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Until one night in London.
Just two months before graduating from a posh London Ladies college, and while planning her lavish wedding to her childhood sweetheart, Noora is framed by her sister who masterminded a plot to destroy Noora’s happiness.
Believing she has shamed him and in order to preserve his family name, Noora’s father attempts to drown her in an act of “honor killing.” Unbeknownst to him, she survives.
Barely clinging to life, she flees from her father’s mansion and is rescued by a tribe of Bedouins. Still in danger, Noora travels nearly half way around the world in search of sanctuary. All along her path she must hide her true identity, while hoping to return one day and prove her innocence. However, she is relentlessly stalked by her fundamentalist former bodyguard who discovered she is still alive and vows to bring her back to “justice.”
Follow Noora on this remarkable journey of courage and survival against all obstacles.
Light of the Desert shares the moving tale of a Middle Eastern woman’s remarkable journey of survival, courage, and the ultimate act of humanity.
“… A truly inspiring and engrossing novel…”
—Connie Harris, MyShelf.com
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Light of the Desert - Lucette Walters
AL-BALLADI, JORDAN
MARCH 21, 1993
I denounce you!
He grabbed her by the hair, forced her to her knees, and kicked her in the face. He kicked her again. Blood squirted into her eyes, and before she could bring a hand up to protect herself, he kicked her a third time. She heard a cracking sound in her head and her vision blurred.
It had to be a nightmare. She must wake up now! But the horrific experience persisted. She was suffocating.
She tried to get away from him, but he caught her and dragged her down the long corridor by her feet. She heard screams and barely recognized them as her own. Blood from her fingers streaked the marble tiles. Men in gray suits stood like steel posts. She saw the man with the mustache.
The man from London.
She reached out a hand. Help me! But he stood glaring at her, as her father dragged her down the pool steps and rammed her head beneath the water’s surface.
The loving hands that once taught her how to swim were drowning her.
The twenty-one years of her life flashed before her. The same pool sparkled beneath the sun-drenched crystal dome. Her father’s arms were piled with presents. Ten illuminated candles were ready to be blown from her huge pink birthday cake …
Her sister Zaffeera, eight years old, stood at the edge of the pool in her red bathing suit, fists on her hips. It’s my turn to swim now, Father,
her voice echoed from the past. It’s my turn!
Please, God, keep her safe, Noora cried in her heart. For a brief moment, she could see the gold letters of her parents’ initials etched in the marble, on the deep end of the pool. The undulating water turned murky with blood.
Her chest burned as her lungs filled with water. She needed to breathe, she had to breathe now! She had to beg for his mercy, for whatever the cause, she didn’t know.
He pushed her down and would not let go!
If she could just reach the surface—and ask, WHY?
CHAPTER 1
NOORA
JULY 22, 1972
On a desert dawn,
Little light shines on …
Yasmina Fendil rose from her bed, pushed her feet into her handmade baboush leather slippers, and stretched out her pregnant stomach. She had at least four more weeks to go, but she was anxious to hold the baby in her arms. Little Light—she remembered the dream song. She should tell her mother about it, Yasmina thought, making her way to the adjoining room. Most dreams had a message, but those of a pregnant woman had to have special significance.
She opened the door to her mother’s bedroom and peeked inside. Beneath a silver satin comforter, Sultana Marietta, a petite woman in her late fifties, was snoring, her wiry gray hair spread wildly around her pillow.
Yasmina decided to let her mother rest.
The two women’s bedrooms were connected by a nursery. Yasmina looked up at the blue-domed ceiling with painted white clouds and touched the dimmer switch. Tiny specks of stars brightened gently and changed hues as they sparkled overhead.
Yasmina’s son, Nageeb-Gabriel, was asleep. They had recently celebrated his third birthday, yet it didn’t seem so long ago that she was pregnant with him. She watched her firstborn and smiled. He probably had the longest, blackest eyelashes in the Middle East. And he was smart. Inshallah, if God willed, someday he would be an architect and a real estate developer, like his father. Carefully she replaced the blue satin down comforter he had kicked onto the floor. She bent to kiss him, but decided not to risk waking him.
Silently she returned to her bedroom suite and opened the glass doors to her verandah.
Lowering herself on a chaise longue, she sank into the billowy mounds of cushions. She had experienced mild abdominal discomfort during the night, and her ankles were swollen. She propped her legs up on two thick pillows and marveled at the deep, royal blue blanket of sky, dotted by sparkling stars. She inhaled the cool, fragrant air, sweetened by the rose bushes and plumeria trees in the garden below.
She knew that the day before, she had stood in the kitchen longer than she should have. But a good molokhieh took hours to prepare, and she could not disappoint her husband. The tasty spinach-like leaves that grew along the Nile were sent weekly from Egypt to Yasmina’s kitchen. She had chopped the dark green leaves very fine and slow-cooked them in chicken broth seasoned with garlic, onions, coriander, cumin, and other spices fresh from her mother’s herb garden. The mouth-watering aroma that wafted out of her kitchen every Friday drew the entire household, like children to candy.
As the stars faded with the indigo of night, Yasmina tried to remember her dream. She had a strong sense that this baby would not be a boy. The thought of a baby girl made her happy, even though she knew her husband would be disappointed. He wanted Nageeb to have a brother.
She dozed off. When she opened her eyes, she spotted a shooting star. Its brilliance lingered just as the brightening sky announced the sunrise.
A warm liquid flowed out of her. No, this could not be … her water bag? Too soon. The contractions, if that’s what they had been earlier, were mild. Certainly there was no need to worry or alarm anyone. But five minutes later, the next contraction became more painful.
Ummy, Ummeee,
she called out to her mother. No one answered. She began to breathe methodically, the way her mother taught her during the first pregnancy, but at that moment, she could not recall what else she was to do—except beg Allah for the pain to subside. She tried to relax before attempting to reach her mother’s room, but the next cramp was long and acute, and Yasmina couldn’t help but cry out. "Help me, ya Allah!"
Still no one heard. She checked her watch, determined she was not going to panic. Babies didn’t just fall out, she reminded herself. It could take hours. But five minutes later, the cramps returned and they were unbearable. She felt great pressure, as if the baby was pushing down.
