African Spirits Speak: A White Woman's Journey into the Healing Tradition of the Sangoma
By Nicky Arden
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• One of the first accounts of the mysterious sangomas, the healers of South Africa's black population.
• A mystical journey that will appeal to those wishing to reunite with their roots and a more spiritual life.
Set against the stirring backdrop of a crumbling apartheid regime, African Spirits Speak is the lyrical account of white South African Nicky Arden's journey into the world of the sangomas, the diviners, doctors, psychologists, and priests of South Africa's black population.
While in her early twenties Nicky fled South Africa with her husband as the stranglehold of apartheid tightened on her native land. For twenty-two years they lived in California as expatriates--never once returning to their homeland--until a deep depression, followed by a spiritual awakening in the California desert, compelled Nicky to return to South Africa. During her visit, while exploring deep in the bush, she unexpectedly met an old black medicine woman--a sangoma. This meeting would change her life. Few white South Africans are even aware of the world of the sangomas, but this prophetic old woman saw in Nicky the spirit of a fellow healer and set the author on a mystical journey that would reunite her soul with its African roots. Thus began her astonishing and complex initiation into a nearly unknown world and her quest to discover the truth about herself and her heritage.
Nicky Arden
Nicky Arden is the former director of San Diego Youth and Community Services, a social service agency. She and her husband divide their time between San Diego, California, and Johannesburg, South Africa.
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African Spirits Speak - Nicky Arden
1
In the Beginning
i was born in South Africa, in Durban, of German-Jewish parents. On weekends I hunched on my haunches under the old avocado tree in the back garden and watched as our girl,
Irene, and Sam, our boy,
washed themselves. They washed in dappled sunlight from large metal bowls placed just outside the khaya, the servants’ rooms, Sam, stripped to his shorts, as white as blindness against his dark skin. They washed, dipping the cloth in the bowl, then soaping it and starting with face, ears, neck, moving down the body, leaving tracks of wetness glossy as melted chocolate. Each time I watched, it was as though a feast was placed before me.
It was the war years. At night we heard the dull booming of artillery practice coming from the race track below us. Don’t worry,
said Sam to my mother. If the war comes to Durban, I will take her high on my shoulders and run to Zululand.
I longed for the war to come to Durban. I pictured Sam’s long, strong, shining brown legs, his calves veined as coir, bounding up green hills and across green valleys, pounding the verdant miles away, and I, atop his shoulders, laughing with delight. But the war never did come to Durban or any other place in South Africa. At least not that war.
The other war came later. At first I knew little of it, saw little of it; but one couldn’t stop up one’s eyes forever. Blacks being harassed, hauled away, beaten into submission. How can one live surrounded by such monstrosity and still look at oneself in the mirror? We couldn’t. And so, in 1966, just before my son’s second birthday, my husband, Ron, and I left for the United States. We settled in California, became American citizens, forgot cricket and learned the rules of baseball.
Through the years, we read about and watched the horrifying images of human abuse in my native land, my austere, unrelenting fatherland; and I wrapped layer upon layer around my African soul.
We grew to love football, not baseball, and Bill Moyers; I began to explore Native American mythologies. America nurtured me, and I fit easily into its introspective style. Ron talked often about going back, not to stay, although that would have been his preference, but to visit. I couldn’t do it. It would be twenty-two years before I returned.
2
The Time of Tears
From the cushion of age I have come to learn that those spirits who guard and guide us often make sport in the ways they communicate, not only in sending the strangest emissaries, but also in the whimsical context in which these emissaries are placed.
As an administrator for a large social service agency, I had gone to New York, to a conference on alternative dispute resolution. During the opening remarks in the elegant, chandeliered dining room, the speaker noted that participants had come from far and wide— one even from as far as South Africa. And he, the one from South Africa, stood so that the audience could see this square, squat Afrikaner who had come all the way to New York.
An Afrikaner! The oppressor race. But I walked over to where he stood and introduced myself, saying that I, too, was from South Africa. We talked briefly. The hated accent grated on my ears and opened an ache in my heart. He said he would look out for me at the dinner that evening. I went late, walking alone through the dark New York streets.
