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Turnabout: Ex-cop Frankie O'Neil is caught in the middle of a murder and money laundering scheme in Florida, forced to fight for his family while trying to survive in a world he thought he'd left behind. Shallow Secrets: An unsatisfactory conclusion to a series of crimes cost James Robinson his career—eight years later, a new wave of murder may finally redeem him.
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Turnabout / Shallow Secrets - Rick Ollerman
Turnabout
Shallow Secrets
by Rick Ollerman
TURNABOUT / SHALLOW SECRETS
Published by Stark House Press
1315 H Street
Eureka, CA 95501
www.starkhousepress.com
TURNABOUT by Rick Ollerman copyright © 2014
SHALLOW SECRETS by Rick Ollerman copyright © 2014
Timepieces: The New Old Worlds of Rick Ollerman
copyright © 2014
by Cullen Gallagher
All rights reserved
PUBLISHER’S NOTE:
This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places and incidents are either the products of the author’s imagination or used fictionally, and any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, events or locales, is entirely coincidental.
Without limiting the rights under copyright reserved above, no part of this publication may be reproduced, stored, or introduced into a retrieval system or transmitted in any form or by any means (electronic, mechanical, photocopying, recording or otherwise) without the prior written permission of both the copyright owner and the above publisher of the book.
First e-book edition: February 2015
Table Of Contents
Introduction
Author’s Note
TURNABOUT
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Chapter Eleven
Chapter Twelve
Chapter Thirteen
Chapter Fourteen
Chapter Fifteen
Chapter Sixteen
Chapter Seventeen
Chapter Eighteen
Chapter Nineteen
Chapter Twenty
Chapter Twenty One
Chapter Twenty Two
Chapter Twenty Three
Chapter Twenty Four
Chapter Twenty Five
Chapter Twenty Six
Chapter Twenty Seven
Chapter Twenty Eight
Chapter Twenty Nine
SHALLOW SECRETS
PART ONE: Spring, 1989
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
PART TWO: Fall, 1996
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
PART THREE
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Chapter Eleven
PART FOUR
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Epilogue
Introduction
Timepieces: The New Old Worlds of Rick Ollerman
by Cullen Gallagher
Conventional wisdom separates the critics from the authors. It’s a literary prejudice akin to that school-age fallacy, Those who can’t do, teach.
(It was memorably extrapolated by Woody Allen in Annie Hall to also include the coda, And those who can’t teach, teach gym.
) In grade school, that is a perfectly acceptable philosophical outlook on life: a way to assert one’s own sophomoric superiority over their teachers. As we grow older, however, we discover that such dichotomies are rarely so simple, and that conventional wisdom is often just misinformed malarkey.
Such is the case with the critic/author division, and this volume of Ollerman’s novels is the proof.
***
I first got to know Rick Ollerman through his critical introductions to Stark House’s books. The first one I read was in Peter Rabe’s The Silent Wall and The Return of Marvin Palaver. It was immediately apparent that what I was reading more than just an introduction
—it was the transcription of a deep conversation between reader and text.
His sentences are often stark and at the same time rich with subtext; idiosyncratic, yet so deftly written their intent remains clear.
And that was just the beginning. It was the sort of rigorous, perceptive critical analysis that fans of noir fiction long for yet rarely find. Ollerman took one of my favorite writers, explained to me in intimate details why I loved him, and then provided me with dozens of new insights and reasons to love him. A finer and more insightful essay on Rabe has yet to be written.
Ollerman was my new best friend, and I had never even met the man.
Future introductions were included in the books Nothing in Her Way and River Girl by Charles Williams; Jada M. Davis’s never-before-published country noir masterpiece, Midnight Road; two West Coast countercultural novels by John Trinian, North Beach Girl and Scandal on the Sand; and several others. In his critical essays, Ollerman does more than just remember books that have unjustly fallen through the cracks, he reminds us why they deserve to be remembered, and of the rich legacy that was almost lost. Most importantly, he treats paperback originals not as some low-brow curiosity, but as literature, the way they should be. His is an invaluable insight and knowledge that should be treasured and revered for generations to come.
That is Rick Ollerman the critic.
Now, meet Rick Ollerman the author.
***
Ollerman writes the types of books that he would love to write about. High-octane noir. Mystery laced with action and doom. Thrillers with big black heart at the core. Gruesome crimes. Investigations that bring out the worst in people. Spiritually broken protagonists with nothing much to lose because they’ve already lost it all. Driving plots told with breakneck pacing, where each passing page brings the incessant timer that much closer to zero. His style is a fond homage to the pulpy élan of 1950s and 1960s paperback originals, but it’s not imitation or pastiche. Ollerman’s stories are of their moment, and the stories and characters thoroughly contemporary.
