and arrest the Rockettes,
I said.
I’ll call them now!
she said.
Suddenly, she picked up her cane and waved it at me. I held up my tire iron to ward off the blow. This was great. Get into a sword fight with an old woman in the middle of the street. Try to convince the police when they came that I had to bean a frail eighty-year-old lady with my tire iron in self-defense. I turned and started walking away from her fast.
You young people have no respect. You’re all going to get AIDS and die,
she said, as if that were a just punishment for lack of respect. Then she shuffled brusquely past me with Señor, who belatedly picked up Louise Bryant’s scent and began yapping.
The glittering Marfeles Palace, a restored beaux arts building turned into a hotel and run by the imperious Eloise Marfeles, would normally be way out of ANN’s price range, which was more along the lines of a Knights of Columbus bingo hall.
But Eloise Marfeles had defied centuries of superstition by allowing her building to have a thirteenth floor. No sooner had she opened the previous autumn than bad luck visited her with a vengeance. Fires broke out, unions staged job actions, elevators got stuck between floors, and other mishaps occurred almost daily. The tabloids were having a field day with it and business was bad.
As a result, ANN got a real deal on the place—the ballroom and a block of rooms on the thirteenth floor for use by company personnel the night of the party. For her part, Eloise Marfeles got a lot of cheap publicity out of ANN and a chance to debunk the superstition.
When I got there, I hesitated in the doorway and, with mixed feelings of curiosity and dread, scanned the crowd. Around me Dan Quayles, Jeffrey Dahmers, and Long Dong Silvers mingled with Hillary Clintons, Boris Yeltsins, giant condoms, and giant Tylenol capsules.
Frannie Millard, a robust matron done up as Margaret Thatcher, grabbed my arm and said, Robin Hudson.
Yes.
I’m in charge of name tags tonight. Not everyone wants to wear one, but I hope you won’t give me a hard time about it.
What a drag, having to work at the party,
I said, as she pinned me for easy identification.
I like helping out,
she said efficiently and left me for three members of the Standards & Practices division, also known as the network censors, a.k.a. the court eunuchs.
An ancient panic grabbed me as I stared into the social chaos ahead: Who would I hang out with? Tonight I needed a comfortable cordon of friendship to protect me both from mysterious strangers and from humiliation by my husband. I looked around for someone I recognized, someone sympathetic, and saw Louis Levin heading towards me. Louis was a news producer and a paraplegic and he had done his wheelchair up as an electric chair, complete with a leather and metal helmet.
Hey, little girl,
he said. Wanna sit in my lap and play with Mister Microphone?
Who are you supposed to be?
Ted Bundy.
He pushed a button and smoke came out of the helmet.
You are an evil genius, Louis.
Thanks. Who are you?
Ginny Foat. Say, Louis, have you seen my husband sliming around tonight?
Not that I know of,
he said. What’s he coming as?
I dunno. I couldn’t find out.
I did see your second favorite person,
he said. Jerry Spurdle.
What did he come as?
Himself.
He came as a bucket of larvae?
Spurdle was my boss in the Special Reports unit. I belonged
to Jerry Spurdle, as he liked to remind me. He was part of my humiliation, my punishment, my artistic suffering.
No. He came as Richard Nixon,
Louis said. He came as a dick. Get it?
Har har,
I said slowly. Just like Jerry to pick a story that was over before the network ever went on the air.
An exclusive radio interview with Nixon in 1972 had made his reputation—Jerry’s, not Nixon’s—and he liked to remind people of it.
I’m sitting with some of the writers,
Louis said. Why don’t you join us?
Bless you. I will—later. First, I think I’ll do some recon. Map out all the people I want to avoid.
And try to make contact with my mystery man.
Come sit with us. We’re up in the balcony,
he said, and motored away.
I circulated, waiting for the man who knew my secrets to approach me, while at the same time keeping an eye out for Burke and Amy.
This being a costume party, it was hard to tell who was who without reading name tags. Everyone was in disguise with a few highly visible exceptions, including Dr. Solange Stevenson, ANN’s psychologist with a talk show, whose only nod to whimsy was a photo button showing her rival, Dr. Sonya Friedman, with a large red X through her face. Also not in costume, our fearless leader, Georgia Jack Jackson, chairman of the board of Jackson Broadcasting System, our parent company.
