Save the Date
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“A sparkling summer story ideal for teens who are on that bittersweet cusp of change.” —Booklist
“[A] romantic comedy of errors.” —Publishers Weekly
Father of the Bride meets Sixteen Candles in the latest novel from New York Times bestselling author Morgan Matson.
Charlie Grant’s older sister is getting married this weekend at their family home, and Charlie can’t wait—for the first time in years, all four of her older siblings will be under one roof. Charlie is desperate for one last perfect weekend, before the house is sold and everything changes. The house will be filled with jokes and games and laughs again. Making decisions about things like what college to attend and reuniting with longstanding crush Jesse Foster—all that can wait. She wants to focus on making the weekend perfect.
The only problem? The weekend is shaping up to be an absolute disaster.
There’s the unexpected dog with a penchant for howling, house alarm that won’t stop going off, and a papergirl with a grudge.
There are the relatives who aren’t speaking, the (awful) girl her favorite brother brought home unannounced, and a missing tuxedo.
Not to mention the neighbor who seems to be bent on sabotage and a storm that is bent on drenching everything. The justice of the peace is missing. The band will only play covers. The guests are all crazy. And the wedding planner’s nephew is unexpectedly, distractingly…cute.
Over the course of three ridiculously chaotic days, Charlie will learn more than she ever expected about the family she thought she knew by heart. And she’ll realize that sometimes, trying to keep everything like it was in the past means missing out on the future.
Morgan Matson
Morgan Matson is the New York Times bestselling author of six books for teens, including Since You’ve Been Gone and Save the Date, and the middle grade novel The Firefly Summer. She lives in Los Angeles but spends part of every summer in the Pocono Mountains. Visit her at MorganMatson.com.
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Readers find this title to be a great book with a well-developed plot that keeps the reader engaged. The family's bickering adds humor to the story, making it enjoyable. The positive reviews indicate that readers highly recommend this book and are eager to read more from the author. Overall, readers love this book and consider it one of the best book series they have read in a long time.
- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5I have read several books by Morgan Matson, and just never fell in love with them. I was hesitant to start this one, but since I got it in my Uppercase I decided to give it a try. This is probably the best one I have read yet. I loved the prologue, and I really thought this was going to be more romance heavy with Charlie and Jesse. However; once the actual story started this was much more family oriented than I was expecting. You really start to learn more around the whole family and their current and past relationships/digressions. I found Charlie being very catty and a whiny brat at times. I did like her a little more as she continued to do whatever she could to help pull off the wedding for her sister. I really wish this followed the romance between Jesse and Charlie with the loving the brothers best friend trope. There was sporadic scenes with the two, but it really never became about that romance. Charlie ends up going on adventures with Bill (the wedding planner), but it also does not start until over 200 pages in and is not a huge focus on the story. I would definitely not go into this thinking this is a cute romance read. It does have a small romance, but it is never the focus of the story. I think if you go into this knowing it is a story around family more, you will enjoy it more. I related to the wedding planning mishaps so much in this story. Our wedding venue shut down one month before our wedding with no notice. The people who owned it were not answering and we had to get the police involved to get our money back. One of my bridesmaid dresses was the wrong color, and all of our decorations did not get delivered. I related to Charlie’s sister so much in regards to that point. I really enjoyed the comic strips thrown in as well, as they were a really cute addition to the story. Overall, I liked this more than I thought I would. I liked seeing that no matter what happened this family will stay strong together and be there for one another. It was cute.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Charlie is determined that the weekend of her older sister’s wedding is going to be perfect — but it seems that everything that can possibly go wrong, is going wrong. This was a fun read, though I would not recommend it to anyone who might be involved in planning or participating in a wedding in the near future! I never completely connected with the characters, but that might just be me. (I also found the string of disasters more anxiety-inducing than entertaining, but I’m pretty sure that’s just me.) If you like light, realistic YA (and aren’t planning a wedding any time soon!), you might want to take a look at this one.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Charlie's sister Linnea is getting married on Saturday. On Friday, they find out the wedding planning they hired can no longer do the job and a new planner has been assigned. Charlie is only looking forward to having the entire family back at home, since the five children are spread far and wide with only Charlie being at home...until she decides which college to go to.As you can imagine, the loss of the wedding planner is only the first of the catastrophes that occurs over the wedding weekend. You'll need to read Save the Date to find out the others.Morgan Matson, one of the top young adult romance writers, brings her fantastic sense of humor to this book, parts of which are laugh out loud funny. Where her imagination came up with some of the scenes is beyond me., but I'm glad she did.There is humor, seriousness, romance and family in this recommended read. I always look forward to her next book and this one didn't disappoint at all. I don't know how she could have written a better book. Now I can wait until the next book.I highly recommended, thoroughly enjoyable read.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Such a brilliant read!I thought I was reading a romance, and it was, but it was so much more than that too. It was a family, and their lives. There were moments that felt so raw and real, and moments when I laughed along with them. If this was a movie, it would be one helluva cast of characters. Each person was unique and had me wanting to know more about them.The Grant family. What a family indeed.I hope, even though this story completely ended, that there will be another book. I want to know what life is like after the divorce. Where does Charlie go when she goes home from university? These burning questions will linger in my mind.Another great read from Morgan Matson. She is quickly becoming a YA favorite of mine.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5I haven’t loved a book this much in a long time.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5I love this book so good but the summer I Turned pretty is the best book series ever you should go read it fr fr
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5That was a great book! I laughed at loud so much at the family's bickering. I highly recommend this book, the author definitely had a good developed plot so it never got slow or dull for me. I look forward to reading some of her other books as well.
- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5Although this book features wedding crisis after wedding crisis, too often it felt as if there wasn’t enough going on.Seventeen year old Charlie is super excited that her sister’s wedding means having her many siblings under one roof before the family home is sold and Charlie heads off to college, but the weekend isn’t as smooth sailing as she’d hoped with a boatload of wedding prep issues, some family baggage to navigate and two potential love interests. I loved that the mom is a cartoonist, not only did it remind me of the comic strip For Better Or For Worse (I don’t know if that was the inspiration) which was a favorite of mine, it also made for a believable and at the same time unique source of family drama. My only complaint about the comic is that I would have enjoyed seeing more panels generously sprinkled throughout the book. Save The Date struggled as far as pacing and predictability goes. Too many things such as who Charlie would end up with, the reason her parents were selling the house, Max’s big secret, etc., were far too obvious far too early, and it made Charlie seem almost dense for not figuring things out sooner. And if she had figured out a certain family bombshell from the outset, if the book had been driven by Charlie’s desire to fix the problem rather than driven by the improbability of heaping most of the wedding responsibilities on a teenager (am I the only one who wondered what the many adult family members were doing while Charlie handled nearly every issue?), perhaps the pacing wouldn’t have seemed so sluggish at times and there may have been more to invest in emotionally. Other than Jesse who didn’t have much depth, considering the number of characters, most of their personalities managed to be well-conveyed, some, like J.J., to humorous affect and the unwelcome girlfriend, Brooke, turned out to be one of the most layered, engaging, likable characters in the book to the point where I wondered if I might have enjoyed this story more had it come from Brooke’s point of view (which, yes would have made this an adult book, but as I mentioned, a teen being the only one holding together her sister’s wedding seemed a bit of a stretch, so perhaps the premise might have made more sense with an adult at it’s center). While Save The Date didn’t feel like quite as much of a chore to finish as the author’s previous novel The Unexpected Everything did, it still went on for too many pages and suffered from a meandering plot and pace. I’d love to see what Morgan Matson could achieve again if limited to a streamlined three hundred pages so there would really be no option other than to tell the story in a more concise fashion and really stick to the spine of the plot (actually have a spine to the plot), and maybe then the emotion and the heart I originally loved in her books will shine through again.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5If you know someone that is getting married, do not let them read this book. As the Grant family comes together for the wedding of the oldest sibling, Linnie to Rodney, Charlie is hoping it will be like old times. Unfortunately from the moment J.J. shows up at the house until the end of the story, there is one disaster after another. The story is basically told from Charlie's perspective. She is the youngest Grant and will be heading off to college in the fall. A lot of decisions for her to makes, specifically what college to attend.
The Grant Family is a happy well-adjusted family on the surface, but when their mother uses Mike's situation in her comic strip after he specifically asked her not to, he ends up estranged from his family. He comes home for the wedding but stays at a friend's house, the friend that Charlie has had a crush on since she was a little girl. Charlie was so hoping this would be a wonderful family get together for the wedding weekend, but when her oldest brother and the one she idolizes shows up with his girlfriend, the weekend takes a turn. With their home being sold, the Grant Family Comic strip coming to an end, Good Morning America doing an interview for their Monday morning segment and the wedding planner skipping town with all the funds, you know this will be a disastrous weekend. Charlie and the new wedding planner's nephew Bill, come to the rescue and even though things are not as planned, they try to save the day.
Overall this was a fun story. It showed how families can love one another, yet still be angry at each other. It also was a growing experience, especially for Charlie but others as well. They were not the perfect family, but they were the Grant Family and they made the best of their time together. It would be nice if there were another books showing what came next in Charlie's life but we shall see. I laughed a lot while reading this book and cringed at other times but it was a great YA story that adults could enjoy as well. The publisher generously provided me with a copy of this book via Netgalley. - Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5I would probably give it a 3.5 if I had the option. The main character was annoying in the way teenage girls often are but she did eventually grow and learn and become more mature. Also, the idea of the "perfect" wedding is a little ridiculous to me (now that I've been married for 14 years, it's easy to dismiss the panic). But the book was funny and I found myself turning pages to see what would happen next so clearly my irritations were not deal breakers.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Charlie's sister is getting married and the whole family will be together, all five siblings and their parents. What could possibly go wrong? Everything--starting when the wedding planner vanishes after accusations of embezzlement. Charlie's parents are selling the house everyone grew up in, the comic strip based on her family is ending, and Charlie, the baby, will be going to college in the fall. Everything is ending, and Charlie doesn't handle change well. She just wants everything to be like it was at least one last time. Charlie is a fixer, the one who smooths things over, and a peacemaker. She also hasn't been seeing things as they really are, in part because of her age, and in part because she just didn't want to. Watching her grow into her adulthood is a pleasure.