Imagine Lionel White and Charles Williams writing a computer caper and you have an inkling of what Turnabout is like. It is equal parts heist-, revenge-, buddy-, and techno-thriller, topped off by a killer chase through Florida swampland for the big finale. The story is about a cop, Frankie O’Neil, who decides it is time to retire after his marriage starts to fall apart and a fellow cop commits suicide. By chance, he falls into the then-new business of computer consultation. But after a tech colleague is found murdered floating in the ocean, O’Neil is pulled back into action by two cops who were working with the victim on a money laundering case.
As the title suggests, Turnabout is no straightforward mystery, the characters aren’t simply good and bad, and the moral situations are never just right and wrong. After all, the book is about an ex-cop colluding with an obese pickpocket and a computer-obsessed custodian, and they’re breaking into offices after hours to battle corrupt businessmen dealing in stolen money that is also wanted by equally corrupt cops.
The title also suggests an instruction to turn around and travel back in time. Even though it is set in the not-so-distant past of the early 1990s, to newer generations these primitive days of the computer boom will seem like science-fiction. As Ollerman explains in his preface, These books were written back in the days when the technology most of us use every day was either not invented yet or still very uncommon. There was the Internet, but no world wide web.
In this light, I don’t think Turnabout could be written today, and I’m sure many publishers wouldn’t have the guts to even publish it. The very qualities that make it such a timepiece, on the other hand, are also what make it such a valuable piece of literature. It offers us an insider’s view into a world on the precipice of an enormous change, the magnitude of which even the characters are unaware of, despite what they say. Turnabout exists in a technologically naïve world to which we’ll never be able to return. Ollerman, however, makes it possible to revisit that world, if only for a few pages.
You’ve got to remember what I said about computer security. There’s no such thing. When personal computers were designed nobody dreamed of the kinds of things we’d be doing with them today. Nobody knew how clever we could be with them. … Anything someone can think of to secure the data, someone else can think of ways to un-secure that data. We can’t outsmart ourselves.
The second novel here, Shallow Secrets, is the dark beast of the two, a grim and brooding blend of noir and backwoods horror that suggests a lost weekend shared between Robert Bloch, David Goodis and Harry Whittington.
Whereas in Turnabout, O’Neil left the police force just as the darkness began to touch him, in Shallow Secrets, the protagonist wasn’t able to get out so clean. Ex-detective James Robinson is fully engulfed by darkness. He carries within him a shattered marriage, a girlfriend murdered by a serial killer who he’d let crash in his house, a crime that he himself was officially implicated in but never given the chance to redeem himself. He also told the girlfriend’s bother he would get to the bottom of it, a promise he never fulfilled. So, he leaves the force and becomes a recluse, fixing motorcycles to pay the bills. Now, six years later, another serial killer has been caught, and he will only talk to Robinson, which pulls him into the case both as an unofficial investigator, and also as a suspect.
The vacuous blackness that is consuming Robinson is brilliantly manifested in his home—or, rather, in the sinkhole that has literally swallowed the rest of the housing development, leaving only Robinson’s house on unstable ground that will surely give way in a matter of time. This is, without a doubt, high among the most noir homes ever, physically representing the spiritual crisis that is plaguing Robinson throughout the book.
You’re like my life,
he said to the sinkhole as he popped another can. A goddamn black hole that swallows everything that comes near it.
This scenic trope also shows the literary quality of Ollerman’s writing, an inspired touch that plunges the story into a surreal, symbolic world apart from the rest of the story. I’m not sure if it is intentional or not, but it reminds me of the beached whale in John Trinian’s Scandal on the Sand that washes up in the first chapter and haunts the characters and landscape for the rest of the novel. Like the whale, the sinkhole is a moment of magical realism in an otherwise realist narrative, a metaphorical anchor for the book’s overarching theme of life losses that are beyond our control.
***
In the 1950s, these two novels would have been published by one of the premier paperback houses such as Gold Medal, Lion, or perhaps Ace, who would have issued it as one of their signature doubles
that could be flipped over for the second book. Sadly, Gold Medal and Lion are gone, and Ace no longer offers those literary double features. But thankfully, we do have Stark House Press, who honors their legacy not only by reprinting their classics from half a century ago, but by issuing new work that carries on in their tradition. Rick Ollerman, critic and novelist, represents the best of both worlds.
And now, without further ado, here’s Rick Ollerman.
–June 2014
Brooklyn, NY
Author’s Note
These books were written back in the days when the technology most of us use every day was either not invented yet or still very uncommon. There was the Internet, but no world wide web. Instead of a browser, you would typically log in to a university system somewhere, one that allowed the public to create login IDs, and use line commands to do things like post questions to user groups; you could log back in after a day or so to see if someone’s posted an answer.
Graphic user interfaces weren’t in use, either, not on every day computers. After the PC revolution, the next step was creating local area networks. That was magic enough without even thinking about broadband networks covering multiple locations.
This was a world with cell phones, but they were rarities, big handheld things that looked like consumerized military walkie-talkies. Pay phones still roamed the earth. Answering machines used cassette tapes. Cameras took pictures on film that needed to be developed, not CCD devices that saved digital files on removable media.
