All Change
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The death of eighty-nine-year-old matriarch Kitty “the Duchy” Cazalet marks the end of an era—and the commencement of great change for the family.
The long, difficult marriage of second son Edward to Villy has ended in divorce and Edward is contemplating wedlock with his longtime mistress, Diana. Hugh, the eldest son, wounded in the Great War and haunted by the death of his wife, Sybil, has finally found happiness with Jemima Leaf. Rupert, the youngest, who was missing-in-action during World War II, is now committed to rebuilding his relationship with his wife, Zoe. Rachel, who has spent a lifetime looking after others, has the chance to finally live for herself—even as she’s faced with the loss of all she cherishes most. And Home Place, the beloved Sussex estate where the Cazalets have gathered for years, is now a beloved relic that, with its faded wallpaper and leaky roof, has aged along with its occupants, including faithful servants like Mrs. Cripps, Mr. Tonbridge, and former governess Miss Milliment, now steadfast companion to Villy.
Elizabeth Jane Howard’s critically acclaimed family saga comes to its conclusion as the Cazalets reflect on their past and begin the inexorable move forward.
Elizabeth Jane Howard
Elizabeth Jane Howard was the author of fifteen highly acclaimed novels. The Cazalet Chronicles – The Light Years, Marking Time, Confusion, Casting Off and All Change – have become established as modern classics and have been adapted for a major BBC television series and for BBC Radio 4. In 2002 Macmillan published Elizabeth Jane Howard's autobiography, Slipstream. In that same year she was awarded a CBE in the Queen's Birthday Honours List. She died, aged 90, at home in Suffolk on 2 January 2014.
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- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5sad to be at the end. too many characters I think.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The final Cazalet chronicleBy sally tarbox on 18 March 2018Format: Kindle EditionThe fifth and final of the Cazalet chronicles, all of which I have read and enjoyed over past few weeks. You totally get into the personalities, with their problems and flaws, and want to find out what happens next.This volume takes up the story some ten years on, from 1956-58. The children we left are now adults, the newly-weds now have families of their own, while the older characters are entering old age and its difficulties.. Meanwhile the business which once gave them such a privileged lifestyle is failing...I didn't think this was QUITE as well-written as previous volumes, a bit 'chick-litty' at times. Nonetheless, a must-read if you've got this far, and very enjoyable.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5I love these chronicles so it was fantastic to be able to read on in the Cazalet saga, set 20 years on from the start in 1937. New characters include the offspring of the original children - Howard creates their individual voices and personalities with her usual cleverness. Has she ever produced an unlikeable character? They may vary between headstrong or weak, over emotional or repressed, too honest or deceitful, but it is hard to pick one for whom we have no sympathy at some stage in the series. We see the impact of earlier behaviours playing out, negatively in some cases, in others there is a rewarding resolution. But there are losses, sorrows, grief and suffering as the realities of life circumstances alter after the war. The passage of time is shown more clearly in changes in relationships. Maybe there is less of the descriptive detail of everyday life in this final volume, more emphasis on emotion rather than the characters' actions and routines. There is something dogged about the rapid turnover of chapters, each headed with the names of those involved, as if Howard was determined to follow up everyone in what she may have considered her last work in the series. It' is a very long book, with lots happening to keep the reader very engaged with this very well known group of characters, set in such a significant period of the twentieth century for England.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5This is the fifth and final book in Howard's Cazalet family epic taking place from roughly the 1930s-50s in England. I was a little nervous because this last book was written about 10 years after the first four. But luckily, it felt just the same in style and gave a satisfying conclusion to the series. I have absolutely loved reading these books. They are great comfort reads - easy to read, engaging characters, and lots of drama. This is not highly literary writing, a lot of it feels soap opera-ish, but in the best possible way. Over the last couple years, I've turned to these when I need something totally absorbing and I'm sad to finish them. She wrapped things up pretty well, but in a multi-generational story like this there can always be new stories told and I'm sort of sad not to know what happens to everyone. As you can see, I've come to think of these people as real!
