A Life of My Own: Meditations on Hope and Acceptance
By Karen Casey
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When we love people who use or abuse alcohol and other drugs, we can get so wrapped up in trying to understand and “fix” the addiction problem. It is easy to lose sight of ourselves and stop living our own lives. Designed for personal growth, this collection of readings by beloved recovery author Karen Casey inspires readers to invest in themselves again by addressing the feelings of desperation and frustration at the core of codependency. With the wisdom of Twelve Step principles, relatable anecdotes, and helpful recovery insights, readers can build a daily practice of reflection, inspiration, healing, and meditation. The simple, straightforward quotations and affirmations in A Life of My Own offer the strength and courage we all need for true freedom. Encouraging you to connect with your spiritual and emotional health—as well as build self-esteem, serenity, and acceptance—Casey reflects on the type of healing that helps us return to living.
Karen Casey
Karen Casey has sold over 3 million books that draw upon meditations, motivations, and religion to guide and support women throughout the world. Based in Minneapolis since 1964, Casey is an elementary school teacher turned Ph.D. Casey published the first of twenty-eight books, Each Day a New Beginning: Daily Meditations for Women, with Hazelden Publishing in 1982. Casey has spoken to tens of thousands world-wide over her forty years as a writer. Through each new experience, her gratitude and commitment grow to continue doing what brings joy to her life. Additional notable works from Karen Casey include 52 Ways to Live the Course in Miracles: Cultivate a Simpler, Slower, More Love-Filled Life, Let Go Now: Embrace Detachment as a Path to Freedom, and A Life of My Own: Meditations on Hope and Acceptance.
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A Life of My Own - Karen Casey
JANUARY
• JANUARY 1 •
Every human being brings something very special to the world.
When our lives were wracked by our close association with people suffering from the disease of addiction, we lost a sense of who we really were. Seeing ourselves through the behavior of others cancelled out our positive qualities, and our self-esteem plummeted.
The program, particularly the Steps, helps us regain the knowledge of who we are. And through that process we discover the qualities we have that we can share with others. The willingness to take inventory
of our behavior, our thoughts, and our values is the place to begin.
Accepting that every individual is endowed with a special talent that is unique and necessary to the whole of humanity helps each of us, especially on the days we’d rather hide under the covers. We do have something to give everyone we meet today. How we thought of ourselves in the past as the result of the alcoholism around us can’t block us any longer. We are free and our talents are needed.
Every situation I meet today will be affected by my presence. I have something to give that only I can give.
• JANUARY 2 •
If we embody the principles taught in the Twelve Steps, our lives will get better.
Whether our first Twelve Step meeting was last week, last year, or five years ago, we all have one thing in common: We have discovered hope and our lives are getting better. The good feelings seem almost contagious. Perhaps they are. We have learned from other people’s examples, and all of us have found life’s pitfalls easier to navigate since we began relying on the slogans, the Steps, and the principles of the program.
Many of us came into this program quite certain that it wouldn’t help us. Our troubles were far too serious. And some of us resisted the help that was immediately offered. It couldn’t be that easy. Stewing a bit longer and hanging on to the pain were choices we made.
Now we are seeing newcomers who are like we were. It makes us joyful to know just how much we all have to look forward to.
How grateful I am that I gave up my resistance. My life will be as joyful as I make it today.
• JANUARY 3 •
No decision has to bind us forever.
Most of us are no longer sure what we want to be doing a year or even a month from now. When we are called upon to make decisions that commit us to a certain path in the future, we shudder. Will we be allowed to change our minds?
What a change this is from earlier years. Many of us led very controlled lives. We felt safest when we knew exactly what we were going to do. We liked it best when we were able to control others’ lives too, even though we failed at that much of the time.
Although we may have responsibilities at work and at home, we are so much freer now. And we can decide, moment by moment, what we need to do for ourselves. At first it feels irresponsible, not being responsible for everyone, changing our minds when we need to. However, we will grow into this new way of living. And we’ll love it!
My decisions today will be for this day only. I can change my mind tomorrow.
• JANUARY 4 •
Turning adversity into opportunity is possible.