Ms. Matson does a great job getting into the head of Charlie and depicting a chaotic wedding weekend made worse by the insertion of a retirement, and a national TV appearance. This is a heartfelt and touching depiction of a family that loves each other. I loved seeing Charlie's growth from family baby to more adult sibling, as she saw siblings and parents as themselves and not the heroes she'd made them in her mind.
Book preview
Save the Date - Morgan Matson
Christmas
BREAK
I WASN’T SURE HOW IT had happened. But Jesse Foster was kissing me.
I was kissing him back, opening my eyes every few seconds to verify it was really, actually happening, to see the twinkle lights and garlands strung up around the basement, the Santa hat listing on the banister post, and sure enough, Jesse Foster above me, his hands in my hair, his brown eyes closed.
Usually, when something you’ve dreamed about your whole life actually happens, it’s a disappointment. The reality never quite lives up to the fantasy, where everything is perfect and you never get hungry and your feet never hurt. But this was everything I had ever imagined it would be, and more.
Whenever I’d had dreams about kissing him—and there had been a lot of these, starting from age eleven onward—everything had built up to the kiss. The moment he saw me, the words he said, the way it all seemed to go into slow motion as he bent his head toward mine. And then there had always been kind of a fade-out into blackness, and I’d start imagining the future, the two of us walking down the halls of Stanwich High together, his hand in mine, as he smiled happily at me.
But kissing Jesse Foster in real life was beyond anything I’d even known to dream about. He was an amazing kisser, to start with, putting to shame the four other guys I’d kissed, who’d been fumbling and hesitant. He was utterly in control, but would pause every now and then, looking down at me, like he was making sure I was okay—and I’d stretch up to kiss him back, losing myself in him once more.
The part of my brain that could still think of things beyond lips and hands and oh my god and Jesse Foster was trying to understand how I’d gotten here. I had known Jesse my entire life—when he was six and short for his age, with a mop of brown curly hair; with braces and glasses when he was twelve; and now, at nineteen, his hair cut short, his arms strong and muscular, his legs tangling over mine as he eased me underneath him. He was my brother Mike’s best friend, but it wasn’t like we’d ever hung out, just the two of us.
I was only here, in the Fosters’ basement two days after Christmas, because Mike hadn’t come home for the holiday. After what had happened in February, he hadn’t been home all summer—he’d stayed at Northwestern and done a summer program, and had skipped Thanksgiving. But up until the last moment, I hadn’t quite believed that he would skip Christmas, too. It was one thing to bail on Thanksgiving or the Fourth of July. Not Christmas. But he hadn’t come home, texting on the twenty-third that his plans had changed. There was no other explanation.
My mother had channeled her anger and disappointment into cleaning, and when she got to Mike’s room, she’d found a box labeled JESSE STUFF and had handed it to me to do something with.
And even though I was beyond annoyed at my brother, I’d jumped at the chance. After all, this was a completely legitimate way to see Jesse, one that didn’t involve me concocting some excuse. I’d texted him, sending drafts to my best friend, Siobhan, first so he wouldn’t be able to see my three-dot bubbles going on too long, proof that I was hesitating and changing my mind. He’d texted back that people were hanging out tonight at his place and to swing by whenever, which I’d interpreted to mean nine thirty. When I’d gotten there, after changing my outfit five times and working for an hour on my hair to get it to look like I hadn’t spent any time on it at all, he’d waved at me cheerfully from across the basement, motioned for me to put the box in the corner, then pointed at the cooler of beers bobbing in melted ice water. I took a Natty Ice, but mostly just held it as I found myself in a conversation with one of Jesse’s roommate’s friends about how there are multiple timelines and the one we’re living in is but one example of potentially infinite parallel universes, and that if I wanted proof, I could find it on the Internet.
I’d nodded and tried to look like I wasn’t finding this ridiculous as I watched Jesse out of the corner of my eye. Siobhan called it my Jesse-dar, and she wasn’t wrong—I always knew where he was in any room, and how near he was. Jesse had been the center of the party, dominating the beer pong table, greeting people as they walked in the basement door, sitting in a chair backward and arguing intensely about the last season of Game of Thrones. Every now and then, he’d look over at me, and I’d smile and then pretend to be really interested in whatever conversation I’d found myself having, needing to prove that I could hold my own with his friends, that I wasn’t just Mike’s little sister.