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5As the world changed, so did the Cazalet family. This book must be Howard's masterpiece, published 18 years after what was supposed to be the final volume in the series, and published the year before Howard died. I'm so sad that I've finished my time with the Cazalets. I shall have to buy all 5 books to reread.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5All Change is the fifth and final installment in Elizabeth Jane Howard’s saga about an upper class English family in the mid-20th century. The first four books were published in the early 1990s, ending with the end of World War II and the emotional resolution of several plot threads. But Howard must have had more to say about this family: eighteen years later she published All Change, which is set nearly 10 years after the fourth book.In this novel, the baton is passed to the next generation, as children from the previous books have become adults. Some are married with children of their own. Others–usually those whose childhood was more tumultuous–are less stable and still finding their way in the world. But the older generation still holds fast to the family business which has fallen under hard times, causing discord between the three brothers who inherited it from the patriarch. The conflict reverberates through all generations, but ultimately their commitment to one another helps them to face their future together.All Change has a slightly different narrative structure from its predecessors. In the first four books, each major part would be set in a period of time and told from the perspective of one character. This book follows a similar chronological path but each time period is made up of chapters about multiple characters. It’s a subtle shift that makes for a more linear narrative and a bit more “telling” than “showing.” But I still greatly enjoyed this novel and its final set piece at Home Place, the family’s country home, was a perfect ending.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Con il quinto volume si chiude la lunghissima saga dei Cazalet di Elisabeth Jane Howard; la storia di questa famiglia mi ha accompagnato per circa due anni, lasciandomi in diverse fasi della lettura scettico, per non dire insoddisfatto. Sono dovuto arrivare al termine della storia, all’epilogo, triste come tutte le storie delle famiglie, per apprezzare il lavoro della Howard, forse per calarmi in una dimensione più intima rispetto a questa famiglia. I tre Fratelli vivono con difficoltà la crisi economica della Cazalet, non riescono a decidere di far gestire l’azienda ad un manager esterno, nonostante nessuno di loro abbia le capacità per affrontare un momento di difficoltà strutturale. Rachel vive il grandissimo dolore della per la perdita di Syd, la sua compagna di una vita e si trova in età avanzata da sola. La famiglia è sempre più divisa, il matrimonio di Edward con Diane, una donna egoista e inconsistente, crea tensioni. Ma per assurdo sarà proprio la bancarotta della società, la perdita della qualifica di ricca famiglia borghese a restituire a tutti I membri della famiglia l’occasione per incontrarsi un’ultima volta nella casa paterna, per l’ultimo Natale. Anche home place sarà solo un bene da devolvere ai creditori. Rimane il romanzo di una famiglia inglese destinato ad entrare nella storia della letteratura. E al quinto volume mi sono accorto giustamente con merito.
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All Change - Elizabeth Jane Howard
PART ONE
JUNE 1956
RACHEL
‘Not long now.’
‘Duchy, darling!’
‘I feel quite peaceful.’ The Duchy shut her eyes for a moment: talking – as did everything else – tired her. She paused and then said, ‘After all, I have exceeded the time allotted to us by Mr Housman. By twenty years! Loveliest of trees
– I could never agree with him about that.’ She looked up at her daughter’s anguished face – so pale with smudges of violet under her eyes from not sleeping, her mouth pinched with the effort of not weeping – and, with enormous difficulty, the Duchy lifted her hand from the sheet. ‘Now, Rachel, my dear, you must not be so distressed. It upsets me.’
Rachel took the trembling, bony hand and cupped it in both of hers. No, she must not upset her: it would indeed be selfish to do that. Her mother’s hand, mottled with liver spots, was so wasted that the gold band of her wristwatch hung loosely, the dial out of sight; her wedding ring was tilted to halfway over her knuckle. ‘What tree would you choose?’
‘A good question. Let me see.’
She watched her mother’s face, animated by the luxury of choice – a serious matter …
‘Mimosa,’ the Duchy said suddenly. ‘That heavenly scent! Never been able to grow it.’ She moved her hand and began fretfully fumbling with her bedclothes. ‘No one left now to call me Kitty. You cannot imagine—’ She seemed to choke suddenly, trying to cough.
‘I’ll get you some water, darling.’ But the carafe was empty. Rachel found a bottle of Malvern water in the bathroom, but when she returned with it, her mother was dead.
The Duchy had not moved from her position, propped up by the square pillows she had always favoured; one hand lay on the sheet, the other clasping the plait of her hair that Rachel did for her every morning. Her eyes were open, but the direct, engaging sincerity that had always been there was gone. She stared, sightless, at nothing.
Shocked, mindless, Rachel took the raised hand and placed it carefully beside the other. With one finger she gently closed her mother’s eyes, and bent down to kiss the cool white forehead, then stood transfixed as she was assailed by streams of unconnected thoughts – it was as though a trapdoor had suddenly opened. Childhood memories. ‘There is no such thing as a white lie, Rachel. A lie is a lie and you are never to tell them.’ When Edward had spat at her standing in his cot: ‘I don’t listen to people who tell tales.’ But her brother was reprimanded and never did it again. The serenity that rarely seemed disturbed – only once, after seeing Hugh and Edward off to France, aged eighteen and seventeen respectively, calm, smiling, while the train slowly left Victoria station. Then she had turned away, and had pulled out the tiny lace handkerchief that was always tucked into her wristwatch. ‘They are only boys!’ There was a small but distinct strawberry mark on the inside of that wrist, and Rachel remembered wondering if she kept the handkerchief there to conceal it, and how she could have had such a frivolous thought. But the Duchy did cry: she cried with laughter – at the antics of Rupert who, from his earliest years, had made everyone laugh; at Rupert’s children – notably Neville; at people she regarded as pompous; tears would stream down her face. Then, too, at ruthless Victorian rhymes: ‘Boy gun, joy fun, gun bust, boy dust’, and ‘Papa, Papa, what is that mess that looks like strawberry jam? Hush, hush, my dear, it is Mama, run over by a tram’. And music made her cry. She was a surprisingly good pianist, used to play duets with Myra Hess, and had loved Toscanini and his records of the Beethoven symphonies. Alongside her rule of plain living (you did not put butter and marmalade on breakfast toast; meals consisted of roast meat, eaten hot, then cold and finally minced with boiled vegetables, and poached fish once a week, followed by stewed fruit and blancmange, which the Duchy called ‘shape’, or rice pudding), she lived a private life that, apart from music, consisted of gardening, which she adored. She grew large, fragrant violets in a special frame, clove carnations, dark red roses, lavender, everything that smelt sweet, and then fruit of every description: yellow and red raspberries, and tomatoes, nectarines, peaches, grapes, melons, strawberries, huge red dessert gooseberries, currants for making jam, figs, greengages and other plums. The grandchildren loved coming to Home Place for the dishes piled with the Duchy’s fruit.
