One-Way Tickets: Writers and the Culture of Exile
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Speaking with the authority of first-hand experience, Borinsky relates the story of her own familyEastern European Jews, with one-way tickets to Buenos Aires, refugees from the countries that spat them out and massacred those who stayed on.” Borinksy herself becomes an exile, fleeing Argentina after the take-over of a bloody military dictatorship. She understood, then, her grandfather’s lessons: There’s nothing like languages to save your life, open your mind, speed you away from persecution.” As a writer of poetry, fiction, and essays, the author also knows intimately the struggles of writing from between worlds, between languages.
In these pages, we encounter Russian Vladimir Nabokov, writing in English in the United States; Argentine writer Julio Cortázar in Paris; Polish writer, Witold Gombrowicz in Buenos Aires; Alejandra Pizarnik, Argentine writer for whom exile is a state of mind; Jorge Luis Borges, labyrinthine traveler in time and space; Isaac Bashevis Singer, a Jewish writer in New York driven from Poland by the Nazis; Latino writers Oscar Hijuelos, Cristina Garcia, and Junot Diaz; and Clarice Lispector, transplanted from Ukraine, to Brazil, to Europe, and the United States.
Not surprisingly, these charismatic and artistic people, as well as many others in Borinsky’s nearly encyclopedic associations, inhabit equally intriguing circles. She introduces us to a wide range of friends and lovers, mentors and detractors, compatriots and hosts. We come away with a terrific breadth of knowledge of 20th-century literature and culture in exileits uneasy obsessions, its difficult peace, its hard-won success.
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One-Way Tickets - Alicia Borinsky
A Samovar’s Tale
My paternal grandmother arrived in Argentina from Russia with her husband and five children in 1919. As a child, when my family gathered at her apartment, I listened, rapt, to my older cousins speak in hushed tones about the big secret—her marriage as a young girl to her older uncle, with the resulting double last name Borinsky de Borinsky. Whispers, as though her own life were too transgressive for my grandmother to hear about.
That first husband, our grandfather, had died before we were born. To me, he was a Russian in the same unbelievable dimension as Rasputin or Stalin, a ghost of the old country, unable to speak Spanish, inscrutable. Whenever I visited my grandmother, I glimpsed him, tall and dressed in black, in the imposing wedding picture on the wall above her bed, with my grandmother, a mere adolescent in an elaborate lace wedding dress beside him. Yet although I found this portrait fascinating, another artifact was even more compelling to my imagination: a glistening silver samovar.
The samovar sat in the living room atop an oversized mahogany sideboard. Indeed, all the furniture in the modest apartment was too big, bought, perhaps, with the dimensions of my grandparents’ Russian home in mind. I saw it as a testimony to their having been somehow shipwrecked in the city of my birth. The samovar, brought from so far away, had a prestige that I, born in a chance location imposed by history, knew I lacked. Sitting in that living room, listening to the stories of my grandparents’ flight, as Jews who spoke Russian, not Yiddish, and proudly declared themselves among the wealthy minority, who heroically conquered dangers in the woods until finally they boarded the legendary boat that brought them to Buenos Aires, I’d think about the samovar and the experiences it embodied.
When I was a child I imagined parties in fairy tale castles, and my grandmother as a young girl surrounded by toys. Then came the nightmarish scenario of her being snatched away by a bandit who looked exactly like her first husband.
Gradually, I came to see the samovar as a symbol of past wealth, an abstraction that differentiated my father’s family from the rest of immigrant Jews, who were perhaps too poor or, the opposite, too rich and materialistic. The claim of uniqueness through an aristocratic past was, of course, not uncommon, fueled by anxiety over being confused for what they actually were: eager, needy immigrants. At the same time, it all became part of the intimation of the sexuality of another age, of life in closed communities, criss-crossed by family ties in which wives and husbands, though occupying different spaces, might well be related by blood. I felt that Jewish shtetls were simultaneously foreign and familiar, and that the landing of my family in Argentina almost was a change of planet.
How do you flee running through the woods toting young children and a samovar? How do you bring with you the iberbeds, those oversized down comforters that would be handed down to each of the five children at the time of their marriage?
My father was just two years old when he arrived in Buenos Aires. My experience was of a man who spoke only Spanish, loved movies, taught me how to dance tango, and had nothing but jokes about his legacy, imitating Jewish accents and gestures as he parodied that life he never knew. And yet, three times a week after work he was drawn to his mother’s apartment before he came back home to us for dinner. He went for the tea poured from the samovar, the homemade jellies, Russian stories. These visits were a source of tension between my parents. But to my mother’s putdowns of backward Russians, my father responded only with silence, an eloquent shrug.
Perhaps they did not need to flee. Perhaps they had time to prepare for the trip and carefully packed the samovar, sheets, tablecloths, and silverware, everything we saw in my grandmother’s apartment. Or perhaps they did flee and acquired those objects later in Argentina. Who knows? No matter how much my grandmother talked about arriving in Argentina, I knew that it was just a tale. I understood the message of the samovar. It stood silently on the sideboard warning me not to trust her.