She screamed again. The maids were far away, in their living quarters downstairs by the kitchen, on the other side of the mansion, and her mother was still not responding. The only one who would come to her would be her little boy, and she did not want him to see her in such a state. All she could do now was pray.
Ummy … Ummy!
Sure enough, Nageeb stood by the open glass door, holding his favorite blanket.
"Go call Nana. Please … Run, ya ibni; run, my son," Yasmina begged.
Nageeb rushed to his mother, placed his little blanket on her stomach, and ran back inside.
Finally, Sultana emerged on the verandah wearing a long white cotton nightgown, her silver hair matted and in disarray. Her sleepy eyes grew wide when she saw her daughter was about to give birth.
Less than an hour later, Sultana, who—by the mercy of Allah—was a midwife, cut the umbilical cord. Hamdallah!
Yasmina’s mother thanked the Almighty.
At the edge of town, the call to Morning Prayer by the muezzin on the minaret drifted with the desert breeze.
While the maids were busy tending to Yasmina, Sultana raised the baby to the sky. The sun was now above the horizon and cast a golden aura around the baby’s head.
"May her life be as easy as her birth. Allah Akk-barr! she chanted in her raspy voice.
God is great!" She wrapped the baby in a soft, hand-woven receiving blanket and stood fussing and cooing over the bundle.
Praise to Allah. Bless you, Mother. Bless all of you,
Yasmina said to the three maids. Now let me hold my little girl!
She is ugly,
Sultana said, introducing the newborn to her mother.
Yasmina gazed at her beautiful baby, and looked up at her mother. Yes … ugly,
Yasmina agreed, uttering the untruth in order to banish ill luck and envy. "She arrived with noor—light... sunlight. If Farid approves, I would like to name her Noora," Yasmina said.
The maids put a sturdy blanket beneath Yasmina and swiftly carried her to her bed. The brass bassinet that had belonged to Nageeb when he was born was placed nearby. In no time, the housekeepers had changed all the ribbons and bows on the bassinet from blue to pink—except for the mandatory blue bead
encased in a large solid gold medallion that dangled from a gold safety pin. The turquoise gemstone was the traditional protection to ward off evil spirits—afreets—and the dreaded evil eye.
Nageeb, who had been kept away until his mother was ready to receive him, bounced excitedly into her room.
Nageeb,
Yasmina said, hoping he would not be disappointed, you now have a baby sister …
I want to hold her!
He climbed on his mother’s bed and sat close to her.
As he held the baby in his arms, Yasmina said, Promise me you will always take good care of your little sister, my son, and that you will always watch over her.
I promise!
Nageeb said. I will take very good care of my little sister.
He never looked prouder.
When Sultana put the sleeping baby in the bassinet, the infant squirmed and opened her eyes slightly, revealing a flicker of turquoise blue that illuminated between her tiny, fine, dark lashes. Sultana raised the baby’s head a bit more to take a closer look at those eyes. Most newborns had blue eyes, she reminded herself. But her granddaughter’s were pale, more like those of northern Europeans. As far as she knew, everyone in Farid Fendil’s family was Egyptian and had brown eyes. Sultana’s grandmother had said some of their own ancestors who emigrated from Turkey had been beautiful, tall people with eyes shaped like almonds and pale turquoise like the Mediterranean seashores. But Sultana had always believed that the old woman exaggerated when she spoke about their beautiful ancestors.
Yet here was this baby, with those eyes. She hoped they would darken as she grew, because a child with such light eyes could bring envy or jealousy—even attention to the evil eye.
Clad in the traditional gallabeya, Farid Fendil shuffled to his wife’s bedside. The housemaids disappeared silently from the room. He glanced at the baby girl, kissed Yasmina on the cheek, and turned to leave. He stopped at the door, returned to his wife’s bedside, and stood gazing at the infant.
Carefully, he took the baby in his arms. He had just returned from the mosque, and needed to change into a business suit for meetings scheduled back to back in his office until sundown. Yet he did not feel rushed anymore. He took his time admiring the new bundle. He touched her tiny hands.
So soft. Like silk,
he whispered, his eyes mesmerized.
His infant daughter gazed right back at him.
Arusah, ya arusah anah,
he chanted tenderly to his dear child.
Closing his eyes in prayer, he thanked Almighty Allah.
CHAPTER 2
ZAFFEERA
NOVEMBER 8, 1974
Sitting on the cool marble floor near the tall kitchen window, Noora was busy stacking up a tower of copper pans and bowls of all sizes, as high as she could. They eventually tumbled down, making a terrible racket. The toddler frowned in frustration, but persistently kept at it, stacking up each pan, only to watch it all crash again to the floor. Noora’s almond-shaped eyes, shaded by long black lashes, remained a pale turquoise blue. Her thick brown hair already reached down to her shoulders, and every morning, Sultana looked forward to combing her granddaughter’s soft curls. That morning, Sultana did not have the chance to fuss over Noora, because when she checked the calendar, she realized Yasmina was almost a week past her due date. She had to start preparations for the imminent childbirth.
Her tall, broad-shouldered daughter stood by the old wooden board, chopping a mound of molokhieh leaves. Her thick ponytail and curly black hair bobbed up and down as she worked. Farid Fendil had mentioned that he preferred lamb to chicken with his molokhieh, and of course, for Yasmina, nothing could be more important than pleasing her husband. The lamb was already cut up and braising on the stove.
From the beginning of her daughter’s third pregnancy, Sultana worried about Yasmina’s health. During the first months, she had experienced severe morning sickness. As she grew heavier, it was clear that at times, her discomfort became nearly intolerable, yet Yasmina hardly ever complained. Today, her face was more pale and puffy, and her ankles were so swollen, they looked like tree trunks. During the past few months, Yasmina had developed a strong appetite for salty and spicy foods. Sultana had warned her daughter about the dangers of toxemia, but Yasmina could not control her cravings.
Sultana often reminded herself that above all, it was the will of Allah, and Allah had been good to her. Yasmina, in truth, was not a great beauty, and Sultana had worried over her prospects for a good marriage. Her gentle disposition had, hamdallah, attracted a very good husband—a man she could compare to a prince or pasha of every Middle Eastern girl’s dream.
Yasmina had not conceived after almost five years of marriage, and Sultana was aware of gossip starting around town—some families were planning to introduce their daughters to Mr. Fendil. Farid had told his wife he was confident she would eventually give him children and, like his father, he would not take on a second bride. To further show his respect for his wife, he invited her mother to live with them permanently.