Her relationship with her husband, the Brig, had always been shrouded in Victorian mystery. When Rachel was a child, she had seen her parents simply in relation to herself – her mother, her father. But living at home with them all of her life, and while continuing to love them unconditionally, she had nevertheless grown to perceive them as two very different people. Indeed, they were utterly unalike. The Brig was gregarious to the point of eccentricity – he would bring anyone he met in his club or on the train back to either of his houses for dinner and sometimes the weekend, without the slightest warning, presenting them rather as a fisherman or hunter might display the most recent salmon or stag or wild goose. Whereupon – with only the mildest rebuke – the Duchy would tranquilly serve them with boiled mutton and blancmange.
She was not reclusive, but was perfectly content with her growing family, her children and grandchildren, accepting her three daughters-in-law graciously. But her own world she kept very private: the japes of her youth (of an apple-pie-bed nature) or Sardines, played daringly in some remote Scottish castle, surfaced only fleetingly when she told stories to some grandchild who had fallen out of a tree or been thrown by the pony. Her father, Grandpapa Barlow, had been a distinguished scientist, a member of the Royal Society. One of four sisters, she was the beauty (although she had always seemed unaware of that). A looking glass, she had taught Rachel, was for making sure that one’s hair was neat and one’s brooch pinned straight.
In her old age, when gardening became difficult, she had taken to regular cinema outings, largely to see Gregory Peck, with whom she had quite fallen in love …
I didn’t ask her enough. I knew hardly anything about her. This, considering fifty-six years of intimacy, seemed dreadful to Rachel now. All those mornings of making toast, while the Duchy boiled water on the spirit lamp to make tea, all those afternoons out of doors in summer, cosy in the breakfast room when it was too cold to be out, in the holidays with grandchildren, who had to eat one plain piece of bread and butter before they were allowed either jam or cake, but most of the time alone together: the Duchy machining curtains for Home Place; making Rachel beautiful frocks, tussore silk smocked in blue or cherry red, and then for the grandchildren – for Louise and Polly, Clary and Juliet; even for the boys, Teddy and Neville, Wills and Roland, until they were three or four and objected to wearing girls’ clothes, while Rachel struggled with beginners’ knitting, mufflers and mittens. These had been made during the interminable years of war – the awful months and months when letters were longed for and telegrams so dreaded …
She had grown up, the daughter of the house, and, except for enduring three dreadful homesick years at a boarding school, she had never left home. She had begged every holiday to be allowed to remain at home – ‘If they see a single hair in my hairbrush they give me an order mark’ she remembered sobbing, and the Duchy saying, ‘Then do not leave a single hair, my duck.’
Her role in life was to look after other people, never to consider her appearance, to understand that men were more important than women, to attend to her parents, to organise meals and deal with the servants who, to a man or woman, loved Rachel for her care and interest in their lives.
But now, with both parents gone, it seemed as though her life’s work had finished. She could be with Sid as much as either of them pleased; an alarming freedom had come upon her; something heard in one of the free-thinking schools, a young pupil saying, ‘Must we do what we like all the time?’ now applied to her.
She was conscious that she had been standing beside her mother’s deathbed as all these disjointed thoughts overwhelmed her – realised that she had been crying, that her back ached intolerably, that there were many, many things to be done: ring the doctor, contact Hugh – he would surely ring the others for her, Edward, Rupert and Villy – and, of course, Sid. She would have to tell the servants – here she was brought up short: since the war the servants had consisted of Mr and Mrs Tonbridge, the ancient gardener who was now too arthritic to do much more than mow the lawns, a girl who came three mornings a week to do the cleaning, and Eileen, now returned after her mother’s illness. Rachel turned again to her dear mother. She looked peaceful, and strikingly young. She picked a white rose out of the little jug and put it between her hands. The small strawberry mark on her wrist stood out more clearly; the watch had slipped down to her palm. She took it off and laid it beside the bed.
When she opened the large sash window, the warm air scented with the roses growing beneath came softly into the room, wafted by little zephyr breezes that fanned the muslin curtains.
She mopped her face, blew her nose and (in order that she would be able to speak without crying) said aloud, ‘Goodbye, my darling.’
Then she left the room and set about the day.
THE FAMILY
‘Well, one of us should go. We can’t leave poor Rachel to cope on her own.’
‘Of course we can’t.’
Edward, who had been about to explain that he couldn’t easily cancel his lunch with the blokes who were in charge of the nationalised railways, noticed that Hugh had begun to rub his forehead in a way that announced one of his fiendish headaches and decided that he should be spared the initial painful rites. ‘What about Rupe?’ he said.
Rupert, the youngest brother and technically a director of the firm, charmed everyone; he was the obvious candidate but his inability to make up his mind and his intense sympathy for the point of view of anyone he met, client or staff, made him of questionable use. Edward said he would talk to him at once. ‘He needs to be told anyway. Don’t you worry, old boy. We can all go down at the weekend.’