No Al Qaeda or 9/11 attacks had yet led to the TSA and security checkpoints at airports; anyone could still go right to the gates without a ticket, to pick up or see off anyone they wanted. Gas and airplane fuel wasn’t so expensive and private pilots weren’t as uncommon as they’ve become.
In Florida, pythons had yet to take over the Everglades, Big Sugar had yet to agree to sell to the government, and there was still at least some border area between Miami development and actual swampland.
People haven’t changed that much, though. There are still good guys and bad guys, cops and robbers, and occasionally, ordinary people who get caught up in things they wish they hadn’t.
TURNABOUT
To Melissa Sue,
the girl who wants everything
There was no moment of transition, no segue, no sense of anticipation. There was no feeling of standing atop a ladder and feeling your weight shift, realizing recovery wasn’t going to happen, then gently falling away. There was no reaching behind you, no bracing for impact.
There was an abortive startle reflex: a wild grab, a mad rolling of the eyes, a massive clench of the abdomen. But it was too late; you were already gone.
One moment you were held up in the sky by an airplane. In another, you weren’t.
The impossible surge of panic vanished, ousted by thoughts that were like pictures in your mind. You were no longer thinking your final thoughts, you were seeing them.
Marie.…
Two seconds have passed. You’re falling at forty four miles per hour.
You see/think the image in your mind of the tandem skydive you made a few years ago, and you spreadeagle like you did in that training those years ago on that beach in Mexico. You let the pressure of the air pushing your arms and legs back, molding your torso into a reverse arch.
Three seconds. Sixty six miles per hour.
You move only your eyes up to look for the plane, afraid to move your head and risk your tenuous stability. With nothing at that precise point above you, you move your eyes down quickly. You feel a false sensation of calm that’s really intense concentration when suddenly the panic floods back and breaks over you like a hammer: I’m falling! I’m going to die!
Marie.…
Four seconds. Seventy eight miles per hour.
The wind scrapes at your eyes and you see the water beneath you through heavily blurred streaks. You see flecks of white that may be whitecaps on the waves below. You see an irregular shape that could be a boat. For an instant you feel your muscles freeze, your body suddenly paralyzed, but it passes and nothing’s changed. You’re still falling and the sound of the wind ripping past your ears swallows your hearing the way the tears in your eyes have stolen your vision.
Five seconds. Ninety miles per hour.
Unable to focus, you see/think/feel your body slamming into water as solid as cement. There are so many tears, you’re nearly blind. There’s so much noise, you’re virtually deaf. A vague field of emerald green is rushing up to meet you, accelerating from all corners of your remaining vision, racing toward a single, central point directly beneath you.
Six seconds. Ninety eight miles per hour.
Marie.…
Extra moisture flies past your stinging eyes as your tear ducts surge with a final emotional release. You wish you could feel yourself cry one last time. You wish you could feel warm tears instead of this painful.…
I’m going to die!
Can you really smell the ocean?
Seven seconds. One hundred and four miles per hour.
Hope. You see/think an image of cliff divers in Acapulco. The water’s rock hard surface is below you, but what if you can hit it just right? Is there a ‘just right’? What if?
Eight seconds. One hundred eight miles per hour.
Increasing wind resistance has slowed your acceleration but you can’t notice. You’re nearly at the point where wind resistance stalemates the force of gravity. You bend your knees the barest of fractions, feeling the drop of your legs.
Nine seconds. One hundred and ten miles per hour. Terminal velocity.
Your feet and knees meet the surface of the water at the same time, your body no longer belly to earth. You’re torn nearly in two as your legs make contact with the water, which separates them at the surface a minuscule fraction of a second before your body drives down between them.
Marie.
Chapter One
It was a clear spring Sunday and the park was full of people walking along the asphalt trails after church. Mothers were arriving at the wading pool with their children and some kids were playing baseball on one of the diamonds at the north end. Two basketball games were running side by side on adjacent courts, separated from the tennis players by a chain link fence.
It was pure street ball, very little passing, few jump shots, just do it off the dribble and take it to the hole, baby. More than a game, it was a way of life for some of them. The park was a low cost country club for Tampa’s under privileged.
From the parking lot fifty yards away, two men in rumpled cotton suits walked up and stood at the edge of one of the games. They watched patiently, waiting for a break in the game, not speaking to each other.
In the middle of a play, someone noticed them and called out, Yo man, I’ve got to go.
A number of the players looked around, saw what they didn’t like and moved to a picnic table where they snatched a tee-shirt or a ball from the bench. Very quickly they filtered out of the park. The other game stopped and it too broke up.
The remaining players from both contests moved to one of the baskets away from the men in suits and began taking shots. One man stayed on the court where he had been playing, waiting for the inevitable. He was bent over with his hands on his knees, looking at the ground. What are you doing here, Hill?
