Death in Venice, California
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Based on Thomas Mann's classic, but treading new territory all its own, Death in Venice, California is a darkly comic tale of yearning, its rewards and its costs. Yearning is often considered a passive thing. But this ignores the molten core of havoc that lies within, making it the most hair-trigger of states. Death in Venice, California, takes the burning concept of yearning-as-motivator, jams it into the craw of a staid, entitled central character, and sets him loose, unmoored, in the modern world.
Jameson Frame, an educated, even revered, middle-aged man of letters, flees the cold canyons of Manhattan for Venice, California, where he is soon surrounded by all that this Bedouin village has to offer: wiccans, vegans, transients, artists, drummers, muscle men, skateboarders, plastic surgeons, pornographers, tarot card readers and ghouls. And an arrestingly beautiful young man named Chase, the subject and object of his yearning.
From there, Frame enters into a spiral of liberation, exultation, and, ultimately, destruction. And, as Frame explores his terra incognita, he takes his reader with him on his wild journey of passion, ecstasy, chaos, and consumption, all exploring the nature of self against the modern landscape, all set to the rhythm of the human heartbeat.
Vinton Rafe McCabe
Vinton Rafe McCabe started his career as an award-winning poet and a produced playwright before he began what would turn out to be a twenty-five year detour from his life's path by becoming a journalist, a radio talk show host and a television producer. During that time, he published ten works of nonfiction. After what he describes as "a doozy of a mid-life crisis," he returned to his first love, fiction. Death in Venice, California was created in something akin to a fever dream, in that the author completed the work in just twenty-eight days as part of the National Novel Writing Month annual challenge. He has just completed a second novel, Glossolalia and works as a literary critic for the New York Journal of Books.
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- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5I was an early reviewers for this book.Where to begin? As a person who thoroughly enjoys surrealist fiction (i.e. Calvino, Marquez, etc.) I highly anticipated this novel and had great hopes, especially since it is a retelling of one of my favorite novels. It had everything that I like about a story: a flawed protagonist who's journey takes an unexpected turn. It did have some interesting imagery and descriptive scenes, too, especially the scene on the airplane to Los Angeles. However, I never really lost myself in the story. Here's why:1. The story appeared forced. I never really felt like I knew the main character, nor was I able to actually sympathize with his plight on aging (he was 53!). The three women he meets-- his fates-- tell his fortune but the reader is left to decide how, exactly, he is a fool. Is he fool because he craves youth? Because he covets a young man who he feels is beautiful? Because he is who he is-- a lonely, successful misanthrope who is lost in the world of his own making? His chance meeting with the women, his attendance at their party, never has a real culmination. 2. The climax of the story "justifies" the angst of the main character, but.....it appeared vain to me-- exactly why he is a "fool" in the first place. He feels vindicated, I think, and though he does have some personal growth by the whole experience, what really is the theme here supposed to be? Don't get botox? Stay away from Los Angeles? 3. The author's overuse of the word "exquisite" to define the watch. I get that he is making a statement, but, once again, there was no sarcasm in the use of it.....so it just reads, to me at least, that he had no other words to use to describe a fine timepiece. Overall, it is very readable and I read it in one sitting.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5This book is well developed, but a bit hasty. it is definitely fast paced and a quick read. Although some themes may not be appropriate for younger audiences, those who are mature enough to understand (and remain unperturbed by) the concept of the ideas are in for a treat.
- Rating: 2 out of 5 stars2/5This fast-paced vaguely sexy book is certainly NOT a retelling of Thomas Mann's spectacular novella for the contemporary reader -or whatever the advertising copy claims. Rather, it is a somewhat confusing and lurid tale of lust without intellect despite the heavy-handed attempt to be "literary". If you'll forgive the Lolita reference, this is a lollipop rather than sole meuniere - fun for a little while but finally unsatisfying. Perhaps I expected too much but I didn't give the book its title so.....
