The Wild Inside: A Novel of Suspense
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It was a clear night in Glacier National Park. Fourteen-year-old Ted Systead and his father were camping beneath the rugged peaks and starlit skies when something unimaginable happened: a grizzly bear attacked Ted’s father and dragged him to his death.
Now, twenty years later, as Special Agent for the Department of the Interior, Ted gets called back to investigate a crime that mirrors the horror of that night. Except this time, the victim was tied to a tree before the mauling. Ted teams up with one of the park officers—a man named Monty, whose pleasant exterior masks an all-too-vivid knowledge of the hazardous terrain surrounding them. Residents of the area turn out to be suspicious of outsiders and less than forthcoming. Their intimate connection to the wild forces them to confront nature, and their fellow man, with equal measures of reverence and ruthlessness.
As the case progresses with no clear answers, more than human life is at stake—including that of the majestic creature responsible for the attack. Ted’s search for the truth ends up leading him deeper into the wilderness than he ever imagined, on the trail of a killer, until he reaches a shocking and unexpected personal conclusion.
As intriguing and alluring as bestselling crime novels by C.J. Box, Louise Penny, and William Kent Krueger, as atmospheric and evocative as the nature writing of John Krakauer and Cheryl Strayed, The Wild Inside is a gripping debut novel about the perilous, unforgiving intersection between man and nature.
Christine Carbo
Christine Carbo is the author of The Wild Inside, Mortal Fall, and The Weight of Night. A Florida native, she and her family live in Whitefish, Montana. Find out more at ChristineCarbo.com.
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- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5This is the first of a series of mysteries set in Glacier National Park in Montana.When Ted Systead was a young teenager, he survived a horrifying camping trip gone wrong in Glacier Park. His father was pulled from the tent he shared with his son by a grizzly bear and killed.Now as a member of the National Parks crime investigation team, Systead is called to Glacier Park to investigate an incredibly bloody (oh I so want to say grisly!) scene – a body has been found tied to a pine tree and partially devoured by a grizzly bear.Systead deals both with the ghosts from his past and the puzzle of the murder investigation, which has lots of twists and turns. There are lots of local color details and it is obvious that the author is very familiar with Glacier Park and the surrounding small towns. Glacier Park is definitely the main character and is well realized. Looking ahead, I see that the sequels continue with different characters from this book and new mysteries within the Park. One of the downsides was that there was a bit too much pontificating in the last chapter. “Did you ever think of not turning in the perpetrator?” - followed by a bit of Philosophizing about RIGHT AND WRONG and Civilization. This is good enough read that will appeal to outdoor people and lovers of Glacier Park. While not perfectly crafted, I'm very willing to read the next in the series.
- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5THE WILD INSIDE has all the elements required for a winner.That's why I kept reading in spite of my disinterest. I thought it must be my fault, not the author's. This is a novel of suspense.Ted Systead, an agent for the Department of the Interior, investigates a murder in Glacier National Park, and the reader accompanies him throughout.He is haunted by a bad memory that happened to him when he lived around there when he was a teenager.But the story never grabbed me, made me anxious to read further.I did only because the story seems to actually be a buildup to a story that will finally grab me. But it didn't happen for me as much as I would have liked.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Excellent, could not put it down till i finished. On to the next one.
- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5The author clearly knows the geographical area the book was set in, but there was something very jarring about the animal abuse that made me want to abandon this book and not pick up any others by her. In the end altho it was a plot device it was also intense gratuitous violence that detracted from the main story. I will try her next book but if this device appears again I am done with her.
- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5A decent mystery book. I wouldn't go as far as calling it a novel of suspense, because at no time was I on the edge of my seat. But the book was engaging enough to hold my interest. The story centers around a greusome murder/animal mauling in beautiful Glacier National Park. The lead investigator is hampered in his quest for truth by bears, uncooperative witnesses, and even his own past.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Boy, you take your eyes off a modern mystery or thriller and read a few older ones and you realize what a change has taken place in the genre. Like a lot of others I’ve read recently, the mystery aspect of this book takes a back seat to the emotional life of the protagonist. Ted Systead has a lot of feels. He’s messed up, but functioning and questions pretty much everything he does, A lot of pages are taken up with his internal monologuing about his past and how it might be influencing his current life and behavior. Very few of the pages are about process, procedure or detecting anything. It didn’t make it a bad book, but one that suffers from its time and place. Everyone has to be dysfunctional and emotionally unstable.While the writing is straightforward and not overly imaginative, I did feel like the writer understood what it was like to really love and experience the outdoors. As a person who has spent hundreds of hours in the woods I immediately connected with some of her descriptions - “...lodgepoles rubbed against one another and made an eerie groaning sound.” “A few stray spider filaments touched my face.” “Unlike direct summer sunshine that had something specific to say and shouted it, this light held mysteries and patiently whispered its secrets.” So totally true and could have been pulled directly out of my time in the forest. She also inserts some historical background regarding several aspects of Glacier National Park, and while they were info dumps, they were interesting, plausibly shared from one character to another, and didn’t last long enough to be distracting. The big concern in the story for me, and the one that will probably give most people the highest dose of angst is the fate of the bear. I have only ever seen a grizzly once in my life and I hope it won’t be the last time. Any time one of these majestic beasts dies prematurely is a tragedy, even if it is in the interest of human safety. I think that Carbo deliberately chose an unsympathetic murder victim in order to tilt the sympathy toward the bear. Also, and I won’t spoil the solution for anyone, the killer has a pile of mitigating circumstances against the crime and I wonder had the victim been innocent how the story would have been written. As is it’s a nice balance of tension over the bear and the safety inside the park and a man’s efforts to do his job and confront the demons of his past.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5There has been an apparent murder/grizzly mauling in Glacier National Park, and the one in charge of investigating has good reason to be very afraid of grizzlies.And this bear may be killed to help solve the murder. I started the book hoping that would not happen. Did it? I'm not telling.This is a pretty fast moving, interesting mystery. There isn't a lot of sympathy for the loser who was killed, but murder is murder and should be solved.What I didn't like, what I in fact hated, was the animal abuse in this story. I really hate reading about that, and get images in my mind I cannot dispel. Despite that, I enjoyed reading about the beautiful park, I enjoyed the mystery and the characters, and overall, I enjoyed the book.I listened to a well-narrated Audible edition of this book.
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- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5This book appealed to me because it is set in Glacier Park and the author does an excellent job of describing the feeling and grandeur of the area as well as the attitudes of the people living in the area. Ted Systead, a special agent for the Department of the Interior, returns to the area to investigate the murder of a man who was mauled by a grizzly bear in the park. Ted spends a lot of time trying to come to terms with his history growing up there and surviving after his own father was killed by a grizzly. I skipped some mentions of animal cruelty contained in the book and skimmed parts of Ted's inner musings, but it was a good read with a surprise ending.
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The Wild Inside - Christine Carbo
Fall 1987
PALENESS SLIPPED INTO the dark sky and erased the stars as gracefully and peacefully as if nothing had happened. I struggled for breath, my chest shuddering violently each time I pulled in the bitter air. My teeth clattered noisily, and I couldn’t feel my legs. I knew my jeans had been wet earlier, and they were frozen and hard as cement now that the fire had faded.
I continued to stare in the direction he’d been dragged. All the noises had ceased except the sound of the gusting wind and the water lapping on the shore. But all the others—the screams, the grunts, the scuffling sound of the underbrush . . . Even the small animals I’d heard scampering for cover . . . had not resumed their activity. And the fire—its crackles and pops had stilled as it died to a pile of white ashes with small embers. I couldn’t remember starting it. Couldn’t remember feeding it and keeping it stoked. A gust of cold wind slapped the smoldering smoke into my face. I flinched and tried to stand, my numb legs not wanting to work. I clenched a long stick and stared at it as if my arm had morphed into an alien appendage.
I quickly looked back to the opening in the brush that I’d been watching for several hours, even when the light was syrupy dark and I’d waited for amber eyes to come for me. The branches of bushes and small, stunted spruce were broken, the skunkweed and bear grass flattened and smeared with a trail of blood. I squeezed my eyes shut and pictured my ma and my sisters at home in their warm beds. I ached for my mom, for her arms around me. Then I heard the screaming again in my head. Right between my ears, expanding and pushing against my skull. I started to run, first stumbling, then full force. I ran and ran, faltering and tumbling over the hard, lumpy ground, over the edges of buried rocks and exposed roots on the well-maintained trail. I ran until it all went black.
1
Fall 2010
IF I COULD reveal one particular thing about my way of thinking it would be this: I was a fourteen-year-old boy when that feral, panic-filled night ruined my ability to see the glass as half full. It’s still hard to talk about, but in terms of self-definition, nothing comes close to that crucial three-hour span of hellish time when the emotional freedom that comes from trusting the foundation one stands on would wither like a late-fall leaf. Up until then, my mom, Mary Systead, with her hazel eyes and dimples, a hospital pharmacist and a lover of self-help and pop-psychology books, had always ridden me about being a positive thinker, telling me that I had a bad habit of seeing the glass as half empty and that if I didn’t learn to overcome it, it would have a bad effect on my life. At the time, I had no idea what she was talking about. And later, I couldn’t imagine what could be more negative than what ended up happening: losing my dad and lying in the hospital for weeks like a heavy bag of sand, listening to the orderlies telling me how lucky I was not to have died.