We need to talk to you, Frankie,
said the bigger of the two men. The other one grinned at him.
Frankie O’Neil straightened up and looked behind him. There were barely enough people left for one game. Leave me the fuck alone, Hill.
He began to walk away from the policemen toward the remaining players, wondering if he’d still be welcome. Behind him Hill called, Come on, Detective.
O’Neil turned and marched back, stopping just short of the man’s face. Hill was a few inches shorter than O’Neil but there was a hardness there, a discernible quality that had nothing to do with running miles in the park or lifting weights at the gym. He didn’t flinch when O’Neil jabbed an index finger into his chest.
Where the hell do you come off coming down here calling me out in front of these guys?
He kept his voice down but his anger was visible. And what’s this ‘Detective’ shit? I stopped being one of you guys a long time ago.
We just want to talk.
Well fuck you, Hill. And you, too, Fetterman.
Neither of the men moved. There’s probably fifteen guys here now that will associate me with you two clowns and by next week that’ll be everywhere. These guys don’t like cops and they don’t like assholes. I’m surprised they even let you park here.
Now listen, O’Neil—
No, you listen,
O’Neil said jabbing his finger again. You just fixed it so I can’t play here anymore. Or anywhere else in the fucking city. These guys think I have anything to do with cops and even if I get on the court they’ll have to roll me off on a stretcher. I’ll be playing with punk ass kids and wheezing old men at the goddamned Y.
He turned and walked across the court to the picnic table. He picked up his tee-shirt and ball and started for the parking lot.
We have to talk, Frankie,
called Hill.
O’Neil didn’t stop. You want to talk to me, call me at the office.
The two men turned and watched him leave. Fetterman spoke up. I can stop him.
No,
said Hill. Let him go. We’ll get to him later. Or he’ll get to us.
He threw the basketball at a chair as he walked into the house. Katy heard him come in and walked out of the kitchen wearing an old fashioned apron over a pair of shorts and a cut off tee-shirt.
What’s wrong?
she asked as she stepped up to give him a kiss.
Nothing,
O’Neil told her, kissing her back. I’m over it, anyway.
He watched the basketball roll off the chair and come to a stop under a table. What are you doing in the kitchen? I thought I was making lunch today.
Katy saw that he was fine and laughed at him. Comedian. I thought I’d whip something up both of us could eat.
O’Neil spread his arms wide and said, At least let me help.
Frankie, if I asked you to separate an egg for me, what would you do?
Take it out of the box? Away from the other little eggies?
Uh huh.
She turned to go back to the kitchen. Go take a shower, stinky.
O’Neil peeled off his sweaty tee-shirt and said, You know if you give me a few more guesses I bet I could figure that one out.
He turned and headed up the stairs leading to their bedroom.
Halfway up, Katy called from the kitchen. Honey?
O’Neil stopped climbing. Yeah, sweets?
John called earlier and left a message on the machine. He wants you to call him as soon as you get in.
I’ll do it up here.
O’Neil made it to the bedroom and collapsed on one side of the bed. His body still allowed him to play ball with the hustlers every weekend but it had become a lot harder and needed a longer period of forgiveness after each episode. He scooped up the phone and speed dialed his business partner. John, hi, it’s me. What’s up?
Frankie.
O’Neil pushed himself to a sitting position when he heard the way his friend said his name. What’s wrong, buddy?
O’Neil heard the sound of a deep breath being drawn on the other end. Where’ve you been?
Playing ball all morning. Are you okay?
John didn’t answer right away. O’Neil waited, giving him time. I don’t want to be the one telling you this.
A cloud of rising anxiety made O’Neil feel sick to his stomach. Christ, John, telling me what?
Marie Clayton called me. She said she tried to reach you but you weren’t there.
The cloud turned cold. What happened?
I— Tim is dead.
O’Neil squeezed the phone in a white knuckled death grip and he clamped his eyes shut as John continued talking.
How could Tim be dead, he kept thinking. His best friend, closer than a brother. How could any of what John was saying be true?
Wait a minute, man. You’re saying someone threw him out of an airplane?
"Marie said that Tim didn’t come home Friday night. He had left her a note saying he might have to go out of town for a client and that he would call her, but he never did. He didn’t even sign the note.
Apparently, two guys were fishing in a skiff south of the Gandy Bridge yesterday morning. They were out there alone when they heard a sound like a shell exploding and saw a splash. They went over to check it out and they found him.
Was he already dead?
Stupid question.
He was barely in one piece.
O’Neil heard Katy coming up the stairs but he didn’t open his eyes. They didn’t see what happened?
They said they may have heard a small airplane a couple of minutes before but they’re not sure. But when you’re fishing in Tampa Bay a few miles from an airport that wouldn’t make much of an impression.
Were there any other boats around? Did anybody else see it happen?
You’re thinking like a cop again, Frankie. No people, no boats, and the water was too damned shallow for a submarine.
