Anatomy of a Murderer
By Tim Floreen
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A year ago, Rem Braithwaite watched his classmate Franklin Kettle commit a horrific crime.
Now, apart from the nightmares, life has gone back to normal for Rem. Franklin was caught, convicted, and put away in juvenile detention for what he did. The ordeal seems to be over.
Until Rem’s mother selects Franklin as a test subject for an experimental brain procedure intended to “cure” him of his cruel and violent impulses. Suddenly Rem’s memories of that day start coming back to the surface. His nightmares become worse than ever. Plus he has serious doubts about whether his mother’s procedure will even work. Can evil really just be turned off?
Then, as part of Franklin’s follow-up testing, he and Rem are brought face to face, and Rem discovers…Franklin does seem different. Despite everything, Rem finds himself becoming friends with Franklin. Maybe even something more than friends.
But when another of their classmates turns up dead, Rem’s world turns upside-down yet again. Franklin insists that he’s innocent, that he’s cured, but Rem doesn’t know what to believe. Is someone else responsible for this new murder, or is Franklin fated to stay a monster forever? And can Rem find out the answer to this question before the killer, whoever it is, comes after him too?
Tim Floreen
Tim Floreen majored in English at Yale and earned a Master’s degree in creative writing at Boston University. He now lives in San Francisco with his partner and their two cats. Willful Machines is his first novel. You can find him online at TimFloreen.com or on Twitter at @TimFloreen.
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- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Jeremy Braithwaite is struggling to rebuild his life after his best friend is shot to death by a classmate -- Columbine style -- in front of his eyes. Yet Rem can't move on because his mother, a noted psychiatrist, is trying experimental procedures on the convicted killer, Franklin, and using Rem as a go-between. In a powerful subplot, Rem is gay and out of the closet but having a very-closeted encounter with another friend. As the book proceeds any/all of the "Boreal five" as the gang of friends are called, will be targeted for murder. If all of this sounds like a lot of drama.... it is. On the plus side: Rem is a sure and likable voice. His homosexuality is deftly handled: a real part of him but not graphic or off-putting. The dialogue and side characters are fine (a bonus shout-out for having some positive adults!) The plot re: his mother's treatment of 'bad boy' Franklin is especially interesting; the progression of bodies and slasher-like violence, not so much. It's almost as if the author didn't trust the true theme of the book (Can evil be cured? to what extent are we responsible for the things we do? Are we all capable of doing bad things?) and threw in Hollywood-style action to strengthen the plot. Too bad.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5I read this book in two days, every time I could for it in. The story is intriguing. The main character, Rem is convoluted and easy to care for.
I’m sure the subject matter might be too violent for some, but it was thought-provoking and more than a little heartbreaking.
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Anatomy of a Murderer - Tim Floreen
1
Almost a year after Franklin Kettle shot my friend Pete Lund through the head, a squad of cops took Franklin to my mom’s lab so she could put a hole in his head and slide a small electronic capsule inside.
The three police cruisers swerved to a stop in front of the sleek glass structure, their tires kicking up snow, their sirens for some reason blaring. The noise seemed to reach all the way around the lab and spread across the surface of the frozen lake beyond. Then there was a clattering of car doors opening and closing and booted feet stomping the slushy pavement. Gruff voices barked orders back and forth.
Franklin appeared to be enjoying all the fuss. When the cops helped him out of the middle cruiser’s backseat, the chains on his wrists and ankles clinking, he had a tiny, secret smile on his face.
The police walked him past a sign that read MINNESOTA INSTITUTE OF NEUROLOGICAL RESEARCH and into the lab. An elevator sliced through the building without a sound as it carried them to the top floor. The door whispered open on a bright corridor, where a lab tech with a pierced nose, an asymmetrical wedge haircut, and a badge on her white coat that said GERTRUDE THOMAS waited. She blinked at the sight of the six huge cops packed into the elevator, but then she recovered herself and shifted her gaze to the skinny seventeen-year-old kid they were guarding.
Hi, Franklin. I don’t know if you remember me.
She dipped her head a little but didn’t manage to catch his eyes. I’m Gertie. We met the first time you came here last year?
