Finding the Center Within: The Healing Way of Mindfulness Meditation
By Thomas Bien and Beverly Bien
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-Thich Nhat Hanh, author of Peace Is Every Step, The Miracle of Mindfulness, and Anger: Wisdom for Cooling the Flames
All of us want to live a calmer, more peaceful existence. Thomas and Beverly Bien teach that if we find the center within through ongoing mindfulness, we will have the capacity to live deeply and fully-with boundless peace and happiness-in any external circumstance. We can learn to be calm in the midst of the storm.
Finding the Center Within offers a step-by-step program for breaking down the barriers that prevent us from actualizing our wise inner self. The Biens combine Eastern spiritual wisdom with the pragmatic wisdom of Western psychology, teaching us how to remove the walls that conceal who and what we really are and face our lives with greater honesty. They provide the tools needed to:
* Find a path to the center through mindfulness
* Bring meditation into everyday life
* Work with and transform negative emotions
* Cultivate healthy, healing relationships
* Use dreams to achieve maximum wholeness and self-acceptance
You'll discover how to find greater peace, joy, and love in your life and deepen your capacity for psychological and spiritual well-being. Let Finding the Center Within inspire and guide you as you make the journey to awareness and open yourself to a world of happiness.
Thomas Bien
Tom Bien is an author and licensed clinical psychologist. He lives in Albuquerque, New Mexico.
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Preface
Calm in the Storm
The Buddhist meditation teacher Dipa Ma was one of those individuals who exuded a special presence. Just to be around her was an experience of wisdom and love that was almost palpable. It had not always been that way. Married at the age of fourteen, as was the custom in India, she suffered horribly when her husband and two of her three children died suddenly. Her suffering went on for years until, wasting away, she recognized she had to do something or perish. She entered a Buddhist monastery in Burma, where she progressed quickly to deep levels of concentration and spiritual attainment. Later in life, when she had become a teacher with this extraordinary quality of presence, she was asked what was in her mind. She said simply, Concentration, lovingkindness, and peace. That is all.
Imagine being a person whose whole consciousness consists only of concentration, lovingkindness, and peace.
Most of us would love to be that way. Most of us would love to be happy, loving, and peaceful individuals—people whom it was a blessing just to be around. Most of us wish we knew how to be calm, how to hold our center even in the face of the most extreme storms that life blows onto our path. This desire is the deep reason people come to churches, synagogues, and meditation centers, and it may be the unspoken wish of many who come to a therapist’s office as well—simply to find the center within.
The center within is a spatial metaphor for a spiritual reality. It is that which holds us together and keeps us from falling apart. In spatial terms, you can think of it as being at the center of the chest at the heart level. Sometimes this is helpful. But the true center is everywhere. Temporally considered, the center within is a process. It’s your ongoing mindfulness as you continue moment by moment to bring calm, accepting awareness to what is going on, without fighting or struggling or judging. To find the center, and hold it, is the capacity to live deeply and fully, with boundless peace and happiness, in any external circumstance. It is knowing that, since everything passes, peace cannot be found in any thing or circumstance. Peace is the center of awareness itself.
If you are wondering whether that is even truly possible for you, good. You are taking it seriously, and seriously acknowledging your hunger for the center. It may seem unimaginable to dwell in the center continually. It may seem thoroughly beyond your grasp. Yet the Buddha and other great teachers insist that it is possible. You can do it. However hidden or obscured our capacity for peace may be at times, all of us have Buddha nature; all of us share in the divine spark. And therefore it is possible for all of us to learn to be the calm one in the midst of the storm. It is possible because that is our true nature—not something that we are just trying to add artificially to who we are. To realize this true nature, however, we must learn to see things differently, removing the walls that conceal who and what we really are. When we can do that, we discover the calmness and wisdom that are already there, though obscured under layers of misunderstanding and old conditioning. We learn to find and hold the center within.
Integrating the Spiritual and the Psychological
In the pages that follow, we offer ways of breaking down the barriers that prevent us from actualizing our wise inner self. We combine spiritual wisdom—especially the Buddhist practice of mindfulness—with the pragmatic wisdom of Western psychology. When you realize that Buddhism is at heart a form of wise, ancient psychology and a practice for waking up, this combination makes perfect sense. But we also need the psychology of our own day, suited as it is for our time and place and way of life.
For spirituality to be of value in our world, it must connect with the unique problems of our times. It must deal with the problems of rush-hour traffic and complex relationships, of mortgages and telephone bills. The Zen injunction to chop wood, carry water
must become, as the Zen teacher Charlotte Joko Beck has so aptly said, make love, drive freeway.
