My Lost and Found Life
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Ashley survives by taking a job in a quirky San Francisco coffee shop, where she finds the friends, the confidence, and the courage to start putting her life back together. But there is still one piece of her former life that just doesn't fit into her new one. What really happened to Ashley's mother?
This heartfelt coming-of-age story will resonate with any young woman who is looking ahead to the moment when she must step out on her own and not just survive, but thrive.
Reviews"Bowsher convincingly develops the unique voice of a young woman sliding from being a San Francisco suburban 'Valley Girl' into homelessness. ...This captivating story reads more like a journal than a novel. Though it is not high literature, it is a quick, easy read." -School Library Journal "What teens will read as a riveting adventure, adults might see as empowering teen readers. Ashley develops into a complex, admirable young woman. Useful in classrooms as a vehicle for discussing plot and character develop, instrumental for engaging reluctant readers, and decidedly satisfying for all, this book belongs in schools and libraries where readers age twelve to twenty-seven can enjoy and learn for themselves." -VOYA
About the Author
Melodie Bowsher grew up in Kansas and received a degree in journalism from Kansas State University. After graduating, she went to work at the Wall Street Journal's Dallas bureau where at age twenty she was the first woman ever hired by that newspaper as a staff reporter. Melodie later moved to San Francisco where her two kids provided the research for this, her first novel.
Melodie Bowsher
Melodie Bowsher grew up in Kansas and received a degree in journalism from Kansas State University. After graduating, she went to work in the Wall Street Journal's Dallas bureau where at age 20 she was the first woman ever hired by that newspaper as a staff reporter. Melodie later moved to San Francisco where her two kids provided the research for this, her first novel.
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Reviews for My Lost and Found Life
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- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Well. It's like this. I read four or five or six pages and thought, "well, there is no way in hell I am finishing this." The "heroine" is so self-absorbed, so supercilious that I cannot abide reading another paragraph. But I did. And, it was worth it.
Ashley changes from a very self-absorbed teenager into a survivor, and not only a survivor, but into a total, caring individual.
If you start reading this book and want to throw it against the wall, don't. It's the worth the entire read.
Excellent job, Ms. Bowsher! - Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5Right after I read it, I saw that there were lots of good reviews, and that's fine for those people, but I didn't like it. I guess is was because Ashley was spoiled and had no sense at all of what to do after her mother left. I read the beginning and kept thinking of what she should've done. I know that she was made spoiled on purpose, but she just really annoyed me. So I ended up reading the beginning, part of the middle, and the end, without parts in between, and I don't think it would have helped me much to read the rest. It was one of those books where I didn't feel bad about skipping over parts to the end.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Melodie Bowsher is a fresh new voice in crossover fiction. She has the voice for a perfect teenage girl character...both the good and the bad.
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My Lost and Found Life - Melodie Bowsher
For Mia and Luca
And especially for my mother
• • •
Contents
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Chapter Eleven
Chapter Twelve
Chapter Thirteen
Chapter Fourteen
Chapter Fifteen
Chapter Sixteen
Chapter Seventeen
Chapter Eighteen
Chapter Nineteen
Chapter Twenty
Chapter Twenty-One
Chapter Twenty-Two
Chapter Twenty-Three
Chapter Twenty-Four
Chapter Twenty-Five
Chapter Twenty-Six
Chapter Twenty-Seven
Chapter Twenty-Eight
Chapter Twenty-Nine
Chapter Thirty
Chapter Thirty-One
Epilogue
Acknowledgments
By the Same Author
Praise for My Lost and Found Life
Chapter One
Five days before I graduated from high school, my mother embezzled a million dollars and disappeared.
Thinking back, I can’t recall anything unusual about that day. No funny feelings
tickled the back of my neck; no suspicions nagged my subconscious. Some time later, when I looked up my horoscope for that day, I found the stars provided no hint that I would never again feel safe or confident about the future. I would have laughed in scorn if anyone had predicted that I, the homecoming queen, the most popular girl in my high school, would soon be homeless and alone, bedding down in an unheated camper with a knife under my pillow.
Even now, five years later, I still wonder—if I had known, could I have somehow changed the outcome?
