Things We Surrender: A Lowcountry novel
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Family has to take you in, no matter how many mistakes you’ve made.
At least that’s what Joanna Rutledge Reed thought. At eighteen, she left her family’s ancestral home in Charleston, South Carolina, despite promising to stay. For years, she did whatever she wanted, barely giving her family a second thought. But a string of bad decisions results in heartbreak, forcing her to return home, her life in tatters.
While her wayward sister traveled the world, Marcy remained in Charleston, caring for her aging grandmother and managing the family business, and she’s got problems of her own that no one seems to notice or care about. When Joanna arrives unexpectedly, Marcy bristles at the intrusion, suspicious of her sister’s motives.
As Joanna picks up the threads of her old life, she discovers things are not what they appear to be. Painful memories and hidden secrets resurface, leading Joanna to question everything she thought she knew about her family. When her life begins to crash around her again, she needs her sister more than ever.
Set against the rich tapestry of Charleston, South Carolina, three generations of strong Southern women share a history and not-quite-forgotten secrets. Will the bonds they forged years ago be strong enough to give them a second chance at being a family?
305 pages
THINGS WE SURRENDER is the newest novel from the author of the successful Inlet Beach novels, The Inheritance and A Light in the Window.
Heidi Hostetter
Heidi Hostetter grew up in New Jersey and spent summers at her grandparents' house on the shore. Every magical thing was there, from sparklers and fireflies at night to whole days spent swimming in the ocean and exploring tide pools. She and her family have recently moved back to the DC-area and live in a one-hundred-year-old house that's definitely haunted.
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Things We Surrender - Heidi Hostetter
Chapter 1
At twenty-nine years old, Joanna Rutledge Reed staggered under the weight of her life.
If she closed her eyes, tilting her face to meet the bright October sun, she could almost make herself believe that she was happy, that moving to Rome had been a good idea.
Of course, the reality was a bit different.
Perched on the edge of the fountain in the Campo de’ Fiori, Joanna eavesdropped on conversations from the farmers’ market behind her, sifting through Italian phrases for fragments she might recognize. But their words were jumbled and broken, nothing like the calm, steady voice on the discs she’d borrowed from—and hopefully returned to—the public library back in Chicago.
Her life was supposed to be different from this.
Born into one of the oldest families in Charleston, South Carolina, Joanna’s life had been laid out before her, as were her mother’s and grandmother’s. She was expected to marry quickly, a man from an admirable Charleston family. And she did: one month after her college graduation, she stood in the sanctuary of St. Philip’s church promising to love and honor her fiancé, Russell John Reed, a man whose family ancestry dated back almost as far as her own. After the ceremony, three hundred friends and relatives gathered on the grounds of the Charleston Yacht Club, for a lavish reception to wish the couple well. She did as she was told. The rest of her life was supposed to be filled with society parties and fundraisers, cotillion and cocktails.
But somehow, she’d lost her way.
Joanna! Ciao!
Joanna opened her eyes to see her friend, Francesca, effortlessly beautiful in a short black dress and strappy black sandals, gliding across the square like a model on a runway. Of course, the morning shoppers parted for her, as they always did. And, as she always did, Francesca turned neither left nor right as she strode toward Joanna. It was an enviable talent.
She and Francesca met almost three months ago, the day Joanna moved into her new apartment. Joanna had just started unpacking kitchen boxes as her six-year-old daughter, Gracie, napped nearby. The apartment had been much smaller than it seemed from the pictures, and Joanna regretted shipping everything from her apartment in Chicago. She’d relied on a few grainy pictures from the leasing agent, a distant cousin of Nicco’s, who had assured them there would be plenty of room. But as Joanna stood in the middle of her new apartment, she realized she had exactly one cabinet for dishes and one cabinet for everything else. And there were fourteen moving boxes still to unpack.
Joanna remembered the knock on the door, and Francesca’s warm smile as she offered Joanna her first cup of real Italian cappuccino. Francesca had glanced at the chaos in the tiny apartment and dug in right away. They had worked, unpacking and sorting dishes and table linens until Gracie woke. Then Francesca shepherded them both downstairs to her apartment where she made lunch, something delicious and simple, and made the preparation look effortless. Afterward, Francesca took them to the gelateria on the corner, then a tour of the neighborhood. In the weeks that followed, Nicco retreated to his mother’s house and Francesca became Joanna’s lifeline. She showed Joanna how to navigate the streets and alleys of Rome and how to barter in the markets.