Mindfulness is the energy that allows us to do this, while at the same time providing a wonderful point of contact with psychology.
The two disciplines of spirituality and psychology each offer distinctive and helpful insights and ways of change to aid us in our quest. Yet these two areas have remained largely unacquainted with each other—sometimes even hostile.
To understand why, consider Gail, who was depressed. A Protestant minister, she was embarrassed to find herself in a psychologist’s office. Even though she referred people in her congregation for therapy, she somehow did not feel that she should be there herself. After all, she was a spiritual leader. She was supposed to be strong, and her faith was supposed to provide all that she needed. She felt like a bit of a failure as a person of faith to find herself in need of the help of a psychologist. But lately there had been too many days that she could barely function. And finally, she had had to admit to herself that she stood in need of the human help that therapy could offer. And so, with deep ambivalence, she found herself in my office.
Gail’s feelings are shared by many religious and spiritually minded people, sometimes even taking the form of cynicism and antagonism toward the practice of psychology. They feel they should not have to search beyond the spiritual to find what they need, as though their faith were imperfect if it could in any way be helped along by psychology or other human means. Like many religious people, Gail found that these ideas got in her own way. She could not become the loving person she wanted to be until she could be loving toward herself, until she could begin to be more accepting of the feelings of being less than loving at times. These feelings conflicted with her role as a spiritual leader. She needed the presence of another person to help her learn to accept and be present with these feelings. But once she did—once she could learn to embrace the very feelings that she rejected—she came closer to being the person that she wanted to be.
Religious and spiritual people have no monopoly on distrust of other models. Psychologists and psychiatrists, trained in the model of empirical science, often believe that their approach to learning about the world is the only valid one, and that it should be sufficient on its own. Some behavioral scientists have a hard-nosed, show-me
attitude. Some of these professionals even chose their field in part as a reaction against religion or a religious background.
Both psychology and spirituality tend to be closed. Both can be mistrustful of other ways of knowing. Yet both also have much to offer.
Spiritual people are prone to what the psychologist John Welwood has called spiritual bypassing.
This is an attempt to use your spirituality to run from the reality of life, to avoid facing your life issues and problems. It is an attempt to get a free pass to avoid difficulties and issues. One of the strengths of psychology, on the other hand, is precisely to help us face these things. It can help us acknowledge that our motivations are not always as saintly as we would like to think, and starting from there, help us become more whole and behave more effectively.
Sometimes religious and spiritual people lose the connection between their spirituality and their daily life, confining spiritual practice too much to special occasions and rituals, to the meditation cushion or scripture study or a worship service. They may wish to build their lives on a solid spiritual foundation, but to really do so may require that emotional and psychological wounds be acknowledged and healed.
Christ taught that before trying to improve your neighbor, you should take a look at yourself. You should remove the log from your own eye before attempting surgery on the speck in your neighbor’s eye. The world would be a much better place if people took this teaching seriously. But how does one do this exactly? How can we see ourselves, without distorting our attitudes and intentions in the direction of being better than we really are? How can we avoid the fate of religious people like those we have all met, who, now that they have become spiritual,
seem to be more difficult to be around than they were before? Psychology is uniquely positioned to help with these difficulties—helping us, through self-acceptance, to know ourselves a little better, so we can see the log in our own eyes. Psychology has also developed useful practices that help us learn to live and deal with others more skillfully. The Buddha would commend the communication skills psychology offers us as a wonderful way to implement what he taught about skillful speech.
On the other hand, while psychology provides us with tools and insights, it cannot tell us what to use them for. Answering the what for
question requires a step outside of pure empiricism into the realm of spirit. The best tools do little good if we don’t know what we want to build in the first place, just as our cars and planes can take us faster and faster, but do not provide direction and purpose.
We hold it as a basic truth that we are spiritual beings. That is our essence. There is more to us than we imagine. The scientific view is helpful and important, yet by itself it can too easily flatten out. The world of science limits and truncates, leaving us two-dimensional in a many-dimensional universe. We are more than that. We are not confined to the space between our head and our feet, nor to the years between birth and death. And since we are spiritual beings, there are limits to what psychology alone can tell us—valuable though it is.
There are hopeful signs that the boundary between science and religion is not as rigid as it once was. Theoretical physicists sometimes sound like Buddhists. A form of psychology known as radical behaviorism—which many think of as a kind of ultimate empirical, scientific approach to the psychology of behavior—ends up sounding surprisingly Buddhist. Many psychologists, psychiatrists, and other counselors these days value both the spiritual and the scientific, and no longer feel the need to separate the two or defend the one against the other.
