Wicked Like a Wildfire
By Lana Popovic
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“Lush. Delicious. Bewildering. And darkly magical. Popovic has created a world that you tumble into from the very first words and wish you could stay in forever.” —Evelyn Skye, author of The Crown's Game
“Wicked Like a Wildfire was like devouring a succulent fairy fruit—it will rob your time, settle into your dreams, and leave you starving for more.” —Roshani Chokshi, New York Times bestselling author of The Star-Touched Queen
Fans of Holly Black and Leigh Bardugo will be bewitched by Lana Popovic's debut YA fantasy novel about a bargain that binds the fates—and hearts—of twin sisters to a force larger than life.
All the women in Iris and Malina’s family have the unique magical ability or “gleam” to manipulate beauty. Iris sees flowers as fractals and turns her kaleidoscope visions into glasswork, while Malina interprets moods as music. But their mother has strict rules to keep their gifts a secret, even in their secluded sea-side town. Iris and Malina are not allowed to share their magic with anyone, and above all, they are forbidden from falling in love.
But when their mother is mysteriously attacked, the sisters will have to unearth the truth behind the quiet lives their mother has built for them. They will discover a wicked curse that haunts their family line—but will they find that the very magic that bonds them together is destined to tear them apart forever?
Wicked Like a Wildfire is the first in a two-book series. Readers will be rapt with anticipation for the sequel.
Lana Popovic
Lana Popović studied psychology and literature at Yale University and law at Boston University. She is a graduate of the Emerson College publishing and writing program and works as a literary agent with Chalberg & Sussman, specializing in YA. Her books include Wicked Like a Wildfire and Fierce Like a Firestorm. Lana was born in Serbia and spent her childhood summers surrounded by the seaside and mountain magic of Montenegro. She lived in Bulgaria, Hungary, and Romania before moving to the United States, where she now calls Boston home, subsisting largely on cake, eyeliner, and aerial yoga. Visit Lana at www.lanapopovicbooks.com or follow her on Twitter @LanaPopovicLit.
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- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5I wanted to quit reading this around halfway through, but hoped surely the ending would be worth the slowness of the beginning. Luckily, the last quarter of the book picked up the pace and things finally got interesting! Yesterday I had no plans to ever buy the sequel, but now I probably will because I'd like to see where this goes.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Review courtesy of All Things Urban Fantasy.allthingsuf.comWICKED LIKE A WILDFIRE is a story about the complexity of relationships, the economy of love and hurt that exists within families. It spins a fairytale without readers realizing, we stare at the magician's right hand while the left builds whole new worlds around us. In the spaces between teenage rebellion and romance, magic blooms and expands.A magic spun of the senses can be hard to contain on the page, but WICKED LIKE A WILDFIRE reflects the awe of its magic into the space between characters. It's impact shows in how they draw toward each other and flinch away. Iris and Malina each deal with their mother's distance in different ways, their magic an organic part of the expectations and disappointments that chafe on both sides of the divide. Iris drinks and smokes and parties her pain away, brandishing each rebellion in her mother's face, but her wildness never entirely masks a clear longing for a return to their happier days.It is this vulnerable, hidden heart that makes WICKED LIKE A WILDFIRE memorable, a notable addition among contemporary, young adult fairy tales. For all her wicked ways, Iris loves and longs for love. For all her meek sweetness, Malina is fierce in her loyalty and love. These sisters have to unravel the heartbreak and deceit of their mother's past, all the while trying to survive their present. And WICKED LIKE A WILDFIRE will sweep us all along for the ride.Sexual Content: References to sex.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5beautiful writing
- Rating: 1 out of 5 stars1/51.5/5 stars (DNF at page 215) (rounded down)What's that saying? "Don't judge a book by its cover."? Well it goes both ways. Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful cover, but the novel itself? Not so much. But let's start with the good stuff:- The cover, obviously.- This book will make you hungry will all of its desert descriptions. Like "so hungry can't stop drooling hungry!" - This book made me want to buy myself flowers, many flowers. - It also made me want to wear more perfume (which I mean, I'm allergic to, but whatever). - It's set in Montenegro, which I know nothing about, so I liked that aspect.- The writing is pretty - if you're into it. Was I into it? Not really, I read 5 pages of it and the only word that kept running through my mind was - pretentious, pretentious, pretentious. It felt like the author just really liked using her dictionary - trying to fit as many descriptions and adjectives into one page as possible. Think Strange the Dreamer amount of words, but without the fluidness of flow. Think of Night Circus, but not nearly as magical (well, actually not magical at all). The main character, Iris is a bitchy bitch for no apparent reason. She's "breathtakingly beautiful, but she herself doesn't think so." NO, thank you! Her sister Lina is the only character I somewhat liked, although to be honest Lina really lacked in character development area. They all did. All of the characters had as much dimension as a sheet of paper. I was bored. The plot? I don't know if there was a plot, but apparently I never got to it. And I generously gave up after 215 pages. Characters (meaning Iris mostly) make the dumbest and most contradicting decisions. The plot is slow, the descriptions are overbearing - and overall it's just nothing new. Also main character likes to mix alcohol and drugs and being a little whore with magic, and I'm sorry but what? Good ideas - poor execution. Sorry book, better luck elsewhere. shame though, as I was really excited for it (well I was excited, because I'm a cover whore, so don't be one - it doesn't pay off).
