The Long View
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Forty-three-year-old Antonia Fleming is preparing a dinner party for eight at the house in Campden Hill Square she shares with her husband, Conrad. The occasion is the engagement of their son, Julian. Their other child, Deirdre, hates her father and resents her mother—a reality Conrad ponders, along with the disastrous state of Deirdre’s single life, as he leaves the bed of his current mistress.
In illuminating the quotidian details of domestic life, The Long View perfectly captures a long relationship, with its moments of joy and intimacy, loneliness and regret, and of the roads not taken. As the story moves backward in time, we learn about the events that led up to Conrad and Antonia’s fateful first meeting—including a startling secret in Antonia’s past.
With brilliant use of reverse chronology, the bestselling author of the Cazalet Chronicles paints a realistic and revealing portrait of a marriage and the decisions, good and bad, right and wrong, that shape lives.
Elizabeth Jane Howard
Elizabeth Jane Howard was the author of fifteen highly acclaimed novels. The Cazalet Chronicles – The Light Years, Marking Time, Confusion, Casting Off and All Change – have become established as modern classics and have been adapted for a major BBC television series and for BBC Radio 4. In 2002 Macmillan published Elizabeth Jane Howard's autobiography, Slipstream. In that same year she was awarded a CBE in the Queen's Birthday Honours List. She died, aged 90, at home in Suffolk on 2 January 2014.
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- Rating: 2 out of 5 stars2/5Interesting structure: Beginning at middle age, then going backwards to early marriage and teenage years. Structure reminded me of Pinter's 'Betrayal'. But could not feel anything for the chilly, disconnected characters. Felt I should have sympathy with Antonia, but it was only her mother who showed any spark of life.
- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5I have enjoyed all the other books by Elizabeth Jane Howard (especially the Cazalet Chronicles) but this one was rather confusing. It jumped around a lot and, perhaps most of all, I felt the conversations were rather dense and not how most people communicate with each other. I would be interested to know what other readers think.
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The Long View - Elizabeth Jane Howard
PART ONE
1950
ONE
This, then, was the situation. Eight people were to dine that evening in the house at Campden Hill Square. Mrs Fleming had arranged the party (it was the kind of unoriginal thought expected of her, and she sank obediently to the occasion) to celebrate her son’s engagement to June Stoker. The guests were asked at a quarter to eight for eight. On arrival the men would be politely wrenched from their overcoats, their hats, umbrellas, evening papers, and any other more personal outdoor effects by the invaluable Dorothy, until, reduced to the uniformity of their dinner jackets, they would be encouraged to ascend the steep curving staircase to the drawing-room. The women must climb to Mrs Fleming’s bedroom on the second floor, where she would afterwards find strange powder spilled on her dressing-table, mysterious hairs of no colour she associated with the heads of her guests caught in her ivory comb, and a composite smell of unremarkable scents. When the women had confirmed before Mrs Fleming’s mirror whatever they had thought a little while earlier of themselves before their own; when one of them, perhaps, had made public some small disparaging discovery about her appearance, and heard it indifferently, denied they would troop cautiously down the stairs (it was easy to tread on one another’s skirts round the sharp vertiginous corners) to the drawing-room, where they would find the men drinking, and eating glazed dazed little pieces of food. June Stoker would be introduced to a company which had otherwise long ceased to discover anything about themselves likely to increase either their animation or their intimacy, and her immediate future with Julian Fleming (a honeymoon in Paris and a flat in St John’s Wood) outlined.
In due course they would descend to the dining-room and eat oysters and grouse and cold orange soufflé, and drink (in deference to June Stoker) champagne. The conversation would consist of an innocuous blend of the world situation, and the St John’s Wood situation of June Stoker and Julian Fleming. In neither case would enough curiosity or information be supplied to provoke real interest. After the soufflé the women would retire to the drawing-room (or Mrs Fleming’s bedroom) to match up June’s potential experience with their own: and the men would continue over brandy (or port if Mr Fleming turned up at his own house in time to decant it) to turn the Korean situation to economic, not to say financial, account. The party would merge again in the drawing-room, until, at eleven, the prospect of another day exactly like the one just spent, would transport them in their mind’s eye to the last-minute hitches of the evening – their garage doors sticking; urgent incomprehensible telephone messages left by their foreign servants; their reading-lamps fused – perhaps even the necessity of discussing with one familiar person the threadbare subject of something done mutually and without pleasure. Then they would leave the delightful party: Julian would see June home; and Mrs Fleming would be left in the drawing-room scattered with ashtrays, brandy glasses, exhausted cushions, and, possibly – Mr Fleming.
