A Caravan of Brides: A Novel of Saudi Arabia
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After attending college in Lebanon, Fawzia returns home to Jeddah and takes up secretly with her forbidden college sweetheart. When her reckless behavior leads to family tragedy, she is drawn into an unlikely friendship with a mysterious old storyteller, the niece of a legendary tribal chief.
Narrated by Fawzia and the storyteller Salma, A CARAVAN OF BRIDES celebrates the dangerous melody that love sings in each generation, as it brings the world of Saudi women, past and present, into focus with a tender touch. Travel with memorable characters across Arabia, from the ancient cities of Jeddah and Mecca, to a peaceful mountain valley, forbidding northern deserts, and a storied oasis town once known for tolerance and open-mindedness.
Kay Hardy Campbell
Kay Hardy Campbell was born in Abington, Pennsylvania, and grew up in Massachusetts and Minnesota. She developed a lifelong fascination for the Arabian Peninsula and earned a BA in Arabic and Middle Eastern Studies from the University of Minnesota and a Master’s Degree from Harvard in Middle Eastern Studies. She lived in Saudi Arabia for several years with her American husband, a fellow student of Arabic. While living in the kingdom, she wrote cultural features for the English language dailies, Arab News and Saudi Gazette. Since returning to the U.S., she has traveled back to Saudi Arabia three times on assignment for AramcoWorld Magazine to write about Saudi culture. Her short fiction has appeared in the Aroostook Review, her features and essays in Chamber Music America, Down East, and Cabin Life, and her poetry in the literary journal Mizna. She also researches and writes about the folk music and folk dances of Saudi Arabia and the Gulf. Kay plays Arabic music and is the co-founder and administrative director of the Arabic Music Retreat. She and her husband live in Maine.
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A Caravan of Brides - Kay Hardy Campbell
A
CARAVAN
OF
BRIDES
A Novel of Saudi Arabia
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Kay Hardy Campbell
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Loon Cove Press
Jefferson, Maine
This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places and incidents are the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously and are not to be construed as real. Any resemblance to actual events, locales, organizations, or persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.
Quotes from the poem by Muhammad al-Fayiz from A Sailor’s Memoirs (Excerpts from the Twentieth Memoir)
used with permission of Naomi Shihab Nye, co-translator and editor of This Same Sky: A Collection of Poems from Around the World, in which it appears.
A CARAVAN OF BRIDES
Copyright © 2017 by Kay Hardy Campbell
All rights reserved. No part of this book may be used or reproduced in any manner whatsoever without written permission except in the case of brief quotations embodied in critical articles and reviews.
For information contact:
Loon Cove Press
P.O. Box 413
Jefferson, Maine 04348
www.looncovepress.com
Cover & Map by Louis Roe
FIRST EDITION
ISBN (paperback): 978-0-9990743-0-5
ISBN (e-book): 978-0-9990743-1-2
Library of Congress Control Number: 2017910351
Table of Contents
Dedication
Author Forward
Family Tree of Fawzia Bughaidan
Family Tree of Salma al-Shamaali
Family Tree of Nurah al-Hamdan
Map
Jeddah 1978
Barefoot Sand Prints
Café de la Mer
Shepherdess
Fully Open
A Mare the Color of River Stones
Palace in Ruwais
Dancing with Danger
Discovered
Gunfire
Veil of Evil
Confessions
Wadi al-Bu’ur 1980
She of the Pickup Truck
Country Girl
Shaikhah’s Daughter
When Sunset Paints the Hills
Shaikhah’s Tears
Zurfah’s Warning
Setting Out
Dipped in Crimson Henna
The Nafud
Runaways
Zaid and His Men
O Small Gazelle
A Caravan of Brides
The Way of Love and Youth
Cut From Fine Cloth
Shame’s Shadow
The Tent of Memory
The Year of Mercy
Nurah’s Choice
The Word of a King
House in the Balad
Grandmother
Jeddah 1980
A Hallway Filled with Books
Café de la Mer
Proposals
Unraveled
On the Roof
The Truth
Zaghareed
The Golden Cup
Jeddah 2019
The Thread
Notes and Acknowledgements
Historical Characters
Abridged Bibliography
About the Author
Dedication
For my parents, Dorothy and Henry Hanson,
who dared me to chase my dreams.
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For my husband, Gary,
with all my love and gratitude.
Author Forward
Pronouncing Arabic words can be a challenge for non-Arabic speakers. Arabic vowel sounds can be written several ways in the Latin alphabet, and the language has some consonants that don’t occur in English. We have simplified spellings with the reader in mind.