Christ,
O’Neil said, scraping his fingers through his hair. I don’t believe this. There’s no possibility they’re wrong?
I guess the noise was pretty bad. Really big. Marie—
John paused, taking another breath. Marie said she saw the body.
Neither man spoke for a minute. O’Neil blinked his eyes open and saw Katy framed in the bedroom doorway, wringing the kitchen apron in her hands. Give me a while, I’ll call you back.
He hung up the phone and turned to face his wife. Katy stopped moving and stared at a spot on the floor near O’Neil’s feet. Tim’s dead,
he said simply.
Quietly she asked, What are you going to do?
O’Neil wanted to ask her, what are you so frightened of, but that was a different thing, he knew. I don’t know,
he said. Something. I have to do something.
As a cop, Frankie?
She said the word with a surprising bitterness.
As who I am.
O’Neil wanted to stop talking, to pay some attention to the war of emotions taking place in his head. I love you, sweetheart.
I know,
she said. But I’m going to have to leave again, aren’t I?
Katy looked up and there were tears streaking down her cheeks. Without any more talking, they were both aware of something that neither of them had words for.
O’Neil stood and moved into the bathroom. A minute later, steaming water hissed from the shower and did not stop until a long time later.
Katy never moved.
The shower was numbing, as if it were cold, but billowing sheets of steam rolled over the curtain bar and blanketed the bathroom walls with tiny beads of moisture. O’Neil almost lost his footing on the slick porcelain as he got out of the shower and grabbed a towel from the rack. His body was on auto-pilot as, still naked, he walked out of the bathroom and over to the bedroom phone.
John, I need an airplane.
Frankie? Is that you? Are you okay?
Yeah, it’s me.
Are you all right? What are you going to do?
I’m fine, John, and don’t keep asking me questions. Please.
After a silence O’Neil didn’t have the patience for, John said, Martin, our database guy, he’s a pilot. I think he flies with a club or something out of Lakeland but I don’t think he’s been doing it long.
Doesn’t matter, I just need him to do it a little longer. I’ll call him. Do one thing for me, will you? Tell Marie you let me know what happened.
You’re not going to call her then?
No more questions, John. I can’t come up with the answers. Goodbye.
O’Neil got dressed and left the house. Katy had left some food on the table but wasn’t in the kitchen. He knew he should eat something, especially after playing ball, but his stomach was rolled up like a frightened caterpillar. He picked up a dry-erase marker from the counter and wrote a message to Katy on the magnetic board on the refrigerator and then left without looking for her or saying a word.
In the living room his wife sat on the sofa with an overstuffed pillow curled up into her legs. She heard the front door close and smeared the tears across her cheeks with her left hand. She stared at the saltiness glittering on the diamonds on her wedding band. I’ll put the eggs away, Frankie.
In the kitchen, on the refrigerator, a sign said, I love you so very much.
Chapter Two
The drive to the Lakeland airport took him almost 45 minutes. Sunday afternoon traffic should have been lighter but there was congestion at the interchange at 301 where the State Fair had opened a week earlier. O’Neil was turning thoughts over and over in his mind, all of them slippery things, none of them grabbing hold. Everything kept cycling back to the single question, Why Tim?
The airport at Lakeland was a large regional operation approximately forty miles due east of Tampa International by air. Martin Cox walked out of a building as O’Neil pulled into a newly paved parking lot that smelled strongly of fresh tar. The building was a large aluminum hangar with a sign painted in red and blue on its side: New Aero Training Center.
Martin raised his hand when he saw O’Neil and called, Over here, boss.
O’Neil nodded and pushed a pair of sunglasses high up on the bridge of his nose. He didn’t want to meet anyone’s eyes. He followed Martin through a gate onto the tarmac in front of the hangar. Martin stopped in front of a beige and blue low winged Piper, looking uncomfortable. I’m sorry about your friend, Mr. O’Neil. It’s a horrible thing. John said you were close.
O’Neil turned his head and studied Martin’s face through gray tinted lenses. You spoke with John?
Martin nodded and broke away, quickly moving to drain the condensation from the Piper’s fuel tanks. I don’t know where you want to go, sir, but this won’t be bad for just two of us. It should do 85, 90 knots on a day like this.
It won’t work,
O’Neil said. The wings are low, I need to be able to see down. Straight down. We need a plane with high wings, like a Cessna. I should have mentioned it on the phone.
Martin’s face took on a lost look, an expression that made him look much younger than he was. Let me see about the club’s 172. It’s scheduled to be down for an annual but I’ll see if they’ll let us take it.
O’Neil nodded for him to go ahead.
Twenty minutes later the Cessna 172 was fueled and pre-flighted, and O’Neil and Martin lifted off into the dense and humid Florida air.
I’m going to need to know where it is you want to go, Mr. O’Neil.
O’Neil refused a headset and Martin was forced to shout over the noise of the propeller.
