Before We Met: A Novel
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A whirlwind romance. A picture-perfect marriage. Hannah Reilly has seized her chance at happiness.
Until the day her husband doesn't come home ...
Hannah, independent, headstrong and determined not to follow in the footsteps of her bitterly divorced mother, has always avoided commitment. But one hot New York summer she meets Mark Reilly, a fellow Brit, and is swept up in a love affair that changes all her ideas about what marriage might mean.
Now, living in their elegant, expensive London townhouse and adored by her fantastically successful husband, she knows she was right to let down her guard.
But when Mark does not return from a business trip to the States and when the hours of waiting for him stretch into days, the foundations of Hannah's certainty begins to crack. Why do Mark's colleagues believe he has gone to Paris not America? Why is there no record of him at his hotel? And who is the mysterious woman who has been telephoning him over the last few weeks?
Hannah begins to dig into her husband's life uncovering revelations that throw into doubt everything she has ever believed about him. As her investigation leads her away from their fairytale romance into a place of violence and fear she must decide whether the secrets Mark has been keeping are designed to protect him, or protect her …
Lucie Whitehouse
Lucie Whitehouse was born in Gloucestershire in 1975, read Classics at Oxford University and now lives in Brooklyn, New York. She is the author of The House at Midnight, the TV Book Club pick The Bed I Made and Before We Met, which was a Richard & Judy Summer Book Club pick and an ITV3 Crime Thriller selection. @LWhitehouse5 #KeepYouClose
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- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5This book is a roller coaster ride of thinking you know what is happening to being completely thrown off track. I really enjoyed it for what it was a summer thriller.
It's my first real venture into this genre of marriage and mystery. The final twist kinda annoyed me, but by that point I could tell what was happening. - Rating: 2 out of 5 stars2/5I liked this more in the beginning than I did by the time it ended. I put it down numerous times and wasn't really bothered by anything else that came up that prevented me from getting right back to it. This is a book I would have really loved in my twenties but did not find it a satisfying read now. I found this predictable and cliche and expected something more. There's nothing wrong with the story (like when you turn on Lifetime Movie Network, you know what you're going to get) but I do know that for me, it will be mostly forgettable. On the upside, I did get one more book off my TBR list.
- Rating: 2 out of 5 stars2/5Didn't finish.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5I picked this one up because I was in the mood for some suspense, and it definitely delivered. This is a twisty-turny fast-paced story. Although some things were a bit predictable, overall it was not. The only reason that I am marking it four stars instead of five is because I expected a little bit more at the ending. However, when a story delivers so much throughout the entire book then I am sure it's hard to end with a big bang. I would definitely read this author again.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5A great story about trust, marriage, career, and family. The reader follows along as the life -- and marriage -- of the main character begins to unravel, fix itself, and unravel again. Enjoyable read, but waited for a big twist that never truly came; there were numerous surprises, but a clever reader could figure most of those ahead of time. Enjoyable and makes me want to consider reading some of her other books.
- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5Lucie Whitehouse is a new author for me. I had read some reviews about Before We Met and a blurb that compared it to Gone Girl so that peeked my interest. The only comparison I saw was that it's about a married couple who had some secrets from each other which resulted in trust issues.This is another British psychological suspense novel which I felt was a good read but it didn't blow me away. For one thing, the pacing was too slow. I had a hard time caring about the protagonist, Hannah, but there were enough twists and turn to keep me reading.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5A fast paced pot boiler - Hannah and Marks apple pie marriage starts to fall apart as Hannah finds out about her husband's murky secrets. There are a lot of skeletons in the cupboard and these become increasing far fetched - also thought the ending was unbelievable. Nonetheless Whitehouse managed to keep me on the edge of my seat
- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5Hannah gives up her New York lifestyle to come back to England to be married to Mark. When he doesn't return home as expected things start to not seem right to Hannah. Then she starts to look into his past.This genre of domestic thrillers always excites me since I have read ' Gone Girl' and 'Before I go to Sleep'. What it is for me is that they explore the fact that do really know who we live with and love. This book I found disappointing. I felt that the book was quite average and the reason why is that it was a bit messy. I felt the ending was wrapped up and there wasn't a final twist to give the book a wow factor. I don't want to spoil the plot for anyone, but there was the issue with camera. This was mentioned then seemed to be forgotten later on.The story did take a while, at least half way through to start to turn but the became predictable. This book is featured on the ITV 3 Crime Thriller Awards and I felt it was given a good review but for me it didn't quite hit the mark.