The Cazalet Chronicles: Five Novels in One Collection
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As war clouds gather on England’s horizon, the Cazalet siblings, along with their wives, children, and servants, prepare to leave London and join their parents at their Sussex estate, Home Place. Thus begins the decades-spanning family saga that has engrossed millions of readers.
The Light Years: Hugh, the eldest of the Cazalet siblings, was wounded in France and is haunted by recurring nightmares and the prospect of another war. Edward adores his wife, a former dancer, yet he’s incapable of remaining faithful. Rupert desires only to fulfill his potential as a painter, but finds that love and art cannot coexist. And devoted daughter Rachel discovers the joys—and limitations—of intimacy with another woman.
Marking Time: Narrated primarily through the voices of teenagers Louise, Polly, and Clary, the second novel details the continuing story of their fathers. With the outbreak of war, Edward is determined to do his bit for England. But Hugh, injured in World War I, must sit back and watch other men fight for their country, including his brother Rupert, who enlists and goes missing in action.
Confusion: As the world reels in the aftermath of Pearl Harbor, the Cazalets are dealt a tragic blow, and a new generation struggles to find peace with each other, a peace that seems to prove as elusive as it is in the larger world.
Casting Off: The war is over, but for the Cazalets—and England—the challenges continue. Against the backdrop of a crumbling empire, the family soldiers on in the wake of disappointment, heartbreak, and tragedy. But the family comes together again as three generations of Cazalets struggle to hold onto Home Place, the beloved Sussex estate that has been their refuge and their heart.
All Change: In 1956, the death of eighty-nine-year-old matriarch Kitty “the Duchy” Cazalet marks the end of an era—and the commencement of great change for the family. And Home Place, the beloved Sussex estate where the Cazalets have gathered for years, is now a beloved relic that, with its faded wallpaper and leaky roof, has aged along with its occupants.
A rich historical read for those who love E. M. Forster, Evelyn Waugh, or Downton Abbey, this is the story of a family “[rendered] thrillingly three-dimensional by a master craftsman” (TheSunday Telegraph).
Elizabeth Jane Howard
Elizabeth Jane Howard was the author of fifteen highly acclaimed novels. The Cazalet Chronicles – The Light Years, Marking Time, Confusion, Casting Off and All Change – have become established as modern classics and have been adapted for a major BBC television series and for BBC Radio 4. In 2002 Macmillan published Elizabeth Jane Howard's autobiography, Slipstream. In that same year she was awarded a CBE in the Queen's Birthday Honours List. She died, aged 90, at home in Suffolk on 2 January 2014.
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The Cazalet Chronicles - Elizabeth Jane Howard
The Cazalet Chronicles
Five Novels in One Collection
Elizabeth Jane Howard
CONTENTS
The Light Years
The Cazalet Family Tree
The Cazalet Family and their Servants
PART ONE
Landsdowne Road: 1937
Home Place: 1937
PART TWO
Home Place: Late Summer 1938
Home Place: September 1939
Marking Time
The Cazalet Family Tree
The Cazalet Family and their Servants
Foreword
HOME PLACE: September, 1939
LOUISE: January, 1940
CLARY: May – June, 1940
POLLY: July, 1940
THE FAMILY: Autumn – Winter, 1940
LOUISE: Autumn – Winter, 1940
CLARY: Winter – Spring, 1941
POLLY: July – October, 1941
THE FAMILY: Autumn – Winter, 1941
Confusion
The Cazalet Family Tree
The Cazalets and Their Households
Foreword
Part One
Polly: March, 1942
The Family: Spring, 1942
Clary: Summer, 1942
The Family: Late Summer–Autumn, 1942
Louise: Winter, 1942
Part Two
The Family: New Year, 1943
Polly and Clary: Spring, 1943
The Family: Summer, 1943
Louise: October, 1943
The Family: December, 1943
Part Three
The Family: January, 1944
Clary: May–June, 1944
The Family: April–August, 1944
Louise: Winter, 1944/5
Polly: 1945
The Family: April–May, 1945
Casting Off
The Cazalet Family Tree
The Cazalet Families and Their Servants
Foreword
Part One
One The Brothers: July 1945
Two The Girls: August 1945
Three The Wives: October–December 1945
Four The Outsiders: January–April 1946
Part Two
One Archie: May–June 1946
Two Archie: July–August 1946
Part Three
One Edward: 1946
Two Rupert: November 1946
Three Polly: September–December 1946
Four The Wives: December 1946–January 1947
Part Four
One Louise: Spring 1947
Two Clary: 1946–47
Three The Outsiders: Summer 1947
Four Archie: 1946–47
All Change
The Cazalet Family Tree
All Change: Character List
PART ONE June 1956
PART TWO June–July 1956
PART THREE July–September 1956
PART FOUR December 1956–January 1957
PART FIVE Spring 1957
PART SIX Summer–Autumn 1957
PART SEVEN November–December 1957
PART EIGHT January–February 1958
PART NINE Autumn 1958
PART TEN November–December 1958
About the Author
The Light Years
Elizabeth Jane Howard
For Jenner Roth
CONTENTS
The Cazalet Family Tree
The Cazalet Family and their Servants
PART ONE
Landsdowne Road: 1937
Home Place: 1937
PART TWO
Home Place: Late Summer 1938
Home Place: September 1939
THE CAZALET FAMILY TREE
THE CAZALET FAMILY AND THEIR SERVANTS
William Cazalet, known as the Brig
Kitty Barlow, known as the Duchy (his wife)
Rachel, their unmarried daughter
Hugh Cazalet, eldest son
Sybil Carter (his wife)
Polly
Simon
William, known as Wills
Edward Cazalet, second son
Viola, known as Villy (his wife)
Louise
Teddy
Lydia
Rupert Cazalet, third son
Zoë (second wife)
Isobel (first wife; died having Neville)
Clarissa, known as Clary
Neville
Jessica Castle (Villy’s sister)
Raymond (her husband)
Angela
Christopher
Nora
Judy
Mrs Cripps (cook)
Eileen (parlourmaid)
Peggy and Bertha (housemaids)
Dotty (kitchenmaid)
Tonbridge (chauffeur)
McAlpine (gardener)
Wren (groom)
Billy (gardener’s boy)
Nanny
Inge (German maid)
Emily (cook)
Phyllis (parlourmaid)
Edna (housemaid)
Nanny
Edie (daily help in the country)
Ellen (nurse)
PART ONE
LANSDOWNE ROAD
1937
The day began at five to seven when the alarm clock (given to Phyllis by her mother when she started service) went off and on and on and on until she quenched it. Edna, in the other creaking iron bed, groaned and heaved over, hunching herself against the wall; even in summer she hated getting up, and in the winter Phyllis sometimes had to haul the bedclothes off her. Phyllis sat up, unclipped her hairnet and began undoing her curlers: it was her half day, and she’d washed her hair. She got out of bed, picked the eiderdown off the floor where it had fallen in the night and drew the curtains. Sunlight refurbished the room – making toffee of the linoleum, turning the chips on the white enamel washstand jug slate blue. She unbuttoned her winceyette nightdress and washed as her mother had taught her to do: face, hands and – circumspectly – under her arms with a flannel dipped in the cold water. ‘Get a move on,’ she said to Edna. She poured her slops into the pail and began to dress. She removed her nightdress and, in her underclothes, slipped on her dark green cotton morning dress. She put her cap over her unbrushed-out sausage curls, and tied the apron round her waist. Edna, who washed much less in the mornings, managed to dress while still half in bed – a relic of the winter (there was no heat in the room and they never in their lives opened the window). By ten past seven they were both ready to descend quietly through the sleeping household. Phyllis stopped on the first floor and opened a bedroom door. She drew the curtains and heard the budgerigar shifting impatiently in his cage.