- Rating: 1 out of 5 stars1/5I was excited to read this book, expecting from the witty title and wacky tarot-esque cover that it would be... fun. Unfortunately, I couldn't get into it; the characters (especially the protagonist) was not too likeable, and I prefer my characters to be likable (or at least interestingly distateful). I had great difficulty getting through the wandering prose, which in its tediousness did evoke my attempts at old translations of Mann's novel. I am putting this away, to return to some rainy day.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Author Vinton Rafe McCabe retells the classic Thomas Mann story of misguided dotage, dazzled and weak, by placing it in sunny Southern California, and then quite openly acknowledging its profane nature. The symbol and thematic talisman of the Hanging Man Tarot card captures everything you need to know about this character and this novel.The von Aschenbach character is named Jameson Frame in this entry, and the author portrays him as weak and corruptible, open to any and every suggestion, however unsound. Frame of course encounters an unbelievably beautiful youth, the most beautiful young man he’s ever seen, and the two have a tense, sometimes teasing, relationship, until its end in a seedy movie studio. Frame drinks excessively, takes drugs, has ill-advised cosmetic procedures done on his face and abdomen, all within just a few days, all the while panting after the youth, named Chase.So Southern California serves as the inevitable backdrop for this distinguished man of letters’ pursuit; the “ideal” youth and longed-for instant gratification are achingly nigh. Mr. McCabe is very crafty about this: even the sand at Venice Beach threatens life and limb, with bicyclists and skaters speeding down the path one must cross, and the possibility of tainted needles beneath the sand itself. The parallels to the Mann novella make us reflect and consider: the ideal youth has two older “sisters” who try to warn Frame to watch himself, even as they contribute to his demise. An epidemic is kept hush-hush in the original; here, the threat of hepatitis from a needle hangs in the air, but the tragic end of the protagonist is a highly individual demise.I think it probable that Mr. McCabe focused so closely on his main character, almost in a stream-of-consciousness, intending to make us wince and look away. I felt the urge almost constantly, wondering about his ghastly choices, his destructive, will o’ the wisp willingness to do anything and everything with reckless disregard for his body. Apparently the pull of the dream, engendered in Southern California’s famous remove from reality, exerts just too strong a pull on our poor, diffident hero. On the other hand, I do consider it lovely, though – McCabe’s withering attack on the skin-deep culture so dominant there. I’m glad I persevered; I did have the urge once or twice to toss it aside. The storytelling is consistently assured, the parallels to the sublime model serve Mr. McCabe’s ends admirably – nothing gratuitous about them – and the whole hangs together and delivers its punch squarely. This is a well-done piece.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5This short, less than 200 pages, novel is well written, and full of heavy literary overtones. A modern day retelling of Thomas Mann’s Death in Venice, where an aging man lusts to the point of obsession over a virile young man. Layered with in the story in the form of quotations as remembered by the main character (Jameson Frame) is Melville ‘s White Whale. That, complete obsessive, compulsive need to obtain, own and control something that has been out of reach. Mann’s Gustav von Aschenbach, Melville’s Ahab, and McCabe’s Jameson Frame have reached the later part of middle age. These characters are not men unaccomplished men, rather they all have a great level of success. Here however all three characters are presented with this obsessive nature. Whether reaching this stage in one’s life is the cause of the obsessive nature of these men or rather that there must be some catalysts for these men to turn into the obsessive beasts they become, I cannot say. I have not reached this latter portion of my life. I can as a reader see identify with this obsessive need. Having read Mann’s Death in Venice, the feeling is a little over-the-top pedophile creepy in his obsession, since Mann’s character is a “boy” rather than a young man. Of course Mann wrote the book long before the acceptance (such as it is) of homosexual relationships. Personally there was always something so anti-climatic about Gustav von Aschenbach journey. Here McCabe is able to complete the journey where Mann left off. Here Jameson Frame is allowed to come to a full realization of the obsessive nature. There is something more self-satisfying about McCabe’s ending. Perhaps this is because McCabe has updated the setting, to the Laissez-faire of Venice California. Here people are sort of in their own world of anything goes. This becomes a perfect backdrop for allowing the complete take over of an obsession to the point of madness. At the very least McCabe’s weaving of Frame’s obsession feels extremely real. At the most it is a completion of Mann’s obsession. I received this book in a Preview Review Give-a-way in exchange for a fair and honest review.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5I haven't read Death in Venice, of which this book is apparently a re-make, but I enjoyed Death in Venice, California nonetheless! It is well-written, fascinating, sexy, disturbing, and funny. It reminds me of the reasons I do not live in California. It's a quick read and well worth the time!