He came over when he saw me, his round predikant, or preacher, face breaking into a smile. We talked, first small talk about this and that, and then, as the discussion intensified, I about being an expatriate, he about being a pariah.
We left the dinner and walked the cold city streets, heads down, arms wrapped into our jackets. On and on we talked: I blamed, he absorbed; I made assumptions, he proved them wrong; I grew angry, suddenly ranting, railing against loss. And with each block covered, as each hour passed, the layers around my soul peeled back, until at last we came to that place where our roots twined together in the African earth, and we stood and wept for our lost fatherland.
Perhaps I should have realized that anything under the title of alternative dispute resolution
might provide a background for change, but that is Monday morning hindsight. What I knew then was that some deep passion had been aroused, a passion to forgive and be forgiven, as well as a willingness to look again at that country of my birth. And so, a few months later we returned to South Africa, Ron and I.
We flew first to London, and then at night with a low, full moon, arced the length of the African continent. We landed at Jan Smuts airport early in the morning, when the sun’s light is still pale. From the long, wet grasses along the runway, a black long-tailed widow bird rose clumsily, winging arduously, and I wondered if it was an omen.
We walked across the tarmac to the buses that carried us, load by load, to the terminal. My heart beat wildly; my eyes were greedy, absorbing images in quick frames. In the terminal armed, uniformed white young men stood by each doorway, and I, eager to forgive, greeted them as though they had been as long lost as I.
How strange it was driving the route from the airport. How red the earth; how bright the light. How much space there was. My cells seemed to be turning this way and that, confused, not finding a shape to settle into. We stayed with a friend along the Jukskei River, where the willows curled; and as they purpled that evening into dusk, my bones settled with a sigh, like an old dog into its basket, and I was home. Oh, but I hadn’t reckoned with my unpeeled soul.
in the mornings, for exercise, we walk. Up Wordsworth, to Victoria Street. We turn left on Victoria, toward the Jukskei River, and they come toward us, the black ones, in ones and twos. They walk with an easy gait, a swinging gait, even the older ones. I look into their eyes and feel the old pain, the old guilt.
Good morning.
Sa’ bona.
They smile, and I search, in their smiles, for absolution.
Along Shakespeare, then Chaucer and Milton, each fence is flanked with tall graceful gates against which two, three, or four dogs fling themselves, baying intruder.
And I wonder how they feel, the black ones, knowing it’s for them.
In the evenings, behind the high fences and locked gate, we have drinks on the patio. Orange-bellied thrushes sway in the berried branches of the Mexican cherry tree. The old mulberry is ripe with dark, fat fruit hanging like replete caterpillars. Weavers, swift silhouettes, flit back and forth from tamarisk to mulberry, streaming supple strands for nest building. The land haunts with its beauty.
On the third morning we leave suburban tranquility for downtown Johannesburg. Along Louis Botha Avenue jockeying buses careen; green mambas
they used to be called. Casually dressed black men sit on storefront steps; nannies in light blue with matching doeks, or headscarves; little boys wearing yarmulkes; gray-haired ladies in beige sweaters walking dogs.
Through Hillbrow—the Haight-Ashbury of Johannesburg—gay, multiethnic, quick-violent like the summer storms. Blond women with brown babies; slim, young, black-slippered men with drug-shot eyes. Down Claim Street now, past the area where we were young. There’s Minto Court, where I lay at night watching the old neon sign across the empty lot flash red and green through tired, tearing eyes. GLOSSOP HOTEL! LION BEER! GLOSSOP HOTEL! LION BEER! The empty lot is filled now, but the Glossop Hotel still stands.
Downtown Johannesburg is new glass and steel structures soaring side by side with KwaZulu Muti medicine shops and their shelves of musty herbs and hanging clusters of dried animals. Downtown Johannesburg is the darkening of the land. We park the car and walk. Here the black ones don’t come in ones and twos as in the suburbs. Here they horde, in tailored suits, toward me. There is something about it that terrifies me. Too many eyes to look into. Too many to ask forgiveness of. I flee back to the suburbs.
Back on the patio, sipping a soda. A cinnamon dove picks at the spaces in the brickwork around the pool. In the mulberry, brown-bellied bulbuls patter their three-tone chatter. Beneath the yellow privet, a hoopoe waddle-dips, beak disappearing, appearing. The air, soft, strokes all in gentleness. My body cleaves to the land.