‘Miss Louise! It’s a quarter past seven.’
‘Oh, Phyllis!’
‘You asked me to call you.’
‘Is it a nice day?’
‘It’s ever so sunny.’
‘Take Ferdie’s cloth off.’
‘If I don’t, you’ll get up all the quicker.’
In the kitchen (the basement), Edna had already put on the kettle and was setting their cups on the scrubbed table. Two pots of tea were to be made: the dark brown one with stripes for the maids, and a cup taken up by Edna for Emily, the cook, and the white Minton now set out on a tray with its matching cups and saucers, milk jug and sugar bowl for upstairs. The early-morning tea for Mr and Mrs Cazalet was Phyllis’s job. She would then collect all the coffee cups and glasses from the drawing room, which Edna would have started to air and clean. First, however, there was their own scalding cup of strong Indian. It was China for upstairs which Emily said she couldn’t even abide the smell of, let alone drink. They drank it standing, before the sugar was even stirred to melting point.
‘How’s your spot?’
Phyllis felt the side of her nose cautiously.
‘Seems to be going down a bit. Good thing I didn’t squeeze it.’
‘I told you.’ Edna, who did not have them, was the authority on spots; her advice, copious, free and contrary, was, all the same, comforting: it showed an interest, Phyllis felt.
‘Well, this won’t make us millionaires.’
Nothing would, Edna thought gloomily, and even though she had troubles with her complexion, Phyllis had all the luck. Edna thought Mr Cazalet was lovely really, and she never saw him in his pyjamas like Phyllis did every morning.
The moment Phyllis had shut the door, Louise jumped out of bed and took the bird’s cloth off his cage. He hopped about in mock alarm, but she knew that he was pleased. Her room, which faced the back garden, got a little of the morning sun, which she felt was good for him, and his cage was on the table in front of the window beside the goldfish tank. The room was small and crammed with her possessions: her theatre programmes, the rosettes and two very small cups she had won at gymkhanas, her photograph albums, her little boxwood chest with shallow drawers in which she kept her shell collection, her china animals on the mantelpiece, her knitting on the chest of drawers together with her precious tangee lipstick that looked bright orange but came out pink on the mouth, Pond’s cold cream and a tin of Californian Poppy talc powder, her best tennis racquet and, above all, her books that ranged from Winnie-the-Pooh to her newest and most prized acquisitions, two Phaidon Press volumes of reproductions of Holbein and Van Gogh, currently her two favourite painters. There was a chest of drawers filled with clothes that she mostly never wore, and a desk – given her by her father for her last birthday – made of English oak from a log that had proved to have a uniquely unusual grain, and contained her most secret treasures: a photograph of John Gielgud that had been signed, her jewellery, a very thin packet of letters from her brother Teddy written from school (of a sporting and facetious nature, but the only letters she possessed from a boy), and her collection of sealing wax – probably, she thought, the largest in the country. The room also contained a large old chest filled with dressing-up clothes – her mother’s cast-off evening dresses, beaded tubes, chiffon and satin, stamped velvet jackets, gauzy, faintly Oriental scarves and shawls from some earlier time, dirty, teasing feather boas, a hand-embroidered Chinese robe, brought back by some relative from his travels, and sateen trousers and tunics – stuff made for family plays. When you opened it the chest smelled of very old scent and mothballs and excitement – this last a faintly metallic smell which came, Louise thought, from the quantity of tarnished gold and silver threadwork on some of the garments. Dressing up and acting was a winter thing; now it was July and very nearly the endless, wonderful summer holidays. She dressed in a linen tunic and an Aertex shirt – scarlet, her favourite – and went out to take Derry for his walk.
Derry was not her dog. She was not allowed to have one, and, partly as a way of keeping up her resentment about this, she took a neighbouring and very ancient bull terrier for a walk round the block each morning. The other part of taking him was that the house he lived in fascinated her. It was very large – you could see it from her back garden – but it was utterly unlike her house or, indeed, the house of any of her friends. There were no children in it. The manservant who let her in to collect Derry always went away to fetch him which gave her time to wander through the black and white marble hall to the open double doors of a gallery that looked down onto the drawing room. Every morning this room was in a state of luxurious after-a-party disorder: it smelled of Egyptian cigarettes – like the ones Aunt Rachel smoked – and it was always filled with flowers, smelly ones – hyacinths in spring, lilies now, carnations and roses in winter; it was littered with coloured silk cushions and there were dozens of glasses, open boxes of chocolates and sometimes card tables with packs of cards and scoring pads with tasselled pencils. It was always twilit, with creamy silk curtains half drawn. She felt that the owners – whom she never saw – were fantastically rich, probably foreign and possibly pretty decadent.
