The Evening Hour: A Novel
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Most of the wealth in Dove Creek, West Virginia, is in the earth-in the coal seams that have provided generations with a way of life. Born and raised here, twenty-seven-year-old Cole Freeman has sidestepped work as a miner to become an aide in a nursing home. He's got a shock of bleached blond hair and a gentle touch well suited to the job. He's also a drug dealer, reselling the prescription drugs his older patients give him to a younger crowd looking for different kinds of escape.
In this economically depressed, shifting landscape, Cole is floundering. The mining corporation is angling to buy the Freeman family's property, and Cole's protests only feel like stalling. Although he has often dreamed of leaving, he has a sense of duty to this land, especially after the death of his grandfather. His grandfather is not the only loss: Cole's one close friend, Terry Rose, has also slipped away from him, first to marriage, then to drugs. While Cole alternately attempts romance with two troubled women, he spends most of his time with the elderly patients at the home, desperately trying to ignore the decay of everything and everyone around him. Only when a disaster befalls these mountains is Cole forced to confront his fears and, finally, take decisive action-if not to save his world, to at least save himself.
The Evening Hour marks the powerful debut of a writer who brings originality, nuance, and an incredible talent for character to an iconic American landscape in the throes of change.
Carter Sickels
Carter Sickels, a graduate of the MFA program at Pennsylvania State University, was awarded fellowships to Bread Loaf Writers' Conference, the Sewanee Writers' Conference, and the MacDowell Colony. After living for a decade in New York City, Sickels left to earn a master's degree in folklore at the University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill. He now lives in Portland, Oregon.
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The Evening Hour - Carter Sickels
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Part One
Chapter 1
Cole double-locked the trailer door behind him, then stood on the top rickety step for a moment, still waking up. Gunmetal sky, with the faintest hint of light rippling at the edges. There was a tight chill in the air on this early April morning, and he shuddered, rubbing his bare arms. The air smelled like sulfur and scorched earth.
He started his pickup, let it warm up a minute. He’d just bought the Chevy off his twin cousins. Piece of shit. Busted taillight. A rusted-out hole in the floor of the passenger side that he covered with cardboard, so that dust and gravel didn’t shoot up into the cab.
Instead of heading out, he drove up to his grandparents’. The lights were on, blazing yellow squares beckoning him. He knew his grandmother would be up. She didn’t sleep much; Cole was the same way. He saw her looking out the kitchen window, her pale moony face always worried.
The house was warm and smelled like frying bacon. Cole wiped his feet on the welcome mat and tightened the drawstring waist of his scrubs, which were too big for him, the cuffs spilling over his black hightops. He glanced at himself in the mirror by the front door. It had been a late night, and he looked rough. Three-day-old beard, beak of a nose, thick lips. Goat eyes small and sleepy. His scruffy, bleached-out hair made him look like somebody else.
I’ve got breakfast ready,
his grandmother greeted him.
I can’t stay. I got to get to work.
In pictures from her youth, his grandmother was thin and willowy, but he’d only ever known her as stout, with sausage-link fingers and doughy flesh. Her hair, in a bun, was the color of gravel. This morning she wore a button-down denim shirt pulled over a thin housecoat and mint green slippers, her white-as-bone ankles thick and swollen like they’d been injected with something.
Pshaw,
she protested, pinching his arm. You set and eat, put some meat on those bones.
Grandma, I just stopped in for a minute.
She was studying him. Well, I see you did that foolishness to your hair again.
It’ll grow back.
He added defiantly, Anyway, I like it.
I don’t know why you’d want to mess with its natural color. If God wanted you to have blond hair, he would have given it to you.
Well, anyway. I just come by to check on Granddaddy.
Yesterday she had called to tell him that his grandfather was throwing a fit; Cole hadn’t listened to the message until he rolled in at three a.m. Sorry I couldn’t get over here last night,
he added.
You’re hard to get a hold of.
You could call my cell when I’m not at home.
I thought you said it doesn’t work.
Doesn’t, most of the time.
Cole glanced at the clock on the wall. He should have just gone straight to work. Well, is he okay? How is he?
He’s all right now. Rebecca and Larry came over last night to help get him settled down.