If you would like to imagine a more authentic pronunciation, here are some hints for a few major characters: The protagonist, Fawzia, is pronounced fow-ZEE-ah (rhymes with Maria). Her sister, Ibtisam, is ib-tee-SAAM (rhymes with marzipan). Hisham is hee-SHAAM (last syllable rhymes with rattan, and has a similar emphasis), and Fawzia’s brother Tarek is TA-rik (rhymes with market, with emphasis on first syllable).
A more detailed glossary of Arabic terms found in the story, as well as a Book Club Guide and more, can be found on the website: www.kayhardycampbell.com.
Family Tree of Fawzia Bughaidan
Family Tree of Salma al-Shamaali
Tribe of al-Shamaal
Family Tree of Nurah al-Hamdan
of Unaizah
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Map
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Jeddah
1978
I don’t believe in a sun
That illuminates caves
While my home remains steeped
In total darkness.
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- A Sailor’s Memoirs by Muhammad al-Fayiz
Chapter 1
Barefoot Sand Prints
Jeddah
December 1978
ONCE THERE was, and oh how much there was, long ago. That’s how the old women began their stories. "Kaan ya maa kaan, fee qadeem iz-zamaan, they would say, and, when they did, we sat still and listened. In English, they begin with,
Once upon a time," but I like our way better, don’t you? It has this air of mystery, and it rhymes. Sometimes they say only the first part, the rest being implied. Kaan ya maa kaan.
Every life has at least one day in which everything changes. The same sun comes up as it does each morning, but on such a day the path of your life shifts, though you might not realize it then. One winter day long ago, I turned onto a new and dangerous road. And it took just an instant. Kaan ya maa kaan.
Our laughter filled the marble courtyard as we surged into the cloakroom, then draped our abayas over our shoulders, enveloping our long-sleeved blouses and floor-length skirts in black. We chattered like sparrows, winding dark scarves over our hair and under our chins. As we ran our fingers along the edges of our scarves, searching for stray tresses, our conversations faded to silence.
Wrapped in decorum with our smiles locked away, we hurried through the campus gate into the dusty parking lot, where our brothers, fathers, and drivers, dressed in long white thobes, waited to drive us home. To pass the time, they smoked. A few might get into an argument over rival soccer teams. And there always seemed to be someone leaning on a car, reading the paper.
Dismissal at girls’ schools and colleges was a daily ritual, yet it was full of risk. Before long, religious authorities would choreograph the chaotic merging of black with white into an orderly pairing, to prevent what happened to me that day.
Men and women surged past as I walked toward the taxi line. When I reached into my purse for my sunglasses, a man approached. I wasn’t expecting to be met, so I avoided his gaze.
Fawzia,
he said, "Let’s go, the car’s over here."
It was Hisham. He stood before me, the tasseled ends of his red and white ghutra flipped on top of his head. He twirled prayer beads in his right hand and jangled his car keys from his left forefinger. Playing the part of one of my brothers, he frowned, swung his beads one last time, and then winked.
Come on,
he said, marching ahead, expecting me to follow. As I complied, I looked around, relieved none of my students had seen us.
My hands trembled as he opened the car door. He started the engine, straightened his arms against the steering wheel, and leaned back. Closing his eyes, he took a deep breath, then gazed at me. Finally, Fawzia, finally.
His face lit up when he saw my cautious smile.
The car darted out of the parking lot onto Mecca Road. He turned on the cassette player, and the strains of a Lebanese tune filled the air. The accordion and the singer’s rich baritone unlocked my memories. I closed my eyes. For a moment, we were with our friends again, our fingers woven and our hands locked tight, dancing a dizzying dabke, snaking in a circle, stomping our feet and laughing.
Been here the last three days,
he said, over the music. Was about to give up, and I’m back to al-Khobar tomorrow.
Disappointment erased my joy, for his hometown was on the other side of the country, on the shores of the Gulf, hundreds of miles and a plane ride away.
When he reached for my hand, I watched our fingers entwine, still not sure our meeting was real. When the song ended, we tried to converse as we always had in college. But we were far from the American University of Beirut, and the six months since our graduation seemed like years. In Jeddah, we were taking great risks just to have this simple conversation. Riding together in the car like this, we were committing khalwa, the crime of an unrelated man and woman being alone together in a private place.