‘Rachel said it was completely peaceful.’ He had said this before, but the repetition clearly comforted him. ‘Rather the end of an era. Puts us in the front line, doesn’t it?’
This both made of them think of the Great War, but neither of them said so.
When Edward had gone, Hugh reached for his pills and sent Miss Corley out for a sandwich for his lunch. He probably wouldn’t eat more than a bite, but it would stop her fussing about him.
Lying on the leather sofa in his dark glasses he wept. The Duchy’s tranquillity, her frankness, the way in which she had welcomed Jemima and her two boys … Jemima. If he was now in the front line, he had Jemima beside him – a stroke of unbelievable luck, an everyday joy. After Sybil’s death he had thought his affections would ever after be directed only to Polly, who would naturally marry, as she had, have her own children, which she most certainly had done, and that for the rest of his life he would be first for nobody. How lucky I have been, he thought, as he took off his glasses to wipe them dry.
‘Darling, of course I’m coming. If I’m quick, I can catch the four twenty – could Tonbridge meet me, do you think? Rachel, just don’t fuss about me. I’m perfectly all right – it was just a touch of bronchitis, and I got up yesterday. Is there anything I can bring you? Right. See you soon after six. ‘Bye, dearest.’
And she rang off before Rachel could try any more to dissuade her.
As she walked shakily upstairs, the enormity of the changes that now lay ahead struck her. She was still weak, although the marvellous penicillin had more or less knocked the bug on the head. She decided to skip lunch and pack a few things in a bag that would not be too heavy to carry. Rachel would be anguished by her mother’s death, but now she – Sid – would be able to look after her. They would really be able to live together at last.
She had loved and admired the Duchy, but for so long and so often her times with Rachel had had to be cut short because Rachel had felt that her mother needed her. And it had got worse after the Brig had died, in spite of the affectionate attentions of the three sons and their wives. This last illness had been an enormous strain upon Rachel, who had not left her mother’s side since Easter. Well, it was over, and now at the age of fifty-six, Rachel would at last be able to call her life her own, but Sid also realised that this would be – initially, at least – alarming for her, rather like letting a bird out of its familiar cage into vast open country. She would need both encouragement and protection.
She was so early for her train that there was time (and need) to eat a sandwich and sit down. After some patient queuing, Sid procured two slices of grey spongy bread, scraped with bright yellow margarine and encasing an extremely thin slice of soapy Cheddar. There were very few places to sit, and she tried perching on her suitcase, which showed signs of collapsing. After a few moments a very old man got up from a crowded bench leaving a copy of the Evening Standard – ‘Burgess and Maclean Taking Long Holiday Abroad’ was the headline. They sounded like a couple of biscuit manufacturers, Sid thought.
It was a great relief to get onto the train, after she had struggled against the tide of people who got off it. The carriage was dirty, the upholstery of the seats threadbare and dusty, the floor spattered with extinguished cigarette ends. The windows were so smoke-ridden that she could hardly see out of them. But when the guard blew his whistle and with a lurch the train began to puff its way across the bridge, Sid began to feel less tired. How many times had she made this journey to be with Rachel? All those weekends when to go for a walk together had been the height of bliss; when discretion and secrecy had governed everything they did. Even when Rachel met the train, Tonbridge had been driving; he could hear every word they said. In those days simply to be with her was so wonderful that for a long time she had needed nothing more. And then she did want more – wanted Rachel in bed with her – and a new kind of secrecy had begun. Lust, or anything approaching it, had had to be concealed – not only from everyone else but from Rachel herself for whom it was terrifying and incomprehensible. Then she had been ill, and Rachel had come immediately to nurse her. And then … Remembering Rachel offering herself still brought tears to her eyes. Perhaps, she thought now, her greatest achievement had been getting Rachel to enjoy physical love. And even then, she thought, with wry amusement, they had had to battle through Rachel’s guilt, her sense that she did not deserve so much pleasure, that she must never allow it to come before her duty.
Sid spent the rest of the journey making wildly delightful plans for the future.
‘Oh, Rupe, I’m sorry. I could join you tomorrow because the children won’t be at school. But you’d better ring and see if that is what Rachel would like. Would you like me to tell Villy?… OK. See you tomorrow, darling – I hope.’
Since Rupert had joined the firm they were much better off – had been able to buy a rather dilapidated house in Mortlake, on the river. It had not cost too much – six thousand pounds – but it was in a poor state, and when the river was high, the ground floor was often flooded in spite of the wall in the front garden and the mounting block where a gate had once stood. But Rupert didn’t mind any of that: he was in love with the beautiful sash windows, the splendid doors, and the amazing room on the first floor that ran the whole width of the house, with a pretty fireplace at each end; the egg-and-dart ceiling friezes; the bedrooms that rambled on the top floor, all leading into each other, culminating in one very small bathroom and lavatory that had been modernised in the forties with a salmon-coloured bath and shiny black tiles.
‘I love it,’ Rupert had said. ‘It’s the house for us, darling. Of course we’ll have to do a certain amount to it. They said the boiler wasn’t working. But that’s just a detail. You do like it, don’t you?’
And, of course, she’d said yes.