Exile, I learned very early on, was about telling a story. The bewilderment of being elsewhere, the enduring incredulity at having left, and the celebration of the new place all needed some heroic originating act. One could not simply show up in the new country. There had to be a why, a when, and a how of getting there. Those were the questions that had to be answered. Not merely who your parents were, the places of your childhood. The answers had clear implications: I know that I do not belong in this place; if I tell you how it happened, you will understand and acknowledge my right to be among you.
My maternal grandfather arrived in Argentina from Poland on his own in 1934 and worked in a furniture factory to earn enough money to send for his wife and children. My mother was the last one to make it out of Poland, in 1936; her mother and one sister were not so lucky, and I grew up hearing their names in special service broadcasts of the Red Cross designed to locate possible survivors. I learned only recently that all the Jews of their town, Slonim, perished.
My grandfather did not bring a samovar; he talked about socialism, against religion, and was a universalist who believed that he had landed in a savage country. He endured Peronism and military coups with the irony of one who knows where the world is heading. Contemptuous of the literal interpretations of the tradition and what he termed superstitions of orthodox Jews he told instead stories of Jewish secular heroes: the musicians, philosophers, artists, and scientists who justified his own existence. He convinced me as a child that Spinoza, Marx, Freud, Trotsky, Kafka, and Einstein were my own passport to understanding how things worked. His way of being a person, of overcoming the humiliating massacre of European Jewry, was to flaunt this extraordinary baggage. Though a woodcarver in a furniture store, he believed himself a true artist and revolutionary as he continued to mount his adolescent rebellion against his father, a rabbi. And I was to be his helper, as a writer and a polyglot philologist. After all, from among his grandchildren he had picked me to write his biography, and presuming that someday I would have to escape from political persecution in Argentina, I would have to learn languages for my own safety.
His stories had the suspense of a cliffhanger, always reaching a climax when, at being questioned by a German, Pole, or Russian, he would respond in a flawless accent, thereby passing as one of them and avoiding violence. He related his stories to me in Yiddish but reproduced the dialogue in the various original languages spoken by the participants in the events. I could sense the menace of interlocutors, the closeness of danger. Great drama. Great theater. I was not blind, though, and I also could see that my grandfather, with his big ears and nose, looked unmistakably like the Jew he was trying to save by feats of pronunciation and grammar. But I also knew he was right in his admonishment: You see? That’s why you’ve got to study and learn; there’s nothing like languages to save your life, open your mind, speed you away from persecution.
The time came when, following a military takeover in Argentina, I did have to leave. His self-aggrandizing stories then became uncannily pertinent. Speaking several languages has made me more versatile, and although I am not working on his biography, I am still trying to tease meaning out of his life as a writer.
As far as my cousins and I could tell, our Russian grandmother never left her apartment whereas my Polish grandfather would go for frequent walks to destinations he liked to keep secret. Whatever they did each day, their experiences outside the circle of close relatives were not part of our conversation. And although they never said so outright, it was clear that both of them were bewildered at having arrived in Buenos Aires with changed names and a new language.
For both sides of my family, the difficult voyage to Argentina was their roots. Nobody spoke of Russian pogroms or the vast Jewish graveyard of Poland, though those were the experiences of their youth. Admittedly, recollections of foods, people, and places would sometimes overcome them, but they quickly brushed them aside, the way one muffles a sneeze or closes a window to prevent a draft.
People who had been on the same boat became shifshvesters and shifbruders, an extended family I came to regard as my own aunts, uncles, and cousins. Some of them had numbers tattooed on their forearms, evident in the summer, on the beach, shiny under tanning oil. They were not exiles but immigrants. They held one-way tickets and developed a nervous allegiance to a country that gave shelter not only to them but also to their enemies, the war criminals who arrived aided by Perón’s government.
My family is not unusual in Argentina. For my parents and their brothers and sisters, Eastern Europeans with varying degrees of hostility toward countries that spat them out and massacred those who stayed on, Buenos Aires remained foreign and suspect. Despite enjoying the city’s cosmopolitan cultural offerings of good food and high fashion, they also acknowledged its brutal tendency toward anti-Semitism with a fatalism born of the circumstances that had landed them there.
We, children of these immigrants, in contrast, were born into a secular, integrated society in constant financial crisis. The overall feeling for this younger generation was that of belonging. We did not regard ourselves as stranded like our forebears or like the numerous Spanish Republicans who year in, year out waited patiently for news of Franco’s death so that they might return to Spain.