But that desolate late-summer night all those years ago at Oldman Lake, the stuff of great sensationalism and freaky campfire stories, isn’t what’s interesting to me now. What is notable is my knack for glimpsing the dark intersection of good and evil in people and seeing how it can be traced back to that fateful period. Because, although this can be taken as positive thinking itself—and I’ll admit that traces of it creep in—my critical nature has made me fairly decent at what I do, which is working as a special agent—we call it Series Eighteen-Eleven—for the Department of the Interior’s National Park Service.
Most people think of me as a glorified ranger because nobody ever imagines that crime occurs in the nation’s parks. But it does: drug manufacturing, cultivation and trafficking, illegal game trading, theft, arson, archeological vandalism, senseless violence, and, of course, homicide. Not to mention that the woods happen to be a great place to dump bodies. The United States has fifty-eight national parks with about eighty million acres of unpaved, unpopulated land. I and two guys from the department are trained to undertake homicide investigations and are stationed in the western region, which means our offices are in Denver so that we can cover numerous sites: Yosemite, Yellowstone, the Grand Tetons, Bryce Canyon, Glacier, Joshua Tree, Mesa Verde, Death Valley, the Great Sand Dunes, the Olympic Peninsula. . . .
Mostly, we work solo on cases, even homicides, since we have so much help from Park Police—they’re Series Double-O-Eight-Three. Sometimes, being assisted by Park Police is helpful, but sometimes it’s a pain in the ass since we’re not in the habit of working together and we often clash in the way we go about the little things. It’s the nuances, like knowing when to stay quiet, when to offer a small compliment, when to put on the unimpressed, bored look or to take the lead or to follow.
The other thing that can be traced to that night is my obsession with the grizzly. Ursus arctos horribilis. The grizzly was listed in 1975 as a threatened species in the lower forty-eight after being trapped and hunted to near extermination in the last century. One would think I’d be terrified of them, and here’s the deal: I am. In fact, I became a policeman after college, because even though I double-majored in criminology and forestry, I felt this fairly significant panic at the base of my sternum at the thought of being alone in the woods.
There’s a catch for me, though: when I read or know about one of them getting shot by a hunter (always accidentally they claim) or getting euthanized for becoming too dependent on human garbage, I’m conflicted. I can’t tell if I’m pleased, sad, or pissed off. It’s as if each time one of these specimens, with their scooped, broad noses, cinnamon and silver-tipped coarse hair, eyes like amethysts, and the infamous hump protruding like a warning, is killed, either another piece of my father dies with them or he is given a small slice of justice. Over the years, I’ve become more and more intrigued, as if they’ve taken on some godly status. I’ve studied them from afar—reading everything I could get my hands on: mostly journals and published graduate theses on behavior, habitat use, and demography. After all, knowledge is power, and power helps alleviate fear.
So one could say that for a detective-slash-quasi-grizzly aficionado, I was heading into a perfect storm with this next case. And I could say this about the case as well: my torn recipe for positive thinking, with its already unpatchable shreds, would turn to jagged teeth, biting me even deeper than I thought possible.
2
THE WAY I see it, negative thinking can have positive outcomes. Take my habit of rolling a quarter across my fingers, just under the knuckles where you teach kids how to track the number of days in the months. I’m a lefty, so I can only do it on that hand. When I was about fifteen I saw a guy rolling one behind the checkout desk at the County Library where my sisters and I would go after school until Ma finished work. I figured that since you could even get attached to the inanimate, to a particular object, you stood to lose that object. And even if careful, you could still misplace it, like when I lost the one-inch-long shark tooth I had found in the woods behind our house in Florida. I had religiously carried it with me everywhere for good luck.
But a habit or a behavior was different; you couldn’t lose a habit, not one that you intended to keep. It could stay with you for the rest of your life if you chose it. So instead of getting attached to a particular quarter, like the 1964 all-silver quarter my father gave me when I was ten, if I could learn how to roll one instead, it would be the action I loved, not the object. If I lost the coin, it could always be replaced.
So rolling a quarter (this one happened to be a Vermont, with a man collecting sap from two maple trees) on a late-October early morning in our department offices in Denver is exactly how Jeff LaMatto found me. The coin’s new shininess flickered as it flipped and slid down and out of each crevasse between my fingers, hid under my palm, then reappeared by my thumb to begin its journey again. My coffee mug was full and the Denver Post spread before me. Being a Saturday, we were only teed up to work until noon.
Well, Teddy boy.
LaMatto caught me off guard and almost made me drop the damn quarter. Looks like you’re heading out in an hour and a half to your hometown. Better pack your undies.
He threw the file he was holding onto the side of his desk. Lucky me. I get to stay here on the Thompson case.
What’s happened?
I resumed my rolling.
"Didn’t get the details, but it sounds like it might be a strange one. Boss definitely wants you ’cause of your expertise." He hissed the s on the last syllable.
Expertise?
Your neck of the woods, right?