Franklin responded with a slight tilt of his head that might’ve meant he remembered her and might’ve meant he didn’t. His eyes never left the elevator floor.
Why don’t you follow me?
Gertie said. I’ll take you to Dr. Braithwaite.
She led them all down the corridor, only once throwing a flustered glance back at the mob of cops tromping after her. At the end of the corridor she grabbed the badge clipped to her lab coat and touched it to a card reader next to a door. The door clicked open. The group entered a big room with a floor-to-ceiling window spanning the rear wall. It looked out onto Lake Superior, which was solid and gray, like a continuation of the room’s concrete floor. A table stood in front of the window.
My mom sat behind it.
A middle-aged man with a comb-over stepped forward and offered Franklin his hand. Welcome, Mr. Kettle. I’m Dr. Hult, the head biomedical engineer. We’re all thrilled to have you back. We can’t wait to get started.
Franklin didn’t look at him, either. Instead he let out a quiet snort, like he’d just told himself a private joke.
Dr. Hult glanced at his outstretched, unshaken hand and stuffed it into his lab coat pocket. He nodded at Mom. I think you know Dr. Braithwaite.
Hello, Franklin,
Mom said. Thanks, Gertie. You can go now.
Gertie cast one more uncertain look at Franklin before slipping out of the room.
Mom gestured toward a chair across the table from her. While one of the cops guided Franklin over and sat him down, Mom smoothed her straight hair—iron gray, like the concrete floor and the lake, shot through with a single thick streak of white near the front. She’d always refused to dye it. I’d told her once I thought the white streak made her look like a mad scientist, especially when she had her lab coat on, but she’d just replied, "Then it’s a good thing I am one."
It’s been a while,
she said to Franklin now. How are you doing?
He raised his hands—he had to raise both of them, because the chains bound his wrists close together—and pointed at the chair next to her. Something rested there, some kind of box, with a white cloth draped over it. The top of it was just visible above the table. A soft scratching sound came from within.
What’s that?
We’ll get to that in a moment,
she said. I want to talk to you first. Do you understand why you’re here?
He slouched down low in his chair and stared at the box.
Franklin? It’s important that you answer the question.
You want to open up my head.
That’s part of it, yes. Now, I know you must be nervous.
I’m not nervous.
I’m glad to hear that.
Why do you think I’m nervous? Do I look like I’m nervous?
No.
He didn’t look like he was anything. Franklin Kettle had a face empty of expression—except, sometimes, for that half smile of his—and a low, weirdly calm voice, like the computer from 2001: A Space Odyssey. Kettlebot, kids had sometimes called him at school. His eyes, partly hidden behind spiky chunks of hair and glasses with bulky black frames, looked like dull gray stones.
I’ve undergone thousands of hours of military training,
he said. I think I know how to keep my cool.
Mom pursed her lips. You’re talking about that video game you play. It isn’t quite the same thing, is it?
It’s not just a video game,
he replied, still in that same calm tone. Military training programs all over the world use Son of War to help prepare soldiers for combat. And I have one of the all-time high scores. You don’t think that says something about me?
I’m sure it does.
I do see your point, though, Madame Doctor. Can virtual combat make a person fearless for real? It’s an interesting question. The kind of question you probably think about a lot, being a brain scientist and all.
His smile had returned. Sort of like: can sticking some gadget in the head of a cold-blooded killer make him not a killer anymore?
Mom was unfazed. Actually, that’s what I want to talk to you about, Franklin: why you’re here. Do you understand what we hope to accomplish when we—
The chains clanked as he pointed again. His eyes hadn’t budged from the box covered by the white cloth. What is it? Why is it making that noise?
She glanced at the thing on the chair next to her. It’s a gift. I was planning to give it to you a little later.
Give it to me now. The noise is distracting me.
Mom hooked her hair behind her ear while she thought about it. All right then.
She lifted the box onto the table and, drawing off the cloth, revealed a Plexiglas cage with half a dozen mice inside.
