Hope, Healing, and Help for Survivors of Sexual Abuse: A Faith-Based Journey to Healing
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Hope, Healing, and Help for Survivors of Sexual Abuse - Sue Cameron
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Introduction
Dear Reader,
We’re survivors, you and I—connected because we’ve each experienced sexual abuse. And we’re not alone. One in three women and one in five to one in seven men are also invisibly joined to us.¹ The details of our stories are as varied as we are, and none of us are exactly the same in how we’ve faced life afterward.
Whatever your response, it is valid. You’re the only one who can determine the effects of your experience. But that doesn’t mean you must face the aftermath alone. We want to come alongside you and say that the journey to healing is worth every difficult step. Dealing with a painful past requires great courage. We believe you are strong enough to begin the process.
In these pages you’ll read about other survivors who acknowledge that sexual abuse still casts its fearful shadow on our lives. It threatens even our most precious earthly relationships. Should we simply allow our painful past to continue to torment us by robbing us of the intimacy God intends for us to enjoy? Is it fair for our innocent mate to also suffer from the injuries perpetrated against us because our wounds are still open and bleeding?
It’s time for the pain to end so we can go on to live the rest of our lives without regret about how we’ve chosen to deal with our abuse. We desire strong and lasting relationships, whatever the cost. We refuse to be defined by what happened to us. We want our lives back—whole and healed.
While this book is written primarily for married women, its pages are intended to lead all readers toward the Lord who heals. If you have doubts about a loving God because of the trauma you experienced, your feelings are valid. It’s okay to have issues related to God. But before you decide that He is untrustworthy, please give Him the chance to heal your pain as He is doing for us.
Healing is a process. There are biblical principles that have helped other survivors to find freedom from the effects of their sexual trauma and to embrace a new future. It is the Lord’s good intention for each of us to enjoy a healthy, satisfying, intimate relationship with our life partner. It’s the reason we seek healing from the effects of our sexual abuse.
With the exception of my own story, the stories are composites of true accounts that have been put into story form. Like ointment on a raw wound, we pray that these stories will help you identify and address the source of your pain and find relief for your weary soul.
I am indebted to a group of survivors who met together to read, analyze, and comment on these pages. They’ve shared their insights and experiences to make this book useful and encouraging to you.
When the words us, our, or we are used, it refers to this courageous group of women. We invite you to join hands with us as we take this journey to healing.
Chapter 1 ~ See the Need
Go Away—I’m Fine!
Teri’s Story
Pounding on my sister’s apartment door, I yelled, Teri, open up. I know you’re in there.
Go away.
I’m not going anywhere.
Just leave me alone.
Just leave you? That’s what you want?
Yeah, so?
A part of me wanted to turn away, to go back down the stairs and out into the fresh air. I’m getting so tired of trying to help her. But another part of me completely understood. We’d grown up together. We’d shared the same parents, the same kinds of pain. She’s my baby sister. I can’t just abandon her.
So?
I shouted at the closed door with the peeling paint. I love you and you matter to me.
I waited. Lord, please let her answer.
Several moments passed before Teri opened the door a crack and peeked out. Her puffy red eyes were filled with deep sadness.
Wedging my snow boot into the opening and heaving my shoulder against the door, I stepped inside. She shrunk back with a look of terror.
Locking the door, I said, It’s okay. No one can get in.
The heat felt stifling compared to the winter air outside. I shed my scarf, coat, and gloves and tried to adjust to the darkness. Her place was like a cave with the curtains drawn. The air was stale.
Straining to see, I followed her, stepping around piles of empty boxes, dirty clothes, and litter as I made my way to the dilapidated sofa. Before sitting next to her, I turned down the TV and pushed aside discarded food containers.
I took her hand. Can we talk?
About what?
There’s something really important I want to tell you.
She nodded but kept staring at her lap.
Moving clumps of matted hair gently away from her eyes, I said, Look at me—please pay attention, okay?
Our eyes met. I almost looked away. It hurt to see the depth of sorrow reflected there. It’s gotten worse. Time doesn’t heal all wounds.
There’s a group at church that I’ve been attending for a few months, and it’s helping. I’m better.
She yanked her hand out of mine. I don’t want to hear about it.
She turned away.
Trying to keep my voice calm, I said, Really, Teri, I’m starting to experience life in a new way. It’s like everything was dull and gray and now—now it’s in color. God’s changing things for me.
What’s Jim think?