Jeff knew that Kalispell, Montana, was where I went to high school and worked after college for the local police force for three years after getting my degrees at the University of Montana in Missoula. Three whole distressing years of feeling like I was going to suffocate in the town that my family moved to so my parents could find their mountain paradise: forty minutes from Glacier Park, twenty to the nearest ski resort, and fifteen to Flathead Lake, the largest natural freshwater lake west of the Mississippi. By that third year, in spite of the big sky
and the open fields, everything felt too close: the streets, grocery stores, movie theaters, schools, barns, trees, and alfalfa and hay fields. Every time I’d get in my unit vehicle to work, I felt like I couldn’t sit still and that my skin wanted to itch. Each pothole I’d hit on the shabby roads made my jaw clench. Each time I’d have to pull over to drag a bloated and bloody dead deer off a city road, I got more and more irritated. I shouldn’t even mention the shotgun marriage to Shelly, the miscarriage, and our divorce eighteen months later.
I knew I had to get out, so I applied to the DOI Special Agent Series Eighteen-Eleven. I was perfect for the position because of my officer training and my dual degrees. After getting in, I did about fifteen months as a background analyst, another eighteen in trafficking, then worked my way into homicide. Somebody dump a body in Glacier?
I asked.
Not sure. Said something about a griz.
Oh.
I stopped rolling and wrapped my hand around the coin. I felt that tiny clench, like a small imaginary fist gripping right above my stomach. Nothing that surprised me; I’ve learned to live with it, like a person with an ulcer endures the knife twist of pain up high in their gut. Has one fed on a carcass?
I pressed the serrated edge of the quarter into the point of my chin.
He shrugged. Not sure. He was vague, but that’s my guess. Said there’d been a mauling.
A mauling?
I felt like I was being toyed with and eyed Jeff. His close-cropped strawberry-blond hair picked up the first strokes of dawn fingering through the large windows by our desks. A coworker and sometimes partner on more severe cases, Jeff loved to be secretive, feeding bits and pieces at a time like I was a dog begging for a biscuit. Plus he thought he was funny, like when he imitated Arnold Schwarzenegger or John Wayne. There’s nothing more irritating than having to dredge up a fake smile or laugh for a partner. For a witness, no problem, for a partner, big problem.
I guess you could call it that.
He punched some keys on his cell, talking to me with the distant interest of a parent trying to complete a task while a child asks too many questions.
"What do you mean—you could call it that? Feeding on a stiff is far different from a mauling, and if it was a mauling, it didn’t have anything to do with us. The rangers handle maulings; we handle crime.
Either a bear attacks or it doesn’t. They find drugs on the body?"
Don’t know.
Jeff held his cell to his ear and stacked some files neatly to the side with his free hand. He’d been acting particularly superior for the past month and a half because he had solved a case in the Tetons involving a hitchhiker who went missing. If you asked me, he’d gotten lucky, getting a dead-on clue from a tourist who came forward with a picture he happened to take showing the missing guy right next to the Jenny Lake trailhead sign. What are the chances? When I mentioned it to Jeff, he gave me some tight-assed comment about luck being where opportunity and preparation intersect.
For me, opportunity and preparation hadn’t intersected for some time, and I happened to be on our supervisor’s shit list and three-strikes-you’re-demoted-back-to-trafficking policy. On my last case, I irritated some higher-ups in the FBI because my experience in background analysis came in a little too handy, and I ended up discovering some unsavory ties between the coal industry and a Virginia politician teed up to be appointed secretary of the interior. Sean told me I was getting older, losing my edge, and should know better than to poke around where I don’t belong.
He just said something ’bout a potential homicide victim and a mauling. Wants you in his office in five to fill you in.
Why didn’t you say so earlier?
My chair squeaked as I stood and slid the Vermont quarter into my pocket.
• • •
I caught the next flight out from Denver, leaving by 9:20 a.m. and arriving in Glacier Park International Airport an hour and a half later. It was 11:30 when a park ranger pilot named Moran, who didn’t look more than twelve with chubby, pink cheeks like a baby, fetched me at the airport in a park helicopter used for backcountry searches.
By car, we were thirty minutes away from the West Glacier entrance, by helicopter, five, and since local crime scene investigations had already been on scene for a few hours, every minute counted. My supervisor, Sean Dewey, had informed me earlier that one of the two local FBI guys stationed in Kalispell had been called in to meet the chief of the Park Police and the county sheriff, but had deferred the case to us since the local FBI guys were knee-deep in some type of militia-band drama. Not to mention that they rarely dealt with homicide anyway.
I know it’s confusing, but the way it works is this: when there’s a life-threatening incident or a possible homicide in a national park, the National Park Police, which is federal, comes in and preserves life if there are survivors; then the scene. But to preserve the scene, they typically need help, so they call the county sheriff’s office, which has concurrent jurisdiction with the part of the park it contains. Ultimately though, the feds have preeminent jurisdiction, so if the FBI or DOI think they need us, we come.