Franklin pulled himself out of his slouch so he could set his hands on the table, reaching them as far as his chains would allow. He tapped a fingernail on the white tabletop and watched the mice react.
How come?
he said.
I beg your pardon?
How come you’re giving me these mice? What do you want me to do with them?
He still didn’t make eye contact with Mom. That was another thing about Franklin: he never looked anyone in the eyes. Not out of shyness. At least it didn’t seem that way. He just appeared uninterested in connecting with other human beings.
Whatever you like,
Mom answered. I thought you might enjoy them.
To one of the police officers standing behind him, she said, Would you take off his wrist restraints, please?
The cop unchained his hands. Without hesitating or pausing to ask permission, Franklin opened the door to the cage and reached his hand inside. His fingers closed around a mouse with a coat of white and brown splotches. He brought it to his chest and stroked its head. The mouse’s tiny pink paws scraped his fingers.
I know what you want me to do with them,
Franklin said. You want me to hurt them.
Mom sat up a tiny bit straighter. Why would I want you to do something like that?
So you can study my behavior. Gather data for your project. See for yourself what a psycho I am. You and whoever else is watching.
He nodded at one of the cameras hanging from the ceiling. You’re all thrilled to have me back,
he added, slitting his eyes at Dr. Hult, who was standing by the door. You can’t wait to get started.
His chains rustled as he faced Mom again. You’re hoping I’ll put on a show.
What do you mean, ‘put on a show’?
He shrugged. Maybe I’ll smash this mouse on the table. Maybe I’ll squeeze him until his eyes pop out. At least, that’s what you’re hoping, Madame Doctor.
Mom pressed the nail of her left index finger into the pad of her thumb. A couple years ago, while making dinner, she’d accidentally sliced off the tip of that thumb. A doctor had managed to sew it back on, but it had been numb ever since. Prodding the thumb had become a habit, something she always did when she got tense. Aside from that, though, she kept up an appearance of calm that matched Franklin’s. You don’t really want to do that, do you?
No. I like this mouse.
The animal had started clawing at Franklin’s hand more frantically, like it could understand the various fates he’d described for it. He brought it close to his cheek and shushed to calm it down.
Dr. Hult raised his eyebrows at Mom. She gave her head a small shake for him to stay put.
I’m not stupid,
Franklin said, the two stones behind his glasses fastened on the Plexiglas cage and the other mice inside it.
I know that,
Mom answered. I know you’re very intelligent.
I’m onto your brain-doctor tricks.
I’m not playing any tricks, Franklin.
He tipped his head forward, so his hair fell in front of his eyes in a curtain. Stop watching me. I don’t like it when people watch me.
I’m not watching you. I’m looking at you. I’m having a conversation with you.
No, you’re not. You’re studying me.
That’s not true. I want to talk to you about what’s going to happen over the next few days. I want to make sure you understand—
Franklin opened his mouth wide and stuffed the mouse in.
Mom’s metal chair screeched across the concrete floor as she sprang to her feet. What are you doing, Franklin?
The cops took a few steps forward, but Mom put up a hand to stop them. Franklin’s bulging cheek rippled as the mouse struggled inside.
Take out the mouse,
Mom said. You just told me you didn’t want to hurt him.
Franklin settled back into his slouch in the chair. He laced his fingers together on his lap. Even with the mouse struggling behind his cheek, you could still see the little smile on his lips.
Listen to me, Franklin. Right now you have a choice. You can—
His jaws closed with a sound like someone crunching into a mouthful of almonds. A trickle of blood snaked from his lips. He chewed a few times and spat the mouse onto the table. Tiny black beads of blood flecked the white surface and the Plexiglas cage and even Mom’s lab coat. One of the mouse’s hind legs continued to kick.
With sudden energy, Franklin sprang to his feet and banged his hands on the table. Happy now? Happy?
The police finally snapped into action. As they rushed to grab him, he kept repeating that word over and over, blood spraying from his mouth, his normally quiet, empty voice filling with rage, rising to a yell.
Happy? Happy?! HAPPY?!
