Here So Far Away
By Hadley Dyer
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Award-winning author Hadley Dyer’s YA debut is smart, snarky, and emotionally gripping, about a rebellious cop’s daughter who falls in love with an older man, loses her best friend, and battles depression, all while trying to survive her last year of high school.
Feisty and fearless George Warren (given name: Frances, but no one calls her that) has never let life get too serious. Now that she’s about to be a senior, her plans include partying with her tight-knit group of friends and then getting the heck out of town after graduation.
But instead of owning her last year of high school, a fight with her best friend puts her on the outs of their social circle. If that weren’t bad enough, George’s family has been facing hard times since her father, a police sergeant, got injured and might not be able to return to work, which puts George’s college plans in jeopardy.
So when George meets Francis, an older guy who shares her name and her affinity for sarcastic banter, she’s thrown. If she lets herself, she’ll fall recklessly, hopelessly in love. But because of Francis’s age, she tells no one—and ends up losing almost everything, including herself.
This is a gorgeous, atmospheric, and gut-wrenching novel that readers won’t soon forget.
Hadley Dyer
Hadley Dyer is the award-winning author of Here So Far Away and Johnny Kellock Died Today, among other books for children and young adults. She worked in the children’s book industry for more than twenty years. To learn more about her, visit her online at www.hadleydyer.com.
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- Rating: 1 out of 5 stars1/5A special thank you to Edelweiss and HarperCollins Canada for an ARC in exchange for an honest review.I don't like to give negative reviews, especially to a Canadian author. My mother also taught me that if you don't have anything nice to say, you shouldn't say anything at all. But here is my dilemma...as a reviewer, I am obligated to provide feedback. So here goes...I couldn't relate to the main character, George, at all. The dialogue was trite, and the story itself was simply not engaging and at times bordered on ridiculousness. For me, it was a struggle to even finish. Dyer really needs to up her game in this genre. There are so many outstanding YA novels out there that are deserving of your time. Here are some of the ones that have left me completely gutted and honoured to have read them: The Hate U Give, All the Bright Places, The Perks of Being a Wallflower, A List of Cages, One Half From the East, and Andrew Smith's Winger and Stand-Off. That being said, Dyer is a champion of literacy here in Canada, and I admire her efforts and contributions to the children's book industry.
- Rating: 2 out of 5 stars2/5Oh dear, this was a bit of a train wreck, and it was quite painful to read. The plot was slow, the dialogue shallow and George, the main character, was extremely annoying. Except for being a whiny brat, she had little personality and was always fighting with her friends, and there was little character growth throughout the book. Also, I was uncomfortable with the fact that a seventeen-year-old was dating a twenty-nine year-old man, who was replacing her father at work. I skimmed through the second half of the book and found the end totally unsatisfactory. All in all, Here So Far Away wasn't for me.
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Here So Far Away - Hadley Dyer
The Stars Go Waltzing Out
One
August 1992
Life’s a bad writer, my father used to say. I think he meant that most of us would write our lives differently, given the chance. If I could choose one year to rewrite, it’d be my senior year of high school, and I’d probably start with that first shack party. Or I might go even further back and make Sid stay in the valley. I always wondered how it would have worked out if the five of us had stayed together. Who knows, maybe Sid could have been the one to stop me from making such a mess of things.
Sid left early on an August morning. He came out of the house wearing his Eddie Murphy costume from the previous Halloween: leather pants, leather jacket with the sleeves pushed up, gold chain, no shirt. Natalie and I cracked up because we knew he was trying to keep us from getting emotional, Lisa burst into tears for the very same reason, and Bill blurted out that there wouldn’t be black kids at our school anymore, since Sid had been the only one.
Lisa was so mad at Bill for ruining the moment, she hardly spoke to him for a week. The freeze-out might have lasted longer, but somebody’s grandmother died, god bless her, leaving a ramshackle saltbox overlooking the bay that was perfect for a shack party. Most of her stuff had been moved out already, but there were still a few chairs and whatnot, and the taps ran and toilets flushed, which made it a five-star. When I arrived, half our school was packed into the little house, and two different Skid Row songs were blaring from competing ghetto blasters.
Georgie Girl!