She shook her head. It was the blasting. Lord, he thought it was the end of the world, you never heard such carrying on,
she said angrily. You smell the sulfur?
Yeah, I figured.
Whenever the coal company blasted the mountain, the walls of Cole’s trailer trembled, the floors vibrated. His friends told him to take the money and run. The other day he’d found rocks the size of basketballs in his yard.
His grandmother’s eyes darkened behind the thick lenses of her glasses. You look at what they’ve done.
He followed her through the sparsely decorated house. Nothing hung on the walls save a few family pictures and framed Bible inscriptions. Cole’s grandfather believed that austerity led to a clean, healthy soul.
In the hallway she pointed out the jagged cracks.
Maybe I can patch that up,
Cole said.
You can’t patch nothing up. It’s not just the walls. They’ve done ruined the foundation. This house is sinking.
His grandmother logged the time and details of every blast in a legal pad, the chart now a dozen pages long. This seemed to give her some kind of satisfaction and hope, even if it was a waste of time, just like all the calls she’d made to government agencies.
Cole traced the cracks in the wall. They ran up from the floor, broke off, then spread near the ceiling, splintered and spidery like the lines in his own hands. It’s nothing that can’t be fixed,
he said.
His grandfather was asleep in the La-Z-Boy, one side of his face frozen from a stroke a few years ago. He’d also had what the doctor called mini strokes,
which did not alter his face but ate away at his brain like acid. Every day he said fewer words. Dementia, similar to Alzheimer’s,
said the slick doctor in Charleston, who would not look Cole or his grandmother in the eyes.
When you look at him sleeping like that, he almost looks gentle, don’t he?
Cole agreed that he did and touched his grandfather’s cool waxy brow, but he did not stir, breathing in kittenlike breaths. His thin hair lay in streaks as if painted on. On the stand next to his chair was the King James with its cracked spine, delicate pages. His grandfather no longer read, but sometimes he still opened the Bible and stared at it. He used to quiz Cole on Bible verses. It was the only thing his granddaddy wanted him to learn. Fortunately, Cole was good at memorizing. The verses stayed with him, even now.
But he wasn’t so gentle yesterday,
his grandmother added.
The fits were getting worse. A couple of weeks ago, after a blast went off, he had hurled pots and pans, flipped over furniture. His grandmother had locked herself in the bathroom and called Cole at work. By the time he arrived, the old man was curled up under the kitchen table, shaking like a dog.
I wish you’d take him off that waiting list,
Cole said. If he goes into the nursing home, it’ll be the end of him.
You’ll be there with him. You’ll take care of him.
He can’t go in there.
She looked away. Come on and get a bite to eat.
I gotta go,
he said.
At least let me make you a plate.
Cole followed her into the kitchen. She filled a plate with strips of bacon, scrambled eggs, and biscuits, and poured coffee into a thermos. It was black and steaming. Cole’s granddaddy didn’t even drink coffee, that’s how pure he was.
She handed him the plate, covered in tinfoil, and he thanked her. But before he could head out the door, she stopped him. Rebecca and me talked last night. She wants me to move in with her and Larry.
She took off her glasses and cleaned the lenses on her shirttail. It’s something I’ve got to consider.
He tried to read her expression. About a year ago, when he had asked if she wanted to take the coal company’s latest offer, she said, There’s nowhere else that is home.
He wasn’t surprised about his aunt Rebecca. All three of his aunts had been talking to him about it, but he stood behind his grandmother. Now he said, You’re backing out.
I ain’t,
she snapped. Then, softer, But things are changing. I got a bad feeling about the land. I been having dreams.
Cole gulped the coffee, burning his mouth. He did not want to hear about her dreams and prophecies, all her worry. The only good thing he’d ever done was to stick by the land and the couple who had raised him. Two years ago, his aunts sold off their parcels of land, one by one, and when Cole had said, Well, I’m staying,
his grandfather just looked up at the sky, like he didn’t even hear him.
I’m running late.
Can you take me to church tomorrow?
He shook his head. I can’t.
Well, come out for dinner,
she said. You can bring that girl if you like.
I’m working.
You know what your granddaddy would say about that, working on Sunday.
