The Price of Desire: The Price Series, #1
By PE Kavanagh
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Monique's exit from her blazing culinary career has left her heart raw and cold. Add in a terrible history with cheating men, and her dating life is nothing but limp.
Enter Marco, whose five-chili-pepper hotness could well be the spicy antidote to her bland streak. A sizzling weekend in Las Vegas melts her defenses like butter in a hot pan. But how much heat can she handle?
Meanwhile, thousands of miles away, all Lalune wants to do is sing. Problem is, she's underwater. Literally.
This despairing mermaid needs a way out. Only a miracle will do.
These sexy and uplifting tales travel from the dark depths of the Pacific Ocean to the bright lights of Sin City, connecting in a deliciously surprising twist that will titillate and inspire.
The Price of Desire, Book One in The Price Series, is a steamy, standalone novel with a blend of contemporary romance and magical fantasy.
Previously released as Fish Tails & Lady Legs.
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The Price of Desire - PE Kavanagh
1
Underwater
She let out a deep sigh, the bubble containing her would-be sound floating all the way up to the surface, untouched. There it lingered for just a moment before popping softly, heard by no one. There were numerous sounds deep in the ocean, but none of that variety. A sigh was not a productive issuance from a mermaid and so dissolved into nothing.
It was another day in the cold, dark ocean for Lalune. Another day yearning for anything outside her watery home.
Lalune! Where are you?
She heard her sisters calling for her. Or more accurately, she felt the vibration of the sound. She supposed it was time enough to get started with the day. Floating around wasn't going to grow her legs any faster.
Lalune was partly glad to have her reveries interrupted. Pondering the hopelessness of her life did not make for a wonderful start of the day. There was plenty to do to keep busy in the vast ocean, and many creatures to keep her occupied and even entertained. Maybe a bit of distraction would be helpful.
Lalune, why are you always hiding out in Nori Cove? Do you have treasure back there? I can't imagine what could be so interesting?!
I like to have a little private time‚ for my thoughts. Is that so bad? I'm not hiding anything, I promise.
Did anyone believe her? Did she believe herself?
That sounds terribly boring, sister. And it makes you morose. Who's ever heard of a sad mermaid?? It's just not natural. We are the most beautiful and interesting creatures on the planet. What is there to be sad about?
I'm not sad, necessarily. I just like to think about things. And I think all of the world’s creatures are beautiful and interesting. Even… the land-walkers.
She knew this statement would not be taken well, but said it anyway.
Ughhh. They are just awful! Clumsy, rude, unkind. Haven't you seen how they act? Thank goodness they could never be in our world. And I would never want to go out there. Especially since everything is perfect down here.
Lalune nodded, pretending she agreed. In her heart, that was the furthest from the truth. Most mermaids had nothing but disdain for the land-walkers, but Lalune felt differently. In her eyes, they were splendid.
Not that she knew this from any personal experience. The stories she heard from her friends and family were amplified to grand proportions by her own imagination. An entire fantasy lived in her head, about their charmed lives, and the wide variety of experiences they must be having. The one that was most intriguing, of course, was their ability to make music. She could hear it sometimes, all the way from the distant shore, vibrating through the water. It was mesmerizing.
Many of the creatures in her world could make music – she especially loved the whales’ song – but it was not the same. A sense of joy, not just utility, permeated the land-walker’s music. They made music for the sheer pleasure of it, not just for basic communication. Lalune knew this had to be true based on how the sounds she heard made her feel.
Despite all the others thinking it was reckless and ridiculous, because only land-walkers sing and sea creatures hum, Lalune loved to sing. The pleasure of hearing her sound, carried on the soft breeze above her home, made her feel alive. Yet her song was stifled and muted in the sea, where she was supposed to keep herself hidden.
She knew that on land it could be heard in its fullness, from the few times she had snuck over to the island and let herself sing. She knew, without knowing why or how, that it would be on land that her voice, and her life, would find its purpose. Each day, it became more and more difficult to stay silent in the depths.
Lalune had known since she was a child that she had been built for something different than the life she was living, if only she could figure out how to get it. What she wanted most in the world, enough to give up everything she currently knew, was to be a land-walker. To have two beautiful legs that would carry her around on the land, and to hear her song, her true voice, carried through the air. This would be her salvation.