But after two hours, I was ready to go. Jesse’s friends were starting to gather up coats and hats, the rain that had been on and off all day had started up again, and Jesse appeared very occupied with a girl in a red V-neck who was sitting close to him on the couch, her long black hair spilling like a curtain in front of them, shielding them from view. The bathroom in the basement was locked, so I headed up to the main house, which was quiet and dark, except for the white lights of a Christmas tree in the corner.
When I came back to the basement, I stopped short on the bottom step. I could faintly hear doors slamming and a car starting up. But mostly, I was focused on the fact that everyone else had departed, and Jesse was sitting on the couch. Alone.
How long was I gone?
I asked as I crossed the room for my coat, and Jesse smiled without taking his eyes from the television, which I could now hear was playing some kind of sports recap.
Come on come on,
he muttered, leaning forward. Come—
Something sports-related and disappointing must have happened then, because he sighed and sank back against the couch. He turned off the TV, and then tossed the remote aside, leaving only the sound of the rain against the windows. Then he looked over at me and smiled, like he’d seen me there for the first time. You don’t have to leave, Charlie,
he said, nodding at my coat. Just because I’m a loser and all my other friends have deserted me.
I dropped my coat like it was on fire, but then gathered my wits and made myself walk over to join him on the couch slowly, like this wasn’t a big deal at all and I really couldn’t have cared less.
Jesse didn’t move over from his spot on the middle cushion, so when I sat on the couch, I was closer to him than I had ever been before, except for two memorable occasions—when we’d been stuck in an elevator together at a laser tag place for Mike’s fourteenth birthday, and a memorable car ride when I was twelve and we’d been coming back from playing mini golf in Hartfield, all of us crammed into the car, and somehow, I’d ended up in the way back next to Jesse, Mike on his other side. And Jesse kept turning to talk to Mike, which meant he kept leaning into me, his bare leg pressing against mine. It had been a thirty-minute ride home, and the whole time, I’d prayed for a traffic jam, a road closure, a flat tire—anything to keep it going longer. So, as I sat on the couch next to him now, it was with full awareness that this proximity to him—voluntary, as opposed to car-logistic mandated—was a brand-new thing.
His arm had been draped across the top of the couch when I had walked over, and he didn’t move it when I sat down next to him. It even—and this was enough to make my palms start to sweat—seemed to inch down a little, closer to my shoulders.
You want to watch something?
Jesse asked, leaning over to retrieve the remote from where it had ended up on my side of the couch, which meant he was leaning over me, across me, his arm brushing mine and setting off an explosion of stars in my head.
Sure,
I managed, hoping that I sounded cool and composed and not like I was somewhere between elation and throwing up. Jesse smelled like fabric softer and faintly of the beer he’d been drinking, and when he’d retrieved the remote, he was closer still, and not moving away.
Maybe a movie?
Jesse asked, pointing the remote vaguely toward the television but not moving his eyes from mine.
It was then that the penny dropped and I finally understood what was happening. I may have only kissed four guys, and the closest thing I’d ever had to a boyfriend was a tenth-grade relationship with my chemistry partner, Eddie Castillo, that had lasted all of three weeks, but I hadn’t been born yesterday. I suddenly knew exactly why Jesse had asked me to stay, why I was sitting on the couch next to him, and that it was absolutely not to watch a movie.
Sure,
I said again, making myself keep looking right at him, resisting the urge to leap up and run to my purse so that I could text Siobhan and tell her what was happening and get her advice on what, exactly, I should do. I kicked off my flats and drew my legs up underneath me. A movie sounds great.
Jesse gave me some options, and I pretended to care about this decision, but I knew we were both just marking time. And sure enough, the movie was only a few minutes in—from what I could tell in my distracted state, it seemed to be about a by-the-book cop who switches bodies with his police dog partner—when Jesse looked away from the screen and into my eyes.
Hey,
he said, one side of his mouth kicking up in a smile.
Hey,
I said back, not able to keep the nervousness out of my voice this time. He reached over and tucked a lock of hair behind my ear, then stroked his thumb along my jaw as he tilted his head and leaned in, eyes already closing.
And then he kissed me.
From the first moment our lips touched, it was clear Jesse knew what he was doing. These were not the shy, tentative kisses I’d had before, and I felt my breath catch in my throat as he kissed me, fast and deep. I was trying to keep up, trying to understand that this really, truly was happening. I kissed him back, hoping that my inexperience wasn’t showing. But if it was, Jesse didn’t seem to mind. My heart was galloping even as it felt like I was turning slowly to liquid, pooling into the Fosters’ worn corduroy couch. Jesse broke away for a second and looked down into my eyes, and I tried to catch my breath, tried to gather my thoughts into something beyond his name repeating over and over in my head.