He drove north, leaving the city behind. On our right, the flat Tihama plain stretched toward the dark-cloaked peaks of the Hijaz Mountains. They spun in slow motion as we gained speed. Turning left toward the sea, we passed stretches of whitewashed walls that hid modest cottages and seaside villas.
When we reached the open beach, no one else was in sight. Holding up the hem of my skirt, I tiptoed barefoot in the warm water. Hisham walked beside me on the sand just beyond water’s edge, still in his shoes and socks. To the west, the sun dipped into a thickening veil of dust – across the Red Sea to all of Africa. It ripened the sky, the sea, and the sand to apricot.
Waves crashed against the coral reef offshore, and the relentless wind thundered in our ears. How different this was from our strolls on Beirut’s Corniche, where music mingled with the laughter of people playing water sports. I let my headscarf fall to my shoulders, setting my long unruly locks free. When a warm gust filled my abaya, I wished the wind would carry it high into the sky.
Though we both had so much to say, Hisham waited for me to speak. Once I began, my words tumbled out. Sometimes I feel like I can’t breathe.
He nodded. "We really lived in Beirut. Now it’s just going through the motions, counting the days before the next boring weekend, until they marry us off."
I turned toward the sea and watched the waves. At least I’m second in line,
I said. Now my sister’s the one in play, poor thing. You?
Mother’s always mentioning girls, but not seriously, thank God. We’re working nonstop at the firm. There’s no time to plan a wedding, so at least for now, I’m safe.
He fell silent, waiting for a gust of wind to pass. Besides, there’s only one marriage I want.
I turned to gaze into his half-hooded eyes. You know it was for the best.
You’re wrong.
He took my hands in his. Nothing matters but you and being with you.
The wind blew sand around our feet.
Back in the car, he kissed me on the forehead. I hold you in my eye and my heart. You are my queen, my angel.
Then our lips met. It can never be Beirut again, but let’s try. I’ll be careful. Please, my sweet.
I nodded, smiling. He kissed my teary eyes.
Sitting back, he handed me his business card. Call me at my office. It’s a direct line. No one picks up but me.
It seemed hopeless. All we had was the possibility of an occasional few hours together. Where would it lead?
On our way back, we drove along a nondescript stretch of walled-in beach properties. We came to an old metal gate, painted a faded turquoise. It stood slightly open, and the place seemed deserted, so we stopped the car, got out, and stepped inside. When I was a child, my parents had rented a cottage there. It stood in a cluster with a dozen just like it along a sloping, walled-in beach. On the weekends, we’d socialize there with other families, ignoring the rules about men and women mixing. There were Egyptians, Lebanese, Americans, Europeans, and a few Saudi families. It was a paradise.
As we strolled among the deserted cottages, I remembered the warm seawater streaming through my hair as I spent hours snorkeling, exploring tiny coral reefs. We’d rest during the heat of the day, feasting on freshly caught grouper in our t-shirts and shorts, the sand stuck between our toes, salt caked in our hair. After dark, we’d listen to eight-track tapes from Egypt, Lebanon, and Europe. Later, we’d tune into Radio Monte Carlo to hear the latest hits. Whatever that deejay played, we’d dance to it. Oh how we danced, from toddlers to grandmothers, all of us on our feet, sand flying everywhere. We tied our headscarves around our hips. We’d fling our long hair in arcs like the girls in the desert tribes. We’d dabke, then disco, then switch to Egyptian. All week, I’d practice alone in my room for the next Friday.
We gave up that cottage years ago. My brothers complained it was too hot, and besides, they could swim anywhere they wanted. When we visited the fancy new seaside villas of our family friends, we women had to sit still in our long dresses while the men swam. It wasn’t proper for Saudi women to swim in mixed company, unless we wanted to wear our abayas into the water. Would I ever be allowed to swim in my beloved Red Sea again, the warm water caressing my bare arms and legs?
Hisham tried to cheer me up, holding my hand and singing along to the music as we reached the city in the deepening dusk. He dropped me at our neighborhood pharmacy and watched me wave down a taxi. I turned to him as the cab pulled away.
Safe behind my bedroom door, I pulled a cone-shaped shell from my purse. It held the colors of the sunset, the sand, and the sea’s relentless wind. I set it on my desk and gazed at it, my heart still pounding. Would anyone notice I’d tracked sand into the house?