He didn’t like the idea at first. Thought they were a bunch of religious fanatics. But then, considering how awful our marriage was, he said it couldn’t hurt.
Was?
Yeah, it’s even helping our marriage.
I had her attention. I don’t have as many nightmares,
I said. And my headaches have gone away. The Lord is healing me.
Your headaches are gone?
It’s been nearly two months since I had one.
We sat in silence until she said, Steve called yesterday.
Really?
A glance at her left hand confirmed that she still wore her wedding ring. How long has it been since you heard from him?
Since summer.
How did he sound?
Good … really good.
Her mouth twisted and she blinked back tears. I think he’s doing better without me.
I pulled a tissue from my purse and laid it on the sofa next to my sister. It’s obvious you miss him.
She nodded, picked up the tissue, and blew her nose.
Do it for Steve,
I said gently. It matters.
I handed her another tissue. Jim even held my hand when we were at the grocery store the other day.
Yeah?
Now that I’m dealing with my problems, it’s like I can think of ways to—I don’t know—to take better care of him.
Her mouth compressed into a sort of pucker. She always did that when she was thinking.
It’s not as scary as you think,
I said.
Wanna bet?
Okay. You probably feel like leaving this apartment will destroy you, but it won’t. It’s hard, but it’s worth it.
She looked at me as if she doubted me.
It’s true,
I said. I can get on a bus now and not feel afraid of all those strangers. It’s so freeing.
She glared at me. Well, I’m so thrilled for you.
I felt like she’d stabbed me. My first instinct was to lash out at her or maybe to simply get up and leave. Instead, I took a deep breath. You can’t scare me away. You always get mean when you’re afraid and don’t want to listen.
Why should I listen?
Because, I’m telling you the truth. The Lord wants to make you whole, to give you a good life, to take away your pain. He can do it.
She looked at me but remained silent.
I kept on. Lord, help me to persuade her. I’m learning that the way I think affects my feelings and that what happened isn’t my fault. Listen,
I forced her to look at me, we are not to blame. Isn’t that wonderful news?
Teri didn’t look convinced.
I want you to get better, too. All you need to do right now is come with me to the meetings—please.
No. I don’t want to go. You-know-who will find out and hate me.
They’re the ones who hurt you—who hurt us.
I’ll make them mad. They’re mad at you.
I’m sorry about the way they feel. But—
I swallowed my panic. I’m responsible for my life and my choices now.
I took a deep breath. Maybe they’ll want to be free too, when they see how I’ve changed.
I hope so.
I don’t have anyone else. I’m all alone.
No.
I placed my hand on hers. You have me and Jesus, both of us. We’ll be with you. I know you’re sick of living like this. You must want to get better.
She nodded.
What happened back then is ruining your life now.
I don’t like hurting this much.
I stood. Come on. Let’s go right now.
I can’t. I don’t want to.
I’ll stay right with you.
They’ll ask me questions.
You can just listen. You talk only when you’re ready.
I can’t talk about those things.
That’s exactly how I felt. But when I finally started to talk about all that horrible stuff, it was like emptying an overflowing trash can.
Pausing, I waited for a reaction. When she didn’t respond, I said, It took so much energy trying to keep the lid on my stuff that I didn’t have strength for anything else. It wore me out. You know what I’m talking about.
Opening up is like making room in your soul. It’s dumping the garbage so it doesn’t fester inside anymore. No more stink. It made me feel free and light. Now I can think of other things—like the flowers I saw in Mrs. Gordon’s front window this morning.
A glimmer of light appeared in her pale blue eyes. I used to like flowers.
I took her hands and helped her to her feet. I know. Remember those roses in our yard when we were little girls? They were kinda purple …
I loved the way they smelled.
And you picked some once to give to Mother.
She stiffened and I wished I could have taken back the words. You were beaten and locked in a closet for that act of kindness. I’m sorry, Teri. I didn’t mean to remind you of—
She seemed to withdraw into a dark cavern as she sat down on the couch pulling her feet under her.
I knelt before her. See, this just proves how wounded you are. I understand. If you’ll come for help, then when you remember the bad things, you’ll be able to go on without them making you feel so worthless.
Rubbing the back of her hands, I said, You don’t have to stay like this.
I’m fine,
she snapped.
But it’s obvious that you’re still hurting.
There’s nothing wrong with me. Leave me alone.
Please. You can get better, too.
She started to retreat, to pull away. Her eyes dimmed.