I threw my bags in the side storage panel of the copter, let the pilot lock it up, and hopped in. Just like in Denver, there wasn’t a cloud in the sky in the Flathead Valley, just a dim haze from the locals burning their fall slash piles that paled the azure sky. Smoke—house fire, campfire, slash burning, chimney—it didn’t matter. The smell of it would forever trigger something inside me. And campfires—I would never enjoy them the way most do. I shooed the pinprick of agitation away like an annoying fly. An eerie sense of calm lingered in the air, like this was just some fall day in which I was going fishing with some buddies, the tall peaks of Glacier looming in the distance, marking the presence of some ominous and separate world.
Ready, sir?
The pilot looked at me after I slammed the door. He placed his headset over his navy cap, tentacles of fiery orange hair curling out from under, then handed me a pair.
You new?
I asked as he finished his preflight.
Been here two years.
He smiled. In my thirties,
he offered as if he read my mind. Been flying since I was twenty-one. For the Army. Finally got out after serving my last tour in Afghanistan and got lucky enough to end up here.
Busy summer with the centennial year?
I changed the subject, not wanting to talk about anything on the personal side.
Yeah, hugely busy. Over one-point-eight million. Absolutely nuts.
He flipped a few more switches and a high-pitched whine rang out as the rotors started. Felt like I was working for friggin’ Walmart. Thank goodness the place died right after Labor Day.
Yeah, population growth—it’s a bitch,
I said into my mouthpiece against the escalating roar. Happening even out in proposed wilderness.
Moran didn’t respond, and we both sat for an instant before he began working the panel before him, as if he were pausing to think the same thing as me—that things dying for the fall meant the place was quiet and still enough for a crime like this one to go undetected. I peered across the airfields toward the highway while the rotors swung into full power. I knew the place too well: the highway billboards, the storage-unit business with the gimmicky windmill in front, the marble and tile store just past it, the feed and farm place where we’d buy deworming medicine for our dogs and cats because Ma thought it too expensive at the vet’s and would do it herself. And, of course, the gateway to the park to the north. The Columbia Range to the southeast and the Whitefish Range to the west subsided into lower-elevation hills framing the park’s luminous mountain caps. Their greenish-blue, tree-covered ridges contrasted with Glacier’s treeless jutting peaks. People describe them as beckoning, like jewels, but, really, they don’t beckon. If anything, they guard. They warn.
The ranger that came across it,
Moran said as we ascended. She’s pretty shaken.
I nodded. Where’s she from?
Pennsylvania. Been here for years, but has never seen anything like it before.
He let out a small nervous laugh that I couldn’t really hear but could see by the slight shake of his shoulders. Not like these anyway.
Sounds like it’s a new twist for all of us.
From my chest pocket, I pulled out my notepad, where I’d scrawled details down during my meeting with Sean and found the ranger’s name along with the chief of Park Police, Joe Smith. So, this ranger? Karen, Karen Fortenson—experienced?
Oh yeah. Probably mid- to late forties. Nice gal. Came to work Swift Current Lodge as a teenager. I think she’s been here as a ranger since her early twenties.
How soon did Park Police get it sealed off after she reported it?
Within thirty, thirty-five minutes.
So no one else got near the scene besides this Karen and Joe Smith?
Not that I know of.
How soon was the county forensics office called in?
As soon as your boss gave Smith the go-ahead.
Moran flipped a switch on his panel. Around eight thirty. They arrived ’bout forty minutes later.
I nodded. Working regionally, of course, meant we came in late and irritated everyone with our usurpation of the case. But the beauty of it was that there was less waiting for the details since much of the analysis was taking shape and much of the evidence would be getting photographed, logged, and bagged. In the park, where every raccoon, mountain lion, coyote, raven, and eagle wanted to get the remains when mama or papa griz was done with his or her share, the quicker an expert got on it, the better.
We’re touching down in West Glacier, and we’ll drive from there.
He banked sharply so that we could land a few miles south of West Glacier. As we descended near a group of tall cottonwoods, the vicious wind rattled the branches so thoroughly that yellow leaves filled the air like confetti, and I have no idea why, but for some reason, perhaps because of the frenetic energy the helicopter created, I thought of the televised New Year’s Eve ball-drop in Times Square. We were a long way from the swirl of energy created by New York City’s population, DC’s, or even Denver’s, and I found myself remembering the overpowering need I had felt after my marriage fell apart to leave this area—to go to a city where I could become anonymous, as if my life was a child’s Etch A Sketch toy and I could shake the slate clean, the drawing dissipating into a creamy fog of filament, and start over again.
• • •
Before we moved to Montana, we lived in Gainesville, Florida, and my father, Dr. Jonathan Systead, worked for the University of Florida as a pathologist. He came home every night smelling of formaldehyde and the mysterious tang of other important laboratory smells that the humid Gainesville air seemed to intensify in his clothes. One Saturday, a sunny fall day in late November—I remember it because it was the day after my twelfth birthday—my father took me to work with him.