For days the sky hangs potbellied gray. Finally it rains. The yellow weavers shriek in the apricot tree and fluff and flutter outstretched wings like children in the first rain of summer.
Driving to Bramley in the rain we stop for two old ones trudging heavy-wet uphill. They have come from the doctor and are returning to Alexandra Township. He, in aged brown suit and wear-cracked shoes, works no more. Divestiture’s divestiture. Who will hire me now?
he asks. I am an old man.
We are quiet save the swish swish swish of the wipers. We drop them off on the outskirts of Alexandra. He takes my hand between his in gentle farewell. My eyes skitter with shame.
I sit for a week, cocooned in emptiness, soaked in sadness. Swallows hunch in the rain, apostrophes on telephone-wires. From the willows, hadedas, those black-visaged ibis, draw out their mournful haw, haw, haw. Rendering judgment? Finally the sun shines, burning with such intensity as to rob the flesh of its whiteness. I dream of making love and walking away. And tall black-granite monoliths, crag-etched with faces, crowding me till fear wrestles me awake with the pictures still clinging to my retina.
it was when the Indian mynahs had picked clean the green berries from the Mexican cherry tree that we bought a home. A small, sunny condo that looks into the spreading, lilac-tipped branches of an old jacaranda and to which we vow to return every year. Why? Because while the rest of the world shunned, we loved and longed to show it? Because while my heart broke, my bones had come home? Because unbeknownst to me, the drum had sounded and called the dance to life.
3
Where the Only Sound Is Silence
i don’t know when the long slide toward depression began. Whether it was during that visit, or after. Certainly, there I had been sad, but now I was immobilized, depressed beyond caring. It would only be much later that the role this time played would become clear: that here, from this place of emptiness and stillness, a great spiritual journey was beginning. There, in a dark confluence, days become weeks that become months.
We had agreed to return to South Africa at the year’s end and I, with neither the energy nor the will to reason differently, allowed Ron to make all the arrangements. By now I barely moved; walking was like wading through molasses. I barely spoke; my brain was empty.
In the little flat in Johannesburg, our sunny condo, I spent hour upon hour sitting on the pink sofa, my back to the northern winter sun, looking out at the old jacaranda tree. No thoughts, just looking; no feelings other than that of the heat of the sun on my back. Just before we returned to the States, friends invited us up to their farm in the northeastern Transvaal and we accepted their offer.
Mario Scheiss, a white-halo-haired Swiss playwright, inherited the land from his uncle. Margaret, his blond, bubbly and middle-age-girthed wife is part flower child, part earth mother. She thought it would help me. We expected cows and chickens, but it was the bush.
We leave from Pretoria in the Scheiss’s well-worn Volkswagen station wagon, loaded down with food. We are going to the Timbavati, an area adjacent to Kruger National Park, owned by about thirty farmers
in lots that average 2,000 acres. The areas are unfenced and game migrates freely from north to south through the Timbavati, and from east to west between Kruger National Park and the Timbavati.
We head north, driving through winter-yellowed countryside, fields of maize nubs, gold winter grassland. In Witbank we stop early to refuel, with toasted sandwiches. Padkos,
say the Afrikaners. Road food. We drive through black tribal land in calm cactistudded valleys, past coal mines and land left angrily strip-mined. Curving into the foothills of the far end of the Drakensberg, we pass tobacco fields with their drought-empty drying barns.
We climb through craggy, creviced mountain, the rock face streaked copper red, yellow-lichened, to the Strydom tunnel. On the hillside, brightly doeked black women have set up stalls and are selling fruit and vegetables: wild bananas tasting of orange juice, papayas, avocados, marula nuts. Baboons roam freely, waiting for pickings. We stop to buy, and the bill is tallied in fingered singsong.
"Five rand¹ for papaya, five rand for avocado, four rand for tomatoes, and three rand for nuts makes nineteen rand.
