The Girl in the Green Glass Mirror: A Novel
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Catherine Sergeant loses people. First her parents died, leaving her alone in the world. Now her husband, Robert, has just walked out without warning or explanation. Catherine conceals her pain and sticks to life’s comforting routines, reporting for work as usual at the fine-arts auction house she co-owns. Then she meets widowed architect John Brigham.
Catherine and John feel an immediate connection. They are both fascinated by the paintings of Richard Dadd, a Victorian artist who murdered his father and was locked away in an insane asylum. Interweaving the present with fleeting snapshots of the past—Dadd in moments of lunacy and lucidity that culminate in the act of creation—The Girl in the Green Glass Mirror takes readers to that exalted place where reality and creativity intersect. Filled with vibrant, unforgettable characters, it is a novel of discovery, reawakened passion, and the ability of art to shape lives and transcend madness, tragedy, and even time itself.
Elizabeth Cooke
Elizabeth Cooke lives in Dorset in southern England and is the author of fifteen novels, many of which she wrote under the pseudonym Elizabeth McGregor, as well as a work of nonfiction, The Damnation of John Donellan: A Mysterious Case of Death and Scandal in Georgian England. Acclaimed for her vivid, emotionally powerful storytelling and rigorous historical accuracy, Cooke has developed an international reputation. She is best known for her novels Rutherford Park and The Ice Child. Her work has been translated into numerous languages.
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- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5I read this book for the book club at work. Its not a book I would normally read - and I found it slow going at first. If it wasn't for a book club, I would have given up within the first 20 pages. I'm glad I read it - but it was slow going, not a lot of action. I was mostly intrigued about the Painter, Richard Dadd - The sections devoted to him were very interesting. This is a story mainly about Catherine Sergeant. Unfortunately, she wasn't very interesting - I found John Brigham, the new love, to be more intriguing - with a mentally ill sister, and his connection to the painter Dadd. This book is very subtle in its writing. The author rights paragraphs in sentences. I suspect that if I read the story differently (eg, not as a story, but as a poem) I might feel differently about it.
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The Girl in the Green Glass Mirror - Elizabeth Cooke
Prologue
He held up the magnifying glass to the light.
It was smaller than a crown piece and had a thick ebony edge, rubbed smooth, as smooth as the glass itself. He looked at it for a moment, at the grain within the wood, at the silky rim. He lifted it to his face and saw the world change again inside the glass, reducing down to flurries of shade.
Richard Dadd leaned against Bedlam’s upper window.
This part of London’s greatest lunatic asylum, in 1844, was a long corridor, filled with people, and there were only two windows, one at each end. Between lay a hundred feet of squalling darkness, a storm of indistinct faces. There must have been one hundred and twenty men crammed into the space. A hundred and twenty in the dark, and only two windows. A place of madness and fright. Someone close to him was sitting on the floor, his possessions huddled into his side, his arm sheltering himself against the shuffling feet of the crowd.
Dadd looked at the face.
It was a boy of perhaps fourteen. His skin was dirty close to the roots of his hair, but he had been washed by one of the attendants, a flannel taken swiftly round his face, leaving the tidemark of grime. Dadd looked down on this stranger, seeing the bone, the eye socket, the mouth, the eyes. Most of all the eyes. The hand without the magnifying glass twitched, the second finger and thumb pressing together. He needed a pencil in his grasp, or a piece of charcoal. But not color. There was no color in these eyes, nor in any eyes he saw any longer.
He saw only an eye leached of pigment, with reflections hurrying within it. And deeper still, beyond the surface of the eye, the alternative landscape of thought. Inside the thought, instinct. Inside the instinct, creation. Here was God in the eye of a bewildered boy sitting on a filthy floor. Here was God, forcing the fuse into the explosive, priming the weapon. Here was God painting light on darkness, fashioning the stars, and breathing creation into ashes.
Dadd looked away from the boy.
He turned back to the window, to the crane fly caught against the bars.
He brought the magnifying glass to it, searching the dry, convulsing thorax, watching the brittle leg pulling in the web. The fly became a monster, but audaciously beautiful. Opaque segments formed its being, faint spindles of carbon. In the tissue, he could see mountains.
He could see open sky. He could see mouths and grasses and insects and instruments and folds of fabric and sailing ships and hands. He could see Bacchanalia and Diadonus, a vine seat, the blade of a knife, and bridges and moorland and clusters of ferns, and the magician with his arms outstretched.
He leaned back, gasping.
There was another world, and another world, and another world.
1
It was only a week after her husband had left her that Catherine Sergeant went to a wedding.