It was only when I left Argentina to escape its bloody dictatorships that I experienced for myself the longing that in the past had seemed so quaint in others. I now know what it means to pack one’s bags not for a short stay, but for good, selecting what one will retain of a home that is no longer a shelter but a threat. My indispensable items were in their way perhaps equivalent to the things my Russian grandmother and Polish grandfather brought with them to Argentina: books I could not do without, musical recordings I feared I would be unable to find elsewhere, shoes to weather a climate I had never encountered. As I shared my stories and personal experiences, sitting in apartments in Europe and the United States, with people close to my age, the seesawing emotions toward Argentina that I had witnessed in the immigrants around me became my own.
The long lines at the Italian and Spanish embassies in Buenos Aires after the 2001 collapse of the Argentine economy, made up of the children and grandchildren of immigrants trying to escape economic strife by claiming the right to European nationality, are a commentary on the complexity of the allegiance that the country inspires.
Jorge Luis Borges, the great questioner of geographical and historical certainties, is said to have commented that rather than citizens, Argentina has inhabitants—or better yet, several million people all clamoring for room service at once. Whether he actually said this or not, the observation catches the peculiar nature of a country defined by the idea of travel, with real life as something to be experienced elsewhere. Although immigrants assimilated, working hard and investing emotionally in their adopted country, an air of self-doubt prevailed among my compatriots. Native Argentines looked to Europe for true culture, and transplanted Europeans, while praising the wealth of natural resources now at their disposal, hoped one day to experience again the real thing.
That first departure was for me unlike any other, and even if I now return frequently to an Argentina with a much altered political and social atmosphere, the distance traveled on that first trip remains immeasurably vast.
The word trip falls far short of describing my experience of leaving. Before my departure, I developed an urgent need to locate all of my personal manuscripts and the translations into Spanish I had done of my favorite English and American poets. Yet even once I’d gathered them all together, I realized that I still had to make choices, since there was not enough room in my suitcases for everything. It all resulted in a feeling of loss, accompanied by a sense that, light as I had become, I could go anywhere. This was no trip; it was a change in the very rhythm of my experiences, an exiting from the world of shared memory.
Once I’d arrived abroad, I developed an anxiety about the efficiency of the post office since this was before the era of electronic mail. In the early seventies the Chilean writer José Donoso, admonishing me to write letters more frequently, declared that the post office is a writer’s true homeland, and once I had left Argentina his words rang truer than ever. Now that regular address changes, long-distance friendships, and the weave of foreignness and familiarity have become part of the way I see the world, my notion of a true homeland encompasses that area that Cortázar calls la zona,
the shared, familiar in-betweenness of many trips.
My anxiety about the post office was somewhat misplaced because I am not a good letter writer. My letters are few and far between, fueled usually either by a momentary enthusiasm or an acute feeling of guilt. The messages I send tend to be oblique, due perhaps to my awareness that they can never take the place of a close hug or a shared cup of coffee.
I have a long-standing fascination with writers and artists who are known in part for their peculiar displacement. A brief list includes, in Paris: Walter Benjamin, exploring his Jewishness in a city he made his own through a fragmented stroll of its arcades; Julio Cortázar, whose uncannily upbeat grave in the Montparnasse cemetery—featuring a statue by Julio Silva, a triumph of an Argentine friendship built in Paris—stands as a de facto resolution to the conflict enunciated in the two part-titles of his novel Hopscotch, Del lado de aquí
(From here) and Del lado de allá
(From there);¹ and Jean Rhys, itinerant inhabitant of Left Bank hotels that helped her weave the character of the uprooted woman as an aimless poseur and outsider. Buenos Aires, London, towns and cities in the United States and Brazil, became permanently temporary homes to writers such as Vladimir Nabokov, Isaac Bashevis Singer, Witold Gombrowicz, and Clarice Lispector, all of whom provide us with a textured and multivariate sense of distance that exists outside of maps.
This book speaks about foreigners who do not take shelter in nostalgia, ethnic affirmation, and group identity, but who explore the puzzle of cultural transitions through their own experience, as new languages, customs, tastes, sounds, and smells intervene to transform acquired tastes and expectations. It considers the fundamental expression of substance, color, and density of an individual life, and the defining moment when somebody becomes distinguishable from all others.
I have also tried to answer what for me is an unavoidable question: Where and what is my samovar? It is probably embedded somewhere in tango lyrics and in the itineraries that make up the imaginary city of my fiction and poetry. Writing in the United States in English and Spanish, I am a Latina. Publishing in Argentina in Spanish, I am an Argentine living abroad. Everywhere I am a woman. Everywhere Jewish. No longer an exiled student, I am now a mobile writer. As I write these pages in English in Boston, I move in and out of familiar sounds within a conversation not too far, in its relationship to my native language, from those I heard in Spanish in Argentina during my childhood.
How, in this time of instant communication and easy transportation, is one to understand that there are irreversible trips? How do we superimpose the reality of irretrievable time on the predictability of the round-trip ticket? And what about those for whom a round trip would be a nightmare, who are fleeing something they never want to experience again? Once they leave by boat, raft, plane, train, bus, car, or horse, or walk across a border alone or in a group, everything changes.
We would rather refuse