Now, glancing at the market bag at Joanna’s feet, Francesca pouted. You started without me?
The genuine look of shock on Francesca’s face made Joanna laugh. You’re late,
Joanna teased, but she didn’t really mind. She’d gotten used to Francesca’s idea of time. Francesca thought being punctual meant arriving within an hour of the scheduled meeting time. I had almost given up.
You Americans are obsessed with time.
Francesca gave the tiniest of shrugs and leaned in to brush Joanna’s cheeks with a double kiss.
I only have a few things left to buy.
Joanna reached into her pocket and removed the recipe Francesca had given her. I’ll have you know that I’ve become an expert haggler. You’re going to be very impressed.
As Francesca looked on, Joanna ticked off each item with her finger. Eggplant, from the man by the gelato place, onion, garlic, and carrots from the woman under the blue awning. I still need tomatoes, though. You told me to buy those last.
"Certo, Francesca confirmed.
Always, you buy tomatoes last and only from Tomas, my friend by the fountain. His tomatoes are the ripest but if you buy them first, they will bruise in your bag. Francesca hooked the top of her sunglasses with a perfectly manicured fingernail and slid them down the bridge of her nose. Peering over them, she frowned.
Bella, this recipe is not simple. I have told you that my Nona has spent her whole day just simmering the sauce and you have more than just sauce. She frowned.
If you must do this, I will help you. But maybe you have changed your mind?" she added, hopefully.
Nope.
Joanna shook her head as she moved the heavy bag from her lap. "Nicco’s finally invited his friends to watch a soccer game this afternoon—the first time he’s invited anyone to our apartment since we arrived. Gracie and I spent the day making chocolate chip cookies yesterday, and anyone can make a salad. All that’s left to do is make this eggplant— She gestured toward her bag with more confidence than she felt.
—thing. I’ll be fine. She took a breath and widened her fake smile.
It’ll be great."
But Francesca looked dubious. Nona’s recipe has many steps; some are not translated in the directions. This will not be easy. Have you practiced?
Joanna glanced at her hands in her lap. The truth was that she’d imagined cooking enormous Italian meals for Nicco, his friends, and his family. They’d all sit down to Sunday dinner and she would get to know his sisters and his mother. Gracie would have cousins to play with, and they would be happy. But Nicco hadn’t been home as often as she’d hoped and she had yet to meet any of his family, so there hadn’t been anyone to cook for.
There are other ways to get ready for a party, you know.
Francesca flicked a strand of glossy black hair over her shoulder. Let his mama do the cooking; that’s what mamas are for. You are too young to spend the day in that hot kitchen. We will go shopping for something beautiful to wear to the party.
Her gaze swept over Joanna’s denim capris and old college t-shirt and she frowned. We find you a new dress, shoes, too. And you will have a pedicure.
Money’s a little tight right now,
Joanna began.
Francesca interrupted with an impatient wave of her fingers. Surely, Nicco will not mind his fiancée and her daughter buying themselves pretty things? You are in Italy now, and that is what women do. He must expect this.
Joanna would have loved to go shopping with her friend. The truth was, she had money put aside to buy a few things for herself and Gracie, but the prices were higher than she’d expected and the sizing wasn’t as generous. Worse, neither she nor Nicco had found a job yet. Shortly after they arrived, Nicco had changed his mind about working for his cousin, declaring it had always been his dream to play for the Roma football team. He wanted to spend his time getting in shape and practicing his skills, instead of looking for a job. But tryouts were five months away and that was a long time to live off her savings.
Joanna’s own job search had turned out to be more complicated than she anticipated. Nicco had suggested that her Art History degree, and his connections in museums, would allow her to arrive in Italy and find a job in a museum. Her own job search turned out to be more complicated than she’d imagined, a tangle of work visas and language barriers. As much as she’d wished things were different, the fact was that they couldn’t afford anything but the bare essentials at the moment.
Francesca sighed, resigned. How many of his friends has he invited to this party?
Sixteen—no, nineteen, including Gracie, Nicco, and me.
