Even If It Kills Her: A Bailey Weggins Mystery
By Kate White
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In this exhilarating new thriller from New York Times bestselling author Kate White, one young woman searches for clues to the murder of her family, only to discover a shocking secret about herself that holds the key to everything.
Jillian Lowe seemed to have it all. Both beautiful and accomplished, she lit up any room that she walked into. All of that dramatically changed when her parents and two siblings were brutally murdered at her childhood home her second year in college. The crime shattered what was once a picture-perfect family and nearly derailed Jillian’s hopes for her future.
Now, sixteen years later, Jillian is shocked to learn that the man imprisoned for murdering her family didn't do it. With the real killer walking free and the cops dragging their heels, Jillian once again feels her life unraveling, and desperately seeks help from an old friend from college, true crime writer Bailey Weggins.
As the two women return to Jillian’s childhood town to investigate, it doesn’t take long for their sleuthing to cause shock waves. Someone starts watching their every move. As they uncover deeply-guarded secrets, so shocking that they make Jillian rethink her entire relationship to her family, Bailey and Jillian find themselves in fear of their own lives. The truth has consequences and they must decide if they’re ready to face them.
Kate White
Kate White, former editor-in-chief of Cosmopolitan, is the New York Times bestselling author of Between Two Strangers and eight other standalone psychological thrillers, as well as eight Bailey Weggins mysteries, including Such a Perfect Wife, which was nominated for an International Thriller Writers Award.
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Even If It Kills Her - Kate White
Chapter 1
I don’t have a ton of regrets to show for my thirty-six years on the planet, but the ones that I do have seem to possess a determined and sneaky resilience. Every once in a while, say, when I’m working on a crime story that’s particularly soul-sucking, and I’ve been on the road far longer than planned—holed up in Beyoncé-style luxury at a Best Western or DoubleTree Suites—one of them will resurface, like a lake snake coming up for air, raising its snout above the waterline and forcing me to stare it in the face.
I regret not knowing my father well, though there was nothing I could have done about that one. He died of a brain aneurysm while on a fishing trip with a friend when I was twelve.
I regret (grievously) the eighteen-month hand grenade of a marriage I embarked on in my twenties, though I’m not sure I could have done much differently with that one, either. Compulsive gamblers, I came to discover, don’t fess up to their addiction when they begin to woo you, nor to the sordid fact that they’ll soon be dipping into their work T&E (and your jewelry box) in a desperate attempt to cover their losses.
And I regret that I spent over a year of my career reporting on celebrity crimes and misdemeanors (which generally involved the hurling of a cell phone at someone’s head) for one of those tabloid magazines that used to be like crack for women under fifty but are now so desperate for newsstand sales that they run fake headlines like Kate Pregnant with Triplets—Palace Confirms.
My only defense about that one is that I needed the work.
There’s one regret, however, that I never had a good excuse for. When Jillian Lowe, a girl I’d become friends with sophomore year at Brown, was roused by a phone call one Friday morning during the second week of April and was informed that her parents and two younger siblings had been murdered, I did nothing to comfort her. Oh wait, excuse me. I did send a sympathy card, and I also chipped in on a floral arrangement for the private funeral service, one of those standing sprays that make it look like the coffin’s just won the Kentucky Derby. But that was it. And my failure as a friend ate away at me for years.
So needless to say, I was floored when Jillian showed up looking for me one Tuesday night in July, nearly sixteen years later.
I’d just conducted the final interview in a sold-out, four-part series called Inside the Criminal Mind
at the 92nd Street Y in Manhattan. The Y’s programmer had approached me a few months before, suggesting that with my crime-writing background, I was the perfect interviewer to pair with the ex-cons they’d wrangled for the program, including an infamous inside trader who’d served seven years in prison. I jumped at the chance. This would be a way to keep momentum going on my true-crime book, which was published in February.