Cole backed out of the driveway, the thermos of coffee resting between his legs. There was only one road that ran through Rockcamp, and his grandparents’ property, tucked in a hillside, was at the end of it, where the rutted asphalt turned to dirt and cleared land gave way to forest. The twenty acres, now whittled down to fourteen, had originally belonged to Cole’s great-great-grandfather. For over two hundred years the Freemans had been on this land. Cole’s grandparents still lived in the same house where they’d been all of their married lives; his aunts and uncles and cousins used to live on the small plots around them, but they had moved away, spread out across West Virginia and beyond.
Cole lived on a slivered portion of land that would have gone to his mother, if she was around. He drove past his single-wide, which sat close to the road, the hills looming behind it; sometimes when they blasted, the trailer was engulfed in a cloud of dust. The Heritage mining operation up above them had grown to 1,800 acres. It wasn’t like the old days of sending men underground. Now, to get to the layers of coal seams, they blew the tops off the mountains, bringing them down hundreds of feet, and then pushed the rubble into the valleys. It was impossible to grasp the enormity of 1,800 acres. That was almost 1,800 football fields. He’d never seen the site; it was guarded and blocked off, and from here, it looked as if the mountain was still standing. Behind the ridge, it was a different story.
He wondered what his grandmother had seen in her dreams. The Holiness said God gave his people gifts. To another the working of miracles; to another prophecy; to another discerning of spirits; to another divers kinds of tongues; to another the interpretation of tongues. Cole did not have a gift. He did not speak in tongues or handle snakes or see the future. His grandmother said he needed to open himself up to the Holy Ghost. He’d grown up knowing that there was another world beyond this one; there was more than a person could see with just his eyes.
The folds of forested hills, with newly budded trees, rose like giant steeples behind abandoned homes. At the mouth of the holler sat a few trailers where the miners lived. Most everyone else had moved away—pushed out by the blasting, the dust, the flash floods. One old-timer, Floyd Mitchell, still lived in a shotgun shack, him and his toothless dog Sugar.
He approached Route 16, the main road that ran along Dove Creek. The only road that led him out. Turn right, he’d pass by the processing plant, where the coal was cleaned and shipped out across the country. The leftover waste was then pumped into a basin on the mountain and held back by a giant dam. The sludge dam. Out of sight, out of mind. Turn left, he would head in the direction of Stillwell, the only real town in the area; eventually, that way, Route 16 would connect to other roads, which led to highways, which could take him far away from West Virginia.
He turned left. The sky was lighter, a glowing pink in the east, the air warmer. He drove down the mountain with his elbow resting out the open window, his hand lightly guiding the wheel. The craggy land rose up all around him, pressing in on both sides of the road. Plumes of mist spiraled up from the dips and valleys, the ghosts of the Cherokee and mountaineers, his grandmother would say.
He rounded sharp curves and switchbacks, occasionally looking down into a hollow where the houses huddled together like scared children. He drove by dilapidated clapboard homes, deserted churches, shot-up road signs, and little white crosses with plastic flowers commemorating the dead. All of it was as familiar to him as his own skin. Cole had lived here for all of his twenty-seven years, except for a few months after graduation, when he’d moved to Charleston. He used to dream about leaving for good; in high school, he and Terry Rose made up plans to run away and never come back. All of that seemed like a long time ago.
An overloaded coal truck barreled around the bend, coming at him from the opposite direction and sending up sprays of dust, and he quickly rolled up the window and clung to the right side of the road. As they passed each other, the trucker waved, but Cole did not.
He clicked on the radio, sang along with the Eagles’ Desperado,
which the classic rock station played about a dozen times a day. His mouth felt limber, words alert on the tip of his tongue. When he was a boy, his grandfather had prayed for his stuttering to disappear. For the most part, it had, but sometimes when he was tired or nervous, it returned like memory, twisted his tongue in rippled knots.
Just outside of Stillwell he let up on the gas, coasting through the shell of a town, crossing the bridge where Dove Creek spilled into the Cherokee. A hand-painted sign outside of a Freewill Baptist church said Walk by faith, not by sight.
He passed a general store that also advertised a special on tanning, a beauty shop in a double-wide, and an abandoned gas station spray-painted in red: Miners, All It Takes Is Unity,
and Best Wise Up if You Want to Keep a Standard of Living.