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Wicked Like a Wildfire - Lana Popovic
ONE
Cattaro, Montenegro
MY SISTER AND I WERE BORN ALL TANGLED UP together, both tiny enough that our unruly descent just narrowly missed killing our mother. I liked to think there would have been a fair bit of screaming on Mama’s part in the ruckus that followed, but that’s just my wicked fancy. Maybe she was stoic and flawless as ever, Snow White giving birth under glass. Either way, tending to her, no one spared the time to note which of us had arrived first. And so although we weren’t identical, by sheer bloody technicality we were always the same age, neither a minute older nor younger than each other.
Mama kept us in a single cradle, one that Čiča Jovan had carved for her from cherrywood before we were born. It was a whimsical thing fit for changeling children, wrought with mermaids trapped in ivy, open seashells with tiny apples growing in them instead of salty flesh. Sometimes I wondered if I’d have liked my own cradle as much as I would have liked having my own room once we were older. But Malina still liked to fall asleep by matching her breathing to mine, rubbing her feet together like a grasshopper.
The only real bedtime story Mama ever told us traced back to those early days, when we were both so little the tops of our skulls hadn’t yet hardened into something that could withstand the world. The mother I knew might have been tempted by that fragility, the urge to press her thumbs into such yielding clay. To see what marks she could make.
She must have been so different, then.
Instead, when we were old enough for our pale eyes to focus, she brought an assortment of offerings on a milky sea-glass platter. From it, she plucked tiny slivers of fruit and brushed them over our lips, one by one. Apple, mango, strawberry, papaya, prickly pear, some so exotic she could only have gotten them from the cruise ships that docked in the bay, rather than the open-air market outside the Old Town walls. Each was at its peak, the perfect moment of ripeness before turning. Then she passed violet petals beneath our noses, followed by jasmine, orchid, and peony; small lumps of ambergris; splinters of oud wood and sandalwood and myrrh.
Waiting to see which would bring forth the gleam, the magic that ran through our blood.
For me, it was the hibiscus flower, the petal red and fleshy as our mother trailed it over the tip of my nose, before she let me gum it to release its tart flavor. For Malina, it was a gleaming, perfect cherry, which Mama crushed into a paste that she let my sister suck from her ring finger.
It was bad luck to name a daughter after the thing that first sparked the gleam, Mama said. So I was Iris, for a flower that wasn’t hibiscus, and my sister was Malina, for a raspberry. They were placeholder names that didn’t pin down our true nature, so nothing would ever be able to summon us. No demon or vila would ever reel us in by our real names.
Even caught up in the story, Mama could never quite explain what the gleam looked like once she found it. Maybe our cloudy baby eyes cleared, like a sky swept by a driving wind. Maybe our tiny hands clenched fistfuls of air, seeking the tools that we’d use to capture the gleam once we were older. She never said.
Listening to her tell it, I could have sworn that she’d loved the needy little creatures Malina and I had been. Even if the whole thing was just a story—who rubs flowers and fruit and whale vomit on babies, anyway? What if one of us had been allergic?—it was still beautifully spun. There was love in its very fabric.
Then again, all that was seventeen years ago. These days, had someone asked me if our mother loved us, any yes
would have caught in my throat like a fish bone. And had someone asked me if I loved my mother, I thought I knew what I would say.
But then she died without dying, and I didn’t know anything at all.
