The Dubious Hills
By Pamela Dean
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The finely-balanced lives of residents in the Dubious Hills, where centuries before wizards eliminated war by drastically limiting people's knowledge, start to come undone when invading wolves offer dangerous insights.
Pamela Dean
Pamela Dean is the author of The Secret Country trilogy (The Secret Country, The Hidden Land, and The Whim of the Dragon); Tam Lin; The Dubious Hills; Juniper, Gentian, and Rosemary; and a handful of short stories. She was born in the Midwest of the USA, and aside from a few aberrant periods spent in upstate New York and Massachusetts, she has stubbornly remained there. She attended Carleton College in Northfield, Minnesota, which in a somewhat altered state is the setting for her novel Tam Lin. She lives in a cluttered duplex in Minneapolis with her chosen family, about fifteen thousand books, and a variable number of cats. She enjoys hiking, gardening, cooking, reading, being a part of local science-fiction fandom, and attending the theater. She understands that writers are supposed to have colorful careers, but on the whole she prefers as quiet a life as the family and the cats will permit.Her most recent book is Points of Departure with Patricia C. Wrede, from Diversion Books. This is a collection of Pamela and Patricia’s connected stories from the shared world of Liavek, originally published in the 1980’s and 1990’s, with some new material written especially for this edition.
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The Dubious Hills - Pamela Dean
The
Dubious
Hills
Books by Pamela Dean
The Secret Country
The Hidden Land
The Whim of the Dragon
Tam Lin
The Dubious Hills *
Juniper, Gentian, and Rosemary *
* Available from Blaisdell Press www.dd b.net/blaisdellpress
The Dubious Hills
Pamela Dean
Blaisdell Press
This is a work of fiction. All the characters and events portrayed in this book are fictitious, and any resemblance to real people or events is purely coincidental.
THE DUBIOUS HILLS
Copyright © 1994 by Pamela Dyer-Bennet
All rights reserved, including the right to reproduce this book, or portions thereof, in any form.
Grateful acknowledgment is made for permission to quote the following:
Lines from The Alchemist in the City
and The Habit of Perfection
by Gerard Manley Hopkins, from The Poems of Gerard Manley Hopkins, edited by W. H. Gardner and N. H. MacKenzie (4th edition, 1967), reprinted by permission of The Oxford University Press.
Lines from Shared World
by John M. Ford, from Timesteps (Rune Press, 1993), reprinted by permission of the author. Copyright © 1993 by John M. Ford.
Lines from Procession Day/Remembrance Night:
Processional/Recessional" by John M. Ford, from Liavek: Festival Week, edited by Will Shetterly and Emma Bull (Ace, 1990), reprinted by permission of the author. Copyright © 1990 by John M. Ford.
An excerpt from Possession: A Romance by A. S. Byatt is reprinted by permission of Random House, Inc. Copyright © 1990 by A. S. Byatt.
Cover design by David Dyer-Bennet.
First edition: Tor Books, April 1994
This edition: Blaisdell Press, May 2016 V1.1
Published by Blaisdell Press
www.dd-b.net/blaisdellpress
This edition of The Dubious Hills is dedicated to David Dyer-Bennet, without whom it would not exist.
Table of Contents
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
1
Arry opened the door to call the cats. It was a cold night, but with a green spring cold, not the dry baked cold of autumn or the damp and penetrating cold of winter. The moon was full; it crowded out the stars in its half of the sky and put a thin blue skim-milk light over the mud of the yard, the slate stepping stones, the cover of the well, the lilac bushes with their new leaves—and there was the white cat crouched under the pine tree, from which during the day the squirrels teased her.
Arry stepped outside, leaving the door open. The black cat shot around the corner of the house and through the doorway. The white cat yawned.
Come in, Woollycat, you doubtful beast,
said Arry.
Woollycat got up and walked around to the other side of the tree. Arry’s mother had always said Arry was too tender of those cats, which were supposed to spend their nights outside working, catching rats and mice and the little sleek voles that ate the tender shoots of the new oats. Arry preferred to have the cats sleep on her feet, and she knew that cats loved to be warm. She stepped into the mud and squelched her way over to the tree.