Still, the ocean contained everything she knew. Why couldn't she be satisfied with that life? Why did she come to believe that her only hope was to leave everything behind? No one else seemed to suffer this same malady, this discontent. Her friends and family were perfectly happy with their glorious kingdom.
A large tail flapping in front of her once again startled her out of her daydreams. Her sisters had swum away and she was supposed to be following them.
Off she went to live another day in the life of a magical mermaid. There were adornments to create, games to play, and beautiful scenes to explore. She and her sisters were close (other than the big secret Lalune carried) and had a vast repertoire of diversions to keep them occupied. Occasionally they would sneak up towards the surface and watch the land-walkers fumble around in the water. It caused no shortage of giggles, except from Lalune, who observed with awe.
She could see herself, wiggling those legs and needing that funny facemask to breathe. All their awkwardness was endearing and she could only imagine how poorly she would do in their environment. It would be impossible, actually.
She wanted to know the feeling of sand between her toes, sun on her skin and the beauty of her song in the faces of those who heard it. Could she find her boldness, her voice, and take her place in the other world?
The legends said it was possible to transform, to grow legs where her tail used to be, but what if it wasn’t true? What if Lalune was destined to live out her days swallowing this secret, ashamed and unheard?
It was too easy to hide in the darkness, and nearly impossible to live with her desire. Without being able to sing freely, all the magic in the ocean was useless to her. Her beauty, her talent, even the love in her heart, were all wasted.
There was no one to talk to about this, and certainly no guides she could ask for help. The land-walkers knew of song, but not of mermaids, and the mermaids knew nothing of a two-legged life. It was a leap of faith, to believe all the pieces would come together, but what choice did she have?
Lalune’s search for someone to guide her, someone who knew the way, had to be done in secrecy. No one could discover her desire to leave their underwater kingdom. There were severe consequences for mermaids who tried to cross over and did not succeed. Making it all the way through to the other side would be her only option.
What scared her most was knowing she could never come back. The comfort and familiarity of her dark depths, as unsatisfactory as they were, would be lost to her forever. She would live or die as a land-walker.
2
Monique
M ama!
Was it wrong to wish that your children were mute?
Maamaa!!
Okay, maybe it would’ve been easier if I were deaf.
MAAAAAAAAMMMMAAAAAAAA!!!
Somebody better be about to lose a limb over there, I fumed, as I stomped over to the bedroom.
Yes! What requires so much yelling?
I was also yelling. They looked at me with wide eyes, startled by my testy response. Guilt poured over me.
Mama, Lola was doing a perfect handstand! She did it, she really did it! Oh my gosh, it was so amazing. She just balanced there like her hands were her feet. It was so cool...
My baby Claire jumped up and down, just like her aunt Lizzy always did.
Lola couldn’t have been standing any taller or smiling any broader. She’d been working so hard to do this, and now couldn’t even speak, while happily accepting the accolades from her usually critical little sister.
Let me see,
I said with a broad smile.
The girls set themselves up near the wall and Claire positioned herself as the spotter. I noticed how much she had grown; she was nearly as tall as her older sister. I had stopped being confused by the balance of power between my girls. Lola was older but her sister was the boss.
Claire had exhibited brilliance and domination from the outset. I prayed she would find the right outlet for those strong characteristics. Lola on the other hand, was a natural athlete, but spent more time in her inner world than with others. I wondered what medium she would eventually use to express the thoughts she naturally withheld.
I looked at both girls, one standing so powerfully upside down, not even using the wall for balance, and the other being an encouraging and supportive coach. There was almost too much pride to fit in my adult body. They embodied everything I lacked. Lola had an uncanny sense of her body, so graceful and strong, and so unlike the gangly, clumsy one I carried around, while Claire was a born leader, which I certainly was not.
Lola landed fluidly and asked, How did it look, Mama?
"It was perfect, baby. You totally nailed it. Like a flagpole. I really liked how you held your arms really straight and pointed your feet. Wow! I am completely impressed.
And you, Claire... what a great coach you are! I didn't know you could do that. You guys are incredible.
I wrapped my arms around my girls. My strong, beautiful, talented girls. I was happy. And lucky. To be their mother and to have this life and to witness their greatness. I buried them with deep squeezes and slurpy kisses. Who's hungry?
We all scrambled to the kitchen so that I could finish making their dinner. This was our brand new life, which still felt awkward, even after more than a year. Just like relearning how to ride a bike, the process was causing some soreness in tender places.