That, reflected Mrs Fleming, was the only factor of the evening in the least uncertain; and even then there was merely the alternative. Either he would stay, or he would go. How the alternative reduces one’s prospect and petrifies the imagination in a way that the possibility can never do. Possibilities, innumerable and tightly packed, could shower forth like mushroom spore between such alternatives as being here, or there; alive, or dead; and old, or young.
Mrs Fleming shut the book she had not been reading, uncoiled herself from the sofa, and went upstairs to dress for dinner.
The view, even from the second floor of the house, was beautiful and disturbing. From the front windows the steeply declining square crammed with lawn and bushes, and the massive trees, which were fading and yellowing in the chill silent sunlight, filled the eye, so that the houses straight across the square were scarcely visible, and a little to the right down the hill were quite out of sight. At the bottom were no houses: the square opened straight on to the main road, like the ‘fourth wall’ of a theatre, or the ‘Terrible Zone’. The effect from Mrs Fleming’s bedroom was mysterious and satisfying: the great metropolis knowing its place, and rumbling distantly back and forth.
From the back windows the view was almost a miniature of the front: but instead of the square, narrow strips of back gardens dropped away until only the black tops of their walls could be seen. Beyond the gardens was a sloping row of mews cottages, all a little different from each other, and beyond them lay London, under a sky left hyacinth by the vanishing sun. She glanced down at the mews attached to her garden and observed that her daughter had returned from work. A man’s hand, at least not Deirdre’s (her daughter did not like women), twitched the scarlet curtains together. Mrs Fleming was genuinely without curiosity, salacious or moral, about her daughter’s private life, knowing only that it was conducted with a dramatic symmetry of conflict. There were always two men involved – one dull, devoted creature whose only distinction was his determination to marry her, in the face of a savage series of odds (the other, more attractive, but even more unsatisfactory young man). She suspected that Deirdre was not happy, but the suspicion was an easy one; and since Deirdre herself was clearly convinced that a mutual ignorance was all that held them tolerably apart, Mrs Fleming never attempted to force her daughter’s lack of confidence. She supposed that whoever had twitched the curtains was probably coming to dinner, but she could not remember his name …
Louis Vale let himself into his ground-floor flat in Curzon Street, slammed the metallic door, threw his briefcase on to the bed or divan (he preferred to call it a bed), and turned on his bath. His room, one of an enormous block, resembled the cell of some privileged prisoner. Bare but very expensive essentials were symmetrically arranged in a room so small and so dark that colour, untidiness, or time-wasting trivia of any kind would have been lost or unusable in it. Everything possible was flush with the walls. The cupboard for his clothes, the shelf for his alcohol, the wireless: even the lights clung like white bulbous leeches to the grey paint. There was a cringing armchair and a small double-tier table on which lay an ashtray, a telephone, and the current copy of The Architectural Review. The curtains were grey: he never drew them. His bathroom, equipped like a small operating theatre for the business of bathing and shaving, and now slowly suffusing with steam, was a bright uncompromising white. He emptied his pockets, flung off his clothes, and bathed. Ten minutes later he was in his dinner jacket swallowing whisky and water. There was a single drawer set into the wall above the head of his bed. It had no handle and opened with a minute key. Inside the drawer were three unsealed white envelopes. He selected one, shook out of it a latch-key, and locked the drawer.