Cole pulled into the parking lot and cut the engine. He ate a bite of bacon, but his stomach clutched—too early—and he washed it down with coffee. The T-shaped, low-slung building looked as if it had been dropped there by mistake. No landscaping around it, save the strips of scrubby grass, a few trees. He sighed and tossed his burning cigarette. He was already ten minutes late and didn’t need Linda’s shit this early. He went in through the back door. Clocked in. Poured coffee into a small foam cup. Flipped through schedules and charts.
In the lounge the old people were watching cartoons. A superhero that Cole didn’t recognize flew above a sparkling city.
Hey y’all,
he said, but only Hazel Lewis looked up.
Cole, Cole, Cole, it’s so dang hot.
She tugged on her sleeves as if they were heavy chains, the pink cotton shirt pushed up, exposing her stomach. His first day on the job, he’d walked in on Hazel stark naked, her cowlike body unfurled on the bed. Powder-white flesh, sagging breasts. Cole had snapped a sheet over her like she was a corpse, then called for one of the female aides.
But now he adjusted her shirt, smoothing it over her jiggling belly.
Cole, Cole, Cole.
That’s my name, don’t wear it out.
He spent the early hours emptying bedpans, brushing teeth and dentures, and giving sponge baths. Sometimes when he woke the old people, they started like frightened deer, or talked to him as if they were still dreaming. Others, wide awake, demanded sweet rolls and coffee. He helped two ladies into the cafeteria, which smelled like eggs and lemon disinfectant, and then loaded trays onto the breakfast cart. He would like to sit and talk with a few of his favorite residents, but there was little time for breaks. He needed a smoke. But he kept moving.
In the hallway, Linda stopped him. You need to get to room ten. Fletcher, the new guy. He hasn’t eaten yet.
I’m going,
he said.
Linda was the head nurse. She had been working at the home for fifteen years and couldn’t wait until she retired. She was a large woman, taller than Cole, with wrestler arms and wide shoulders; she always looked angry.
Well, get on it,
she snapped.
Ellen, a new nurse on staff, was watching, and when Cole rolled his eyes, she smiled. He stopped the cart in front of her. Ellen was his age. She was upbeat and gentle, and had learned all of the residents’ names within a couple of days. Pretty, a little chubby. Chin-length red hair, gray-blue eyes, and enormous tits. She wore pink scrubs printed with teddy bears.
What’s going on?
The usual bullshit.
You staying out of trouble, Cole?
Trying to.
I’ll just bet you are,
she said, laughing.
He grinned, watched her go. Unlike the aides, the nurses were respected. They dispensed meds, drew blood, and gave orders; they did not change diapers or clean up vomit. Cole would like to be a nurse. But a nursing degree required at least two years of schooling, and the nearest program was a hundred miles away. Even if it were closer, he knew he wouldn’t go.
Larry Potts was parked in a wheelchair, twiddling his thumbs. He had thick meaty hands, but his thumbs twirled like little jewelry-box ballerinas. Scenes like this still managed to stop Cole in his tracks. He put his hands over Larry’s, felt his thumbs buzz against his palms like insect wings. Larry used to work the deep mines, crawling around on his hands and knees in the dark. It’s okay, Larry,
he said, wheeling him into the cafeteria.
The new resident, Warren Fletcher, with gleaming bald head and tongue lolling, looked like a wrinkled baby. He’d arrived yesterday. A bed had opened up after Raymond Willis died on the way to the hospital. There was a long waiting list, and when the old people were brought in, most of the time, they never went back home.
Hey there,
Cole said loudly. Warren opened his eyes, startled. Cole spent much of his day shouting, so even when he was not at work, he occasionally caught himself talking to people as if they were half deaf.
Warren pulled his tongue back in his mouth like a lizard. What’s your name, son?
I’m Cole.
Who’s your people?
Freemans, up in Rockcamp. My granddaddy is Preacher Clyde Freeman.
Warren didn’t say if he knew his family or not. His hands were shaking too badly to hold the spoon, so Cole sat beside him and fed him the lukewarm oatmeal, dabbing at the corners of his mouth with a paper napkin. After a few bites, the old man’s eyes closed, and Cole pulled the blanket up to his chin and watched him. He looked harmless and near dead, hollowed out by too many years.