Derry, reputed to be thirteen which made him ninety-one according to the Dog Table of Ages that she had made, was quite boring to take for a walk as he was only up to a ramble with frequent and interminable stops at a succession of lamp posts, but she liked having a dog on a lead, could smile at people in a proprietary way that would make them think he was hers, and she lived in hope of finding that one of the occupants of the house or their decadent friends might actually have passed out in the drawing room so that she could examine them. It had to be a short walk because she was supposed to practise for an hour until breakfast at a quarter to nine, and before that she had to have a cold bath because Dad said it was so good for you. She was fourteen, and sometimes she felt quite young and ready for anything, but sometimes she felt languid with age – exhausted when it came to doing anything that was expected of her.
After she had returned Derry, she met the milkman, whose pony Peggy she knew well because she’d grown grass for her on a bit of flannel as Peggy never got to the country and anybody who’d read Black Beauty knew how awful it was for horses never being in fields.
‘Glorious day,’ Mr Pierce remarked, as she stroked Peggy’s nose.
‘Yes, isn’t it.’
‘Full many a glorious morning have I seen,’ she muttered when she was past him. When she married, her husband would find her quite remarkable because she could think of a Shakespeare quotation for anything – anything at all that happened. On the other hand, she might not marry anybody because Polly said that sex was very boring and you couldn’t really go in for marriage without it. Unless Polly was wrong, of course; she often was, and Louise had noticed that she said things were boring when she was against them. ‘You don’t know the first thing about it, George,’ she added. Her father called everyone he didn’t know George – all men, that is, and it was one of his favourite phrases. She rang the front-door bell three times so that Phyllis would know it was her. ‘Let me not to the marriage of true minds admit impediment.’ It sounded a bit grudging, but noble as well. If only she was Egyptian she could marry Teddy like the Pharaohs did and, after all, Cleopatra was the result of six generations of incest, whatever incest might be. The worst drawback about not going to a school was that you knew quite different things and she’d made the stupid mistake in the Christmas holidays of pretending to her cousin Nora, who did go to school, that sex was old hat which meant that she hadn’t found anything out at all. Just as she was about to ring again, Phyllis opened the door.
‘Louise might come in.’
‘Nonsense. She’ll be out with the dog.’ Before she could say anything else, he put his mouth, edged on its upper rim with his bristling moustache, upon hers. After a moment of this, she pulled up her nightdress and he was upon her. ‘Darling Villy,’ he said three times before he came. He’d never been able to cope with Viola. When he had finished he gave a deep sigh, took his hand from her left breast and kissed her throat.
‘China tea. I don’t know how you manage always to smell of violets and Chinatea. All right?’ he added. He always asked that.
‘Lovely.’ She called it a white lie to herself, and over the years it had come to have an almost cosy ring. Of course she loved him, so what else could she say? Sex was for men, after all. Women, nice women anyway, were not expected to care for it, but her own mother had intimated (the only time she had ever even remotely touched upon the subject) that it was the gravest possible mistake ever to refuse one’s husband. So she had never refused him and if, eighteen years ago, she had suffered some shock accompanied by acute pain when she discovered what actually happened, practice had dissolved these feelings into those merely of a patient distaste, and at the same time it was a way of proving her love which she felt must be right.
‘Run me a bath, darling,’ she called as he left the room.
‘I’ll do that thing.’
She tried a second cup of tea, but it was cold so she got up and opened the large mahogany wardrobe to decide what to wear. She had to take Nanny and Lydia to Daniel Neal for summer clothes in the morning, and then she was lunching with Hermione Knebworth and going back to her shop afterwards to see if she could pick up an evening dress or two – at this time of year Hermione usually had things that she was selling off before everybody went away for the summer. Then she must go and see Mummy because she hadn’t managed it yesterday, but she wouldn’t have to stay long because she had to get back to change for the theatre and dinner with the Warings. But one could not go to Hermione’s shop without at least trying to look smart. She decided on the oatmeal linen edged with marina-blue corded ribbon that she’d bought there last year.
The life I lead, she thought (it was not a new idea, rather a reiteration), is the one that is expected for me: what the children expect, and Mummy always expected, and, of course, what Edward expects. It is what happens to people who marry and most people don’t marry someone so handsome and so nice as Edward. But removing the idea of choice – or choice after a very early date – in her conduct added the desirable dimension of duty: she was a serious person condemned to a shallower way of life than her temperament could have dealt with (if things had been very different). She was not unhappy – it was just that she could have been much more.
As she crossed the landing to her husband’s large dressing room that contained their bath, she heard Lydia on the top floor shouting at Nanny, which meant that her pigtails were being done. Below her, a C major exercise of von Bulow began on the piano. Louise was practising.
The dining room had French windows that looked onto the garden. It was furnished with the essentials: a set of eight beautiful Chippendale chairs, given to them by Edward’s father when they married, a large koko wood table at present covered with a white cloth, a sideboard with electric heaters on which were kidneys, scrambled eggs, tomatoes and bacon, cream-coloured walls, some pictures made of coloured wood veneers, and sconces (mock Adam) with little half-shell lampshades, a gas fire in the fireplace and a battered old leather chair in which Louise loved to curl up and read. The general effect was ugly in a subdued kind of way, but nobody noticed it at all, except Louise who thought it was dull.
Lydia sat with her knife and fork poised like Tower Bridge opening while Nan chopped up tomato and bacon. ‘If you give me kidney, I’ll spit it out,’ she had remarked earlier. A good deal of early-morning conversation with Nan consisted of threats from either side, but since neither called one another’s bluff it was difficult to know what the consequences might ever have been if either had gone through with them. As it was, Lydia knew perfectly well that Nan wouldn’t dream of cancelling the visit to Daniel Neal, and Nan knew that Lydia would not dream of spitting out kidney or anything else in front of Daddy. He, Daddy, had bent over her to kiss the top of her head as he did every morning and she smelled his lovely woody smell mixed with lavender water. Now he sat at the head of the table with a large plate of everything in front of him and the Telegraph propped against the marmalade dish. Kidneys were nothing to him. He slashed them and the horrible awful blood ran out and he mopped it up with fried bread. She drank some of her milk very noisily to make him look up. In winter he ate poor dead birds he had shot: partridges and pheasants with little black scrunched-up claws. He didn’t look up, but Nan seized her mug and put it out of reach. ‘Eat your breakfast,’ she said in the special quiet voice she used at mealtimes in the dining room.