As hoped, the series garnered a ton of buzz, and I’d sold a boatload of books. However, enabling those felons to elaborate on their crimes and fluff their feathers in public had left me feeling sullied. I couldn’t wait to be done with the whole thing, and when the audience Q and A portion of the final evening was over, I bolted from the stage so fast that the female con artist I’d been interviewing had probably checked her wallet. I still had to sign books in the vestibule, but that would take only twenty minutes or so.
Jillian, it turned out, was waiting for me, off to the side of the book table. I couldn’t see her face from my place at the table, but I remember being aware of someone’s presence as I scrolled my signature. At signings there are always a few hoverers, people unwilling to cough up eighteen bucks for your book and yet eager to request the name of your agent or suggest that you might enjoy critiquing their six-hundred-page unpublished manuscript free of charge because it would mean a lot to me.
I signed the last book, thanked the rep from the Y for her assistance, and jumped up to leave. Before I’d taken a step, I could sense the person over my shoulder closing in. I turned, prepared to announce that I unfortunately had to dash.
Hello, Bailey,
she said.
It took a few beats for me to realize who she was. Once I did, my mouth dropped open, as I felt a rush of both shock and delight. Neither time nor tragedy had dimmed her prettiness, I noticed, but her long blond hair was now brunette and cut to her chin, and though her skin still had that same lovely glow, there were small crow’s-feet around her eyes, the kind that sprout from too much sun. Something else seemed different, too, though I couldn’t put my finger on it.
Oh, my gosh, Jillian, it’s you,
I said, finally wiping the blank look off my face.
It’s really nice to see you, Bailey.
Your hair—it’s different. I almost didn’t recognize you.
At first she didn’t seem to grasp what I meant.
Oh, right,
she said, lightly touching a lock by her temple. I stopped coloring it a long time ago. And yours is short now, I see.
Yeah, I chopped it off when I hit thirty, let it grow back, then cut it again just recently. I never had great hair, did I?
At least you’re a natural blonde.
Well, blondish brown.
I smiled and she smiled back. But the pleasure I’d experienced at the first sight of her was quickly shape-shifting into awkwardness. I could sense guilt creeping around the edges of my mind, trying to assert itself. You were a lousy friend to her, Bailey. She suffered the most horrible loss and you did close to nothing for her.
Jillian, however, seemed genuinely pleased to see me. Nothing about her attitude hinted at lingering disappointment that spanned over a decade and a half. I couldn’t believe I was actually setting eyes on her. Where had she been all this time? Had she been all right?
Were you here tonight, at the event?
I asked.
Yes, I mean, kind of hanging in the back. I’ve wanted to get in touch with you, but I didn’t know any other way. I was afraid if I used the contact email on your website, the message would end up in some kind of black hole.
What are you doing in the city?
Living here—temporarily. A sublet in Williamsburg.
I had no idea what she did professionally, or even if she worked. What I could surmise just from looking at her was that her clothes—cropped black pants, chunky heeled sandals, and a flowy gold-and-black top that accented her nice curves—were classy and hip and that she probably wasn’t married, since there was no wedding band on the appropriate finger.
It’d be great to get together while you’re here,
I told her, though the idea, even while she stood right in front of me, was difficult to imagine after so many years. Would you have time?
Yes. I was actually thinking we could catch up tonight.
She said it with what seemed like an odd casualness and disregard, as if she wouldn’t have expected me to have either plans for the evening or a desire to head home. But I sensed an urgency underneath. Despite the fact that I’d promised my live-in boyfriend, Beau, that I’d decompress with him tonight on the roof-deck of our apartment building, there was no way I could turn Jillian down. I wanted to know what she’d been doing and how she’d fared in life. Besides, my guilt wasn’t going to take anything but a yes for an answer.
Of course. Were you thinking of coffee, wine . . . ?
Either’s fine.
Um, okay. There’s a café I noticed a block up on Lexington. They seem to do both, so why don’t we try that?
It took only five minutes to reach the café, and we didn’t say much on the way, just an inconsequential comment or two about how nice the summer weather had been. At about five foot three, she was roughly three inches shorter than me, I realized, a fact I hadn’t recalled. Her presence had always read so large to me.