Solange was simply too dignified to wear a costume (the soothing Solange Stevenson
—TV Guide). But dignity was something Georgia Jack didn’t worry about too much. Since he considered himself his favorite news story he came as … himself. Legitimately, I might add. In the 1980s Georgia Jack unleashed an entertainment empire on the world, built a twenty-four-hour news network against the odds, dated half the women in the Screen Actors Guild, and created a great deal of controversy by buying up classic silent films and adding sound and dialogue to them, which filmmakers decried as mutilation.
Jackson was huddled at one end of the ballroom with the cream of the correspondents, the mediacrats, the cool kids at the prom who excited my envy.
The network’s premier anchor and talk-show host, avuncular
Greg Browner, was dressed this night as an MX missile. Greg was a prince of the Jack Jackson church, and ruled an autonomous fiefdom within the kingdom. His highly rated call-in show had taken on Larry King and made a respectable showing. Greg then moved his show up an hour to beat King to the punch, and was taking away huge chunks of the traditional call-in audience.
Next to him was dispassionate and professional
Joanne Armoire, dressed as the late great Lucy. Beneath her red wig, Joanne was blond and beautiful in a Lufthansa stewardess sort of way. Her career had been meteoric. She’d been one of the few Western women to go into Afghanistan with the mujahedin and she’d taken a bullet in her leg when she was covering the ethnic war in Sarajevo.
This is who I thought I would be: a brave, trench-coated figure, looking serious and beautiful, standing in a war zone in some picturesque country, bringing the world my own brilliant and illuminating insights on the news. I saw myself as a hardhitting correspondent, taking on world leaders, asking them tough questions, Oriana Fallaci in Rita Hayworth’s body, bad men cowering and good men swooning in my wake.
That’s who I thought I would be. This is who I am: a slightly rumpled, third-string reporter with ink stains on all her blouses and a small run in her stocking, who sneaks around with a hidden camera looking for seamy stories and petty scandals. The National Enquirer—in Rita Hayworth’s body.
Joanne and I had started out at ANN around the same time, in similar lowly positions, and we had both been writers for Greg Browner when he was the anchor and managing editor for the six o’clock. Her hitch on the six had gone somewhat better than mine, in small part, at least, because she knew how to handle Greg’s constant advances and his big ego. She knew when to speak, when to hold her tongue, and how to be diplomatic.
I did not. I told Greg to go fuck himself and was promptly given a new assignment—a better assignment, actually—another report on my bad attitude
comfortably ensconced in my thick personnel file.
I watched Joanne trade bon mots with Mark O’Malley, a devilishly handsome business reporter wearing a barrel marked 1987 stock market crash,
and Tom Charing, who wore an upright open coffin and a bad suit with a hammer and sickle on the lapel to represent a generic dead Soviet leader. Off to the side was Madri Michaels, a brunet anchorwoman with a premolded plastic kind of beauty who came as Madonna, wearing Mylar. So obvious.
These were the reporters and anchors who always dominated the A block—the first ten minutes or so of a news show—and brought prestige and respect to ANN. The Pantheon. They took risks, they knew how to use their sources, and they knew how to tell an exciting story. Because of this, they had considerable influence with lawmakers all over the world. Everything they did, everything they said, every movement of their heads, every earnest furrow on their brows said Emmy.
God, I wanted to be one of them.
The pathetic thing is, I had been well on my way. I’d had the crime and justice beat, covering big Manhattan murder trials and other cases for the network. It was a second-string beat, but I didn’t mind. It fascinated me and I knew it could lead to bigger and better things.
Then I got my big break. I was sent to D.C. on a temporary assignment to fill in as weekend White House correspondent. All right. It was only weekends and it was only fill-in, but it was that all-important foot in the door to the Washington power establishment—and the big stories. I could have parlayed that into a regular spot in the A block, guest appearances as a panelist on Brinkley, a column in the Washington Journalism Review, a Maxwell House commercial.
But I had this little problem, you see. I couldn’t seem to keep myself from fucking things up.
After half an hour of mingling, nobody had approached me and I was beginning to think the guy who called me was just an old high school boyfriend playing a practical joke. Old high school boyfriends. There’s a depressing subject. I needed a drink.