Wait a minute, Margaret and Mario chorus,
that’s seventeen rand." The brightly bedoeked one sings the numbers to her fingers once again and comes to the same conclusion. Nineteen rand,
she sings out. Charmed by her cheekiness, Margaret gives her twenty rand. She tucks the money away and waves both hands in the air. No change, no change,
she sings.
We are through the tunnel and dropping now into the low veldt; the scrub and shrub is green, the Olifants River, in slow curls, swirls past thick-trunked baobab trees; to Hoedspruit: one-horse hotbed of Afrikaner conservatism. The land levels and winter-silver doringboom, or thorn bushes, appear. Onto the dirt road now, each side dull winter-green bush. A giraffe head here, an ostrich there. And finally we make the right turn into Umlani—Place of Rest.
In the days that follow, my stillness will matter little. For here, in this terrain that is not ours, we will all be bonded in stillness.
Ron and I are in a small rondavel a short distance from the main house; thatch roof, reed mats, no electricity. The orange-walled main house, also thatched and reed-matted, with radio phone and no electricity, sits in a clearing in the bush.
Margaret empties the food into the pantry. Sit, sit
she waves at me as I start to get up to help. I’m grateful and haul my molasses-mired limbs outside.
Stretching away from the clearing, flattening into the distance, scrub, shrub, and tree blend into cumulus contours, broken only by a gap of dry riverbed. Occasionally the head and neck of giraffes are visible as they cross. The air has a soft woman smell, musky and sweet.
In the late afternoon Margaret packs gin, tonic, chips, and ice into an open Land Rover; we jacket up and head out into the bush. Marco, Mario and Margaret’s son, who lives here in the bush, is driving, leaning out, watching for spoor. Soon we round a bend and there, ten feet ahead of us, is a herd of fifteen, maybe twenty, elephants. We stop. Marco puts up his hand to make sure we are silent.
The big male standing in front, with ears flapping, looks at us levelly. Ron, in his excitement, snaps picture after picture with a camera that has no film in it. They’re on their way to the water hole,
breathes Marco. We’ll back up and meet them there.
We drive over grass-flattened pathways to the water hole, beside which is a tall, broad, heavy-limbed tree with a two-level tree house. Quickly and quietly we climb up the backward-leaning ladder to the second level, with the gin, tonic, ice, and chips, and settle in to the silence at sundown, waiting for elephants under a salmon sky in Africa.
Suddenly they are there. They have come, quiet as shadows, and line up at the water’s edge, trunks dipping and lifting the water to their mouths, and when they are done, darkness has folded around them.
Back at base, in a boma, or circle of reeds, a large fire has been built. Here we sit after dinner, feet stretched to the warmth, listening to stories of the bush, and now and then in the silences the soft coughs of lion, till it is time to take a candle and go to bed.
In the morning, well before sunrise, we drive out again in the Land Rover, in the direction of last night’s lion sound. The earth smells of ripeness. The cold air bites into our cheeks, our eyes tear, and we roll high our collars. The sun rises orange-balled. Thorn bushes scrape by. A herd of impala leap crazily ahead of us and then off into the scrub. A giraffe slowly chews at a few winter leaves and watches us from soft, long-lashed eyes.
The Land Rover edges down steep gullies, pitching us forward, and across dry riverbeds. Every now and then a mature tree is down on its side, roots exposed. Elephant,
says Marco. In winter when there aren’t many leaves on the trees, they will uproot a tree to eat from the roots. They don’t eat much, they usually just nibble at the roots.
The tree lies dying.
Each night we sit around the fire, our feet stretched out before us, our heads sometimes cupped back in our hands, watching the sparks whirl away into blackness. Marco tells bush stories of attacks and escapes, while we listen to the lion cough, the shrill pitch of the hyena, the night sound of sudden killings. Now and then we shine the flashlight out into the surrounding night and catch a sudden orange glint of eyes.
On one such night, after we had gone to bed in our candled ron-davel and fallen asleep, I dreamed of a lion at the foot of the bed, launching himself at me. I screamed a long, curdling no-o-o-o-o-o, and Ron threw himself across the room onto my bed to hold me, to reassure me, skinning his knees on the reed mat.
it was the day before we were to go back to Johannesburg that Margaret asked if I’d like to meet with a sangoma. Perhaps she thought I might gain some insight into the gripping morass of my depression. My answer came without thought. I said yes.