In that tiny apartment?
Francesca gaped. How will you fit all these people?
It will be fun.
Joanna brightened her smile to show that she could be spontaneous and cheerful, despite what Nicco seemed to think lately. "I’ll finally get to meet all of Nicco’s friends. They’re coming to watch the game anyway, so I won’t have to actually talk to any of them, just cook for them—"
And serve.
Francesca finished for her. You should know that you will never cook as well as his mama, no matter how hard you try. She knows his favorites, and she is wound around his heart.
Francesca twirled an invisible string around her finger, to demonstrate. "He is a mammone, and he will not change."
"Mammone?" Joanna repeated blankly.
Yes, yes.
Francesca swished her fingers through the air as she searched for the translation. A Peter. A man who stays a boy.
Do you mean ‘Peter Pan’?
Joanna blinked. The man she had agreed to marry was not a Peter Pan. He was different. They’d made plans together, plans to share a life in Rome with her daughter Gracie. During the entire year they’d dated, she’d been captivated by stories of his family—his mother, his sisters and their children. Gracie would have cousins to play with, and Joanna would be welcomed in to his family. The picture Nicco painted of their life together in Rome was magical, and the vision of it sustained her during a difficult move. Nicco’s not like that.
But Francesca would not be swayed. "He is not worth your trouble, amica. I have watched him. He does as he pleases, like a boy."
Joanna rose from her place on the fountain and faced her friend. Well, that’s all going to change,
she protested. "He’ll see that I’m learning to cook. I’ll get to know his friends. I’ll charm his mother. We were so happy in Chicago, Francesca. He brought me flowers and toys for Gracie. This is just a bump."
Doubt tugged at her, but Joanna pushed it away. She refused to fail at another relationship.
She’d been married before, to Gracie’s father, Russell James Reed of the Charleston, South Carolina, Reeds. She and Russell had met in college; he was a business major and she studied art history. They had a whirlwind courtship, dating only a few months before marrying just after graduation. They had planned to settle and raise a family in Charleston, but Russell believed that his career prospects were better in Chicago, so they had moved away shortly after the wedding. That move had been an adjustment, too, for Joanna. She had traded her hometown, a place where families could expect to be intertwined for generations, for a city where no one seemed to know, or care, who she was. They started a family right away, and Joanna had channeled all her energy into outfitting the nursery. Gracie was a perfect baby and Joanna had fun making their city apartment into a home.
One day, while Gracie was napping and Joanna was chopping vegetables for a pot roast, she got a text from Russell. He felt constrained, he’d said, having to provide for a wife and a baby. He made a mistake, he’d said, but he was young enough to start over. She could have the savings account and his divorce lawyer would contact her.
Joanna never heard from him again.
"Va bene. Francesca’s eyes were kind, and she changed the subject with a lift of her shoulder.
I will help you shop for pomodori. Let me see these things you have bought."
Everything on your list.
Joanna slid the bag onto her lap, and opened it. Everything except—
"What is this?" Horrified, Francesca pinched a wilted bundle of basil leaves between her fingers and lifted it from the bag.
Basil,
Joanna pointed to a table under a yellow awning. From over there.
The basil didn’t look like that when she bought it. On the vendor’s table, fat bunches of deep green basil leaves were tied with twine and placed in mason jars filled with water. But the clump Francesca held was droopy and brown, nothing like the displays on the table. I don’t understand,
Joanna said.
Francesca glared at the vendor’s table. "That imbroglione—does he think you are a turista? He will not treat you in this way."
Joanna followed her friend to the vendor’s table and watched as Francesca’s indignation erupted in sweeping hand gestures and accusations in rapid-fire Italian. The vendor surrendered almost immediately, holding both hands in the air, palms out, before reaching beneath the table and producing a healthy basil plant in a terracotta pot.
Francesca accepted her win graciously, with a regal nod of her head. Turning to Joanna, she said, "Amica, you must have potted basil growing in the windowsill, always. The cut basil, that is for tourists, and he should know better than to sell it to you."
Joanna accepted the pot and placed it carefully in her bag, wedging it between a deep-purple eggplant and eight fat tomatoes that even Francesca would approve of. Thanks, Francesca.
"Prego. With the world righted, Francesca’s mood lifted.