THAT WHOLE WEEK felt like a gathering storm. It was only the end of May, but already so stifling that just the effort of breathing made you mutinous. Malina and I worked split shifts at Café Tadić since school had let out for the summer, and that Tuesday I’d drawn the early straw, which I usually preferred. On my way out at six a.m., I’d see the sunrise over the mountains that Cattaro huddled against, the sky glowing like a forge before the craggy peaks above us lit with the first slice of the sun.
It reminded me of what my world had once looked like, brilliant and blazing and alive from every angle, back when I could make almost anything bloom.
But the sky was still a barely blushing dark as I trailed the side of our tiny house just before five, wincing as the courtyard pebbles dug into my soles. I’d taken my flip-flops off to minimize crunching in the predawn hush. Mama would already be at the café—she’d been asleep long before I snuck out the night before—but Mrs. Petrović next door was a nasty, busybody hag who could have been a KGB spy in another life, or possibly this one. Ratting me out to Mama made her downright gleeful, pointless as it was. Mama knew perfectly well she couldn’t keep me inside when I wanted out. I only bothered with the skulking to avoid the fights—What kind of mother do you make me look like, sneaking out like a thief in the night?
—and even that was mostly for Malina. She couldn’t stand the sound of our mother’s rage battering against mine.
I was still bobbing along on some mixture of high and tipsy as I hauled myself onto our window ledge and swung my legs over, the contentment lingering round and compact in my belly like a sun-warmed egg. That wouldn’t last. Soon, it would crack into a slimy nausea, just in time for my arrival at the café.
A faint rumble of triumph echoed through me. Along with most everything else that I did, Jasmina the Peerless hated it when I came to work hungover. And this morning I wouldn’t even have time to wash the alcohol fumes from my skin and hair. A small—and smelly—victory, but I’d learned to take them as they came.
Malina was still sound asleep as I gingerly dropped both feet onto our splintered hardwood floor, toe to heel, bending over to deposit my flip-flops beside them. My stomach lurched; maybe that rumble hadn’t been all triumph. I leaned my butt back against the sill, breathing deeply to settle my insides. We kept our window flung wide open in the summer, and the slight breeze stirred the multicolored Japanese parasols fanned out across our ceiling, stripped of their handles and overlapping one another.
This was one of my projects from years ago, before I graduated to proper glassblowing under Čiča Jovan’s watchful eye. When my gleam began to wane, Mama had presented me with a consolation prize, an article about American artist Dale Chihuly’s largest installation: the Fiori di Como, a garden of glass flowers blossoming on the ceiling of the grandest hotel in Las Vegas. Its steel armature alone weighed ten thousand pounds; it had to, to support the forty thousand pounds of glass that clung to it. It was the biggest glass sculpture in the world.
I had painted the parasols with a painstaking, delicate rendering of the wisteria flower tunnel in Kitakyushu, Japan, gridding out the slim ribbing of the tunnel’s truss to create the optical illusion of dimensionality—so that whenever Malina and I looked up, it would feel like we stood in the Kawachi Fuji Garden, beneath a pink-and-violet, pastel rain of dripping wisteria. Mama hated it. She didn’t have to say so, but I’d seen the tightening in the small muscles of her face so many times when she came in to fetch one of us and couldn’t keep herself from looking up into the shower of flowers I had painted for Malina and me.
Maybe her distaste made me love it just that much more; I wouldn’t have put that past me. But that was a fringe benefit, far beside the point. What I really loved was looking up and knowing that a place existed for me somewhere far away from here. A place that belonged to me at least in half.
But this morning, the sight of the paper petals gave me a flutter of unease. Passed out on Nevena’s couch last night, I’d dreamed of flowers, fields of black roses that glistened wet beneath a sky hovering on the brink of storm. Each time I woke it had been gasping and sweaty, heart stuttering in my chest until the alcohol and weed dragged me back down. I hardly ever remembered my dreams, but I could still nearly smell those dark roses, taste the slippery dew on the petals as I tore them off their stems and placed them on my tongue.
Shaking off the sudden chill, I tripped over one of Malina’s strappy sandals and banged into our vanity table, cursing under my breath as our perfumes rattled. Our room was so tiny that we could reach out and bridge the gap with touched palms when we sat on the edge of our beds. On cue, Malina flung herself over from her stomach to her back, like a breaching dolphin. She draped an arm over her face and mumbled thickly. I caught a drawn-out Riss,
followed by what sounded suspiciously like calzone.