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Death in Venice, California - Vinton Rafe McCabe
McCabe
ONE
Jameson Frame had oatmeal for breakfast. With raisins and honey and a little cinnamon.
Jameson Frame ate slowly.
There was a time before his fortieth birthday, before he considered the power of words, of nouns, of proper names, syllable by syllable and letter by letter, when he was known simply as James
and a time, years before that, when he had called himself Jimmy.
At fifty, quite sure of the potency of vowels and consonants, harmoniously arranged, mellifluously spit out, he thought of himself always as Jameson,
even with raisins on his tongue.
He ate slowly, looking up and out at the horizon, at the point at which the sea met the sky. He had paid for the view, as he had the oatmeal, the coffee, and the fresh orange juice squeezed daily in the hotel kitchen, and he meant to enjoy it all with an equal and balanced fervor.
The balcony shifted suddenly from cool to hot as the California sun cleared the hotel wall, reflecting off the glass on the French door of his room to his left and making mirrors of many surfaces: sugar bowl, spoons, the fine silver line that circled the rim of cup and bowl and plate.
Frame moved his chin ever so slightly, lifting his eyes up and away from the glare. The sea, seemingly only inches away, became an undulating mirror of immense proportions as the day increased.
He closed his eyes against the light.
I must buy myself sunglasses today. First thing today,
thought Jameson Frame.
After his breakfast and his shower, he stood naked in the air-conditioned suite, in front of the full-length mirror in the passageway between his bedroom and bath. He appraised himself carefully, as if determining his value. Noted the slight underdevelopment of his chest and arms. Noticed the smoothness of his face and the soft curve of his abdomen. He was glad to conclude that both belied his age, carving off a few precious years. He looked to his skin that had been left uncovered and had just begun to blush from the California sun. He noticed each pockmark and blemish, each sag and tendril. Noticed what was graying and what was going missing. Noticed height and heft of his full form, which was tall, slim, if not particularly well toned. He measured the length of his legs and tested the texture of his elbows, where, when he pulled on the rough skin on the outside of the bend, arm extended out in front of him, the small flap now remained flaccid and no longer snapped back. He bent his elbow, arm up, slowly, watching the tightening of the skin.
Finally, he stepped to the mirror to look into his own eyes. They reflected his thoughts—his thoughts trapped in the amber of their pupils. They seemed to say, about his face, about his saggy, flat ass, about the changes in the patterns of hair growth all over his body, about his trip and this place, about where he had come from and where he wanted to be: This is not what I meant at all. This is not it, at all.
Suddenly cold in his immaculate room, he walked to the table beside the bed, reached down for his watch and fastened it onto his left wrist. It was a good watch, and costly, a treat he had once given himself, like this trip. A tip for the good service he had given to himself. It was the only jewelry he owned, his only bit of decoration. He put on fresh clothing: boxers, blue slacks, a fine leather belt, and a good Oxford shirt with the sleeves rolled only to just below the elbow. In a moment of inspiration, thinking: When in Rome, he slipped his bare feet into his soft shoes, leaving his socks, folded, where he had placed them earlier, before his shower, when laying out his clothes.