Chapter 2
Café de la Mer
Jeddah
January 1979
I FOLDED Hisham’s business card into a small square and hid it in a corner of my wallet, waiting for the chance to call him. Nearly a week passed before my parents went out visiting friends in the evening. My brothers were out, too, and Ibtisam was immersed in her studies with her door closed. I dialed the number and listened to the phone ring over and over. He wasn’t there, and he had no answering machine. In those days, not many people had them. It would be decades before we would have e-mail and mobiles. I redialed, letting the phone ring a long time. I tried again and again, growing more confident with each attempt. Calling a young man was a daring act, and each time I flexed this new muscle, it felt good.
Having no luck at night, I phoned him one morning, and he answered.
Good morning,
I said, just above a whisper.
"Good morning Fawwaz! What’s new?" He spoke so loudly I had to hold the receiver away from my ear. There must have been someone in the room with him, since he used the male form of my name, which means victorious.
Nothing much. I’ve tried calling at night, but you’re never there.
"That’s right, mazbu-tation. You see, unlike you Hijazis who are still living in the nineteenth century, we modern people in the Eastern Province work straight from 9 to 5.We don’t take a siesta like you lazy slobs, and we don’t work nights unless we’re really backed up."
I giggled. This was the way my brothers and their friends teased each other. I see. Well, any chance you’ll be coming to see us lazy Hijazis any time soon?
Fawwaz, you’re pretty sharp for a guy who takes a nap every day. In fact, I’m due out there next week. Got a job up in Taif. Want to get together? I can meet you at the Sheraton.
I have classes Tuesday and Wednesday. I’ll be leaving school at the usual time.
After I hung up, I snuffed out my grin, remembering I was at home, sneaking a call to my boyfriend.
I picked up a framed photograph from my bedside table. On our last day of classes at AUB, we’d posed for a group shot outside College Hall. We hung off each other’s shoulders, our arms entwined. We girls wore embroidered peasant blouses and jeans. We’d pushed our sunglasses up into our layered ebony manes and squinted into the sunshine. Hisham stood smiling behind me in the second row on the end. That was the way he always looked at me. His smile was so big it almost closed his eyes, as if his whole being glowed with happiness. This was the only photo of him I could display safely, since it was part of a big group shot.
I scanned the group, but always returned to Hisham. He stood a little taller than me, about six feet. He stayed on the thin side, since he skipped meals while working on architecture projects. When he wasn’t smiling so hard, his dark eyes sat wide apart, rimmed by thick eyelashes.
AUB’s campus in the Ras Beirut neighborhood was relatively safe during the Lebanese civil war that tore the country apart in the late 1970s. Of course we had no idea the war would drag on until 1990. The university stayed open during my years there, and the school provided an excellent education even in tough times. Still, it broke our hearts to see the city around us slip into chaos, one bomb at a time, as various political factions fought each other, especially since things were so good back home in Saudi. In the late 1970s, oil wealth was streaming into our country and to our Gulf neighbors. We Saudis were heady with money and optimism, while Beirutis were spiraling into poverty and hopelessness. Young Saudi men with no experience were put in charge of multi-million-dollar projects. Meanwhile, sophisticated Lebanese professionals resorted to selling goods in makeshift, open markets. They spent hours finding enough fresh water so their families could bathe once a week. Others left their families behind and found work in our country.
One night, a Bahraini student invited Hisham to join a group of us dancing dabke in a common room after dinner. Even with the war going on, we still loved to dance. It was cathartic. We took a break to cool off, and I noticed him sitting on a pillow across from me. I admired his straight, chiseled nose.
Someone told a joke, and it felt wonderful to laugh. Hisham put his head back and let out a boisterous hoo hoo hoo, as if he hadn’t laughed in months, a smile bursting across his face. Then he drew in his breath, groaned in pleasure, and started hoo hooing again. I elbowed my friend Samirah sitting next to me, and we started giggling. Soon the room shook with waves of laughter. When we started dancing again, I admired the subtle way Hisham enjoyed every step, stomp and kick. As we danced into ecstatic frenzy, he closed his eyes and that wide grin bloomed on his face.
Hisham began to join us at Café de la Mer near campus. No matter how much they bombed, who was fighting whom in surrounding neighborhoods, this café kept serving coffee day and night.
One afternoon, when I was there alone, someone nudged the back of my chair. It was Hisham, his arms loaded with books. Our coffee turned into a stroll around campus, then a long chat on a bench overlooking the Mediterranean.
That’s how it started: by most standards in the world, except those of conservative Arab families, an innocent college romance. Sometimes we walked to Rawshe, twenty minutes south along the beach, and wandered through the shantytown where merchants had set up shop, since their real storefronts were in the battle zone. Then we’d sit by the sea and talk. I’d sketch or set up my easel to paint, and he’d do homework. I had taken an art class as an elective, and was surprised to discover I had some talent, and that I loved drawing and painting.