Oh, I think not, milady,
I told her. Fetch your own lunch. You don’t have to be at the café until one anyway, so just grab a sandwich on the way or something and we can have calzones from the Bastion for dinner, if you like.
She gave a disgruntled groan and rolled back over to face the wall. I shrugged and turned to our tarnished mirror. My black tank top from last night was at least three years old and too small, embossed with a pair of glossy red lips pursed around a sequined skull. With my low-slung denim cutoffs, it showed the canvas of lower belly pinned between my hip bones—and if there was one thing Mama couldn’t stand, it was an unseemly amount of daughterflesh on display. My hair was too straight to tangle, but the eyeliner had smeared nicely in my sleep. The overall effect was a little like something wary, pale-eyed, and possibly bitey peering out from the overhang of a cave.
Perfect. Degenerate chic, at your service.
Before I slipped out, I darted over to kiss Lina’s sleep-mussed temple. Her black curls—so dark they seemed nearly blue in certain light, but with the most surprising sable undertone where the sun caught their depths—were bird’s-nest tangled, and she smelled warm and sleepy, Dove soap and the lingering patchouli that was the base of her favorite homemade perfume. Beneath it, I could smell her skin, and my stomach bucked with love. For a moment I had a pang of powerful longing, like a gong rung inside my belly, for the nights when we had slept cuddled together, our sweet baby breath whispering over each other’s faces.
Lina stirred, scrunching up her face like a little girl. Riss,
she mumbled, is there a reason you’re sniffing me like a truffle pig?
I dropped down onto my own bed as she propped herself up on her elbows, yawning hugely. "Maybe I just relish the scent of sister in the morning."
That sounds purely wrong.
She wrinkled her nose. Can’t say I reciprocate, either. What were you doing at Nevena’s, anyway, bobbing for apples in a tub of rakija? I don’t know how you stand that stuff; you’d think they could make apricot brandy taste better than rat poison mixed with cheap perfume. Who else was there?
That is for us, the cool and popular, to know, and you to find out.
I grimaced. Or more like the cool and the popular and yours truly, Nev’s impostor tagalong. No one else much worth talking to, really. But you should still come out with me sometime. Get all wild and free and such, for once.
She gave me a sleepy half smile, a glossy black curl sliding over her rounded cheek. My sister had the sweetest face, a gentler rendering of our mother’s that drew from our father mostly in the slight slant of her gray eyes. Her full lower lip was cleft like a cherry, and it made all that beauty somehow both playful and kind. You could easily see the shared blood between us, and maybe on the surface, you might even mistake us for the same substance.
But like water and alcohol, the resemblance ended there.
Maybe I like staying home?
she said. Maybe I have better things to do with my nights than tag along to your spite parties?
It always got under my skin when Lina talked in questions; she’d picked it up from years of playing ambassador between me and Mama.
Oh, like maybe walking on eggshells around Jasmina the Peerless while she plans the next day’s menu and ignores you?
I mimicked. And I don’t go out just to spite her, you know. Not everything I do is about her.
Seems like it is, these days,
Lina said quietly. She dropped her eyes, black lashes fanning lush against her cheeks, her fingers twisting into the sheets. Her hands were the unloveliest part of her, wide palms and spidery violinist’s fingers with cuticles run ragged from her nervous nibbling. My own had gathered a respectable collection of burns and nicks from glassblowing and working at the café, but they were still fine-boned and pretty, the nailbeds slim. I won when it came to hands. At least there was that.
A little easy for you to say, isn’t it? You can still sing like you used to, back when she still let us practice with her.
I couldn’t keep the bitterness from my voice, like one of Mama’s orange rinds before she candied them. I can’t make anything bloom other than flowers anymore, and even then only I can see it.
Except for when I drink just enough, I didn’t add. Or smoked so much that my thoughts sparked around each other like a school of minnows, slippery and silver, impossible to grasp.
You can sing like you always could, and still she doesn’t even hate you.
I’m sorry,
Lina whispered, struggling to meet my eyes. I knew she could feel the roil of my emotions, that it chafed her not to sing it back at me or soothe me, but sometimes I couldn’t curb myself just to ease her. "I know that’s hard for you. But maybe it’s better this way? I can sing, but that’s all it is—weird, maybe, but just song. There’s nothing for anyone to see. But you, it used to be like New Year’s Eve when you made things bloom. And you know we can’t be all flash and glitter like that. It’s not safe for any of us."