Lisa’s boyfriend, Keith. We didn’t know each other well enough yet for him to be calling me that, but he had a joint in his hand and probably knew where Lisa was, so I smiled and pushed my way over to the staircase where he was sprawled.
I’d offer you this, but Lisa says you’re insane when you’re high,
he said. You punch people or what?
Only until they’re unconscious. Where’s Lise?
Living room. Hey, Joshua’s back in town, if you’re looking for some action.
I fluttered my eyelashes at him. But Joshua and I aren’t married.
Keith sat up and leaned toward me, and I could see how bloodshot his eyes were already. Why do girls always have to be in love to have sex?
He was too stoned to be having this conversation with his girlfriend’s best friend, and I said so.
I’m just asking.
A flash of Lisa’s red hair in the next room. Keith had red hair too, and neither of them seemed to know how much the twin vibe creeped everyone out.
No offense,
I said, giving his cheek a pat as I turned to leave, but most of you suck at the sex part, so there’s nothing else in it for us.
I crowd-paddled to the living room past town boys, farm boys, mountain boys. A bunch of them were measuring their heads with a TV cable. One more year,
I said when I reached Lisa.
She didn’t have to ask what I meant, just handed me a sticky bottle of Long Island Iced Tea and a plastic cup. A wise man once said, if you can’t make it better, you can at least make it blurry.
Which wise man was that?
The sound of peeing from the other side of a closed door answered, so loud it seemed to be hitting the bowl from a very great height.
The door swung open. Bill was only five eight with sneakers on and had a way of walking with minimal bounce, a gliding slouch across a room. Back then he was slightly overweight and this side of slovenly, but he had honey-colored curls that no girl could resist touching and absolutely nothing embarrassed him. He was the opposite of Lisa, who was small but ridiculously strong, with huge, kinky red hair that was moussed, diffused, straightened, and sprayed to sculpture-like perfection. She carried herself so confidently, yet would be mortified by the badly timed squeak of a vinyl seat.
Bill held out a china mug with a picture of Prince Charles and Princess Di on it for me to slosh in some booze. What?
Did you find that in the bathroom?
Lisa said. You don’t even know what it was used for.
Let’s toast,
I said quickly, before Bill could bug Lisa with a crude joke. To Nat and her brave battle with the Double Dragon.
(She was locked in her bathroom for the night after eating a funky pizza slice.) To Sid and his tight leather pants—especially the leather pants. To a bitchin’ senior year. And to the five of us being together again next year, somewhere far from here.
Lisa waved her cup vaguely toward us. Yeah, Nat, Sid, cheers. Do you believe in love at first sight?
No,
I said, using the neck of the bottle to guide her cup into a more upright position.
"I do. But, George, he’s not looking at me."
I twisted around and saw Joshua Spring angling himself into the living room.
The history here is that Joshua Spring was in love with me and had always been in love with me. It started on the first day of first grade when he trailed Lisa and me into the schoolyard at lunchtime. I reckoned he had one of two possible agendas: showing us his bird, as Dougie O’Donnell and Patrick O’Connor had done when they cornered us at recess, or stealing my Han Solo action figure. Instead, he took a plastic ring with a heart-shaped sapphire from his pocket and pressed it into my hand. Then he bolted, leaving a trail of big muddy footprints to his hiding place behind the hippo slide.
You can see under a slide, right? The only reason his head seemed to disappear into the hippo’s nostril was because he was so tall for his age. We decided that Joshua Spring was too dumb to pay any more attention to and ignored him until he moved away a few months later, after his parents split up. Every time he came back to visit his dad, he was several inches taller—and still in love with me. It was like a sickness, and by the time we got to high school, I think he kind of hated me for it.
Now here he was, hanging out with a bunch of stoned jocks, including Keith, Lisa’s boyfriend and Joshua’s default best friend whenever he came back to town. Joshua was another half foot taller since I’d last seen him, easily six three, and he was genuinely, astoundingly hot. He had a jaw, for Christ’s sake. Most of the boys at our school didn’t have jaws yet, especially the jocks, with their baby fat and thick jowls. Their faces just sort of slid into their necks. And from that look Joshua gave me before turning away, I knew that however old I got, even when I was eighty and my boobs were dangling by my ankles like old-timey Christmas stockings filled with one orange apiece, Joshua would be there waiting for me. Hotly.