Hisham let his hair grow just long enough to let him tuck his glistening curls behind his ears. I loved to watch him read a book, his head bent over, his locks falling on his face. Then he’d run his fingers through his hair and push it back behind his ears. I made many drawings of him like this, but I could never quite capture the magic of his curls framing his face.
The back of his neck smelled like the fresh sea air that enveloped us on campus. His voice soothed my soul, but not when he was tired. Then it sounded like pieces of sandpaper rubbing together. If the weather was nice, we’d pretend to study out on the lawn, lying on a big blanket. Before long, he’d be snoring with a book on his face, one hand resting, palm down, on his stomach, his bare feet relaxed and turned out. Most of all, though, I loved it when we danced.
He threw himself into his school projects and drove himself to exhaustion, but he didn’t mind the hard work. Nothing was too complicated for him, for he loved challenges. Yet he was sensitive enough to know when I was upset, sometimes even before I did. He’d take the time to listen as I told him my troubles, his arm around me, inviting me to lean into his shoulder. With patience and a few words of encouragement, he’d coax the sadness out of me and make me laugh at my troubles. Just taking a walk with him would clear my head.
An ambitious young architect-to-be from a successful merchant family, Hisham should have been a perfect match for me. But we could never marry. His family was from far outside our social circles, from the Eastern Province. More importantly, his family were Shia Muslims. Like most wealthy families in Jeddah, we are Sunni. While both our families were Muslim, the schism between Sunni and Shia was a sore point in Saudi society. Most Saudis are Sunni, while a small percentage, almost all living in the Eastern Province near the Arabian Gulf, are Shia. Since the death of Prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him), in 632 CE, Muslims have differed over who should govern the community. The official view of Saudi clerics was that the Shia approach is wrong, and some even labeled it heretical. As a result, Saudi Shi`a felt marginalized at best, and some believed they were systematically disadvantaged and oppressed. Very few became successful businessmen in the oil economy. Hisham’s family was the exception, but there was no getting around it, they were still Shia.
Though my parents and ancestors were liberal and open-minded about many things, the social differences between our family and his seemed insurmountable, and from the moment he told me his family was Shia, I realized our romance was doomed. Marriages between Sunni and Shi`a Saudis were taboo: very rare and kept quiet. They usually ended in divorce.
Afraid of my family finding out that I was dating anyone at all, and knowing a Shia groom was impossible, I broke off with Hisham just before graduation. I did it one afternoon at the café, with a cold resolve. I hoped we’d get over each other when we returned home. But the sadness in Hisham’s eyes stayed with me for months afterwards. He kept saying, I love you and you love me. This is the only thing that matters. The rest is nothing.
I don’t know how I found the willpower to leave him sitting alone in the café. I was certain it could never be, that it was impossible.
Samirah tried to console me on our last night on campus as I hugged a pillow in my dorm room, my tears flowing. I had just thrown out all the drawings and paintings I’d made of him, so no one in my family would find out.
Even if you never see him again, you’re lucky,
she said. "Your heart opened like a flower in the sun, and you’ve felt the touch of a man who loves you. Nothing can take that away. I admire you so much, you followed your heart."
Back home after graduation, my older sister Ibtisam noticed I was changed and asked if anything was wrong. I told her I’d had a secret crush on a boy at school, but that nothing happened between us. She admonished me to forget him.
Even though I’d broken up with him, I fantasized about Hisham all the time. When we waited in an airport departure lounge, or browsed through my favorite perfumery, Gazaaz, I’d look around, hoping his work would bring him to Jeddah and that he’d put himself in my way. And now he had, and we were dancing a new dance together, with danger.
One day after classes, I arranged for our driver Hamdi to take me downtown. I clipped my hair up into a loose bun, threw on my headscarf, and fastened it with a yellow flowered safety pin. As I wrapped my abaya over my jeans and t-shirt, I checked myself in the mirror and whispered thanks to my forefathers. My great-grandfather, an educated man who had traveled to Damascus and Jerusalem, had decided the women of our family could appear in public with our faces uncovered. I still think of him with pride. The legend went that he simply stated that nowhere in the Qur’an does it say that women have to cover their faces, so none of us should have to. We’ve never veiled our faces since.
Hamdi held the car’s back door open for me, running the Buick’s air-conditioning full blast. He was wiping sweat from his brow as he closed the car door behind me, trying not to slam it. Hamdi, an Egyptian, had been our family driver since we were children. He was like our uncle, and we trusted him with our lives.