As Warren slept, Cole peeked out into the hall. Nobody was coming. He closed the door partway. Then he opened each dresser drawer, sifting through neatly folded underwear, T-shirts, dress pants, and plaid shirts, all of which Warren would never wear again. This is what he found:
Silver wristwatch, ticking, which he slipped in his shirt pocket.
Worn brown leather wallet with twenty bucks, a driver’s license, and a faded picture of a woman, all of which he put back, intact.
In the bottom drawer, under a stack of threadbare undershirts, a knotted hunting sock.
Bingo.
He untied the thick knots and pulled out a roll of fifties. He stared at the money for a second, then returned it to the sock. Two aides walked by. Cole froze in the shadows. He waited until their voices died out, then he tucked the sock under the waistband of his jockeys and wheeled the breakfast cart out of the room.
As he drove around the county, his headlights reflected on the scarred places where trees had been cleared for mining, like giant razor gashes across the land. He sold most of what he had in a couple of hours, then went to the Eagle. Drank a couple of beers, watched a fight break out in the parking lot, and lost a game of pool. He was on the lookout for Charlotte Carson. A couple of months ago at a party, he’d found himself nibbling on her tiny ear. Ohh, I like that,
she’d said.
When she didn’t show, he drove to her place in Pineyville. The Carson family had been smart and sold their land early on to the coal company, when the offer was still good. Charlotte lived with her three older brothers, large, sloe-eyed, dimwitted boys with reputations for short tempers and heavy fists. Their parents had been killed in a car accident a few years ago, so it was just the four of them. They lived in a double-wide up on a hill. Although they talked about building a house, all they had done so far was dig a pit for the foundation, which was filled with rainwater.
He felt relieved that Charlotte’s piece-of-crap Neon was the only car in the driveway. He knocked once, then let himself in. A Rebel flag hung over the door, and framed family pictures and curling posters of beer ads were tacked to the walls. A new-looking big-screen TV sat on a low stand made from a pine board and cinder blocks, with various video games, mostly sports stuff, scattered on the floor around it. He called out over the shrieking music, and Charlotte yelled that she was in her room. A jumble of clothes and dirty glasses and CD jewel cases. She was perched on the bed in the midst of the mess like a mother spider on her web.
What are you doing here?
Looking for you.
You making a special delivery?
If you’re lucky.
She wore faded, shredded-up jeans and a tight baby tee, her peroxide-dyed hair shooting out like toxic weeds. A few weeks ago, she’d convinced Cole to bleach his hair too, and when he looked in the mirror, he’d been startled by the towheaded reflection: Goddamn, I look like an albino.
By now he was used to it, even if his grandmother wasn’t, and didn’t think he’d ever go back. With their fiery blond hair, they looked like brother and sister.
Cole snapped off the stereo. That shit you listen to gives me a headache.
Sometimes you’re such an old man.
He knocked the lacy black bras and mismatched socks onto the floor, and reached for Charlotte. He touched her slightly moist underarms, breathed in the baby-powder scent of her. Laughing, she pushed him away. You bring me something or not?
She looked at him with cola brown eyes and pursed her lips until they crinkled like crepe paper. She was not exactly pretty. Freckles swarmed over her face like red ants, and she had a hard boyish face. But when she looked at him in this way, he felt as if he were floating along a river, and he liked the thrill of the currents and unexpected drops. He searched his pockets, handed her twenty milligrams of Oxy, not much. She licked the tablet, crushed it, and put her nose to the mirror like she was giving it a kiss. Then she came up smiling, the entire twelve hours of pain relief shooting to her bloodstream all at once.
What do I owe you?
I’ll think of something,
he said, scooting closer.
But she told him she had to leave for work soon. She had just started at the Walmart in Zion.
What kind of hours are those?
On the night shift, I can get as lit as I want to, nobody’s around to notice.
That’s something,
he agreed.
Guess who’s one of the new managers?
Who?
Your old buddy, Terry Rose.
Cole looked up.
You didn’t know he was back?