Prior to marrying Yasmina, Farid had been a playboy who enjoyed the high life around the world. After their marriage, he continued to travel on business, and undoubtedly engaged young women who provided him with sensual pleasures. When he returned home, however, his arms were always filled with lavish gifts for his wife, and she, in turn, always had a feast prepared for him.
Farid Fendil had grown up in Egypt. During the sixties, as the regime of Gamal Abdel Nasser became more repressive, the young real estate developer had resettled at an oasis in a remote corner of Jordan, where opportunities abounded. Farid Fendil fulfilled his dream of building Al-Balladi, his new homeland,
a modern city of marble and glass buildings, with mansions surrounded by lush gardens.
Sultana knew her son-in-law was especially proud of the mosque he had designed. He had commissioned the best craftsmen to build it. Made entirely of limestone and hand-carved blocks of crushed crystals, the monument sparkled beneath the desert sunlight and cast an opalescent glow under the moon. Admired by princes and traveling dignitaries, Farid’s mosque appeared to be blessed by the Almighty’s hand.
Sultana watched Yasmina, who was vigorously mincing the molokhieh leaves finer and finer. She worked with a crescent-shaped makratah with alabaster handles, the same type used by their Egyptian ancestors. She rocked the sharp blade back and forth at least a hundred times. She could have minced everything in her French food processor in a matter of minutes, but she had to do everything the traditional way—as if her husband would know the difference.
Sultana brought a chair to her daughter. "Bass ba’ah! Enough! At least sit down and take a load off those poor swollen ankles!"
No woman can cook sitting down,
Yasmina said. You’re the one who taught me that, remember?
I taught you many things, but I didn’t teach you to kill yourself fixing a meal. No man is worth that!
I’m almost finished.
Sultana shook an index finger at her daughter. Your pasha can live without his favorite feast for one Friday!
When Yasmina didn’t look up from her work, Sultana noisily pulled the chair back to a corner of the kitchen, plunked herself into it, folded her arms, and stuck out her tongue at her daughter.
The maids stifled their giggles. Sultana usually could cajole her daughter with a little humor, but this time, Yasmina just shook her head and went on with her cooking.
Abdo, Sultana’s adopted son, walked in carrying a wooden box of shoe polish and brushes. He was followed by little Nageeb. Sultana wondered if perhaps she could get Abdo to distract Yasmina on some pretext.
Abdo went to his usual corner in the kitchen near the garden door, sat on a footstool, and pulled up another one for Nageeb. Together they began polishing Farid Fendil’s shoes with a soft, worn cloth. Sultana knew Abdo would have preferred to spit-shine the shoes, the way he did when he was an orphan in Cairo. But Yasmina didn’t like the idea of spit-shining, and Abdo respected her wishes.
Five-year-old Nageeb took pride in helping his Uncle Abdo,
the young man he now preferred to call Big Brother.
Sitting next to Abdo, Nageeb was earnestly making a mess of his hands with polish that matched the shiny black of his thick curls.
Abdo stumbled into the Fendil family by pure chance. Sultana, an experienced midwife, had traveled to a rural village several miles outside of Cairo, to assist a frail young mother in childbirth. Following the birth of twin boys, Sultana—who usually did not charge for her services—left with many gifts of thanks from the family. But the greatest gift of all, one she had never expected to receive that day, was Abdo.
On that memorable day, Sultana had decided to ride back to the train station in an arabeya hantour, the horse-drawn carriage, the preferred Egyptian alternative to taxicabs. When the coachman took a shortcut through an alley, Sultana saw a strong-looking man whipping a frail young boy with his belt. She ordered the driver to stop but he refused.
It is not for us to interfere,
the coachman said, urging his horse away from the scene.
Stop now!
she screamed.
That is his uncle,
the driver said. He owns the biggest shoe store, around the corner. That boy is nothing but a retarded orphan.
Nothing but?
Sultana couldn’t believe her ears. When she saw the boy looking up at his tormentor as if trying to beg forgiveness, her blood began to boil. The child’s pleading eyes were all she needed to see.
As the driver slowed the horse to turn at the next street corner, Sultana jumped out of the carriage and ran back to the alley.
By the time she arrived at the scene, she thought the boy was dead. The man was still lashing at him with his leather belt. The child was not moving. She jumped on the man’s back and grabbed his hair in both fists.
Ibn el kalb!
she screamed, calling him a son of a dog as she yanked his hair. I’ll pluck out every strand of your filthy hair if you don’t stop!
Get off, you hag!
he shouted, apparently shocked that a woman could possibly be attacking him. I’ll have you arrested and thrown in jail. Indecent woman!
When she jumped off, greasy gray hairs were stuck between her fingers. Sultana was so disgusted by the sight, she growled like an angry camel.
The man backed away and hurried to his store, evidently unwilling to tangle with a madwoman.
Sultana lifted the bleeding boy in her arms, while a crowd gathered in the alley. To her surprise, they all cheered.
Abdo never had to see his miserable uncle again. Sultana took him home and nourished him back to health. She later enrolled him in one of the best private schools, and in fact, he proved to be quite an intelligent boy. She knew he would have a bright future; she would make sure of that. But she hoped when it was time for him to marry, he would always stay close to her and Yasmina.
Sultana stood up. Abdo, talk to Yasmina. Tell her she must put her feet up.
Abdo, tell Mother I’m almost done,
Yasmina said.
Abdo looked up sheepishly at Sultana and shrugged his shoulders.
The pans Noora had stacked up high crashed to the floor again. "Come, ya benti ya Noora, Sultana said.
Let’s pick some roses from our garden."
Yes, Mother, that is a good idea,
Yasmina said without looking up from her work. I promise I will have my feet up by the time you return, if you promise to come back with a nice bouquet for tonight’s dinner table.
In the garden, Sultana was delighted by the beautiful choice of flowers that had seemingly bloomed overnight. We’ll pick your mother some of those big, bright peach-yellow roses,
she said. "Okay, ya habibti? But let’s not take too long."
Look, Nana, pretty!
Noora squealed with delight, pointing at a bright red rose, attempting to pick it.
Careful! Don’t touch that one. Too many thorns …
Too late. Noora pricked her index finger and thumb. Blood gushed out of both fingers.
