Wake Up: Portraits of Homeless New York
By Alan Emmins
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When Alan Emmins met a homeless French girl dancing on a makeshift dance floor in the Freedom Tunnel, she challenged him to try homelessness himself to better understand what he was writing about. He took up the challenge.
Alan spent 31 days living homeless in New York to capture portraits of a society full of surprises. The people he met were many and varied. Whether happy or angry, suspicious or protective, or just enjoying some company, their openness and generosity cast a beautiful light on an otherwise dark world. WAKE UP is a humorous, tender and tragic portrait of an invisible New York City
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Wake Up - Alan Emmins
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Acknowledgements
I would like to thank all the characters that I met on the streets, especially those who appear in this book, but also those who don’t.
Also, special thanks to the Society of Authors, everybody at PTH, UHO, Midnight Run, Bowery Mission, Bowery Outreach, the Salvation Army, the Holy Apostles and All Angels (especially those who fed me), the Asian lady who bought my poem on the steps of Madison Square Garden, Stephen Mallon, Michael Sofronski, Laila Seewang, and Matt and Lora Dougherty (my New York contingent) for continuing friendship, spare bedrooms and sofas.
Also by Alan Emmins
Mop Men: Inside the World of Crime Scene Cleaners (Thomas Dunne Books)
New York City Homeless
Statistics*
Over the last four years, close to 100,000 New Yorkers experienced homelessness.
Each night, over 32,000 homeless individuals sleep in the New York City shelter system, a 44 per cent increase compared to the 1990s. This includes more than 13,600 children, a 55 per cent increase compared to the 1990s. Thousands more sleep on city streets and in other public places.
There are over 1,000 soup kitchens and food pantries in New York City and 2,700 in New York State. They serve around 60 million meals each year to hungry men, women and children.
Every day they turn away over 2,500 people.
Surveys show that almost 75 per cent of homeless adults sleeping on the streets of New York suffer from chronic mental illness. Approximately 90 per cent of homeless New Yorkers are black or Latino, although only 53 per cent of New York City’s total population is black or Latino.
There are more homeless New Yorkers in the new millennium than at any time since the Great Depression.
*Coalition for the Homeless, State of the Homeless reports 2005/6; Youth Services Opportunities Project.
Prologue
Four years ago, in New York City, I walked into a train tunnel with my friend, the photographer Michael Sofronski. We hopped up onto a small concrete wall and shimmied between two sections of fence. Once on the other side, we walked down a precariously placed plank of wood until we were back on somewhat uneven ground. We were working on an article about urban explores – people who explore abandoned buildings, bridges and tunnels. Three well-experienced urbanites were taking us into the tunnel to show us some artwork that had been painted deep inside.
As soon as we jumped the fence a homeless man stepped out from his makeshift house and positioned himself in front of us. Holding out his hand he said, ‘Halt! Who goes there?’
He was an elderly man. His hair was grey, as was the beard that came down to his belly. He was slim, which reduced the garden gnome quality that the beard, rosy cheeks and green fishing hat lent him.
We explained that we were going to look at the murals on the tunnel walls. ‘People live in there,’ he told us. ‘Don’t touch anything.’ Then, as we shuffled away, he called out, ‘But enjoy the art. It’s very good!’
He was an edgy character with a touch of menace in his voice. His twitching and fidgeting gave the impression that he could change his emotional standpoint at any time. He represented the stereotype of a homeless man: dirty, smelly, a little crazy and living in a shack made from society’s discarded matter.
We walked on through a landscape polka-dotted with the tennis balls that had made their way over from the nearby tennis court. Our eyes were drawn to the odd rat, the drip, drip of water from above and the darkness that loomed ahead of us. We were alert and nervous.
But then, just before the darkness, caught in the light that poured in from the grates in the highway above, was a pirouetting figure.
Something altogether less obvious.
We moved nearer and, as we did, a young girl came into view. Her long black hair was tied with a piece of gold lamé. At her feet, you couldn’t help but notice, was a dance floor.
The tunnel floor was uneven earth. It was rutted and scattered with bricks, broken buckets, odd shoes, hats, wires, shopping trolleys and tyres. The dance floor, roughly twenty feet square, was made of plywood. And there she danced – in a train tunnel, on a dance floor.
Michael and I were no longer focussed on our urban exploration story. Our minds were with this dancing girl. Who was she? Where did she come from? Why was she dancing in the tunnel?
I cut away from the group and approached her. As unassumingly as I could I said, ‘Excuse me? I’m sorry to bother you.’