The last he’d heard about Terry was that he was still in Kentucky with his wife and kid, working at an RC warehouse. Cole lit a cigarette, playing down his surprise. Walmart? What a fuckin’ loser.
Well, we all got to make money.
I guess.
Charlotte reached up and took the cigarette out of his mouth. Maybe I’ve got time for a quickie.
She shucked her jeans and red panties, stripped off her T-shirt, her body adorned in an assortment of tattoos. She unbuckled his belt. Her breath was hot, and the sharp points of her hair tickled his thighs. It suddenly seemed too quiet, just the noisy sound of her mouth on him. He pushed her face away. Where do you want me then?
He got behind her and watched the inky dreamcatcher on her lower back arch up, then flatten beneath him. He squeezed his eyes shut, disappearing, and yet was still here, inside of her. She moved against him, and he grabbed on to her hips as if to keep himself anchored, finding that secret place beyond everything else. Right before he came, he pulled out, heard himself whimper. When he opened his eyes, Charlotte was smiling at him.
That was nice,
she said.
Yeah.
He reached over and flipped the light switch. Although he never stayed the night, he liked to lie beside her and look up at the plastic glow-in-the-dark stars clustered all over the ceiling. He never worried about falling asleep; he survived on very little of it. Charlotte said it was like he had his own special kind of speed.
You make me feel good,
she said.
You’re just high.
You could be too.
But Cole rarely used the drugs he sold, and when he did, he was more likely to drop a Xanax than to snort Oxy, which frightened him with its bright blue promises. Anything that felt that good would only lead to trouble.
Charlotte tapped his chest. What are you thinking?
Nothing,
he said, but he was still mulling over the news that Terry Rose was back in town. And he sure as hell didn’t want to be thinking of him. Instead, he tried calling up Bible verses. It was a game he played. He never forgot the scripture his granddaddy drilled and seared into him, and it was times like this, in the darkness and quiet, that the words sometimes returned, ghostly and pale like the Indian pipes hidden in the woods.
You’re so quiet.
It’s just how I am. You know that.
All his years of stuttering had taught him something about silence. He spent most of his childhood too terrified to speak. Kids laughed, teachers looked at him with pity. He learned to bite down on his tongue until people forgot he was there—and he heard everything that way. But he couldn’t play that trick with his granddaddy, who demanded he speak, and whenever Cole stuttered, his grandfather’s eyes brightened with a mix of fury and satisfaction: It’s your mother, her sins led God to cursing you. The praying, the Bible lessons, all of it was supposed to heal Cole’s twisted tongue, but did he deserve such light, such healing? For the most part, he’d lost the stutter—but it had nothing to do with God.
Charlotte rested her head on his chest. I can hear your heart. You hear it?
He used to believe what his grandfather said, that the stuttering was a punishment from God, but around twelve or thirteen, he began to secretly reassure himself with the story of Moses, but I am slow of speech, and of a slow tongue, whose brother Aaron spoke for him to lead his people out of Egypt. Except that Cole was an only child and the closest he ever came to having a brother was Terry Rose.
No,
he said, rolling over. No, I don’t hear nothing.
Chapter 2
Cole drove up to Devil’s Pike, a mess of old strip mines, with a few trailers stranded there like lost ships. Orange acid water trickled like Kool-Aid out of a mountainside; probably an old underground mine had blown out. He parked in front of Harley McClain’s. The front yard was overrun by plastic and ceramic animals, like some kind of cracked-out cartoon world. Harley’s wife had collected the lawn ornaments, and now that she was dead, Harley couldn’t bring himself to get rid of them. They gave Cole the creeps. He walked up to the front door, careful not to bump into any of the geese or deer or wide-eyed kittens. The mountains cast a dark shadow over the property. He would have to be quick. He did not like to be in the old people’s homes after dark, when they were more likely to get nervous or confused.
Harley, a World War II vet who collected disability, invited Cole in. He wore stained gray sweatpants and a T-shirt that said Awesome
in glittery letters. He poured grape pop from a two-liter into a plastic cup for Cole, then drew himself a glass of water.
I told you, you ought not to drink that water.
Oh, it won’t kill me.
Harley beckoned Cole. I got something to show you.
All over