West,
O’Neil yelled back. Head west. I want you to take me over the bay south of the Gandy Bridge but not as far as the Pier.
Martin nodded and almost said, That should take about fifteen minutes from here,
but didn’t. Sitting together in the tiny cockpit they climbed to a thousand feet above the earth but stayed a million miles apart.
How high do you want to go?
asked Martin.
High enough,
grunted O’Neil. High enough to die.
It wasn’t long before they were over the gray-green Gulf of Mexico waters that O’Neil had described. They cleared land and O’Neil told Martin to keep going and not to circle. Just stay over the water,
he shouted.
Could you smell the ocean up here like I can, Tim? Did you know you were going to die?
The earth was laid out in front of them, flat, with the afternoon sun waning in their eyes. The perception of the horizon was lost to the moisture in the air, the range of vision stopped well short of the horizon. The air itself blocked the earth’s edges. The airplane droned on, a repeating variance in pitch coming from the propellor, low to high, low to high. It sounded like kids in the park with those old motorized airplanes that flew at the end of guide ropes attached to a handle. The hypnotic sound would grow louder then fade as the toy plane was guided round and round in circles.
It wasn’t an accident, was it? Your seat belt would have been on, the door would have been closed, but those things didn’t help you. Why did somebody want to see you die?
O’Neil pressed his forehead to the clear plexiglass window on the door next to him and looked down at the water, away from the sun. He looked as straight down as he could, past the metal peg that served as a kind of step. It was welded to a strut that led down to the covered wheel. Beyond that, empty space filled the area between the plane and the ocean below. Slow the plane down, Martin.
Pardon me?
Slow the plane down.
Uncertainly, Martin reached forward and throttled back the engine to just above stall speed, staring at O’Neil, not sure he had heard correctly but not wanting to ask again. The altimeter read eleven hundred feet and they were flying west-southwest on a heading of 245 degrees, following a line that led directly out to the Gulf of Mexico.
This whole scene was getting weird and it hadn’t started out all that routine, either, thought Martin. Frankie O’Neil and John Sanders owned and ran the software consulting firm where he had been lucky, he thought, to begin working after college. When Sanders had called him and told him that O’Neil would be asking a favor, a man whose best friend had just been killed, Martin had dropped his plans for the afternoon and was only too happy to help. Actually, he felt proud just to be noticed. But right now he had no idea what was going on with the man sitting next to him. O’Neil’s face was tightly set, the muscles at the corners of his jaw rigid. This guy is losing it, Martin thought. Head out to the Gulf, fly ‘high enough,’ slow the plane down cold like a glacier slowly worked its way down from somewhere north and settled into the pit of his stomach.
O’Neil placed his hand on the door handle and turned it downward. The door didn’t move, held closed by the pressure of the air flowing along the outside of the plane. Slow it down more,
he shouted over the noise.
Martin nearly swallowed the wad of gum in his mouth. What— what are you going to do?
SLOW THE PLANE DOWN!
For a long second, neither man moved, the droning pitch of the propellor noise drilling into the heads of both of them, the sense of hearing dominating all others. Slowly Martin reached forward again and throttled back the plane even more. The little Cessna shuddered as it began to stall and Martin quickly dropped the nose slightly then added a little more power to the engine. What did I get myself into, he thought furiously. There is a crazy man in this airplane and I don’t want anything to happen to him. I don’t want anything to happen to me. He concentrated very hard on the numerous gauges and dials in front of him, seeing them all but not aware of any of them.
O’Neil pushed the door open. It resisted but he could do it with one arm. A foil gum wrapper rose off the floor and zinged past his ear into space. He was oblivious to the pilot as he unclasped his seat belt with his right hand. Now he could lean his head out the door and see the turquoise water shimmering in the sea breeze below. Is this what you saw, Tim? Was it green and pretty and peaceful? Did you remember all the time you spent fishing in the Gulf, the time spent here swimming and sailing and enjoying life? Is this what it looked like? Is this what you saw as you died?
He turned his body and swung his legs over the side of the seat, dangling them eleven hundred feet above water as hard as concrete. Rushing air caught his sunglasses and ripped them from his face. O’Neil tried to watch them fall into the water but they blew backwards, toward the tail, and he lost sight of them almost immediately. Surely it wasn’t like that for you, my friend.
O’Neil edged closer to the open door, extending one leg further into the airstream. There was constant pressure pushing him towards the tail and he had to keep the muscles of his arm flexed in order to hold it in place. He leaned forward, left arm extended and elbow locked, forcing the door open against the air pressure. His right arm held him inside the plane as he leaned his body far enough outside the plane so that he could see the water rolling out directly below the wheel.
Holy Mary, Mother of Christ, Martin swore and shut his eyes. If we run into a thermal or hit some turbulence.…
Martin banked the plane to left slightly in a subtle attempt to gently angle his boss back into the airplane. O’Neil’s head whipped around and he looked at Martin for the first time during the flight. Don’t.