Come. It’s not too late for espresso. We can even sit at the table, and you can tell me all about these wedding plans of yours." Francesca slipped her sunglasses on, gold aviators that glinted in the morning sunlight, matching the stack of bracelets on her wrist and the layer of necklaces at her throat.
Joanna laughed. Oh, sure, you pick the one day I don’t have time for coffee.
Francesca had been trying to get Joanna to use counter service, like true Romans, since the day they met, but Joanna had held firm. When she imagined her life in Rome, she had been relaxing at an outdoor café enjoying impossibly small cups of espresso as she people-watched. She had flatly refused to be lined up along a crowded counter with everyone else, with no room to breathe.
Francesca waved her hand in half-hearted surrender. Instead, I will walk you to the corner and listen to this party, all you have planned for Nicco and his friends.
They crossed to a narrow street at the end of the market. At the corner, Francesca slowed, contrite. I’m sure your eggplant will be delicious, and the party will be spectacles.
Spectacles?
Joanna snorted. I think you mean ‘spectacular’ and thank you, it will be. I’ll finally meet Nicco’s friends.
Ignoring Francesca’s doubtful expression, Joanna continued, I wish you could come, but I know you’ve got plans tonight. Come up and visit when you get home—if it’s not too late—and I’ll tell you how ‘spectacles’ the party was.
Francesca peered at Joanna over the top of her sunglasses and frowned. You are welcome to come with me today, you and little Gracie. Leave Nicco to his friends.
Joanna shook her head. Maybe next time. This party is important to me. It could be the start of something good and—I guess I just want it to be perfect.
Then it will be.
Francesca brushed Joanna’s cheek with a kiss and turned to leave. "I will leave you to your cooking. Ciao, amica." Francesca crossed the street with a walk that said she knew, absolutely, all eyes were on her.
Turning into the alley of her apartment, Joanna unlocked the front door of the building. Three flights of narrow stairs led to her apartment; she ascended them with a light step. She could do this—it was only cooking, after all, and she was in Rome. Hooking the bag over her other shoulder, she unlocked her apartment door and entered the kitchen.
The shriek of a referee whistle came from the den, and Joanna hesitated. She didn’t remember leaving the television on when she left, and certainly not tuned to a soccer game. Had she mistaken the time of the party? Were Nicco’s friends here already?
She stopped to listen for voices.
As she stood, Nicco’s growl of outrage exploded in the tiny apartment. The sound jolted through her, raising goosebumps to her skin. Joanna rushed inside, her heart thumping in her chest, jumping to one conclusion and praying she was wrong.
The scene before her unfolded in slow motion, in snapshots that didn’t seem real.
The thud of Nicco’s fist as it connected with Gracie’s body. The contorted rage on Nicco’s face. The sight of her daughter’s body crumpled on the floor. The sound of her baby’s voice, broken and terrified, as she whimpered for her mother.
He promised.
Get away from her.
Fury exploded inside Joanna’s chest as she shoved Nicco away, but his body was solid and not easily moved. She ripped the bag from her shoulder and hurled it at Nicco, anything to put distance between them. Her throw was clumsy, and the bag hit the wall instead. Tomatoes from the market bag exploded against the white plaster. The pot of basil shattered against the tile floor, sending shards of clay skittering across the floor. The scent of bruised basil leaves filled the room. Lifting Gracie from the floor, Joanna cradled her daughter to her heart.
Nicco brushed his bangs across his forehead with his fingers in a casual gesture of impatience that Joanna used to find so captivating. Now, it turned her stomach. He glanced at the television, and shrugged. She was in my way.
It took less than a second for Joanna to decide the course of her life.
Cradling her daughter, Joanna snatched her bag from the floor, scattering the contents. She moved toward the bedroom, pulling passports and cash from the dresser, not stopping to pack clothes. On the way out, she took Gracie’s favorite toy, a blue hippopotamus named Lendard from her bed and stuffed it into the bag.
Joanna felt Gracie tremble as they emerged from the relative safety of the bedroom.
Shhh.
Joanna attempted to soothe her daughter with a confidence she did not feel herself. You’ll be okay. Everything will be okay.