The laboratory was smaller and more cluttered than I recalled. The last time I had been to work with him was when I was five. But it didn’t matter, it still felt like a place where only intellectual and important things happened, even though I couldn’t fathom what those would be. I only knew, as most young boys believe, that my father was the most important piece of the puzzle to whatever discoveries were being made.
In my memory, the room takes on a chiaroscuro effect—a narrow space filled with black microscopes, white rows of shelves with tall textbooks, old petrified bones, and joints on display, stained coffee cups on Formica countertops left from other students working under my dad’s tutelage. A yellowing model skeleton dangled in the corner, and dark refrigerators hummed quietly in the background. My father sat me down on a black vinyl swivel stool, and I began spinning around and around until he said, Ted, stop that. Not in here.
I stopped and rested my bony elbows on my lanky thighs.
My dad turned the knob on a microscope and looked intently into the eyepiece. I’m looking at what’s called a frozen section,
he said. It’s a very thin slice off of a brain.
A human brain?
Yes. But I don’t have a good sample here, so I’m going to need to get some more.
I hopped up from the stool and went and peered over his shoulder. Who did you get the brain from?
My dad wore a white lab coat and thin latex gloves. He slid open the lid of the cold, glass machine that he called a cryogram. From the large blade in the center, he scraped a minuscule portion of white matter off a section of brain—frozen to a white cauliflower color.
Someone was killed,
he said. Usually, we put the organ in formalin to preserve and study it. But with this one, the police were in a hurry to understand the pathologies associated with it, so when we did the autopsy, we cut a portion of the brain out and froze it in liquid nitrogen so we could study it immediately.
We went back to his microscope with his sample on a thin glass slide, and I watched him grab another to prepare the specimen. When he was ready, he dimmed the lights.
Why such tiny scrapes of it?
"To learn about the body. Smaller segments teach about larger systems. I study these shavings to learn about pathologies, diseases—things that go wrong in the brain. Mortui vivos docent."
What?
"Mortui vivos docent. The dead teach the living."
Oh.
I could tell he was going to that place in his mind where things got mysterious and too complicated for me. I figured he’d be silent now, lost in thought, when he surprised me. School going okay?
he asked.
Yeah.
I looked at the shelf of textbooks, most of them with the words neuro and anatomy in the titles. Not that I needed to avoid his gaze; he was intently staring at his samples. I was no good in science. In fact, I had just gotten a slip from my teacher that day saying that I’d gotten a string of Cs and needed a parent’s signature confirming they were aware of my grades. I still had the folded note burning a hole in my pocket. I began to swing again, side to side this time instead of all the way around.
Good, well, I need to tell you something. Your mother and I have made a big decision.
He glanced at me for a second, then back to his work. We’ve decided to move.
Move?
I said. Where?
Montana.
Montana? Isn’t that really far away?
Yes. In fact, where we’ll be going is less than an hour from the Canadian border.
You’re kidding, right?
I began to swing faster and farther to each side, my hands tucked under my thighs. My dad wrote something in a notebook beside his work, then placed the pencil back on the page and looked back at me. I’m not kidding.
He rubbed the bridge of his nose between his thumb and forefinger and placed his forehead back against the eyepiece. The little bulb under the slide projected upward, illuminating his forehead like a sliver of moon. It’ll be great. There’s skiing, sledding, ice-fishing, snowball fights with your sisters . . .
But why?
I blurted.
Many reasons. But mainly, we’ve always wanted to live near the mountains.
But,
I said again.
He lifted his head, his mouth lax and partly open, his eyes wide, filled already with other thoughts about his work. I didn’t finish. I wanted to tell him that I couldn’t leave my friends. How I was finally getting a little cool in sixth-grade middle school and that I didn’t want to leave the beaches, swimming, and surfing. I wanted to yell at him, but I knew there was no use. Arguing with him was pointless when he sat that way, speaking slowly in his white lab coat, his eyes buzzing with curiosity and showing flashes of how his brain tick-tocked with all the important mysteries of the human body. I took my hands out from under my legs and began using my arms to swing, pushing off the counter next to me and splaying my feet wide.
He didn’t look up. I swung faster, not knowing what to do with his news until my right foot hit the cabinet under the counter so hard that he startled and banged his nose against the eyepiece. Ted,
he barked. How many times do I have to tell you not to do that?
I looked down at the white floor, sulking about having to leave my buddies and the heat—the smell of Coppertone still thick in my olfactory memory bank. I was unaware that moving would bring consequences far more complex than the trade-off of beaches for mountains, surfing for skiing, and suntan lotion for long johns.