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5A good domestic thriller - Brits always seem to be more in control, don't they, even when horrific things happen? Hannah has plenty of baggage from her parents split-up and although she manages well on her own, relationships don't work. Until she meets Mark. They marry in haste and Hannah gives up her great job and life in New York to return to London with her new husband. Then one night he doesn't return from a business trip and her world starts to peel and crack.Can't tell you more, but at halfway through, I thought most of the crises had been resolved. Nope, there are surprises in store.A bit predictable, but goes sideways in a creative way. Before We Met is was worth your time.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5I have always thought that the publishing of different genres always comes in waves and am so hoping that the vampire/shape-shifter novels are on there way out. Though I know there are plenty of readers who still like them and after all we who don't (like me) do not have trouble finding something else. Right now it seems as if Historical fiction and since the success of Gone Girl, psychological fiction as well are being published in mass. Since these are my two favorite genres this makes me very happy.This is the first novel I have read by Whitehouse and was amazed at how well the book flowed, perfectly paced with constant revelations that kept the book moving quickly. A marriage that may not be what it seems, secrets of course and a family that is certainly dysfunctional. Although I guessed some if it, there were still a few surprises that I did not. Pleasantly surprised at this good escapist fiction and it was a perfect way to spend a lazy Sunday.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Hannah Reilly has moved back from New York to London with her new husband, Mark. He's a high flyer with a multi-million pound computer software business, whilst she is struggling to find a job. One day, she goes to meet him at Heathrow on his return from a business trip and he simply hasn't come back. She starts to wonder what has happened and why he hasn't been in touch and she looks into various aspects of his life that start to puzzle her.This book wasn't quite what I expected as I thought it was going to be about a missing husband, but it turned into more of a story of if we can ever really know somebody, particularly the life they had 'Before We Met'. I found Hannah a bit annoying at times, and felt she was sometimes focusing on the wrong things, but this is a good book, an interesting psychological thriller and one which I would give 3.5 stars to if Amazon would allow it.It's not relevant to my review but I have to say the cover of the book is extremely striking and whoever designed it did a brilliant job.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Thank you to The author and publisher for the advance copy of this psychological thriller.I thoroughly enjoyed this book. It is a fast-paced rollercoaster ride through the life of lead character Hannah who goes to the airport to collect her husband Mark as arranged. Mark is not there.What follows leads Hannah to question her trust in everything, and changes her perception of everyone she knows.Full of twists and turns, lies and cover-ups, Hannah must discover the truth even if it threatens to undo every thread holding her life together.Brilliant stuff - I couldn't put it down - 5/5 stars!I'm looking forward to reading more from author Lucie Whitehouse.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Pretty good book. There were parts that were a little slow but overall it had a few twists that I didn’t expect and that is typically what a good book does, keep you on your toes. I won’t spoil it by telling you what they are because I hate reviews that sound more like a high school book report but it was well written and unexpected in the end. I enjoyed it.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5I love a twisty, tension filled psychological thriller and this certainly didn’t disappoint. From the moment that newly married Hannah is left waiting at Heathrow for her husband Mark to return from a business trip from New York, the reader is left in no doubt that all is not well. Mark’s initial attempts to explain why he wasn’t on the flight and how he lost his phone don’t entirely convince Hannah, especially when she finds out that his colleagues were expecting him to be somewhere else and she reluctantly starts digging a little deeper into their finances and his business. What she discovers devastates her and although she thought they were both very much in love, she is starting to doubt the man she married. When she questions his friends she discovers discrepancies which make her wonder about his past and the secrets he may be hiding. Hannah is no pushover, neither is she meek and silly, she is an engaging character with emotions and worries that you could identify with. They were introduced through mutual friends whilst they were both working in New York and she thought she had found her perfect man. She is determined not to be like her mother, who drove her father away with her constant checking and accusations of affairs and has taken a lot on trust. However her discoveries leave her feeling vulnerable and afraid – having given up her NY job when they married to live with Mark in London, she has no resources of her own and her fears that Mark is having an affair and planning to leave her feel very real. There were so many twists and turns in the story that it was difficult to decide between the lies and the truth.. As the story progresses the tension builds and it takes a sinister turn. There were times when I was so concerned as to the danger that Hannah could be walking into that I was almost too scared to read on. I’ve read and enjoyed both of Lucie Whitehouse’s previous books The House at Midnight and The Bed I Made but this superbly crafted novel takes her writing to another level of suspense and I loved it. My thanks to Netgalley and Bloomsbury Publishing for the digital copy for review.
- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5Hannah has always held herself back from love for fear of becoming like her acrimonious mother after suffering through the divorce from her father. Her uncertainties ceased to exist when she meets Mark; a fellow Brit and a friend of a friend. They fall in love instantaneously and they are married shortly after. A few months into their marriage, Mark is on a business trip to the U.S. and when Hannah was expected to pick him up from his return flight he’s not there. Fearing the worst, she’s finally able to get a hold of him but his excuses only cause her suspicions to grow. As her concerns continue to mount, the cracks in her life begin to appear and nothing is as it seems.The story alternates between the present and the past, when she first met Mark, and rehashes she knows about him. Hannah’s uncertainties make her realize foolishly how little she truly knows about her husband which causes her to investigate and uncover unpleasant information. ’Before We Met’ captured flawlessly how suspicion and doubt can morph into a crazed paranoia where you aren’t able to clearly discern what is right before your eyes. The building tension is well-done and turned this into quite a page-turner, however, it was quite clear what was going on before Hannah finally caught up with the rest of us. I kept hoping that an unexpected twist would happen at the end but it never did.I have always been a fan of psychological thrillers and while I understand that comparisons to other novels of the same genre are bound to occur, I can only expect there to be some semblance of originality. Having read ‘Gone Girl’ last year, the comparisons to ‘Before We Met’ are great and while there are slight differences, it only managed to come off as a weaker interpretation. I did have the same issue with both books though, where so much crazy had happened throughout the novel that by the end it had all become so disheveled and unrecognizable from the beginning. It all ended up being a bit too contrived for my liking.
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Before We Met - Lucie Whitehouse
Whitehouse
Chapter One
The rain was beating down, and out here, where the carriageway was exposed, the wind buffeted Hannah’s old VW as if it were trying to push it off the road. Usually on a Heathrow run she watched the planes dip down into the airport one after another, barely a minute between them, but tonight the rhythm was broken and it was two minutes, now three, before a new set of lights struggled through the roiling cloud. She tightened her grip again, checked the mirror and pulled out into the fast lane.
The Holiday Inn loomed up on the left, an ugly concrete tooth in silhouette against the sky, the light from its green neon sign leaching into the wet air. She took the exit for Terminal Three, the buzz in her stomach intensifying. Though they were married now, the trip to the airport was still exciting. She didn’t need to come and meet him; in fact, it would probably be quicker if Mark caught a cab into town, especially on a night like this, but the drive, arrivals, the crush at the barrier – it all reminded them of the time before they got married, when JFK and Heathrow were the poles around which so many of their weekends revolved.
As usual, the first two levels of the car park were full. Reluctantly, she took the ramp up to level three and found a spot by the lobby with the ticket machines. After a quick look in the mirror, she got out of the car and headed for the lifts.
The arrivals hall was busy, even for a Friday night. Beneath the low suspended ceiling, their faces bleached by the harsh strip lighting, hundreds of people were waiting. Three or four deep at the barrier, they clustered around the centre of the hall and outside the row of small concessions: the usual collection of drivers with name cards, a group of backpackers in shorts and T-shirts they would curse the moment they stepped outside, and an entire extended family, twenty-five or thirty people, all wearing traditional African dress, a blaze of colour and pattern.
She wove a path to the overhead monitors where she saw that Mark’s plane had just landed. It would be fifteen or twenty minutes before he came through the doors so she bought a sandwich from the little Marks and Spencer and sat on one of the benches on the other side of the hall. Earlier in the day, she’d been to the delicatessen and bought some French bread and a piece of really good Roquefort, which, with a glass of wine, was all Mark ever wanted after an evening flight, but she was too hungry to wait until then. She’d had nothing to eat since lunchtime: the interview with AVT this afternoon had run on much later than she’d expected, and it had been past seven o’clock by the time she’d got off the Tube at Parsons Green.