It was a cold and bright spring day, a blue sky, frost on the deep grain of the church door. She purposely arrived late, to avoid the conversations; but she couldn’t avoid them afterward, when the congregation emerged.
The photographer took the bridal couple close to the trees, to be photographed in the sunlight under a thin veil of blackthorn blossom.
Catherine,
a voice said.
She turned. It was Amanda and Mark Pearson.
Why didn’t you tell us that you were invited?
they demanded. Why didn’t you mention it? We could have come together.
I didn’t decide until the last minute,
she said.
Amanda had looked around her. Where is Robert?
she asked.
He’s gone away.
Working?
There was a moment. Yes,
she said.
She moved from person to person, friends of friends. Fortunately, this was not a family wedding; Catherine was a peripheral guest.
There were some people whom she didn’t know, and who asked her nothing.
She moved to the very edge of the crowd and leaned for a moment on the wall. She was wearing red, and she thought suddenly how very inappropriate it was, this celebratory color, this color of triumph. She felt anything but triumphant. She felt disoriented. It seemed incredible to her now that she had come at all; got dressed this morning—got in the car. Driven here, in a new red suit, wearing new shoes. Incredible that she had even gone out this week and bought the shoes. Sat in a shop, wrote a check. Incredible that she had gone through the motions.
The routine things. Working, driving, buying, eating, sleeping.
Had she slept? Four hours, perhaps. Never more each night in the last seven days.
Looking out over the valley, this country valley folded in with pasture, dissected only by one road, and that road passing through what seemed now to be a gray cloud of leafless beech on the hill, she felt excruciatingly tired.
She looked down at the wall.
The corrugated color, pale green and acid yellow and gray, of the lichen on the limestone; that was animation of sorts. She focused on the colors. Beyond the wall, the graves. The angle of the April light against the graves.
ALEXANDER SEELEY, BORN 18 NOVEMBER 1804, HIS WIFE CLAUDIA ANNE.
The snowdrops forming a white square. The blackbird eyeing her from the neighboring plot, perched on a stone angel with great folded wings, feather upon feather.
A couple nearby had brought a hamper. They were coming through the crowd laughing, holding up the wicker basket. Setting it down again on the path. Unbuckling the straps, they brought out champagne and glasses.
Beyond them, Amanda was beckoning her, holding up a glass.
It’s not difficult at all, Catherine told herself.
Your husband is away, working. It’s a very simple explanation. Simple. Plausible. You’ve come on your own out of necessity. But tomorrow, or the next day, he’ll come home.
This is just a piece of time with a wrinkle in it, like a sheet wrinkled from sleep. Time had wrinkled away from habit, from predictability, and had become—only for a while—unfathomable, like the experience of a dream, where days and weeks become mixed. Living through this was just a matter of coming to terms with the change. Hours that buck and race or slow to a crawl.
Tomorrow or the next day, he’ll come home.
Repeat it, repeat it.
Saying it makes it so.
2
It was 8 a.m. when she got to the auction rooms on Monday morning.
Pearsons occupied a huge barn of a building in a country town that had been known for its silk weaving two centuries before. Now all that was left of the silk was the single row of cottages on the main street, lavishly embellished above the doors with a scroll bearing the initials of the old company, and the Pearsons hall behind them, with its pink-yellow brick.
Behind the town were the chalk hills; open downland with shadows of old hedges, even of medieval fields. Sometimes in the last light of a winter day, as she drove over the tops toward the town, she could see the ghosts of those old furrows.
Catherine passed now under the archway of the front door: Georgian columns, a tiled floor of white acanthus on blue. She took off her coat as she went, glad to be inside. It was still bitterly cold. Just as she draped it over her arm, she felt for the cell phone in the pocket. Took it out for a moment to check that it was turned on. No messages. No text. She put it back.
Beyond the acanthus floor, Pearsons was far more prosaic: two small offices to either side, and past them a vast ceilingless room, the timber joists of the roof revealed. The hall was packed this morning, with barely an inch of floor space showing. Victorian and General
was the sale title, and it encompassed a vast variety of objects, the remains of scores of lives. Dealers were already in, eyeing the goods: she recognized the usual faces, the diehards already scribbling in their catalogues.
She paused here, looking around herself at the variety. Nearest the door was a metamorphic library chair of modest beauty, decorated with floral inlay, its steps stored beneath the seat; past it, by way of contrast, was a peeling chest of drawers that had never been beautiful even on the day it was made. She edged down the narrow aisle, past desks and porcelain, empty frames, Lloyd Loom chairs, ivory and silver locked in the one glass-fronted cabinet; the skeletons of clocks, the gray-on-sepia of faded watercolors. As she passed a cardboard box full of vinyl records, she glanced down at the cover of the first one. Tchaikovsky’s second piano concerto. The illustration on the sleeve was a damask rose. She looked at the rose for a moment, then turned her head.