He parked his car outside the mews in Hillsleigh Road, and let himself into Deirdre Fleming’s flat. It was very small, and, he observed with distaste, in a transitional, very feminine state of untidiness. A pile of clothes lay in one corner of the room awaiting the laundry or cleaners. Plates and glasses (the ones they had used two nights ago) were stacked on the draining board by the sink. The bed, or divan (Deirdre preferred to call it a divan), had been stripped of sheets and was now loosely covered by its loose cover. Two half-written letters lay on the table with an unaddressed brown paper parcel. The waste paper basket was full. The only chair was hung with stockings, almost dry, laid on dirty tea-cloths. In a large saucepan he discovered the wreck of an old chicken soaking in water. He read the letters. One was to her father, thanking him for the cheque he had given her on her birthday – and the other, he found with quickening interest, was to him. She felt she must write to him, he read, since he would never allow her to talk. She knew that she irritated him, but he made her so unhappy that she could not remain silent. She knew that he did not really love her, as, if he did, surely he would understand her better. If he really knew the effect that he had upon her when he failed to ring up or to stick to any arrangement, and thought her simply absurd, would he please tell her; but she could not really believe that he knew. He could not possibly want to make anyone so unhappy: she knew what he was really like underneath – an entirely different person to the one he made himself out to be. She knew that his work meant more …
Here she had stopped. Here we go again, he thought wearily, and put the letter back on the table, with a sudden vision of Deirdre naked, trying not to cry, and waiting to be loved. She has to be stripped of her self-respect in order to dress me in it. By the time she has grown out of being a romantic, I shan’t want her. I am a stinking cad to go on living on her emotional capital. Perhaps, he concluded without much conviction, I thought that she would infuse me with her belief. If she had succeeded, I should have made it worth her while – but she will not succeed. She hasn’t got what it takes, and I haven’t got what it makes.
Suddenly, old and sad about her, he drew the curtains, so that she should think he had been in the dark, and had not noticed her letter. Then he lay down on the uncomfortable bed, and slept.
He heard her cautiously intruding upon his sleep: opening the door carelessly, shutting it with elaborate calm; trying the ceiling light – on, and off – and then lighting the standard lamp. He felt her motionless in the middle of the room, watching him, and nearly opened his eyes, to interrupt her private heart about him – then remembered the letter, and remained still. He heard her move towards him and halt – heard her fingers on the paper; her sudden little breath which had always charmed him, and the indeterminate noises of concealment. Then, because he did not want to be woken up by her, he opened his eyes …
June Stoker emerged from the Plaza Cinema in a dim tear-soaked daze, stopped a taxi and asked it to go to Gloucester Place as quickly as possible. She felt in a confused way that she was late: not for anything in particular – her dinner was not until a quarter to eight, and she intended skipping the Thomases’ drinks party – but simply late: what in fact she always felt when she had been doing something secretly of which she was rather ashamed. For she would die sooner than tell her mother how she had spent the afternoon; alone in a cinema watching a film which in any company at all she would have condemned as sob stuff. To her it seemed frightfully, frightfully sad, and possibly even quite true, if one was that sort of girl. To June the essence of romance suggested the right man in the wrong circumstances – but somehow she could not imagine Julian in those circumstances, in spite of his father, whose behaviour really did seem to be rather odd. She was rather afraid of meeting him: even Julian, who was so calm about everything, seemed a little uncertain about the prospect. His mother had been easy, although June supposed you couldn’t really tell in one meeting. Mothers-in-law were supposed to be awful, but one need not see them much. She opened her compact, and powdered her nose. Anyone observant could tell that she had been crying. She looked exactly as though the tears had sprung from all over her face, and not simply from her eyes. She would slip into her room and say that she had a headache. She had a sort of headache now she came to think of it. Home. But it won’t be my home much longer, she realized: I shall have a different name, and a different house, and all my clothes will be new (well, nearly all), and Mummy won’t possibly be able to ask me where I am going all the time; but I do hope Julian will ask me when he comes back from the office: and we shall have our friends to dinner – I’ll be a marvellous cook, he’ll keep finding unsuspected qualities in me … I wonder what it will be like spending a whole fortnight alone with Julian …
She had paid the taxi and shut herself into the lift. She would have to ring Julian to tell him to pick her up at home, instead of at the Thomases’. She wondered what the dinner party with his parents would be like. Full of awfully clever and interesting people to whom she would not be able to think of anything to say. She sighed, and felt for her latch-key.