We settled at a table at the back, and each of us ordered a glass of red wine. She then excused herself, saying she needed to use the restroom.
While she was gone, I texted Beau, telling him that we’d have to bag the roof-deck tonight because I’d run into a long-lost friend and would explain more about it later.
Long-lost friend. Did I have the right to call her that?
She certainly hadn’t strayed far from my memory, nor had the grizzly crime at the center of her life. Even after all these years, the details of the murders were still vivid in my mind, as I’m sure they were for people who lived in or near Dory, Massachusetts, one of a series of towns and villages in the Berkshire Mountain region. Jillian’s parents; her younger brother, Danny; and sister, Julia, a Barnard College freshman at home recuperating from mono, had been stabbed to death late one night by a teenage boy from their neighborhood, who apparently had developed an obsession with Julia.
At the time of the killings, I’d agonized over what Jillian must have been going through. Though we’d known each other for only five or six months, we’d grown close. In addition to living a few doors down from each other in the dorm, we were both in the same late-afternoon sociology class and had settled into a routine of splitting a pizza afterward while trying to decode the ramblings of our professor. I could still recall Jillian wagging a pizza slice one night and exclaiming, That man is going to drive me into the arms of animal research.
She had a magnetic confidence, as well as a wry sense of humor and a contagious, carefree laugh. It was my first realization that science majors could possess a wicked sense of humor.
I didn’t see her before she took off for Dory that morning, and though I had every intention of calling her, I nervously kept putting off the task. I mean, what in the world would I say?
I suppose I could blame it on being twenty and having less-than-perfect social skills, yet I think it had more to do with having lost my father as young as I did. His death for me had been like falling overboard in the middle of the sea and watching the ship pull farther and farther away as I bobbed helplessly in the waves. For a long time the mere topic of death left me tongue-tied, and I was totally lame at comforting the bereaved. Though that’s hardly justification.
Several days passed, and it grew harder and harder to phone Jillian. I promised myself I would make it up to her when she returned to campus.
But she never came back. She dropped out of college, and the next I heard, she was living on the West Coast. By then I was too ashamed to reach out.
Five minutes later, Jillian settled back at the table. I realized I wasn’t yet used to her no longer being a blonde. She took a quick sip of wine and smiled, with warmth that I could also see in her deep blue eyes. There was still no sign that she was holding my past failing against me.
Just so you know,
she said, I didn’t buy your book tonight because I already own it. I thought it was terrific, Bailey.
That’s really nice of you to say.
The book, A Model Murder, explored the homicide of supermodel Devon Barr at a country house where I’d also been a guest at the time of her death. I was touched by the fact that Jillian had read it, that she wanted to connect with me again.
Of course, at school, people were sure you’d be a writer one day, but I guess we just didn’t know it would be about crime. How did you end up going in that direction?
I weighed my words before I spoke. Though her question didn’t seem loaded, we were on weird terrain, considering the tragedy in her life.
My standard reply is that when someone in ninth grade started leaving anonymous nasty notes for me, I played detective and figured out who it was, and that gave me a love for that sort of thing. But that’s only part of it. Right after Brown I got a job at a newspaper in Albany, and they put me on the police beat. One thing kind of led to another.
And now you’re focusing on books?
Right. I used to write mostly for magazines, I even had part-time gigs at a few, but print opportunities are drying up, thanks to the Internet.
And you’re married, right? I remember hearing once that you were.
"Well, briefly, but it didn’t work out, to say the least. I’m living with someone now, though. A nice guy. His name's Beau Regan. But enough about me. I want to hear about you."
She cocked her head and glanced off for a moment, the expression in her eyes momentarily wistful. I found myself holding my breath. I’d googled her name from time to time over the years, but once the neighborhood kid was tried and sentenced, nothing ever surfaced, and I didn’t have a clue what had unfolded for her. I just prayed that she’d found a certain peace.