So,
he said, as he slid an arm underneath my hips and emerged a second later with the remote. He gave me a smile like we were sharing a secret and raised an eyebrow. I don’t think we need this on, do you?
I smiled back at him. Probably not.
Jesse pointed the remote at the TV again, as the straitlaced police captain exclaimed, I’ve heard of a dog’s life, but this is ridiculous!
The sound cut off, and it was suddenly darker and quieter in the basement, just me and Jesse and the rain against the windows.
Well then,
he said, smiling at me before bending his head to kiss down my neck, making me gasp and then shiver, while I silently thanked Siobhan for talking me out of wearing the turtleneck I’d been considering. Without even realizing it was happening, he was easing me back on the couch, so that my head was on the armrest. Jesse was above me, his legs tangled in between mine.
He started to kiss me again as he slipped his hands underneath the hem of my sweater, and I drew in a sharp breath. What?
Jesse asked, straightening up and rubbing his hands together. Are they cold?
No,
I said, sitting up a tiny bit more as I looked down at my bare stomach and my sweater that was gathered around my ribs. Jesse started tracing his fingers across my stomach gently, and I could feel myself start to go melty again. But the most I had ever come close to doing before this was kissing—and even then, I’d never gotten to lying-down kissing.
Is this okay?
Jesse asked, his eyes searching mine, his hands on either side of my rib cage, his thumbs tracing slow circles on my bare skin. I looked back at him and hesitated a second before nodding. It wasn’t that I wanted him to stop—it was just that we were moving at speeds far beyond anything I’d ever experienced. It had taken Eddie a week to get up the nerve to hold my hand. I drew in a breath as his hands slipped back under my sweater, and I lost myself in what was happening, in his hands on my skin and our kisses that were growing more and more fevered, until he pulled my sweater over my head and tossed it aside and his hands went straight for the front clasp of my bra. I stiffened, and Jesse leaned back, his brow furrowed.
You okay?
Just—
I glanced up the stairs. Suddenly I was all too aware that at any moment either of Jesse’s parents could come down. And I wasn’t sure that I could deal with the Fosters—both of whom had known me since I was five—seeing me half-naked on their couch, kissing their son. Um . . . are your parents home?
They’re asleep upstairs,
Jesse said confidently, but I saw him look up toward the staircase as well.
I pushed myself up so that I was sitting, feeling like this—whatever it had been—was starting to slip through my fingers. Because I knew I wouldn’t be able to go back to kissing Jesse now that all I could think about was his parents walking in on us.
Tell you what,
he said before I could say anything. He leaned closer to me, smiling. I know where we can go.
He nodded toward the door, and I held my breath, hoping he wasn’t going to suggest his car, when he said, Guesthouse.
I’d never been in the guesthouse, but I’d heard about it—it was why Jesse had always won at elementary school games of hide-and-seek until Mike had figured it out. I nodded, and Jesse held out his hand to help me off the couch. I started to reach for my sweater, but he was already pulling his off, reaching around behind his neck to yank it over his head by the collar. He held it out to me, and I put it on, trying not to be too obvious as I breathed in the smell of him that seemed to permeate the soft gray cashmere. Won’t you be cold?
I asked as I smoothed my staticky hair down. Jesse was now just in his jeans and a white T-shirt, and it had been below freezing the last two nights.
I’ll be fine.
He held out his hand to me, making the world tilt on its axis a little, and led me to the door that opened onto the Fosters’ backyard. But when Jesse opened it, I took a step back. The rain was coming down harder than ever, and the temperature seemed to have dropped since I arrived; I felt myself start to shiver, and I realized a little too late that I’d left my flats over by the couch.
Ready to make a run for it?
Jesse asked, squeezing my hand.
Wait,
I said, taking a step toward the couch. Let me get my shoes.
It’s okay,
Jesse said, and he pulled me back and then closer to him. He leaned down to kiss me and then, a second later, lifted me into his arms. I got you.
I let out a sound that was halfway between a shriek and a laugh, and before I even had the chance to be mortified, Jesse was opening the door and carrying me outside, into the rain.
I wrapped my legs around his waist and he was kissing me as he walked. Jesse stopped for just a moment, both his arms around me tight, and we kissed as the rain poured down on us. It was like I could practically feel his heart beating against mine through his T-shirt. Then Jesse swung my legs over his arm—when had he gotten so strong? He was carrying me like I weighed nothing—and started to half run, half walk across the grass to the guesthouse.
It was a miniature version of the Fosters’ house—a peaked wooden roof and glass panes that ran the length of the house, a balcony on the second story. I thought Jesse was going to go in the main door, but he continued to carry me over to the staircase that led up the side of the house to the second floor. He set me down on the bottom step, but he did it slowly, not dropping me, his hands sliding up my legs to my waist. After you,
he said, and I could hear that his teeth were chattering. Now that we were no longer kissing, I was starting to feel just how cold it was, that my feet especially were getting numb. I hurried up the stairs, Jesse behind me, and then he led the way across the balcony and opened the unlocked second-story door.