2
Of course, I didn’t actually see any of that firsthand. But a while ago I got a message on my phone with a link to a Dropbox folder containing a bunch of surveillance footage from the lab. I went through it a few days later, beginning with those first minutes after Franklin Kettle’s arrival. It felt important that I watch all of it. I’d already decided I wanted to set down the whole story of the days before and after Mom performed her procedure on Franklin, start to finish. Lots of rumors had been flying around online, and I figured someone who’d been there, for most of it at least, should make a record of what had really happened. Or try.
Not that I knew whether I’d actually show what I wrote to another human being. If the truth got out, lots of people would get hurt, me included. Maybe I was really just doing it for myself. Maybe I was hoping it would give me a way to dump out all the unwelcome memories crawling around in my mind. Sort of like what I imagined happening when I drew in my Tattoo Atlas, even though I realized the brain didn’t actually work like that. Probably the only way I’d ever get rid of my memories was if Mom figured out how to open up my head and pull them out, one by one.
But I’m getting ahead of myself.
That Monday morning, at the same time Mom was attempting to talk to Franklin about the hole she wanted to drill in his skull, I was at home, out in the garage, warming up my car, a bright yellow 1972 Saab station wagon my older brother had bought and fixed up years ago. I wasn’t exactly what you’d call a gearhead, but I did my best to take good care of it. My friends and I had a tradition of riding the seven blocks to school in the wagon every morning. I’d put up the garage door and sit there with the heater on full blast and wait for the others to slide into their usual seats one by one: Tor Agnarson in front next to me, Lydia Hicks and Callie Minwalla behind. Pete Lund, when he was still alive, had sat in the way back. For years we’d called ourselves the Boreal Five because we’d all grown up together on Boreal Street, but there were only four of us now.
The seating arrangement had undergone another change more recently, when Tor and Lydia had started dating. An unexpected development, and one that had caused some dissension in the Boreal Five’s ranks.
Today as I sat in the driver’s seat, the Saab’s engine chugging and its heater roaring, Lydia showed up first, her freckly cheeks flushed from the cold, her auburn hair pulled into a neat ponytail under her knit cap, a stack of posters under her arm. She slid into the backseat.
What have you got there?
I said.
More publicity for the memorial.
She turned the stack face-up on her lap. The poster showed Pete Lund’s round face haloed by a haze of silver glitter. The words FOREVER IN OUR HEARTS appeared at the top. Abigail dropped them off last night. She wants us to put them up before class this morning.
Abigail Lansing was the head organizer of the assembly that would mark the one-year anniversary of the shooting. On the basis of a single dance she’d gone to with Pete sophomore year, she’d seized the role of Pete’s bereaved girlfriend and mourner-in-chief—even though she’d basically just hung out with him that one time, and even though she hadn’t even seen him die. The girl was a colossal phony. But none of us in the Boreal Five—Pete’s actual friends, in other words—had the heart to be our school’s unofficial grief coordinator, so we pretty much left her to it.
When she’d asked us to help her organize the Big Bang memorial, though, grabbing our hands and whispering, Pete would’ve wanted you to be part of it,
we all agreed. She was right, not that she had any real idea what she was talking about.
Lydia jangled a couple rolls of tape she’d looped around her wrist. You up for it?
Sure, but haven’t we put up enough?
Apparently the other posters were just teasers. Now we’re starting phase two of the marketing rollout. These have all the information about where and when the memorial’s taking place printed at the bottom.
But it’s a mandatory school assembly. Doesn’t that sort of make marketing beside the point?
Maybe.
Her feathery eyebrows knitted and her eyes dropped to the posters. I think Abigail just wants to make sure nobody ditches. She wants people to understand how important this is.
"She wants them to hear her make a speech and watch her cry. That’s what she wants."
She means well, Rem.
Lydia touched her fingertips to Pete’s cheek, her forehead still furrowed. We both went quiet as we stared at the image. For the past few weeks Pete’s face on that sappy poster had been everywhere, all over the walls at school, but seeing it was still like a spike in the ribs every time.