That morning began in the usual way. I ignored both my alarm and the sunlight streaming through my bedroom window and stayed burrowed in my warm bed. I was often late and sometimes skipped first and second periods entirely. I was an expert at imitating my mother’s handwriting and always wrote a plausible excuse for myself: Please excuse Ashley’s tardiness, as she wasn’t feeling well, blah, blah, blah. I wasn’t fooling the school’s attendance secretary, but she was obviously sick of dealing with me. The administration was pretty lax with the graduating seniors spring semester, no doubt in happy anticipation of our imminent departure.
That particular morning I managed to throw off my comforter at the last minute and rushed around, showering, applying makeup, wriggling into my jeans and favorite red tank top, pulling on my wedge sandals, and stuffing my gear into my backpack. A generous squirt of Obsession on my neck and I was ready.
As I dashed for the front door, my hair still damp, I saw that my mother was on the telephone. That, too, was ordinary—she was always on the telephone, speaking in a low, intense tone to someone. I assumed she was talking to her best friend, Gloria, or her loser boyfriend, Phil. I assumed that nothing my mother was talking about would be of interest to me. I was wrong about a lot of things back then.
Even if she hadn’t been on the telephone, I didn’t want to talk to my mother that morning. We’d had a screaming match the night before. To tell the truth, I didn’t want to remember what I’d said or how my mother had looked, standing on the lawn with the rain pouring down, her nightgown soggy and clinging to her torso, her face twisted, tears running down her cheeks and melting into the rain. I was determined not to think about that. Pretending was a skill we both had perfected over the years.
School ended at noon all that week, and when the final bell rang, I lingered to gossip about graduation and the senior trip to Hawaii, only five days away. That made shopping for the trip a priority. Mara was showing off her new bag, which she bragged was a Gucci, like mine. I gave her a scornful smile and whispered in my best friend Nicole’s ear, Oh, puh-leez. Who is she kidding? I can spot a knockoff a mile away.
My boyfriend, Scott, tried to persuade me to go surfing with him and his buddies at Granada Beach. But I didn’t feel like watching and cheering while he played jock all afternoon, especially since the coast is usually foggy in May. Instead, I told Nicole I’d go shopping with her at four, then steered my little red Jetta toward home.
Now that last night’s storm clouds had cleared, it was one of those picture-perfect spring days. I put the sunroof down and felt a warm glow on my neck and shoulders. Every garden I passed seemed to be bursting with flowers. I could almost smell the blossoms.
As I drove, I sang along with Sheryl Crow on the radio.
Twenty minutes later I was stretched out on our redwood lounge chair, clad in my size 2 bikini and tropical suntan oil, with a diet soda by my right hand and cell phone at my left. My cat, Stella, was lying beneath my chair, lazily licking her orange fur while remaining alert for any stray butterflies or bumblebees that might need chasing. Thumbing through the latest issue of Lucky magazine, I began planning all the clothes I would buy to wear in Hawaii. I wanted to find a really hot red dress. I considered red my signature color, and not just because it looks fabulous with my shoulder-length dark hair. Red is center stage and that’s always where I like to be.
I had the volume on my boom box cranked up. I guess that’s why I didn’t hear the doorbell. What got my attention was a head appearing over the back gate—a male head, a cop’s head.
The cop barked, If you turned down that damn music, you’d know I was ringing your bell.
I glared at him and reached over to turn down the volume. I recognized him immediately and my defenses went up. He was the jerk who had given me a long lecture and a speeding ticket two weeks earlier. Anyway, there aren’t that many cops in Burlingame, one of the many suburban communities strung along the bay between San Francisco and San Jose. Burlingame’s finest regularly patrolled the neighborhood around the high school, so they were recognizable to all of us.
My mother isn’t home,
I said, hoping to deflect him.
Ignoring my comment, he opened the gate and strode into the backyard. Behind him the gate swung shut with a loud clang. He stomped over to my chair and stood there, giving me the usual badass cop stare as if I had just robbed a liquor store or something. He was thirty or so and sort of cute, but he had that burly body and accusatory attitude they all have.
Now, how could you know I want your mother?
he asked.
Why would you want me?
I said, putting on my impassive face, the one I’d learned to use when dealing with my father or jerks like him. You’re blocking my sun.
He didn’t move, just continued to stare at me. Why is it that cops always make you feel guilty even if you haven’t done anything wrong? I sighed and reached for a shirt to pull over my bikini top. His chilly gaze made me uncomfortable. It definitely wasn’t the admiring stare I was used to getting from guys. Stella came out from under the chair and rubbed up against his ankles, and he knelt down to stroke the soft fur under her chin. Cats have no loyalty.