"Ya setti! Um Yasmina! A maid ran out of the kitchen, waving her arms frantically.
It’s Mrs. Fendil! She … she fainted!"
Noora was crying with pain and fear as blood dripped from her fingers to her pink dress.
The maid rushed back inside, screaming, Ya Allah! Ya Allah!
Abdo!
Sultana screamed.
He was already running to Sultana in the garden with Nageeb in tow, and lifted the hysterical little Noora in his arms.
Ya okhti anah!
Nageeb cried to his sister. I fix it, don’t cry. I can make you better!
Abdo whisked the children back through the kitchen and into the house.
Sultana could hear Noora’s cries echoing down the hall when she kneeled to help her daughter, who was lying on the floor. Looking at her closely, she saw a deathly pallor. She felt Yasmina’s pulse. Faint. Telephone that BRITISH HOSPITAL!
Sultana yelled.
The nervous head maid had difficulty dialing the rotary phone with her trembling fingers.
Get them to bring that truck with the red lights!
Sultana implored.
Ambulances were a new development in their town. Sultana hated their flashing lights and shrieking sirens—now she was begging for one.
In the early morning, at the new Al-Balladi Hospital, while Farid Fendil was still trying to figure out if the Koran forbade a cesarean section, Yasmina’s labor pains had become unbearable.
After thirty-two hours of labor, a sheik she had never seen before had summoned a few men from the mosque to sit with Farid and pray for his wife—who was, by that time, begging him to let her die.
Sultana had never experienced such tragedy. Her own daughter! She had successfully assisted in natural childbirths with probably more than a hundred young mothers. It was time to convince her son-in-law to give in to modern medicine and sign the necessary hospital papers. She took him aside and pleaded with him to allow the doctors to perform the surgery. When he still hesitated, she told him she would sign the papers herself. The sheik overheard and told her severely that it was the duty of the husband to consent to anything that had to do with his wife’s medical condition, and not a woman, even if she was the mother.
She ignored the sheik and turned to her son-in-law. If you don’t give the English doctor permission to perform a cesarean section this minute, I will hold you responsible for my daughter’s death, and so will Allah!
The British doctor received permission to perform the surgery.
Later that day, the newborn baby girl was presented to her exhausted mother. Yasmina weakly held her third child to her breast. The scrawny, wrinkled infant finally stopped howling when she locked her gums onto her mother’s nipple, sucking with all her might.
Yasmina wearily watched her baby while Sultana stood nearby and gave silent prayers of thanks to the Almighty for sparing her daughter’s life.
Yasmina spoke to her mother for the first time since the operation. Her voice was low and frail. She has eyes like sapphires … Farid chose the name Zaffeera.
She’s a very strong little girl,
Sultana said. She frowned, wondering if her daughter would be too weak to establish a good motherly connection with that child.
Sultana remembered a disturbing dream she had experienced the night before. She had found herself in the desert, searching for her lost wedding ring, and came upon a wrinkled old woman sitting cross-legged on the ground, in the shade of a date palm. The stranger wore the long, traditional black dress and veil of the desert Fellahin. She looked sharply at Sultana and shook a long, crooked finger. She said something unpleasant, even frightening. When Sultana woke from the dream, she was relieved to find her wedding band still on her finger. But she couldn’t recall what the strange woman had said, except that it sounded like a warning.
Now as she stood by her daughter’s bedside, Sultana remembered. Beware of hidden evil …
the woman said in her dream.
No, Sultana thought, flatly rejecting the superstitions of her ancestors. If a baby was loved and tenderly cared for, that child would no doubt grow up to be loving in return.
She had another serious concern: Farid Fendil. She had yelled at him. In front of that sheik and the other religious men, no less. But didn’t they realize that if Mr. Fendil’s wife had not survived, his young children would have grown up without their mother? Nevertheless, she was sure the sheik would tell Farid to reprimand her—possibly even throw her out of his house. He expected women to remain subservient and never raise their voices in the presence of men. But to her surprise, after the sheik and his entourage finally left the hospital, Farid praised her for her courage and for assisting him in his decision.
Farid and Sultana stayed in the hospital until the doctors assured them Mrs. Fendil was recovering well and would soon regain her strength.
The five-pound baby girl with the powerful lungs was doing quite well too.
But why does the baby cry so much?
Farid inquired in his Egyptian-accented English. Is there something wrong with her?
No,
the doctor replied, smiling. She’s just a very hungry little girl.
CHAPTER 3
THE BETRAYAL
London — March 19, 1993
Dark gray clouds rolled across the London sky as Zaffeera waited in the gusty wind at Kensington Gardens, near the statue of Peter Pan. Her collar up and hands clenched in the pockets of her black cashmere coat, Zaffeera grew impatient. I’m so hungry, I could scream, she thought, biting her bottom lip.
Noora was a half hour late. Midterms were over by eleven o’clock, and the walk from the college was less than twenty minutes.
What the hell was keeping that girl? The line at Hard Rock Café could be stretching halfway around the bloody block by now. Her left eye began twitching nervously.
Nearly everything depended on getting a table by the window, where the bodyguard her father had secretly hired could see them from the street.
She spotted him beyond a field of bright yellow daffodils. He was one of those sleazy, crazy-eyed creeps who gave her people a bad name.
She had known about Moustafa before starting school—probably before he even knew he had the job.
About two weeks before leaving Al-Balladi for college in London, Zaffeera had jumped out of bed after a restless night and decided to take her morning run around the six-acre property of her father’s mansion. Passing through the courtyard near the family’s sixteen-car garage, she spotted her father sitting on a bench beneath the old mango tree. Dressed in the traditional garb which he reserved for prayers at the mosque, her father seemed engaged in a discussion with an older man who was also clad in the traditional gallabeya.
Zaffeera hid behind an archway by a pillar and leaned closer, eager to catch what they were saying.
She recognized the man, known as Sheik Abdullah Kharoub, head caretaker of her father’s mosque.
… sending your daughters to a foreign country alone. It is not done.
Her father defended his daughters, saying they were responsible, and added something about Nageeb, who had been in London studying medicine.
Nageeb will be studying in Cairo now,
the sheik objected. Your daughters must have a bodyguard.