He walked to the window and threw open the curtains that he had closed when he had come in after breakfast, when he had determined that he had enough of the sun. Looking at the arc of the beach, now busy with people, dogs, skates, weights, kites, umbrellas, and surfboards, and looking out to the movement of the ocean beyond—vast water that suddenly seemed to be giving its permission so that the dry land might stay dry—he took an involuntary step backward. Transfixed by the sight, he backed to the corner of the bed and sat down, perched really, right on the edge, still looking out the glass, his heart seeming to beat with the pulse of the waves.
Jameson Frame was a collector. He bought and sold, as others do. But what he collected, what he bought with greed and sold with cunning, were words. He had had no small success as a writer, had won his prizes and taught enough classes to sell his own books and acquire the first editions of others. More than the books, though, more than the chafed leather covers, the brittle pages, the faded ink, he collected the words themselves. The meanings of them, yes, but also their rhythms, their colors, the taste of them as they rolled on his tongue. They resonated with him, echoed inside his heart.
Weeks before, while walking from his apartment on the Upper East Side on what had been yet another cold, gray morning in a long string of cold, gray mornings in New York, he had suddenly thought of some pointed words from Melville: Whenever I find myself growing grim about the mouth; whenever it is a damp, drizzly November in my soul; whenever I find myself involuntarily pausing before coffin warehouses, and bringing up the rear of every funeral I meet . . . It went on from there, playing out in his mind, unspooling verbatim from the text. But the ending, the ending of the thought was this: I quietly take to the sea.
Reaching the end of this memory play, his eyes cast up and left in recall, he realized that he had been somewhat somnambulant while considering Melville’s advice on this greasy, cold, gray New York day that registered such a deep November in his soul. He found that he stood quite near the door of a coffee shop on a busy corner. The wind cut into his bones; the noise, his ears. He stood for a moment, his cold, red face close to the pink laminated menu that hung on the inside of the window, his breath fogging the glass. He scanned from Today’s Special Tomato Soup to Chef’s Salad to Baklava.
Entering, he swam through the warmth of the place, past the counter, past the glass case in which lemon pies with foot-high meringues endlessly spun, past the continual dull hum of conversation, to a small table from which a strip of wood-tinted plastic was peeling, away from the window. As he went, he unreeled the soft scarf from around his neck. He disengaged his hands from their gloves and unbuttoned his coat, all the while keeping his eyes fixed ahead on that small table. As he sat, a pink laminated menu appeared, along with a small glass of water with a few ice chips floating on the top. The glass was in fact, he noted, plastic.
Frame sat at the small table, facing front toward the counter, alert, as if taking notes.
To his left, two women sat away from the wall, toward the middle of the room. They talked of shopping, rustled their bags as they flipped through them, shifting tissue away from cheap cashmere from China. One slipped off her shoe under the table to rub at her heel while talking to her friend. He saw lipstick marks on her plastic glass. The other laughed and laughed and, because of her laughter, began to cough from some remnant of lingering flu.
Staring ahead, he saw a young man sitting at the counter, with legs dangling in a jingle-jangle manner, the right one in near constant motion. On the stool beside him was a backpack, whose strap he caressed with the tip of his fingers, again and again, making sure, always sure that it was there. On the floor below was a blue down-filled parka, left to fend for itself. The youth’s hair was brown, in need of a cut. It had grown down to cover his collar. His shoulders were broad under a frayed wool sweater. He slumped forward as he circled his food, Today’s Special Tomato Soup. Jameson ordered the same when asked. Ordered soup and a hot cup of coffee, as he kept watch on the young man, as he saw him crumple crackers into his bowl, as if the boy were sitting in his mother’s kitchen. There was something touching, tender, in the simple action.
The fingers again grazed the backpack before the boy again lifted the spoon.
It is important to him, thought Jameson. There is everything in there that matters to him.
Who is he? Jameson wondered. A student? A fugitive? A traveler going to and fro upon the face of the earth?
He conjured Melville: Almost all men in their degree, some time or other, cherish very nearly the same feelings towards the ocean with me.
Was that it, then? Was this boy some fellow Ishmael in a gray November all his own?