Rupert and Zoë had moved in in 1953, the year of the Coronation, and some of the ‘details’ had been dealt with: the kitchen had been extended by adding the scullery to it, with a new boiler, new cooker and sink. But they could not afford central heating, so the house was always cold. In winter it was freezing. Rupert pointed out to the children that they would be able to see the Boat Race, but Juliet had been unmoved by the prospect: ‘One of them’s got to win, haven’t they? It’s a foregone conclusion.’ And Georgie had simply remarked that it would only be interesting if they fell in. Georgie was now seven, and since the age of three had been obsessed with animals. He had what he described as a zoo, comprising a white rat called Rivers, two tortoises that constantly got lost in the back garden, silk worms, when the season allowed, a garter snake that was also a virtuoso at escaping, a pair of guinea pigs and a budgerigar. He longed for a dog, a rabbit and a parrot, but so far his pocket money had not run to the expense. He was writing a book about his zoo, and had got into serious trouble for taking Rivers to school concealed in his satchel. Although Rivers was now confined to his cage during school hours, Zoë knew that he would be accompanying them to Home Place but, as Rupert pointed out, he was a very tactful rat and people often didn’t know he was there.
As she prepared their tea – sardine sandwiches and flapjacks she had made that morning – Zoë wondered what would happen to Home Place. Rachel surely would not want to live there alone, but the brothers might share ownership of it, although this almost certainly meant that they would never go anywhere else on holiday and she longed to go abroad – to France or Italy. St Tropez! Venice! Rome!
The front door slammed, followed by the thud of a satchel being dropped on the flagstones in the hall and then Georgie appeared. He wore his school’s summer uniform: a white shirt, grey shorts, tennis shoes and white socks. Everything that was supposed to be white was of a greyish pallor.
‘Where’s your blazer?’
He looked down at himself, surprised. ‘I don’t know. Somewhere. We had games. We don’t have to wear blazers for games.’ His grubby little face was wet with sweat. He returned Zoë’s kiss with a casual hug. ‘Did you give Rivers his carrot?’
‘Oh dear, I’m afraid I forgot.’
‘Oh, Mum!’
‘Darling, he’ll be all right. He gets lots of food.’
‘That’s not the point. The carrot is to stop him being bored.’ He rushed to the scullery, knocking over a chair in his haste. He returned a moment later with Rivers on his shoulder. He still looked reproachful, but Rivers was clearly delighted, nibbling his ear and burrowing under his shirt collar. ‘A mere blazer is nothing compared to a rat’s life.’
‘Blazers are not mere, and Rivers wasn’t starving to death. Don’t be silly.’
‘All right.’ He smiled so engagingly that, as usual, she felt a shock of love for him. ‘Could we start tea now? I’m really hungry. We had poison meat and frog spawn for lunch. And Forrester was sick everywhere so I couldn’t eat it.’
They were both sitting at a corner of the table. She smoothed his damp hair back from his forehead. ‘We must wait for Jules. Meanwhile, I have to tell you something. The Duchy died this morning. Quite peacefully, Aunt Rachel said. Daddy’s going down to Home Place today, and we may be joining him tomorrow.’
‘How did she die?’
‘Well, she was very old, you know. She was nearly ninety.’
‘That’s nothing for a tortoise. Poor Duchy. I feel very sorry for her not being there.’ He sniffed and brought an unspeakably filthy handkerchief out of his shorts pocket. ‘I had to clean my knees a bit with it but it’s only earth dirt.’
A second bang of the front door and Juliet came into the kitchen. ‘Sorry I’m late,’ she said, not sounding it at all, wrenching off her crimson tie and school blazer, which fell to the floor with her satchel.
‘Where’s your hat, darling?’
‘In my satchel. There are limits and that hat is definitely one of them.’
‘You’ll have scrunched it all up,’ Georgie said, his tone a subtle mixture of admiration and cheek. At fifteen, Juliet was eight years older and Georgie desperately wanted her to love and be interested in him. Most of the time she alternated between being carelessly kind and sternly judgemental. ‘Guess what?’ he said.
Juliet had cast herself into a chair. ‘God! What?’
‘The Duchy’s dead. She died this morning. Mum told me so I knew before you.’
‘The Duchy? How tragic! She wasn’t murdered or anything?’
‘Of course not. She died very peacefully with Aunt Rachel.’
‘Is she dead too?’
‘No. I meant Aunt Rachel was with her. You’ll have to be far older before you know a murdered person,’ she added.
Georgie was eating sandwiches rather fast, and Rivers was getting fed bits of them.
‘Mummy, must we have tea with that rat?’ And then, feeling that it was rather a heartless remark, Juliet said in her school-drama voice, ‘I feel so upset, I don’t think I can eat a thing.’
Zoë, who knew a good deal about her stunningly beautiful daughter’s ways (had they not been her own when she was that age?), spoke soothingly: ‘Of course you’re upset, darling. We’re all sad because we all loved her, but she was quite old, and it’s just good that she didn’t suffer any pain. Eat something, darling, and you’ll feel better.’
‘And,’ Georgie continued, ‘Dad’s gone down to Home Place, and we’ll all go first thing tomorrow morning if Aunt Rachel wants us to. Which she will.’