And it was then that she saw the painting.
The face of the girl was looking down at her. It was a familiar portrait of a young woman seated on a chair; a woman in a white dress, her left hand holding the edge of the seat of the chair, her right hand curled in her lap. Behind her, the draped curtains were yellow, and there was a suggestion of a street. Muted blues.
Catherine’s eye ranged over it again. If you regarded it critically, not a great deal was anatomically correct. The right arm was foreshortened, the fingers only outlined. The left hand was almost bulky. Neither was the frame of the chair absolutely right; the back curved awkwardly, as if added by chance. And yet, when she stepped back, the picture was perfect. Something in the failings made it wonderful.
Mark Pearson was at the desk at the farthest end of the hall.
Catherine,
he called.
It’s here,
she called, pointing at the painting. Why is it here?
He got up and walked toward her. He brought it in himself.
Mr. Williams?
she asked, astonished.
Yes. On Saturday. I couldn’t turn it down.
No one would. The portrait was by a Scottish colorist.
It doesn’t belong here,
she said. It belongs in the arts sale next month.
Mark waved his hand. I told him, I told him,
he said. You know the obstreperous old coot.
But he didn’t want to sell. He told me so.
I knew he would, though,
Mark told her. Calling you back to the house—what is it? Four or five times?
She frowned. I can’t believe it,
she murmured. I don’t understand. He loved this painting.
Mark smiled. Maybe he fell out of love with it,
he replied. It happens.
She shook her head.
As she walked back to the office, a dealer saw her coming and gave her his leering smile. She good-humoredly raised her eyebrows at him. He was sixty. She guessed twenty stone. Gray hair combed over a bald spot.
Hey, Catherine,
he said, looking her up and down.
Hello, Stuart. How are you?
Fine display you’ve got.
And he started laughing.
She went into the office, threw her coat on a table. Brad Pitt, eat your heart out,
she murmured.
She sat down and stared at the door she had closed behind her. She pressed her hands to her face, and the roses bloomed suddenly back at her, roses from the record cover, with their velvet petals, so sensuous to the touch. A bank of red roses in a garden, long ago. A bouquet of red roses in a cellophane wrapper, not so very long ago. Forty-two red roses of overpowering scent, of asphyxiating luxury.
Why did you send these?
Because I’ve known you forty-two days.
The door opened.
She took down her hands.
What’s the matter?
Mark Pearson asked.
Nothing,
she said.
What did Stuart say?
It wasn’t Stuart. It wasn’t anything,
she said.
He came round the side of the desk. Remind me what you look like when it is something.
She smiled, and opened her calendar.
He put down a cup of coffee in front of her. Take note of the cup,
he said. Minton.
Thanks. I’m touched. What’s this?
she asked, pointing at a calendar entry for the next morning.
He perched himself on the edge of the desk. A man who rang up yesterday.
Bridle Lodge?
Somewhere near West Stratford.
He peeled a yellow Post-it from the edge of the page. I wrote the directions down.
Don’t you want me here?
He drained his own coffee and looked her in the eye. Not with a face like a wet weekend, thank you.
She looked back at him. Mark, fifteen years her senior, was one of the kindliest men she had ever met. Kindly—and not simply kind—in an old-fashioned way, with courtesy and sweetness.
What is it, really?
he asked.
She ought to have been able to tell him, of all people.
But she couldn’t.
That night, she phoned Robert’s mother.
She hadn’t seen her in over a year. She sat in the kitchen, the phone in her hand for some minutes.
All around there was still the evidence of him. His magazines piled in the basket on the edge of the counter; his notes on the memo board: the chiropractor’s appointment, the dry cleaning receipt. The coffee cup that he had used last Saturday night stood by itself on the board by the sink, where he had left it. She was too superstitious to move it.
When she eventually summoned the courage to dial, it rang for ages. She was about to hang up when Eva at last answered.
It’s Catherine,
she said.
There was a pause. Hello, Catherine,
said Robert’s mother.
How are you?
I’m well, I suppose.
Another pause. I know that this seems like a strange question,
Catherine said. But is Robert with you?
Robert? I haven’t seen Robert for months.
He didn’t ring you?
Catherine asked. Any time in the last week?
Robert doesn’t ring me,
his mother said. For that matter, neither do you.
Catherine pressed the fingertips of her left hand hard into her palm. There’s been no letter?
she persevered.
Catherine,
Eva Sergeant replied, what exactly is going on?
I don’t know,
Catherine said. He left home.