Jesse didn’t turn on any of the lights, and I blinked as my eyes adjusted. It was an open loft space—maybe the kitchen and living room were downstairs—just a king-size bed in the center of the room with nightstands flanking it and a bathroom off to the side, the door slightly ajar. Before I could even get my head around the implications of this—because a bed, like an actual bed, seemed somehow really different from a couch—Jesse had shut the door behind us and was in front of me again. He kissed me—this was never, I decided, not going to feel miraculous—but I could feel how cold his lips were and that his teeth were full-on chattering now.
Maybe,
he said, pulling his T-shirt away from his skin—it was practically transparent with the rain—we should get out of these wet clothes?
He raised an eyebrow at me as he said it, and even though I laughed, I couldn’t help thinking that it might not be the worst idea, just from a practical standpoint, all too aware of how my clothes were soaked, heavy and dripping on the beige carpeting.
Jesse looked down at me and, not breaking eye contact, reached back and pulled his T-shirt over his head. I just blinked at him for a second—it was all I could do not to reach out and touch his bare chest, trace my fingers down the ridges of his abs. There was a question in his expression, not quite a challenge, but almost. I stood there, my hair dripping, shivering in Jesse’s sweater, aware all at once of the implications of what was happening here. I was in a room that was mostly bed with the boy I’d loved practically all my life—a college sophomore, who had experience, who would never have taken weeks to try to hold somebody’s hand. He’d kissed me. He’d carried me through the rain. I knew I could leave now—everything that had already happened was so far beyond what I’d ever dreamed might happen tonight—and go home happy, with enough to think about and hold on to for months.
Or I could stay.
I stood there, wishing I didn’t have to decide this right now, that I could take a time-out to think about it and get back to him sometime next week. Suddenly, I thought about the guy I’d been talking to earlier and his parallel universe theory. Maybe there had been another version of tonight, where Jesse had waved good-bye to me from the couch and I’d put my coat on and had just gone home, thinking about him like always, not even daring to imagine the situation I was in could even be possible. What would that Charlie have said to me right now, somehow in the throes of indecision because the thing I’d always dreamed would happen to me was actually happening to me?
I took a breath, telling myself that I could change my mind at any time, that this didn’t mean anything, while knowing full well that I wasn’t going to, and that it did. I pulled Jesse’s sweater over my head, and he looked at me, his eyes searching mine, and I nodded.
Jesse found the guesthouse thermostat and cranked it up and we dove under the covers together, him helping me out of my jeans and then kicking his own off, both of us cracking up at how frozen all our extremities were. I’d touch my foot to his calf and he’d yelp, and then he’d place his hand just over my collarbone and I’d shriek. But soon, as we started kissing again, our legs and feet tangling together, my hands exploring his neck, his chest, his leg, suddenly we weren’t so cold any longer. And it didn’t seem that funny anymore.
While this was happening, while everything was just his lips and his hands and the spot I’d found on his left side that made him straight-up giggle like the Pillsbury Doughboy, a thought flashed into my mind before I could stop it—Mike wouldn’t like this.
But a second later, I pushed this away. I didn’t at all care what Mike thought. As far as I was concerned, he had given up having his opinions matter. He’d made it clear that he didn’t want to be part of our family, when he hadn’t come home in a year. And even though Jesse was Mike’s best friend, and on some level I knew this was crossing a line, it wasn’t like my other siblings hadn’t done it.
Mike and I had grown up seeing Danny and Linnie and J.J. basically star in their own soap opera called Hey, Is Your Friend Dating Anyone? in which they all dated each other’s friends, with disastrous results. So I’d kept my Jesse crush secret from Mike and had never told any of my other siblings either, not even Linnie, because I knew that at some point it would become too valuable to keep. The five of us traded secrets like baseball cards—it was the highest form of currency we had. And I knew that this—me, nearly naked with Mike’s best friend—would have been a big one.
You okay?
Jesse asked, breaking away and looking down at me.
Yes,
I said quickly, trying to focus on him—the last thing I wanted to think about right now was my brother. I’m good.
And he smiled and kissed me again and then, not very much later, he was stroking my hair back from my forehead as he looked into my eyes and asked, Ready?
and I nodded as he reached down to the floor where he’d tossed his jeans and found his wallet in the back pocket.
There was a pause, and then Jesse muttered, Shit.
I looked over, not sure what was happening, but not sure if I should ask, or if it would just highlight the depth of my inexperience.
Are you, um . . . ?
A second too late, I realized I had no idea how to finish this sentence and just let my voice trail off.
So here’s the thing,
Jesse said, swinging his legs back under the covers and looking at me, propping himself up on one elbow. I thought I had one in my wallet—I was almost sure that I did. But . . .
Not there?