What business was it of his? Zaffeera wondered. Surely her father could handle his own personal affairs. But it looked like he had caved in, saying he would find a chaperone. The sheik insisted no, it had to be a man with the proper training.
Her father nodded patiently, saying he would look into it. She had never seen him meekly acquiesce to someone else’s demands. And what did that sheik mean by proper training?
I have elected Moustafa,
the pompous old sheik said with finality.
Moustafa? Your nephew?
her father asked.
Yes. He is the proper man for the job.
Soon after the girls arrived in London, and on the first day of school, Zaffeera spotted Moustafa, the supposed bodyguard. Proper man for the job?
The man was an imbecile. He was careless and conspicuous. She nicknamed him homar, Arabic for jackass.
She had been tempted to contact the London Metropolitan Police and tell them she and her sister were being stalked by a terrorist type, then dutifully report him to her father. Wouldn’t that embarrass the sheik! But after carefully calculating the situation, Zaffeera realized she could use him.
She noticed sometimes he carried a camera around his neck. She hoped he wore it today, ready to ogle Noora and snap pictures of her. It appeared that Moustafa had been lusting after Noora since the start of the school year. Zaffeera would use his passion to her advantage. Moustafa could provide proof that Noora was not the angelic girl her parents thought she was.
Noora was so engrossed in planning her wedding, so absorbed in herself, Zaffeera was convinced that her sister never noticed the homar. Her strategy would be that much easier to carry out if Noora didn’t know someone from home was watching.
Zaffeera hugged herself and began to pace. In the distance, she could see Moustafa standing behind a bench near the pond, where children were tossing pieces of bread to a family of ducks. She slowed her pace, adjusted her huge Christian Dior sunglasses, and pulled down the rim of her hat so that she could observe Moustafa unobtrusively. He should be searching for Noora, but now his binoculars appeared to be directed at her. Kids were squealing with laughter as they tried to climb on the statue of Peter Pan. Zaffeera smiled for Moustafa’s benefit, as if she enjoyed their shrieking. I’ll show him something to make his eyes pop out. Where the hell is that Noora?!
Now in her senior year at the LLC,
the London Ladies’ College, Noora sat in the last row of the empty classroom. She was embarrassed by the loud rumbling of her stomach. When the alarm rang at six o’clock that morning, she made the mistake of pressing the off
button instead of the snooze,
and letting her head fall back on her pillow. She could not be tardy today. If it hadn’t been for her sister, who came to her rescue by pulling her out of bed and starting her shower, Noora would definitely have missed the first-period exam. There had been no time for breakfast, and now, hours later, she was weak from hunger.
Her classmates finished their compositions and hurried out of the room the instant the bell rang. Noora kept finding weaknesses in the story she had written, and hesitated to turn it in. She found at least three misspelled words, and she knew Dr. Pennington did not tolerate errors. How many more misspelled words did she overlook? She could not take the time to proofread her work and check the dictionary. How archaic, Noora thought, especially now that computers had spell-check. Nevertheless, the school insisted on perfect spelling, perfect grammar, and perfect punctuation. It was hopeless.
To think, she had once fancied herself a writer, and had even dreamed of publishing a book of short stories in English. How pathetic. She sighed resignedly.
Her midterm assignment was to write a dramatic story, set during an important period in history. Noora chose to write a love story about a young couple separated during World War II, who found each other years later in Paris. Writing it had been a struggle. It was hard to focus on schoolwork—she couldn’t stop thinking about her handsome Michel, their upcoming wedding, and most of all, their honeymoon.
She glanced at her watch and gasped. She remembered that her sister was waiting for her. Noora grabbed her overstuffed black leather backpack and hurried to the professor’s desk, handing over her pages.
Dr. Pennington looked up from her pile of student manuscripts and put Noora’s pages on top. A small, mousy woman in her sixties, she pushed her bifocals against her nose.
I am looking forward to reading your composition, Miss Fendil,
Dr. Pennington said, rising from her century-old desk.
She’ll be disappointed, Noora thought.
You have such a refreshing way with words,
her professor said. She walked up to Noora and put an arm around her shoulder. Always trust your imagination. You are a good storyteller.
Thank you,
Noora said, blushing. She was as surprised by the unexpected gesture of affection as by the fragrance of Je Reviens perfume, mixed with musty old wool, that emanated from her teacher.
Miss Fendil?
Dr. Pennington called as Noora hurried to the door.
She turned, anxious to be on her way. Her sister was waiting out in the cold. Yes, Dr. Pennington?
Have a nice vacation, and good luck!
Why did she have to say good luck? Noora wondered as she rushed through the deserted, bleach-smelling hallway. Didn’t she know it was bad luck to say good luck?
Tucked away amid a row of brownstones, the dark and dreary gray façade of the international school screamed for a facelift, but no modernization was contemplated. The unpretentious building was the perfect mask to discourage unwanted visitors, and one of the many reasons the school had remained a favorite among the very wealthy and the very private since it was founded in 1935.
The atmosphere seemed eerie now, without the usual resounding footsteps and the echo of female voices trailing through the halls.
As Noora exited through the heavy steel double doors, the wind slapped her flushed cheeks. Overhead, pink buds were beginning to burst open on the branches of the cherry trees lining the street. When she returned from her vacation, those trees would probably be covered with pink blossoms that would fill the air with their fragrance—some consolation, she supposed, for having to finish the term. Graduation was two and a half months away, and her marriage to Michel still an interminable three months and twenty-one days away! Noora could not stop dreaming of that moment when she would finally be in Michel’s arms. Honeymoon in Venice. Her entire body tingled at the thought.
She had wanted to attend the college mostly because she would be near her brother, Nageeb, who had been studying medicine at the university just around the corner from the LLC. Nageeb always managed to take time from his busy schedule and dine with her on weekends. He also helped her with her studies.
Her fiancé was studying architecture in Paris. Though she was not allowed to see her future husband alone during the school term, Michel was able to fly to London for brief visits on weekends, always accompanied by his father. However, during his last year of architectural school, Michel had been too busy to travel. Still, it was consoling to know that Paris was not far from London.
Rushing up the sidewalk on her way to meet Zaffeera in the park, Noora passed a quaint bakery specializing in French pastries. Her mouth watered at the sight of huge, gooey Napoleons; but the shop was crowded, and she was really late. Something else in the window caught her eye: a crystal dish overflowing with white candied almonds—a sweet treat that she had loved since childhood. It reminded her of a wedding that was never far from her thoughts.