Well, it just so happens you’re right,
he said. If your mother is Diane Mitchell. Remind me what your name is again.
Ashley,
I said. Ashley Marie Mitchell. Why are you looking for my mother?
He ignored my question, the way cops do.
I’m Officer Strobel, Ashley, and I need to talk to your mother right away. Where is she?
At her office, I suppose. Look, I’ve turned down the music. That should satisfy the old busybody next door.
I picked up Stella and tried to stroke her, but she struggled to get free, so I let her go. She stalked away and arranged herself on a sunny patch of grass just out of reach, her whiskers twitching as she actively ignored us both.
I’m not here about a noise complaint. I need to see your mother. Is she here?
She’s at her office,
I repeated slowly as if speaking to a half-wit. That’s where she always is. The Simmons Company in Redwood City.
She’s not there, and they’re looking for her. Any other ideas?
Has something happened to her? Are you trying to say she’s been in an accident?
He was making me uneasy, though I didn’t want to show it.
There have been no accidents reported.
I waited for him to say something more, but he didn’t. What was he after?
Maybe she had a doctor’s appointment or something. It’s not a big deal. Call her cell phone. She always has it on.
We did. She didn’t answer.
His tone was flat, yet challenging. "It is a big deal because we need to find her now."
With an elaborate sigh I reached for my cell phone and dialed her number. After six rings, I heard, This is Diane. I’m not available at the moment. Leave a message at the tone and I’ll call you back just as soon as I’m able.
This is Ashley. Call me the minute you get this message,
I said, and hung up. "Okay, now are you satisfied? When she calls me back, I’ll tell her to call you, officer."
When did you see her last?
This morning, before I went to school. Why?
When you saw her, did she tell you her plans for the day?
No.
He kept looking at me, so I added, I was late for school and left in a hurry.
Well, how about last night? What did she say last night about her plans for today?
I was starting to get uneasy in the face of his persistence. Nothing.
Your mother didn’t say one word to you last night about her plans for today. What did the two of you talk about?
I wanted to say, None of your business, but his stony look intimidated me.
Nothing much. Just the usual stuff about school.
I was determined not to tell this bully about the ugly fight we had. Look, why are you trying to find Diane?
You call your mother ‘Diane’?
That’s her name,
I snapped.
Most of us call our mothers ‘Mom’ or ‘Mother,’
he snapped right back. Why don’t you stop giving me attitude and tell me exactly what your mother did and said last night?
We didn’t talk,
I lied. I was at a friend’s house and came home late. If you want to know what my mother did, try asking her best friend, Gloria, or Phil, her boyfriend.
I will. You can give me their numbers in a minute. When does your mother usually get home and start cooking dinner?
I snickered. Diane doesn’t exactly rush home to fry a chicken or bake a cake. We both have frozen dinners or maybe pizza and not always at the same time.
Home, sweet home,
he said.
She’s busy,
I defended her. She works long hours.
Maybe too long.
"What does that mean?" I said, scowling at him.
You’ll find out soon enough. How old are you?
Eighteen. Why?
Old enough.
Old enough? For what?
I said, not even trying to keep the sarcasm out of my voice. Are you coming on to me?
He snorted. Don’t flatter yourself. Old enough means, legally, you’re an adult. How about acting like an adult and letting me look around inside?
I was flabbergasted. "Are you crazy? Do you think she’s hiding under the bed or tied up in the closet? She’s. Not. Here." My voice rose on the word here and turned it into a shriek.
Look, either you let me look around or I’ll be back with a search warrant.
"What! You are crazy! What could you possibly want with my mother that would involve a search warrant? If you think she’s some kind of drug dealer, you’re delusional."
Why would you mention drugs?
He gave me a menacing look. Are you afraid I might find some inside?
No, I’m not,
I said. Suddenly I was tired of answering his weird questions while he avoided answering any of mine. Okay, fine. Go ahead and look all you want. You won’t arrest me for not making my bed, will you?
Without replying, he crossed the deck and walked in the back door. I took a swig from my Diet Coke can and followed.
Officer Strobel gave the kitchen a cursory look.