Traditionally, the New Year’s drink at ANN parties was Jonestown Punch, which was not only in bad taste but was bad tasting, a sickening, strong concoction of grape juice and vodka. That was free. Anything else you wanted you had to pay for at the cash bar.
Which is where I found Jerry, one arm over the bar, his Richard Nixon mask pulled down around his neck, trying to offend a young bartender/actress.
I stood behind him and heard him say, I’ll have a slow screw up against the wall. Know what that is?
The bartender gave him a shriveling look.
Sloe gin, OJ, and Galliano,
she said.
That’s Jerry for you. He drinks slow screws, a drink whose only purpose is to shock cocktail waitresses and lady bartenders. So out of touch, that Jerry. Doesn’t know that the new generation of drinks—Sex on the Beach, Safe Sex, Oral Sex, Orgasms—makes the old slow screw quaint and old-fashioned.
He didn’t see me standing behind him, so he proceeded unwisely.
I’m well hung,
he said to the skeptical brunet. Oh, I apologize. I suffer from a mild case of Tourette’s syndrome. Do you know that disease? It makes me tell the truth all the time.
He thought he was so funny. The woman just stared at him.
Just a mild case. I’m a producer. I could get you a job in TV. Nine inches. Oh, there I go again.
Yes, all Jerry’s best lines sounded like they’d been picked up from liars in locker rooms. I wanted to tap him on the shoulder and say something smartass—I was spoiling for a fight—but Burke was going to be here later and I was saving myself for him.
Anyway, the lady could take care of herself.
Get away from me, or I’ll call security,
she hissed.
Jerry turned and saw me there.
He hated that I’d just witnessed his humiliation at the hands of a female.
Look, it’s another member of the PMS Sewing Circle,
he said, as he pulled his Richard Nixon mask up over his face and pushed past me.
I could tell he was really drunk, otherwise he’d never have had the nerve to talk to a pretty young woman like the bartender. Jerry has this little problem relating to women, you see. It’s a very common problem. When he’s sober and he comes face to face with a woman in a social setting, he tends to become focused on her breasts and can’t look her in the eye. If she moves from side to side, his head moves from side to side too, like a dog watching a tennis ball.
I ordered a shot of lemon Stoly and downed it with a grimace and then grabbed a plate of hors d’oeuvres and went up to the balcony area overlooking the dance floor. Louis waved me over to a table by the railing.
There were about a dozen writers crammed around the rectangular table, one in Woody Allen wig and glasses clutching a doll, another as a giant condom made of papier-mâché, complete with ribbing and reservoir tip, the whole thing articulated into segments so the wearer could bend and sit. The rest were a mixed bag of Scud missiles, presidential pets, the usual buffoonish congressmen.
They looked up and said hi, and then resumed an argument I’d apparently interrupted on the moral imperatives of Bewitched.
Look at it as an allegory about marriage,
Helen Lalo said. "This young woman comes into her marriage with exceptional abilities, which her husband tries to stifle. He tries to make her conform, to sacrifice her natural gifts, her specialness. Endora, on the other hand, encourages her daughter to express her special talents."
I couldn’t get into this conversation, so I sat down and watched people waltzing on the dance floor below, waiting for my anonymous source to make himself known. Just then, my husband danced into view with Miss Amy Penny.
What a cute couple—Burke as Oliver North and Amy as Fawn Hall. I thought maybe Donald Trump and Marla Maples or Jimmy Swaggart and a generic truck-stop prostitute might be more appropriate costume couplings. But even as I was sneering, I felt a painful twinge. Burke looked really good, like a younger, shorter, blonder Peter Jennings, and that snappy marine uniform didn’t hurt a bit.
Burke was a lucky guy. With his sunny looks, he could only age well. As a woman, I fought crow’s-feet, but no crow’s-feet for him. Unh-unh. What he had, the television columnists called an endearing correspondent’s squint.
My worry lines robbed me of a little bit of youth and diminished my on-air worthiness, but his gave Burke a look of authority. Personally, I think the best revenge is aging well, and in that respect, Burke had me beat, hands down.
I was quite sure young women would always find him attractive, young women like Miss Amy Penny, who sparkled tonight as Fawn Hall. Unaware that I was watching, she looked up at him as they danced and he looked back and their eyes glistened, full of each other. They looked like they were in love, but I couldn’t