She was fifteen years old at the time. She remembered at least three hundred guests mingled at the lavish reception, near King Farouk’s former summer palace, in the lush gardens of Montaza, in Alexandria. Noora would never forget the young bride who stood like a princess in a radiant white silk brocade gown. A violinist wandered through the crowd, playing Jacques Brel’s classic, If You Go Away …
A big-band orchestra curtain suddenly lifted, surprising and delighting all the guests. Couples began to dance.
Noora stood next to her father by the huge atrium. Bridesmaids in pink tulle dresses handed each guest an elegant little crystal dish filled with white candied almonds wrapped in white tulle that puffed out like a fan—a gift from the bride and her groom. At that moment, a distinguished man about her father’s age walked up to her father, and the two began to converse. Noora was admiring the heart-shaped crystal candy dish when she looked up and saw him. Dressed in a perfectly tailored tuxedo, he stood beside the man—obviously his father. When her eyes met the boy’s deep-set green eyes, something so powerful passed between them, it seemed supernatural. To Noora’s surprise, their fathers invited the young pair to dance together. The moment Michel put his arm around her waist, an electrical current ran through her body …
Careful!
someone yelled behind her as a black London cab made a sharp turn, brushing Noora’s coat and jolting her out of her daydream, slamming her back to the present.
You almost got yourself killed! You have to live in the moment and stop being distracted! Noora reminded herself.
There was no traffic light at the intersection, and cars were not giving her the right of way. She managed to dart across the street, nearly getting hit. The rain had stopped.
In the distance, she spotted her sister. Standing alone in the park, Zaffeera seemed so small and frail, with that floppy black hat that reached down to her too-large-for-her-face sunglasses. Why did she want to meet her out there in the cold, when they would also have to wait outside the busy Hard Rock Café? Noora wondered. They could have met in that warm and cozy country French restaurant, with the little windows covered by lacy curtains, on Bayswater Road.
Forgive me for being late,
Noora huffed in Arabic, trying to catch her breath.
You forgot all about me!
Zaffeera snapped in English.
Please, Zee,
Noora said in English. I’m really sorry. I would never forget you…
Zaffeera turned away to fold her Burberry umbrella and shake off the droplets of rain.
I hope you didn’t get here exactly at eleven o’clock!
Noora said, feeling guilty.
I did.
Oh, goodness, I apologize! Profusely.
Let’s go before the line gets longer.
Hurrying to the end of the park, they left through the black wrought iron gates and crossed the street.
Luckily, only a handful of people were standing outside the Hard Rock Café.
Look, there’s hardly a line,
Noora said.
Zaffeera hated to be proven wrong, but masked her annoyance. She worried that someone would take that particular booth by the window. It was crucial that Moustafa saw them from outside, so he could easily follow them when they left the restaurant.
That morning, Zaffeera finished her exams effortlessly. The year before, she had requested—in a handwritten letter addressed to her father and mother—the honor
of following her older sister’s example and attending the LLC. Zaffeera knew her parents had been pleased with her decision.
Zaffeera prided herself on the knowledge that she was much smarter than her sister. But while she was blessed with brains, Noora was blessed with an unusual and beautiful color of eyes—pale turquoise—a rare phenomenon, especially in their Middle Eastern world. She was also blessed with a great, lean body. But worst of all, Noora had Michel.
Three inches shorter than her sister, Zaffeera had small breasts and large hips, and she always had to watch her weight. She liked her Egyptian brown eyes, especially when she accentuated them with makeup, but she needed prescription lenses. Her lips were actually her best feature—full and voluptuous. She especially enjoyed applying gleaming red lipstick, one of her evening rituals. She liked to stare at her lips in the mirror and she imagined being kissed. By him. Michel. My darling Michel. I ache for your body; I wish she’d go to hell.
He was meant for her and Noora stole him away …
Zaffeera would never forget the first time she saw Michel—at a wedding in Alexandria, where her family spent most of their summer vacations.
Playing hopscotch in the garden with her little brother Kettayef, Zaffeera rapidly grew bored and went to the atrium, where the reception took place. As she stood by the entrance, praying that her father would finally signal the family that it was time to leave, she grabbed a glass of almond water from a passing serving tray. She nearly choked on the first sip when he walked in. The vision of Prince Charming just out of a fairy tale appeared right in front of her—in the flesh. Keeping a safe distance, she began to follow him around the reception area. A distinguished man, who had to be Prince Charming’s father, accompanied him. Suddenly, the young man looked over his shoulder and saw her. Quickly she turned away, and as she did, she clumsily knocked a tray full of champagne glasses out of the hands of a white-jacketed server. Everything went splashing onto the floor. Zaffeera never felt more humiliated. While servants rushed to clean up the mess, a very flustered Zaffeera ran from the scene and out of the glass french doors, into the garden. She tripped and fell, luckily landing on the grass.
Are you all right?
she heard someone say behind her, and a strong hand helped her up. To her horror, it was the young man. She thought she would surely faint, but he smiled at her. It was a warm, compassionate smile. He pulled out his white handkerchief and brushed away some dirt from her cheek.
I hope you are not hurt,
he said.
I’m all right,
she managed to utter. A whiff of his lemony, lightly sweet cologne mixed with fresh soap enveloped her.
Thank you, I am fine,
she said, never feeling more stupid.
Gently, he rested his deep green eyes on her, and during that brief moment, her heart skipped a few beats, and for the first time, she understood what they meant in French books by the coup de foudre. Two people met, and something struck like lightning, transporting them into a captivating feeling called True Love.
That man with the tray was not careful …
Prince Charming said, and Zaffeera noticed he had a brilliant set of white teeth—like perfect porcelain.
Blood rushed to the tips of her ears, and she prayed he did not notice her blushing. But he was a gentleman, and he had to be attracted to her as well. Why else would he go after her and follow her all the way to the garden?
May I bring you some water?
he asked.
All she remembered saying was, No, I’m fine, really …
He glanced over his shoulder, turned back to her, and said, Excuse me, I’m being called.