He looked into the boy’s face, through the mirror that hung in a sharp angle above the counter that would have showed a row of faces chewing in busier times, but now reflected only the slight movement of the boy’s jaw, the vacant soft focus of his eyes as soup rose up and slid down, rose up and slid down with the occasional cud of a soggy fragment of cracker.
Frame could not quite bring himself to crumble the crackers into his own soup when it arrived in its heavy white bowl balanced on a plate, onto which had bled droplets of tomato. He studied his crackers, weighed them in his hand, then opened them, and bit off a corner of the hard, salty square before lowering it to the plate.
He considered the coffee, which he moved from the left of the soup to the right. Considered cream and sugar before leaving it black.
Things in place, he looked again into the mirror above the counter.
The boy ate, contented, his legs continuing their dance.
Looking down once more, Frame slowly wrapped his fingers around the base of the bowl. Felt the heat of it. Felt the heft of it as he lifted it from the plate. He slid it carefully across the side of the plate to scrape away any errant droplet of spilled soup. He brought his elbows out and then pressed them down onto the tabletop as he lifted the bowl up to his lips, as he looked into the steam, inhaled the scent of canned soup. As he took a small sip, he looked across the diameter of the bowl, again into the mirror above the counter.
His lips curled as he did this, perhaps from the heat of the soup.
In the mirror, he saw not the expected reflection of callow youth in repose, but, instead, the face, eyes, and jawline of the boy, all focused on him. Saw the taut neck, wary. Saw the eyes fixed, challenging, if not altogether angry, as if the boy had somehow realized himself the subject of surveillance.
Did the boy again finger the straps of the backpack?
The surface of the soup in his bowl shimmied as he set it down onto the plate and turned his sudden full attention to the wall to his right. To the Parthenon, to the Aegean, to the Isle of Crete, all of which were mashed together, without regard for specific geography or relative size, in blue on white, within the ever-present border of the Greek key, all on the plasticized wallpaper.
He lifted the coffee to his lips, and studied the Aegean, the Bosporus, the Dardanelles. He dreamed for a moment of the Colossus of Rhodes. The sea again, the sea.
TWO
At that moment, Frame considered simple perpendicularity to be perhaps his chief accomplishment. He remained rigidly seated in the overheated restaurant.
In the front, the young man’s legs jumbled. Trembled. Jumbled. He continued to glare at Frame in the mirror. Both faced front, the younger man looking backward.
Then, using his already moving legs as a means of propulsion, the boy leapt up, his hair flying out and around his face.
He allowed the weight of his body to carry him downward, nearly to the floor, so that he could, with one sweeping movement, gather his puffed coat and backpack close to him as he arose again. He looked a character in a farce standing there, his hair a vast cumulus, his eyes wide, his upper hand cupping the top zipper and the mesh of his backpack, his coat and pack’s leather straps flopping outward.
He stood, glaring again. Some suddenness in his movement had dislodged his soup bowl, leaving blood on the counter. Frame saw the chunks of wet cracker. Felt a wave of nausea at the sight of it.
He raised his right hand to his throat, clutched the lump of his Adam’s apple, as the boy suddenly made a movement toward him.
All the eyes in the place were on him, them, on the boy, who moved like a child on a lake who was just learning to skate, trembling toward him and at him, the tidy man, seated, who pressed what weight he had against the Aegean wall: pressing, pressing as if to disappear within the wet darkness of the sea.
The young man stopped five or six feet away from Frame’s table. Stopped as if some force, some fear, had stopped him.
No!
he said simply. Loudly. But his body trembled, his left hand extending in front of him, finger pointed like the barrel of a gun, thumb cocked to the side. With his other hand, he held his possessions as best he could, the slippery coat making its way to the floor.
By then his shirt had pulled up to his chest. Frame could see the line of soft down that led from his navel to his beltline and beyond. Could see the fine peppering of hair on the boy’s thick chest, the rubbering of the angry muscles in his neck twisting as he stood snorting like a bull.