She is wrapped in a red skirt. Her feet are bare and cracked. She unrolls the reed mat and empties the bones from their pouch. They are small, as the knuckle bones of a monkey would be small. Then she gathers the bones, asks me my name, and throws. She speaks, low-voiced, in her language, the translator bending toward her. You are suffering from a sickness of the spirit,
he says, a sickness of the heart.
I nod, and she speaks again in her language.
Again the translator turns to me. You are feeling a great emptiness in here,
he says, pointing to his chest. And here,
he says as he holds his head.
Again I nod. Ask her,
I say to the translator, what I must do about this sickness.
He turns to her and speaks, and she answers. She says you must keep taking the white doctor’s medicine.
As we rise, she gathers her bones back into their pouch, rolls up the reed mat and turns back to me and speaks. You must not be afraid to sleep in the bush, the lion will not get you.
And, while I stare after her, she is gone.
4
Morongo Valley, Meditation, and Mother Earth
if you take Route 62 northeast from Interstate 10, the road climbs into the San Bernardino Mountains. And as you crest the pass you may see a sign: MORONGO VALLEY, POPULATION 1300.
If you happen to notice the sign, you might be surprised at how few residences you see as you drive on, through to Twenty-nine Palms or beyond. Not many people stop at this dusty middle of nowhere
other than to get gas. The desert dwellers don’t hang out the welcome sign in Morongo Valley. This is Southern California, high desert. Dirt roads wind off Route 62, back into the scrub, where the creosote and cholla close around the desert homes. In the foothills, catsclaw and desert apricot hide most of the signs of human habitation.
Jenice had moved here after her husband died, to heal. This is where I came to visit her. She lived on Elm Street, a rutted, rock-strewn dirt road, in a small, creosote-embraced house.
It was summer, and it was hot. On the broad, east-facing veranda we sat in two rocking chairs, listening to the hum of the heat. In the late afternoon we spread out scratch, and doe-eyed rabbits came gently out of the scrub, and tail-thumping desert squirrel, and quail, like little old plume-cloched ladies looking for something they’d lost.
Around us fold the hills, dun-colored during the day, purpling into evening. In the southwest, Mount San Jacinto, like a great bird with wings outstretched, hovers over the valley. I’d come for one night and stayed three; I could have stayed forever.
I visited often. In the late summer, tropical storms en route to Mexico swept across the valley, and from the ground rose such a sweet, sensual fragrance that my heart ached.
In the winter, great candelabras of rivered snow etched the great wings of San Jacinto, and now and then the valley itself was white-cloaked, the creosotes’ long limbs lowered, like offerings, to the ground. And always at night, the great whorl of the Milky Way, diaphanous clouds of stars, thick enough to fall into.
I could die here I thought.
And so when we sold a piece of property and talked about what we should do with the money, I told Ron I’d like to buy a home in Morongo Valley, and he, with love, suggested we do it.
It was the second house we looked at. It sits high on a hill on the western rim of the valley. Inside is a cocoon of raspberry carpeting. Outside, to the north and south, the curving arms, the layered hill-tops of the San Bernadinos surround it. Across the valley, five or six miles away, the undulating tiers of the Little Bernadinos complete the circle.
It was only later, after I began to do the medicine wheel and found myself always returning to sit in the west, that I realized the little house, too, sits in the west of the wheel that is Morongo Valley. West, the place of nurturing, of Mother Earth, the woman’s place. The place of darkness and introspection. The place where we enter the silence, ready to listen and receive.
Here I began meditating, yoga style, on my breath. And here, where the dark-skinned ones of the Americas had once made their wheels, drummed their drums, chanted their prayers, I found places in the hillsides, small circles of clearing, that drew me into their midst.
I stood for long hours chanting the song of the east, greeting the sun as its tongue first flicked across the valley floor even before its golden eye crested the eastern hills. Or I turned into the face of the wind as it swept hard from the south, its force rocking me, its sound streaming around me.
Ron’s work was taking him out of town more and more, and so I came out often to the little house on the hilltop, spending first one night, then two and three.
Each day of each visit brings gifts. The thin, blood-red line