He inched the car over the speed bumps on our quiet street. Our neighborhood of small residential blocks had been laid out in the 1960s, and high walls and metal gates shielded luxurious villas with private gardens and swimming pools. Bougainvillea bushes poured over the walls in brilliant pinks and purples. Some trees were tall enough to cast shade on the street, hinting at the beauty and coolness within.
Once we turned onto Medina Road, Hamdi darted in and out of traffic, and we had to slow down to overtake a wooden donkey cart carrying a large chunk of ice. A few decades ago, before anyone had electricity, such carts had carried sweet water and ice to Jeddah’s homes. I wondered where they were bringing the ice, which house still didn’t have a refrigerator.
Just as we began to speed up, another obstacle loomed ahead. Two late-model Caprices with price stickers still glued to the windows had pulled over at an angle on the left, blocking traffic. Two Saudis in their twenties stood near their cars, shaking hands. Then they hugged and slapped each other on the back, oblivious to the traffic jam they’d caused.
Hamdi rolled down his window and stuck out his arm, For the love of God, move it!
But they were too far away to hear. With his arm still extended, Hamdi clicked his tongue and shrugged while looking at me in the rear-view mirror. Then he tilted the mirror so he could see himself and smoothed back his full head of salt-and-pepper hair. He’d tried a new kind of hair gel. Was he going for the movie star look?
The air-conditioning was struggling to keep up with the heat as we crept past an old red Datsun covered with tiny dents. It was filled with African office workers smoking cigarettes. I imagined they were talking about sending money back home. Then we passed a Buick with a bald Western businessman in the back seat, reading the English language daily, Arab News. Maybe he had plans for a joint venture, or a bid for a multi-million dollar contract in his briefcase. An Indian houseboy riding an old bicycle jumped the curb to our left and rode down the sidewalk, passing us all. He was likely dreaming of his family, far away. A Rolls Royce idled behind us, no doubt carrying someone who had already made his or her millions.
That was Jeddah in the late 1970’s. My city had become a magnet for people with dreams of wealth. Money from oil production was funding massive state development and construction projects – roads, airports, bridges, government buildings, banks, and housing. We’d count the construction cranes that loomed over the sprawling city, giving up once we reached 25.
Few Saudi men had the skills needed for all this building, which resulted in a severe labor shortage. Thousands of foreign workers poured into Jeddah, from laborers to executives. Our once sleepy Jeddah had become a boomtown, attracting people from many nations and races. Each was a kind of adventurer, having traveled thousands of miles to take part in the Saudi oil rush. And every time I’d return home from college, the traffic would’ve grown worse. Stores and restaurants sprouted up everywhere to serve the needs of this new international population.
Hey, what’s your problem! Come on!
a taxi driver yelled. The other drivers started to push down on their horns. Without acknowledging the uproar, the young men kissed each other on the cheeks and drove off, squealing their tires.
As we regained speed, Hamdi pushed an eight-track tape into the stereo – it was a song by Egypt’s beloved Abdul Halim Hafez about a fortune-teller who reads a young man’s fate in the grounds of a coffee cup. A twangy electric guitar and keyboard jarred against the huge Egyptian orchestra. O my son,
he sang, Whoever sacrifices himself for love is a martyr. Your life will be filled with love, but you will drown in its sea with no rescue.
Abdul Halim had died the year before, and the whole Arab world was still mourning. Hamdi sang along, tapping his finger on the steering wheel. He was still singing as we pulled up outside the Queen’s Building. I told him I’d take a taxi home. He nodded, turned up the volume, and drove off.
I’ve been drawn to the mysteries of Jeddah’s dusty alleys since I was a girl. Walking there always did me good, and I needed to clear my head and sort out my thoughts about Hisham. First I strolled through the old gold souq behind the Queen’s Building, where I loved getting swept up in the crowd. Pakistanis, Indians, and all manner of Asians and Africans, thronged the market. Colorful saris swirled, and towering African head wraps swayed. I followed families, listening to them as they browsed for gold bangles. If they spoke an unfamiliar language, like Urdu or Amharic, I watched their faces and studied how they moved and what they wore.
Pretending to wait for someone, I stood outside the shops, feeling the energy of people surging by. Yemeni boys wove through the crowds carrying boxes of Chinese alarm clocks on their heads. Sudanese office workers strolled hand in hand; discussing which radio they wanted to buy. A group