‘Oh, Mummy! You were going to take me shopping, to get my jeans! You promised!’ And at the thought of this betrayal, Juliet burst into real tears. ‘We can’t buy them on a weekday because of horrible school and that means I’ll have to wait a-whole-nother week. And all my friends have got them. It’s not fair! Couldn’t we go shopping in the morning and then go on an afternoon train?’
And Zoë, not at all feeling like a continuing scene, said weakly, ‘We’ll have to wait and see.’
Georgie said, ‘And we all know what that means. It means we aren’t going to do what you want, but we’re not going to tell you that now.’
POLLY
‘I would start all this at half-term.’
She had been kneeling in front of the lavatory having been wrenchingly sick, as she had been every morning for the last week. It was a very old-fashioned lavatory and she had to pull the chain twice. She bathed her face in cold water and washed her hands just as it was reluctantly turning tepid. There wasn’t time for a bath. There was the children’s breakfast to make – the nauseating smell of eggs frying came immediately to her, but the children could make do with boiled ones.
There was one of those biscuit tins upholstered in padded chintz by her bed, a relic from her mother-in-law, now filled with Carr’s water biscuits. She sat on the bed eating them. Two previous pregnancies had taught her some tricks of the trade. In another eight to ten weeks the sickness would disappear and she would start the fat, backache stage. ‘It isn’t that I don’t love them once they’re here,’ she had said to Gerald. ‘It’s all the trouble of having them. If I was a blackbird, for instance, it would simply be a matter of sitting on lovely tidy eggs for a week or two.’
‘Think of elephants,’ he had replied soothingly, as he stroked her hair. ‘It takes them two years.’ On another occasion he had said, ‘I wish I could have them for you.’ Gerald often said he wished he could do whatever was required for her, but he never could. He was neither good at making up his mind nor at acting upon whatever uneasy conclusion he drew about anything. The only thing that Polly could completely, utterly, unfailingly rely upon was his love for her and their children. At the beginning this had astonished her: she had read about marriage in novels, had thought she knew it progressed from the rapturous being-in-love stage to a quiet settlement of whatever would turn out to be the status quo, but it was not at all like that. Gerald’s love for her had brought out qualities in him that she had neither known nor imagined any man to possess. His even, steady gentleness, his perspicacity, his continuous interest in knowing what she thought and felt. Then there was his secret sense of humour – he was shy and unforthcoming with most people, his jokes reserved for her, and he could be very funny – but perhaps above all his great talent was for being a father. He had stayed with her throughout her first long labour, had wept when the twins were born and had been a hands-on parent, both with them and subsequently with Andrew, two years later. ‘We have to populate this house somehow.’ He would be calm about this fourth baby, she knew that – he had probably sensed it already and was waiting for her to tell him.
By now she had struggled into her shirt, pinafore dress and sandals, and brushed her copper-coloured hair into a ponytail. She no longer felt sick, but a bit shaky about cooking. Thanks to the amazing cache of Turners she and Gerald had discovered during that first tour of the house about ten years ago, they had been able to mend the acres of roof, then convert one wing into a comfortable house, with a large kitchen in which they could all eat, a second bathroom and a large playroom (it had begun as a day nursery). Nan had been offered a warm room on the ground floor, but she had insisted on sleeping next to the children: ‘Oh, no, m’lady. I couldn’t have my babies sleeping on a different floor. It wouldn’t be right.’ Her age, which was considerable, was unknown, and she clearly suffered from what she called her rheumatics, but she hobbled about, her eyes and hearing hardly impaired. A good many adjustments had had to be made over the years. Nan’s notion of the part that parents played in the upbringing of their children (teatime with Mummy in their best clothes and then a goodnight kiss from her and Daddy) had perforce undergone significant change. Gerald had effected this. In Nan’s eyes he could do no wrong, so if he wished to bath his children, read to them, even, in the early stages, to change their nappies, she put it all down to his eccentricity, which she knew the upper classes went in for. ‘People have their little ways,’ was one of her sayings when anything happened that she disapproved of or did not understand.
In spite of all they had done, the very large remaining parts of the enormous Edwardian house still defeated Polly. It required a lot of attention. Rooms had to be aired regularly in an attempt to fight the damp that crept through the building, leaving swags of weary wallpaper, infesting attics and passages with a minute speckled black fungus that Gerald had remarked looked like Napoleon’s disposition of troops before battle. The children, or at least the twins and their friends, played endless games of hide-and-seek, Sardines and a game devised by them called Torchlight Ogres. Andrew minded very much about being left out, and several times Eliza allowed him to join them, but he always got lost and cried. ‘I told you, Mummy, he wouldn’t enjoy it,’ Jane would say. These were everyday arguments and Gerald usually stepped in with a plan that restored goodwill.
He met Polly at the bottom of the stairs to tell her that the Duchy had died. Rupert had gone down to Home Place, and would tell them, once it had been arranged, the date of the funeral.
RACHEL
‘I poached her an egg. She’s usually partial to an egg.’
‘I can’t help it, Mrs Tonbridge. I put the tray by her in the morning room, and she just thanked me and said she didn’t want nothing.’
The poached egg lay on its bed of butter-soaked toast. Eileen eyed it hopefully. If Mrs Tonbridge turned out not to fancy it out of respect, she wasn’t going to throw it to the birds. ‘I’ve drawn all the blinds on the first floor,’ she offered. ‘And Miss Rachel said Mr Rupert is coming down tonight. She asked to see you.’