Having stood his ground and said what he had to say, the young man awkwardly began to back away. In a step or two, he turned his back on the older man.
Looking at him again in the mirror, Frame saw the boy shove his shirt down in his pants, saw him look again in the mirror and saw him again seeing Jameson watching him.
The boy’s head slowly turned. He met Frame eye-to-eye, and looked at him, incredulous. There was almost a smile on his face as he stood by his stool, placed his goods on it and took his time, moving slowly, as if to say, This is how I neaten up.
He smoothed his shirt with flattened fingers, slowly putting on his puffed jacket; he carefully fitted his arms into the straps of the backpack and hefted it off the stool and onto his back.
Once more he looked Frame directly in the eye. Then he went quickly to the cashier stand, where the Greek woman who ran the place was only too glad to take his money. And off he went without a backward glance, the side of his puffed jacket smearing against the back of the door as it pushed him out.
Frame waved a hand in the air rather delicately and gave the waitress his uneaten bowl of soup. She accepted it without comment, and without comment brought him the lemon pie he ordered instead. She refilled his cup of coffee with an air of indifference, her expression a blank, as if wanting him to know that she refused to take sides.
His dessert at the ready with fresh fork and paper napkin, his coffee refilled, she retired to behind the counter.
He left the little coffee shop soon after, the tastes of sweet and bitter and acid on his tongue, mixed with the scent of lemon. He stood for a moment, making sure that he was quite alone, before turning again toward his own home, moving at his own pace, feeling the reassurance that again he remained not only perpendicular, but perfectly so, his body a straight, slim line as he moved, his reflection darting from pane to pane in the multiplicity of windows beside which he walked. Each new face, same smooth skin, same narrow blue eyes, reassured him, contributed to his wellbeing, as if each whispered the attribute it offered, as if the goods framed within were not for sale but for offer, freely, had he only the moment it would take to stop and pluck. Yet he moved on, feeling, deep within, some sense of failing, of frailty. Feeling once more the weight of it, the certainty of it: the November in my soul.
With the holidays coming, the days grew swiftly dark. None of the gloaming that midsummer gave to Central Park, times that were neither day nor quite yet night, but suspended, a time outside of time in which one could walk through a world tinged by the lightest blue; a time when there was time: time for another glass of wine, for lingering a bit more in conversation, hoping for one last good solid laugh. Time, it seemed, for another song, another embrace.
With the holidays coming, Jameson was faced with the certainty of his country home. A cabin really, to which he retreated with annual regularity in the days before Thanksgiving and stayed until well into the New Year. It was here, he said, that he went to escape the city. To unburden himself of the words he had gathered up throughout the length and breadth of the year. Words he would slowly commit to paper with the care of a calligrapher holding his finest brush, as he worked to open himself up onto the page.
His best work long past now, he knew his new work to be, more than anything else, his means to stage his annual escape, a way of confining the joys of the season to the Yule log on the television screen back in the den. Yet the house would be brimming with the warmth and light of the fireplace, with the bar well stocked, the kitchen as well, with Grace appearing each morning he was in residence to fix his breakfast, make a lunch for him that was left on the counter as she slipped out the back door, so as not to disturb his work. She would return again in the dusk with something hot—a casserole or mixed grill, which she set for him at the table in his dining room.
He would hear her in the kitchen as he ate. She kept the radio down low and moved gently among his things, setting and then clearing and cleaning and putting away, before she herself disappeared until the next day.
During those long nights in his cabin, Frame sometimes challenged himself, incited himself to put pen to paper or paper into the old Selectric on his desktop. He felt the thrum of it as he flipped the switch, running his fingers across the rubble of its case.
He seated himself behind the desk, his hands gripped to either side of the red typewriter. He urged himself, as he always did, to relax. Bade himself to breathe, only breathe, conjuring the words that had been said to him so often in his sickly youth. Believing that the words great and small that he had collected so assiduously lived within him, moved in and out with every breath, he felt at times like these, with something