I clenched my teeth until my jaw burned. Safety was Mama’s eternal refrain. It was why we’d only eaten the moon together at nighttime in the tiny garden behind our house, hidden by the trellis of creeping roses and oleander, back when Lina and I were little. "Only in the dark, cvetiću, and only with each other, Mama would whisper in my ear, holding my hands in her strong grip as I bloomed the starlight dappling through the canopy of leaves above.
That’s the only place we’re safe."
I couldn’t remember the last time our mother had called me little flower,
or touched me with such tenderness. As if I had grown into a cactus instead of something softer, and she didn’t want to risk my spines.
The townsfolk with the pitchforks, I know,
I said. Lovers and neighbors and friends, all turning to burn the witches. But don’t you wonder sometimes if it’s worth it, giving up so much? When we still have to keep folding ourselves so small all the time?
Lina looked away, a soft flush rising on her pale skin. Of course it’s worth it,
she murmured. Beauty’s worth it even in the smallest scale. You have your glass, I have my violin. It’s enough, like Mama always said.
Yet even as she said it, she began humming under her breath. The back of my neck prickled, and a wash of goose bumps spread down my arms. Even after all these years, hearing Lina harmonize with herself always gave me chills, the way it sounded like three voices in one. This melody was subtle, three layers of a bittersweet arpeggio that split and reflected my emotions like a prism: the anger, the loss, and the biting sense of injustice, along with a gentle apologetic undertow that was her own offering.
There was another hue to it, too, a tinge of guilt that didn’t feel like mine. Even as the song melted my annoyance with her like spun sugar in water, I frowned, trying to place it.
She caught herself abruptly and cut off the melody.
Sorry,
she said, clenching both hands in her lap until her knuckles turned white. I know you hate it when I do that. Do you—will you be going to the square after your shift today? If Nevena stays longer at the café, I could leave early and bring my violin, come keep you company?
Coming from Lina, this was a fairly high-level peace offering. I sold my glasswork figurines to tourists in the Old Town’s Arms Square, and Malina’s singing and playing always meant I’d sell more that day. It made customers pliant, more willing to part with their money for a pretty piece of glass. Mama had no idea we ever did it, of course. And if it felt a little swindly to sway people like that, it only added to my thrill. Lina had never liked that part of it as much as I did, even if she was only making it easier for people to do what they already wanted. It baffled me how much this bothered her; what was the point of power at all, if she shrank back from it anytime it caught and flared?
Especially when hers still gleamed so brightly while mine guttered by the day.
I thought you had a violin lesson with Natalija this afternoon.
I can cancel that, if you want. I already saw her earlier this week.
Don’t worry about it,
I said curtly, stepping back into my flip-flops. I only have a few pieces left from the last batch, anyway. Not enough to show.
She sighed behind me. Riss—
I’ll see you later.
I could feel her eyes heavy on my back as I left.
TWO
OUTSIDE, THE MORNING WAS FRAGRANT WITH THE SPICE of the oleander drifting from the back garden. Our bicycles leaned together against the chain-link fence. Above them, a warm rainbow of bougainvillea clung to the links, fading like twilight from fuchsia to orange, yellow, and peach before nestling into the green of stems and leaves.
I paused for a moment as the flowers burst into their usual spectacle. Each separate blossom multiplied, over and over, until the tangle burgeoned into sparkling symmetry, a fractal sphere like a honeycomb. I saw these flowers every morning, fiercely grateful that their dazzle never dimmed. That was my gift, my variant of the gleam. I didn’t just see flowers; I saw them to the nth degree. Each bloomed into a little galaxy that I could cup inside my palm, the sticky stars of its pollen caught between my fingers. Petal nested within petal, each level of the pattern cradling tiny versions of itself, stamen and pistil and vein and leaf swirling in concentric patterns like a nautilus shell.
It hadn’t always been just flowers. When I was younger, the whole world had bloomed for me. Sunlight through summer leaves had spiraled into a blaze of gold and green, an infinite pillar of fireflies swarming into the sky. Pebbles and stones beneath my bare toes would whirlpool into cream and slate and gray. Even the crosshatch of tanned skin on the back of my own hand would fractal for me, layering like dragon scales.