Left home?
Eva echoed. She sounded amused. Have you had an argument?
No,
she told her. Nothing.
There must have been an argument.
There was nothing at all,
Catherine responded. I woke up on Sunday morning and he had gone. His clothes were gone. His money, cards, checkbook. His phone. Everything.
You’ve tried his number?
Of course,
she said. I’ve tried it fifty times a day for the last five days. I’ve left messages.
There’s no need to raise your voice to me.
Catherine took a breath. I’m sorry,
she said.
There was a long silence.
Catherine imagined her in the five-story house. She could see Eva now, sitting at the basement kitchen table, the cigarettes next to her, the lighter in her hand. The house was always shuttered and closed. The upper rooms were faded, as if the house itself had drained the color out of the furnishings. Robert’s mother kept the blinds drawn to preserve the carpets and furniture that she and Robert’s father had brought back from the Far East, but, despite that, they still had a bleached look.
The kitchen was a relic of the 1950s, yet she gravitated there, to the warmth. What time was it? Catherine glanced up at her own clock. Six fifty.
What is he doing?
Eva asked.
I’m sorry?
Robert. What is he doing?
He’s not at work …
But it’s still the same job?
Yes.
How could it be otherwise? Robert was wedded to his work. He was an accountant for a national company, based in a regional office in Salisbury. He drove for an hour each way, every day. He would set off at seven in the morning, always wanting to be the first there. Regularly, she suspected, he was the last to leave. She scoured her memory for some fragment from the last few weeks. Some mention of a client. But there was nothing.
But perhaps it was otherwise. Perhaps he had left his job. This spectacular possibility had never even occurred to her until this moment. The firm had told her that he was on vacation, but they could be covering for him, she guessed.
Well, at least he hasn’t been spirited away,
Eva commented.
What do you mean?
She heard the sound of Eva lighting the cigarette, the intake of breath. If he took everything, he intended to leave,
Eva replied.
Replacing the phone in its cradle, Catherine stood up and went upstairs.
Only when she got to the bedroom did the full weight of Eva’s insouciance hit her. She took off her clothes with a kind of savagery, got into the shower and let the water pour over her, turning up the temperature. She scrubbed at her skin furiously, washed her hair. How could a mother not care where her son had gone? Eva had treated it as if it were a joke. And then the final insult, the hint that Robert’s leaving must be no accident, but, rather, planned. Not a word of comfort for her, no trace of sympathy.
Soap got into Catherine’s eyes, and she rubbed at them, knuckling her fist against her face. Eva’s tone had suggested that such behavior was inconsequential, almost to be expected. But Robert did not do such things. Robert was ruled by time. He was utterly dependable. It was one of the things that had first attracted her to him, this air of complete security and reliability. Eva was wrong. But then Eva did not care. Eva and Edward—Robert’s father, who had died some years ago of a stroke—had sent their son to boarding school when he was tiny. Eva had showed not a particle of emotion on Catherine and Robert’s wedding day. Robert had considered it a minor miracle that she had even showed up at all.
Catherine got out of the shower and caught sight of herself in the mirror, flushed, hollow-eyed. Drying herself off, she walked into the bedroom, laid down on the bed, and pulled the covers over herself.
She did not cry. She was too angry to cry.
With her eyes closed, the truth rushed up at her.
This was how she had felt about Robert for at least a year.
3
Her life—what she thought of as real life—began in paintings.
It had been one day in the summer, an interminable summer when London was full of asphyxiating heat, when the Portland stone looked bleached, washed out, aching to the eye like faltering neon, that Catherine had discovered the galleries. Tired of touring Oxford Street with her friends, pushing through tourists, the first visit had been prompted by an argument with her best friend. They had fought on the corner of Millbank over something too trivial to remember, and Catherine had caught a bus, got off by the Tate, and walked in, up the Cinderella-sweep of steps, idly imagining herself in full ball-gown regalia. Thoughts turned inward, to herself, to all the obsessive circularity of being fourteen. She couldn’t have been less interested in art.
And then it began. She had found herself in a wide empty space where the floor was cool. She sat down, right in the center, and looked up, dwarfed by the paintings, the Raphael cartoons. She looked at the figure of Christ, and the reflections in the Sea of Galilee, so cleverly made in negative to bring the correct perspective to the finished tapestries. A thrill—the thrill of the ingenuity of it.
Until that moment, Catherine had been following her parents into a scientific career. A chemist. She had this blueprint plan for herself, to research something, to get famous for some discovery. To astound the world. She had opted for science because it seemed like an inside route, a path, a fast track to the unknown. Putting her eye to a microscope lens, she liked the invisible detail, the silent explosion of life that carried on every day without any human witness. She liked the thought that she—that everything—was built on these indestructible threads, threads that reformed themselves after apparent annihilation. Life triumphant wriggling in a mirror, in a piece of glass.