I’ve bounced around a bit,
she said, returning her gaze to mine. But not necessarily in a bad way. After—after everything, I went to live with family friends of ours, the Healys, who’d moved from Dory to Seattle several years before. I just needed to hide away for a while, and they took me in. Me and the cat.
There were no relatives in the east you could have turned to?
She shook her head. My mother and father were both only children, and my grandparents on both sides were deceased. But the Healys—the parents and kids—were great. They did their absolute best to make me feel at home.
It must have been so hard.
I was a basket case for a while, longer than I wish, but I eventually found a great therapist. And I went back to school, to the University of Washington.
Something had started pawing at my brain as she spoke, but I wasn’t sure what it was. Maybe I was simply feeling unsettled from thinking about her loss.
Studying biology still? I remember you were wild about birds.
Hmm, hm. There was a brief period when I thought of becoming a lawyer and helping other crime victims, but I realized that law school would bore me to tears. I got a degree in biology, a master’s, too, and worked after that with a professor in Patagonia, studying Magellanic penguins.
"Penguins? How fantastic. They’re birds, of course, right?"
Yup.
How long were you in Patagonia?
On and off for a few years. That’s when I stopped being blond.
She smiled. They don’t exactly have hair colorists in Punta Tombo.
I grinned back. And after that? Did you return to the States?
Only briefly. Then I headed to Australia for fieldwork, studying what they call ‘little penguins,’ and I taught as well. It was different there from Argentina but incredible, too.
All that sun and wind explained the crow’s-feet. But more important, it sounded as if things had been okay, that she hadn’t allowed the murders to unspool her life. Though had all that globe-trotting actually been a form of being on the run?
And now?
I’m considering doing a PhD program—I’ve been accepted into one—but for the time being, I’m taking a bit of a sabbatical. My parents had always wanted us to be self-starters, and they designed their will so that if they died young, we wouldn’t inherit most of the money until we were each thirty-five, which means I recently came into a decent chunk. I thought I’d take a break. Travel, take care of some things. With New York City as home base.
Do you ever go back? I mean, to Dory?
Not since the sentencing. It was just too hard.
I, on the other hand, had been to Dory a couple of times since then, while visiting a first cousin of my father’s who lived in a nearby town, and on each trip, I had driven by Jillian’s old house. I wasn’t going to admit that, though. It would sound really creepy.
It’s just so good to see you, Jillian,
I said instead. And I hope you’ll accept my apology.
What do you mean?
I never reached out; I was never there for you.
She shrugged, as if I was apologizing for picking up the wrong sandwich for her on a deli run.
It’s not easy to know what to say or do in situations like that.
"I know, but I should have done something, tried to come see you."
"I probably would have discouraged it anyway. It was hard for me in the beginning to even accept sympathy, except from the Healys and a few friends I’d known for ages. There were people in town—like my father’s business associates—who were upset because I didn’t want to have this huge funeral service with open caskets so that everyone had a chance to pay their respects. But I couldn’t bear the thought. The only way I could cope was to keep things small and private."
At that moment I finally recognized what was different about her appearance. There was a tautness to the muscles of her face that had never been there before, as if she was working hard underneath the bonhomie to stay in control, swaddling or even strapping down emotions and instincts to keep them from playing havoc with her demeanor.
I’d love to spend more time together while you’re here,
I said. Would you like to come over for dinner one night? If you’re seeing someone, you can bring him, too.
Oh that’s nice. And yes, maybe sometime. But there’s something I want more than that.
Of course.
I couldn’t imagine what it could be. Maybe she was eager to write about her work with penguins and needed advice on how to start. People often picked my brain about becoming an author. Tell me what I can do.
I want you to find the person who murdered my family.
Chapter 2
Hearing her say that—the person who murdered my family—chilled my blood. It took a moment, though, for me to compute the words and latch on to the discrepancy. She wanted me to find the killer, and yet the killer was currently serving consecutive life sentences. He confessed to the murders eight days afterward.
Wait,
I said. Are you saying that you don’t believe Dylan Fender did it?