From the bench she watched the mechanised doors emit an irregular dribble of people. On the monitor there was a long list of flights with substantial delays. The passengers coming through now were on the plane that had come in from Freetown, she guessed, two before Mark’s; they were an hour and a half late. She watched a lanky, deeply suntanned man in jeans and a khaki shirt emerge and start scanning the crowd. From behind the barrier opposite, a young woman pushed her way forward, her face a picture of joy, and ran into his arms, giving him a kiss that drew a snort of disapproval from an elderly man further along the bench. Hannah felt another buzz in the pit of her stomach. Come on, Mark.
She remembered waiting for him on the other side of the Atlantic, before she moved back to London. Terminal Seven at JFK, the one American Airlines used, was stark; no cafés or shops to kill time in, just a newsstand, a coffee concession and a few rows of hard plastic chairs. She’d always used to take her laptop in case he was late but it had been impossible to work when her head snapped up every time someone came round the barrier. She’d never wanted to miss the moment when Mark first caught sight of her and the smile spread across his face. The first few times, the smile had given way to an exaggerated comic grin, as if he was trying to cover his embarrassment at having revealed himself, but that soon stopped and the regular sequence of events was established: he’d squeeze her until she was afraid he’d crack her ribs then they’d get a cab and go straight to her apartment and bed. Afterwards, they’d get dressed again and walk round to Westville on 10th Street for hotdogs.
The doors were opening more regularly now, releasing a steadier stream of people. A number of the voices had American accents, which suggested they’d been on Mark’s flight; the ones before and after his had come from Egypt and Morocco. She stood up and went to look. A few men in suits with lightweight cases; two couples; a family struggling with a precarious tower of luggage on a trolley whose front wheels wouldn’t cooperate. Spotting his father before his mother did, a toddler slipped out of her grasp and made a fat-legged beeline for him under the barrier, sending a ripple of laughter through the crowd.
After twenty-five minutes, she knew there must be some sort of hold-up. Mark was almost always among the first wave of passengers off a flight, and he’d only taken his small leather bag this time so he would have bypassed baggage reclaim. Perhaps he’d left something on the plane and gone back for it or perhaps he’d been stopped for a random customs check. She pushed back her sleeve and looked at her watch, the Rotary her mother had given her when she’d started university. Five past ten. She brought up Mark’s number on her BlackBerry then changed her mind: ringing him would spoil it. She’d wait another ten minutes and then call, if she had to.
By quarter past, however, the American accents had petered out and most of the people coming through the doors were talking to each other in rapid-fire Spanish. The only other person who’d been waiting as long as she had was a man in his fifties wearing a navy blazer and chinos, and now even his daughter appeared. Hannah wondered whether she’d got her wires crossed, but no, she was sure Mark had said Friday, the usual time.
She dialled his number. The call went straight to voicemail and she hung up without leaving a message. It wasn’t like him to miss a flight but maybe that was what had happened. Maybe he’d missed it and managed to get on a later one instead. He’d done that once before, coming back to New York from Toronto.
She consulted the monitors again. His flight wasn’t even shown any more. Scanning down, however, she saw two more flights from New York; one had just landed, the other was imminent. Perhaps he’d be on one of those. If he were, he’d call or send a text the moment he could turn his phone on.
The crowd was thinner now and this time she got the place at the barrier right opposite the doors – ‘the golden spot’, Mark called it. Checking her phone every couple of minutes, she waited until ten past eleven, almost another full hour. When the last of the second batch of Americans came through the doors, she phoned him and got voicemail again.
Hannah began to feel alarmed. If he was on a different flight, why hadn’t he called her? What if something had happened to his plane? She rang him one more time then gave up her place at the barrier and made her way towards the fire exit. The airlines’ information desks were in the departures hall, and crossing the courtyard between the two buildings was far quicker than schlepping through the network of tunnels and escalators.
Wind was swirling around the courtyard, driving the rain in bursts like shoals of tiny fish, lifting it for a moment then dashing it against the ground. The heavy door was snatched from her hand and slammed shut behind her. Overhead, another plane struggled through the cloud, its engines filling the air with harrowing thunder. Hannah put her head down and ran.