Mummy came in. She smiled her lovely smile at Lydia, and came round the table to kiss her. She smelled of hay and some kind of flower that made Lydia feel like sneezing but not quite. She had lovely curly hair but with bits of white in it that were worrying because Lydia wanted her never to be dead which people with white hair could easily be.
Mummy said, ‘Where’s Louise?’, which was silly really, because you could still hear her practising.
Nan said, ‘I’ll tell her.’
‘Thank you, Nan. Perhaps the drawing-room clock has stopped.’
Mummy had Grape Nuts and coffee and toast for breakfast with her own little tiny pot of cream. She was opening her post which was letters that came through the front door and skidded over the polished floor in the hall. Lydia had had post once: on her last birthday when she was six. She had also ridden on an elephant, had tea in her milk and worn her first pair of lace-up outdoor shoes. She thought it had been the best day in her life, which was saying a lot, because she’d already lived through so many days. The piano-playing had stopped and Louise came in followed by Nan. She loved Louise who was terrifically old and wore stockings in winter.
Now Lou was saying, ‘You’re going out to lunch, Mummy, I can tell from your clothes.’
‘Yes, darling, but I’ll be back to see you before Daddy and I go out.’
‘Where are you going?’
‘We’re going to the theatre.’
‘What are you going to?’
‘A play called The Apple Cart. By George Bernard Shaw.’
‘Lucky you!’
Edward looked up from his paper. ‘Who are we going with?’
‘The Warings. We’re dining with them first; seven sharp. Black tie.’
‘Tell Phyllis to put my things out for me.’
‘I never go to the theatre.’
‘Louise! That’s not true. You always go at Christmas. And for your birthday treat.’
‘Treats don’t count. I mean I don’t go as a normal thing. If it’s going to be my career, I ought to go.’
Villy took no notice. She was looking at the front page of The Times. ‘Oh dear. Mollie Strangways’s mother has died.’
Lydia said, ‘How old was she?’
Villy looked up. ‘I don’t know, darling. I expect she was quite old.’
‘Was her hair gone quite white?’
Louise said, ‘How do they know which people who die to put in The Times? I bet far more people die in the world than would go on one page. How do they choose who to put?’
Her father said, ‘They don’t choose. People who want to put it in pay.’
‘If you were the King, would you have to pay?’
‘No – he’s different.’
Lydia, who had stopped eating, asked, ‘How old do people live?’ But she said it very quietly and nobody seemed to have heard her.
Villy, who had got up to pour herself more coffee, noticed Edward’s cup and refilled it now saying, ‘It’s Phyllis’s day off, so I’ll do your clothes. Try not to be back too late.’
‘How old do mothers live?’
Seeing her daughter’s face Villy said quickly, ‘For ages. Think of my mother – and Daddy’s. They’re awfully old and they’re both fine.’
‘Of course, you could always get murdered – that can happen at any age. Think of Tybalt. And the Princes in the Tower.’
‘What’s murdered? Louise, what’s murdered?’
‘Or drowned at sea. Shipwrecked,’ she added dreamily. She was longing to be shipwrecked.
‘Louise, do shut up. Can’t you see you’re upsetting her?’
But it was too late. Lydia had burst into gasping sobs. Villy picked her up and hugged her. Louise felt hot and sulky with shame.
‘There, my duck. You’ll see I’ll live to be terribly terribly old, and you’ll be quite grown up and have great big children like you who wear lace-up shoes—’
‘And riding jackets?’ She was still sobbing but she wanted a riding jacket – tweed, with a divided back and pockets to wear when she was riding her horses – and this seemed a good moment to get it.
‘We’ll see.’ She put Lydia back on the chair and Nan said, ‘Finish your milk.’ She was thirsty, so she did.
Edward, who had frowned at Louise, now said, ‘What about me? Don’t you want me to live for ever, too?’
‘Not so much. I do want you to.’
Louise said, ‘Well, I want you to. When you’re over eighty, I’ll wheel you about toothless and dribbling in a bath chair.’
This made her father roar with laughter as she had hoped and put her back into favour.
‘I shall look forward to every moment.’ He got to his feet and, carrying his paper, left the room.
Lydia said, ‘He’s gone to the lavatory. To do his big job.’
‘That’ll do,’ said Nanny sharply. ‘We don’t talk about things like that at mealtimes.’
Lydia stared at Louise; her eyes were expressionless, but her mouth made silent turkey gobbling movements. Louise, as she was meant to, started laughing.
‘Children, children,’ said Villy weakly. Lydia was killing sometimes, but Nanny’s amour propre must be considered.
‘Go upstairs, darling. Now – we’re going out soon.’
‘What time do you want us, madam?’
‘I should think about ten, Nanny.’
‘See my horses.’ Lydia had wriggled off her chair and rushed to the French windows, which Louise opened for her.
‘You come.’ She seized Louise’s hand.
Her horses were tied to the railings in the back garden. They were long sticks of different colours: a piece of plane tree was the piebald; a silvery stick was the grey; a piece of beech collected from Sussex was the bay. They all had elaborate halters made of bits of string, grass mowings in flower pots beside each one and their names in coloured chalk on pieces of cardboard. Lydia untied the grey and started cantering about the garden. Every now and then she gave a clumsy little jump and admonished her mount. ‘You mustn’t buck so much.’
‘Watch me riding,’ she called. ‘Lou! Watch me!’
But Louise, who was afraid of Nan’s displeasure and in any case had nearly an hour before Miss Milliment arrived and wanted to finish Persuasion, simply said, ‘I have. I did watch you,’ and went – as bad as a grown-up.
Edward, having kissed Villy in the hall, been handed his grey Homburg by Phyllis – at other times of the year she always helped him into his overcoat – picked up his copy of the Timber Trades Journal and let himself out. In front of the house the Buick, black and gleaming, awaited him. There was the usual glimpse of Bracken filling the driver’s seat, immobile as a waxwork, before, reacting to Edward’s appearance as though he had been shot, he leapt from the car and was looming over the back door which he opened for Edward.
‘Morning, Bracken.’
‘Good morning, sir.’
‘The wharf.’
‘Very good, sir.’