Arry?
said somebody out of the dark at the bottom of the hill.
Arry flinched. Somebody was badly hurt; somebody sounded as if he had fallen out of the tree and broken his back. She began to skid down the hill, calling, Who is it?
It’s Oonan,
said the voice, rather indignantly. How could anybody in that much pain be indignant? And oh, wonderful, it would be Oonan. Oonan was their Akoumi, the one whose province was broken things, and the fixing thereof; you could hardly expect him to repair himself—could you?
What did you do to yourself?
she said, arriving at the bottom of the hill.
Nothing.
His voice had pain in it and did not have pain in it. He was in her province but not in it. Arry was silent, and Oonan added, I didn’t think you’d still be awake.
I was cutting Con’s hair. Can you walk up the hill, or should I get a light?
I’m not hurt, Arry; I just needed to clear my head, and I knew I’d have to come by in the morning, so my feet led me here.
Come and have some tea, then.
Arry began slogging back up the hill, trying a little harder this time to keep to the stepping stones. Oonan came behind her.
Why would you have to come by in the morning?
Why did you cut your sister’s hair?
If Con were a sheep,
said Arry, she would sleep in a gorse bush. It was dreadful.
It was pretty. It reminded me of your mother’s.
Mother combed hers.
Con’s looked smooth enough to me.
She’d comb it on top and let it go all to knots underneath. She said she was counting them. She said she was having a race with Zia.
So Zia’s won?
Zia always wins,
said Arry, a little grimly.
Who says so?
Zia,
admitted Arry, and they both laughed. Oonan’s laugh showed that his throat and ribs were right. His step showed his legs and feet were right. Arry wondered if he had been hit in the head.
As they went through the door into the house, the white cat whipped between their feet, thudded across the wooden floor, and scrambled up the ladder into the attic. At least, thought Arry, she wouldn’t have to go out again looking for her later. She shut the door, and in the light of the lamps she had lit to cut Con’s hair she looked at Oonan.
He was tall and thin, twenty years old last month, with a long nose and hair the color of maple leaves in the fall but the texture of a bird’s nest. He had not hurt his head. He was not in ordinary pain at all; but then why did he feel like that?
I lost two sheep,
said Oonan to the ceiling.
He looked at Arry. He had such large eyes that he always looked surprised, but they were almost without color. Wolves is what it looked like.
Con can do a spell for—
But it wasn’t wolves. I found wolves’ prints; Derry came up with me and said so. And they killed like wolves; but they didn’t eat. Wolves don’t do that, Derry said. Derry didn’t know what to think.
Do you want me to come and look at them?
Arry asked hesitantly. Pain was her province; Death might come out of it, but she did not know Death.
He tilted his head at her and let his breath out. No,
he said. If it happens again, perhaps.
Arry held her hand against the side of the teapot; she decided lukewarm tea was good enough, and poured him a bowl.
Sit down by the fire,
she said. You’re cold. Where’s your jacket?
Oonan sat, and took the bowl from her. I don’t remember,
he said; he sounded surprised. Wait—I took it off, when I got up there. I’d been running, and then there was the blood.
He took a swallow of tea.
Why were you running? Did you hear the wolves howling?
No, they were entirely silent. To my ears, anyway. I had a dream that woke me up.
He drank more tea and settled back in the chair Arry’s mother had made, just before she went looking for Arry’s father. It was a good chair of its sort, but it creaked.
What sort of dream?
said Arry.
The sort that wakes you.
Don’t let me help, then, thought Arry, irately; then she remembered that he was not Con, not a child: he knew what he knew, and perhaps talking about his nightmares would not help him in the least.
At the end of the dream, all the sheep had gone,
said Oonan. So I thought, what harm would it do to go and look at them? Do you understand about those times when you can’t be certain you banked the fire, and even though you think you did, you must go and look? I felt like that. So I went up to the meadow.
Were they gone?
No, they were all there. I counted them. But they were uneasy.
Because you’d sneaked up on them in the night?