She slipped her top lip under her teeth and bit down on it. I saw the muscles in her face tense even more.
I’m pretty sure he didn’t. There’s new DNA evidence. It strongly suggests that he was wrongly convicted.
For a moment, I was speechless. Omigod,
I said finally. So the confession was coerced?
It seems so. As the defense said during the trial, he’d been awake for most of the night, and he didn’t have a lawyer with him. Couple that with the fact that he had learning disabilities.
Has he been released yet?
She bit down again, this time so hard I thought she might draw blood. No. No, he died in prison five months ago.
Instinctively my eyes pricked with tears as the full force of the revelation hit me. An innocent eighteen-year-old boy had spent more than a decade and a half in prison and died there. The real murderer was still at large. And Jillian, who had tried so hard and for so long to build a new life for herself, was now smack back in the middle of the nightmare again.
How did this come to light? Did you have something to do with it?
No, one of those innocence groups uncovered it. After years of trying, Dylan’s mother convinced them to take a look at the case. Eventually they petitioned a judge to allow for a broader test on the blood samples, and they found that some of the blood smeared on the wall in the hall didn’t belong to either Dylan or anyone in my family. The killer must have cut himself that night and left his blood there.
So why was Dylan still in prison?
Another petition was entered, this one for a new trial, but the DA was dragging his feet. In February, Dylan contracted an infection, which turned into sepsis and spiraled out of control. I’m sure the health care in prison is terrible.
She ran a pointer finger around the wet rim of her wineglass, pressing so hard the glass began to sing. The only consolation is that he died knowing there was a decent chance he was going to be exonerated.
For a few years, I’d kept Dylan Fender’s name on my Google Alerts list, but after his appeals ran out, I’d deleted it, not wanting to be reminded of him anymore. But his face, from a class picture that had accompanied every media story about the case, was still fresh in my mind. There’d been something goofily endearing about him in that photo, so unlike the typical sullen-looking faces of teen boys who go on killing sprees. I’d cautioned myself not to be fooled.
Oh, Jillian,
I said, touching her arm, this must be horrible for you.
His whole life was ruined. And he died without ever being free again.
That wasn’t your fault.
But I should have known better.
Anguish bled into her voice. He was a sweet, harmless-seeming kid, just a little quirky. It never really made sense that he could have done it.
You can’t blame yourself. It’s only in the last few years that we’ve come to realize how common false confessions are, especially for people under twenty-five.
Again she let her finger trace the rim. Her hands, I noticed, had aged more than her face had, and were rough and wrinkled, clearly from working outside in the sun, cold, and wind.
I need to make this right,
she said. For Dylan’s sake. And I need to make sure the real killer is caught.
Have the cops reopened the investigation?
She scoffed. I don’t think so. Though the DA agreed to the additional testing, he apparently isn’t convinced Dylan was innocent, and he’s made no move to vacate the conviction. I’ve at least been granted a meeting with him to air my views. It’s set for Friday morning in Massachusetts. Not Dory, thank God. Pittsfield.
My mind was racing, processing everything she’d shared. Now that you believe Dylan wasn’t responsible, any thoughts about who could have done it?
She pulled a breath. Someone who wasn’t a stranger.
Because?
After all this time, some of the details were fuzzy to me.
From what they surmised, my sister was downstairs fairly late that night, still dressed, and she turned off the security alarm at around eleven, obviously to let the person in. She would never have done that for a stranger. That always lent support to the assumption that it was Dylan. His family lived down the street, and Jules would have definitely opened the door for him. She would have thought there was a problem at his house or that he’d locked himself out when his parents weren’t home.
Were there ever any other suspects?
Not that the cops shared with me.
Wasn’t there something about your father’s business partner?
I said, the memory suddenly dislodging. Her father had been a prominent real estate developer.