After this exchange – the same every morning, unless Edward wanted to go anywhere else – no more was said. Edward settled himself comfortably and began idly turning the pages of his journal, but he was not reading it, he was reviewing his day. A couple of hours in the office, dealing with mail, then he’d have a look and see how the samples of veneer from the elm they had bought from the piles of the old Waterloo Bridge were getting on. The wood had been drying for a year now, but they had started cutting last week, and now, at last, they would discover whether the Old Man’s hunch about it had been right or a disaster. It was exciting. Then he’d got a lunch at his club with a couple of blokes from the Great Western Railway which would, he was pretty sure, result in a substantial order for mahogany. A directors’ meeting in the afternoon, the Old Man, and his brother – sign his letters – and then there might be time to have a cup of tea with Denise Ramsay, who had the twin advantages of a husband frequently abroad on business and no children. But like all advantages, this cut both ways; she was a little too free and was therefore a little too much in love with him; after all, it was never meant to be a serious Thing – as she called it. There might not turn out to be time to see her since he had to get back to change for the theatre.
If anyone had ever asked him if he was in love with his wife, Edward would have said of course he was. He would not have added that, in spite of eighteen years of relative happiness and comfort and three splendid children, Villy did not really like the bed side of life. This was quite common in wives – one poor fellow at the club, Martyn Slocombe-Jones, had once confided to him late at night after a game of billiards and rather a lot of excellent port that his wife hated it so much that she’d only let him do it when she wanted a baby. She was a damned attractive woman, too, and a wonderful wife, as Martyn had said. In other ways. They had five children, and Martyn didn’t think she was going to wear a sixth. Rotten for him. When Edward had suggested that he find consolation elsewhere, Martyn had simply gazed at him with mournful brown eyes and said, ‘But I’m in love with her, old boy, always have been. Never looked at anyone else. You know how it is.’ And Edward, who didn’t, said of course he did. That conversation had warned him off Marcia Slocombe-Jones anyhow. It didn’t matter, because although he could have gone for her there were so many other girls to go for. How lucky he was! To have come back from France not only alive, but relatively unscathed! In winter, his chest played him up a bit due to living in trenches where the gas had hung about for weeks, but otherwise … Since then he’d come back, gone straight into the family firm, met Villy at a party, married her as soon as her contract with the ballet company she was with expired and as soon as she’d agreed to the Old Man’s dictate that her career should stop from then on. ‘Can’t marry a gal whose head’s full of something else. If marriage isn’t the woman’s career, it won’t be a good marriage.’
His attitude was thoroughly Victorian, of course, but all the same, there was quite a lot to be said for it. Whenever Edward looked at his own mother, which he did infrequently but with great affection, he saw her as the perfect reflection of his father’s attitude: a woman who had serenely fulfilled all her family responsibilities and at the same time retained her youthful enthusiasms – for her garden that she adored and for music. At over seventy, she was quite capable of playing double concertos with professionals. Unable to discriminate between the darker, more intricate veins of temperament that distinguish one person from another, he could not really see why Villy should not be as happy and fulfilled as the Duchy. (His mother’s Victorian reputation for plain living – nothing rich in food and no frills or pretensions about her own appearance or her household’s had long ago earned her the nickname of Duchess – shortened by her own children to Duch, and lengthened by her grandchildren to Duchy.) Well, he had never prevented Villy from having interests: her charities, her riding and skiing, her crazes for learning the most various musical instruments, her handicrafts – spinning, weaving and so on – and when he thought of his brothers’ wives – Sybil was too highbrow for him and Zoë too demanding – he felt that he had not done too badly …
Louise’s cousin, Polly Cazalet, arrived half an hour early for lessons because she and Louise had been making face cream out of white of egg, chopped parsley, witch hazel and a drop of cochineal to make it pinkish. It was called Wonder Cream and Polly had made beautiful labels which were to be stuck onto the various jars they had collected from their mothers. The cream was in a pudding basin in the garden shed. They were planning to sell it to the aunts and cousins and to Phyllis at a lower price because they knew she hadn’t got much money. The jars had to be different prices anyway as they were mostly different sizes and shapes. They had been washed by Louise and were also in the garden shed. It was all kept there because Louise had stolen six eggs from the larder as well as the egg whisk when Emily was out shopping. They had given some of the yolks to Louise’s tortoise, who had not liked them very much, even when mixed with dandelions (his favourite food) from Polly’s garden.
‘It’s looks funny to me.’
They looked at it again – willing it to be nicer.
‘I don’t think the cochineal was a very good idea – it was a bit green.’
‘Cochineal makes things pink, you fool.’
Polly blushed. ‘I know,’ she lied. ‘The trouble is, it’s gone all runny.’
‘That won’t stop it being good for the skin. Anyway, it’ll go stiffer in time.’ Polly put the spoon she had brought for potting into the mixture. ‘The green isn’t the parsley; it’s got a sort of crust on it.’
‘You get that.’
‘Do you?’
‘Of course. Think of Devonshire cream.’
‘Do you think we should just try it on our faces before we sell it?’
‘Stop fussing. You stick on the labels and I’ll pot. The labels are awfully good,’ she added and Polly blushed again. The labels said ‘Wonder Cream’ and underneath, ‘Apply generously at night. You will be astonished at the change in your appearance.’ Some of the jars were too small for them.
Miss Milliment arrived before they had finished. They pretended not to hear the bell, but Phyllis came out to tell them.
‘No good selling her any,’ Louise muttered.
‘I thought you said—’
‘I don’t mean her. I mean Miss M.’
‘Lord, no. Coals to Newcastle.’ Polly often got things wrong.
‘Coals to Newcastle would mean Miss M was as beautiful as the day.’ This made them both double up laughing.
Miss Milliment, a kind and exceedingly intelligent woman, had a face, as Louise had once remarked, like a huge old toad. When her mother had reprimanded her for being unkind, Louise had retorted that she liked toads, but she had known that this was a dishonest reply because a face that was perfectly acceptable for a toad was not actually much good on a person. After that, Miss Milliment’s – certainly astonishing – appearance was only discussed in private with Polly and between them they had invented a life of unrelieved tragedy, or rather lives, since they did not agree upon Miss Milliment’s probable misfortunes. An undisputed fact about her was her antiquity: she had been Villy’s governess who had admitted that she had seemed old then and, goodness knows, that was ages ago. She said ‘chymist’ and of course ‘chymistry’ and once told Louise that she had picked wild roses in the Cromwell Road when young. She smelled of stale hot old clothes especially noticeable when they kissed her, which Louise, as a kind of penance, had made herself do ever since the toad remark. She lived in Stoke Newington and came five mornings a week to teach them for three hours and on Fridays she stayed to lunch. Today she was wearing her bottle-green lock-knit jersey suit and a small, bottle-green straw hat with petersham ribbon, which sat just above her very tight, greasy bun of grey hair. They began the morning, as they always did, by reading Shakespeare aloud for an hour and a half.