The dash took thirty seconds at most but she was pushing wet hair off her face as she came inside. Compared to the arrivals hall, departures at Terminal Three was the picture of well-lit, high-ceilinged modernity, but when she found the desk for American, the airline he usually used, the woman behind it was putting her jacket on.
‘I’ve already turned off the computer,’ she said, without looking up.
‘I just want to know if my husband was on a flight this evening.’
‘Oh.’ Now the woman looked up, her face brightening. ‘Well, I couldn’t have told you that anyway. Data protection, isn’t it?’
Hannah felt her usual surge of irritation at petty bureaucracy. ‘Seriously?’ she said. ‘He’s my husband.’
‘Sorry.’ The woman shrugged, looking pleased at the opportunity to wield her power, and Hannah’s irritation refocused itself on her. Working in close proximity to the duty-free shops was no excuse for wearing so much bloody make-up. How old was she anyway, under that death mask of foundation?
‘Look,’ said Hannah, laying her hands on the counter, ‘all I really need to know is that my husband’s safe. Can you at least tell me whether there have been any problems with the New York flights tonight?’
The woman sighed. ‘Nothing like that,’ she said. ‘Delays because of the wind, but that’s it.’
‘Thank God.’
Hannah was halfway back across the hall before she thought about where she was going. She tried Mark again. Still nothing. This time she left a message. ‘Hi, it’s me. I’m at Heathrow – where are you? I came to meet you but I don’t think you’re here. If you are, ring me.’ She hesitated. ‘I hope everything’s all right. Call me as soon as you get this – I’m worried about you.’ She laughed a bit, to tell him she knew she was being ridiculous: Mark was the last person to get into a mess, so if the planes were safe, he was.
Hanging up, she thought about whom she could call. Neesha, his assistant? No: it was almost half past eleven. And if Neesha knew there was a problem, she would have been in touch. The same went for David, his business partner. Mark had gone to America on his own this time so there was no one to cross-check with. If she didn’t hear from him tonight, she’d have to wait until the morning before she could start calling around.
Upstairs in the short-stay car park she narrowly mastered an urge to kick the ticket machine. ‘Twelve pounds for two crappy hours?’ Her voice echoed off the walls of the empty ticket-lobby.
The M4 back into London had gone quiet, too, and the streetlamps cast isolated pools of light on the carriageway ahead of her. On the raised section of road above Brentford she looked into offices vacated until Monday, seeing the ghostly shapes of desks and chairs and computers, and she had the sudden alarming idea that she was looking at a vision of her own career – distant, fading and locked away behind glass through which she could see it but no longer reach.
As she came down Quarrendon Street, the last of her hope disappeared. If Mark was ever home before her, she arrived to find lights blazing from every window but tonight the house was as dark as she’d left it.
Lynda, his cleaner – their cleaner – had been and the air smelled strongly of furniture polish. In the kitchen Hannah took a bottle of wine from the rack, poured a glass, then sat down with her laptop and checked her email. Occasionally her BlackBerry went through spells where no new messages would arrive for hours and then a glut would come all at once. That wasn’t happening now: the last email on both the phone and the computer was the one from her brother asking how her interview had gone.
She opened a blank message and addressed it to Mark.
Hello Heathrow no-show, she typed. I’m guessing you’re either still on a plane or something’s going on with your phone so I’m trying email instead. Let me know what’s happening. Missing you here at Quarrendon Street. House – and bed – empty without you . . .
She took a sip of wine – delicious: his idea of everyday wine came in a different price bracket from hers – then stood up and carried the glass across to the French windows that opened on to the small paved yard behind the house. When she shielded her eyes to block the light from inside, she could see the stone flags and then, towards the back, the shrubs and ornamental cherry tree. The wind had wreaked havoc. One of the wooden chairs had blown across the yard and lay on top of the stone trough where she had grown tomatoes over the summer, and the paving was strewn with leaves and twigs. It was a mess; if the rain stopped, she’d get out there tomorrow and clear it up.
Overhead, a plane tracked in towards Heathrow, now visible through a break in the clouds, now hidden again. Mark was probably still in the air, she told herself, and she’d wake up in a couple of hours to find him getting into bed next to her, and have a heart attack thinking he was a burglar.