Back when Mama still let us practice the gleam together—eating the moon, she always called it, like something out of a fairy tale, like the three of us were strong enough to swallow the sky—I’d even been able to share what I saw with both of them. Even the memory of that happiness was painfully fierce, a bubble of vast joy that strained my lungs. In the summer dark of the garden, the sigh of leaves and crickets stirring the silence around us, Mama would let me bloom balls of tinsel or twine, handfuls of beach glass and jars filled with seashells, bowls clicking with tigereye marbles. When I made each explode into fractal fireworks between us, Mama would slip one of the moon-shaped truffles she made for those nights into my mouth—dark chocolate, sea salt, and a sweet curl of jasmine, the taste of the summer night dissolving on my tongue. Then Lina’s song would settle over us, her triad of voices clear and lilting as a flute, the precise pitch of wonder.
We had been so beautiful together, reflecting one another like a family of mirrors.
The word for witch,
veštica, meant deft one,
and that was what we’d been: deft in beauty, versed in its tastes and sounds and textures as it wove like a ribbon through our fingers. It was an heirloom we carried in our blood, a legacy of magic passed down from womb to womb. All the women in our family had it.
Some had even died for it.
Lina and I had been seven when Mrs. Petrović next door saw one of my fractals bloom. Maybe our light laughter had woken her, quiet as we always tried to be, or maybe she’d caught a thread of Lina’s song in her sleep and it had drawn her to the window. The next morning, Mama had trotted us next door and talked her down easily, with a basket of warm trifles from the café and her own cool and perfect poise. Lina and I had been playing with firecrackers, she lied smoothly, because we were young and silly and overly bold, too used to running free during the long hours she was gone. Yes, the colors were very unusual; she thought maybe that kind was called a snapdragon, wasn’t that charming? No, of course, sweet names were no excuse for such a fire hazard, and her without a man to tame that unruly garden in the back. We should still have known better, and now we knew never to do it again.
It wasn’t until she brought us back home that her hands began to shake. She had us kneel with her on her massive sleigh bed, its swooping wooden headboard polished to a honey gleam; Čiča Jovan had made it for her from reclaimed wood. She’d let us sleep in it with her on the nights we ate the moon together, and it had always felt to me like the safest place in our little house.
But now, the devastation that swept over her face when she turned to us made my stomach drop, Lina’s clammy fingers curling into mine like a reflex.
"That was the last time, Mama said, running her tongue over her teeth. The movement pursed her lush mouth and bared the strong, Slavic bones of her face: a squared jaw and cheekbones that cleaved air, a bold but dainty falcon’s nose. The large, thick-lashed gray eyes she shared with me and Malina sparkled oddly, and I suddenly realized what it was—she was trying not to cry.
No more eating the moon for us, not ever. I should have never—I’ve let you both practice for too long. A little longer, and I won’t be able to hold on to you. There’ll be no tamping you down."
But why?
I demanded. Who cares if she saw me? She looks like a shrunken head.
Malina smothered a snicker next to me. Smells like one, too,
she whispered.
"Quiet," Mama snapped. An electric eel of fear raced down my spine, leaving a hot flush in its wake. Lina dropped my hand in shock. Mama never spoke to us so sharply. Even when she was at her wits’ end, her low, throaty voice only dipped lower, softening like a velvet warning.
Her gaze flicking between us, she knelt so we were face-level with her, gray eyes meeting gray. You know we have no family,
she said. I’ve told you that much. The three of us, all alone in the world.
And Čiča Jovan,
Malina added. Only we got to call him čiča,
Old Man Jovan. From us, it was both affectionate and respectful, the next best thing to calling him our grandfather. "That’s why you named the café after him. Because he’s like our deda."
"Yes, as good as a grandfather—maybe even better—though he isn’t blood. But before I had you, I had a twin sister of my own, and a mother, too. They would have been your blood, your aunt and your baba. If they had lived."
Lina’s breathing went shallow beside me. I could see Mama’s turmoil, but my sister could feel and hear its buzz. That’s what our mother sounded like, Lina told me later. Like she’d swallowed a beehive, a high-pitched panic of wings and stingers.
What happened to them?
Lina asked, and from the pained way she said it I knew she felt it already, and that it was terrible.
Mama was still young enough then that we could sometimes read her face, and I could see the splitting inside her, the battle between tell and don’t.