Angus, her Aberdeen, yapped mechanically round her feet, and of course her mother called her into the drawing-room. She was having tea with her old school friend, Jocelyn Spellforth-Jones. June first submitted to being told by her mother that she was late, that she looked hot, and that she never shut doors behind her, and then to a general and very unappetizing invitation from Jocelyn Spellforth-Jones to ‘tell her all about it’. Nobody but Mummy would think of telling Jocelyn anything: perhaps that is why she always wants to know so badly, thought June, the inevitable blush searing her face and neck, as she protested weakly that there was nothing much to tell, really. Mrs Stoker looked with mock despair at her best friend. Jocelyn returned the look, and invited Angus to search her. He was a sensible little dog and declined. Jocelyn then reminded Mrs Stoker of how absurd they had been when they were June’s age, and told a really revolting story about a set of blue china bunnies which she had insisted when she married on transporting from her bedroom mantelpiece in her old home, to a shelf built especially for the purpose by her new bed. Mrs Stoker remembered the bunnies perfectly, and June felt she might reasonably escape. Murmuring something about a headache, she rose to her feet. Immediately, her mother began bombarding her with questions. Had she found a pair of shoes? Did she remember the Thomases? What had Marshall’s said about her nighties? Well, what had she been doing all afternoon, and why did she suddenly have a headache? June blushed and lied and eventually fled to her bedroom feeling cross and tired.
Everything in her bedroom was pale peach coloured. She liked this; but when she had suggested repeating the colour in their flat, Julian had said that cream was more suitable. It was more neutral, he had said, and she expected that he was right. She slipped out of her pink woollen dress, kicked off her shoes, and emptied her bag on to the end of her bed. Angus (he was getting much too fat) waddled aimlessly round her shoes and then jumped on to his chair which was covered with a greasy car rug of the Hunting Stewart tartan.
If she had not spent most of the afternoon in tears, June would certainly have cried now. Just when everything ought to be marvellous, it somehow actually wasn’t. Of course it was largely that awful woman sitting there with Mummy and talking about her marriage with a deathly mixture of silliness and nastiness – and Mummy (although of course she wasn’t really like that) at least putting up with it – not noticing it. What was there to say about Julian anyway? He worked in an office, advertising things; she didn’t know much about it, and honestly it didn’t sound awfully interesting, and ‘they’ said that in view of his uncle, and his general ability for the position, he was certain to be a director before he was thirty. Which, ‘they’ said, was very good indeed. Julian would not have been able to marry so young without such a prospect, and to start with they would certainly have to be careful. She tried hard to imagine what being careful meant, but she could only think of cottage pies, and not going to the Berkeley. Julian was determined to keep his car, and she simply could not set her own hair. It was dark brown, thick, and rather wiry – frightful hair – although her friends said how lucky she was to have a natural wave. But Julian … Well, he was rather good looking, and they thought the same about things, like not believing much in God, and thinking circuses were rather cruel, and not bringing up children in a new-fangled way – and – all that kind of thing. Masses of things really. They had met at a dance and got engaged in Julian’s car by the Serpentine. That evening was only a month ago; it had been simply wonderful, and she had thought about it so much since then, that now she could not remember it properly – which was a bore. One ought to remember the night of one’s engagement. Julian had seemed a little nervous – she had liked that – and he had talked very fast about them, except when he had touched her, and then he had not talked at all. She could still remember his fingers on the back of her neck just before he kissed her. He had never held her head again in the same way, and she had not dared ask him in case, when he did, it would be different. She lived nostalgically on that little shiver, and the hope that it would return and envelop her when circumstances permitted.
Well, in a week she would be married, and everyone, except that foul Jocelyn (and she didn’t matter), was being very nice about it. After all she was an only child: Mummy, for all her frenzied co-operation, would probably be a bit lonely when it was all over, and Julian was the only son. Rather rotten for parents worrying away for years and then getting left. She wondered whether Mrs Fleming minded. Julian did not seem to be especially what her mother described as ‘close’ to his mother. Perhaps Mrs Fleming preferred Julian’s sister. Or perhaps she concentrated on her extraordinary (probably glamorous) husband. One heard all kinds of things about him. He did not seem to lead much of a family life, which had made Mummy like Mrs Fleming much more than she would otherwise have done. June knew that her mother distrusted women of her own age who did not look it; but Mr Fleming’s frequent absences from both of his houses made Mummy sorry for Mrs Fleming.
She had been sitting in front of her pink dressing-table removing her make-up; her clear red lipstick, and the film of pink powder which bloomed unbecomingly on her flushed face. She wore no rouge – if one blushed much it was fatal – and her eyelashes were dark and thick like a child’s. She scraped her hair back from her wide, shallow forehead, and fastened it with a piece of old pink chiffon. She looked attractive because she was so young, and because she was so young, she felt, like this, very unattractive. How should she employ these rites with a husband always about? What would he think when he first saw her like this? Impossible to pin up her hair and put cream on her face at night: but how could one expect to remain attractive if one never did these things? She would ask Pamela, who had been married for nearly a year: but Pamela looked ravishing, different, of course, but still ravishing without any make-up at all, while she simply looked like a schoolgirl who was not allowed to know better. And then, as if to convince herself that she no longer was a schoolgirl, she ran to her door and shot its bolt, peeled off her remaining clothes, and lit a cigarette. Now, she thought, she resembled some awful French picture. She certainly did not look like a schoolgirl. Now she would ring up Julian.