On the other hand, many religious people have learned to value psychology and therapy. For more than thirty years now, clergy have been receiving basic training in counseling. Religious people may retain some uneasiness about psychology, and therapists may not always quite know what do with people’s spirituality, but there is a tendency toward greater acceptance. Scientists, like Edward O. Wilson in his stimulating book Consilience, may envision all realms of knowledge as ultimately reducible to science, while spiritual people will claim the reverse. But in the end, we will come to know that all of the different modes of knowing are ultimately one, since all of them are aspects of something larger than what we normally consider either scientific or spiritual. All ways of knowing concern the one reality, and the division between spirituality and science is ultimately as artificial as the division between poetry and prose or between ocean and bay.
Until we can come to see things in a more unified way, we believe it is important to be open both to the spiritual dimension of life—to all that the great spiritual traditions of the world can teach us—and also to psychology, which can help us face ourselves and our lives with greater honesty and give us tools with which to build a well-grounded, decently human life.
Which Spirituality? Which Psychology?
But when we say spirituality, which spirituality shall we consider, and when we say psychology, which psychology?
While there is almost as much conflict among the differing schools of psychology as there is among the differing world spiritual traditions, all of these traditions exist because they offer something valuable and important. Still, neither our treatment of psychology nor our treatment of spirituality can be exhaustive. So we must be somewhat selective in both realms.
Many years ago, I heard Rabbi Zalman Schachter-Shalomi give a talk at a university. As I remember it, he said that the true aim of learning and scholarship ultimately concerns the question, What is the good life?
The farther we wander from this central, living question, the more abstract, dry, and remote study becomes.
In keeping with this insight, the criterion we have used is a simple one, cutting across different systems and beliefs: We have emphasized those aspects of both psychology and spirituality that are of the most practical relevance, that help us to live the good life and to become who we are meant to be. We emphasize that which most directly answers the question of how to live deeply and well. We emphasize teachings that tell us not only that we should love our neighbor, but also how we can go about doing it. For that reason, prominence is given to Buddhism among the spiritual paths, because it excels at maintaining a focus on practice and has a minimum of the sort of dogmatic beliefs and speculative philosophy that can become an obstacle to those who see things differently. And the heart and soul of Buddhist teachings is the practice of mindfulness. So while we refer to many spiritual traditions, none are as central as mindfulness.
Central to Buddhist teaching are the four noble truths. The Buddha gave this teaching, the record tells us, in his first sermon after his enlightenment, and these teachings set the tone for all of the teachings that followed. The first noble truth is the truth of suffering. This teaching is not so much that everything is suffering, but that suffering is the very thing that points us in the right direction. Suffering is to be learned from rather than ignored if we are to find our way out of it. It is something like the Christian teaching that resurrection must be preceded by crucifixion—that it is in our very struggles that God’s presence is to be found.
The second noble truth is that the causes of suffering can be known and understood. The cause of our suffering is not the nature of reality but our own ignorance. Once we see the nature of reality clearly, we know why we suffer. The third noble truth is that once these causes are known and understood, we can stop suffering. We can enter the realm of nirvana, of bliss, what Christians would call the kingdom of God. The fourth noble truth is a description of what a life without suffering would look like. This is the famous eightfold path: right view, right thinking, right speech, right action, right livelihood, right mindfulness, right diligence, and right concentration. It is important to understand that this is not so much a moralism as it is a practical teaching. The eightfold path describes the way to live that is right
(meaning effective) in eliminating suffering, in helping us cross to the shore of nonsuffering.
The Buddha maintained at the end of his life that he had taught nothing except the nature of suffering and how to end it. To some, this seems a little negative. And just as Christians can get too focused on the overwhelming sufferings of Christ on the cross, or Jews too focused on the vast atrocity of the Holocaust, there is a risk for Buddhists to get too caught up in the negative here. But doing so is a distortion. Since we are already spiritual beings with a divine nature, with Buddha nature, we do not have to do anything in particular to become those things. We are them already. All we need to do is know how to remove that which gets in the way. All we need to do is know how to work with that which causes us to suffer, so the shining joy underneath can be revealed. In this way, all of this talk of suffering is nothing negative at all.
Every word in this book is also about suffering and how to transform it so as to cross to the other shore. It does not matter so much whether the method is something labeled spiritual or something labeled psychological.