She watched him walk away, and she nearly melted right there on the grass. She was only thirteen and a half years old. Even then, she felt the rush of desire to dance close to him. She even wished she could kiss him. She realized that she hadn’t even had the presence of mind to ask his name. And she did not tell him hers. She had to regain some composure before she could properly introduce herself. She ran to the ladies’ room. Her cheeks were burning hot. She splashed cool water, fluffed up her hair, and tightened the bow of her organza blue dress to give herself a thinner waistline. She locked herself in a stall and breathed deeply to regain control of herself.
When she returned to the ballroom in search of the handsome lad, she could not find him in the crowd of guests. Twenty long, anxious minutes later, with her heart sinking at the thought that he had left and she might never see him again, she spotted him—on the crowded floor, dancing with Noora! His eyes were on her and his arm circled her waist. But worse, Michel’s father was conversing with her father while keeping a watchful eye on their children. The men smiled at one another, nodding with that awful, knowing look. Zaffeera understood the obvious: a future marriage—and a possible new business union for both fathers, as the result.
She wanted to tear Noora to pieces. Even if Noora was a little older, Zaffeera had met him first. She knew he liked her, before her father pushed him onto Noora. Always Noora before her. She stood in the shadow of a pillar, desperately trying to control her pain.
She kept her anger bottled up for almost six years. She was determined not to let that wedding take place. She would find a way, somehow, someday, to get Michel to fall in love with her. No matter what it took … No matter what.
… No matter what!
Noora’s voice barged into Zaffeera’s reverie, jolting her back to the present.
What?
Zaffeera asked.
Pardon?
Noora turned to Zaffeera.
No matter what, what?
Zaffeera asked, annoyed. What were you saying just now?
You didn’t hear me?
I heard you,
Zaffeera sighed. She didn’t really want Noora to repeat whatever she was saying. Always the same, always about herself.
I said I don’t think I did well on my story.
Oh, right. Don’t worry.
I’m just not going to.
Behind Noora, Zaffeera caught a glimpse of Moustafa walking toward the restaurant on the opposite side of the street.
What does she expect?
Noora continued. Two hours to write a story. It’s crazy. Insane. Impossible.
I thought you said she gave you the assignment last week.
Actually, she gave us a week to think about it. That still isn’t enough time to write a story … in three scenes. Life is not in three scenes!
You mean three acts.
"Writers take years. It took Margaret Mitchell ten years to write Gone with the Wind. You know that? She didn’t wait for a reply.
I’m not talking about a novel here, but you’d think she’d give us more time …"
Noora’s endless complaints grated on Zaffeera’s nerves. Only five more minutes, and that sexy American with the California surfer-boy blond hair would appear behind the double-glass entrance to unlock the doors. The line was now stretching around the bloody building.
How were your exams?
Noora asked.
Moustafa had disappeared. Where the hell is that idiot?
Zee? How were your exams?
Zaffeera turned away from her sister and fiddled with her umbrella. She tucked it under her arm. I’d rather not talk about it.
I’m sorry. Was it grueling for you too?
No, it was not grueling at all,
Zaffeera said, trying to keep calm. We had a simple quiz. I didn’t mean to sound short. I’m just hungry.
Sorry … I’m famished. They should open the doors any minute now.
Zaffeera dug in her latest spring fashion Louis Vuitton bag and produced a box of Altoids. Here. Have one.
Not those mint bombs,
Noora said.
These are different. Take this one. They help ease starvation,
Zaffeera said, almost shoving the mint in her sister’s mouth.
Noora chewed. They taste weird.
"Weird?
Well, different. A little bitter …
That’s because they’re new. And improved. This new brand also freshens and kills bacteria. And …
Zaffeera stopped. She shouldn’t sound too eager to sell the mints.
Malibu Boy finally appeared behind the glass doors with his ring of jingling keys. Immediately, the line began to move inside. Zaffeera breathed in the warmth of the restaurant and looked forward to the mouthwatering whiff of charcoal-broiled burgers.
She guided Noora to the booth by the window. Elvis Presley’s familiar thunderous voice boomed through the loudspeakers. It’s now or never …
Noora tried to flag down a waitress. A bubbly, gum-chewing server with a fiery eighties hairdo bounced in. Minutes later, she returned. Didn’t I just fill ‘em, girls?
she asked, pouring ice water into the already emptied Coca-Cola-shaped glasses. Where’re you girls from? The Sahara?
She pronounced it Sa-hair-ah.
Noora laughed. Actually, we’re not that far from there.
The waitress sauntered off to the next booth while Zaffeera glared at her. She leaned across the table and whispered loud enough for Noora’s ears, You don’t have to tell everyone our business.
Sorry,
Noora said. I think it went right over her Madonna hairdo,
she giggled, lifting her glass. To your health. And good grades!
She gulped down her second glass of water.
Zaffeera watched her sister and wondered how long it would be before the pill Noora thought was a mint took effect.
Preferring to eat something that had not endured the trauma of being slaughtered, Noora ordered a veggie burger. She was bothered by the undercooked meat Zaffeera always ordered.
Twenty minutes later, their order arrived. Noora looked away as Zaffeera hungrily devoured her bloody-rare hamburger. She spotted that man again—across the street. She had seen him before; she could swear he was watching them, even though he seemed to be waiting for the bus as he stood at the curb next to a lamppost. Noora was about to mention him to Zaffeera, but decided against it. No need to alarm her unnecessarily, she thought. It was probably just her imagination.
Noora’s double-chocolate shake arrived with a slice of hot apple pie for Zaffeera. After a quick sip through the straw, Noora wrinkled her nose.
I don’t understand why Americans have to salt their desserts.
Many dessert recipes call for a pinch of salt. It’s to bring out the taste,
Zaffeera said.
I think that entire pinch of salt wound up in my one serving!
Noora said with a chuckle.
I’ll go pay the bill,
Zaffeera said.
But you haven’t touched your dessert.
I’m full. You can try my pie. Maybe they didn’t salt that.
Zaffeera took her wallet out of her purse. Be back in a few. Wait for me here.
Noora tasted the apple pie, and turned to the window. The man was still out there across the street, and he spat on the sidewalk.
Noora recoiled with disgust. The bus stopped in front of the man and barred her view. She pushed the plate of apple pie away.
Are you still working on that?
Noora looked up. A yellow-haired busboy stood holding a stack of dirty dishes. No, I’m finished. Thank you.
You didn’t like the pie?