Only when she reached the telephone did she realize with a shock which filled her brown eyes with sudden tears of discretion, that she would not, even if he asked her, tell Julian that she had spent the afternoon alone in a cinema.
She pulled the counterpane round her shoulders, and lifted the receiver.
Mr Fleming replaced the telephone on its shelf, and sank back into his bath. He had had an exceedingly tiring afternoon, and he felt much the better for it. He regarded his wife’s dinner for their son calmly, and decided that he would arrive late. One of his secret pleasures was the loading of social dice against himself. He did not seem for one moment to consider the efforts made by kind or sensitive people to even things up: or if such notions ever occurred to him, he would have observed them with detached amusement, and reloaded more dice.
An unorthodox master at his public school had once written neatly across the corner of his report: ‘Brilliant, but bloody minded.’ This had delighted Mr Fleming at the time, and he had stuck to the formula ever since. It had really got him a very long way. Throughout his several astonishingly successful careers (he had roared through the examinations for chartered accountancy, fought a courageous war in the service of the Navy – ending up in the trade, gambled his prize money on the Stock Exchange with spectacular luck or ingenuity, and almost as casually begun his term as law student) he had concentrated on himself with a kind of objective ferocity; until now, at an age which merely added to his fascination, he had constructed a personality as elaborate, mysterious, and irrelevant, as a nineteenth-century folly. In turn, he had cultivated information, power, money, and his senses, without ever allowing one of them to influence him exclusively. His incessant curiosity enabled him to amass a quantity of knowledge which his ingenuity and judgement combined to disseminate, or withhold, to the end of power over ideas and people. He made money out of both without people clearly recognizing it, since they were usually so dazzled by his attention that their own ends were blinded. He had a heart when he cared to use it. But on the whole, he did not care in the least about other people, and neither expected nor desired them to care about him. He cared simply and overwhelmingly for himself: and he felt now that he was at last a man after his own heart. The only creature in the world who caused him a moment’s disquiet was his wife, and this, he thought, was only because he had at one period in their lives allowed her to see too much of him. This indirectly had resulted in their children: who, though clearly a case for Shaw’s theory of eugenics, were, in his opinion, otherwise the consequence of mistaken social exuberance. The boy bored him. He had no doubt that Julian was marrying an exceptionally, even a pathetically, dull young woman; and the only mitigating feature of the affair, Julian’s extreme youth, was not likely, in view of his work and disposition, to count for very much. He would probably attempt to extricate himself at thirty, or thereabouts, by which time he would have two or three brats, and a wife, who, drained of what slender resources had first captivated him, would at the same time be possessed of a destructive knowledge of his behaviour. This would inevitably lead to his leaving her (if indeed he were to achieve it) for entirely the wrong reasons.
He considered his daughter to be a more subtle disaster. She was undoubtedly attractive, but although not a fool, she was not equipped with enough intellectual ballast for her charms. Hers was an impulsive intelligence, and she had not the reason either to sustain or to reject her impulses. She would confuse her life with men who exploited her, and work that did not; until, her attractions waning, and her judgement impelled by fear, she would marry. This last, short of a miracle. Mr Fleming believed only in miracles wrought by himself: ‘by hand’ he would explain with an ingenuous expression, that appeared on his face quite devilish. All this was the result of his wife trying to be a good mother; and he, he was perfectly sanguine about it, trying not to be a father of any kind.
Innumerable women had enquired why he had married his wife; and it had fascinated him to hear the varying degrees of curiosity, solicitude, and spite with which they contrived to put the damaging little question. It had fascinated him no less to reply (throwing contemptuously aside such reportorial excuses as youth or inexperience) with fantastic, and apparently circumstantial detail; in such a way as to defer their hopes, excite their interest, or disprove their theories: discovering, each time (and he never told the same story twice), that there was no limit or horizon to the human capacity of belief. He did it, he considered, in the best possible taste. He never deprecated his wife, even by implication. He simply added, as it were, another storey to the structure of his personality, and invited the lady in question to put herself temporarily in possession: there she might perch precariously, in what she could be easily persuaded was an isolated castle in a rich and strange air.