My knives were getting dull, leaving me frustrated with the extra effort I had to put in to get through the carrots. I had gotten lazy, after having been so fanatical for all those years. Everything was harder, now that I was out of practice. But the girls loved it anyway. They didn’t complain that my vegetables weren’t perfectly diced, or that my sauces were lumpy instead of silken.
That meal was all delicious flavors and sweet little-girl giggles. With every smile and compliment from them, I remembered how un-accommodating I had been to their calls just a short while before. And all they wanted was to celebrate with me. My frequent companions - shame and inadequacy - settled in to either side of my squeaky chair at the kitchen table.
I couldn’t claim that motherhood was new to me - Lola was eleven and Claire was about to turn seven - but the learning curve just hadn’t let up. Sometimes I reverted to being the selfish little girl who had always been in the middle of all my siblings’ needs, and just wanted her own time and privacy. I didn’t want to share and I didn’t want to be responsible. Sometimes, all I wanted was to be invisible.
That little girl had grown up and become somebody else’s mother. Despite how much I adored my own girls, I couldn’t seem to get past my own self-centeredness. What had made me so selfish and needy? Why couldn’t I just be the person I wanted to be?
I was resisting allowing the answer to complete itself in my head, when my phone rang with the pop song Lola had installed as my ringtone. It was Nora, my older sister.
What’s up?
I asked, startled out of a potential spiral.
Can you come over tomorrow night?
I guess… is something going on?
Nope.
Her answer was sharper than I expected. We just want to see you. I know it’s been a shit-storm over there. Just come over, okay?
I wasn’t really in the mood to hang out with my sisters. They’d want to talk about all the drama and it was just too exhausting. I would’ve much rather avoided and denied, frankly. But there was no getting out of it. When Nora wanted something, she got it.
Fine.
I knew I sounded ungracious. Thanks Nora. See you tomorrow.
Family. Mine was better than most, I had to admit, but we were an odd bunch with such diverse interests, strengths, and personalities. Of my siblings, Nora, the oldest, had been given an extra portion of brains, Danny got the best personality and Lizzy, the baby, got exuberance. My gift? A strange affinity to blades and flames, and the ability to create something from nearly nothing.
That skill had served me well in the kitchen, but kept me constantly in the world of my imaginings. It made me a daydreamer, like our mother and my oldest daughter. It also allowed my hypersensitivity to blossom into fantastical stories that helped me easily escape the world, for better or worse. Family, however, was something I had yet to successfully escape.
Bedtime was easier than usual. The meal seemed to have shifted us past my earlier grumpiness and everyone was in a good mood. I didn’t allow the worry about going to my sister’s consume me, although I could feel it trying to make its way to the front of my thoughts.
The girls and I fell into bed playful and snuggly, a tangle of little bodies and big bodies, all vying for the best patch of bed and the most comfortable corner of pillow. We didn’t do it as often anymore, but when we piled into my enormous bed, I had a glimpse into the feelings I used to have… that everything, in fact, was perfectly fine. The next thing I realized, we’d all fallen asleep. As it had been for so many nights, sleep did not last.
I squinted at the clock across the room. Shit, my eyesight seemed to get worse by the day. Did it say 2 or 3? Did it matter? I was awake.
A few attempts at re-settling didn’t prove useful, so I undertook the task of untangling myself from my babies and heading downstairs to my little office. There was nothing so urgent that it needed my attention in the middle of the night, but still I felt it was important to use the rare stretch of peace and quiet fully. Might as well get some work done.
I couldn’t shake the bad feeling about the next day. Sure, I’d been avoiding my family since all hell broke loose in my life. Everyone else seemed to be doing so well in their lives, and it had been one disaster after another for me. After such an illustrious start, too. Oh well, I knew it was just temporary. At least I hoped so.
I just didn’t want to get lectured. Or questioned. I knew they disapproved of my career change, leaving my soul’s calling. They wanted me to live the grand life I used to, the rising star chef whose life was all passion and glory. I didn’t know how to be that woman anymore and I just didn’t have the strength. My girls had to come first. My sisters didn’t understand.
It was no secret that I had walked away from the only area in my life in which I had consistently felt successful. I had been flying, then cut my own wings off to be with the other land-dwellers. There, on the hard ground, I was hardly good for anything other than cooking, which I wasn’t doing any more.