She turned back to face the room and stopped. Occasionally she still had moments like this, when the sheer scale of the house struck her all over again. She’d been stunned when Mark told her he’d bought it in his late twenties; both the houses on the street that had sold since she moved in had gone for over two million. ‘But that’s now,’ he’d said. ‘I’ve had it twelve years, since well before the big boom, and it was a wreck when I got it. I bought it from this old couple who hadn’t done anything to it since the sixties and I had to do a total gut-job – new wiring, new plumbing, the works.’
‘Still . . .’
He’d shrugged. ‘I was lucky – the business was doing well and the price was right. It was a good investment.’
The idea that this was her kitchen now had taken some getting used to. She’d loved the one in her New York apartment with its original exposed-brick walls and industrial units, but viewed in the cold light of reality it had been a seven-foot length of corridor. In order to cook, she’d had to play a game like one of those squares with the moveable tiles that you rearrange to make a picture, continually finding new spots for plates and knives and chopping boards on the patch of counter space, the stove-top, the stool. This room was about ten times the size. In the unlikely event that she would ever want to cook for thirty, she could do it here without ever running out of elbow room.
Everything was big – everything; if it hadn’t been done so stylishly, it would have looked ostentatious. The original kitchen wall had been knocked out to extend the room into the side return, adding an extra six feet of width, and it had been twenty feet wide to begin with. The ceiling was high, the near part of it roofed with huge panes of glass for extra light, and the floor was covered in slabs of Welsh slate with heating underneath for the winter. There were steel-topped counters, a restaurant-sized cooker and, at the back, next to the door to the sitting room, an American-style double fridge.
‘I just couldn’t go back to a poxy little one,’ Mark had said. ‘The fridge I had in my apartment in Tribeca was like a wardrobe – it ruined me for anything smaller.’
‘You’re such a spoiled brat.’
‘Can’t deny it.’ He’d grinned at her, the skin at the corners of his eyes crinkling.
Feeling a burst of longing for him, she went back to her laptop and searched again for any news relating to flights from New York, not just JFK now but Newark and La Guardia, too. Nothing. She was being neurotic, she told herself, worrying for no reason at all. There was a simple explanation and he’d be home tomorrow. Everything was fine.
Chapter Two
When Hannah woke up, light was edging round the curtains. The other side of the bed was empty but she quite often woke up alone when Mark was travelling so it was a moment before she remembered that today she wasn’t supposed to. She propped herself on her elbow and reached for her BlackBerry. No new messages.
She lay back down for a minute, thinking, then threw off the sheets and got out. Mark’s favourite grey cashmere jumper was on the back of the chair and she put it on over her pyjamas. Downstairs the post was on the doormat: just an electricity bill, a statement from Coutts for Mark and yet another mail-shot letter from Savills fishing to see if they had any plans to sell the house. She left the bill and the statement on the hall table with the previous days’ post and went through to the kitchen.
While she waited for the kettle to boil she checked her email on her laptop, just in case, but the only messages were junk. Still nothing from Penrose Price either, she thought, and the interview there had been over a week ago now. That job was the one she really wanted, too; AVT yesterday wasn’t in the same league. If they were going to let her know by email, though, it wouldn’t be on a Saturday, and they would send a proper letter; they were that kind of company. Anyway, it was only a matter of time before the rejection arrived, in whatever form; if it were good news, she would have heard it by now.
She drank her coffee and thought about what to do. Perhaps Mark had caught a red-eye and was just getting into Heathrow now. She picked up her phone and pressed redial. Voicemail again. This time she didn’t leave a message; she’d left one last night and emailed as well, and he would know she was wondering what was going on. She felt a stab of annoyance with him for being so inconsiderate – how hard could it be to call and leave a twenty-second message? – but it was quickly followed by a wave of anxiety. Something was wrong. This was so unlike him – he’d never not come home when he said he would without getting in touch.
It was five to nine, still a bit early for a Saturday, but Neesha had a three-year-old, she’d probably been up for hours already. Hannah scrolled through her contacts list until she found her mobile number.