Today was the last two acts of Othello and Louise was reading him. Polly, who preferred the women’s parts – not seeming to realise that they weren’t the best – was Desdemona, and Miss Milliment was Iago and Emilia and everybody else. Louise, who secretly read ahead of the lessons, had learned Othello’s last speech by heart, which was just as well because the moment she got to
… I pray you in your letters,
When you shall these unlucky deeds relate,
Speak of me as I am; nothing extenuate,
Nor set down aught in malice
tears rushed to her eyes and she would not have been able to read. At the end, Polly said, ‘Are people like that?’
‘Like what, Polly?’
‘Like Iago, Miss Milliment.’
‘I don’t suppose there are very many of them. Of course, there may be more than we know, because each Iago has to find an Othello for his wickedness.’
‘Like Mrs Simpson and King Edward?’
‘Of course not. Polly, you are stupid! The King was in love with Mrs Simpson – it’s completely different. He gave everything up for her and he could have given her up for everything.’
Polly, blushing, muttered, ‘Mr Baldwin could be Iago, he could be.’
Miss Milliment, in her oil-on-the-waters voice, said, ‘We cannot really compare the two situations, although it was certainly an interesting idea of yours, Polly, to try. Now I think we had better do our geography. I am looking forward to your map you were going to draw for me. Will you fetch the atlas, Louise?’
‘I think that is rather you.’
‘It is lovely. It’s just that I’ve never worn this colour.’
Villy was arrayed in one of Hermione’s bargains: a dress of lime green chiffon, the bodice cut in a low V edged with gold beads and a little pleated cape that floated from the beaded shoulder straps. The skirt was simply cut in cunning gores that lay flat on her slim hips and flared out to a tremendous floating skirt.
‘I think you look divine in it. Let’s ask Miss MacDonald what she thinks.’
Miss MacDonald instantly materialised. She was a lady of indeterminate age – always dressed in a grey pinstriped flannel skirt and a tussore silk blouse. She was devoted to Hermione, and ran the shop for her during Hermione’s frequent absences. Hermione led a mysterious life composed of parties, weekends, hunting in winter and doing up various amusing flats she bought in Mayfair and let at exorbitant rents to people she met at parties. Everybody was in love with her: her reputation rested upon the broad front of universal adulation. Whoever the current lover might be was lost in a crowd of apparently desperate, apparently hopeless suitors. She was not beautiful, but invariably glamorous and groomed and her drawl concealed a first-class brain and a reckless courage in the hunting field or indeed anywhere else that it was required of her. Edward’s brother Hugh had been in love with her during the war – was reputed to have been one of the twenty-one men who had proposed to her during that period – but she had married Knebworth and, shortly after the birth of her son, had divorced him. She was good with men’s wives, but genuinely fond of Villy for whom she always made special knockdown prices.
Villy, standing in a kind of trance in the diaphanous frock that seemed to have turned her into some fragile, exotic stranger, realised that Miss MacDonald was registering appreciation.
‘Might have been made for you, Mrs Cazalet.’
‘The midnight blue would be more useful.’
‘Oh, Lady Knebworth! What about the café-au-lait lace?’
‘That’s brilliant of you, Miss MacDonald. Do fetch it.’ The moment that Villy saw the coffee lace she knew that she wanted it. She wanted all of them, and them included a wine-coloured moiré with huge puff sleeves made of ribbon rosettes that she had tried on earlier.
‘It’s utter agony, isn’t it?’ Hermione had already decided that Villy, who had come in for two frocks, should buy three of them, and knowing Villy, it was essential that she should forgo one. Stage whispers ensued.
‘How much are they?’
‘Miss MacDonald, how much?’
‘The moiré is twenty, the chiffon is fifteen, the lace and the midnight blue crêpe could be sixteen each. Isn’t that right, Lady Knebworth?’
There was a brief silence while Villy tried and failed to add things up. ‘I can’t have four, anyway. It’s out of the question.’
‘I think,’ said Hermione consideredly, ‘that the blue is a bit on the obvious side for you, but the others are all perfect. Supposing we made the moiré and the lace fifteen each, and threw in the chiffon for ten? How much does that come to, Miss MacDonald?’ (She knew perfectly well, but she also knew that Villy was bad at sums.)
‘That comes to forty, Lady Knebworth.’
And before she knew it, Villy had said, ‘I’ll take them. It’s wicked of me, but I can’t resist it. They’re all so ravishing. Goodness, I don’t know what Edward will say.’
‘He’ll adore you in them. Have them packed, Miss MacDonald, I’m sure Mrs Cazalet will want to take them with her.’
‘I shall wear one tonight. Thank you so much, Hermione.’
In the taxi going to Mummy, she thought, I’m really ashamed of myself. I never used to buy a dress for more than five pounds. But they’ll last for ever and I’m sick of wearing the same things. We do go out a lot, she added almost as though she was arguing with someone else, and I was fearfully good about the January sales. I only bought linen for the house. And I only bought Lydia things that she needed – except the riding jacket, and she wanted that so much. Shopping with Lydia had been a tearful business. She hated having her feet X-rayed in new shoes.
‘I don’t want nasty green feet!’ and then she wept because Nan said she wasn’t old enough for a riding jacket, and then she wept because Nan wouldn’t let her wear it home on the bus. They had bought Chilprufe vests for next winter, two pairs of shoes, a pleated navy serge skirt on a liberty bodice and a dear little jacket made of velveteen to go with it. A linen hat for summer and four pairs of white cotton socks had completed their purchases. Lydia only really wanted the jacket. She wanted stockings like Lou instead of socks which were babyish, and she wanted a scarlet velvet jacket instead of the navy blue one. She did not like her indoor shoes because they had a strap and a button instead of laces. Villy felt that she deserved a treat after all that. There was still Louise to do, and Teddy when he got back from school, although he wouldn’t need much. She looked at the three wonderful dress boxes that contained her booty and started trying to decide which she would wear for the theatre.