He has a girlfriend,
Bill said.
Lisa stared at him. Impossible.
Fact.
Who? He just moved back.
"Back back? I said.
Permanently?"
Christina with the face,
Bill said.
Can’t be serious,
Lisa said. "Keith hasn’t said anything about it. If they are together—ish—technically, you can’t become boyfriend-girlfriend in only a week, and—"
"Dude, Bill said.
When’s the last time George talked to that guy? Him looking this way doesn’t mean they’re hooking up."
I shrugged. Because Joshua was now standing in front of a crumbling fireplace that had a mirror built into the mantel, and I knew that he could see me behind him, and he was watching me watching him watching me.
I was leaning against a sideboard in the dining room, drinking directly from the bottle of Long Island Iced Tea, when Joshua finally made his move.
Where are Lisa and Keith?
he asked. Super-laid-back. As though he hadn’t been giving me lingering looks for an hour.
I nodded toward the corner, where they’d stacked themselves on a kitchen stool. Brother-sister quality time.
I’m never going to get used to that.
He took the bottle from me, sniffed it. Jesus. It’s like plane fuel. What did you cut it with? Tap water?
Yup.
You want some of this home brew instead?
Nope.
I knew one thing about the Spring family’s home brew: no one tried it twice.
That would be a good nickname,
he said. Home brew.
His hair was bronze colored, his skin a similar shade from his summer tan. I guess that’s stupid.
He handed the bottle back.
No, it’s just, you’re the most uniformly colored person I’ve ever seen.
I know. I’m like a big beige crayon.
Not beige. Camel? Bile?
If you want to get a hot boy to headlock you, and I’m not saying I did, that’s how you do it.
Hey! Stop putting the moves on my guy!
Christina yelled from the kitchen.
I didn’t know much about Christina Veinot: eleventh grade, popular, probably one of the Veinot Dairy Veinots from Veinot, a little ferrety in the face. But I could tell she was only partly joking and magnificently sloshed, center of gravity up in her head, makeup running, hair wet against her T-shirt. Bill had started a game of bobbing for beer caps in the corroded sink.
We were fighting over you,
I said. You’re so pretty.
Joshua and I were reclining against the sideboard now. His arm felt hot against mine. I knew we looked good together, my dark Irish coloring contrasting with his beach boy glow. Lisa and Keith were grinning at us with unabashed glee.
Christina seemed to be contemplating a comeback as she stood there, head bobbling around. Then she threw her arms up and screamed, "Whoo-hooo! which made everyone else scream,
Whoo-hooo!" and that was a shack party. That really was the best we could come up with when we all put our heads together and decided to have a good time.
Whoo-hooo,
said Joshua, raising his bottle of home brew. His mouth grazed my hair as he leaned over and murmured, You want to get out of here?
What about . . .
I nodded toward Christina.
Oh, we’re not . . . We’re just hanging out.
I glanced at my watch. An hour left before curfew. If I couldn’t find someone to drive me home for midnight, I’d be facing the Sergeant. Or would I? My father was—well, let’s say, under the weather. Maybe he wouldn’t be waiting up.
I’ve had only a few sips of this,
Joshua said. I’ll get you home on time. Promise.
We drove to the shore, where we lit a fire and huddled together against the cold wind coming off the bay and ignored time passing. Yeah, he said something mildly ignorant about Kuwait and, yeah, something that might have been racist about Saddam Hussein, and yeah, okay, we ran out of things to say about two minutes after that, but he was sweet and he was gorgeous and he smelled like woodsmoke and strawberry gum and boy, and he looked at me like I was the only girl there had ever been.
Which is when I began to worry that he’d heard about my slutty period in eleventh grade. Nothing serious, a bit with the whooring, as Lisa put it: three guys at East Riverview, our rival high school. I’d wanted to lose my virginity with minimal fuss. Not that I wouldn’t have preferred it to be with a special someone who could make it beautiful and meaningful and full of harps and fireworks, but since there was no special someone, and not much chance of one appearing out of the fog, I wanted to get it over with. That led to crashing some parties on the other side of the county line and meeting Leon, whose most winning quality was that he was someone I didn’t have to see every day. And that led to a couple of bonus boys to confirm that the problem with sex wasn’t Leon’s undescended testicle but that sex was overrated. At least, sex with guys from East Riverview.