No. They recognize me. It was cold, I thought it might be that; but they didn’t act cold. The meadow felt as if it were at the bottom of a well, and the moonlight was worse than darkness.
He shivered; but he was not cold. The fire was flushing all one side of his body. He shivered again. Arry got up and put on her jacket, and gave Oonan a blanket. He wrapped it around his legs without saying anything.
Arry hugged herself under the red wool jacket and stared at him. He was whole and sound, yet in considerable pain. If he was afraid, it did not feel like fear—and anyway, Oonan wasn’t afraid of anything. He was the one who helped people have their babies, even though having a baby was a thing that hurt, and therefore was Arry’s province. Having a baby was rarely Oonan’s province, because it was rarely a thing that need fixing. But it frightened her, and it did not frighten him.
What had happened up there in the meadow? The meadow was only a triangular flat space where the mountain, in a fit of absentmindedness, went out for a bit instead of down. On one side of it the rest of the mountain stood up like the tallest wall in the world; on all the others was the blue air, with the round hills everybody toiled up and down all day as small as stream pebbles at the bottom. Arry’s mother had liked it: she said it was the only place in three days’ walk where you could see what might be sneaking up on you.
It was an alarming place in the dark—only it would not have been dark when Oonan went up there, but full of blue moonlight and strange shadows. More alarming, according to what he said. Rocks that looked like sheep, sheep that looked like bushes, and then moved; the few small trees like hands, flexing their fingers in the spring wind. Moonlight and shadow on the grass like a net to catch your feet; smooth ground roughened by shadows, rough ground made smooth by light.
Which way did the wolves come from?
she asked him.
The prints showed they came down off the mountain and went on down along the river. I didn’t hear them at all. The sheep and I were there, and then the wolves—if they were wolves—were there. They didn’t make a sound. I smelled the blood before I heard a thing, and then what I heard was the sheep, crying.
He put his bowl down on the flagged floor with a rattle. They didn’t take any lambs,
he said.
Oonan, are you sure they didn’t get you too?
Can’t you tell?
You sound different than you feel.
Grownups do that.
Arry did not say another word while Oonan finished his tea, folded the blanket and gave it back to her, thanked her and told her good night, and went away down the hill.
2
Arry had been dreaming about her mother, and when the sparrows squabbling in the eaves woke her, she thought for a moment that she was still nine and all was right with the world. But then she saw that her pillow was blue, not green as it had been then; and she remembered.
According to Halver, today was the first day of May in the four-hundredth year since doubt descended. According to Wim, it was the second hour after dawn. But since dawn in its wandering way moved about, back and forth over the same small span of hours like a child looking for a dropped button, some of the leisured scholars at Heathwill Library (according to Mally they were leisured, according to Halver they were scholars, according to Sune there was indeed a structure called Heathwill Library) had named all the hours of the day from their own heads without regard to the shifting of the sun. By that naming, it was eight of the sand (according to Wim), sand being the way (said Sune) that the scholars (who were scholars, said Halver), numbered out the hours—
Oh,
groaned Any into her pillow, I say, I do hate mornings. They make my head hurt.
She sat up, disentangling herself from her long (Wim), black (Wim), all- too (Arry) curly (Wim, who should not—said Mally— have known it) hair (Halver).
Shut up,
said Arry, panting slightly. Just shut up. I wish I were nine again. I wish I were five. I am certain of nothing save the holiness of the heart’s affections and the truth of imagination. Bah!
She got out of bed, and by performing her morning routine without thinking about it, managed to get herself washed, combed, dressed, and into the main room of the house. Her sister (said Halver), named Con (said Frances, their mother), who was five (Wim), knelt mumbling on the hearth. I’m forgetting,
she said, without turning, when Arry came in.
You’ll remember again later,
said Arry, invoking their teacher Halver and her own experience. Try once more. Or we’ll have to get Niss in here to start the fire, and she’ll laugh at you.
Oh,
said Con, scowling ferociously all over her round face, for a Muse of fire, that would ascend the brightest heaven of invention.
The neat structure of wood that Arry had built the night before took on flame like a garment.