She shrugged. In the very first days, before they arrested Dylan, my father’s partner, Bruce Kordas, was mentioned in a story or two as a possible person of interest. I mean, a business partner would be a natural suspect. And when the Healys came east, Mr. Healy told the police that he sensed my father hadn’t been very happy with Bruce in recent months. But I don’t know if they ever seriously considered him. They were so laser focused on Dylan from the minute they set eyes on him.
Would your sister have opened the door for Bruce Kordas that late?
Probably. She might have thought there was an emergency on a site.
Gaining control of the company is a pretty strong motive. Do you know if he’s still in the area?
Yes, and he still runs the business, though of course my dad’s share went to the estate.
Her gaze tightened, her eyes imploring.
I need your help, Bailey,
she said. You have to find the person who killed them.
She’d said that a few minutes before, but I saw now that she meant it not in some figurative sense but literally. She wanted me to play investigator and determine who the real murderer was. I felt a swell of sadness. That idea made little sense, and I was going to have to tell her that.
Jillian, I want to be there for you this time, but if you don’t trust the cops to take action, your best bet would be to hire a private investigator, someone with real expertise.
She scoffed again. I looked into a couple of them in the area, but they specialize in stuff like insurance fraud and finding out whether an ex-wife should have her alimony revoked because she’s got a live-in lover on the down low. You’ve actually solved murders, Bailey. You found out how that model died.
Okay, there’ve been times when I’ve been able to get to the bottom of a crime, but I’m not a real investigator. First and foremost, I don’t have any forensics training, and in light of the new evidence in the case, you’d want someone who could interpret that for you.
I wouldn’t expect you to give me a report on blood spatter. What I want is someone with your reporting skills—who can talk to people, dig up stuff that’s been buried or that other people would miss. And once I have that, I can go to the police with the new evidence and press them to do more.
But reporters only have so much access. It’s going to be tough to find anything out, especially sixteen years after the fact.
I hated the way that came out of my mouth. Reducing the slaughter of her entire family to the fact.
"But certainly there’s something that could be dug up after all this time. I just can’t bear the thought of not trying."
She seemed determine to go ahead, and I could hardly blame her. And if the killer really was someone familiar with her family, there might be a few old threads to inspect and ponder over, threads the police had missed in their rush to judgment.
I’ll pay you, of course,
Jillian said before I could answer.
I almost flinched. Don’t be silly.
Trust me,
she said, her tone rueful. "It’s been a long time since I’ve known how to be silly. Of course I’d have to pay you for your time. I’d be paying an investigator if I hired one."
But it’s not about money, Jillian. I’m just afraid that as a civilian I wouldn’t be of much help. And though the police may not want to get off their asses in terms of the case, they’re going to be annoyed if they discover that someone else is tramping on their turf.
Jillian didn’t say anything right away, just recomposed her face, tightening up all those muscles again.
There’s one more thing I could offer,
she added. I know you must be thinking about writing another book, looking for a new topic. I’d give you an exclusive.
Interestingly, she’d intuited the fact that I was eager for a topic. When I’d sold the idea for A Model Murder to my publisher, they’d given me a two-book deal, and so far I’d been hopelessly stumped on an idea for the second one. This case was definitely worth a book, but it could hardly be my motivation for getting involved.
Would you be willing to let me think about it overnight?
I asked. I’d have to go to the Berkshires with you and stay for a bit. Let me take a look at what obligations I have this month, and also consider whether there might be a better strategy for you.
Sure.
She looked dubious.
I’ll help you, Jillian. One way or the other, I promise.
Out on the sidewalk a few minutes later, after she paid the check against my protests, we’d exchanged contact info and she pulled out her phone to request an Uber for the trip back to Brooklyn.
"Jillian, there’s one thing I need to stress, regardless of whether we work together on this. Looking into the case could be dangerous. There’s a good chance the killer isn’t in the area anymore, but he could be. And he could have heard the news about Dylan Fender."
"I understand. I just can’t let it go, Bailey—the fact that he’s still out there, free. I’ll do anything to make sure he’s caught."
It took only a minute for her Uber to arrive.
I’ll call you tomorrow, okay?