Martin automatically leveled the Cessna’s wings and glued his eyes to the artificial horizon indicator. Silently, he began to pray, his lips moving. He wouldn’t look at O’Neil again.
O’Neil turned back to the door and studied his foot hanging from the tiny airplane, a universe of empty space between it and the rolling surface below. He tried to get his mind around the concept of freefall and what it would be like to fall for some part of your last minute alive. To be perfectly fine and healthy, but knowing with absolute certainty that you were going to die when your fragile body crashed into the water below, smashed to pieces inside as your 110 miles per hour blaze through the air was interrupted by a planet.
What did you think about, Tim? Were they the same things I would think about? Were you panicked? Were you accepting? God damn it, what was it like to be the target of such a slow bullet?
For long minutes they flew into the sun, neither man moving an inch, each held captive by their inner thoughts. I’ve never seen a man die, Martin thought, his eyes still glued to the panel before him. If he wants to jump, I can’t stop him, not without crashing the plane. I won’t watch him die. Oh God, why did he have to call on me?
O’Neil sat stock still, legs hanging out of the airplane door, his body perched literally on the edge of his seat, left arm propping the door open, his right hooking him to the plane itself. I can’t do any more, Tim. I can’t know what you felt, what you thought. But I know it shouldn’t have happened, damn it, not to you. Probably not to anybody.
He closed his eyes then very slowly pulled his legs back into the airplane. He let the door close itself against the fuselage as he swung forward in the seat and turned the handle upwards to lock it. Martin,
he said as softly as he could and still be heard over the airplane noise. The young pilot didn’t move. Martin,
O’Neil reached over and put his hand on the other man’s shoulder. Let’s go home.
Moisture salty as the ocean below glistened on Martin’s face as he banked the plane around and left the open Gulf behind. Next to him, O’Neil fastened his seat belt around his lap. It would be a hell of a thing to fall out now.
Chapter Three
The sunset turned the sky into an arrangement of surrealistic fluorescence, bright pinks and blues, reds and oranges, purples and yellows. It looks fake somehow, O’Neil thought, like a cheap painting in a plastic frame. He squinted into the disappearing sun as the sky painted itself with the colors of its odd spectrum and slowly turned to dark. The gentle waves slapping the sides of the bowrider turned from silver to gray to black as the eyes gave up the ability to see the colors of the night.
O’Neil lay on the bottom of the boat, fingers clasped behind his head as he stared into the sky, propped up by a wedge of life vests. The smell of the sea was strong and as he breathed deeply it gently stung the inside of his nose. Glare from the nearby city took over the edges of the night sky and the sounds of rushing traffic carried from the distance across the water.
Lost in his grief, his mind drifted back to a summer from his college years, a few months spent exploring the myths of the Southern California coastal lifestyle. It was in Hollywood, supposed home of the stars, that he and Tim Clayton had met.
Traffic along Hollywood Boulevard had been brisk and the sidewalks were full of tourists and homeless people, sharing the glamour and the misfortune of the city. The lines of shops were mostly dirty, rundown dives offering sleazy tee-shirts at three for ten dollars and electronics stores, the kind where you make a purchase and they keep the box for the next customer.
O’Neil was walking the sidewalk, reading the names in the stars embedded in the concrete sidewalk, fascinated by the history yet appalled by what the reality had become. It’s not what they show on TV, he thought. O’Neil stopped at a star stained with something that had crept out from a recessed doorway and rubbed at it with his foot. As he cleared the mess, the name on the star said ‘Charles Chaplin.’ There was no one to look after him here.
It was in a little diner advertising vegetarian chili and fruit smoothies that he had met Tim Clayton. O’Neil had stopped in to try a Malibu Sunrise with mango slices and then perhaps a bowl of the chili. The diner was old, sheets of dull chrome hammered over the tops and sides of the counter and tables. It looked and felt like a restaurant from a Hemingway story.
After O’Neil ordered, he stood up from the counter and went to use the rest room. Two urinals, one vacant and one being used, were mounted on the wall across from the door. The one in use was mounted in a normal position two feet off the floor. The empty one looked like something you might find in a circus. It was full-sized but it was positioned near the floor, set barely an inch off the ground. Separating the two was a metal section of wall bolted to the tiles.
As O’Neil stepped up to the open urinal, the man using the normal one looked over his shoulder and said, Hey, how’s it going?
O’Neil replied without thinking. Not too bad,
he said. He looked down at the urinal and unzipped his fly. Considering the unusual plumbing fixture, he said, Looks like I’ve got the small one.
The guy gave him an odd sort of look, nodded, and left the restroom after a quick stop at the sink. It took O’Neil a minute to realize what had just happened. When two men are standing side by side relieving themselves, even with a wall blocking each other from the elbows down, the last thing you say is, Looks like I’ve got the small one.