It’s taking time, but things are changing for me.
I saw it was too late and I couldn’t stop my tears. I’ve lost her to the dark place.
I stood again and took her hand. Please come with me. Please!
My tears didn’t touch her. My pleading failed.
Defeated, I finally left my sister sitting there, alone in her pain. I knew where she could get help, but I couldn’t make her go there. I’ll try again, later.
Leaving her apartment, I made my way down the stairs, out the door, and got on the waiting bus. And I wasn’t afraid.
Relating to the Story
- Do you relate to either of these women? If so, which one?
- Why might Teri refuse to go for help?
- Not ready
- Frightened
- Afraid of change
- Can’t face her pain
- Doesn’t want to feel out of control
- Is comfortable as the victim
- Feels unsafe without known boundaries
- Has decided to live with her pain
- Feels unworthy of a better life
- Do you feel any of the emotions listed above?
- Is it easy for you to admit when you’re hurting and need help?
- Do you think Teri might get better if she went for help?
- What might it take for Teri to be willing to go for help?
- Has anyone encouraged you to seek healing for the sexual abuse you experienced?
- Do you know of anyone else who has experienced healing from their past? If so, how does the fact that they are better make you feel?
- Hopeful
- Jealous
- Scared
- Pressured
- Hesitant
- Skeptical
- Would you rather seek healing alone or with another trusted person?
- Rate where you are, at this moment, on the journey toward healing.
- Open wounds
- Getting better
- Healed
Recognizing the Issues
It’s heartbreaking when those we love refuse to get help. As much as we want you to find healing, we know that you don’t have to come along with us. If you are hesitating, unable to take the first step, we understand.
Maybe you will set this book aside for a time. That’s okay. But it’s our hope that you won’t waste another day of your life in misery. The decision is yours. Just remember, you’re not alone. We understand. We’ve been there.
If you think you’re ready to go on toward healing, please allow us to take you by the hand and show you the way. The first step is to recognize the need. It’s admitting and accepting thoughts like, I’m hurting,
I’m still being affected by what happened,
I wish I could get over the past.
No one can force you to take this step. Even though you may not fully comprehend what the journey to healing will actually be like, you must be willing to take the risk and go forward. When you do this, you move away from your current suffering. It’s like leaving a very dark place and inching toward a tiny glimmer of light.
One way to do this is to keep reading this book. We want you to. Read with an open heart and you will discover that the direction you are heading offers new life.
Requesting God’s Help
Here’s a prayer before we take a close look at a Bible passage.
Lord, thank You for caring about us and the details of our lives. Please give us open hearts and minds to hear Your voice. Teach us through Your Word. You are the only One who knows us inside out and understands all that we feel, all that we think, and all that concerns us. Please, Lord, show us how to listen to You. Help us to trust You in new and deeper ways. When we feel afraid, give us courage. Amen.
Reflecting on Scripture
Chapter by chapter we’ll focus on a woman who was healed by Jesus. Her story is recorded in Mark 5:25-34. We encourage you to read it slowly, several times, and to think carefully about its meaning. There will also be questions to consider if you want to go deeper.
The whole passage is printed here so you can get a grasp of the entire account. There is supernatural power in the Bible. As we seek to understand its meaning, we begin to change in positive ways that impact every aspect of our lives, especially our close relationships. We pray that this will also be true for you.
Mark 5:25-34
²⁵ A woman in the crowd had suffered for twelve years with constant bleeding.
²⁶ She had suffered a great deal from many doctors, and over the years she had spent everything she had to pay them, but she had gotten no better. In fact, she had gotten worse.
²⁷ She had heard about Jesus, so she came up behind him through the crowd and touched his robe.
²⁸ For she thought to herself, If I can just touch his robe, I will be healed.
²⁹ Immediately the bleeding stopped, and she could feel in her body that she had been healed of her terrible condition.
³⁰ Jesus realized at once that healing power had gone out from him, so he turned around in the crowd and asked, Who touched my robe?
³¹ His disciples said to him, Look at this crowd pressing around you. How can you ask, ‘Who touched me?’
³² But he kept on looking around to see who had done it.
³³ Then the frightened woman, trembling at the realization of what had happened to her, came and fell to her knees in front of him and told him what she had done.
³⁴ And he said to her, Daughter, your faith has made you well. Go in peace. Your suffering is over.
Responding to God’s Word
The Bible records true accounts of real people. People the same as us. When we read about them, we often