We didn’t escape problems just because we came to a Twelve Step program. Problems still exist, whether it’s a car that won’t run, a neighbor who complains, a spiteful co-worker, or a family member who drinks or uses other drugs.
The difference is, now we can keep these situations in perspective. No problem means the end of the world. Before, even the smallest of problems sometimes devastated us.
Through listening to old-timers, we are beginning to realize that every situation offers us a unique opportunity to respond in more thoughtful, loving ways. Without this program, we might never have learned that having problems is the path to the growth and serenity we all seek. Now we turn to God for guidance, and through our trust in God we see the problem transformed into an opportunity. To acknowledge life as being filled with opportunity rather than problems is a tiny shift in perspective that gives us huge rewards.
I will look for my opportunities today. My Higher Power will show me how to handle them. My reward will be growth.
• JANUARY 5 •
Having hope makes every day easier, more gentle.
From our first introduction to other men and women who have faced firsthand the illness of addiction, we sense the spirit of hope in their words and in their faces. Some of us have had little or no hope for many years. It’s no wonder we initially doubt that our lives can change. We’re certain our struggles are different from the struggles that brought other people to this Twelve Step program. But we listen to their stories anyway. And slowly we learn that our paths are similar. Our problems are not unique, after all.
Having hope, we come to understand, is a decision. Other men and women have made this decision. We can too. In time we will also understand that hope makes it possible for us to expect more positive outcomes to our problems. It’s so often true that what we expect is just what we get. Looking on the bright side of life can’t make our struggles worse!
Having hope will open the door to my Higher Power today. Help is the by-product of hope.
• JANUARY 6 •
Live and let live is good advice.
The more comfortable we are with the knowledge that each of us has a unique journey to make, a specific purpose to fulfill, the easier it is to let other people live their own lives. When family members are in trouble with alcohol or other drugs, it’s terribly difficult to let them have their own journey. Because we love them, we feel compelled to help them get clean and sober. In reality, all we can do is pray for their safety and well-being. Their recovery is up to them and their Higher Power.
For some of us it’s a leap of faith to believe there really is a Divine plan of which we are all a part. And perhaps it’s not even necessary to believe. But we’ll find the hours of every day gentler if we accept that a Higher Power is watching over all of us.
Being able to let others live and learn their own lessons is one of our lessons. The more we master it, the more peaceful we’ll be.
I have enough to do just living my life today. I can let others do what they must.
• JANUARY 7 •
Accepting those things we cannot change frees us.
It’s so easy to get caught up in other people’s lives. Assuming that we know what’s best for them seems so natural. Many of us have excelled at being caretakers, but it’s time to back off and let our loved ones fend for themselves. That means letting them make their own decisions and live with their own consequences.
We can’t change other people. Certainly we have made others feel guilty enough so that they have given in and done things our way. And we have won many power struggles. But ultimately we can’t claim ownership of anyone else’s mind, and we aren’t the stewards of anyone else’s life. We may feel diminished by our lack of control initially, but in time we will love the freedom of living only our own lives. The extra time we’ll have and the peace we’ll know will comfort us.
I will experience many moments of relief and peace when I let others be their own stewards.
• JANUARY 8 •
Impulsive reactions never benefit us.
Immediate responses to every situation aren’t necessary. But sometimes we make snap decisions because we fear looking inadequate or stupid. Unfortunately, because we don’t pause long enough to think through a response or to ask God for guidance, we often do look ignorant—just what we had hoped to avoid.
Our recovery program gives us permission to slow down, to wait for guidance from our Higher Power. It also helps us assess our strengths along with our weaknesses. Understanding that each of us is a worthwhile human being with a unique purpose is a gift of this program.
My contribution to every experience today can be according to God’s will, if I ask for knowledge of it.
• JANUARY 9 •
Changing destructive habits is what changes lives.
People grow accustomed to habits even when they are self-destructive. We who have sought the help of Al-Anon and other Twelve Step programs were often caught in patterns of behavior that injured us or other people. We want help to change these habits or we wouldn’t be here now.
We learn at our first meeting that Twelve Step programs are both for the present day and for a lifetime. We are comforted and surprised by that. The comfort is in knowing help will always be available to us. The surprise is in having erroneously thought that we’d get fixed
and not need the meetings forever.