As it was such a fine day, Miss Milliment walked to Notting Hill Gate to have her lunch in the ABC. She had a tomato sandwich and a cup of tea, and then, because she still felt hungry, a custard tart. So lunch cost nearly a shilling which was more than she knew she should spend. She read The Times during her lunch, saving the crossword for the long train journey home. Her landlady provided her with an adequate evening meal and toast and tea for breakfast. She sometimes wished that she could afford a wireless for the evenings, because her eyes did not stand up to all the reading she found herself having recourse to. Since her father – a retired clergyman – had died she had always lived in digs, as she put it. On the whole she did not mind very much, she had never been the domestic type. Years ago the man she had thought she was going to marry had died in the Boer War and her grief had eventually tempered into a humble acceptance that she would not have made a very comfortable home for him. Now, she taught; a godsend it had been when Viola had written and asked her to teach Louise and subsequently her cousin Polly. Until that happened she had begun to feel quite desperate: the money her father had left her just provided a roof over her head, but nothing else at all, and she had ended by not having the fare to get to the National Gallery, not to speak of those exhibitions that one had to pay to get into. Pictures were her passion – particularly the French Impressionists, and of them, Cézanne was her god. She sometimes reflected with a tinge of irony that it was odd that so many people had described her as ‘no oil painting’. She was, in fact, one of the ugliest people she had ever seen in her life, but once she was sure of this she ignored her appearance. She clothed herself by covering her body with whatever came to hand cheapest and most easily; she bathed once a week (the landlady charged extra for baths) and she had taken over her father’s steel-rimmed spectacle frames that served her very well. Laundry was either difficult or expensive so her clothes were not very clean. In the evenings she read philosophy and poetry and books about the history of art, and at weekends she looked at pictures. Looked! She stared, stayed, revisited a picture until it was absorbed into those secret parts of her bulky being that made memory, which then digested into spiritual nourishment. Truth – the beauty of it, the way that it could sometimes transcend the ordinary appearance of things – moved and excited her; inside, she was a paradise of appreciation. The five pounds a week that she earned from teaching the two girls enabled her to see all that she had time to see and save a little against the years when Louise and Polly would no longer require her. At seventy-three she would be unlikely to get another job. She was lonely, and entirely used to it. She left tuppence for the waitress and, trotting lightly, zigzagged her shortsighted way to the Tube.
Phyllis began her half day by going to Ponting’s. There was a summer sale on and she needed stockings. She also enjoyed a good look round although she knew this would mean that she would be sorely tempted to buy something – a blouse, or a summer dress that she did not need. She walked over Campden Hill to Kensington High Street to save the fare. She was a country girl and the walk was nothing to her. She wore her summer coat (pale grey slub) and skirt, the blouse Mrs Cazalet had given her for Christmas, and a straw hat that she had had for ages and retrimmed from time to time. She had grey cotton gloves and her handbag. Phyllis earned thirty-eight pounds a year and she sent her mother ten shillings a month. She had been engaged for four years now to the under-gardener on the estate where her father had been gamekeeper until his arthritis forced his retirement. Being engaged to Ted had become part of the landscape of her life: it was no longer exciting – never had been, really, because they had known from the start that they would not be able to afford to marry for a very long time. Anyway, she had known him all her life. She had gone into service and come to London; they met about four times a year – on her fortnight’s holiday when she went home, and on the few occasions when she could persuade Ted to come to London for the day. Ted hated London, but he was a good, steady chap and he agreed to come sometimes – mostly in summer, because the rest of the year, what with the weather and everything, there was nowhere for them to go. They sat in tea shops and went to the cinema, and that was the best time because, if she encouraged him, he would put his arm round her, she could hear him breathing and he never knew what the film had been about. Once a year she brought him back to tea at Lansdowne Road and they sat in the kitchen with Emily and Edna plying him with food and although he cleared his throat a lot he became speechless and let his tea get cold. Anyway, she saved ten bob a month towards getting married and that left her with two pounds three and threepence for her days off and her clothes and everything she needed so she had to be careful. But she’d got the best part of thirty pounds in the Post Office. It was nice to have the future certain and she had always wanted to see a bit of life before she settled down. She would have a good look round Ponting’s, and then she’d go for a walk in Kensington Gardens and find a nice bench to sit on in the sun. She liked watching the ducks and the toy boats on the Round Pond and then she’d have tea in Lyons and end up going to the Coronet or the Embassy in Notting Hill Gate, whichever one had the film with Norma Shearer in it. She liked Norma Shearer because Ted had once said she looked a bit like her.
Ponting’s had the stockings on sale. Three pairs for four bob. It was ever so full of people. She looked longingly at the racks of summer dresses reduced to three bob. There was one with buttercups on it and a Peter Pan collar that would have been just right for her – she knew it – but she had the bright idea of popping into Barker’s to see if she could pick up a remnant so she could make herself one. She was lucky. She found a pretty green voile with a trellis pattern of roses on it – three and a quarter yards for half a crown. A bargain! Edna, who was clever at dress-making, had patterns, so she needn’t buy one of them. Sixpence saved, which was better than sixpence spent, as her mother would say. By the time she got to the Round Pond she felt very tired and it must have been the sun that made her sleepy because she dropped off and then she had to ask a gentleman the time and there was a whole crowd of dirty, ragged children, some of them barefooted, with a baby in a battered old perambulator in front of her by the edge of the pond. They were fishing for sticklebacks which they put into a jam jar and after the gentleman had moved on one of them said, ‘I wonder if I could trouble you for the toime?’ and they shrieked with laughter and started chanting it, except the baby who had a dummy in its mouth. ‘That’s very rude,’ she said as she felt herself going red. But they took no notice because they were common. Her mother would never have let her go out like that.