There, you see,
said Arry. She looked at Con’s cropped head, and she remembered the other thing she must have in her mind today. Oonan had come and told her he had lost two sheep to the wolves—or rather, to things that left wolf-prints but did not act like wolves.
Their brother Beldi, who was nine, came in from the kitchen, staggering a little with his full bucket of water. He filled the iron kettle with half the water, hung that over the fire, and put the bucket in its corner, where Con, after three false tries and a flood of tearful proclamation that she would never grow up if this was what it felt like, made the spell over the water that would keep dust and flatness and the invisible growers out of it.
When the water was hot Arry made them oatmeal, with milk from Niss’s cow and honey from Vand’s hives. She felt a little odd about the honey; it was a gift, not an exchange. She had told Niss several times when the cow was hurt, so Oonan could fix it; but the pains of bees, if any, were beyond her; and the sting of the bees no longer hurt Vand in the least. Maybe Con or Beldi would know something that could help Vand, when they were older.
After they had eaten she set the younger ones to washing the dishes, and went back to her own room to read over once more what their teacher, Gnosi Halver, had said yesterday. She was not very far into it when Con came shrieking through the door, dragging a huge-eyed Beldi with her. His chin was covered with blood.
Does that hurt him?
wailed Con.
What did you do?
I hit him.
I’ve told you and told you not to hit.
Arry crouched down to Beldi’s level and looked at his mouth. His lip was well and truly split. His round brown eyes blinked at her; but unlike most children who thought they might be hurt, he was quiet. Probably he thought Con was making enough noise for both of them. Arry put a firm hand on Con’s shorn dark head and shook it a little. Con stopped yelling but looked ready to begin again. Why did you hit him?
said Arry.
I wanted to see what happened.
I’ve told you and told you what happens.
I forgot.
That’s not the sort of thing you forget.
Con stared at her.
Mally says,
said Arry. Now show me the hand you did it with.
Con proffered it, still gulping. She had split the skin over two knuckles.
It did hurt,
said Arry. It hurt so much it hurt you too. Now you both must go to Oonan and we’ll all be late for school.
What do you want Oonan for?
said Con, looking with fascination at Beldi. It’s not dripping much.
I want Oonan because it needs must be sewn up like the burst elbow of a shirt,
said Arry, in their mother’s accents. Now put your hurt fingers in your mouth, thus, and come with me.
Gnosi says it’s dirty to put your fingers in your mouth.
That depends on where they’ve been,
said Arry, hauling the heavy door of the house shut and shaking her head at the two cats who arrived, just too late.
Beldi’s mouth,
said Con.
Well, you think it over. Let’s go.
They went, followed by two hopeful cats, down the hill their house sat on, and along a rocky, muddy path, much rutted with spring rains, between their hill and Niss’s; and then around the side of Niss’s hill and up and down and up and down again and up once more to Oonan’s door.
The door was open. The cats bounded through it, making enthusiastic noises. Arry followed with her brother and sister and found Oonan sitting on a pile of cushions staring at his fire. There was a cup of milk on the brick floor beside him. Both cats made for it, and bumped heads. Oonan tipped the milk onto the floor, and they began lapping busily. Oonan looked up. His face was sadder than usual; maybe he wasn’t really awake yet. He liked to stay up half the night, but most people who hurt themselves, he said, did it in the morning. Arry disbelieved him, but there was no use, said Mally, in telling him so.
Good,
Oonan said, when he caught sight of Beldi. Something I can fix.
Arry remembered his lost sheep. Of course he looked sad. It was she who wasn’t awake yet; and no wonder, after wrestling with Con’s hair for half the night and listening to Oonan sound hurt when he wasn’t for the other half.
Oonan got up and took the wooden box that held his tools from its corner. Then he sat Beldi down on the floor in the light from the southern window. What happened?
I hit him,
said Con.
Did you? Well, you’d better keep him happy while I sew this up, then. If he gets bored and fidgets at the wrong moment, it won’t be fixed as well as it should be.
Con looked helplessly at Arry, who was stricken with inspiration. You may sing to him,
she said. You may sing ‘I Had a Dove. ’
I hate it!