It doesn’t take us long to realize the benefits of utilizing Twelve Step recovery in our daily lives. For years we repeated the same behaviors, expecting different outcomes, but that didn’t happen. Now we have a plan for living that includes Steps, slogans, friends, support meetings—a host of new options for handling every detail of our journey. And we can see, even in a short time, that our lives are changing at last.
I can change my life if I have the willingness to use what the program is teaching me.
• JANUARY 10 •
When we have internalized Step One, our lives reflect it.
Admitting we are powerless over alcohol is not very difficult for most of us. Admitting we are powerless over the alcoholic is another matter. After all, we have used shame quite successfully to get our way on occasion. Intimidation sometimes worked. Our relentlessness sometimes wore the alcoholic down. But we never really changed that person.
Fully accepting our powerlessness over all other people may seem scary at first. (What will we do with our time?) But it makes our own lives so much simpler. Relief from worry and frustration is only the first gift. Having time to pursue our own goals comes next. Discovering happiness at will is another blessing. Once we get used to being powerless over other people, we’ll realize how much living we gave up in the past.
I will find joy in my powerlessness today. I will have more energy for myself.
• JANUARY 11 •
Asking for help is the first step to healthy living.
By admitting to our friends that we don’t know what we should do about the many confusing, sometimes scary circumstances in our lives, we open the door for our Higher Power to reach us. That’s often the way help comes to us. At times we’ll open a book and an inspiring passage will jump out, or we’ll wake up feeling as if God has answered us in our dreams. But more frequently and vividly, our help is in the gentle words of a friend.
Many of us postponed getting help because we dreaded asking for it. We thought that asking for help would make us look weak and uninteresting. We so wanted to be liked and admired that we pretended all was well, while in reality all was awful. It’s a profound relief to share our burdens with other people. And the best part is, we’ll get needed guidance.
I won’t be afraid to cry help
today. My Higher Power can help only if I’m open to it.
• JANUARY 12 •
Be careful with amends.
Hurting someone thoughtlessly just to lift our own guilt is not a proper Step Nine. Amends are for rebuilding the burned bridges in our lives. But if amends will hurt someone, we must decide if it’s in that person’s best interest to be told now. Oftentimes it’s best left unsaid, but never denied to ourselves or to God.
Changing our behavior intentionally is one part of making amends, particularly to family members who may have heard us say I’m sorry
far too many times. Repaying money, repairing damages, and making charitable contributions on behalf of the person we have harmed are all honest attempts to right our wrong. The point in every amends attempt is to take responsibility for what we did and express our regrets. Couple this with changed behavior, and our relationships will improve immediately.
I will not shy away from any amends I need to make today, but I’ll be careful not to hurt someone with information he or she doesn’t need to know.
• JANUARY 13 •
There is no right way to pray.
Prayer is not a requirement of Twelve Step programs like Al-Anon. In fact, the program has no requirements. It has only suggestions that if followed will change how we see our experiences. This, in turn, mysteriously changes our very experiences. One suggestion is that we seek, through prayer and meditation, to know God and God’s will for us.
The idea of prayer scares some of us initially. It seems religious. However, we learn from other people, if we’re open to their words, that the program is not religious but spiritual. This means that we can expect help from a Power who wants to safeguard our lives. All we have to do is let that Power in, using any method that feels comfortable. Kneeling to pray isn’t for everyone. Having friendly, casual chats
appeals to some. Others seek knowledge of God in a bird’s song or a flower’s blossom. Whatever is comfortable is not only adequate but appropriate.
Praying in our own special way becomes a wonderful habit. It protects us all day long, giving us strength every time we need it.
I will relish my moments with God today. They will help me in every circumstance. I’m never alone as long as I remember God.
• JANUARY 14 •
Taking an honest look at ourselves is necessary if we want peace.
Step Four asks us to admit our character defects. That’s not an easy assignment. After all, we were the ones who kept the family functioning when the person with an addiction was making a mess of things. How defective
could we be? In truth, we do have many assets, and it will help us to admit our defects if we also own our assets.
The founders of the Twelve Steps were wise men who understood the value of self-assessment. None of us is without problems, many of which we cause ourselves because of behavior we need to change. But until we can stand back from ourselves and see our part in our troubles, we’ll not have the data we need to make a change in our lives. This program is designed to help us change. Its goal for us is greater peace, but we must do our part.