He was bathed; he was dressed.
In the bedroom he regarded a tangle of sheets, damp silky hair, and bare sulking arms, with faint, with very faint, interest. When he had said hours ago that he would not be dining with her, she had started to make emotional capital out of it. His remark that to her monotony was the spice of life had reduced her to an injured dramatic silence which he knew very well she expected him to break. Instead he put two five-pound notes and some small change on the dressing-table, secured them by her bottle of Caron, and left. It amused him to see how women reacted to this: he always maintained that the theatrical insult of pennies thrown upon the stage related strictly to the value of the coins. Sovereigns would produce a different result. The sentimental women (they were legion) returned the notes and kept the change. The professional kept the lot and never alluded to it. The romantic and inexperienced returned the lot and discussed it for weeks with varying degrees of tortuous indignation (he had learned to avoid them). One woman had left it lying on an hotel dressing-table for days, and then, when they had left the hotel, announced that it was a tip for the chambermaid; and one had kept the notes and sent the change back to him as a donation to the cause of his sensibility.
He collected a taxi and drove to his club for a drink and a little telephoning. The time had come, he felt, to make several, drastic changes …
Leila Talbot telephoned her house to tell her maid to tell her nanny that the children were not to wait up for her as she would be late at the hairdresser, to ring up the Thomases to say that she would be late for her drink (oh dear, and they had asked her to be early), and to ring up the Flemings to say that she would be late for dinner as she would be late at the Thomases’. Then, with a little groan of pride at her administrative ability, she cautiously encased herself in the electric hair-drying machine. Most people were late without warning people; they had no manners nowadays …
I should like to be really rude to him. Really outrageous, Joseph Fleming thought, his gouty fingers struggling with his black tie. He had disliked his elder brother so intensely for so many years that even at the prospect of seeing him he indulged in a preliminary orgy of hate. His mind ebbed and flowed and broke again over the rock of his brother’s insolence, his success with other men, with any woman, with money (his profession seemed exasperatingly to combine streams of women and the acquisition of money), and finally with that collective mystery, the world. He did not like Mrs Fleming either; but then, he did not like women, he disliked other men liking them, and he loathed anyone who had ever liked his brother.
It was characteristic of Joseph that he suffered badly from gout, particularly in his hands, without drinking red wine. He knew that the angry variations upon which he was now engaged would make him very hungry; that he would eat too much too fast at dinner, and that he would spend a night sleepless with indigestion. It was also characteristic of him that however little he thought he wanted to go to dinner at Campden Hill Square to meet some hard-boiled chit that damned young puppy his nephew was to marry (and probably a small crowd of dreary people he had so frequently met there before), nothing would have induced him to miss it. As it was, he believed he had one of his gargantuan colds coming … but still, he would go, although how anybody could expect the evening to be enjoyable was utterly beyond him.
TWO
They all sat round the table eating oysters. June said she adored them. Leila Talbot said how exciting it was to eat them for the first time every September. Joseph said that he had met somebody at his club who had lived in New Zealand where all one had to do was to put one’s hand into a pool and pull them out. Mr Fleming had remarked that if they were quite so easily come by, he did not think that he would want them. Deirdre said anyway there ought to be some compensation for living in New Zealand. Louis, who had been very silent, said that he had been born there, and that, with Deirdre subsiding into an agony of sensibility, was that.
Mrs Fleming, as a result of formal interest, learned that Louis Vale was an architect, a member of the Georgian Group, and a contributor to several sympathetic journals on such subjects as the ground plans of great houses long since demolished. The conversation flowered, as monologues of intelligent young men on the subject of their careers to an intelligent and sympathetic woman will do; until, at the point when Deirdre was softening under the influence of her lover acquitting himself so well (she had not listened to what Louis had been saying, but only to the effect of what he had said), and Joseph, unable to command Leila Talbot’s attention against such competition, was rumbling and snarling inside like a volcano, Mr Fleming leaned forward and, with deceptive delicacy, asked Louis what he was designing, or doing.
Louis, pulled up – floundered – said that he taught second-year students, and that (he spoke very fast) he was designing prefabricated public conveniences … to be used, of course, all over the country.