She stopped dancing and gave me a hard stare as the music, playing slowly due to the flat batteries in her portable stereo, whined on in the background. Her full lips were compressed, not in a pout, but in determination, as a show of strength. ‘What is it?’ she asked, with an unmistakable French accent and attitude.
‘We were just going into the tunnel to look at the murals. I was wondering if I could ask you some questions on the way out?’
‘No. I am leaving now. I will not be here when you come out.’
With that she picked up her little portable stereo and walked away. She had, however, answered one of my questions. She was French. She was a French girl dancing in a train tunnel in New York City, with a homemade dance floor beneath her feet.
I walked back and joined Michael and the urban explorers.
Michael asked eagerly, ‘What did she say? Did she say anything?’
‘Yes,’ I told him. ‘She said she was leaving.’
Further into the tunnel we stood in front of the murals, each around three yards high. They ran connected in a long line like a cartoon strip, maybe forty yards in total, although there was no direct theme or relation between one and the next. The murals were placed in the tunnel, known thereafter as the ‘Freedom Tunnel’, by artists ‘Freedom’ Chris, Smith and Sane. In one mural an angular faced man in a beige rain mac held the wrists of an invisible somebody who was holding a gun, and said, by way of a speech bubble, ‘DROP THE GUN MOLE!’ While his would-be attacker said simply, ‘AK!’ This scene ran into a title frame that stated ‘There’s no way like the American way.’ Another frame was styled after the branding for Coca Cola, but only showed half the logo, the ‘Coca’ half. But the really powerful image was of red and white horizontal stripes, over which was written a text.
In December 1995 the forgotten men of the tunnel received city housing. They’ve just begun to move.
One of the things that made these murals so special is that the only people who were able to enjoy them were the few remaining homeless living in the tunnel, and the urban explorers who were brave enough to risk the unknown and the third rail to come here to see them. It was a very personal exhibition, and while Michael and I felt honoured to be taken there, our minds kept drifting elsewhere.
She was French and she had a dance floor beneath her feet.
As we left the tunnel we stopped in a sectioned-off area that looked as if it had once been a platform. It was about sixty yards long and consisted mostly of rubble and some pillars. The spaces between the pillars were piled high with debris, apart from one section, which contained five televisions, a radio and a dining table. Looking cautiously over our shoulders we went to investigate, making sure not to touch anything. On one shelf there was a saltshaker and a bottle of ketchup.
We quickly moved on. We were, after all, in somebody’s home. There was no sign of the French girl as we ambled past the dance floor, not really wanting to leave. But we did see, sitting in a chair, the Guardian Gnome who had accosted us upon entry.
He was sitting with another man, who asked us, ‘Did you like the murals?’ Was he letting us know that they had been talking about us – or was it something else?
‘Yeah, I saw you in there. You went into my house, and I was watching you.’
‘We didn’t touch anything!’ we all sang in unison.
‘I know you didn’t,’ he said, taking a swig from a bottle. ‘Like I said, I was watching you.’
Unlike Michael and myself, the urban explorers knew what they were talking about. They stood chatting about the history of the tunnel and the artists who had painted the murals with the two homeless men.
When the opportunity arose I asked, ‘Do you know the girl who was here dancing earlier?’
The Guardian Gnome’s friend, who had introduced himself as JR, was grinning. ‘Yeah,’ he said.
‘Who is she?’
‘That’s my girlfriend, V.’
‘V?’
‘Yeah, V.’
I didn’t want to push him for more information about V, but the fact that she went by a single letter just fascinated me more. What did this V stand for? Veronica? Valerie? Vera? When we left, I asked the two men if it would be OK to come back and talk to them another day.
One said, ‘Sure. Just don’t go poking your noses into people’s homes without an invitation.’
Michael and I said, ‘No, no, no, we wouldn’t do that,’ even though, in reality, we already had.
Three days later Michael and I ventured back into the tunnel. We knew what we wanted. We were journalists and we thought we had stumbled into what could be the most intriguing, beautiful and untold story of our careers thus far.
And in the distance, bathed in the light that poured in through the grated highway above, there she was.
She wasn’t quite as cold as before, ‘Ah, it is you again?’
‘Yes, it is us again.’
‘I do not want to do…what is it, a speak with you. I know nothing of the paintings inside, so I do not know why you come back here.’
‘We came to see your boyfriend.’
‘He invite you here?’
‘Well, yes.’
‘Well, he is not here. But maybe he come back soon. It is up to you if you will wait for him.’
‘OK, we’ll wait if that’s OK with you?’
‘I do not care.’
‘How long have you been dancing?’ I asked.