The psychology we draw on in this book is similarly aimed at transforming our suffering. Among psychological approaches, the practical focus of cognitive-behavioral psychology earns it some prominence for the same reason—having a minimum of speculative assumption and a maximum of practical validity, though once again, we draw freely from other psychological schools as well.
Our Journeys
Beverly and I came to appreciate the value of both spirituality and psychology from opposite directions. Both of us were struck by the similarity between the practice of mindfulness and the basic principles of psychotherapy. Mindfulness teaches that wherever we shine the light of awareness, transformation and healing take place. A basic tenet of psychotherapy is that difficult and painful problems gradually yield to an accepting attention. Mindfulness uses breathing and meditation to calm our thoughts and feelings sufficiently to look deeply and find healing. Therapy uses the presence of another person who is accepting and nonjudgmental to accomplish the same goal. The similarity is not accidental, but reveals a primary and potent healing force viewed from different angles.
I (Tom) began my professional life as a minister, deeply drawn from an early age to the spiritual dimension of life. From there, I became interested in pastoral counseling, and was gradually drawn to psychology. Eventually, this became a career change. Beverly, on the other hand, began her career in mental health and human services. As her need to stay centered in a difficult field became increasingly important, she slowly gravitated toward spirituality. From different starting places, we both met in the middle and arrived at the same place, with a deep conviction that both the psychological and the spiritual are of value and importance. Through the holy truth of our sufferings and struggles, we both felt psychology helped us to understand ourselves and other people and taught us how to cope with many kinds of difficulties. And at the same time, we both also clearly saw that we needed to connect with the spiritual center of life in a way that went beyond psychology.
The combination of the spiritual and the psychological can be a powerful help in finding greater peace, joy, love, and well-being in your life. For those who would like to work at this in a systematic way, we offer a step-by-step program for inviting and deepening your capacity for psychological and spiritual well-being. It is a kind of retreat that you can give yourself, but one that you can take without traveling to some far-off place. In a way, it is even better than a retreat, for on a retreat there is always the difficulty of integrating the mountaintop retreat experience with the valleys of everyday life. Here, however, your retreat and daily life are one.
A Retreat in Daily Life
Week one: During this week, we explain the difficulties in modern life and how mindfulness helps heal them. Introductory exercises initiate you gently into the program.
Week two: During the second week, you become acquainted with mindfulness as the essential ingredient for becoming more centered.
Weeks three and four: In the third and fourth weeks, you learn how to begin a meditation practice.
Week five: In the fifth week, you learn how to bring the meditative attitude into daily life.
Week six: During the sixth week, we invite you to look deeply at your life and explore an alternative vision of what life is about.
Week seven: In this week, you learn to use dreams to become acquainted with all of who you are and achieve maximum wholeness and self-acceptance.
Week eight: In this week, we teach you how to work with and transform negative emotions.
Week nine: This week focuses on practices to bring mindfulness to your relationships to make them healthy and healing.
Week ten: In week ten, you learn to meditate on paper, using journaling as a tool of mindfulness.
We of course know that your spiritual growth is unlikely to be complete after ten weeks. These ten weeks are unlikely to remove all of your psychological issues or make you a saint or an enlightened person. But if you follow the program faithfully, you will have a good foundation for new habits and practices that can provide a solid basis for continuing spiritual growth and wholeness.
How This Book Is Organized
This book is organized into four parts. In Part I, The Key,
we describe the problems of modern life and how meditation and mindfulness help. This is the background information you need in preparation for the journey.
Part II is called The Door,
since it leads us out into a new life. In these chapters, we teach you how to meditate and how to use a meditative approach to daily living. This section is primarily spiritual in orientation, but includes supplemental information from psychology.
In Part III, The Path,
we show you how to deal more effectively with negative emotions and relationships, and how to work with dreams and use a journal. This is the most directly psychological part of the book, though as usual, spiritual themes are incorporated throughout.
In Part IV, Arriving Home,
we offer thoughts about what your continuing practice might be like beyond the formal weeks of the program, and about what a mindfulness-based spirituality might look like in our own cultural context.
A unique feature of this book is the sections in first person entitled The Experience.
In these sections we try to convey to the reader something of what it may be like to put the ideas in the book into practice based on our own experience. The gulf between understanding the concepts of this book and putting them into practice can seem wide at first. By sharing some of our experience, we hope readers will know that their experience is normal, and that their struggles with practice are normal ones. We hope these sections provide encouragement to continue the practice. For the essential thing is always just to continue.
At the end of each chapter, you will find a section with an outline of the practices for that one- or two-week period.