Tor yanked open the Saab’s other rear door and scooted in next to Lydia. Unlike us, he didn’t have on a coat or a hat. Just a UMD sweatshirt—slightly too small, so as to better showcase his muscles—and, randomly, a pair of earmuffs. Like only his ears ever got cold. That was typical Tor, though. He was an underdresser: whatever the situation, he always had on at least two fewer layers than everyone else.
He slung a huge arm over Lydia’s shoulders and gave her a kiss. Morning, Strawberry.
Lydia turned red. She’d had a thing for Tor for years, everybody had always known it, but now that she had him, it was like she’d won the lottery and didn’t have a clue what to do with the money. She took his public displays of affection with a mix of pleasure, mortification, and bafflement.
Tor leaned forward to ruffle my hair. Morning, Nice Guy.
My name’s Jeremy, Rem for short, but he liked to call me Nice Guy. Mr. Nice Guy if he was in a formal mood. Tor was into nicknames—he was the one who’d started calling us the Boreal Five—and he had one for each of us. In my case the nickname had caught on around school, too, and I suppose it fit well enough. Maybe I hadn’t done anything as impressive and altruistic as my brother, who’d single-handedly started the crisis hotline at Duluth Central during his time as a student there, but I knew how to get along with people. I didn’t gossip. I didn’t pick fights. I didn’t have enemies. None I knew of, at least.
Callie appeared next. She opened the back door and found Tor occupying what had been, up until a few weeks ago, her usual spot. Oh. Right.
Scowling, she slammed the door shut, flung open the front passenger door, and dumped herself into the seat.
Think of it as a promotion,
I said.
She cut a black look at me.
I don’t get what the problem is,
Tor said. It’s a free country, isn’t it? We’re all friends, right? What’s the big deal if Lydia and I want to get a little friendlier?
Callie let out a noise halfway between a sigh and a groan as she pushed at the coiled mass of black hair piled on top of her head, a precarious hairdo that had given rise to Tor’s name for her—Elvira. It threatens the integrity of our group, Tor.
‘The integrity of our group’?
Tor repeated. What are we, a team of Navy SEALs?
We didn’t mean for it to happen, Callie,
Lydia said. It just sort of did. We were spending all that time together in the bio lab after school.
Right,
Callie muttered. There’s nothing like a little cat dissection to get two young lovers in the mood.
She seized the rearview mirror and angled it so she could look Tor in the eyes. We’re graduating in June, Tor. We don’t have much time left together. I don’t want you ruining it.
Why would—
Come on,
she snapped. You’ve never in your life dated anyone for more than a month. So what’s going to happen one week from now when you kick Lydia to the fucking curb just like you do every other girl?
Who says he’s going to kick me to the effing curb?
Lydia said, crossing her arms over her chest.
Don’t kid yourself, missy.
Lydia’s freckle-strewn cheeks turned crimson again. You know what really threatens the integrity of our group? The mean things you say.
Callie ignored her. What do you want with Lydia anyway, Tor? She’s a prude who can’t even bring herself to say the word ‘fuck.’ Don’t you prefer the slutty types?
That’s enough, Callie,
I said. Give them a break. You can’t control who you fall for.
Thank you, Rem,
Lydia said.
Callie turned to glare at me again, her mouth open as if she wanted to say something. But then she grabbed one of my hands from the steering wheel instead and lifted it up. For God’s sake, Rem, don’t you ever wash?
I’d been painting that morning, lost track of time, and ran out the door without bothering to clean off the smears of pink and green and yellow covering my palms and fingers. That happened a lot. Callie was an artist too—mixed media collage mostly—but she was much neater about it.
Without a word Tor got out of the car, opened Callie’s door, and held out his hand. Come with me. I want to show you something.
She eyed his open palm. What?
You’ll see. It’ll be good, I promise.
To me and Lydia he said, You guys come too. Leave the car running, Rem.
He led us out the garage’s rear door and through the trees that separated my backyard from his. Callie complained loudly as she picked her way through the snow in her cork wedges and miniskirt. She was just as impractical a dresser as Tor.
Her choice of swearwords got more creative when he plunged into the woods at the back of his yard. The snow was harder to navigate here, but at least we didn’t have to go far. Twenty feet in, Tor stopped at the base of a huge maple.