Mark’s assistant was a beautiful half-French, half-Indian woman who’d been brought up in South Africa but educated at the London School of Economics, where she’d met and married her husband, Steven. She was twenty-seven and Mark had recently started letting her manage her own small projects, afraid that she would leave unless she was promoted quickly. Pierre, her son, had arrived about ten years earlier than she’d planned to have him, she’d told Hannah at DataPro’s summer drinks party, but she was as ambitious as she’d always been. Mark had said that if she was as efficient a project manager as she was an assistant, he expected her to be one of the most senior on the team within five years.
The phone rang. After six or seven rings, however, the answering service clicked in and Neesha’s voice asked the caller to leave a message.
Hannah coughed, her throat suddenly dry. ‘Hi, Neesha,’ she said. ‘It’s Hannah Reilly. I’m sorry to call you at the weekend but I wonder if you could give me a ring when you get this?’
After a couple of slices of toast and a skim of the news online, she went upstairs and put on her running kit. She didn’t particularly like running – Oh, be honest, Hannah, said her internal voice, you hate it – but over the past three or four months, she had made it part of what she thought of privately as her sanity routine. She had a frightening awareness of how easy it would be to become depressed about her situation without a structure to her days that involved some form of discipline and physical exercise. Not her life with Mark, obviously – when she’d talked to him about it, he’d asked if she was unhappy with him and she’d looked at him as if he was nuts – but work, or her lack of it.
Though they’d been married for nearly eight months now, she’d stayed on in New York for three months after their wedding. Mark had increased the amount of time he spent working in DataPro’s American office and they’d talked about him making it his base full-time, flying over to visit the London office instead. His new partner, David, would take over from him there. After a month or so, however, talk of the move had become less and less frequent, and then Mark arrived one Friday evening looking guilty. He’d made her one of his custom martinis – vodka, with cranberry bitters – and told her that the consultants they’d hired to advise them on streamlining overheads during the turndown had strongly recommended closing the US office. He’d gone over the figures again and again, Mark said, and he knew it made sense.
‘Are you sure?’ she’d asked, feeling her heart plummet.
‘It was their number one recommendation – the only one that would make any real difference to our operating costs, actually. I hate it, too – having a New York office was always a goal of mine, as you know – but really, we can handle the US business from London. We don’t need a physical presence here. I’m so sorry, Han.’
His salary was bigger than hers by a factor of about five, and she was just an employee, not the owner of a company like he was. There was also the question of visas – they were both British so living in London was by far the easiest option – and while her apartment in the West Village had been rented, he’d already owned this house. She knew before he said it that if they were going to live together, everything argued that she should make the move. So, after some fruitless efforts to convince Leon, her old boss, that she should open a London office for him, Hannah resigned from her job and, five months ago, had packed up her apartment and shipped her belongings back here, her seven years of living and working in New York finished. Until she’d met Mark, she’d thought she’d live there for the rest of her life.
Quite apart from how much she wanted to be with him, though, she was surprised by how much she was enjoying being back in London. Even before she’d met Mark, she’d come back quite frequently to see her brother and her parents and to keep in touch with friends, but after two or three years she’d begun to feel like a tourist, someone who saw all the nice things – restaurants, galleries, the new bars her friends took her to – but had no real connection to the place, no day-to-day relationship with it.
That feeling had nearly evaporated now, and it was lovely to regain some of the British traditions she’d used to miss. Last week, she and Mark had walked over to Bishops Park to watch the fireworks on Bonfire Night. Impressive as the Macy’s 4 July fireworks were, for her they didn’t have the same emotional resonance, the layered memories of all the local fireworks she’d gone to with her parents when she and Tom were children, with toffee apples and the lighting of the huge bonfire that they’d watched burgeon with garden waste and broken pallets and lengths of rotten fencing in the weeks beforehand until it reached fifteen or twenty feet high. Bishops Park wasn’t the same, of course – no bonfire, for one thing, because of city fire regulations – but damp November grass smelled the same here as in Worcestershire, and she’d loved watching the Thames at the park’s edge as it slipped silently past them in the dark, its surface catching glints of blue and green and red from the explosions overhead.
Down in the hall again, she sat at the bottom of the stairs to put her trainers on then let herself out of the house, zipping the door key into her jacket pocket. The low hedge behind the front wall was wet with the rain that had fallen overnight and a perfect cobweb on the gatepost was strung with drops like glass beads. She opened the gate carefully so as not to disturb it.