I will feel better today, and thus more peaceful, if I am willing to change a behavior that causes me trouble. I pray for willingness to admit my defects and own my assets.
• JANUARY 15 •
Letting go is a decision.
The obsession to pressure other people to see things our way keeps us agitated. In contrast, the wisdom to understand that every person’s view has validity, at least for that person, is a gift we receive from working the Twelve Steps. Our daily assignment, then, is to be patient and listen so that we may learn this lesson from women and men who have walked this path already, women and men who have come to understand that letting go of others and their addictions promises relief from the obsession that troubles each of us.
Look around. No one came to this particular juncture in the road because it was a hoped-for destination. Each of us ended up here because of our pain. All of us tried to force solutions that didn’t fit. And we drove ourselves crazy trying to control the behavior of others, certain that doing it our way
was not only reasonable, but right. Our past sometimes may appear to be a series of failures. But our present experience can be peaceful, hopeful, and successful. It’s our decision to let go. A small decision that we can make many times today. Every day.
Let go are tiny words with huge rewards. If I want to, I can give up my attempts to control someone today. Peace will be my reward.
• JANUARY 16 •
Only when we humbly ask for help are we ready to receive it.
On occasion, our problems seem overwhelming, and we don’t know where to turn. Our job is stressful. Our health is failing. The pain of living with a drinking spouse is becoming more difficult. But many of us face no truly threatening situations, and we still have problems. Being alive, being human, means having experiences that trouble us.
It’s hard to ask for help when we are in a troubling situation because we fear that means we are inadequate. After all, we are grown men and women who have taken care of ourselves and others for years. We don’t have the wisdom to handle every situation, and yet we think we should. Seeking guidance from friends, sponsors, and our Higher Power gets easier with practice. Asking for help is a learned behavior. And practice we must!
But just as important as the seeking is the receiving. Are we actually open to the wisdom offered? Do we want it badly enough to truly listen to the guidance?
I will open my heart to God’s wisdom today and find help for whatever troubles me.
• JANUARY 17 •
Nobody can change my thoughts but me.
The first of the Twelve Steps asks us to admit we are powerless. Our first question might be, Why? Shouldn’t we try to change the conditions in our lives? Shouldn’t we try to influence others to change too? If we put ourselves in good hands in this fellowship, we will begin to appreciate Step One. We will begin to understand that we are indeed powerless over other people. We can plead, complain, shame, cajole, but we cannot force them to see as we see. We will also begin to understand that we are not powerless over ourselves. Not today.
It may seem simplistic to blame our problems on how we ourselves think. After all, others are participating in our lives too. But only we have the power to interpret the experiences we’re having. And we can decide to accept every experience as an opportunity for growth and adventure, as God’s will. The old-timers tell us that is what Step Three means.
I can’t change anyone else; all I can change is my mind. I will carefully watch my thoughts today.
• JANUARY 18 •
Control robs us of serenity.
The Serenity Prayer, when relied on, changes the very nature of our lives. The reality is that most of our troubles result from an unwillingness to give up controlling the many people we encounter. What they are doing is seldom relevant. We simply want them to answer to us!
There is so much we cannot change. Yet our stubbornness leaves us frustrated, depressed, and in near constant conflict. Nonetheless, there is an easy solution. It’s the first prayer we heard in a Twelve Step meeting. We can ask God for wisdom so we can change only what is ours to change and accept all the rest. Wisdom will come. And so will the serenity we deserve.
God, grant me serenity today, along with wisdom and acceptance, so I can fulfill your will for me.
• JANUARY 19 •
Our teachers surround us.
When we were young, our parents and siblings served as our teachers, but they weren’t always good ones. We may have learned habits that haunt us still. Shame and guilt may still trouble us because of the messages our parents and siblings gave us. We can’t undo the past teachings, but we can come to believe those teachers did their best. They passed on to us what they had been taught. Fortunately, the Twelve Step program can help us discard behaviors that serve us no more and cultivate ones that do.
We’re students of life and we’ll encounter many teachers. From some, we will learn patience; from others,