Yes, well, actually …
Tastes better a la mode, right?
he winked.
Noora laughed. Well … perhaps.
If you like, we can get you a vanilla scoop. One scoop of chocolate and one vanilla would be even better. We also now have pistachio. You like pistachio?
I sure do, but no, no, that’ll be fine, really.
We also have the yummiest chocolate cake. Decadent. Deadly!
Really?
One of the customers here called it the Suicide Cake. That’s ‘cause once she tried one bite, she wound up eating the whole thing. Most people do! It’s really heavenly.
He winked again.
Well … I’m kind of full. But thank you very much, indeed.
Hey, no prob. If you need anything else, holler. That’s what we’re here for, okay?
Thank you!
Noora said with a broad smile.
Moustafa spat again. The girl was flirting! A tease, she was. If he had not seen her with his own eyes, he would never have believed it. She was spoken for. That waiter in the restaurant was raping her with his eyes. Probably because she was taunting him with that smile of hers. Since last September, from the moment he laid eyes on her, Moustafa felt deeply attracted. Watching her, day after day, made him more and more frustrated. But he could only do his job. He was there for one purpose: to protect Mr. Fendil’s daughters. He was an honorable man.
Inside the Hard Rock Café, Noora ventured a quick glance out the window, hoping the man had hopped on the bus. But the bus left and he was still there. He turned away and lit a cigarette. A sudden shiver ran through her. She grabbed her backpack and hurried to the cashier’s desk.
Zaffeera was gone. Noora searched for her in the ladies’ room, but she wasn’t there, so Noora made her way to the exit. She leaned against the glass door for a moment to steady herself. She felt dizzy—not exactly sick, but lightheaded. Something in that chocolate shake did not agree with her. Perhaps she just ate too fast. I hope I’m not catching the grippe, she thought, chiding herself for not taking her daily vitamins. Behind her, she heard a couple of teenagers say to their friends, Let’s visit their logo shop around the corner.
The logo shop? Oh yes, Noora remembered. The restaurant had a gift shop, and Zaffeera had mentioned something about buying presents. She glanced across the street before venturing outside. Her heart was pounding faster now. She tried to calm down. Why was she feeling out of control? Thank goodness that man was not there. He must have taken another bus. How silly to imagine he was watching her. But where was Zaffeera? She walked around the corner and found the café’s gift shop.
Inside, Zaffeera stood in line, studying a legal-sized piece of paper.
Hamdallah,
Noora said, relieved. Why didn’t you wait for me?
she asked in Arabic.
"Noora, English," Zaffeera whispered, giving her sister a reproachful stare.
What’s the difference? They’re all tourists here.
We’re in England. We speak English.
Okay! You don’t have to be so stiff about it. We should be proud of who we are.
That has nothing to do with it. Why didn’t you wait for me in the restaurant?
I finished eating,
Noora said.
You could not have finished that pie so fast. You didn’t like it.
No, I … okay, I didn’t like it. Why didn’t you tell me you were here?
Are you all right?
Well … yes … I’m fine, now. Is that a list you made for gifts?
Noora asked, looking down over Zaffeera’s shoulder.
Zaffeera nodded toward a pile of gifts she had stacked on the counter by the cashier. Keychains and little souvenirs for the maids … I found that leather jacket … and T-shirts. You should’ve waited for me in the restaurant.
I’m sorry; I was worried about you.
Why?
she asked, inspecting the price of the leather jacket, and raising an eyebrow.
You’re my sister. That’s why. I’m responsible for you … Besides, don’t you want me to choose presents with you?
Of course. This jacket will look great on Nageeb, don’t you think?
Oh, yes. You’re amazing. I worried we wouldn’t have time to find gifts for everyone, and here you are. With a complete typed list. Nageeb will love that jacket. As for little brother, you know he doesn’t like to wear T-shirts.
Zaffeera smirked. And we don’t like those ugly striped pajamas our little Kettayef always wears around the house.
Noora laughed. What about Shamsah? Sweet little sunshiny Shammoo-sah …
Noora sang. She gave a quick glance out the window. That man was nowhere in sight, and indeed, she had been foolish. How silly of her to have imagined she was being followed. But she still felt a little unsteady.
For Shamsah, I found this,
Zaffeera said, inspecting a little denim top with white lace.
But that looks more like for a seven-year-old. She’s nine.
I know. But it looks like it’s her size. She’s small,
Zaffeera remarked. I don’t think she grew too much since the winter holiday.
Three months ago. Last time we saw her … Three whole months … Seems like forever,
Noora said, almost to herself.
Zaffeera walked out of the store carrying large shopping bags.
Let me help you,
Noora said in Arabic, following her sister.
Once again, Noora,
she chided, we are in England.
Yes, and we’ve been speaking British for months now. It would be nice to switch to our mother’s tongue for a bit. What’s the big deal?
We can do that tomorrow when we land,
Zaffeera said.
"Oh, all right, ya okhti … When in Rome, do like the British! she said, exaggerating a British accent. She skipped along the sidewalk. Suddenly, for some reason, she felt like playing hopscotch or doing something fun and silly.
Sweet little Shamsah, I can’t wait to squeeze her little cheeks! Noora said, glad she didn’t feel dizzy anymore.
Laugh a little, Zee. You are always so serious."
I’m not serious, I’m just angry! You bloody fool! Zaffeera wanted to shout. But it was essential to control her feelings, Zaffeera thought, stopping at the edge of a stoplight. And now there were no taxicabs for hire. Of course, they were never around when the weather turned miserable. Behind the lamppost across the street, she recognized Moustafa in his black rumpled trench coat. He was trying to light a cigarette with matches that would not catch in the cold drizzle. He would strike one again and again without success. Over and over, he repeated the nonsense. Why didn’t the homar use a lighter? He should be paying attention, starting to wonder about Noora’s silly behavior.
Quickly, Zaffeera turned and quickened her step.
Why won’t you let me help you with the bags?
Noora asked.
I’m fine. And, guess what? Today is your day.
What? Don’t walk so fast …
I said today is your day! Because anyone who has to look at old-maid Margaret Pennington every day deserves a break, if not a medal,
Zaffeera remarked, slowing down a bit.
You know, she actually put her arm around me and gave me a compliment this morning.
I knew the old woman was a lesbian,
Zaffeera