Oh, look, there’s her favorite coffee cup,
I said, pointing to a mug on the gleaming granite countertop. Maybe you should have the contents analyzed.
Mr. Cool Cop ignored me and walked through the dining room and into the living room. We had redecorated just a few months ago, and I was proud of our elegant new furniture, silk drapes, and Oriental rugs.
Very nice,
he said. You live well.
Naturally,
I said, with the nonchalant air of a duchess speaking to a dog.
He was impervious to my scorn. Glancing around, he pointed to the side door. Where does that lead?
We hide our washer and dryer out there.
He continued down the hall, glancing into the guest bathroom and then the family room, where we kept our computer and new flat-screen television. At the doorway of my bedroom, he stopped and stared at the chaos of clothes, papers, and books strewn across the bed and floor.
Looks like someone already tossed this room.
He smirked.
I pushed past him and closed the door in his face.
She’s not in my room.
When he reached my mother’s room, he surprised me by walking across it, opening the door to her walk-in closet, and stepping inside. I perched on the edge of the bed, pretending to study the red polish on my toes, and called after him, You forgot to check under her bed.
Where does she keep her suitcases?
he asked.
On the floor on the left side of the closet.
There aren’t any here,
he said.
Of course, there are,
I said impatiently, and pushed past him to stare at the place where her matched set of dark green luggage should have been. The suitcases were gone! I stood there, my mouth gaping. My mother wouldn’t go on a trip without telling me, would she? No, she wouldn’t, I told myself, trying to erase the memory of last night’s hysteria from my head. Suddenly, I didn’t feel like being a smart-ass anymore.
She must have put them in the garage,
I muttered, more to myself than to him.
Is there anything else missing—any clothes or shoes or toiletries?
he asked.
How would I know?
I responded, gesturing toward the bulging clothes racks.
He studied my face for a moment, then asked, Can I use your phone?
Without waiting for an answer, he picked up the receiver next to my mother’s bed and dialed. Hey, Donahoe. I’m at the Mitchell house. No, she’s not around. Uh-huh, just the daughter. She says she doesn’t know her mother’s whereabouts. Looks like she might have skipped.
Skipped!
I repeated, staring at him in shock.
Glancing at my horrified face, he turned his back to me and added, Uh-huh. I’m going to talk to the boyfriend and then I’ll come back to the station. It’s early yet.
The minute he put down the receiver, I screeched, Why did you say ‘skipped’? What the hell is going on?
There’s some money missing from your mother’s office, a lot of money, and we want to find out what she knows about it.
You mean you think she stole it,
I hissed. Well, you’re out of your mind. My mother wouldn’t do something like that.
Maybe so.
Strobel nodded without conviction. In the meantime, I need those phone numbers you mentioned. By the way, what does your mother drive?
A Mercedes. Blue.
Do you know the tag number?
I looked at him, confused at the question.
The number on her car’s license plate,
he added.
No, I don’t know it.
That’s okay, I can get it from DMV,
he said, snapping open his notebook.
I gave him both Gloria’s and Phil’s phone numbers and protested once again that he was crazy for even suspecting my mother of wrongdoing.
Strobel closed the notebook. That’s all for now. If your mother comes back, tell her to call the police department right away. She should ask for me. Tell her it will be a lot better for her if she calls us.
He gave me another badass cop stare and left, pausing only to give the driveway a searching look as if he expected to see armed thugs hiding behind the rhododendrons.
Asshole!
I mumbled as I watched him walk away.
The minute I shut the door, I bolted for the telephone and called Gloria myself.
Chapter Two
Nope, no idea where she is,
Gloria wheezed into the phone, sounding as if she had just run a marathon. Actually, I haven’t spoken to her in a few days.
I didn’t bother to ask why she was panting. Nor did I tell her about the police.
I thought you two talked every single day,
I tweaked her.
You must be thinking of you and your girlfriends. Your mom and I have lives,
she retorted with a right-back-at-ya attitude.
This is really important,
I insisted. "I have to find her right away. Help me out here, Gloria."
I would if I could. Look, I’m kind of busy right now.
Gloria was always in a crisis—for heaven’s sake, it can’t be that hard to handle a couple of preschoolers. My mother and Gloria had been friends since high school, even though they weren’t much alike. Diane had hatched me at a young age, while Gloria was one of those career women, a bank vice president to be exact. Six years ago, though, she had finally married another banker and started popping out kids. Now she had two little boys when, at her age, she should have been having grandchildren practically.