How to Use This Book
How you can best use this book will depend on what kind of person you are. Some people will want to read straight through first and become familiar with the entire book before trying the exercises. If you want to do this, that is fine. But to get the most out of this book, we hope you will then come back and read it more slowly, following the suggestions for practice either according to the program, or at your own pace and in your own way. This is a book to work with. Allow time for the content to be absorbed and practiced.
If you tend to be a little compulsive about following rules and programs, it might be best if you take a leisurely pace through the material without worrying too much about following the practices for each week exactly as they are outlined. Spend as much time on each section as feels right for you. Relax and enjoy the process.
On the other hand, if your good intentions about spiritual practice tend to evaporate—if you don’t follow through—it might be best to follow our suggestions programmatically, step-by-step and week by week. At the end of the ten weeks, you can always return to any areas that appeal to you or that you would like to strengthen.
There is a lot of information in this book. We hope that you will make this book a kind of companion, a spiritual friend that you keep coming back to again and again, dipping into it frequently for inspiration and guidance. Just reading will do little for you. But using it as a spiritual friend to whom you keep returning, taking your time with the exercises and suggested practices, will be far more powerful and helpful, whether you follow the weekly program, or work through the book in your own way.
Finding the Time
When I was so distressed I nearly dropped out of graduate school, my friend and classmate David Greenway asked me: How much do you want to be a psychologist?
I didn’t like the question at first. But later on, I realized how apt it was. If I wanted to be a psychologist, I had to face the difficulties I was experiencing.
A similar question to ask yourself is: How much do you want to find the center within? How much do you want to find release from suffering and be the calm one in the storm? Would it be worth, say, the time you would give to a college course? Would it be worth a tithe of your time, just 10 percent? If you want this a lot, the time requirements of the program in this book are not onerous.
However, this is only one way to think about it. More important, we realize that the means must match the ends. You cannot achieve peace and joy by pushing yourself too hard into practices that are not themselves full of peace and joy. The key is to practice in a way that is delightful all along, so that the path and the ultimate destination are the same. If you do this, it will not be difficult to find the time.
Language and Anonymity
Except for sections titled The Experience,
the first person is used to refer to the first author (Tom Bien). The second author is referred to by name (Beverly Bien). We generally rotate use of he
and she
to refer to a nonspecific individual person. Sometimes we may use masculine pronouns in a religious context where this is traditional usage. There is no intention in this to ascribe male gender to the deity.
Most of the case examples in this book, while based on our experiences in life and in therapy, are composites rather than being drawn from specific individuals. When a specific person is used, identifying characteristics are changed to preserve anonymity.
PART I
The Key
If you want peace, peace is already there. If you want joy, love, harmony, understanding, wisdom, and happiness—these, too, are already present, right in the nature of things. You do not need to travel to Tibet or India. You do not need to find the perfect teacher or the perfect retreat. You do not have to do anything special whatsoever. All you need to do is open yourself gently to receive what already is, as the earth receives the rain, as a flower opens to the sun.
Perhaps the most painful and damaging illusion of all is the notion that peace and happiness are to be found in the future. When we finish that degree or find the right job or the right relationship, then, we believe, we will be happy. And these may in fact be good things. But peace and happiness can only be now. If we can touch peace and happiness in this moment, future moments will also contain peace and happiness. If we cannot touch peace and happiness now, when will we?
Practically speaking, however, we are prone to lose our way. Both spiritual and psychological practice are a kind of medicine to help us find the means to recontact peace when we no longer seem to know how.
In Part I, we describe the nature of the problems we face in the modern world, and how mindfulness or holding to the center can help. Today many of us see life as a problem to be solved rather than an experience to be lived, looking everywhere but within, everywhere but at our own experiencing. We suffer from fragmentation, disconnection, negative emotions, and low self-esteem. We burden our primary relationships with impossible expectations, and live for the never-arriving future.
Mindfulness, on the other hand, centers us in our own lives, empowering us to find our own internal authority. Mindfulness is deeply connected also to the practice of no self, which we introduce in this section.
Part I provides you with the essential background and understanding of mindfulness. It eases you in to the more formal practices beginning in Part II.
1
Week One
KNOW WHERE YOU ARE
If you are trying to know God, you must imagine that death is already gripping you by the hair. If you are trying to win power and fame, you must imagine that you will live forever.
—Swami Vivekananda (1863–1902)
Pushing the Stone Uphill
Judy flew home from the peaceful retreat center on the northern California coast. The day was cold and gray. Newark airport was