My Undoing: An Inquiry into the Deconstruction of the Self
By Ed Geraty
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Ed Geraty
Rev. Ed Geraty LCSW-C is a psychotherapist in private practice, providing individual and group transformational therapy, coaching, and meditation instruction. He is also an ordained interspiritual minister and founder of the Universalus Interspiritual Community and the Baltimore Insight Meditation group in Baltimore, Maryland. When not facilitating transformational work and ministering, he blogs on his non-dual blog, Not2, at www.Not2blog.com.
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My Undoing - Ed Geraty
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Table of Contents
Foreword
Introduction
Chapter I: What We Generally Believe.
Chapter II: The Next Chapter; KNOWING and the Ego
Chapter III: Another Chapter; What We Can Choose to Perceive.
Chapter IV: And Yet, Another Chapter; Are We More Than Our Thoughts, Emotions, Body Sensations, and Reactions?
Chapter V: Who am I?
Chapter VI: The Following Chapter; A Process for Undoing.
Chapter VII: The Chapter After the Last One; Some Experiences in Awareness that you May be Having Now, or Later.
Chapter VIII: The Rough Chapter, Ego Death.
Chapter IX: We’re On a Roll Now, What Does All This Mean??
Chapter X: This is Good to Know; We Are Not Alone.
Prologue: Apparently the last chapter was not really the End
.
For Further Inquiry; Do Some Further Inquiry, It’ll Be Good For Ya.
About the Author
DISCLAIMER
This book contains graphic spiritual and philosophical content and should not be read by those who are faint of heart of squeamish of stomach. It may cause radical shifts and possible annihilation of your complete perception of reality.
Actually it is specifically written for those who are faint of heart or squeamish of stomach. E.G.
If you will be understanding this book from a dualistic perspective (either this
, or that
) then you may determine it to be either the ramblings of an insane person, or a deeply insightful philosophical and experiential inquiry into the nature of the Self.
If you will be understanding this book from a non-dual perspective (neither this, nor
that") then both of the above determinations possibly are true.
It is also suggested that you read this book in small pieces so as not to overwhelm the Ego with too much too quickly. Overwhelming the Ego with too much Truth too quickly can get messy.
Dedication
I would like to dedicate this book to all of us who are in this process
of undoing; becoming aware that our limited Ego state of separateness is, in actuality, non-existent.
There is no real process
just a continual and hopefully deepening awareness that we are not who we thought we were, as we more fully enter into the experience of who we really are.
To all of us in this sometimes fleeting state of awareness, I salute our courage to know the Truth.
Foreword
From the Readers
At the end of doing
that is that. If the self is backed into a corner (successfully calling into question its separateness), it will be in crisis. Then something has to happen. Maybe in some that will be surrender. I think reading this book may well back some selves into corners.
Reading this book
is like a giant ball of multi-colored yarn. You begin to unravel it slowly and by the time you get to the end of the yarn there is just you
hanging on to a small thread.
This book is a valiant attempt to explain the ineffable. The author’s ability to draw from both modern and ancient sources to weave together a workable
deconstruction of the Self is both timely and deeply insightful.
Having read this book I can only say it brought me to a realization about the workings of the Ego which I had never known. It has made my life less of a drama, or at least I am aware when I am creating the drama and I am able to observe it rather than fully engage in it.
Words always fail to express
what is inexpressible. Words
approach it and then fall
backwards. Additional words fail
again..
Words create ideas;
numerous words produce
numerous ideas.
You believe you were born into
this world. It is not so..
We each create a world for
ourselves. You inhabit it, and
find it unrewarding.
Your world is filled with wants,
aversions, fears and plans to
avoid fear.
Don’t you see this is your private
world? It is just in your mind.
Once you see that this is insane;
you are beginning to be free of it.
Daoist Philosopher
300 BC
Introduction
I hate books that start off with a long introduction that usually includes an autobiography of how the author got from there
to here
wherever that here
might be. The truth seems to be that it does not matter in the least where the author was in the beginning
.
There is no beginning, no ending, and no arriving! Somehow this description of the author’s journey to Enlightenment, or Awareness, or whatever you want to call it, always seems to me to be more about the authors Ego than the Awareness.
So I generally find the introduction boring and self-serving, and go right to the main course of the book.
It doesn’t matter at all what my childhood experiences may have been, nor does it matter what my journey was up until this point. It doesn’t matter what I do for a living, or what my current life situation is. All that matters (to me at least) is what I call my Undoing.
I hope you have this Undoing experience as well, although it may seem quite scary. Many people talk about this experience beginning to occur after a major loss in life, a time where what they thought offered them some type of security suddenly was gone.
Sometimes this experience begins spontaneously without any observable precipitating factors. Sometimes it begins when someone is involved in some type of altered states experience like yoga, or meditation, or other contemplative spiritual practice.
Throughout the ancient writings of the various spiritual traditions this Undoing is identified in many ways. Advaita Vedanta, the Kabbalah, the Buddhist emptiness teachings, Gnostic Christianity, and modern non-dual teachers like Eckhart Tolle, Rupert Spira and others all point to this experience of undoing, this experience in which awareness arises and you know you are not your body-mind Ego state.
You are aware that who you thought you were is not who you are. You are aware that what you thought was reality
isn’t. You are aware you don’t really have a past or a future. You are aware that there is simply what is happening now, right this minute. You are aware that labels for