Even though she and my mother were tight, I wasn’t so crazy about Gloria. I overheard her once telling my mother she shouldn’t give in to me so much and that I was turning into a spoiled brat.
My mom didn’t say anything about going out of town, did she?
Not a word. Why? Where would she go?
Gloria said in a distracted tone. Uh-oh, there’s someone at the door. Gotta go. Tell Diane to call me later.
She hung up. Officer Asshole must have arrived. I smiled inwardly, just a little. A few minutes with him and Gloria would be the one badgering me with questions. In the meantime, I dialed the number for Phil’s gas station.
To my complete embarrassment, my mom had been going out with a mechanic for the past three years. I had to admit Phil was handsome in a rugged, outdoorsy way. He even had plenty of hair. Still, he wore cowboy boots and drove a truck. I wished my mother would date a doctor or lawyer or at least someone who wore a suit, carried a briefcase, and drove a Beamer.
Phil owned a Shell station down on El Camino Real, the main drag through our little burb. Reynaldo, the Mexican guy who worked for him, answered the phone. He said Phil wasn’t at the station. I think he’s at home,
he added when I pressed him.
When I called Phil’s home number, a woman answered.
Her voice sounded familiar, but she was definitely not my mother. She called, It’s for you,
and Phil picked up the phone. I was curious who the woman was, but I let it go for the moment. I had enough to worry about.
I asked him if he’d seen or talked to Diane today. Without a trace of embarrassment, Phil claimed he hadn’t seen her in a while.
There was an awkward pause as I tried to take in his meaning. And then he hung up on me! I stood there, staring at the receiver, angry and more bewildered than ever.
Before long, Gloria showed up at the front door. She dragged her two hyperactive horrors into the living room and began interrogating me. What did my mother tell me? Where could she be? And on and on. But I didn’t have any answers. She kept repeating over and over, I can’t believe this. This is crazy,
until I wanted to slap her silly. Naturally, I restrained myself. Besides, knowing Gloria, she probably would have slapped me back.
I wanna go home,
whined her five-year-old, and the younger one stopped chasing Stella long enough to chime in.
Finally, Gloria stopped barking questions at me and herded them outside. I should have been relieved, but I didn’t know what to do with myself after she backed her big SUV out of our driveway. I was alone again in the empty house, confused and impatient, with my mother’s whereabouts a complete mystery and the police lurking, if not in the driveway, then at least in my imagination. My stomach was in knots. I didn’t feel like sunbathing or watching the tube or eating. Even shopping didn’t sound like fun anymore. I called Nicole and backed out of our shopping excursion without telling her the real reason.
All I could do was wait and worry. But sitting and waiting was too passive for me. I wanted to take action—any action. So I cleaned my bedroom. In a storm of activity, I hung up clothes, made my bed, and tried to organize the chaos, all in an effort to keep my anxiety under control. In the back of my mind, I also thought it would please my mother when she came back. I was certain she would come home and set the police straight.
I found myself wishing I had a father or uncle I could call—someone who would fix this or make it all go away. But my father was dead. To tell the truth, a live Jimmy wouldn’t have been any comfort anyway. My darling daddy had spent his whole life obsessed with himself.
Jimmy had been movie-star handsome, and women had fawned over him—my mother included, at least when I was little. Before he died, she seemed less infatuated than exasperated by him, as if he were a cat that couldn’t be taught to use the litter box instead of the bathroom rug. By the time I was ten, it was clear even to me he was a loser, a pathetically unsuccessful actor who spent his time drinking in bars and bitching because the world failed to recognize his genius.
Diane always told a romantic tale of being alone in the world and then meeting my father at a wedding where he was tending bar. He claimed to have studied at the Actors Studio in New York, but somehow ended up in San Francisco instead of Hollywood. Anyway, they married, Diane had me, and we all lived unhappily ever after until he fell and cracked his skull outside his favorite tavern. I was fourteen when he died, and I didn’t miss him a bit. Why should I? It wasn’t as if I had ever been Daddy’s little girl.
Jimmy always said he was an orphan, but I didn’t buy it. His relatives had probably disowned him long ago. Even if he’d had parents, siblings, or other relatives somewhere, I’d never know now that dear old Dad had gone to the happy hour in