• • •
It shouldn’t have surprised me that Eugene Ford was there when we landed in West Glacier, because it’s business as usual for me to talk to the park superintendent whenever I enter their arena. But for some reason, it felt absurd that I should meet him not two minutes after having my feet on Glacier Park’s soil. Moran introduced me to Ford and a Park Police officer, both looking stiff in standard gray-and-green Park Service garb. I already knew they called him Gene, even though in my fourteen years of service for the department, I’d never met him. In fact, Glacier was one of those parks that had the least amount of homicides of all the parks in the Northwest, so I’d only been needed on some small-time poaching issues early in my career, but his name loomed large in my family’s history. In those days, I’d caught earfuls from my mother on him—how he’d lied to the press and blamed my father for being careless, that it all could have been avoided with more careful camping habits.
What I later tried to get my ma to understand was this: parks, ships, and prisons are tightly controlled places, and the super is the guy feeding the public relations officer and decides what goes out to the rest of the world. He may have made my father look careless, but he was only buffering the park, protecting the tourism trade, no matter the perfidy. I told her these things as if I had no hand in the game—a lie I would keep telling myself as I reentered Glacier.
This is Officer Monty Harris,
Ford said after we shook. He would have no reason to remember me other than the Systead name, and I’d be lying if I didn’t wonder if he had any recollection of it after all these years. Suddenly, I became aware of every aspect of my appearance, every flaw: my disheveled hair, my slouching shoulders, my boyish face. Officer Harris is going to tail you.
Tail me?
I stood taller, pulling my shoulders back wide. With the officer’s briefcase, glasses, and prim mouth, he looked like he belonged in a library running card catalogues.
Help you out. Show you around.
Ford’s features were angular and sloped downward. Even the outside corners of his narrow gray eyes seemed to point toward the sides of his shoulders.
Not sure I need it.
I wasn’t certain why I was put off by the suggestion. It’s not like we didn’t frequently get help from the uniforms.
Oh, that’s right.
Ford squinted. Smith told me you’re from here. That you used to work for the Kalispell force. Well, the park’s not the Flathead Valley. We think it would be good for you to have some assistance.
Nothing like familiarity.
I shrugged nonchalantly as if I had no care in the world, and I ignored the uneasy pit forming in my gut. Let’s get going, then.
I held my hand out for Monty to lead the way.
• • •
We drove from the West Glacier helicopter pad to the scene in Monty’s SUV, up a twenty-seven-mile washboard dirt road called the Inside North Fork Road that leads to a ranger station on the north fork of the Flathead River. Few tourists drive it because not many know about it, and if they do, they soon turn back because it’s too dusty and bumpy. I had the urge to grab my quarter, but I knew I wouldn’t be able to roll it effectively.
Other than some small talk, I was glad Monty didn’t chat while he drove. I took in the forest and was struck at how much it had changed since I’d seen it over twelve years ago. The Roberts fire of 2003 had lashed through and decimated it. Skinny ashen trees like old bones crossed over one another on the forest floor, while hundreds of charcoaled trees managed to continue standing. Thick reddish bark peeked out between black strips, revealing the sturdier ones as the old ponderosas trying to survive like great-grandparents of the forest.
I was relieved when we began to emerge from the burn area just about five miles into the Inside Road, where green trees and mostly lodgepole pines and tamaracks with needles like yellow felt lined the dirt road. Flathead County’s Crime Scene Services van was parked behind a park ranger’s car and beside a line of caution tape. We pulled in behind two white county sheriff vehicles. A Park Police officer who’d been sitting in his car with the door ajar stepped out to greet us. Hey, Benton,
Monty called. This is Agent Ted Systead. I say that right?
He had pronounced the stead
as steed.
Close enough.
I shook the officer’s hand. Usually, people missed the first syllable and pronounced the Sys part as sise instead of the short i sound, like sis. But people usually got the stead
right. I didn’t correct him because I’m not one of those people who care if my last name gets butchered. What’s a name really, other than another signifier? So many are attached to them as if they bring immortality, and in a way, they do. But I can say that there have been many criminals caught because they were simply too proud or ego-driven to quit dropping them around. Yeah, Johnson, met him in the bar; he was drunk and mentioned that he stole that Buick. Oh yeah, Briggs, I’ve heard of him. My girlfriend used to date him before he took up with that neo-Nazi gang.
He’s from the Northwest Regional Division Homicide Unit,
Monty added. Came in from Denver.
He said this as if I’d come across the border illegally.
I gave a curt nod. And you guys were happy that you finally had some quiet after your crazy summer?
Officer Benton tried to smile, but his face had that whitish-green tint like he’d been battling nausea. Up for showing us the way? If not, I’m sure we can find it.