So does Beldi’s lip hate being split like a ripe plum. You sing. And next time you think about how you hated it, before you hit somebody.
Con, glowering, flung herself on her stomach on the floor between Beldi and Oonan and began bellowing into her brother’s face. I had a dove and the sweet dove died.
Beldi beamed at her, as well as he could with his bleeding lip.
Oonan got up stiffly, moved around Con, sat down on Beldi’s other side, and resumed getting his tools out of the box. The needle looked big enough to sew shoes with. The thread was as black as a sheep’s nose. He wiped them both with the potato liquor Jony made, out of the green glass bottle that came from Wormsreign. He threaded the needle, knotted the thread, and took Beldi’s chin in his hand. Con sang even louder, whether through duty or perversity Arry would not have wanted to say.
She put her hands behind her back, squeezed them tight together, and watched the needle punch its first slippery red hole. The black thread followed it like a poisonous worm. Arry tucked her own lower lip under the upper one. This was not a situation in which informing the patient he was hurt would be useful. She just had to bear it. Beldi was perfectly happy. Con was well into the song’s second verse. She had better have the wit to start over again if she had to. Two stitches, three, four. Oonan made another knot and nipped off the thread.
Beldi looked up at Arry and burst out laughing. You look just like a rabbit!
he said. Con abandoned the tira-liras with which she had been filling out the end of the song, and laughed too. Arry untucked her lip.
Don’t go laughing like that all day, or you’ll undo all my good work,
said Oonan. He got up, still stiffly.
His muscles hurt him; he must have been climbing too many hills.
What about Con’s fingers?
said Arry.
Oonan walked over to Con and squinted at her hand. Wash it,
he said. And don’t go making mud pies until all this red—see, here—is hard and dark. Halver says that’s called a scab. It sits on top of the hurt tissue and keeps it safe until it’s healed.
Con went into Oonan’s kitchen to wash her fingers. Arry poured the rest of Oonan’s milk on the floor for the cats. Beldi said, Was there a thing earlier that you couldn’t fix?
Oonan nodded, standing before his cold fireplace like an untidy tree. I lost two sheep,
he said.
Maybe they’ll come home again,
said Beldi. Gnosi says—
No, not lost that way. They’re dead.
What do sheep look like when they’re dead?
said Beldi.
Broken,
said Oonan.
Like my wagon?
said Con, returning. She shook water from her hands onto the cats, who leapt indignantly away and then circled, waiting to get back to the milk.
No,
said Oonan, thinking about it. More like the tree the lightning struck last fall—remember?
I can’t remember anything,
said Con, gloomily.
I can,
said Beldi, unwisely.
Arry wondered if such a discussion was the reason Con had hit him in the first place. There might be no pain in the Dubious Hills, except in her, the Physici, but certain instincts to hurt remained. The History of Doubt denied this, but the History of Doubt was wrong.
Arry knew this, though she would much rather not have. She knew that Oonan, too, often wished that he did not know what he knew. Pain and Death were among the things the Shapers had wanted to do away with. They had managed to preserve pleasure, but they had not managed immortality: they had created only ignorance of death, except in the Akoumi; and in a kind of slantwise fashion they had left knowledge of death in the Physici too. Ignorance is Bliss, they had said, and Halver said the same. Arry did not say that, but had not thought yet of what to say instead.
Beldi added, Derry says wolves don’t always come back.
Arry wondered if there were also some instinct to heal in all of them, not just in her. Beldi was looking at Oonan as if he wanted to sew up some part of Oonan not visible.
"When will I get to say something?" said Con.
When you’re ten.
Con glowered.
Halver says.
I really hate this, Arry,
said Con crossly. Why can’t we keep our magic until we get our knowledge?
Halver says, so we can play for a little between our first responsibility and our last.
Con seemed to consider this for a moment and then shrug it off as foolish. She said, Can’t Oonan fix it?
Oonan looked amused. No, my puppy, I can’t fix it, because it is not broken. It is what happens.
But I hate it!
Oonan said again, It’s what happens.
He looked rather helpless.
Con,
said Arry, "you and Beldi run along to school.