I told her.
Thanks, Bailey.
One more question,
I said as she stepped off the curb. Is this whole turn of events the reason you came back to the US?
I was already back when I heard about Dylan. I started to miss the States, and to be honest, I wanted to see if I could finally live a normal life here.
And do you think you can?
Hopefully.
A wry smile formed on her face, a hint of the old Jillian. Though I do feel a little like a penguin out of water these days. The best I can do at times is waddle up the hill or slide along on my belly.
A few seconds later the car shot into the summer night. Her parting words hung in the air, squeezing my heart. Some grief did diminish greatly with time, but not the kind that had been foisted on Jillian.
I opted for a cab home since one came barreling along a second later, and by the time I let myself into the apartment, it was after ten. Beau was already in bed but wide-awake, with his iPad on his lap and his new reading glasses perched just below the bridge of his nose. At thirty-nine, he was on the young side for reading glasses, and they annoyed him to death, but I liked them on him. Though Beau and I had been living together for around two years—my first attempt since my divorce at a major commitment—there had always been a slight air of mystery about him, about those deep brown eyes and hawk nose. It was a mystery that I occasionally found disconcerting.
The reading glasses nicely undermined that. I mean, people in reading glasses always seem refreshingly normal and transparent to me. You know everything there is to know about me, the glasses seem to say. That I like to devour books and peruse menus, and I’m so lacking in vanity, I don’t mind the way these make my hair look like early Dolph Lundgren when I push them on top of my head.
Oh, hey, didn’t hear you come in,
he said, looking up. How’d it go?
Pretty good. Nice crowd.
Did you sell a lot of books?
Not as many as the other nights, but there were quite a few repeats in the audience and they may have already bought one.
Beau shoved the glasses on top of his head, spiking his dark brown hair. It was actually a cute look on him.
And how about the con artist? What was she like?
All con and no artist, as far as I could see. She claims prison made her a new woman, but I don’t buy it.
I kicked my shoes off, plopped down on Beau’s side of the bed, and kissed him on the mouth. Most nights he slept bare-chested, but this evening because of the AC running, he’d pulled on a T-shirt. I couldn’t help but admire the way it stretched over his pecs.
"How did your thing go?" He’d been planning to attend tonight’s event but had been forced to cancel in order to meet with a potential investor for the next documentary he was slated to shoot. I’d felt a prick of disappointment when he broke the news, then quickly let it go.
He might cough up a little dough, though right now he’s being noncommittal. I can’t believe I had to miss your thing just for that.
Don’t worry. You can come to the next one if I can stomach doing it. The Y’s already talking about a second series for next year.
Next year. A funny thing to consider in relation to Beau. The only time we ever discussed the semi-distant future was while making vacation plans. When I’d first set eyes on Beau, I’d been struck by the thunderbolt of a thought that I was going to marry him one day, and yet that concept had grown blurry over time. Not that I didn’t love him. Rather we just tended to ground our lives very much in the present tense.
So who’s the friend you bumped into?
he asked. Anyone I’ve met?
No, actually not.
I told him then about Jillian, not only her tragic history—as well as Dylan Fender’s—but also my failure to be much of a friend in the aftermath. For the time being, I kept quiet about Jillian’s request. I figured it would be best to give Beau a chance to sit with her story for a few minutes first. I knew he was proud of my work, and the success of my book this year, but over the past several months he’d begun to sound skittish about some of the stories I was drawn to. I half expected him to say I shouldn’t take an assignment unless I was willing to wear a Kevlar vest.
That’s heartbreaking stuff,
he said, when I’d finished. And the poor guy. Are the cops trying to find the real murderer?
Jillian’s worried they’re not, that they’re still convinced the right guy was convicted years ago.
God, that’s crappy.
Okay, here was the perfect entrée for me and sooner than I’d anticipated.
I know. . . . She begged me to help her out on this. She wants me to go to Dory, ask questions, try to dig up information about the past, thinking it might point to the killer and she can relay it to the police.