I asked, and Jesse shook his head. I wasn’t sure if I was relieved or disappointed—I seemed to be feeling both equally and at the same time. Outside the guesthouse, I heard thunder rumble somewhere off in the distance and then the sound of the rain picking up again.
I could get dressed, go out and buy some,
Jesse said. And—oh shit, my car would need a jump first. My battery died last night. We could take your car. . . .
But even as he was saying this, the conviction was ebbing from his voice, and it seemed like he was feeling the same thing I was—that the moment was passing right now, slipping away from us.
Or maybe,
I said, another time would be better? Like tomorrow or something?
I was warming to this idea even as I was saying it. Tomorrow would give me enough time to talk to Siobhan, get her take on this, let me think about it in the light of day, away from Jesse and the way my brain seemed to turn to mush around him.
Jesse groaned and shook his head. We’re leaving to go skiing tomorrow,
he said. And then I’m heading straight back to school from there.
Rutgers, right?
I asked, hoping this sounded casual and not like I’d committed this fact to memory since the day Mike had told me where Jesse was going, not like I occasionally visited the school’s website, looking at the candid
pictures of the students wearing a suspicious amount of branded school gear, laughing together in the library or the quad, searching for Jesse in the happy multicultural groups, imagining him walking past that building, those stacks of books.
Yeah,
he said, giving me a quick smile, like I’d surprised him. Good memory.
He dropped onto his back and then pulled me closer to him, so that I was lying next to him with my head on his chest. My left arm was getting totally squished against him, but I didn’t know where I could put it if I moved it, and besides, it wasn’t like I needed it for all that much anyway. What about you?
he asked after a moment. Do you know where you’re going yet?
I shook my head slightly, not wanting to move it too much from where it was resting. I hadn’t applied anywhere early decision, so some of my applications weren’t even in yet. Not yet.
He laughed—and I felt it more than heard it, like a rumble in his chest. Well, where do you want to go?
I looked up at him as the names of the schools I was thinking about flashed through my head. But the true answer to Jesse’s question was that I wanted to stay right here, right where we were. And that if I had my choice, I wouldn’t be going anywhere. I’m still figuring it out,
I said, moving closer to him still.
Nothing wrong with that,
Jesse said, running his hand over the top of my head and playing with my hair.
I closed my eyes for a second, just trying to commit it all to memory, since I had a feeling, when I was back in my room, in my house, this would all seem like a faraway dream—that I’d been lying naked in bed with Jesse Foster, his arm around my shoulders, my head on his bare chest, hearing his heartbeat. I didn’t want to think about when I might or might not see him again, or what would be happening next year, where I would be. I just wanted this moment, right now, to last forever.
I opened my eyes and stretched up to kiss him again, and as he kissed me back, he pulled me close and the rain started up again, harder than before.
FRIDAY
CHAPTER 1
Or, Never Trust Anyone Named After a Fruit
THE DAY BEFORE MY SISTER’S wedding, I woke up with a start, like an alarm had just gone off. I looked around my room, heart hammering, trying to figure out what had woken me. I was still half in the dream I’d just had—Jesse Foster was there, my brother Danny, and there was something about Schoolhouse Rock!, that old cartoon my sister had shown me when I was in elementary school . . .
But the harder I tried to hold on to it, the faster the dream seemed to slip away, and I shrugged and lay back down in bed, yawning and pulling my covers over my shoulders, closing my eyes and halfway to falling asleep again before I realized that an alarm was going off.
There was a persistent beeping coming from downstairs, and it sounded like the alarm that monitored the front and kitchen doors of the house, the one we only ever turned on when we were going on vacation and sometimes not even then. It was loud up on the third floor, so I had a feeling it was probably deafening down on the first.
I reached for my glasses from my bedside table and then stretched over to get my phone from the floor, where I’d plugged it in to charge last night. I pulled up my group texts, all of which were for different combinations of my family members. There was even one that had all of us and my brother Mike, though I could see that hadn’t been used in a year and a half now. I pulled up the one I’d been using the last few days, which was all the people that were currently in the house—my mom, dad, my sister, Linnie, and her fiancé, Rodney.
Me
Why is there an alarm going off?
I waited a moment, then got a series of responses, one right after the other.
Mom
There’s something wrong with the panel, we think—should be off in a minute.
Dad
Why did you text? Why not come down and investigate? What if there had been a burglar?
Linnie
IS there a burglar?
Dad
No
Dad
But there COULD have been
Dad
And if the house were being ransacked, I’m not sure the best course of action would be to text about it.
Rodney
Morning, Charlie!
I was about to text back when the alarm stopped suddenly, and my room seemed extra quiet now.
Mom
It’s off.
Me
I hear. I mean, I don’t hear.
Mom
Coming down? Your dad made coffee and Rodney’s picking up donuts
Linnie
Wait, Charlie why are you even still here? Did Stanwich High change their start time?
Mom
I called her out
Me
Mom called me out
Linnie
Why?