The new moon was bright in the sky as Joshua pulled me close. I’d made out with lots of boys, but hadn’t felt anything like real love, not since Han Solo. I’d convinced myself I wasn’t built for it, that I’d never understand a ballad. Now it was like every line of our story had been writing us to this moment by the sea, the formerly heartless girl in the arms of the perfect guy, who had been in front of her the whole time.
Soft at first, it was a whisper of a kiss, like a strawberry secret.
And then: like getting rammed with a deli-sized bologna.
I’m so sorry,
I said, after audibly desuctioning my very wet mouth from his and dabbing it with my jacket sleeve. I’m still hung up on Leon.
The name just slipped out.
Leon.
You don’t know him.
The guy from East Riverview?
Um . . .
The guy who used to go to basketball games dressed like a woodchuck?
I’d forgotten about that. Leon had been East Riverview’s mascot in junior high. Or was it that East Riverview didn’t have an official mascot but he came to the games dressed as a woodchuck anyway? Even after they asked him to stop.
Different Leon,
I said. I’m sorry, I think you got the wrong idea.
He was swallowing a lot. Oh, he was going to cry. Oh, he was crying, tears running down his cheeks, ragged breaths. He sobbed and sobbed and sobbed. I started casting around for a piece of driftwood so I could do the humane thing.
Joshua—
He was up and running, his giant footprints a good six, seven feet apart in the sand. After I smothered the fire, I found him in his car, face buried in his arms against the steering wheel. He mumbled something that sounded like Just get in.
We sped down into the valley much too fast, gravel pummeling the car like bullets. I love this car,
Joshua said. "I love this car. I’m going to frickin’ die in this car."
"We’re in this car!"
He swerved severely and I screamed. Rabbit,
he said.
We didn’t speak again until he pulled up in front of my house. Joshua . . .
The light in my parents’ bedroom snapped off. Let’s pretend this never happened. I promise not to tell anyone if you don’t, okay?
He tried to smile, eyes glistening with a fresh tide of woe that he was barely holding back.
Okay, good. We’re going to have the best year. You’ll see.
I made the mistake of deciding the phlegmy sound was Joshua Spring agreeing with me.
Two
"Leon, Lisa said.
Of the thin lips. And one ball. Really."
We were having tea with Bill and Natalie in our usual booth at the Grunt, an old-school diner with blueberry-colored walls and mismatched dishes from every decade but the one we were in. Nat was leaning on Lisa, still fragile after her bout of food poisoning, which hadn’t stopped Bill from ordering a jumbo root beer float and hoovering it down in front of her. Not that Nat ever looked sturdy. She was skinny, white blond, and tree-limbed, all long bones and sharp corners.
Lisa eased her off and scooted out from behind the table to come around to my side. She began sniffing me like a police dog searching for clues: down my hairline, along my cheekbone, around my ear, up again. She always knew when I was holding out on her, and she loved inventing new ways to make me crack. I did not flinch, I did not flinch, I did not flinch—until her tongue darted out and flicked my nose.
"Ugch, I said, palming her face away.
Alright."
Alright?
"Alright."
Say it.
I’m not hung up on Leon.
Bill pawed a paper napkin out of the dispenser and passed it to me. Keep licking. See what else she says.
Lisa slid back into the booth beside Nat. First of all, I can’t believe you thought anyone would buy that. And second—me and you, Keith and Joshua, two best friends dating two best friends? Don’t you get how perfect that would be?
"You could date us," Bill said, indicating himself and Nat.
I didn’t like it when Lisa called us best friends in front of the others, though it was true. You might think of your friends in tiers, but you don’t have to remind them of it.
You’re my fourth–best friend at best,
Nat said to Bill, lowering her head to the table.
He wagged his straw at her like he was erasing what she’d said. "On the bright side, George has just become the big fish that every guy in school wants to haul into his boat, if you know what I mean. If you don’t know what I mean, I mean this bitch, right here, is now so ungettable that everyone wants to get her. And if you don’t know what I mean by get—"
We got it,
Nat said. While I was sitting on a toilet with a bucket on my lap, George was rejecting the hot new guy—and it only made her more popular! Bravo, life!
Bill and I weren’t doing a good job of holding our faces in check. In fairness, it wasn’t always clear when Nat was trying to be funny.