She had a bit of a headache and for a moment of panic thought she might have her monthly coming on. It would be four days early if she was, but if she was, she’d have to go straight home since she hadn’t got anything with her. But walking back through the gardens to Bayswater Road, she reflected that no, she couldn’t have. ’Cos if she was, her spots would be much worse, and she still only had the one. Phyllis was nearly twenty-four; she’d been in service for just over ten years. When she’d ‘started’ – in her first place, she’d gone crying to the head housemaid about the blood – Amy had simply shown her how to fold the strips of flannel and said everybody got it and it happened once a month. That was the only time anyone had ever mentioned it to her, except when Mrs Cazalet had shown her where the flannel was kept in the linen cupboard. But she didn’t say anything, which, being a lady, Phyllis would have expected, and although she and Edna knew when each other had it, they never mentioned it either, because, being in service, they knew how ladies behaved. It seemed a funny thing to get, but if it happened to everyone, it must be all right. The flannel was put in a linen bag and sent to the laundry every week – ‘sanitary napkins’ they were called on the list. Naturally the servants had a separate bag. Anyway, she was all right, and she had two cups of tea and a fruit bun and by the time she got to the Coronet, she felt much better.
Polly had stayed to lunch with Louise after lessons. There were Nan and Lydia as well. Lunch was dark brown mince and thick white spaghetti. Lydia called it worms and got smacked because their mother wasn’t there, but she didn’t cry much because she had spread her riding jacket out on Louise’s leather reading chair to look at while she was eating. Louise talked about Othello nearly all the time, but Polly, who worried about other people’s feelings and could see that Othello didn’t interest Nan all that much, asked her what she was knitting and where she was going to spend her holiday. Nan was making a pink bedjacket for her mother and was off to Woburn Sands for her holiday in a fortnight’s time. One of the worst features of even this amount of conversation with Nan was that Louise would accuse her afterwards of sucking up and it wasn’t at all that: she could quite see why not everybody would be interested in Othello.
Lydia said, ‘Nan’s mother has bad legs. She has to keep them up all the time in case they drop off. They’re unusually bad,’ she added after thinking about it.
‘That’ll do, Lydia. We don’t talk about people’s legs at mealtimes.’
Which just makes us all think about them, Polly thought. For pudding there was gooseberry fool, which Polly didn’t like but didn’t dare to say so. Lydia had no such compunction.
‘It smells of sick,’ she said, ‘greeny, hurried sick.’ Nan picked her off her chair and carried her out of the room.
‘Strewth!’ said Louise, who was given to what she thought of as Shakespearean oaths. ‘Poor old Lydia. She’ll be for it now.’ And indeed they could hear muffled wails from above.
‘I don’t want any.’
‘I’m not surprised, I don’t like it much, either. We’d better finish off the Wonder Cream. You did suck up to Nan.’
‘I didn’t, honestly.’
When they had finished potting and labelling the cream they took it up to Louise’s room. Then they lay on the lawn in the back garden until the Walls’ man came round with his tricycle and cabinet of ices. They each had a lime Snofrute and lay on the lawn again and talked about the holidays and what they would do when they were grown up.
‘Mummy wants me to be Presented.’
‘What – be a deb?’ Louise could hardly contain her contempt. ‘Surely you want a proper career?’
‘What could I be?’
‘You’re pretty good at painting. You could be a painter.’
‘I could be Presented and then be a painter.’
‘It doesn’t work like that, Polly – honestly. You’d go to all those dances with stupid people proposing to you all the time and you’d agree to marry one of them out of sheer kindness. You know how bad you are at saying no.’
‘I wouldn’t marry anyone I didn’t love.’
‘Even that’s not enough sometimes.’ She was thinking darkly of John Gielgud and her endless dreams of saving his life in ways so spectacular and brave that he would have to marry her. They would live in a mansion flat (the height of sophistication – she only knew one family who lived in a flat) and play opposite one another in all the plays and have lobster and coffee ices for supper.
‘Poor Lou! You’ll get over it!’
Louise smiled her special sad, heroically vulnerable smile that she had practised in front of the bathroom mirror. ‘I shan’t. It isn’t the kind of thing you get over.’
‘I suppose not.’
‘Actually,’ Louise said, ‘I sometimes rather enjoy it. You know – imagining what it would be like. And I don’t think about it all the time.’ This, she knew was partial honesty: sometimes she didn’t think about it for days on end. I’m the kind of dishonest person who can’t bear to be completely dishonest, she thought.
She looked at Polly, who was lying on her back with her eyes shut against the sun. Although Polly was twelvish, a year younger, she did not seem it. Polly was utterly direct, without guile. Tactless, it often got called: if you asked her what she thought, she told you – if she knew what she thought, but her honesty caused her much indecision and sometimes pain. She would look at you with her rather small dark blue eyes if you asked her things like could she bear to go in a submarine, or shoot their pony if its leg was broken, or die for her country without spilling any beans if she was a spy and got caught, and you would see her milky-white forehead furrowed by little glancing frowns as she went on staring at you while she struggled for truth – often failing. ‘I don’t know,’ she would frequently say. ‘I wish I did, but I’m not sure. I’m not sure, like you.’ But Louise secretly knew perfectly well that she simply made decisions according to her mood, and that Polly’s indecision was somehow more serious. This irritated her, but she respected Polly. Polly never acted, never played to the gallery as Nan said, and could not see the beach for the pebbles. And she was incapable of telling any kind of lie. Louise did not exactly tell lies – known to be a serious crime in the Cazalet family – but she spent a great deal of her time being other people who naturally thought and saw things differently from Louise so what she said at those times did not count. Being an actress required this kind of flexibility, and although Polly sometimes teased her about her variable reactions and she teased Polly back about being so serious and not knowing things, that was where the teasing stopped. Their worst, their most real, fears were sacrosanct: Louise suffered from appalling homesickness (could not stay anywhere except with the family – dreaded being sent to a boarding school) and Polly was terrified that there might be another war when they would all be gassed to death and particularly her cat Pompey who, being a cat, was not likely to be issued with a gas mask. Polly was an authority about this. Her father had a good many books about the war; he had been in it, had emerged with one hand gone, over a hundred pieces of shrapnel in his body that they couldn’t get out and he got frightful headaches – the worst in the world, her mother said. And all the people in the photograph on his dressing table – all soldiers in yellowy baggy uniform – were dead, except for him. Polly read all his books and asked him little casual trapping questions that simply proved to her that what she read – the slaughter, the miles of mud and barbed wire, the shells and tanks and, above all, the awful poison gas that Uncle Edward had somehow managed to live through – was all of it true, a true and continuing nightmare that had lasted over four years. If there was another war it could only be worse, because people kept saying how warships and aeroplanes and guns and everything that could