She walked up Quarrendon Street, taking long strides to stretch her legs. She was getting to know some of the neighbours now, at least by sight, and nodded to the man from number twenty-three who was coming down the pavement with the Telegraph and a bag of what she guessed were croissants from the delicatessen tucked under his arm. With his quizzical expression and the grey hair that touched the velvet collar of his three-quarter-length camel coat, he reminded her of Bill Nighy. He was typical of the residents here: either wealthy families, who walked their children, in immaculate uniforms and straw boaters, to the nearby private preparatory school each morning, or well-preserved empty-nesters. It was an unusual place for a bachelor in his twenties to have bought a house – there were far hipper areas than Fulham – and while it was very expensive, it wasn’t flash at all. Mark could have chosen some vast renovated loft in Docklands or the East End, all glass and chrome and huge leather sofas, but instead he’d gone for a traditional Victorian family house. She loved him for it.
She crossed New King’s Road and started jogging gently along the pavement. The trees that shielded the wedding-cake Regency houses from the road here were dripping heavily, the water pattering on to the fallen leaves plastered over the ground in a soaked homogenous layer.
Hannah had known it would be difficult to get another job, especially one like the one she’d had in New York, but she’d wildly underestimated how difficult. She’d thought that with her American experience and a reputation for coming up with campaigns that had done well on both sides of the Atlantic, she’d be able to find a new position within three to four months, even with the economic climate as it was. ‘People will always hire the best candidates,’ Mark had said the first time they’d discussed it. ‘It might take a little while for something you want to open up, but don’t worry about not getting a job. People are going to want to hire you – they’ll be fighting to do it.’
Except they weren’t. It had been five months, and though she’d had three final-round interviews, she hadn’t received a single offer. At first, feeling confident, she’d only applied for jobs on a level with her old one with Leon but, as three months and then four had passed, she’d started to lower her sights. She told herself that it was only logical – the UK was in recession, jobs were scarce, perhaps she’d been arrogant to think she could immediately be hired again into a similar position; after all, she’d worked her way up with Leon over the years – but when she didn’t get those jobs either, she’d started to think that she was the problem.
‘No,’ Mark had said last Sunday, while they were out walking in Richmond Park. He’d reached for her hand and tucked it in under his arm, pulling her against the heavy navy wool of his pea coat. She’d pressed closer and watched the two clouds of their breath as they mingled. Though it was only the beginning of November, there had been a heavy frost overnight and the ground was crisp underfoot. The tips of Mark’s ears were pink where they stuck out from under his woollen hat.
‘It’s just the recession,’ he said. ‘You know you’re good, and the right job will come along. It’s like everything – you wait and wait until you don’t think you can wait any more and then, just when you think you’re going to explode or jump off Beachy Head, it finally happens.’
‘What would you know about Beachy Head, Mr Tycoon by Twenty-five?’ she’d said, prodding him in the side with her elbow, but she knew he was right about the waiting game. She’d been lucky after university – ‘Luck had nothing to do with it,’ Mark always said – and got one of the few graduate places at J. Walter Thompson, but she’d been stuck in the job she’d had after that, with a smaller agency, for almost a year after she’d decided she had to leave or die of boredom. She couldn’t, she’d thought at the time, do another campaign for dog food without going off her nut. The job with Leon had rescued her from that, thank God, but now she was in the same situation again. Worse, actually: at least then she’d had a job, even if it had been peddling horsemeat. Now with every week that passed, she was conscious of the growing distance between her and paid employment, the diminishing relevance of her most recent campaigns. Her currency was devaluing.
Hannah’s breath came faster as she approached Eel Brook Common and picked up her pace. She wove around the double barrier that discouraged cyclists from using the park and went on to the grass. The ground was sodden and hard-going but she made herself do two sides of the rectangle before she stopped by the little playground in the top corner. She was getting better but she was never going to be a natural runner, one of those people zipping round now at twice her speed, their breathing barely audible. She was fit but she didn’t have the right body shape for it, that was her theory; she was sure that if she were one of these straight-up-and-down types, it would feel much easier. Mark had suggested she join a gym instead, but while she didn’t have a job, she didn’t feel comfortable paying £80 a month in membership fees. He’d laughed and told her to remember that