Not wanting to talk to us, she said, ‘I don’t know.’ Then, perhaps feeling rude, she said, ‘Maybe…’ Then, possibly remembering she was French, she said, ‘I don’t know.’
‘My wife is a dancer, too.’ I mentioned my wife only to try to help her relax, as if by having a wife I had already been accepted by the female fraternity and she could now feel safe. It was a stupid notion, but she did brighten at the mention of another dancer.
‘She is a dancer? Here? In New York?’
Now I couldn’t get V be quiet if I wanted to. She kept firing dance questions at me, questions I didn’t have the knowledge to answer, though this didn’t seem to worry V.
JR never arrived and, not wanting to push our luck by telling V that we would like to write a story about her, we left, saying that we would drop by again in a few days.
‘Maybe I could take some pictures of you next time?’ Michael asked as we said goodbye.
‘Yes, this will be OK. But you must bring batteries for my radio.’ She showed us her radio and opened the battery compartment so that we could see which kind of battery was needed.
The next time we visited V we were armed with batteries and a dance magazine that my wife had brought back from one of her classes. V looked happy to see us and when Michael handed her the batteries she could barely contain her excitement. She tore at the packaging.
V danced for an hour that afternoon while Michael photographed her.
We returned a few days later and met V and her boyfriend. Michael gave them some prints from his shoot. Eventually we asked V and JR if we might write a story about them, about the French ballet dancer who lives in the tunnel. They thought it was interesting, but weren’t overly enthusiastic.
Then V said, ‘But if you really want to write about homelessness, you need to come and live with us for a while. You can’t write about it properly without trying it.’
That was the summer of 2002. A few days after that last conversation I returned to Europe via San Francisco, vowing to return to New York to do the story very soon. But the day I flew to California my wife told me she was pregnant. It wouldn’t have been right to live on the streets of New York while my wife was pregnant with our first child. We returned to Europe and the story was shelved indefinitely.
It was a great regret that I never went back to write that story. V was always at the back of my mind. Whenever I read something about the homeless, some stereotypical portrayal of a thieving crack addict capable of eating a child or a rat in ten seconds flat, I would get annoyed – annoyed because I had had a chance to show that the homeless don’t all eat babies, the homeless are not all doped out and trying to rob passers-by. There was another side to homelessness. I believed there was a story where those sensational headlines could be replaced with beauty, character and honesty. V was always there, pirouetting in my mind as a reminder that I could have demonstrated this. The more I read accounts of the ‘mole people’ scurrying about in tunnels after a rat supper, the more angry I got that I hadn’t written the story about V. One day I found myself stomping from the living room to the kitchen, frustrated by another homeless story. But as the kettle boiled it occurred to me that there was nothing stopping me from actually going and writing the story. It would be worth it just to quell my indignation.
My wife wasn’t immediately taken with the idea.
‘Couldn’t you do something else?’ she asked, and mentioned a few of the other story ideas I had been toying with. But as we spoke about the homeless project I became more animated by it. I simply had to do it.
My plan was to document, as plainly as possible, the lives of the homeless people of New York City. Not just where they slept and where they ate, but who they were. I wanted to meet the personalities behind the cardboard signs and I knew I would fail if I clocked off at six and went home for dinner. I knew too that if I had money and bought stories with cigarettes, food and drink, people would basically tell me anything they thought I wanted to hear. I would get nothing but mythology and drama. I set myself some rules: I would not try to explain or judge or analyse. I didn’t want to delve into anyone’s background. I decided that I would not conduct a single interview, aware that all I would get from an interview would be answers to questions. People would tell me what they wanted to tell me and I would reproduce the information as I received it. I also decided that I would tell everybody I met that I was a journalist and that I was writing a book about homelessness. This was a simple decision; I couldn’t just steal their characters. I decided that I would start this project with ten dollars in my pocket. I didn’t know how long it would take to adjust, how I would raise money or gather food. This ten dollars would allow me a short transition period while I found my bearings, but once it was gone I was on my own.
I also had to allow for some practical measures. My wife agreed to my undertaking the project on the condition that I call in every five days or so to let her and my daughter know that I was alive and well, so I allowed myself a twenty-dollar phone card. I also needed some kind of safety net, in case I got hurt or arrested, so I dropped my passport and my Visa card at the office of a friend in case of emergency.
Once I got out there I realised pretty quickly that I would not be making all the decisions about how this book would be written. Many characters insisted on giving me their background information whether I asked for it or not. Sometimes background is all they gave me.
‘Oh, you’re a journalist, what do you want to know? Ask me anything.’