‘Why didn’t you say so before? Whatever will she think – me dawdling with Mrs Senior lying upstairs?’ She gave one of her kirby-grips a vicious shove, took off her apron, smoothed her dress over her bust and made off.
The doctor had been and the district nurse would be coming later on. Tonbridge had better go to Battle to do some shopping – more family would be arriving for the weekend. Oh, and Miss Sidney would be coming down on the four thirty so would he please meet her? ‘I’ll leave the housekeeping to you, Mrs Tonbridge – something light and simple.’ She really couldn’t bear to think of food …
This produced conflict for Mrs Tonbridge. On the one hand it seemed only right that Miss Rachel should show respect for her mother in this manner, but on the other she was seriously worried by her evident exhaustion and the knowledge that the poor lady had been eating very little for some weeks. This was not right. As cook to the family for nearly twenty years – she had been with them long before she married Tonbridge and had had the courtesy title, enjoyed by all cooks then, of Mrs Cripps – there was nothing she did not know about their eating habits. Miss Rachel, like her mother, preferred plain food and not much of it, but since Mrs Senior’s illness she had only picked at her food.
‘If I was to send you up a nice hot cup of consommé before you have a rest, to be ready for when Mr Rupert comes?’
And Rachel, realising that it was much easier to consent than refuse, thanked her and agreed.
When Eileen arrived with the consommé she was lying on the stiff little buttoned day-bed that the Duchy had decreed would be right for her back. It had been a considerable concession as the Duchy, who had sat on hard and upright chairs all of her life, had never, in any context, thought much of comfort. The day-bed was, in fact, uncomfortable in an entirely different way, but by tucking a cushion in the small of her back, Rachel had managed to use it.
Eileen, speaking in what the family called her church voice, asked whether she would like the blinds drawn and her crocheted blanket if she wished to put her feet up. Sipping the consommé, Rachel agreed to all of this, and watched while Eileen knelt creakily to undo the laces on her sensible shoes (the maid’s rheumatism clearly hurt her), lifted her legs onto the sofa and tucked the blanket very thoroughly round them. Then, as though Rachel was already asleep, she tiptoed to the window to pull down the blinds, and practically glided out of the room. Affection, Rachel thought. It is all affection for the Duchy. So long as it was an oblique gesture, she was able to accept it. She put down the cup and lay back on the hard buttoned velvet. My darling mother, she began to think, and as a few weary tears slipped from her eyes, she fell into a merciful sleep.
CLARY
‘You really mustn’t get so worked up, sweetheart. It’s only a week, after all. A week in a caravan. It will be a marvellous change – and a rest.’
Clary didn’t answer. If Archie thought that a week in a caravan with the children was going to be remotely restful from her point of view he was either mad or didn’t care what it would be like for her because he had stopped loving her.
‘It will be much cheaper as well. Last time we had to spend a fortune taking the little dears on outings all over London and for endless meals out. And they never wanted to do the same things. In my day you got one treat on your birthday and one at Christmas.’
‘You can’t think that four of us going on the ferry with the car and then hiring a caravan is actually going to be cheaper! You just want to go to France.’
‘Of course I want to go to France.’ His voice was loud with anger. He put down the brush he had been cleaning and looked at her, bent over the sink, trying to clean the porridge saucepan, her hair hanging round her face. ‘Clary! Darling girl. I’m sorry!’
‘What are you sorry about?’ Her voice was muffled. By now he had turned her round to face him.
‘You do have the most outsize tears, my darling. And you are my darling, as I have been telling you for at least the last ten years. Is it starting to sink in?’
She flung her arms round his neck; he was far taller than she. ‘You wouldn’t rather have married Polly?’
He pretended to consider. ‘No – I think not.’
After he had kissed her, she said, ‘Or Louise?’
‘You seem to forget that she got snapped up before I could even think about it. No – I just had to make do with you. I was looking for a writer, a rotten cook, a kind of untidy genius. And here we are. Except that you’ve got much better at cooking. No, darling, I’ve got to go. Some pompous old Master of the Worshipful Company of Sardines will be sitting at the studio waiting for me to paint his ghastly old face. I can’t wait any longer to debase my art.’
‘I suppose,’ she said, watching him pack up his brushes, ‘you could just make a good picture of him? Just paint what you see.’
‘Out of the question. If I did that, they wouldn’t take it. It would be a thousand pounds down the drain. Then we’d be lucky to spend our holiday in a caravan somewhere off the Great West Road.’
We’ve had both those conversations a hundred times, he thought, as he walked to the bus in Edgware Road. Me reassuring her, she always wanting me to paint only what I want to paint. He did not mind this. Clary was worth anything. It had taken him time to recognise that the desperate insecurities of her childhood – mother dying, father missing in France for most of the war, very possibly dead – could safely manifest themselves only in retrospect. Ten years of marriage and their two children had naturally wrought a sea change: from their first months together, comparatively carefree, the years when they had travelled or lived in a studio with their bed in a gallery, when money was tight but had been of no consequence, when he was seeking commissions and painting landscapes – which were occasionally included in mixed exhibitions at the Redfern, and once a Summer Exhibition at the Academy – when she had written her second novel and John Davenport had praised it – it had been a wonderful start. But with the arrival of Harriet, closely followed by Bertie – ‘I might just be a rabbit!’ she had sobbed into the kitchen sink – they had had to find somewhere larger to live, and with two babies, Clary had had neither the time nor the energy to write at all. He had resorted to part-time teaching.