He washed up and left the bathroom shaking his head and feeling stupid. At least he was from out of town and far from home.
The dining counter was shaped like a horseshoe with two ends extending out from the kitchen and meeting to form a generous U
shape. Along one edge was the food O’Neil had ordered. Directly across was the guy from the bathroom. It was the middle of the afternoon and there wasn’t anybody else in the place.
Well, isn’t this awkward, thought O’Neil as he sat down and unfurled a napkin across his lap. Maybe we can compare sandwich sizes next.
The waitress, an unnatural blonde with hair of a shade not normally found in nature, stepped between them and asked, You want anything else with that, honey?
O’Neil said no thank you and dropped a spoon into his chili. When the waitress moved away, the guy across from him was smiling. I won’t say anything about it if you won’t,
he said cheerfully.
O’Neil spread his hands open and smiled back, embarrassed. I was talking about the urinal, you now, how it was hung so far down on the wall.
O’Neil felt his face begin to turn red. I didn’t think about what I was saying.
The other man laughed out loud, an out of place sound compared to the atmosphere on the street outside the door. I know it. I’ve been sitting here holding my breath trying not to laugh.
They both laughed then, draining O’Neil’s embarrassment and putting him at ease. They introduced themselves and had an enjoyable conversation while they ate their lunch across from each other. The new guy’s name was Tim Clayton, an engineering major from Pasadena, and about a year older than O’Neil. When they were through eating, they took a walk down to Graumann’s Chinese Theater and Tim showed him where concrete impressions of Marilyn Monroe’s and Jane Russell’s hands were embedded in adjacent sidewalk panels in front of the theater. One of the actresses had written Gentlemen Prefer Blondes
starting in one panel and crossing over to the other.
They talked about old movies, famous actresses, famous dead actresses, California, college, and careers. Both shared an optimism about the future, Tim because of the bleeding edge engineering work he looked forward to being a part of, and O’Neil, who wanted a career in law enforcement because of the contribution he thought he could make to society. And they became friends. They spent the last weeks of summer exploring Southern California together, Tim as enthusiastic tour guide. When it was over, O’Neil had had enough cools
and groovys
and was ready to head back to his relatively laid back home town of Tampa, Florida.
Tim drove O’Neil to the airport and saw him all the way through to his gate. Who knows,
he said. Maybe I’ll end up in Florida one day myself.
Which he did, three years later, when he transferred to Orlando in the employ of a major theme park corporation. They renewed their friendship and took frequent trips across Interstate 4, with it being O’Neil’s turn to show Tim life on the other
coast. O’Neil had graduated from the University of Southern Florida and had joined the Tampa police force. Both men had thought their lives were on track, headed in the directions they wanted.
That may have been true for Tim, who had a habit of sometimes drinking too much beer and proclaiming how life was being so good to him. His career had taken off, leading him into computers and information systems and new career paths that hadn’t even existed ten years earlier. Things were a little different for O’Neil.
He had gotten married to a nurse he had met while delivering a pair of shot up pre-teen gang members to Tampa General one night. They fell in love and bought a house. But being a cop was hard, and he found he didn’t like seeing only the worst parts of the city he grew up in and thought he loved. Bad feelings started to manifest themselves and the longer he kept at it the more he ended up hating the job. The city itself was becoming something different to him. The stronger these feelings became, the harder he worked, as if the job was rotten because he wasn’t trying hard enough.
His relationship with his new wife suffered and she left him when he didn’t show up for a counseling appointment; he had fallen asleep in his car after working an extra night shift. When one of the lieutenants in his squad retired after 22 years of sterling dedication to the job, drove home after a celebratory dinner in his honor, and ‘ate his gun’ as they say, O’Neil finally walked away.
He took his wife, Katherine, on a cruise and they worked at patching up their young marriage. She forced him to learn how to relax and together they worked to restore his over-stressed mind. A few months later, he proclaimed himself healthy, optimistic, and out of a job.
That’s when Tim called and suggested he get out of Tampa for a while. Come on up to O-town,
he said. The only thing up here big enough to take seriously is DisneyWorld and how hard can that be?
Tim had set up shop as an independent consultant and had offered to teach O’Neil his field.
For three years O’Neil worked with Tim learning the business until Tim had developed a sort of pre-mid-life crisis of his own. He bought a 30 foot sail boat and took off, declaring that he wanted to discover the rest of the things
Florida and the world had to offer. O’Neil moved back to Tampa and started his own business with a man he had met while working with Tim.
They kept in touch when they could, which meant O’Neil would get an odd post card here and there from some exotic port or island he had never heard of. One day an envelope arrived from Antigua with a wedding picture clipped behind a letter. On the back of the photo was scrawled the words, By the way, you’re going to love Marie.
Six weeks later the couple had moved to a house in Sarasota, about forty miles south of Tampa and the two friends were reunited.
For O’Neil, business was doing well and growing. He and Katy