Me
So I can help with wedding stuff
Linnie
If that’s the case, why didn’t you get the donuts?
Rodney
I don’t mind!
Me
I’ll be right down.
I dropped my phone onto my comforter and stretched my arms overhead as I did the time math. My sister was right—on a normal Friday, I would be between classes right now, heading to AP History, but not in any real hurry. Once our college acceptances had started to roll in, all the second-semester seniors—myself included—were a lot less concerned about getting to class on time.
I’d given my mom the hard sell last night, telling her that I could be useful, helping with any last-minute things that might crop up before the rehearsal dinner tonight and assuring her that I didn’t have anything big going on at school today. This wasn’t entirely true—I was the editor of the student newspaper, the Pilgrim, and we had our weekly editorial meeting this afternoon. We were also supposed to discuss the final issue of the year. But I knew that my news editor, Ali Rosen, could handle things for me. Normally, I never would have missed a staff meeting—but all my siblings were going to be here this afternoon, and I didn’t want to waste time that I could be spending with them arguing with Zach Ellison about how long his movie reviews were.
I pushed myself off the bed and made it quickly, smoothing back the covers and fluffing up the pillows, then looked around my room, trying to see if it would be considered neat enough in case relatives or bridesmaids wandered by later.
We’d moved to this house before I was born, so though my two oldest siblings could remember living somewhere else (or so they claimed), this house, for me, had always been home, and this had always been my room. It was the smallest of the bedrooms up on the third floor, where all four of the kids’ rooms were. It was probably just what happens when you’re the youngest, but I’d never minded. There was a slope to the ceiling that perfectly formed a nook for my bed, and it wasn’t drafty like Danny and J.J.’s room always was. And best of all, my room was connected to Linnie’s room via a long shared closet, which had been perfect both for stealing my sister’s clothes and for hanging out with her, the two of us getting ready at the same time or sitting on the floor of the closet, our legs stretched out, talking and laughing, the clothes hanging above us.
Figuring that my room was probably as clean as it was going to be, I headed over to my dresser, bent slightly to see myself in the mirror, and ran a brush though my hair. Like all my siblings, I was tall—five nine, with long light-brown hair and a slightly crooked nose due to a trampoline mishap when I was six. I also had hazel eyes, the only one of my siblings to have them—like for the last kid, the genetic lottery had been split down the middle. I tugged the brush through the ends, wincing—my hair had reached the length where it would get tangled in a second. But I’d also gotten used to having it long, and even as I knew I should cut it, I also knew I probably wouldn’t.
I pulled a sweatshirt on over my pajamas and was halfway to the door when I heard my phone buzz, the sound muffled. I looked around and, after a moment, realized that I’d accidentally made the bed over it. I retrieved it from under the covers and smiled when I saw it was my favorite brother calling.
Hi, Danny.
I pulled the phone away for just a second to check the time. It’s early out there.
Well,
he said, a laugh somewhere in his voice, some of us have to fly all the way from California.
You could have come in last night.
This was what I’d been pressing for for the last few months, since having just a weekend with my siblings didn’t seem like nearly enough. I’d been trying to get everyone to come on Tuesday or Wednesday, so that we’d get some Grant time before relatives and guests descended. But only Linnie and Rodney had come home early—both Danny and J.J. had to work and could only take Friday off.
Not this again.
I could hear a smile somewhere in my brother’s voice.
Wait,
I said, my eyes going wide. Why aren’t you on the plane?
"I’m calling you from the plane, he said, and I could suddenly picture him, on the tarmac in San Francisco, kicked back in his first-class seat, a cup of to-go coffee by his side.
You’re allowed to make calls from planes, you know. We haven’t taken off yet and I wanted to check in. How’s it all going?"
Great,
I said immediately. It’s been awesome to have Linnie and Rodney here again.
I mean is everything going okay with the wedding? No last-minute disasters?
It’s all good. Clementine’s taking care of everything.
Glad I’m getting my money’s worth.
You should be sure to mention that in your speech.
Danny laughed. Maybe I just will.
Clementine Lucas was Linnie and Rodney’s wedding coordinator—Danny had offered to pay for a planner for them, calling it his engagement present, when they’d moved up the wedding date. They had gotten engaged two years ago but seemed in no real hurry to set a date or plan their wedding, and we’d had a running joke that they’d get married sometime in the next decade. The only thing they knew was that they wanted to get married at our house—it had been Linnie’s dream since she was little.
Since Rodney was in his third year of law school and studying for the bar and Linnie was finishing up her master’s in historic preservation, this spring was probably not the best time for them to be attending a wedding, much less planning their own. But when my parents told us they were putting the house up for sale, things on the wedding front suddenly went into hyperdrive.
I looked over at the stack of cardboard boxes that I’d pushed up against my closet door, like that might make me forget about why they were there in the first place. I was supposed to begin the process of cleaning out my room, because our house had been bought by Lily and Greg