For summer holidays they had gone to Home Place, and to Polly for several Christmases, but Clary was a haphazard housekeeper and they had become chronically short of cash and behind with bills. Since the children had started primary school, Clary had taken a job as a part-time proofreader, work that she could do mostly at home, and Mrs Tonbridge had kindly taught her to make a corned-beef hash that used only one tin of corned beef, cauliflower cheese, and a bacon roly-poly that used very little bacon. She had bought a book by Elizabeth David on French cooking, and garlic (unknown until after the war) had certainly cheered things up. Garlic, and the return of bananas, which Harriet and Bertie regarded as the equal of ice cream, had widened the range; the real trouble was how much things cost. A shoulder of lamb was thirteen shillings and only lasted for two meals with a few scraps left over to mince. And she earned three pounds a week for her proofreading, while Archie’s work was always uncertain – for weeks he might be paid nothing and then a lump would come in. Then they would pay for a babysitter and have a night out at the cinema and the Blue Windmill, a very cheap Cypriot restaurant where you could have lamb cutlets and dolmades and delicious coffee. They would come back on the 59 bus, her head on his shoulder. She often fell asleep then – he could tell because her head and his shoulder became perceptibly heavier. We should have splashed out on a taxi, he often thought on the longish walk down the street to their home. They would get back to find Mrs Sturgis asleep over her knitting and he would pay her while Clary went to see the children, who shared a small bedroom. Bertie slept wedged between fourteen woolly animals lining each side of his bed, and one – his favourite monkey – with its paw in his mouth. Harriet lay flat on her back. She would have undone her pigtails and pushed all her hair to the top of her head, which she usually did ‘for coolth’, she had once explained. When Clary kissed her, a small secret smile would flit across her face before it was again abandoned to the stern tranquillity of sleep. Her darling, beautiful children … But those were rare days and usually ended in the often temperamental flurry of children’s supper and bathtime.
Sometimes Archie cooked supper while Clary read proofs. Occasionally her father, Rupert, and Zoë came to supper, bringing treats like smoked salmon and Bendicks Bittermints. Rupert and Archie had been friends since the Slade – well before the war – and Clary’s marked hostility towards her pretty stepmother had mellowed into friendship. Their boys, Georgie and Bertie, were both seven and despite their different interests – Georgie’s menagerie and Bertie’s museum – they had good times together at Home Place in the holidays. What a blessing that house had been, with the Duchy and Rachel always pleased to see them! So, on the morning that Archie had gone off to paint his City worthy, while she was sorting out the children’s clothes for the coming week in France, it was a shock to be rung by Zoë and be told of the Duchy’s death. Everyone in the family had known that she had been ill, but telephone calls to Rachel had always elicited a stalwart response, ‘She’s doing well’, ‘I think she’s on the mend’, that kind of thing. She hadn’t wanted to worry them, Zoë said Rupert had said.
No, Clary thought, Aunt Rachel would say those things. It was odd how, when people didn’t want to worry each other, they worried them more than ever. Poor Aunt Rachel! She felt sadder for her than for the Duchy, who had had a long, serene life and had died at home with her daughter beside her. But I feel sad for the old lady as well. Or perhaps – I just feel sad for myself because she was there all my life, and I shall miss her. Clary sat at the kitchen table and had a small weep. Then she rang Polly.
‘I know. Uncle Rupert told Gerald.’
‘Do you know when the funeral will be?’
‘I should think they’ll arrange all that at the weekend.’ Polly seemed faintly shocked.
‘I know it sounds awful, but we’re supposed to be going to France, and of course we won’t go if it means missing the funeral. I just wondered …’ Clary tailed off to silence.
‘Well, you’ll be able to go later, won’t you? Sorry, Clary, but I’ve got to go. Andrew’s on the loose. It’s one of his days for not wearing clothes. Gerald has taken the girls to school and then Nan to the dentist to have a tooth out. See you soon.’ And she rang off.
Clary sat looking at the telephone. She wanted to tell Archie, but he hated being interrupted when he had a sitter. She felt besieged by guilt. Someone she loved had died and all she was doing was worrying about the holiday and the financial implications. Archie would have had to pay for the caravan and probably their tickets on the ferry. They almost certainly wouldn’t be able to pay for all that a second time. And going to Home Place would stop: she couldn’t imagine Aunt Rachel living there alone … It seemed both frivolous and greedy to be thinking of money at a time like this. She never used to think about money at all, and now she seemed to think about it all the time. Her eyes filled again, and she had another weep, this time about her rotten character.
Going to task with the children’s clothes, she discovered that Bertie had a hole where his big toe came through his sand shoes and this meant he probably needed a larger size in his other – more expensive – ones. There it was again. Shoes cost money. Everything cost money. She blew her nose and decided to make some fishcakes for the children’s tea. The recipe said tinned salmon, but she only had a tin of sardines. If she put quite a lot of mashed potato with them, and a splash of tomato ketchup and an egg to bind the mixture, it ought to make four quite large and unusual fishcakes; and then she would ring Archie just after