Lisa glowered at us and stroked Nat’s hair. You shouldn’t have led Joshua on if you weren’t interested,
she said. Keith is so pissed.
How did I lead him on? By standing next to him at a party? Letting him drive me home?
Leaving his girlfriend behind without a ride, kissing him . . .
I’d been betting that Joshua wouldn’t tell Keith any of it, never mind the kissing part, and I could see Lisa was doubly pissed that I hadn’t told her myself.
"You said she wasn’t his girlfriend. He said she wasn’t his girlfriend."
Duh. He lied,
Bill said.
I guess I knew that, but I didn’t have to admit it.
"Well, that is news to me. Also, technically? He kissed me. Which was . . . it was . . ."
Lisa was giving me the eyebrow, not blinking, not getting it.
Sid would have. Bill did. Bad breath? Biter? Did he lick around the outside of your mouth?
Nat propped her head up on her arm to look across the table at him. You really have to break up with Tracy.
"Not Tracy. Remember Becky, the cocker spaniel from hockey camp? My mouth, my nose, my ears. He leaned over until his face was nearly touching mine.
So, what was it, little snake darts? Nasty hiss-hiss coming at you? Hiss-hissssssss—"
I shook him by the shirt collar until he was all hissed out. Anaconda tongue, you jackass.
That’s it?
Lisa said. Oh—phew!
No phew,
I said. How did we get to phew?
You can rehabilitate a bad kisser.
Hell no,
Bill said. You can take mediocre to okay, and you can get from okay to some approximation of the fundamentals of good, but you’ll never get from bad all the way to good. Right, Nat?
If you ain’t got no rhythm, ain’t no one gonna teach you to dance.
Exactly. Homegirl.
"Geo-or-or-orge, Lisa groaned.
We’re talking about a love story more than a decade in the making. Are you going to walk away because of one bad kiss?"
In a word: Yup.
That’s cold-blooded, even for you.
But good news for the Face,
Nat said. Who, by the way, is coming over.
I twisted the soreness from my morning run out of my back and glanced behind us. Christina was leaving three tables of Elevens, who all watched as she strode toward us. She was a tiny thing—pipe-cleaner legs, dirty-blond hair down to her waist, razor cheekbones. She could cut a person. Would. And I had sort-of stolen her sort-of boyfriend in front of half the school. That was a big shack party.
We were starting senior year as the reigning popular group, as you define it at a country high school. We’d inherited it. In eleventh grade, pre-Keith, Lisa had dated a senior, captain of the basketball team, and the rest of us got pulled along with her. They graduated, we got bumped up, she dumped the old captain for the new captain, simple as that. We were set to be the most benevolent and boring ruling class of any high school ever. We weren’t bullies, didn’t get up in anyone’s face. People liked us. We spent most of our time doing exactly what we were doing at that moment—making each other laugh and/or ganging up on someone for their own good—and we collectively gave only enough of a crap about where we stood not to give it up.
But the new Elevens cared. They were a large group, slitty-eyed girls and thickheaded boys. Always posturing, always too loud, always lip-curling, slow-moving, filling as much space as possible. They could not wait until we were out of the way.
I wasn’t worried about what this Joshua stuff might mean for us, but I could sense Lisa’s nerves the way she could sniff a lie as I exhaled it. She was, after all, my top-tier friend, and she’d been looking forward to senior year since kindergarten, when she started transforming herself from a frizzy-haired bundle of ugly duckling into the second coming of Molly Ringwald, Breakfast Club edition. Plus, she and Keith had gotten caught between me and the Tongue and the Face. So when Christina stopped at our table and said, loudly enough to be heard by her friends, What’s wrong, George? Sex injury?
—I wasn’t having it.
I stood up so I was towering over her and stretched my back again, nice and easy. Yeah,
I said, but, baby, I’m good to go again if you are.
It wasn’t one of my better lines, but in the pause that followed, I learned something about Christina Veinot: she wasn’t up for a quick comeback. That left her with pretending to laugh or being humorless and earnest, and her group didn’t do earnest. They learned that from us. She went with a small head shake and faint smile, like we were a couple of gal pals exchanging quips. Well, say hi to Joshua for me,
she said, the hardness gathering again behind her