My relationships were pathetic, I was never satisfied with how much time or attention I gave my girls, and the work of suppressing my primary creative outlet had left me tired and grumpy. But I couldn’t see any other choice. At least for the moment. I was a single mom – I needed a paycheck and a career that did not have me out all night, every night.
The job at the magazine had been a godsend. It not only payed the bills, but also let me do something that was useful to the world. I could live in the inventions of my imagination, a place I landed in quite often, and was happy enough to be writing. Sure, it wasn’t the same passion I felt for the kitchen, but it was good enough. It was the right choice for my family.
The bright lights of my screensaver reminded me that the Valentine’s Day article about romantic meals in the city needed finishing. Having already done the research on restaurants offering the most unique experiences, all that remained was to include recipes for people to cook at home. Romantic meals were a part of my distant past, at that point, and I could just as easily have been researching Mars.
I rarely let myself feel the depth of my loneliness, but it was always with me. It had been a string of failed attempts at love since my failed marriage. I had to be thankful that Jeff and I were now on good terms, but the road getting there nearly destroyed me.
All the stories – my divorce, the end of my career as a rising star in the restaurant world, the recent deaths of my brother and parents – streamed before my eyes like a personalized movie from which I couldn’t pull myself away.
So often life, in all its dimensions, had been too much for me to handle, and it had been feeling like that quite often during those days. When I turned away from reality and slipped into the stories in my head, or on the page, life became Goldilocks’ version of just right. In my fantasies I was brave, kind and utterly capable. I stopped betrayal in its tracks, and dished out a healthy dose of whatever was needed for any situation. My daydreams replaced my relationships and my time in the kitchen. No need for lovers when the ones in my mind were always perfect.
A blade of light pierced through the darkness of the night. I was surprised to see that I was still sitting in front of my computer, believing instead that I had traveled back in time to relive the tumultuous events that still shook everything around me. It was a good story, I thought to myself. I wondered if I would ever write it down. First, I had to complete those darned recipes, before the sun rose and a new day began.
3
A Family Affair
It had been seriously high tension at the magazine during the previous week, and I was pleased to have an excuse to leave early. Unlike my sisters, the staff seemed afraid to talk to me, the recent events as ugly as things got in gourmet cuisine publishing. Not that I was looking forward to going to Nora’s either. At least I had the 45-minute drive to clear my head.
I had recently published an article about one-upmanship among younger chefs, and how that was negatively impacting the level of art in our culinary community. It included a mention of one of the rising stars in our city. My point had been the bigger issue of over-the-top cuisine, but it was true that I had not spoken very kindly of that chef, and he didn’t like it.
The scorned chef publicly called me the has-been that never was, flaming me in every media outlet he could. It created quite the storm, not only at my magazine, but also throughout the restaurant world. He had used his huge audience and willing media attention to express his rage at what he took as my defamation of his skills.
The magazine continued to be conflicted about whether to respond or not, and so we all stewed in the hot water, waiting for someone to do something. Most people thought that someone was me.
The truth was that I knew chefs; I used to be one. I knew the industry rewarded hot-headedness. This young man had felt his fifteen minutes of fame being threatened by some nobody and lashed out. It really wasn’t as dramatic as everyone was making it out to be, but no one wanted to be left out of the conversation, so a slew of media had been devoted to this ridiculous battle.
He and I had become the polarizing points for anyone who had an opinion about food. There were those who saw his behavior as histrionic and were extremely insulted on my behalf. Then there were those who took my commentary personally, as if I had called their children dumb and ugly. I’d been doing what I did best – staying silent.
I only hoped my sisters hadn’t caught wind of this scandal. It would be yet another point on which to berate me.
I arrived at Nora’s house, the implicit shared ground for all family matters, to find my two sisters sitting in the living room looking very serious. The only one missing was Sam, Nora’s longtime partner. Something big was about to go down – I could feel it in the room. Lizzy, my expressive baby sister, was trying to hold the solemnity, but I knew she would be the first to crack.
The questions began almost immediately. Why wasn’t I showing any emotion or taking action to resolve all the messes in my life? How was I tolerating all these personal attacks? Why wasn’t I defending myself? How could I let him call me a no-talent nobody?
I found it all too ridiculous and childish to respond to, so I let them rant while I stayed silent. It did not stop them.
What happened to you?
Lizzy asked through the tears that began falling almost immediately. You used to be the most passionate person I’d ever met. You loved food like most people love sex.
Maybe just how you love sex, Lizzy,
I reminded my