Nicco stood with his hip leaning against the back of a chair, just steps from her exit. His attention seemed to be on the game, but Joanna couldn’t be sure it would remain there. Pressing her lips against her daughter’s ear, Joanna whispered, Where are your shoes, little Goose?
Hiccupping, Gracie pointed to a tiny pair of yellow sneakers in the corner. Joanna grabbed them and slipped them into the bag.
Be very quiet, Gracie,
Joanna whispered.
As Joanna moved toward the door, Nicco’s gaze flicked from the television.
To her.
Are you going somewhere?
His voice was soft, like the slither of a snake. It sent chills up her spine.
Joanna forced a lightness into her tone. To the kitchen to get ice for Gracie’s bruise.
For this, you need your bag?
Nicco stood.
Joanna didn’t reply, and Nicco approached them. Joanna listened to his footsteps across the tile floor and felt her body tense as he drew closer. Gracie drew a ragged breath, and strangely, Joanna drew strength from it. She straightened her shoulders and met his eye, unflinching.
Abruptly, his tone softened, became almost intimate, as if he hadn’t just punched a six-year-old girl. She will barely remember this, Joanna. All children are spanked here if they misbehave. She will think nothing of it by tomorrow.
Joanna had believed him once before. The night they’d arrived in Rome exhausted, hungry, and disoriented. The apartment had been different from the pictures they’d seen before she bought it. It was smaller, filthy, and without electricity or a working kitchen. Nicco’s reaction then had been mercurial, his rage sudden, and blinding. When it was over, Joanna had scrambled behind a chair, cowering. Her lip split and bloody, her eye swollen shut. The only thing that gave her the strength to move from the safety of her corner was the thought that Nicco might go after Gracie. She rose, trembling, from the floor and went into the bathroom, locking the door behind her. She took a moment to breathe and to splash cool water on her face. Then she went into her daughter’s room and drew her little girl close to her body. She fell into a restless half-sleep, dreaming of what had happened and planning her escape.
The morning after, Nicco had returned with cappuccino and pastry from the café downstairs, contrite and shy. He begged her for another chance, swearing it would never happen again and Joanna had been stupid enough to believe him.
But she wouldn’t make that mistake again. Not ever again.
Nicco glanced at the bag on her shoulder and approached, his mouth twisted into a sneer. Where will you go, Joanna?
he taunted. You don’t speak Italian, and you are too stupid to navigate the streets of Rome without your beautiful friend Francesca.
Joanna reached for the keys she’d left on the counter and positioned them between her fingers. If he attempted to stop them, Joanna would stab him.
From the living room, the crowd erupted in cheers as the television announcer shouted, Goooooal!
Nicco turned to look, and that was all the opportunity Joanna needed. Bracing Gracie against her body, Joanna raced across the kitchen and out of the apartment. Joanna’s last memory of her fiancé, of her dream life in Rome, was the sound of the stadium cheering as she closed the door behind her.
Racing down the stairs, she flagged a taxi on the street and used the phrase Francesca had taught her, as a joke, when she was homesick. It wasn’t a joke now.
"Portarci verso l'aeroporto, fretta!"
Take us to the airport, hurry!
As the driver navigated the traffic, Joanna turned her attention to her daughter. She smoothed her daughter’s blonde curls away from her face. How could she possibly make this better? What kind of mother lets this happen? Gracie, honey. I’m so sorry.
But Gracie pressed her face against Joanna’s neck, refusing to be comforted.
As they pulled up to the curb, Joanna thrust the fare at the taxi driver, and gathered Gracie to her. Inside the terminal, she scanned the departure board for the next flight out of Rome. She didn’t care where it was going. All she wanted was to leave.
The next flight left in twelve minutes, bound for Frankfurt.
Joanna approached the ticket counter. She shifted Gracie to her other hip and felt a rivulet of sweat trickle down her back. She managed to smile at the clerk, as if she and Gracie were starting a vacation. She didn’t have time to be detained. Didn’t have time for questions. Two tickets to Frankfurt.
The man took her passport and tapped his keyboard. How many bags?
None.
The man glanced up, his eyes sharp. He assessed Joanna, with her smudged capris and her dingy T-shirt. No luggage?
he repeated.
No.
Joanna pushed a wad of bills from her bag across the counter.
The agent looked at Joanna, then flicked his gaze at Gracie. "This