Callie’s face softened when she realized where we were. Tor grinned at her and nodded.
The trunk of the maple grew at a low angle, extending over a ravine where a creek ran during the summer, so you didn’t have to climb the tree so much as walk out onto it. Still, it would be a challenge in wedges. Callie didn’t protest anymore, though. She followed Tor in silence, taking his outstretched hand for support. Lydia and I stayed close behind.
Just before the place where the trunk split off into branches, we all dropped to a crouch and peered over the side.
They’re still here,
Callie whispered.
Below us, a family of red foxes played in the snow-choked ravine. Three or four little kits dove into the snow and exploded out again over and over, while their mother kept an eye on them from a comfortable branch a few feet off. Years ago, when we were all eight or so, Tor had discovered the foxes and started taking us here to watch them. It had become one of the Boreal Five’s first secrets: we’d never told anyone about them, not even after a neighbor’s pet rabbit had gotten mauled and we’d all known who must’ve done it.
At some point we’d fallen out of the habit of coming here. We probably hadn’t paid our foxes a visit since middle school.
Hi, little guys,
Callie said in an uncharacteristically sweet coo.
Tor set his big hand on her shoulder. We’ve all been friends for how long, Callie?
Forever, pretty much,
she mumbled.
Exactly. A year ago, something horrific happened, and everything changed. But we’re still here, just like they are. The four of us, at least. Still together, still driving to school in Rem’s rust bucket every morning. Now Lydia and I are dating, and things have changed again. That’s what life is, though. Things will always be changing. We’ll get through this change too.
Tor could come off as cocky and insensitive sometimes, but every once in a while, when you least expected it, he’d shift into this gentle voice and say something kind and sweet and wise that left your insides feeling like warm oatmeal.
Callie remained unmoved, though. Her face darkened again. She turned away from the foxes and hoisted herself to her feet. Whatever. We should get going. We’ll be late for school.
Once we’d all piled into the car and I’d backed out of the garage onto Boreal Street, she added in a low mutter, You’ve got some fucking nerve comparing what happened to Pete to your little thing with Lydia, Tor.
Our eyes all veered toward the way back, like we could still see Pete’s huge body crammed in there, his head propped against the window while he took his morning snooze.
Beyond that, through the Saab’s rear window, the blue house at the very end of Boreal Street had shifted into view—much smaller and older and shabbier than the others, its front walk unshoveled, its driveway dug out just enough to let through a tiny compact, its porch hung with dozens of old and tangled wind chimes that murmured in the breeze.
Franklin Kettle’s grandmother lived there. Up until a year ago, so had Franklin.
The whole way to school, Callie didn’t say another word. I parked in the school lot, and we all shuffled up the front steps. In the hall Lydia held up her stack of posters. We still have some time before class. Would you guys mind giving me a hand with these?
You got it, Strawberry.
Tor hooked a thumb over his shoulder. Rem and I can take this side of the building. You two take the other.
Lydia split the stack in two and gave half to me. Callie snatched the other half and took off down the hall, banging the floor with her wedges, her heap of black hair bobbing and listing and threatening to avalanche any second.
Seriously, Lydia, don’t mind her,
I said. I think the anniversary has us all on edge.
Yeah.
Tor gave her another kiss. You know Elvira. She can figure out how to be in a bad mood even at the best of times.
He grabbed one of the rolls of tape from around her wrist and tapped it against the posters in my hands. We’ll get right to work on these.
Lydia grinned, showing the freckly blush that had inspired the nickname Tor had given her. She hurried after Callie, her auburn ponytail bobbing as she went.
Tor and I started off in the opposite direction. We didn’t talk as we turned a corner and headed toward one of the building’s back exits, Pete Lund smiling at us over and over from the posters lining the walls. The cold walloped us in the face the second we stepped outside. Tor led the way along the rear of the building until we reached a place where concrete steps crusted with grimy snow led down to the basement. He glanced from side to side to make sure no one had spotted us before heading down.
At the base of the stairs Tor grabbed the padlock that held the banged-up metal door shut, twisted it, and yanked down