I gave him my laziest grin possible to try to ease any anxiety. I was known for that—for an easygoing smile that calmed people’s nerves, even when nervousness or pessimism brewed beneath my own veneer. It was this incongruous thing about me—my skeptical nature paired with a childlike grin that made you think I didn’t have a malignant bone in my body. I’ve also been blessed with my mother’s thick, dark wavy hair, so that at forty, I still have youthfulness about me, not entirely unlike the pilot Moran, which throws people off and has come in handy more than once when I enter the interrogation room.
No, I’m good,
he said. It’s just in there a ways.
He pointed toward McGee Meadow.
I took a deep breath and could smell the pine and the pungent decaying fall skunkweed. I knew the trail, if you could call it that. During snowy months, it’s not maintained and the underbrush and fallen logs claim it. From the road, you wouldn’t even know where it was if it weren’t for a little worn red, cross-country ski marker set high up on one of the ponderosas.
The trail to McGee Meadow.
Monty lowered his voice for an official effect. In the winter, the locals ski in from Fish Creek, then cut over to McGee Meadow and out to Camas Creek Road and loop back. With all the snow, they have to find these markers.
He pointed behind me to the small tin flag nailed to the tree.
Yeah, I know.
You’ve done it?
Several times.
I thought of my ex, Shelly, and me with our cheap cotton long johns getting soaked to the bone with sweat even in the cold of February as we trekked up the ol’ snow-covered Robert Frost–looking road. Even all these years later, I could recall the smell of her cheap, overly sweet perfume made pungent by her perspiration, while we stood peering down and arguing over whether the large tracks in the snow were moose or elk.
One of the CS guys said we can’t come in on the path,
Benton said, almost in a whisper.
I gave the officer a quick pat on the shoulder to lead the way, and just as he stepped ahead, a raven let loose a piercing caw that made him pause. A cool breeze rattled the trees and a few small-diameter lodgepoles rubbed against one another and made an eerie groaning sound.
We stayed left of the trail, trekking through vibrant red-and-yellow brush. A few stray spider filaments touched my face. The autumn light, although bright, felt slanted and oblique. Mostly, it felt quiet, as if it were waiting for something to happen. Unlike direct summer sunshine that had something specific to say and shouted it, this light held mysteries and patiently whispered its secrets. I was aware of our noisy, rustling movement through the foliage, as if we were disturbing such secrets. The fist at the base of my sternum clenched tighter, and I thought, only for an instant—like a shutter opening and closing—of the raw, wild solitary desperation I felt at Oldman Lake after I got the fire going and sat in my own wet pants, waiting in shock for enough light to make it down the trail so I could run for help.
• • •
We reached the spot a quarter of a mile in and about fifty yards off the path, where several huge old-growth ponderosas stood more vibrant, like sentries for that particular patch of forest. To our left, only one line of yellow caution tape draped from tree to bush to tree. Out in the woods, there was no telling how large a circle to mark, so there was simply no point in doing it. One line to block the area from the trail was sufficient.
Two CSS techs in tan coveralls busied themselves. One inspected foliage, peering at branches of a small spruce, his gloved hands pulling down a limb and tweezing something from the bark and bagging it. The other snapped photos and carried the evidence log.
A county sheriff spoke to Joe Smith, chief of the Park Police in West Glacier. Wispy tips of fine white hair shot out from under his cap against his still-tanned neck. His sizable but sinewy frame reminded me of some lean animal on the savannas of Africa. Monty and I waited for his wave to cross the tape. The officer who’d walked us out had stayed back and just stood on the trail.
Thanks, Officer.
Smith followed a line of small orange flags that delineated where he could walk without angering the lead crime scene investigator. Go ahead and just head back to the road,
he yelled over us to him, and continue making sure no one without clearance tries to wander back here, will ya?
I had worked with Joe not only in DC for seminars we were all forced to attend, but several times when I was on the local force and needed to collaborate with park officials. Actually, I considered him a friend. We had gone out to shoot the shit a time or two when we needed an off-duty beer in DC. As far as I could see, he never let ego interfere with his work or his friendships, and in this line of work that was certainly refreshing.
Systead.
Joe refocused on me and smiled. He held out his hand to me.
Good to see you, Chief.
We shook, grabbing each other’s shoulders with our free hands. He then greeted Monty and introduced us to Sheriff Walsh, using my full title, Special Agent Ted Systead from the Northwest Homicide Division of the Department of the Interior.
Walsh looked me up and down, not a hint of anything but confidence in his icy blue stare. He obviously could care less about titles—special agent this and that division—and I have to say I respected him for it. Heard you used to work for the Kalispell force in the midnineties. That so?
That’s correct,
I said.
Oh.
He shrugged, still unimpressed. Well, not sure how this one’ll break down, but the victim might be local.
I could sense Joe tensing a bit. And so, the usual pissing contest had begun on some level. I couldn’t blame Walsh if he was irritated. I mean, the Park Police had called his forensics unit first. From his perspective, there was no need for our intrusion, and I wasn’t convinced yet that there was a need for us