‘Well, actually I’m not really…‘
‘I been homeless for…’ and out would pour long, ranting spews of dialogue that couldn’t be interrupted. Often the dialogues were random and messy, jabbing at my brain as I tried to make sense of the meaning and the rhythm. They threw me off guard and took me completely out of my comfort zone, but still they managed to be beautiful and incredible and intriguing. My days and movements were mixed. On some I would find myself marching up and down town, across and back and forth all day long, tiring myself but needing to chase food or make it to soup kitchens on time. The areas in which I spent most of my time were Union Square, Penn Station and the Upper West Side from Westside Park to Central Park. On other days, due to sore feet, tiredness or slight depression, I would just sit in parks, watching other people live their lives and wondering what my own family was doing at that moment. But the nature of the characters I met, and their effect on my behaviour, led to a very nomadic experience. At first I used them as a safeguard, barely brave enough to leave their sides. Eventually, as I grew more accustomed to sleeping on the streets, I would branch off on my own. But I wasn’t prepared for the solitude of life on the streets, and very quickly I found myself missing not just particular characters, but general and friendly contact. A meaningless chinwag was what I often sought and. Without the option to call people and ask, ‘Hey, how’s it going?’, I would find myself marching in their direction, desperate as I often was just to talk, to hear an external voice.
When I embarked on this project I hoped that I might find V, and it was with her in mind that I stepped off the bus at Port Authority, into a bright, sweltering hot midtown New York. Inside my rucksack I had two pairs of clean socks, two pairs of clean boxer shorts, one clean T-shirt, a can of deodorant, a toothbrush and toothpaste, a large scrapbook and a pen and pencil.
I stood for a minute on the busy sidewalk of 8th Avenue, with the Port Authority Bus Terminal looming over me. I looked around at all the madness: that melting pot of race, temperament and attitude. I watched large crowds scurry like ants over the crossings, daring the cars to mess with them. I soaked in the noise: the different voices, the cars driving over metal gratings, the taxis honking. I turned my nose to the many smells that rose with the wind. This was to be my home for the next thirty-one days: a city where the people seem larger than the gargantuan buildings that fail to pen them in.
And so with the sun raising a sweat on my brow, I fell into a blinding, shaking panic.
What on earth did I think I was doing?
DAY 1 - Welcome to the Jungle
Manhattan is saturated with news of the forthcoming Republican Convention, to be held at Madison Square Garden in August. Yesterday’s Daily News took a look at how this will affect the homeless of midtown New York. It mentioned nothing about how the Republicans might address the problem of homelessness but, curiously, told how the city was doing its best to hide the homeless during the Convention. The authorities want the homeless out of sight so that Republican eyes won’t have to take in the spectacle of their fellow Americans eating from garbage bins. According to the article, the police have already started sweeping the midtown area and moving the homeless along. Benches have been removed too, so that the homeless have nowhere to rest or sleep.
Madison Square Garden is at the heart of Manhattan. It’s a big block of cement from 31st Street to 33rd Street, between 7th and 8th Avenue, guarded by huge glass towers. It is a landmark for homelessness in New York, and it occurs to me that if I want to document it I’d better get down there quickly, before all the homeless have been scooped up and deposited out of sight. Already, on hour one of my project, I am diverging from my plan and, instead of heading uptown to the tunnel to find V, I turn in the opposite direction.
I arrive at Madison Square Garden later than expected. A rainstorm had me pinned under a sunshade in Bryant Park for the best part of five hours. It’s midnight and due to the weather there is little activity around Madison Square Garden tonight. I sit on a newspaper on the steps in front of The Garden, just next to the elevators that shuttle commuters down into Penn Station.
If I look left and up 7th Avenue, I can see the bright lights from Time Square lighting up the sky. It’s an incredible display of wattage. Around the entrance to Penn Station there is a neon sign with orange-dotted letters that advertise this month’s sports and musical fixtures. Madonna is playing, so is Eric Clapton. I watch cars, mostly yellow cabs, as they glide past on the slick, shiny road. Eventually I muster the sense to take a walk around the block. I pass a hot dog stand on the corner, where a dark-skinned man with little trade stands bored under a sunshade.
Halfway along the side street, 33rd, I notice a service road that goes under Madison Square Garden. On the far side of this I see a homeless black man with dreads, wearing a thick, padded, dusty coat and a woollen beanie hat. I am wearing a T-shirt and sweating in the humidity as I walk. The man just stands there, stock-still, cool as a cucumber in his winter clothes.
I enter the service area.
I approach the man, although I avoid eye contact. I squat down against a wall about ten feet away from him. He hasn’t moved a muscle in the time it took me to reach him, not even the flicker of an eye. Within