But this was the day—the day of the dwarfing Raphaels—that she first saw Richard Dadd’s painting.
She had come away from the giants and wandered into a smaller room. There, on a wall in the corner, tucked away almost out of sight, she found him.
Catherine had leaned forward and stared. The painting was small, perhaps only twelve inches by ten. It was intensely green. It was called The Fairy Feller’s Master-Stroke. Just below the center of the picture was a man, his back to the viewer, with an axe raised over his shoulders. In front of him on the ground was a dark oval, and the blade of the axe formed a gold rectangle above it, one of the few bright patches in a complicated sea of green and brown.
All that Catherine noticed at first was the man, and the crowd around him, and the fact that he was in some sort of clearing; then it dawned on her that the man was, in fact, standing not between trees but between tall grasses, and that the crowds around him were not ordinary people but extraordinary ones.
There were pirates, and dwarves, and dragonflies. Misshapen faces and hands. Tiny feet above grossly distorted calves; wings folded behind backs. Satyrs crawled in the weedy undergrowth; an old man sat almost below the axe. Courtiers of all kinds—insects, humans—surrounded a crowned couple. Under them, crouching under a daisy bank, his arms extended left to right across the picture, was a robed magician, his finger raised as if commanding the moment of execution.
She looked again at the title. The Fairy Feller’s Master-Stroke.
She wondered for a second if the old man were the victim of the axe; then she looked again at the dark shape on the ground. It was a hazel- or beechnut, stood on end to take the blow, and split in half. A master stroke, to cut the whole in one clean movement.
Leaning down still further, Catherine had a great temptation to touch the surface of the paint. It was thick—each tiny leaf, each petal exactly rendered. The grasses cut across the painting like cords, raised up from the paint. Every fraction of a millimeter—even the eyes, the fingernails, were accurate, tiny as they were. Each crease of clothing and fold of skin. The exacting, almost painful detail. Everything in the detail.
At last she walked away from it, out into the brilliant gaze of the Victorians and pre-Raphaelites of the main display. She walked on past Sargent, and out again to Frith’s Derby Day, and, running her gaze over the crowds in Frith’s painting, she saw echoes of the goblin faces of Dadd, and the vibration of color of the axe hanging in midair.
Several weeks later she had found out more about Dadd: that he had shown promise, been hailed as a genius. That he had gone to Syria and Egypt and fallen ill there. That he had come home in the first throes of schizophrenia. And that he had murdered his father, cutting the old man’s throat with a pocketknife, and spent over forty years imprisoned, and that the painting that she couldn’t put out of her mind—along with all the other paintings that had started to inhabit her waking moments—that The Fairy Feller’s Master-Stroke had been painted in Bedlam, the hospital whose very name had become a password for fear.
Her parents couldn’t understand her. They judged the obsession with art to be a passing phase. They made light of it; even laughed about it, as if indulging a childish whim.
Working abroad as they did, her parents only saw her every month or so. They were sociable people, generous people, working in Brussels for Médecin Libre. Their life was talk—they negotiated aid agency funding; they crossed frontiers. For two whole years when she had never seen them—lonely years of being nine and ten, and farmed out to friends and families at Christmas and the holidays—they were in Somalia. Each a scientist, each an administrator, each with two pragmatic feet firmly on the ground, they caught the Richard Dadd story only as a passing half-truth.
Is that real?
her father had asked her, laughing, as he drove at a suicidal speed out of London. A painter? Some crazy painter?
He’d looked over his shoulder, smiling.
I’m going to change courses,
she’d replied.
Her mother had then turned to look at her. To do what?
Fine arts,
she’d said.
Heaven help us all,
her mother had said, smiling, thinking that it was Catherine’s joke.
Not real, my love,
her father had repeated. She could still see his tanned hands on the steering wheel. He was so glamorous, this loud-voiced man, almost a caricature of the ruddy-faced Englishman. He had a life planned for his daughter. A life of research and exploration, a factual life. That was it, that was it exactly: a life of fact, a life in fact.
Fine art history,
she’d told them. The headlights of the car were dancing through the hedgerows. Pale blue light was stretched on the sky even though the ground was dark. Threads and filaments of stars and clouds were inappropriately visible in the blue. Dadd was whispering in her ear, a nail scratching on glass, a burr in cloth pressed to her skin.
Her school was on the fringes of Hampstead. Each day, Catherine passed a white clapboard house on the Heath. It had a