During the moments that followed, Georgian, or what they conceived to be Georgian, images fell to ruins in the pit of a silence so small but so deep, that at the end of it all of them were made violently aware of one another, as people who have survived an earthquake. Joseph thought: Stevenson could have written him: only Stevenson. He’s a villain – an intellectual villain.
Deirdre, subject to a battery of emotion – hatred of her father, and resentment of her mother – suddenly saw Louis separate from herself; as he must have been before she knew him – as he was now, without her; the part of him that was recoiling from her father might envelop him to the exclusion of herself. A waste of emotional despair overcame her; so that for a moment she was positively, destructively, beautiful – her eyelids weighted to Botticellian proportions – her baroque mouth simplified by her unhappiness. Instinctively, she glanced at her mother; but every thread of her face was controlled. Her thoughts, her feelings were so much her own business, that she had no time for those belonging to anyone else. But miraculously, she had. She leaned forward, and with perfect conventional manipulation, she restored Louis’s faith in himself. Architecture was again safe: Joseph was again possessed of Leila Talbot; and Mr Fleming, unmoved, proceeded to dissect June, who, almost everyone knew, including Mr Fleming, was hardly fair prey … it was indeed a minute admission on his part. June was quickly reduced to the public uttermost depths of an unformed mind. Dark green and bright red reminded her of holly, which reminded her of Christmas, which reminded her of her childhood. Had she been less simple, she would have realized that these reactions were uniform. If she had been more adept she would have prevented these discoveries relating to herself. As she was (and Mr Fleming intended she should be), she blushed amid high school clichés and indestructible platitudes which she had read and spoken since she had been taught to read and speak: but her limitations and her embarrassment were so routine that they afforded Mr Fleming little pleasure. She was a nice, ignorant, repressed, anxious, unimaginative girl, designed perfectly to reproduce herself; and regarding her, Mr Fleming found it difficult to believe in The Origin of Species.
Julian enjoyed his grouse, and wondered what the hell he was going to do with June in Paris. After all, there were limits, pretty stringent ones, if she’d never been to bed with anyone before. He approved of that, but it made the prospect of a honeymoon with her something of an ordeal. He reviewed his own experience rather defiantly to reassure himself: the local intellectual tart at Oxford; that extraordinary woman he had met at a shoot in Norfolk; and Mrs Travers, who had been at least forty, and infinitely stimulating. It was odd that although he had been to bed with her four times, he still thought of her as Mrs Travers. Sometimes he tried saying ‘Isobel’ carelessly to himself, but he never felt happy about it. Mrs Travers had had a husband, a lover who lived in her house, and a stream of young men. She was very good tempered, and told them all extremely careless lies; but as long as they pretended to believe her, she was very kind to them. From her he had learned that everything took twice as long as he had thought necessary; but except for her irritating habit (when she was otherwise carried away) of calling him Desmond, the incident had proved as enjoyable as it had been educative.
Fortified by these fleeting exaggerated recollections, he considered grandly whether he had better not sack Harrison. Harrison was their office manager, and had been for nearly twenty years. Julian was not really in a position to sack him, but anyone with any imagination could see that Harrison’s methods were hopelessly antiquated, and that his sole concern (that of keeping down overheads) was beginning seriously to cramp developments, and even giving the firm a bad name. Harrison owed his position to a crablike ingenuity with Uncle Joseph, consisting chiefly in a nauseating Dickensian act of worthless feudal memories, which Julian’s uncle, who could never remember anything, greatly enjoyed. Well, in Paris he could think about sacking Harrison. He half wished that Paris was over; June said that she did not really speak French, and neither of them knew anyone there at all well – still they would have the car, and they could go to films. June said that French films were much better than English or American ones – she was saying it now to his father; and he, damn him, was asking her why she thought so. Poor darling, she was blushing, and of course she didn’t know why. Suddenly protective about her, he felt for her hand which was nervously twisting her napkin under the table. When he touched her, she turned to him with such a radiance of gratitude that for a moment he knew that he loved her.
Mrs Fleming, while she listened to Deirdre’s difficult, attractive young man, examined her husband’s face, which was now blatantly, almost insultingly, expressionless, as he enquired into June’s prejudices and predilections. It was a lack of expression so complete, that although she had observed it many hundred times, she was never able to believe it; and she searched now a little more urgently than usual (perhaps because she wanted to