Ana and I were eighteen,
she said, her voice colorless and thin like onionskin. Ana fell in love that year, even though your grandmother forbade it. Love makes us even brighter than we are, until the gleam grows into a roman candle, impossible to contain. Everyone can see us shine with it, then, and it’s the nature of the human beast to fear what it doesn’t understand.
I struggled to make the pieces clasp together. But didn’t our grandmother love our grandfather?
She never loved him,
Mama said. Her face had smoothed out flat, until she looked just like she sounded. "That’s why she thought it was safe to accept when he asked her to marry. And why she thought it would be safe to stay with him, once Ana and I were born. We lived in a mountain village many hours from here; Tata raised goats to make cheese, and Mama brewed medicines. And perfumes too, the prettiest you ever smelled, so fine they made you feel things."
The way your treats make people think of places?
I asked. That was our mother’s gleam: the sights of the world translated into flavor. Was that Grandmother’s gleam?
It was,
she said. Ana’s was bigger, and much more wild. When she danced, it was like watching legends come to life, paintings that breathed and pulsed to the heartbeat of her steps. And when she fell in love . . .
Mama’s eyes grew distant with the memory, soft and diffuse like the fog that sometimes gathered above the slate waters of the bay. She danced and danced. Love stoked her flame, and she showered the sparks of her gleam all over everything, until they spread to your grandmother and me. That’s what it’s like, when the women in our family eat the moon. We’re bound to one another, braided together. And when we catch fire, we burn as one.
And then what, Mama?
Malina said. Her hand had crept back into mine.
Mama’s gaze sharpened back into focus. "Then, we all grew stronger. Your grandmother stopped blending her perfumes, but even still, the house was full of the most wonderful scents; they simply rolled off her, like sea spray from the water. I stopped baking, but your grandfather said he tasted sweet and savory things even when he’d eaten nothing for hours, tastes that made him think of places he had never been. As if ghosts were feeding him morsels. He muttered constantly about vila women and witches, and wore an evil-eye bracelet to fend off curses."
She worked her jaw back and forth, then drew her full lower lip, softer even than Malina’s, through her strong white teeth. And one day he walked in on Ana dancing. I was outside in the barn, but I saw him drag both of them out of the house, Ana by the hair, Mama by the arm. Mama had tried to come between them, to lull him with one of her quieting scents, but it only made him more furious. How long had we all been bewitching him, he wanted to know. Were Ana and I even his daughters, or children of demons?
I barely understood what she meant, but bile welled in my throat all the same.
"Mama saw me cowering in the doorway, and screamed at me to run. And I did—but not until I saw him drag them to the precipice, the cliff’s edge Ana and I had always been forbidden to go near. And he threw them over—Lina and I both flinched hard—
like they were nothing. I stayed, frozen, until I couldn’t hear them screaming anymore. I’ve never taken you up to the mountains, but they’re terribly tall. It was a very long way down before the sound stopped carrying. Once I finally moved, I ran far and hard until I reached this little city. And here our Čiča Jovan found me, and took me in."
Malina pressed against my side, both of us trembling. The questions had blackened and curled up inside me, and all I wanted was for Mama to stop.
She fixed us in her feather-lashed gaze and put a light hand on each of our cheeks. Her fingers were so cold I could feel their chill leach beneath my skin. "Do you understand me? Ana fell in love, and then she was seen. If a father could kill his own child because she gleamed, what do you think a stranger would do to you? That’s why you never let anyone see you. And that’s why we take care to never, ever fall in love."
I found my voice again, a rusted wire in my throat. But Mama, I don’t want to stop,
I said, digging my nails into my palms. Even then, the power to bloom was the one thing, the best thing I had. Where Lina was sweet-tempered and tender, I was stark and sharp, fashioned of edges. I wasn’t already deft in Mama’s kitchen like Lina was, school bored me to misery except when it came to poems and stories, and I didn’t have a whisper of our mother’s easy charm.
On top of it all I looked like a thing apart, some prickly offshoot of my mother’s and sister’s languid beauty. What would I be without the gift? Would I even belong with them? "I could learn to be so careful, I promise I could, if you just teach me. Only ever in the dark, like you said. But please, Mama, don’t make us stop."
It’s not just about you,
she said, soft. You’re so bright, you’ll make all of us too easy to see. Beauty is our birthright, but only as long as we do it safely. I’ll find you some other way to bloom, something that won’t show you for what you are.
She lifted a